perfectly imperfect..

Hentikan pencabulan Bahasa!

2014-09-09T00:27:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum semua.

Hari ini saya nak tulis blog post pertama saya sepenuhnya dalam BM. Sebenarnya jika anda semua dengar saya cakap dalam bm bunyi dia taklah sebaku ni. Bagi saya, sesetengah perkataan lagi mudah ditulis dlm English dari BM. BM saya hanya hebat kalau nak suruh tulis karangan shj, jadi bila tulis benda panjang2 (macam sekarang) rasa macam tulis karangan. Jadi, otak terus auto-tune kepada mode baku! HAHA. Tapi JANGAN RISAU! kerana saya akan cuba dengan sedaya upaya nya untuk tulis dlm nada yg paling rileks. hehe

Ramai yang berfikiran sendat dan sempit berpendapat bahawa, mereka yang tidak bertutur atau menulis dlm bahasa melayu adalah golongan yang 'perasan' dan 'tidak sedar diri ' .Tapi, bagi saya, bahasa adalah sesuatu yang indah dan tidak patut dicemari dengan penggunaan singkatan yang melampau mahupun penambahan huruf yang melampau.

contoh nya :

(sumber gambar dari google)

Singkatan sepatutnya memudah kan. tapi singkatan 'dia' jadi 'dea' tidak membantu mengurangkan patah perkataan dan sama sekali tak membantu jika mak saya yg tolong bacakan mesej saya masa saya tgh bawa kereta.

Beberapa minggu lepas, saya terjumpa beberapa gambar di laman twitter saya . Dan saya amat teruja untuk berkongsi dengan anda semua di sini. hikhik :D . Nah!

Untuk tatapan anda semua : Nilai puisi pada tahun 2014

(sumber gambar : https://twitter.com/piargh/media)

Jika serendah ini nilai puisi melayu, sekarang juga saya boleh tulis puisi "saya bosan. lalu saya tidur"

Apa yang saya lihat dalam norma segelintir remaja kini (tak semua seperti ini. mohon jangan terasa kalau tak buat), jika kita pilih untuk bertutur atau menulis sesuatu dlm English, kita akan dinilai sebagai seorang 'melayu lupa daratan/ perasan/ tak ingat cara ckp melayu dah ke?/ dll.. TETAPI jika kita menjalani kehidupan cara barat seperti minum/berparti/ dll, kita dipandang hebat atau 'cool' (???) .

-TAMAT-

This is my extra thought which i find it hard to put them in BM (in a polite way). Because Malaysians know how rude it may sound lashing out in BM than English . Even if i tried, it doesn't give me the ultimate pleasure of expressing what i feel. So here we go :

As a pure Malay, i know when i speak in BM i put a lot of 'e' at most of the place where 'a' belong. for example "saya turns to be saye" . but when it comes to writing, it gives a crippling affliction to my nervous system seeing how ugly it looks like on the blank paper. Maybe because u can use English without changing the spelling and still deliver your message in an informal tone but you can't do that when writing in BM. or maybe someone else can, but not me. i'm sorry.

I believe that everyone have their own way to express how they feel. and i would rather speak in English with some grammar error than writing in BM and developing my own kind of words and ruin the whole beauty of Bahasa Melayu.

This is just my humble opinion which i do not wish to suck down to your throat. But to everyone who's reading, PLEASEEE stop torturing my mom's brain. she finds it hard to read some tutorial text that she had google-ed because you guys just have to improvise every single Malay words and it's torturing to actually translate your mess!

Peace be upon us all.

Exhausted

2014-06-17T06:54:00.002-07:00

Hi everyone. or anyone out there who's reading..

my last post was on November 8th, 2012. wow.. 2 years had passed. i miss blogging so much . so many things had happened since the past 2 years . most of them was only bad experience which i don't think i would wanna share it here. but things are getting better now. i really do not know where to start or what should i say or share that would give benefit to anyone who's reading

have you ever thought that if one thing hadn't happened, a whole set of things never would've either?

sometimes i wish few things never would have happened. sometimes i wish i never did things i did. sometimes i wish i never met a certain people. some people would say things like "things happened for a reason" or "everything will be ok" or " u'll be fine" .. but the truth is nobody understand how u feel except yourself. nobody can heal you except yourself . telling others how you feel might help lessen the burden but at the end of the day you alone hold and carry the whole loads alone. understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only with acceptance can there be recovery. i understand and i accept whatever that happened to me, but too bad, recovery wont take a day when the wound is too deep. the pain might go away soon but the scar will always be there and you will never forget how painful it was before the scar.

******

ive been working in a place that had the worst shift ever and i really can't wait to resign. Then i happened to know few people that really are a pain in the ass with the worst attitude. Next, got stuck in a relationship that was ridiculously complicated and undefined. so basically all i could say in my first post is that i am physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted. and i'm sory that you have to read this. (whoever that is reading) i'm sory if it's not constructive. i just had so much on and i feel like writing. above are my own self motivation in disguise of how destructive i felt right now.

regards, mimy

the thing about pain, it demands to be felt -The fault in our stars

Current sickness..!

2012-11-08T06:19:00.000-08:00

hi friends...!
it's been a while.. i miss blogging..so SOO much..!!
urm.. i kinda lost.
technically, i wrote my blog in english to improve my writting skill..
& since i haven't been writting for quite sometime., so i really am lost of words.
ok ok.. lets proceed..

Do you girls know that feeling when you walk into a store, want to buy everything in site,
just to realize that you don't have money & walk out empty-handed..?
well, i know so much how it feel. it's killing us inside & GUYS JUST DON'T GET IT.
20 years of living & never a time that i didn't love shopping.
For me, i love the feeling of purchasing new things & at times., i'm just super excited that i feel like wearing them straight away.

My shopping addiction probaly goes hand-in-hand with the fact that i have no responsibility with money whatsoever. it's not like my family is swimming with cash, but money has always just sort of been there. plus i'm the youngest in the family.. so i don't really have to think much each time i spend my money over something.
i always think that i'm a savvy shopper, but that thought had twist around after i start working in Zara. maybe because now that i earn my own money ., so i don't have to hear questions & constant nagging from family each time i wanna spent..

price or brands doesn't really matter for me.i buy things at petaling street or uptown too.
i don't really know how to define expensive.., because even if the price is not worth, as long as i like the things., everything will be consider cheap.
this shopping madness is indeed killing me.

here's the thing: shopping make me feel better.
sometimes, even with window shoping i feel so happy.
it's like a stress therapy for me.
just that i don't do window shopping anymore since i always have money now. which i consider as a problem cause i will never learn saving.
now that i'm working in a place full of clothes, bags and shoes, NOTHING STOP ME
it's just safe to say that majority of my paycheck goes towards buying myself things i don't need..!

Each time i bring home a shopping bag,i'll hide them inside the car. if my mom find out .she'll kill me
.the thing is that i can't hide them forever.
so i'll made up stories telling her it's a gift from a friend, or i got it half price. HAHA.
i know. i know. it's just so irresponsible. but there's nothing i could do to help.

Last week me & friend went shopping at H&M . the new shopping outlet in lot 10. just opened recently. for those who havent't been there. YOU SHOULD. the garments or bags or shoes are updated & suprisingly, most of them have almost the same design as Zara, Topshop, Dorothy Perkins yet the price is much cheaper. like superb..! I bought a denim shirt with only RM 99 . if it was Zara, the price would be up to RM 179 or more. Well that's not the only thing i bought & not the only shop i went. but...,
sadly, i can't share everything about my shopping madness here.
we never know who read my blog. hihi.

this is google photo. i'm too excited that i forget to snatch the picture

i know i'm being selfish & irresponsible. but it is very hard to say no to something you really love to do. one quesion : do smokers say no to smoking..?

it really is a constant internal struggle in me trying to say 'NO' when i want to go ahead and do it.

i'm just so.. sick right..?

all i can say is i need someone or something that could help me battling with this shopping addiction.

that's all a piece of thought and my very own experience about shopping : my current sickness which i just realize this few month while i'm away

actually there's so many things that had been happening to me this past few month like ;

-my house been robbed last hari raya aidilfitri

-i didn't enroll UIA last september for my degree year ( too much questions from all friends and family about this so i'll explain them in the next post. iA).
-My raya korban experience in hometown. (super awesome. like first time ever. i'll post them in the next entry)
-my current life since working in zara
-my friendship with this person
i think there's just so many things i would love to share. we'll see how it goes later.
love & regards, amimy (:

Rate of Hotness

2012-06-21T23:39:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum..hi bloggers & visitors..,

sory it took me so long to update even a single post.
well, i've been keeping this in draft for like ages .hehe
there's a lot of things that have been happening to me in the past few months while i'm away.
hehe. away lah sgt.
my life have been revolving & twisting around a lot..!
too much to write that i don't even know where to start...hee
i don't really like the idea of sharing things about me or my life here lately.
well social network is the worst place to express feeling (personal opinion)
sometimes, we wrote Z and people understand Z as Q . so there comes dis-communication
and the next thing you know rumors have reach England.
no one will present you the truth, look for it instead.
stop assuming and start asking :)
ok enough with iklan satu Malaysia ni
and...................
lets proceed..!

Just now i went blogwalking around and watching vlog and i see some of them was so good in expressing their thoughts while others are just some loser who don't have a life in real world and was trying so hard to look cool in their social network. hehe. tk baik kan saya ni. there are some vloggers whom really inspire me to starts vlogging. sometimes there are things which is better expressed by talking than writing .and since i talk too much sometimes, so why don't starts vlogging kan.? tapi DSLR xde. phone pon murah tak boleh rakam. sobs sobs..( T.T ) . we'll see how it goes in the future wokeh ?

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Most people see others as hot stuff because that particular person have thousand friends on fb, and million followers in twitter or many likes and hits on youtube. if you think likes are enough to be seen as hot, then you should start minus your number of likes with total friend list and it will gives a shocking result that MOST are either ignoring or dislike. i would suggest fb to have an IGNORE button' .DISLIKE kan mcm harsh sgt. nanti kan hilang kawan dekat fb pulak. social network kan punca hilang kawan and break up dgn you guys punya couples kan.?

However, my friend Mamat had a different idea defining 'hot' so he told Kiah(which is also my friend) and it reach me through Kiah . hope i didn't create a different version of his opinion. Well, he said that, numbers alone doesn't make you a hot stuff. you may LOOK hot but you're actually NOT. the things that really spice up your hotness is numbers + people who care for you and was there by your side. the people who love you constantly in high and low.
and if you're dying to know your rate of hotness, stop using fb application things like "how many people view my wall" or watsoever, rather than wasting your time in your own fairy tales why don't you start browsing into your 10000000 friend list and send them a warm note and see how many would greet you back and really want to know about what really are happening in your life( tu pon kalau semangat sangat nak tahu lah) , how many friends from you phone list would really text you every night wishing you goodnight & goodmorning , how many of them would wish your birthday through phone even though they just knew it from birthday reminder on fb, how many people would really put an effort to get in touch with you even if they don't have internet access or credit to text you? how many of them would never say NO to you?and how many of them really scold , nag and tell you dekat celah gigi you ada cili? do you think that by liking your status means people really like you..?and make you hot stuff? huh? do you..???

eh eh... i was so into this sampai tiba-tiba mcm emo pulak ayat kan.. BTW guys! this is not really what comes out from Mamat's mouth ok. i don't even know his version. its my very own understanding based on his idea :)

so to girls especially ,eternal hotness is when you have numbers + REAL friends + beauty(yg ni exceptional advantage je. true beauty is when you have self-respect & when you don't know you're beautiful..!~lalala ) haha

and believe me, without REAL friends your hotness will fade away as you grew older.ok that's all. the end

fyi i've done with my foundation year in IIUM, and currently i'm doing a part time job in Sunway lagoon..!
ya kawan-kawan. sunway lagoon. tiada tiket free atau diskuan. RM100 satu kepala kalau ada mycard. jemput lah datang.okbye.

p/s : i did crumble a bit of English and Malays here . to those who don't like it, then i'm sorry. at some point i'm just lost of words and i'm too tired to think, sorry again

that's all. gudnight people :)

2012-03-11T01:23:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum & hi friends

note : this is a really quick post (30 mins before leaving to uia)

souvenir photo : special reminder to all my girlfriends

i've like tons of stories to be shared..

but time had always been a 'thing' between us . so here

a very short post to my beloved friend whom is looking for a strength

to start a new life....,

Stop giving the past more power than the present.

i failed me paper. i still miss my ex. my ex is still in love with his ex.i feel hopeless because Y did Z to me. i am miserable. The list of excuses never ends, and to you it will always appear that you story is unique and that you're a drama queen. it's very well might be.., but it's time to attach your emotions with the present :)

Worry will not solve problems. It'll make you turn out becoming weak

milk had spilled. either you buy a new house or clean the spilled. stop worrying . everyone will have their own hard time or problems. it's either you walk through the problems or use another road . Allah will never burden His servant more than they can bear.

The only prayer you need to say is 'Thank You'

we need to be reminded with this more often. so always tell ourselves to be grateful. being grateful will make u feel that your life isn't that horrible. u've a loving families. u get to eat everyday. u've so many friends around. u sleep on a bed n wake up still on bed. :)

coz u're a friend whom i really love :)

that's all i can think of for the time being .hope it can strengthen you faith

i was craving to meet you.

so u'll always know that u're not alone.

life had been hard for me this few weeks..

its like everything was rotating 360 degree up side down

however....................,

never give up & lost hope..

there's always a silver lining behind every dark cloud.

all u need is to wait..

& that's what i did..

wait........

w-a-i-t.....

another souvenir photo. me & friends

ps/ Allah tidak akan membebani hamba-Nya lebih dari kesanggupan mereka :))

2012 opening post :)

2012-02-05T06:49:00.000-08:00

Hi..! and Assalamualaikum to all my Muslims friends..,it's my first post for 2012..well., hope it's not to late to wish u all HAPPY NEW YEAR..!! this is my new year resolution .

1. Penuhi solat 5 waktu (jgn tinggal especially subuh)
2. Pakai tudung ( please supports me dear friends )
3. Score A's for my Biology & Maths.
4. Further my degree in selangor . (selangor sahaja)
5. Be more positive :D

In order to fulfill my resolution.. i need to change myself first. so here's my personal opinion about changes.

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Very often .., we hope to change people (for the better) by nagging or lecturing them.
Openly, showing our disapproval or frustration or sometimes we even withdrawing our love..
perhaps by not talking to them.

... we i see unpleasant things about people & starts judging. talk behind their back. (sometimes).
& sometimes i talk bad things about strangers whom i don't even know . it's an irresistible force. i found it hard for me to accept people's weakness . maybe i see myself as a better person as compared to them.

and then.., there come this one day where one of my lecturer mentioned.
'' if u criticized or talk bad things about others.., u will never die until u commit the same things. Allah is all Justice.''
those words struck me to my heart string.

then.., another day after.., the same lecturer told me..,
'' if u find it hard to change others for their unpleasant behavior.., then try changing yours "
those words was like a large rock stamped on my heart .

later on.., i start believing that every people have their own reason on why they act the way the act.
why they wear clothes the way they wear.., i start seeing things in different way.
Alhamdulillah. Thanks Allah for His guidance.

so friends.., if we find it hard to change people .., we've to start looking at ourselves.
coz believe it or not.., we all resists attempts to change us, even well-intentioned ones..

Then i learn that there is one way to help a person changes for the better
-Acceptance-

Acceptance doesn't mean we give up changing a person . it means actively helping and encouraging them to change by showing them that no matter what happens, they would still be loved unconditionally. And acceptance is meant for ourselves as well. we need to accept ourselves before we could grow and become a better person. :))

And finally .. May Allah provides us with His Guidance

Specially-made-post to a friend i care..,
sorry for all the drama's /girls fight..& hoping for both of us to change to be better.

changing is never easy.., especially when it's brought from ourselves. it doesn't happen over night.but when there's a will.., there's a way . Turn to Allah and He'll show you the way.

very well.., see u soon friends.. may this 2012 be a blissful year..!

The mummies

2011-10-21T22:20:00.000-07:00

it's been a while ..! hey friends ..!
(whoever read my blog holds a piece of my life . so why not call them friends)

terharu x..? hehe
ouh..! btw assalamualaikum to all muslims and
hi there to my non-muslim friends ..! :)

well not much about my life to be shared .
just a food of thought that rush through my cerebral cortex
during my saturDAY-OUT with mom
perhaps it could fill you up :)

last saturday (again) me n mom went to kL sogo . we heard there's this deepavali sales..
that's the great things of being Malaysian .
we don't have to wait for Y.E.S *year end sales
there's always Sales in Malaysia
Chinese new year sales..raya haji sales.. deepavali sales.. christmas sales..
no event pon kdg2 ade sales.
maybe sebab da x laku sgt kowt
Malaysians is a savvy shopper *especially ladies
so x payah mahal2 sgt kot jual barang tu :D

Next we went into Jalan Tar. which is right in front of Sogo
there were so many stalls selling all kinds of things
and so many people walking or better said pushing each other in the crowd
and when there's a crowd
there will always ......................a beggars..!!!

there's this one kind of beggars who roam our streets.
i called them THE MUMMIES.
they are the scum of the begging community
they usually drag their tiny tots around to arouse people sympathy.
they drug their babies so they don't cry and fuss. *i think so
these children stare like zombies with empty expressions that tug at heartstrings.
people give out of pity to the children. * yeah.. including me. who can resist anyway.?
and so the vicious circle is perpetuated .

well.. to my personal opinion,
as long as people are willing to dole out spare change to beggars,
begging will continue to be a profession of choice
being generous is not a fault
to whom and how u channel your generosity is what matter :)

it is so not my intention to insult them
what more to offense their way of living.
it's just a personal view and all i want is to share with others
what i felt about this circumstance in our society today

love & regards , amimy :)

p/s : it's my new blog template . (just in case u didnt notice) its very simple. hope u like it. and if you dont , feel free to press the 'x' button up there :) .sory this post is very dull n boring. i'm very lazy to look for any related picture plus this sore throat is killing me :(

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2011-10-10T00:20:00.000-07:00

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2011-09-17T22:30:00.001-07:00

Aidilfitri in My way :)

2011-09-03T17:49:00.000-07:00

hii... :D

Syawal had taken it's place.. Alhamdulillah.. i had managed fulfilling my responsibilities as a Muslim in the previous month of Ramadhan.

Well...it's raya againnn...! it's the time where people munching on the kuih raya and biskut raya, eating lemang and rendang, drinking carbonated ,wearing colorful clothes, visiting relatives, & children goes to strangers houses for duit raya. after all, it's raya. who can resist the merriment and joyous of it..?

it's RAYA-MERDEKA..! this won't come th

ok2. enough ..!.*intro je tu..hee.. my raya doesn't really sounds like that.hehe. well.. i don't have the chance to experience it that way..so i can only imagine from what i heard from friends and movie i've watched before *straight face..sometimes i just lost seeking for personal way of reflecting my raya ..most of it was . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

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well.. my mom will be the only one who'll get all excited preparing for kuih raya, new curtain and decoration. Raya at Subang Jaya was so plain and dull .. *especially on the 1st day of raya..

come to think back..yep..!we're not a big family yet we're happy. nevertheless, we are grateful that we still have each other under one roof and that we still celebrate in moderation. err.. how can i complain.. if i said one word.. it's like "look at ur life. there are people starving in India"

ouu..! few days before raya , i receive one kad raya from my best friend. terharu giler..! ^_^
well.. i miss raya in the old way..it has been a while since i last receive or writing an actual kad raya. seriously, it's like people were leaving the traditional way behind when facebook and iphone were taking place. But come on.., once in a while, why not we do things ol'skool like sending an actual kad raya. i know we can still buy it in the bookstore, mall, or even in Tesco but how many of us still use it..? Most of the time people nowadays only buys kad raya just to be hang as a decoration. *cakap je lebih. awak tuu hantar ke kad raya kat org? (my monolog dalaman) hehe..

ok2. Since this entry is about raya.. may i humbly extend my hands to ask forgiveness, if i have directly or indirectly offended anyone in my posts.please know that it is unintentional. it's just my personal thoughts just to share my experience with others. SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI n enjoy ur lovely time with family, friends & relatives.

gambar raya xde.. si comel neyh pon bolehh...! :D

p/s :- apology to my dearest friend Hidayah whom i had always make fun of.. .. hehe.. u know i love u <3 .. and fikri chong. i'm waiting for u to seek forgiveness from me first.. hehe.. my dearest room mate , leen if i've ever offend u with my outspoken'ness . u guys cheer my day in uia.. :)

zzZZZ -.-'

2011-08-31T02:10:00.000-07:00

i did something stupid tonight...and

i'm not being myself lately..

letting go is the hardest thing in life

-.-"

nyte all

love, amimy

rambling..

2011-08-05T02:47:00.000-07:00

hey.. i'm back...!

it's been a while ..

well, i don't really feel like writing much..

all this weary weeks,

exams..

monotonous lectures..

endless tutorials...

'fascinating' quizzes..

blablabla...

-____________-

i feel like crawling under a rock and never comes out..

come to think back

instead of going over under the rock..

all i had to do was...

focus.

sabar ye mimy.. lagi berapa bulan je kat uia..

smile :D and bare in mind.....

another stairs

2011-02-18T19:22:00.000-08:00

........many things had crossed my mind this past few weeks..like this never-ending exams.., friends , families n most important this new plan i had for my life.. well, i met one of my old friend (not to mention his name for some reason) last 2 or 3 weeks..no specific time cause i can't remember much..n he told me that his about to finished up his studies n go to work with a big basic salary in 1 or 2 years from now.which was quiet amazing cuz i don't think his the one with 10 brains . besides..,most of my friends who was doing their diploma will start working soon..

frankly.., i'm jealous..! they were enjoying their studies .. having a nice comfortable exams. get a good results n assigned to a big job with big salary..while i was studying like a mad dog.. having the most terrifying suffocating exams..with some annoying invigilators ,,get the worst results n still studying..studying..s.t.u.d.y.i.n.g!

at times, happens to regret for some decisions i've once made.. so .., to keep my life as interesting as i've always dream..i came across to this one (maybe) great plan...! i wanna put options to my life path.. i wanna have two stairs which i can choose soon in the future rather than having to walk on the same almost broken stairs for the rest of my life. i wanna make my life meaningful..n if possible .. i wanna have ManyManyManyMany stairs n doors in life..!!

p/s- going back to campus oredi.. i'll continue later..bye..! love, mimy

take good from the bad

2011-01-22T22:27:00.000-08:00

i had a very bad fever + sore throat + flu .., i can't remember the last time i had fever.., it been like ages kot..! all the time hidung tersumbat.., n my voice really sounds like katak.., urrggh -_-' ...!! i hate diz so much... worse come to worst cuz my final exam is just around the corner... of coz lar xde mood nyeeeeee na revise..God..! how i wish dis will end a.s.a.p.! fingers crossed.

ouhh yap..!.., i've heard before dat demam ni boley hapuskan dosa2 kecik..so i asked fatimah (roommate) about dat.. then fatimah pown cakap laaarr..,

"sakit tu boley menggugurkan dosa2 kecil.., dgn syarat kita bersabar n anggap tu satu ujian dari Allah swt"

apart from dat..i've come to my real sense that.. no matter how big n grown up we are..and no matter how much we believe that we can handle our own selves very well..,somehow,when fever comes attacking .., mom is always the BEST...! we still need her to tell us what to do..,n at that particular time..a very simple word of advice such as "makan ubat ye" can be a very miraculous cure. its like everyone can ask u to "makan ubat" right..? -however mom's one is still the best n the most heart melting..!

after all.., grown up means nothing to her..for them..,a child is still a child,we get older or bigger but never grown..!

~Some mothers are kissing mothers and some are scolding mothers, but it is love just the same, and most mothers kiss and scold together. ~Pearl S. Buck

my apology

2011-01-07T06:36:00.000-08:00

At various times in our lives, we will do something to hurt someone else, even if it's not intentionally. When we've done something that hurt a friend or someone close to us, we have to make an effort to make things right again.

How can we say "Sorry" and really mean it? Too often we just say the words "I'm sorry" and expect that to be good enough. It's Not..!

I've done something wrong n i've never felt this bad before.. well..i've put my best effort to apologize n show to her (a friend) how sorry i am.. if we did anything wrong we wouldn't want any one to know it n we'll try our best to keep it save with us..that's what i'm trying to do now. n i really hope she was doing the same thing.

There are some very good step which i've found n would like to share to all readers n for us all to take so that a truly heartfelt apology can be effective and then resolved the conflict. Here's how...

ADMIT YOU WERE WRONG - The first, and most important is to admit that you have done something wrong. To say you are sorry and not admit wrongdoing is empty and the injured party will not believe you. Furthermore, they will not trust that there will be any change in your behavior in the future, since you refuse to accept responsibility for the present.

ACKNOWLEDGE THE DAMAGE DONE - acknowledge the injury you have caused the other person(s). Have you hurt their feelings, damaged property, caused them some difficulty? Be specific and tell them that you know what did to them. Tell them that you understand why they are upset and that you know how your actions makes them feel.

ACCEPT THE CONSEQUENCES - Accept complete responsibility for what you did as well as the consequences. Take your lumps and learn from them. Don't try to turn it around at this point and jab them for their part in the problem (if any) or try to get the to say they're sorry. This is about YOU and YOUR actions, not theirs.

ASK FOR FORGIVENESS - Ask for forgiveness. Forgiveness doesn't mean forgetting. That is something that few people can truly do. It means, "I give up my right to hurt you back or hold this over you in the future".

ALTER FUTURE BEHAVIOR - Assure them that you will make the proper alterations to your actions or character in the future that should keep this problem from happening again. Words with no action are pretty meaningless. If you commit to change, and the other person sees you change, you can rebuild trust and repair your relationship.

here-a bunch of flowers for all my love one.

No-one enjoys being wrong but we sometimes do things that hurt the ones we love and often the people we cannot stand. Whether the dispensed hurt was intentional or not, an apology is warranted. By the way, whether you like the person or not-they too deserve an apology....No they are not exempt...

well.., i make a mistakes n i'm sorry.. truly i am.. T_T

Last woRds

2010-12-31T21:36:00.000-08:00

Last words for 2010.. ..

GOD.!!2010 is about to end..!the year was moving so fast !!nothing much happened throughout 2010..well, it's a better year compared to 2009..,n yeahh!..,i'm moving to a person n still looking for the real me.. growing up is not as easy as it seems....somehow i feel like moving to my childhood year..!

to summarize my 2010..,

the beginning of the year was DAMN good..! i've done with my spm..!n yea..to all SPM candidates.. no doubt..every single day after spm was heaven..!! well.. i had so much plan after spm but NONE of it works out the way i planned..! -.-"

then.i was offered with diploma in applied sc at uitm kuala pilah negeri 9.., there's NO WAY i'm going there.. cukup laar staying in mrsm had put me n my family apart ..plus i've been soOO away from most of my frens in Subang..! then with my aunt's help i was given a place in UIA . Thank GOD..! that's all in 2010..

ouuh..apart from that. i've been having my hard time after breaking off with him..! well.., breaking up is not that pain compared to what he did after that.. i'm truly LoST n there came Rahim...

mom said i should wrap everything in year 2010..how can i..?? after all.., there's still things that haven't done..!after mid sem break neyy...EXAMS..!!!i just don't get it.. exams n quizzes is like forever.. n i'm always a last minute person..! at the end of the day.. i'll screw up everything.. Studying like a mad dog..!

dearest me..,Drop the last year into the silent limbo of the past. Let it go, for it was imperfect, and thank God that it can go..
Goodbye 2010..,

love, mimy

2010-11-27T10:41:00.000-08:00

The Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam

Oh threats of hell and hopes of paradise!

One thing at least is certain.

This life flies.

One thing is certain

And the rest is lies,

The flower that once is blown forever dies.

i've been soo bz helping my aunt wif her assignment.. she's taking her phD ..i'm not sure in what course..language i guess...,n this is part of what i love..!its The beauty of rubaiyat of omar khayyam.. the poetry was awesome... i'm writting it so that i wont forget.. :D

the language was great.. i love it..!! i feel like discovering more about this rubaiyat..will be soon... ^^

tomorrow ♥

2010-10-17T14:19:00.000-07:00

it's been so long since i last heard this...

this song is addressed to those who have lost loved ones or death..,

sometimes..things are happening but word is not heard...there comes music

its amazing how a song can put it all to one ♥

And I wanna believe you,

When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change [4x]

crying oVeR you..!

2010-10-17T01:07:00.000-07:00

you came into my life again, leaving more footprints in my heart. while i was trying to hold on tight you let go without a fright. not even saying goodbye as if you didnt want to, but letting go like you always wanted. you treated me as if i was nothing, always putting me down, making me feel worthless.

And all i did was let you know how i felt truly and deeply. and how i really didnt want you to go. but why is it so hard to let you go knowing how you treated me? why do i keep coming back for more? things will never work out so why do i want to try to make it? even though it were over, im always wanting you back, why? you hurt me in so many ways i just cant say, you let me down to much! yet im the one to blame.

I want to let you go, but you left me with all our memories that keep hurting me so deep inside. im deleting your number off my phone, im letting you go, im done playing the blame game..,

AND IM DONE CRYING OVER YOU!!

white dandelion

2010-10-07T23:34:00.000-07:00

Some people believe that teenage years is the best time in life...

this is the time where we have start to be part of the gang, making a lot of friends and experimenting new things...

Perhaps? its the time of life where we meet our first love..

For some of us it might be the years where we faces a lot of exams. Some of us triumph greatly and some might have their own interesting story..

not to mention the sweet and sour experience of being scold n punished

**********

I was browsing through my album folder last night and i came across some photos of me n my old time friends.Not to say too old...but it was taken past few years..back then when i was in my schooling year...

I do not think my best memory of my life has approached me yet. However, I feel my school's years have been the most memorable. I strongly believe that high school is the open door, into the rest of my life.

my starting point is when...

i did well in my UPSR exam and i was promoted to further to this boarding school somewhere in GERIK..?? at that moment i was like -where the hell was dat..? btw, i spent most of my teenage years in boarding school..

Its so hard to put all my 5 years experience there in words here. Erm...

When I came to think about my school life....

I feel that my life was greatly influenced by 2 things :

PMR and SPM..

because of this 2 things i have to study a lot like HELL a lot and when the big day comes..i've got shit for brains when i'm answering the papers.. heh..!

walking over my memory lane..

i still remember clearly how stupid i was acting as this minachi characters for my group sem type 1 drama... ade ke patot.. they've come up to this stupid idea in putting me to act that character..n ade ke patot my mouth simply said : YES..!! .. i guess i act very well for lots of people began to call me wif dat fuckin' name..! some even remember me by that stupid minahCHiiii.. i was terribly ashamed ..but then..when i look back now... i started to LMAO..n for some reason.. i've to thanks to my sem group for spicing up my life with those damn "wonderful" memory..

some secret remains unrevealed....

back then when i was 14..it was 2006, my final year at gerik.., i've a lovely roommates n we're so close...i've always been so concern about my room mates..there was this one night where 1 of my roommates, yani ,she went out to blok jati (guys dorm) with some of her volley ball team to celebrate their victory...! n soon i realize that it's almost 2 am yet she n her friends haven't return.. we (the other room mates + head of the blok) were so worried, 1 of us came up with a stupid idea to go in to blok jati...with the purpose to "save" our friends.. what on earth was in my mind that time..i simply agreed..!!...perempuan masuk blok lelaki..??? wtw..??? haha.. i can't believe i really did that... we sneak in ..we even heard some of the guys conversation...haha...what the.......!! maybe it should remains secret ..haha..there's only a few step to reach the warden's room, then...surprisingly..1 of the guy from the nearest room opened his door.. omg..! i'm a dead meat.. we ran as if its the end of the world....! there's only 1 thing that i can imagine dat time- JDM..! (disciplinary council) .. we reached our blok n all we did was laugh out loud n THANK GOD...! haha.. guys .. trust me..! we did that on purpose...., n to all those that did this silly things with me.. u know who u are..haha.. i still laugh when i remember this..!

**********

Now that I've done all those things and many more, I am about to embark on a new adventure that will take me too many more new experiences.Realistically, I do not know what the world out there holds for me.knowing that there are many dangers to encounter in the real world. I was just dying to experience all the new and exciting things that awaited me. I've had plenty of good times, as well as just as many bad times, in high school. And the most important thing is that, not just that I learned through the books, but I learned about life and the road ahead of me.

~looking back to look ahead.. ♥

semester break

2010-10-05T00:47:00.000-07:00

so damn boring.!!!!!!. its my final sem break... my 1st break after 1 whole relaxing sem.. i can't believe i'm only offered with 3 subject for my last sem which was math 1 , arabic , and eng...! well.. i did not perform very well in my english placement test.. i was playing around n trying to adapt with campus life...so the result was quiet bad= i was placed in english class level 4..2 more level 2 go to b exempted..serve me right..!! so..there i go..3 subject for the whole sem..!..its my most relaxing sem n i'm njoying every moment of the day..!haha..

GOD ...!help me..!how i wish i will be exempted for my eng class..i do love eng class so much n all the activities..but i dun't really njoy doing the assignment given...

i still have about 3 weeks more to start a new sem...staying at home is not a good idea to overcome my "boringness" cuz dis 3 weeks will be my 3 long lonnng looooooooooooooonnnnnnnggg loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggg week..! THINK..!THINK..!THINK..! better think fast....

ouhh..!!!i did ask juju ..on what should i do...err.. jual nasik lemak depan rumah sounds great laar jue..! but then..i'm too lazy for it..haha.. so... till now....still.....here i am...at home..... still.. thinking... n ..think.. think...think..till.. zz ..zz ..z ...zzZZ.......................................

life is great

2010-09-26T21:01:00.000-07:00

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together...

yes...!!~ whenever i walk on with hope in my heart...i will never be alone..

there's too many things happen to me throughout 2010... for every new year i've always wish for a better life..yet ...there's something go wrong on the way... somehow... living through all this hard time had make me turn out to be much more stronger...

Some people i meet had affected my life. The successes and downfalls that I've experienced had created whom i am now, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts me, betrays me or breaks my heart,i'll always forgive them because they have helped me learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom i must open my heart for.

mencari sesuatu yang hilang.........

2010-09-25T10:15:00.000-07:00

kejutkan aku dari lena...

bebaskan aku dari mimpi ini

agar aku tak terus hanyut..................

namun,

andai mentari tak lagi menyinar..

dan bayang malam terus menghambat......

biarkan aku tidur selamanya...........

agar mimpi indah ...

menemani lenaku yang panjang............................................

~specially written for those i really wish to meet............

Raya greeting....

2010-09-10T10:53:00.000-07:00

Today is Hari Raya Aidilfitri. I am not going to reflect on the meaning of today or what it should or should not represent. I have spent many years doing just that when I was an innocent little girl.

I am just going to celebrate the fact that I can eat freely in public AGAIN!!!

To all my Muslim friends/readers, here's wishing you..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

P/S: I realized that many people have been using different spellings on their Raya greetings i.e. Aidil becomes Eidul. I wonder why? Glam factor? LOL!!