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"THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE"

2011-10-01T14:28:00.000-07:00

"DUNIYA GOL HAI...HUM WAHIN AAKE RUKTE HAI JAHAN SE SHURU KIYA HO".... a simple saying but very true.Its almost an year now since my last post and here i am again in this virtual space with my experiences..."the COMMUNION OF MA LIFE".Though this span of time was indeed full of new experiences ...ventures...success ...failure and loads of things that i wanted to share , as this was the thought with which i started this blog...but i don't know ..i didn't feel like sharing.Was it bcoz of my last year of graduation...??? was it bcoz i was submerged with some heavy thoughts on and on..??? but at last i overcame every thing that was repelling me from writing and as i have completed ma graduation and can prefix an ER. tag with ma name now....its high time that i should continue from where i left..!!

my last post was a short story..."INCEPTION- A NEW BEGINNING".Firstly i really wanna thanks ma friend for supporting me in this because as i was reading it again...i was feeling like that i was reading a primary school story...it was so predictable yaar...!!!! i need to work really hard,but apart from it... i am not gonna start up with another story ...in fact why to write a story, when our life itself is a story....a non narrated story..! You being the central character and others being the cast.The only difference is there is no retakes...no margin for error....no warnings...and above all, a colloquial director...the almighty "GOD".Guyz just for once start considering your life as a movie going on.Just for once consider your life as a story....start right from the most earliest memory residing in your brain from your childhood....and then proceed till today...I can bet that its would not be a waste of time.Be free in your thoughts...imagine every childish activity you ever did...an action you were always proud of....let the love of your life be your soul mate...the person you hate the most be the villain. Be the architect of your imagination friends.The memories cloaked in the deepest part of your brain is gonna pop out and its gonna bring loads of smile and tears....as life itself is a amalgam of happiness and sorrow.I did it...and i was really refreshed...my school days... Disney hour...alif laila...weekend cricket...chutti chutti....fights...ma first crush...etc etc etc .....just countless memories.But the most important outcome will be the self analysation.I really got to know about my weaknesses and strength ..the people that matters to me the most and what i want to achieve in my life for having the type of ending that i imagined.Be true to yourself because how so ever you are perfect in lying but you cant lie to your own self...bcoz at the end u r your best friend and the biggest critic.

so best of imagination friends...just try 2 give yourself a short but sweet time out in this competitive arena to rejuvenate the best you had experienced in the story of your life rather then imagining what gonna be the next...!!!

"INCEPTION- A NEW BEGINNING"

2010-09-22T07:15:00.000-07:00

(concluded part)...

police had taken all the three guyz to police station for enquiry as they were found drunk.All the three were convicts now and were put behind bars.Tony and Reed were relaxed as they were a regular in such cases and police stations stuff,but Zach was damn tensed as it was his first visit to police station and that too straight behind the bars.The very next moment Mr. Brown entered the police station and straight away headed towards the desk.

"hello officer,this is Philips Brown" Mr brown greeted the officer.

"hello Mr Brown,so tell me how can i help you.?"officer asked Mr Brown.

"Sir i came to know that you have arrested my son in a case of rash driving and damaging the public property"Mr Brown asked with shame in his eyes.

"ohh you must be talking about zach ,tony and reed"officer asked him.

"yes..!! zach is my son,tony and reed are his friend"Mr Brown replied.

zach came to know about the fact that his father has arrived there,so he was little bit relaxed but anxious as well as he knew that,facing his father would not be easy for him now..!!finally a cop came and allowed all the three guys to go.now the moment had arrived zach was facing his father and was not able to even look into his eyes as he knew that he will be fuming with anger.

"zach,your father has bailed all three of you and you can go,but make sure it won't happen again..!!"officer said in his heavy voice

"Thanks Mr Brown"tony and reed said collectively with no shame in their eyes..

"YOU BOTH JUST SHUT UP AND I DON'T WANT YOU TWO TO BE AROUND MA SON ANY MORE"Mr Brown bursted with anger that Reed and Tony would definately had peed in their pants.

"Stop it dad,how are you talking to them"Zach interrupted his father and the very next moment a tight slap was on Zach's face from nowhere,it was from his father.

"I don't wanna listen any words from you zach we will talk at home,and you two(pointing towards tony and reed),dont ever dare to meet him again"and Mr Brown left the police station along with zach.

It was zach place and Mr Brown was in a fuming mood.

"this was the last thing i expected from you drinking,rash driving, damaging public properties..what do you want zach.!!.i m tired now,i have decided you are going to NYU and that also tomorrow morning so go and just pack your bag"Mr Brown gave his final verdict..

"i m not going to NYU i am also fred up of all these things dad,my friends have done something for my dream,which i was expecting that you would have done,but it doesn't effect me as i don't expect anything from you now..

"zach said in loud voice.."Is this how you will talk to your dad..!!"and Mr Brown was again about to give a slap to zach but he hold on this time..

"why did u stop that,this is the only thing you can do..!!"said zach and went into his room crying.

Mr Brown sat onto his couch and held his beloved wife's photograph.."i failed honey..!! i failed.." said Mr Brown,holding his tears.

Next morning

the door knocked,

"good morning Zach, look i m sorry for the last night..!! i wanna talk to you over your acting..open the door son"..Mr brown was eagerly waiting for Zach to open the door but there was no reply.

Mr Brown knocked the door many times but again no reply.So finally his patience was over and he broke into the room,there was no one in the room zach was absent and there was a letter on his bed.

Dad,

first of all i m really sorry for the last night i know i was wrong but it has always been your short tempered nature that has cost our relation.Dad,acting has always been my passion and i want to follow my dream and i dont want my dream to die within me.i m going to fullfill my dream dad and i know you will never allow me to do that,so i m leaving this house and hopefully will come back when i will succeed achieving my dream.

Dad forgive me,but i want to tell you,i dont want to let u down and i really love you alot.

byee and take care of yourself.

Zach.

Mr brown whole world was upside down.He was in a great shock as he never expected that Zach would take this step.He was left with nothing.

"hey champ,where are you going..?",it was tony asking zach at the railway station.

"What are you doing here tony,nd how did u know that i m here...?"zach asked anxiously..

"dude,i saw you going from your place with some baggage and all,and i got it that finally you have decided to leave that prison and flying freely to chase your dream.."tony said to zach,and he nodded.

"dont worry champ,reed's uncle will take care of you,after all you are our champ.. and do one thing take this bag and give it to reed's uncle"tony took out a small bag and handed it over to zach and also gave him some money to spend in the journey.."

best of luck champ,hope i will soon see you in action" said tony and then and zach went off.

The very next day zach reached the place which was in the appointment letter.It was a dingy building with lots of crap around.All sort of drunk people,call girls,smokers etc were around zach and now he was feeling the heat.he got some courage and went upstairs in the office.the name plate read.."Robert casting agency" and there was a filthy fat man sitting in the chair who barely achieved to get up onto his own.

"wat do you want,and who are you..?"..asked that man to zach.

"Hello sir;..!! this is zach,reed's friend he must have talked to you about me"zach replied.

"Yaa. he called me,i m Robert Torrins,the casting director of this agency",he replied..

"nice to meet you sir" zach greeted him.

"so you are interested in acting hmmm..!! so have u done anything before regarding it..?"..Robert asked zach..

"yes sir i have won many awards in my high school in drama and i also did acting workshop in my town ,i just need a chance and i won't let u down."..Robert got off from his chair and called a big guy,

"He is my guest take him to the room,and provide him with food and everything he wants, he will take you zach,be comfortable and be ready i will meet you tomorrow at auditions."Robert told zach and winked.

zach was about to go till Robert interrupted him,

"Zach..!! ,tony must have given you a bag,plz bring it with you tomorrow..ok..!!".zach nodded and left.

The day was over and it was night .Zach was lying on a bed his mind was striking with frequent thought about his father,he was missing him.He decided that he will call him and will assure him that he is alright and will be back soon,but next very moment he changed his mind and thought that tomorrow after the audition he will surely call him.
finally the day came zach was very excited as it was his first audition.he took the bag that tony had given him and went to the office.as he entered the room,he found two three girls almost drugged,that they were even not able to stand on their own.

"oh come in zach,come sit u must have brought the bag" Robert enquired zach.

"Yes sir i have" and he handed it to Robert.

"Good zach",and he opened the bag.Bundles of thousand of dollars came out from the bag and photographs of few girls.Robert called some men inside.They were seeming like foreigners and Robert handed the money and told them to take the girls with them.it was enough for zach to sense that he has done a tremendous mistake and he is in serious danger now.

"Wat the hell is going on Robert..!!!" Zach stood up from his chair.

"Calm down son,its just a small business... business of girls..!!" and Robert chuckled loudly.

"I m not gonna work here,i m out of her right now..!!",zach swiftly went to the door.

"Catch him...dont let him go..!!" Robert ordered his men..but before they could catch him the police siren began to blow and a guy came running into the room and spoke hastily...

"SIR...WE ARE TRAPPED..!!!! TONY AND REED HAD BEEN CAUGHT AND THEY HAVE TOLD EVERYTHING ABOUT US.."..!!

"WHAAAAT..!!"..Robert said loudly..."RUN FOR YOUR LIFEE..!!"..and next moment everything was upside down. zach finally got the whole story..tony and reed had fixed everything so that they could give that bag to Robert.Zach didn't know what to do now ,the only thing left to him was run for his life..so he ran ..as he was coming outside the building he saw some policemen,so he took another turn and eventually one of the policeman fired at him...luckily the bullet just touched him on arm but he was injured.He still ran because he knew that if he will get caught,he might never be able to see his father again.Zach finally was able to escape from there.He reached outside a church and sat there trying to catch some of his breath..and suddenly began to cry aloud...

"i deserve it dad.. i really do.. i never wanted you to feel ashame of me but i alwayz let you down..you were always right dad..and i was alwayz wrong..forgive me dad..and i really love you..!!" next two days zach was roaming into the streets without food and water.his wound was paining him but he had no choice rather then go along with the agony.At last when he was about to give up,a voice from the back surprised him..

"Is it you zach..?" it was peter, Zach neighbour.

"just look at you..!!! what has happened to you son" peter was surprised. Zach narrated him the whole story.

"Uncle i wanna go home ..please help me i want to see dad..!!"zach cried.

Peter gave a very sudden pause to the whole narration and zach found that something is wrong.

"what happened uncle,is dad ok..!! tell me everything is fine na..???"asked zach in a shivered voice

." I suppose son, your dad hasn't told you anything.."peter replied..... "

Wat hasn't he told me..?"zach replied. "your father is in hospital zach,he has been suffering from cancer from the past 4 yrs..but he never wanted to tell you that because he wanted that you should be self dependent before he leaves this world but..i think it will not be possible now..!!"

Darkness flew in front of Zach eyes he began to tremble...he was shivering like a motor ..

"NOOO...THAT IS NOT TRUE.." he cried loudly and tears began to flow from his eyes.
Peter arranged zach to go back to his town..zach straight away went to the hospital..

"mam in which room is Mr Brown admitted"..zach asked on the desk...

"He just had undergone a surgery and is in ICU."..Zach ran as fast he could have toward the ICU,until he was stopped by a doctor...

". hey young man watch it...where are you running..!!"."my father is in ICU and i m going to see him doctor"..zach replied.

"are you talking about Mr Brown..?" doctor asked him...

"YES,is he alright..i m his son zach.."...

"well my friend i m afraid to tell you that he don't have much time now..he is waiting for you only..go meet him..".. zach entered the ICU..he was shattered to see his dad in such position..

"Dad,can you hear me..!! open your eyes this is zach your son.." Mr Brown opened his eyes and gave a smile ..zach was holding onto his tears as he didn't want his dad to see him crying..

"nothing will happen to you dad, i m sorry for what i did,now i m back..i will make you proud dad.. i will do what you want me to do...but please don't leave me dad.. i need you dad.. i really need you.." Mr brown slowly raised his arm and pointed toward the nurse..then zach was taken out as he was not allowed to stay for longer in ICU.

"zach your father gave me this key and told me to give it you when you will come back..he was just waiting for you zach..he really loves you..this key is of his locker he has left sum thing for you,there..go get it,it is his last wish.."
That day zach went to home and open the locker he saw some pictures and a letter..he was shocked to see the pictures.It was his dad picture with a certificate of drama school..his acting videos..competitions pictures
and eveything related to acting.he didn't understand what is going on as his dad alwayz hated acting..but the pictures were speaking sum thing else.he opened the letter.
Dear son,
you left me a letter before going so i m also doing the same thing.u must have seen all the pictures and videos regarding my acting.yes son i loved acting...and i also wanted to become an actor.my dreams were also like you to be superstar.but reality is stranger then fiction son.i always knew that acting will never give you what you deserved in your life .i have always watched each and every drama of yours and i m your biggest fan ever.But what has made me to hate acting so much is the two face feature of this Industry.Son now you must be aware of the fact that i don't have much time left..so i alwayz wanted that before i leave this world i see you self dependent so that i can rest in peace..son it was due to my acting dream,that cost your mothers life.Yes son i was trapped by some people,who used to import drugs and all illegal activities in name of providing chances to young budding artists.One day i was running away from police with your mother,i was cheated by the director who was a drug dealer and police was searching me.On that day i was speeding in a car in order to run away from this town and met with an accident,and i lost your mother..i was completely broken and shattered. This acting took everything from me Son and i saw you going in the same way,as i was going,thats why i alwayz opposed your acting dream..i never wanted you,to end up like i did..Zach i really love you and i have tried every possible thing to give the love of both father and mother..but still i think i failed..i m sorry son..but i will alwayz love you..
your dad.
Tears were rolling down from zach eyes and were not stopping..he was cursing himself for what he did..he quickly got up and went to hospital.he entered his father room...

"Dad,i have been the worst son,i never understood your emotions and was always thinking about me.i know that you love me very much and i also want to tell you that i also love you very much`.. i just want to tell you that i promise you i will make my life steady and will become a successfull man.Dad i just want a promise from you....i want 2 be your son for ever."
and he cried.
Mr Brown. lift his mask and kissed zach and told him,"son u will always be my best son...and i love you.....start your life with a new "Inception- a new beginning."....!!!
these were Mr Brown last words to zach.
Zach now is a proud owner of the biggest production company in the town which promotes budding artists..he is also a father of a son....named as "PHILIPS BROWN"...his father name...and his company name was"INCEPTION - A NEW BEGINNING"...!!!
THANKS FRIEND.

"I DONT KNOW WHY..?"

2010-09-22T01:17:00.000-07:00

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

2010-09-21T10:20:00.000-07:00

hey at last i have got into the action again and now almost after six months, i am again into ma writing stuff..thanks to my loneliness and of course my PC,alwayz there when i m alone.!! so as my blogs is to share my feelings..this time i m in a mood of becoming a story writer..i don't know how long it will be so it might take two post to the max but let start with it..bear with me friends..!!
"INCEPTION - A NEW BEGINNING"

my story revolves around two people.Mr.Philips brown and his son Zach brown..Zach was brought up by his father as his mother died in a tragic accident,when he was just 2 years.Father busy in his work didn't get enough time to be with his son,but did the best he could have done to make Zach never realized the absence of her mother but still there was always a void between the two on their issues.Zach always wanted to be an actor and was master in his skill but Mr brown didn't want zach to choose acting as a career. Mr. Brown short tempered nature had always been the culprit between their relation, and these problems alwayz made their feeling about how much they loved each other,died in their throats. It was Zach 18th birthday.
the door knocked
"happy birthday son"Mr Brown entered the room

"thanks dad" Zach came out of his bed and hugged his father.

"so son you are 18 now ,how does it feels to be an adult" Mr Brown had a twinkling smile

"stop it dad" zach told smiling too.

"so son here is your present"said Mr Brown by giving zach a key,it was key to his new bike.zach hugged his father like he was hugging a tree which was about to cut.

"ohhh son u will kill me save your emotions as u will be going to new york with your new bike nd girls,ha ha ha"Mr brown pulled off zach and gave him an envelope,it was an admission card of NYU.The joyous aura was suddenly turned into serious environment.

"i have already told you dad,i don't want to do business studies,i want to make my career in acting,i wanna be an actor"zach said streaming out of the room.

"and i have also made it clear to you that i don't want you to get into this line,it will just ruin your life",Mr Brown said angrily.

"Look son i am your father and i know what will be good for you,so try to understand what i m telling you,it's for your sake"Mr Brown said calmly this time.

"It has never been my sake dad,it has always been your wish,you will never understand me,i hope mom would have been here,i miss her very much"zach wore his jacket and was about to go.

"ya just go away those bloody friends of yours are the only family you have got,do hell with this cake"said Mr Brown throwing the cake off.

Reed and tony was zach's so called friends.They were spoiled and ruthless guys.zach was stuck with them as they were the bullies of the town and it provided security to zach.

"Happy birthday champ",said reed nd tony together.

"thanks dude"zach replied.

"wat happened...? let me guess..,it must be your father again,why dont he leaves you on your own"tony said to zach but he didn't replied.

"Jst leave the old man tony,its zach birthday and its time for his present".said Reed taking out an appointment letter from his pocket.

"wats that..?"zach asked reed.

"its your ticket to hollywood dude,this is ma uncle's appointment card,he is an casting director there,i talked to him about you,and he has agreed to cast you in one of his new movies".reed told zach anxiously.

"Are you kidding me dude..!!"zach jumped with joy..

"ahh haan not like this man,its your dream come true,lets celebrate..!!",said reed taking out bottles of beer and champagne.

"you are the beat reed",said zach and they drank all night..zach didnt drank too much but reed and tony was drinking like it was the last day on earth and last remaining bottles of beer.

"its enough tony,stop it reed,u had enough"..said zach to both guyz..

"ok it your birthday,we wiil listen to your each word,stop tony..stop..!!" said reed tumbling.all the guyz went to the car.

Reed was convincing both of them dat he is into his conscious and wanted to drive,and at last he convinced both of them..as they were heading toward their home,Reed was speeding too much and suddenly the car went off his track and got into a public telephone booth lukily no one was injured but their next destination was police station,because police had already arrived on the accident scene.....!!!

that is enough for today post friend i'l hope u like till this part and please provide feedback to me over this..so
( to be continued).....

WAT CHANGES .."CIRCUMSTANCES OR PEOPLE.."?

2010-03-15T10:11:00.001-07:00

yaa..it must be new 2 u guyz..mee with a serious topic..!!..bt had 2 write as ma blog is to share ma thoughts..frankly speaking life really depends on the circumstances.The people we know..who r close 2 our heart,without them,d day dont start, neither ends...people do holds these kind of places in our hearts,and i m sure everyone of u mst hav 1.But wat happens wen the actual face behind dese mask unfolds..the very next reaction is .."is dis the person,i was close 2..?"true isnt it."Circumstances"..d biggest word in our life,i think so.It can alter ur life through a 180 degree rotation..either in +ve or in -ve,either way it wants and den the game starts..the person who was with u in your gud times jst vanishes like a magician in a cloud of smoke without even chanting "abra ca dabra"..jst in a click.The moment wen u need someone to hold your hand in ur deepest and darkest times..is again expecting the bloody hell out of u.."if u were in pain,u could have told me".."you have always talked 2 mee..so wat happened now.." and bla bla..i jst wana know..wen dat person was with you..did he wait for your authentication abt ur problem ?..if he did then surely he deserved d same..but wat abt the people who were with u in ur darkest fears..they washed ur tears wen they needed to be blocked.Its very easy 2 expect bt its difficult 2 fulfill those expectations..stop giving lame excuses like.."i m alwayz been lik dis..i never initiate".. " i knew but i thought i should not interfere".. u know dese statements really hurt..because if the person really matters 2 u,u cant resist his absence,neither u cant wait for the initiation. how much a person is strong enough..he also need someone to take care of..if he is giving 100%..believe me he only expect 10%..dat is enouh for him 2 mak him feel better.but wen he finds no one,it doesnt take much time for him 2 jst back off frm ur life 4 ever.So friends seriously if you hav someone close to your heart..and u need 2 talk..do it now..unless the time will run out..and wen it will happen..u will be left with nothing...dats my point..nd if u du it will work believe me.Circumstances are the only thing which changes a person but it depends on the person in which way it changes him..either in positive way or negative way..and dat makes a personality and nature of a person.so dont trust any1 easily as u never know "the real mask could abt 2 b unfold"..

freedom..!!!!

2010-03-11T06:26:00.000-08:00

"FREEDOM"..i never felt this word so deeply as i felt it today..ya friends i m finally done with ma exams of "the 5th sem"..yes,the 5th sem..u kno why??because 1 feb -11th march,in dis period of almost 40 days..i have been fighting for ma survival just like d way our freedom fighters would have fought for our country..in ma case the only difference was..they were fighting with britishers..i was fighting wth my books..dere slogan was "quit india"..mine was "quit engg."dere day was 15th aug..mine was 11th march,so almost d same..seriously,i cant pen down my feeling abt wat i really felt during my exams..the level of frustration..serious attempts of tearing up ma books for almost 10 times..gazing people outside my window and thinking abt how lucky dey are dat dey can go anywere,without no tension.Now it mst be seeming like dat its too much on part of mee..and dat is the only thing which made me realize that "what the hell was my 5th sem"..but now its over..HOPE SO!...dere is so much i want to share but,it will take some while..so i should better shut up now wth "me and my 5th sem"...nd enjoy with ma FREEDOM..will be back soon with ma "experiences with books"..

LUCK BY FEVER..???

2010-02-18T09:36:00.000-08:00

Today i dont hav much to say.. i have got fever and i m not able 2 study,n still left wth a bundle of syllabus of electronics lying in ma room, which is not seeming less than a godown of books..3 days are left and now, dis fever.."i m dead"..jst hoping 2 get well soon..nd back 2 ma daily hectic rountine of dating ma books.. :-) need ur wishes friends.

BALATKARI SUBJECT- RPN

2010-02-17T08:56:00.000-08:00

22nd feb ..my exams are getting started,not a new thing, but wat's new in these exams is the feeling dat is constantly fluctuating in my heart just like the way a tubelight fluctuates when it is on the urge of giving up its life..dun worry ma feeling is not as same as that of the tubelight...bt the speed v/s time graph of fluctuation of ma feelings is constantly increasing its slope..to be precise guyz"mera balatkar ho gaya hai"...nd the balatkari is a subject of mine called as "RPN"-random process and noises..."m not preparing it anymore i m ready 4 a back"--"wat r u saying u idiot how will u prepare it afterwards..du it, u can "dese feelings have just saturated me 2 hell..for four hrs i was stuck nd didnt read even a word jst bcoz dese stupid thoughts are not leaving me..i m seriously not into any thng now..whether i will prepare it or i won't, its on the edge..its "aar or paar"now..i dont kno i m fred up wth dis subject and also i m out of "all iz welll" now, it seriously don't help..so guyz plzz pray 4 mee nd hope dat i could be able to prepare dis balatkari subject and finally get through it..i need you gud wishes..

COGNIZANCE

2010-02-15T12:54:00.000-08:00

"COGNIZANCE..2010" ,IIT Roorkee techno fest that is going to held on 26th of march..now why i m talking about it..well dis is jst one more addition to ma so called collection of those unfullfilled clusters of dreams, dat i used 2 think wen i was in 12th.Actually wen i was in process of making myself to be jst eligible for engineering i.e wen i was preparing for "the entrance" exams for the most prestigious institution of india.. specifically NIT's and IIT's..i dont know dat what kind of feeling or power or il say madness was forcing me to believe dat "yes dude you can crack iit"..imagine guyz not even thinking for NIT's..directly IIT's..oh god evry 1 should know the size of there shoes..kk cuming back, actually when i came to know from a friend of mine dat..dere is tech fest goin to held at IIT Roorkee, i immediately went for its site and was hoping 2 see sum gr8 stuff out dere.surely i did found really cool workshops and techno trips they are organizing,but along with it,again a dream of mine was shattered into pieces..nd it was of getting a good job after ma engineering..i was askin maself.."dude luk at d way dese students are workin around.. a huge platoon of IITians and NITians are jst preparing with dere armours of iit degrees and various courses to jst enter into the battle field of industries nd sweep all of us away"..so now again by god grace i m back wth a new thought of mine dat i m goin to attend their workshops and will compete wth dem along wth ma degree,.. so what if dey r from IIT..i will b having double experience 1 frm ma univ nd second frm there college..dats called positivity..so guyz if any 1 want 2 enroll for their workshops here is link http://cognizance.org.in/main/workshops/autonomous_robotics/index.php...i would probably be goin for it..and for all my friends...nothing to worry abt..jst say"ALLL IZZZ WELLLL"

2010-02-14T14:38:00.000-08:00

so finally i m out of ma dilemma of not expressing ma feelings through writing..first o all i should introduce ma self 2 u ..hi guyz dis is "RAGHAV "..an engineering student frm jammu university..ya,finally doin engineering..after some serious setbacks that could have blown me out of d serious competition which i called as "arena of competition"..i thnk i shuld stop dis crap now..nd shuld return back 2 mee.. as it is ma first blog aftr all.so first of all i want 2 giv credit to 2 frnds of minee who jst hav ignited dis spark in me of writing a blog...which i dont know will last for how many days.??nd frnds dey r sneha urf sepo..nd vandana urf vandy..hey girlz i need ur support in dis kk...so well jst 4 d start i jst wana say guyz m a preety enjoyable nd completely harmless person,until ma all harmones are working properly..i really love ma parents n d ma frnds are vry precious 4 mee..i m jst posting a video 2 day to jst giv u a brisk introduction of mee nd du comments ma frnds jst 2 boost me up..