Diary of a Fat Chick

Do You Remember When...

2010-11-08T16:54:00.000-08:00

You first realized you got fat? I remember knowing I was gaining weight, but still didn't consider myself fat. I just wore looser clothes, no biggie, right?

But the minute I tried to put on some thigh-highs and they wouldn't go past my knees, THAT'S when I knew. I was devastated! I had never had a scale in my home, so I had no idea I had gained that much weight. And then it was all downhill from there.

I had to start buying larger clothes. Several sizes larger. And then a few years later, I had to buy even bigger clothes! Even my "fat clothes" didn't fit anymore! Eventually I had to go to the doctor and I was shocked to find out I weighed 200 pounds! That's when I started REALLY looking at my body, and when I finally opened my eyes I could see the fat everywhere...my knees, my back, my arms, my face. I knew I was fat in the tummy, but refused to see it anywhere else. But when your boobs START underneath your arm pits, well...THERE'S YOUR SIGN!

Wow, it's really been that long?

2010-10-31T12:41:00.000-07:00

I have been extremely computer unfriendly the last several months, but I didn't realize my last post was so long ago! Yikes! Sorry to all those faithful followers of mine. I am planning to post at the minimum once a week from here on out, hopefully more.

Oh, and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Rolly-Polly Me

2010-04-29T20:56:00.000-07:00

Ok, I am not as big as I used to be. But I remember being pretty fat, and I remember people asking if I was pregnant when I weighed 175. Then when I gained more, I never got that reaction again, cuz when I first gained weight, it was all in my tummy. Then it arrived in my face, my arms, etc.

And considering my height, when I was at my heaviest I looked a lot bigger than I should have. My largest size was 20, and my top weight was 205. I am now a size 16, which is more than double when I weighed 135. Only 35 pounds lighter than I am today. Most people do not lose 7 sizes with 35 pounds. Everyone looks different and because I have no muscle, my weight is more fat than anything else.

So yes, I was definitely a rolly-polly. If I had the nerve I would post a pic of my belly today, but I am too embarrassed by the "overhang."

I am still a "rolly-polly" but I am learning to live with it. I would rather be healthy than skinny. Follow my health journey at my blog "My Health Quest" @ http://jhhealthquest.blogspot.com/

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

2010-04-25T20:44:00.000-07:00

I have weighed more than my husband for over ten years. He is 6'3" and I am 5'6". So he has 9 inches on me! AND he's a man! He has weighed (give or take) about 176 since high school (he is 54 now.) When I realized I lost twenty pounds in the hospital a few months ago, I was ecstatic! I FINALLY weighed less than him! YAY!

But then he had to go and get sick this month, and he lost 20 pounds in 3 weeks.
So now he only weighs about 156, and even though I lost weight, he now still weighs less than me. WHAT THE HECK? Is this karma? I am NOT happy he lost weight due to sickness, please understand. And OMG, he's 6'3" and at that height 176 pounds is a skinny minny! Can you imagine 156?

But it's like no matter what, I am gonna be his fat wife. Even if I lose weight, something happens to keep his weight under mine. Selfish me, narcissistic me, conceited me...I'm sorry, but I don't want to weigh more than my husband, and I want him to be at a healthy weight!

Ok, so I'm whining. I don't think he looks any different, but he says his butt is so small, it hurts to sit! So in all earnestness, I want him to be heavier than me so that he can sit comfortably. (Did I talk you into believing that?)

Here's My Beef

2010-04-24T12:55:00.000-07:00

I must admit it, I am a die hard fan of the show "The Biggest Loser." Guilty pleasures and all that. But I have a big issue...

Most of the women on that show's goal weight is what I weigh now. So why do their bodies look so much better than mine?

Granted, those people become athletes, and have much more muscle than I do, and since muscle weighs more than fat, we don't have the same fat content.

But still, it can be so discouraging at times! I can rationalize it all I want, and I can tell myself "I weigh LESS than that, so I must look that good", but the mirror just laughs at me. I can't run, I can't hide, I look the way I do.

My son said to me when I was watching the show one time "Mom, why don't you go on that show?" And I replied "I don't think I weigh enough." And he looked at me and said "EXACTLY!"

Gotta love your kids!

To all my loyal readers and followers...

2010-04-22T20:46:00.000-07:00

Sorry I have been gone so long...

About 3 weeks ago hubby got really sick, then gave it to me about a week later. Last Monday I went for a followup appointment at my doctor re: my BP and cholesterol. When I got there my oxygen was 89%, and he had me walk around hooked up to the monitor and it dropped to 83% and my pulse was 110. He sent me to the ER and I was admitted to the hospital. I was discharged yesterday. The last question my ER doc asked me was "If you quit breathing, do you want us to take heroic measures to keep you alive?"

I am only 49...that question scared the CRAP out of me. So I really need to change my ways.

Also, at my insistence, Hubby also went to the doc on Monday cuz I told him it was unnatural to be that sick for three weeks. Turns out he had an infection that spread throughout his body. His BP was 103/65. He was also admitted to the hospital and was released today.

I have always said I would die before him, but now I'm not so sure.

Looks like our lives of hard and fast living are catching up to us.

But now that I am better I will be posting again. If you would like to follow my progress on improving my health, you can do so here @ My Health Quest.

This is WAY too cute!

2010-04-11T18:55:00.000-07:00

Ok, I just HAD to re-post this. One of my newer followers is Shannon and you can find her blog "Faith Hope & Love" here (be sure to check it out!) But her daughter also has a blog "Molly's World", and that one can be found here. So check out hers, too. She hasn't posted much, but it's cute.

Anyway, one of her posts fits this blog perfectly, so in the spirit of sharing (NOT stealing content) I am re-posting one of Molly's posts (once again...can be found here.) This was just too cute to wonder if anyone might not want to click on the link.

Shannon, if you find exception to this, please let me know and I will remove it!

I'm too fat!

Darn I'm too fat to scratch my own patootie! I guess I'm going to have to go on a diet!

Have you ever had one of those days where you get an itch on your foot and you're too big to reach it because your stomach gets in the way? Personally I have never had one of those days but I have had one of those where the itch never goes away! It's not very fun!!! ~~Written by Molly~~

Announcement: PLEASE READ and respond!

2010-04-10T22:31:00.000-07:00

I am officially now getting random spam comments. And most of them are sex related. Do you get these? Thank goodness for comment moderation!

Right after I posted this I read this: http://mrsfligs.blogspot.com/2009/04/goldilocks-and-three-bloggers.html

It has a LOT of great advice when it comes to making your blog "load friendly" but advocates not using comment moderation. After all of the spam comments I have received it begs I ask this question: Does anyone know of a good spam blocker for comments? Because she also reminds us we can read and reply to comments via e-mail. I would prefer that rather than moderate comments.

ALSO...what is up with peeps commenting that they are following when they're not? (This is happening more so at my other blog "What's a Mom to Do?" @ http://whatdoesamomdo.blogspot.com/ (check it out if you haven't already!)

Anyway, visit my blog, follow if you want, or don't, but please don't tell me you are when your're not! It's NOT that hard to figure out on my end! Please don't insult my intelligence this way! Just ask me to visit your blog, and I will! If I like it, I will follow you. I don't require you following me to follow you!

FINALLY...Please please please! VOTE on my button, don't just tell me which one you like. I don't know who voted and who didn't. Right now there is a tie between the first one and the last. Several peeps have given me their opinion, but I am going to use the poll to decide. And there are only 16 hours left!

THANKS MUCH!

Still really sick, but hoping tomorrow I am able to reciprocate and follow you all back!

Please Don't Forget

2010-04-07T15:02:00.000-07:00

To help me decide which button to choose for this blog. There are four choices, and they are in the third post below this one. Use my poll on the right to vote!

Thanks in advance!

My apologies to all, today (Friday, April 9th) I am very very sick, and about the most I was able to accomplish today was publishing comments. I only had the strength to follow one blog. Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow.

Cool Give Aways

2010-04-06T18:23:00.000-07:00

Courtney at Coo Coo Courtney has some great giveaways she is offering! There are a total of 10. I entered two: Go Natural Makeup which is 8 products in one that enhances and reflects your natural skin tones, so it always looks natural and self-adjusts to work on everyone. Pretty cool! I quit wearing makeup years ago cuz I could never find the right shade.

I also entered the Flexi 8 giveaway, which is a cool, non-slip, completely unique, flexible barrette that holds thick, thin, curly, straight, fine or coarse hair.

She also gives incentives to give you more entries (such as following her blog, etc.) Today I think she went into surgery, but I think the giveaways only last until April 24th, so head over there pronto!

And I love her blurb: Don't Follow in my Footsteps, I run into Walls. Isn't that great?

See you there, but don't win what I entered for!

OK, Now I REALLY Feel STOOPID!

2010-04-05T21:19:00.000-07:00

I REALLY owe all my followers here an apology. You have all posted GREAT comments. Unfortunately, I have been so wrapped up in my other blog, especially since I lost so much, I haven't been paying enough attention to this one!

I have seen a number of new followers here, and couldn't figure out why I had so few comments on my posts. Well, I just figured it out...can we all say "LIGHTBULB"? On my other blog peeps can post a comment without moderation, without having to verify anything. So I assumed this blog was the same. After all, it's been a few years since I made this one!

Turns out, I need to modify all comments on this blog (which actually I like, cuz then I can keep up with comments.) I just didn't realize it. I had 46 unmoderated comments. I accepted them all, and please understand why I didn't respond to any, or follow any of you back. That is my goal tomorrow, to follow everyone's blogs back, and to reply to comments. Look for my replies on your blogs.

Thanks for all of your wonderful comments. I am so glad you all like this blog, I was worried that people might be offended. So I will be sure to keep posting! And please help me decide on which button to use. I depend on your opinions!!!!!!!!!!!

BIG HUGE HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!

I Need Your Advice

2010-04-05T19:40:00.000-07:00

I made two buttons for this blog...please tell me which you prefer...

OR...

Ok, due to a suggestion, I have added two more for you to choose from:

AND

I know that they are all very similar...Please Vote! Please comment and let me know your choice.

Putting Things Into Perspective

2010-04-05T17:09:00.000-07:00

About 3 months ago I was admitted to the hospital for a week. During that time I think I only ate the last day and 1/2. I lost about 20 pounds during my stay there. The last time I weighed this much was about 10 years ago. My face has slimmed down, so now I am at that stage where people wonder if I'm fat or pregnant. I used to get asked all the time before when my baby was due, and I'd just look them straight in the eye and say "Never. I'm just fat." The reactions I got were priceless. Usually people would get extremely embarrassed. I got such a kick out of it! Of course no one would ask me that now as I'm closing in on the half-century mark.

Anywhos, they would weigh me each day while I was still in bed. They have some new contraption that will subtract the tare weight (the bed) from the total weight. I was told my weight in kilograms. Well, they might have well just spoken to me in Latin or Greek. I have no idea how much a kilogram is!

When I finally got home from the hospital, it was my mission to find some old clothes, to see what I could fit into. I figured I could get a better idea of my weight by what size clothes I could fit into. Now I realize that weight and size are not synonymous, but I could get close.

I found a pair of khaki overalls I bought about 12 years ago, and they actually fit! I was dumbfounded! So I put them on and was strutting my stuff and told anyone that would listen "I haven't worn these in over 10 years!"

Enter youngest son: "I don't blame you, they're UGLY."

It's Been a Rough Week

2010-04-01T11:19:00.000-07:00

And to top things off, I completely lost my other blog (What's a Mom to Do? @ http://whatdoesamomdo.blogspot.com/ ) and I spent several hours rebuilding it, but the things I couldn't get back were my pages, my posts, the replies to my posts and my followers.

So anybody that followed that blog, (I had 51 followers) please follow me again. You can find me in your followers gadget. My name is Jacki and my posts are from "imamom". I left a reply to all that followed me.

Tube Boob(s)

2010-03-27T15:04:00.000-07:00

So when a person gains weight, it's gained everywhere, and most people gain more in certain places. But since you do gain everywhere, that includes your boobs (men and women alike.) The problem with that is, if you are my age, you don't really want bigger boobs.

Why? Because gravity is setting in...BIG TIME. And the bigger the boobs, the more they sag. So now because I'm so overweight, I've got way bigger boobs than I did when I was thin. And boy do they sag. And what makes it even worse is that because when I was younger, I was stupid (like most of us) and was unconcerned about getting older, certainly never considered that I'd gain weight or that my boobs would get bigger. And of course because my boobs weren't that big back then, I went braless...a LOT. Hence, the sag factor is exponential. It's actually comical how much they sag.

Now I'm not a big fan of men's mags, but I remember when I was younger someone showed me a cartoon in a Playboy magazine (I think) and it was of a topless old lady with super saggy boobs. That's all I remember, but when I look in the mirror, I could swear they used my boobs as templates for hers.

Of course that's impossible, but in any case the resemblance is uncanny. And I'm wondering if they'll reach my belly button when I'm her age?

Couldn't Have Said it Better

2010-03-26T12:37:00.000-07:00

There are a few TV shows of which I am a die hard fan, one of them being "Dancing with the Stars." If you don't watch the show, you should still be able to appreciate this post. Niecy Nash is on this season, and she is a comedienne and an actress. She is on Clean House, The Insider, and Reno 911, and I don't watch any of those shows. However, I have seen her on the commercials for Clean House. And she is a little chunky.

Anyway, during the first practice session, she's talking to her dance partner, and she said the following (which I am paraphrasing because I heard it last Monday):
"I like being here, however I have one major concern. I'm not like most people. I like my jiggly parts. I like meat. I like a little junk in the trunk." She then went on to say how she's watched the show before and she's seen people lose weight and get thin and she's just not sure she wants that.

Like I said, I couldn't have said it better myself, and kudos to her for saying it on one of the top rated National TV shows!

Sure Has Been Awhile

2010-03-25T16:24:00.000-07:00

Not sure why I stopped blogging here. Could have been time constraints (I got a new job around the time I stopped posting and I had the commute from hell) or possibly I felt I didn't have anything else to say, I'm not sure. But I am reviving this blog, so check in each day, I should have new postings. I also have added a few more things to this blog, so check it out!

A Rose With Any Other Name...

2008-08-30T17:51:00.000-07:00

I was talking to a co-worker the other day and she was telling me how she had to take her kids (two were hers, 3 were her step children) to the grocery store. As she was trying to herd them all into the store, a woman was coming out, and with her nose held high she commented "WELL! At least I knew when to quit!" Lisa was appalled, and I don't blame her. Some people are so inconsiderate and unthoughtful. That woman didn't even know Lisa's circumstances yet she couldn't resist making a snide comment.

Which reminded me of an incident with my youngest son when he was about three. We were standing in line somewhere, and in the line was a VERY large woman. I weighed about 170 at the time, and she outweighed me by at least double. My three year old saw her and tugged on my shirt. I looked down and in a normal voice he said, "Wow, Mama, that woman's FAT!"

Before I could even respond, the woman says "THAT was rude. I don't believe how some people raise their kids to be so hurtful." My son got scared at the vicousness in her voice and I went ballistic. I told her "He is ONLY THREE YEARS OLD. He sees the world as it is and isn't old enough to know about tact. He calls 'em as he sees 'em. You, on the other hand, are just mean and cruel and by the way...a rose called by any other name is still a rose!" I then turned to my son and said "When you're old enough, I will teach you about honesty and how sometimes the truth hurts people, so we need to be careful what we say out loud. But you did NOTHING wrong."

The other people in the line gave me an applause!

My point with all this is accept yourself as you are. And if you don't want people (much less 3 year olds) making comments, CHANGE it! I don't know that woman's circumstances, but all my son did was point out a fact. There were no assumptions or accusations. It is rediculous to think a three year old was being rude and trying to hurt her feelings.

What if he had pointed out someone else that was very fair skinned and he said "Wow, Mama, that person is REALLY white" or a really tanned person and said "Wow, Mama, that person is really dark"? I hardly think they would consider it rude or hurtful. Or better yet, what if he pointed to someone and said "Wow, Mama, that person is REALLY pretty!"

Like I said, he calls 'em as he sees 'em. And, well, a rose by any other name...

Weebles Wobble...

2008-08-25T21:56:00.001-07:00

I went to work today in an outfit I don't wear often. Now I know why. As I walked towards the entrance, I saw a reflection of myself in the ceiling to floor windows.

I looked EXACTLY like a "Weebles Wobble!" When I realized what I looked like, I laughed like I haven't laughed so hard in months!

Do you remember those "toys" from the 70's? The figures were round to where "Weebles wobble but they don't fall down." That was the phrase on the commercials for them. They had no arms and no legs, they were just kind of egg shaped, and if you touched them they would wobble, but because of the way they were made, they could never "fall down" or tip over.

Now that you have that image in your mind, think of me. I looked JUST LIKE one of those. My arms were at my sides so they blended in with my fat torso. I did have legs, but I still looked like if you tried to knock me over I would just wobble and not ever fall over.

I told my co-workers and (as most people will cuz they don't understand) most of them said "Oh, no you don't" trying to spare my feelings. I don't need sympathy, or people trying to make me feel better about who I am. I accept who I am, and what I look like! But I was hoping someone would share the humor I saw! Only one gal did, because she sees life as it is. And when she laughed, I knew she was laughing WITH me, not AT me. God bless her!!!!!!!!!!!

I just love the fact that I can laugh at myself. I also love the fact that I am fat enough now that I am not at that weight stage where people wonder if I am pregnant or just overweight.

When I was about 170 pounds, I wasn't "fat all over"...I was just fat in my tummy area. So I had NUMEROUS people ask me when my due date was. That was way more humiliating and unacceptable to me than people just thinking I was fat. No one asks that anymore (when my due date is.) I'm not sure if it's due to my age, or due to the fact that I weigh 20 more pounds, and my face and the rest of my body looks fat now. Either way, I don't care. See me as fat, not as "I wonder if she is overweight or having a baby." Main reason being, my first pregnancy I weighed 130 and only gained 20 pounds! At 7 months pregnant I wore a size 7.

Needless to say I won't be wearing the outfit I wore today again for QUITE a while~!

True Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder

2008-07-25T21:32:00.000-07:00

WOW, that statement is so true. I remember when being young (in my teens and twenties) that I woud find someone EXTREMELY attractive. If it was a guy, I was usually sexually attracted. If it was a girl, I was envious.

But the most shocking part was getting to know the person. Most of what I thought were "beautiful people" were asses...either self indulgent, self centered, narsassistic, or just plain mean. After I got to know them, I wondered how in the HECK did I EVER see them as a "beautiful" person?

Shows how shallow I was at that young age. But at least I learned (well, with MOST people!)

Now I try not to judge until I get to know the "beauty within" (or lack thereof.)

It's hard though. Do any of you find that? We are all so conditioned to "like" certain things and "dislike" others, it is really hard to find that beauty within, or ignore the absence of it.

And the worst part is KNOWING you are wrong, but not being able to change it. My "first love" I was extremely attracted to, and he was oh so beautiful (to me.) But he treated me like crap. But I would run into him just out of the blue, and still be with him, no matter how bad he treated me.

To this day I still have good dreams about him...and if I saw him today I would prolly do the same, even though I am happily married...that is so sad.

Ok, so I haven't been funny yet...prolly cuz I am relieving stress at this point. Soon I will have lots of funny stuff to say, I promise.

No FAT CHICKS on board

2008-07-23T19:41:00.000-07:00

Today during my commute home from work I looked over at the car next to me and on the dashboard was this HUGE sticker that said "No FAT CHICKS on board."

I was reminded of all the comedians that talk about "getting drunk and taking a fat chick home." What, you have to be DRUNK to consider having a one night stand, much LESS dating, an overweight person?

Then I flashed on all the commercials that show the beer bellied men with beautiful wives. Yeh, I bet that's typical...probably about as honest as the commercial itself.

Then I thought of how the average size in this country for a woman is 14. Two sizes smaller than me, granted, but all you ever see on TV is size 0 - 6 women. They're just not REAL. Those women pretty much starve themselves on a regular basis. If you went to pretty much any city in this country, you would see more women that look like me than looks like all the supermodels and actresses.

My thoughts then went to the movie "The Perfect Storm" and how Bugsy felt he couldn't get a gal so he went after the fat lady. And I was so proud of how they portrayed her. She was self confident, sure of herself, and wanted nothing to do with a guy that she thought was using her. The movie portrayed her as someone that really liked herself and her life. THREE THUMBS UP!

After my daydreaming and musings, I looked at the man that was driving the beat up car with the sticker that said "No FAT CHICKS on board." And I thanked God that I am so blessed to be overweight rather than snaggle toothed, ugly, having a poor complexion, non-hygienic, ignorant ass like the that guy.

And please, someone tell me, what on God's green earth makes people like him think he is special enough to place labels on people, much less make assumptions about people he has never met?

Dang Internet

2008-07-23T19:28:00.000-07:00

Sorry I have been away. I rent my house and the wiring here is really old. Because of that, I keep losing my Internet. Should be fixed Saturday though.

Cheers!

Big May be Beautiful BUT...

2008-07-19T22:46:00.000-07:00

I know most people see fat people as ugly, gross, whatever. They do NOT see the beauty of within. Isn't that what we are all supposed to focus on? Remember the term "Don't judge a book by it's cover"?

Well, in my musings and thoughts for today, I realized I am totally happy with my inner self. I am totally happy with my outer self. But I must admit that when I see myself in a mirror, I remember what I used to look like and I like that vision better. SHAME ON ME.

But honestly, most people think fat is ugly. Well, no wonder, with how the American media perpetuates slimness. OMG, they made Kate Moss a super model, and she was only skin and bones, and in my opinion looked extremely sick.

But, the point I am going to make here, is no matter what we think of ourselves, we all DO need to take society and the brainwashing it has received into consideration. We must NOT be totally self centered.

Today I flashed on something I saw a few years ago, and shame on me, but it grossed me out. My hubby and I were at the Boat Drag Races in Red Bluff, CA with our teenage sons. There was a woman there that was about 5'4" and had to have weighed 350 pounds easy. Ok, no biggie, there are a lot of us that are really overweight. My issue was the way she dressed.

She had short shorts on and a bikini top which barely covered her nipples. There were a gazillion rolls anywhere you looked. She had stretch marks EVERYWHERE. Her boobs were barely bigger than her back boobs. The short shorts were way too tight, and her legs showed extreme cellulite which looked like popcorn. I should have gotten a picture. She might as well been naked for all she covered up!

Ok, kudos to her for being self confident and loving herself enough to wear anything, but here is my objection...

I weigh about half that and I am taller than her. I would NEVER consider wearing a bikini top EVER, much less her entire outfit, ESPECIALLY in a crowd. I do have pride. I wear shorts, but not the kind that go up my butt crack and show my crotch. I have respect for other people. I know they don't want to see a spectacle. Love yourself, love your body, but don't subject the rest of us to it.

Oh, and by the way, I felt the same way about all the skinny girls wearing really short skirts and barely covering their ta-tas. They were mostly young, and wanted the attention, but that is as bad as the fat woman wearing what she did.

Why do young women (and some older women that are scared of being old) feel the need to have men ogle them? Why do women feel that they need a MAN to accept them for them to accept themselves? I just don't understand that...

My point is this...

HAVE SOME RESPECT FOR YOURSELF AND YOUR BODY. No matter what shape it is.

My Musings/Thoughts for Today

2008-07-18T21:26:00.000-07:00

The fact that the media and the world at large perpetuates that being fat is dangerous, unhealthy and worst of all, ugly, sickens me (and if you believe being overweight makes us UGLY, please check my links to the right of this post.)

That is being about as dumb as saying people that live in California are stupid because the cost of living is so high. But (DUH) our PAY is much higher too! I remember working as a waitress about 25 years ago...CA's minimum wage was like 5 times higher than the National minimum wage in every other state.

Ok, so I regress. Sorry.

Some of us DO make unhealthy choices, however there are many that don't. To say simply (as I have heard over and over again) "If you excercized, if you didn't eat so much, if you had more self control..."

Ok, ENOUGH! Some of us would LOVE to be rail thin...isn't that what the world expects? But why can't we be happy being ourselves? The world would be a much happier place.

A month or so ago I took a treadmill test. My doctor told me that my heart was EXTREMELY healthy...the muscle was strong and I had NO blockage. So much for being unhealthy because I'm overweight.

Now granted, we should love ourselves as we are, but also try to improve ourselves on a daily basis. But I sincerely believe MOST of the people the media shows us are anorexic. It is TOTALLY unhealthy to be a size 2 when you are 5'9".

We are taught to diet diet diet, but then no one bats an eye when you go OFF that diet and eat Mc Donalds and the like. Ok, so shouldn't we judge ourselves by what we eat rather than what we weigh?

My 13 year old son is pretty chunky...but he gets TONS of excersize by walking uphill a mile from school everyday, skating, and bouncing on our trampoline, additionally he eats very healthy foods! I personally believe he is a GROWING boy...and that he will grow in HEIGHT to match his weight. I could be wrong, but his dad was also very chunky at 13 and grew into his weight...he is now 6'3".

In my mind's eye I am still 135 pounds. Unfortunately there are mirrors and cameras in the world that remind me differently. But until I see those pictures...when I only see myself in my minds eye...I am a totally happy person being the size I am! So I resent that the rest of the world is telling me I am lazy and unhealthy and eat too much blah blah blah.

Did you know that the English language is the ONLY language to place emphasis on the ADJECTIVE rather than the NOUN? It is done by placing the adjective BEFORE the noun...English is the only language that does this. So instead of being a WOMAN first and foremost, what our language stresses is that I am FAT, or beautiful, or smart, or white. No wonder we have so much tension in this country! And even with "political correctness", it is still the adjective that counts!

I seriously wonder if our grammar was different, we wouldn't be so fast to judge others.

Ok, so today's ponderings weren't humorous...give me a break. I'm a mom, a wife, I'm fat, old, and I'm a woman. That in itself is enough to keep me cranky for life.

My Musings/Thoughts Today

2008-07-17T21:26:00.000-07:00

In a way, it is TOTALLY cool to be fat. Because I am fat, and admit it, I can call 'em as I see 'em without feeling ashamed, embarrassed or superior. I can say you are ugly, fat, stupid, WHATEVER, and you have NO recourse, like saying I am conceited or self indulgent...because I know I'm fat, I admit it, so I am privy to call 'em as I see 'em!

There is a new "reality show" on ABC called "Wipeout." If you haven't seen it, it is on ABC on Tuesdays at 8:00 pm PDT. The show has people that go through obstacle courses and the best times stay in the game til there is only one left.

This week, there was an old fat chick that was competing. I took one look at her and said "What the HECK are you doing on this show? You will NEVER make it past the first round!"
And she didn't. And I wondered why they even let her on the show...the show is all about physical competition!

Then I figured, after hearing her talk to the commentator, she was so sure of herself, they felt they HAD to let her on, whether she sank or swam! She was a confident lady (albeit without reason!)

In any event, I can barely walk a mile without being winded...but then I smoke too, and I have COPD.

But I still have to wonder...why did this FAT CHICK ever think she could beat athletes?

Kudos to her for being self confident, but then there is also the FLIP side of being stupid...showing people you are.