MrzAdl

2012-02-14T15:20:00.002+08:00

Two more days :'D

Just Why ?

2012-02-08T17:15:00.002+08:00

Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart, now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?

2012-02-07T14:39:00.000+08:00

“O’ Allah, teach me to love others like I love myself, teach me to judge myself like I judge others. And if I have wronged anyone, give me the courage to apologize, and if anyone wronged me, give me the courage to forgive, ameen.”

There is a difference between Giving Up & Moving On

2012-02-07T00:52:00.002+08:00

Giving up is when you have a chance to change things, but you think it’s too difficult or not worth the trouble or just stop pursuing something and just give up on the spot.

Moving on is when you realize that you can’t change things or that it’s better that you don’t try any longer giving up or failure isn’t the best option. Moving on is another thing, moving on as in that you wouldn’t look back to the past and that you would be more successful than failure.

What is Love ?

2012-01-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

Our favorite description of love is from the movie Captain Corelli’s Mandolin:

When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No… don’t blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away… (Iannis to Pelagia) Note: there are two versions of this quote, one from the book and a slightly different version from the movie.

Love is probably one of the hardest things in life to figure out. Whenever people are in a relationship, they would always say “I Love You”. But to be real, just because you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, does not mean you two are in love. Yeah it’s something you just got to say in a relationship, but how do you really know if you do? I honestly said it to my past girlfriends, but coming to think of it, did I really love them? I do not believe so, because nothing we said during our relationship lasted. Till this day, I still do not know what love truly is. The love I have for my mom, dad, brother, and sister, or family in general, is a different kind of love to me. That’s the kind of love where, love is genuinely felt regardless. It’s one of those things where you feel what you feel, because you just do. But having love with a special someone, is completely different. How do you know if you are really in love? You can’t. It’s something you can’t believe in to think you do, you must feel it. But how do you know if you truly feel it? You must wait to see. If you are willing to sacrifice your wants for this person and give them your all in it’s fullest potential, then love may be felt in your relationship. People nowadays say it just to say it, but just because they call you late at night, take you out, buy you gifts, do sweet things at random times, or etc, does not mean you love each other. Yeah I know people do these things when they are in love, but a lot of you kids who don’t even know what you have going for yourselves in the near future, already believe you are in love just because of these little things your boyfriend or girlfriend does for you. LOVE will be figured out once your life is finally completed and nothing matters in your heart but that one person you gave your life to. Think about that.

2012-01-21T17:37:00.002+08:00

“I will love you as a drawer loves a secret compartment, and as a secret compartment loves a secret, and as a secret loves to make a person gasp, and as a gasping person loves a glass of brandy to calm their nerves, and as a glass of brandy loves to shatter on the floor, and as the noise of glass shattering loves to make someone else gasp, and as someone else gasping loves a nearby desk to lean against, even if leaning against it presses a lever that loves to open a drawer and reveal a secret compartment. I will love you until all such compartments are discovered and opened, and until all the secrets have gone gasping into the world.”

2012-01-18T10:47:00.001+08:00

We're so afraid to tell people how we feel because we have no idea how they're going to feel back. You can never take back what you said and it's hard to figure out if things will be the same. So, instead of taking a risk and confessing our feelings, we sit back and let the "whats ifs" gather in our heads.

2012-01-02T12:49:00.003+08:00

It was terrible and awful when someone left you. You could move on, do the best you could, but an ending was an ending. No matter how many pages of sentences and paragraphs of great stories led up to it, it would always have the last word.

FATE

2011-12-28T12:49:00.006+08:00

Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn’t something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn’t get in, and walk through it, step by step. There’s no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That’s the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

An you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You’ll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others. And once the storm is over you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.

2011-12-26T22:27:00.004+08:00

No one lives forever. In fact, quite the opposite. Our generation is expected to die before our parents. It’s so hard to break the boundaries that society has put on us, but you have to. I know it’s hard not to be scared about the future, you think you have to work non-stop so you can live when you’re older. But, fuck it. Your teenage years will be the best years of your life. So go live them. Road trips, making friends, fucking girls, whatever. Just go do it. Don’t waste your time now for the future, because it may never happen. You may be killed tomorrow. I’m never going to live my life in the conventional form that is birth, school, college, work, marriage, the grave. Fuck that. That’s what “This Is What The Edge of Your Seat Was Made For” is about. “Let’s not change the subject - let’s go chase the sunset, bring me the horizon,” meaning stop putting shit off, get off the computer, and go make an unforgettable moment happen with your friends.
Go get that feeling like when you’re in a different country and the air is warm, and you feel so different.

2011-12-23T20:14:00.000+08:00

Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognised, or even worse, returned. But one thing about human beings that puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within.

One, four years baby ,

2011-12-15T00:46:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, december 14, 2011.

Dear Akmal Afiq,

I wanna thank you; not giving up on me, I wanna thank you for believing what could be, 'cause you mean so very much to me, I wanna thank you for never letting go, I don't think you realise, how could you know?

I wanna tell you what’s filled me at this time, I wanna tell you you're always on my mind. From the moment that I wake to lasting all night, I wanna show you this love is deep inside, I wanna show you, you see it in my eyes. Have you sensed the change in me? Do you realise?

You are all I’ll ever need. You’re my everything.

I had a great time with the awesome of you today. I will never forget all the memories that we did. I promise. Thank you for everything. Happy anniversary biy. I will always love you :')

Tikam Batu, Pantai Merdeka

2011-12-13T11:32:00.000+08:00

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Assalamualikum.
Hi Semua. Jumpa lagi kita naa. Okay, hari ni Mza ada kena attend satu majlis. Kami kawan baik sembilan orang. Kami dijemput oleh Akmal, ke rumah dia. Majlis pertunangan kakak dia. Mulanya tak nak pergi tapi memang kena pergi pun so kami pergi. Macam biasa, kami berlima pergi juga. Mza, Yanie, Jieja, Syida, Nadia. Yeah. Kami sentiasa bersama sampai hari ni. Alhamdulillah.

Jieja, Syida

Okay, vrommm vrommmm kami menuju ke sana. Mza masih ingat waktu kali pertama Mza pergi rumah Akmal. Tapi tak masuk pun sampai rumah dia. Berhenti dekat simpang rumah dia ja. Jadi, ini kali kedua Mza pergi dengan kawan Mza yang lain. Serious cakap, Mza malu teruk. Sangatlah malu. Ya lah. Okay, taktau kenapa. Tapi memang malu sangat. Aceyy, buat buat taktau pula malu kenapa. Mau sepak ja Mza ni kan? Okay, macam Yanie dengan Jieja cakap la, ''Malu la sebab pergi rumah mak mertua''. Aiseymen. TRUE. I HOPE SO LA. AMINN AMINN AMINN, HAHAHAHA !

Okay, setibanya di sana terasa nak balik pula. Kelihatan ramai sangat orang kat rumah Akmal. Mesti lah ramai kan, kakak dia bertunang. Apa lah kami ni. Okay. Kami lock pintu kereta so Akmal tak boleh buka so kami tak perlu la turun pergi masuk rumah Akmal. Mza ingat Mza sorang ja yang malu, rupanya sekerabat Mza pun malu. Aceh hampa mengata Mza, hampa pun sama la. Heh. Tapi kami turun juga. Acting seperti biasa. Tapi Mza tak boleh sorok muka Mza yang automatik bertukar menjadi merah. Itu sifat semulajadi. Okay, takpa.

Sudah masuk, sudah salam, sudah kenal dengan semua, terasa okay. Alhamdulillah. Sekali lagi berjalan dengan lancar hari ni. Kakak Akmal cantik. Tahniah, kakak. Maaf gambar takda. Next, makan. Okay, Mza tak makan. Makan tu makan lah juga tapi sikit. Tak boleh nak makan. Takut nanti terkeluar balik. Kasihan Mza kan. Huu. Okay, dah.

Mza memang sangat suka buat muka macam tu. Harap maklum, terima kasih.

Jujur cakap, Mza rasa sedih bila Mza tanya kawan baik Mza yang lagi empat tu untuk datang ke rumah Akmal tapi masing masing cakap taktau, tak dijemput, Akmal tak cakap apa pun. Fuh, memang sedih. Padahal Akmal sudah pun cakap dekat kami semua. Tapi tak mengapa, sudah dipujuk rayu maka datanglah jua mereka. Tapi tak cukup sorang. Tapi diganti orang lain. Tak mengapa. Tertanya juga mana lagi sorang tu, rupanya dia di hospital, sakit. Wahh :O Kenapa kami baru tau hari ni? Okay, takpa.

Okay, dah lama kami di sini. Masa untuk kami balik. Ya Tuhan, lagi sekali. Mza rasa ... Okay, lupakan. Jum kita teruskan. Next, Pantai Merdeka. Okay, ini kali kedua juga Mza datang. Waktu first time Mza datang zaman Mza muda muda dulu. Aceyy, zaman Mza kecik lagi la. Tapi hari ni lagi sekali bersama mereka. Dapat luangkan masa lagi. Ya Allah, Mza akan rindu each moments. Akmal turut join aktiviti kami di Pantai Merdeka. Katanya, kami tak ajak. Okay, kami ajak. Dia datang tapi sorang. Lagi empat sudah balik Bukit Mertajam. Kerja, kata mereka. Okay.

I Heart You, Akmal.

Yanie, Syida

Nadia, Jieja, Mirza

Okay, masa untuk balik. Sekian, TY.

Pulau Pinang

2011-12-13T01:26:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Assalamualaikum.
Hi manusia. Hari ni Alhamdulillah plan kami berjalan dengan lancar. Siapa kami? Mza, yanie, syida, jieja, nadia. Siapa lagi, kami lah. Mana pernah berkurang, angka kami tetap sama. Lima sahabat karib. Harap kekal bersahabat baik sampai bila bila, aminn.

Yanie, Jieja, Syida, Nadia

Hari ni, kami jalan jalan pusing Penang. Weng weng, kami rempit. Har har. Okay, not funny -.- Mak kami cakap merempit tak baik. So, kami drift. Vromm vromm. Lebih safe kan ? :) Yeay, I'm the driver. Naik accord today. Hihi. Okay ladies, lets roll ! First destination, kami ke Batu Feringgi. Check in Bayview Hotel. Bajet orang kaya lah ni kan? Padahal pergi tanam angan angan ja ha. Tengok pool, teringin ja nak join kat sana. Fuh, tapi itu semua hanya angan angan kami berlima.

Seterusnya, kami ke Parkroyal. Lagi satu impian nak bermalam di sini bersama yang tersayang. Cewahh, macam boleh sangat lah kan? Kan syiok kalau petik jari duit turun dari langit. Fuh, best tu. Tapi itu mustahil. Tak mengapa. Kami lepak disana. Lepak pun sekejap ja. Tak boleh lama lama nanti kena tendang dengan guard kat sana. Ya lah, orang miskin. Kami tak mampu nak stay kat sana, huu. Sedihnya. Takpa takpa. Kami kerja nanti dah dapat gaji kami mai, hampa tunggu.

Kemudian, kami pusing Georgetown. Okay, saja kami membazir masa pusing Georgetown. Macam tak pernah pergi pula lah kan. Padahal stay Penang saja, ish. Takpala. Kali ni dapat juga habiskan masa dengan hanya kami berlima. Fuh, terasa rindu lah pula kawan kawan. Okay kawan kawan, Mza rindu hampa ni. Hik. Kami pusing pusing sampai taktau nak ke mana dah ha. Serious ni.

Akhirnya, kata putus daripada Jieja, kami ke Penang Hill. Ya Tuhan, lamanya Mza tak jejak ke sini. Semuanya dah lain. Makin cantik. Okay, orang orang luar sana, mai lah Penang Hill. Takpa, Mza tolong promote sat. Hihi. Mza cakap serious eh, dulu train kat situ lembab macam siput. Sekarang dah maju. Train tu dah laju. Sumpah, Mza cuak. Depa tipu Mza, cakap train tu tak laju sangat, biasa ja. Mza dah macam nak menangis. Agak agak la. Laju kot. Tapi takpalah. Demi Jieja, Mza naik juga train tu dengan yang lain.

Syida, Yanie, Jieja, Mirza

FYI, Mza tak pendek okay. Tapi depa pakai wedges. TY

Nadia, Syida, Jieja

Hampa nampak tak tangan depa? Rupanya, ni lah sebab Jieja nak sangat pergi Penang Hill. Aiseymen. Sebab ni ja? If Mza tau lah kan, Mza pergi beli benda tu suruh tarok sendiri nanti. Kan lebih mudah? Tapi takpalah. Kami ke sini pun best juga ha. View Penang sangat cantik. Tenang ja jiwa kat sana. Tapi hari tu Mza sedih, teringat DIA yang sedang serabut bermasalah. Hm, kasihan dia. Tapi tak mengapa, depa ni ada untuk ceriakan hari Mza balik. Thank you, sahabat. Lebiu <3

Next, kami ke balik pulau. Niat ke Airport Penang. Saja nak pergi. Rindu pula nak pergi. Padahal baru bulan lepas jejak sana. Airport Penang dah cantik sekarang. Wah. Tapi lastly kami sesat kat sana. Aiseymen. Kasihan kami. Entah kampung mana kami pergi. Haha. Tapi Alhamdulillah jumpa juga jalan nak balik. Sedar sedar dah petang. So terpaksa lah pulang ke kediaman masing masing.

Dalam perjalanan pulang, atas bridge ni. Sesak. Bermulalah kisah sedih diantara kami semua. Mza jadi teringat kenangan Mza dengan kawan kawan baik Mza yang lain. Kami selalunya bersama walau apapun. Kami sentiasa sembilan orang. Tapi sekarang tinggal kami berlima. Apa jadi dengan yang empat lagi? Mza pun taktau. Berbagai-bagai keputusan kami buat masa tu rasa macam nak give up ja dengan yang empat ni. Tapi kami sayang mereka yang empat tu. Harap sangat boleh kawan baik macam dulu. Ya Allah, satukanlah persahabatan kami semula, aku mohon padaMU, Ya Allah. Aminnn.

Its have been for a while

2011-12-08T18:49:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

Okay, hi semuanya. Apa khabar? Mza alhamdulillah sihat. Okay, alhamdulillah Mza sudah lepas daripada SPM. Oh yeah. Last paper, accounts hari isnin hari tu. Alhamdulillah, Mza sudah cuba sehabis baik yang Mza mampu untuk dapat yang terbaik dalam semua subjects.

Ya Allah, sekejap ja sekarang Mza dah habis sekolah. Tak sangka kan? Terasa baru kelmarin ja Mza masuk form 4. Sekarang sudah habis pun form 5. Alhamdulillah. Banyak kenangan baik buruk sepanjang Mza sekolah di High School Bukit Mertajam. Walaupun Mza sudah lepas zaman persekolahan tapi High School Bukit Mertajam tetap di hati. Tak lupa juga kenangan Mza di SMK Mengkuang tahun 2007. Those memories will never fade away. I will miss every single memories in high school.

I will never forget 4 Intelek/5 Harmoni.

We are now free from Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia, Oh Yeahh :D

Jieja, Nadia, Syida, Mirza, Yanie
Yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end, and somewhere in the middle we became best of friends. I heart you four :')

I can’t never stand it

2011-12-08T17:36:00.000+08:00

Starting to feel that everyone around me is just straight up fake. No one gives two shits about you, no matter how well they play off that they care and no one wants to see you unless they get something out of it. People are fucking horrible. I can’t stand it. This is why I don’t have many friends. A majority of people who I surround myself with, or at least attempt to, are flaky as fuck and really don’t give two shits about you.

2011-12-02T15:55:00.006+08:00

Be patient Mza. The last two paper is on Monday, Accounts. Sigh.

Okay, lupalah

2011-08-10T18:09:00.023+08:00

Okay, Salam Ramadhan. Belum terlambat kan? Hik :)

Okay, tinggal berapa hari lagi nak raya. Mza belum shopping lagi. Selamat Hari Raya. Jangan main mercun, bahaya. Tak elok untuk kesihatan. Polis marah tau.

Okay, tinggal berapa hari ja Mza nak pegi test JPJ kereta. Akmal dengan Syida pun. Akmal kereta, Syida motor. Doa kami lulus. Mza tak nak buat banyak kali. Biarlah ini kali pertama lulus terus macam Mza test JPJ motor hari tu. Insyaallah, Aminn.

Okay, tinggal berapa minggu lagi ja nak TRIAL. Aaaa ! Mza surely not ready. Heh. Senantiasa cari buku tak pernah jumpa. Panic, bernafas macam orang dah nazak :/

Okay, tinggal berapa bulan ja ha nak SPM. Ya Allah :'( Penting ni untuk masa depan. Mza nak masuk universiti. Nak bagi mama papa Mza happy. Nak bagi ada degree. Pulun Mza pulun. Insyaallah, Allah bantu :')

Okay, Mza nak minta tolong semua orang doakan kejayaan Mza dengan kawan kawan Mza. Mza nak lulus dengan cemerlang. Insyaallah. Aminn.

Okay, Mza terpaksa tinggal blog ni. Ada masa insyaallah mza update lagi. Jaga diri baik baik naa.

Assalamualaikum.

Relation have stages

2011-08-09T14:55:00.000+08:00

STAGE 1 (1-3 Months): The Honeymoon Stage

Everything seems perfect, both are happy and feeling “in love.” You share moments, dates and just having fun with each other, sharing laughs and giggles. It’s like nothing could stop you. Your feelings are infinite, and for once you’re thinking, “This may work out….” and it seems like nothing could go wrong. You spend hours getting ready before going out with this person.

*If your relationship ended in this stage — Most likely, both rushed into the relationship too quickly. Being together was all too sudden and just for the moment. When one starts noticing the flaws, one gets a choice to move forward, or back away. Being friends has a high percentage of working out, but nothing to stress over. Both may just need the time to get to know one another better.

STAGE 2 (4-6 months): The Bumpy Road
Things are going okay now. The relationship is calm and settled; both are still mostly happy. Had a couple arguments and disagreements here and there, nothing huge. Start to notice some of each other’s flaws and aspects of their personalities not seen before, but still truly care for one another.

*If your relationship ended in this stage — You truly cared about this person. You had the energy to fight for this person, yet you feel as if something was lacking, something was missing. It doesn’t feel right, one isn’t happy. When one isn’t happy, one tends to walk away to seek their new happiness. Being friends is still a possibility.

STAGE 3 (7-12 months): The Rocky Mountain
You start to realize who your partner really is. A few more arguments may occur. Problems with jealously, overprotectiveness may arise. Other people may come in the picture. The “in love” moments start to decrease, but you feel as if you’ve “fallen in love.” You tend to have this energy inside to strive and “make it work,” and you feel more comfortable being around this person, feeling more of yourself.

*If your relationship ends in this stage — You feel as if you’re hurt, depending on the circumstances. You were so sure that that person was “The One.” You were so SURE that he/she was different. But like a cancer, a problem that may have happened, a small issue, grew into something larger that took over what was made between two people. You still miss this person from time to time. You still remember the memories. Being friends may be difficult right away, but over time, you slowly mature up, and learn the reality of it.

STAGE 4 (1 year or more): The Long Road
1, 2, 3, 4, 5 years, huh? This person truly means something to you. You are “in love” with this person. He/she made a difference in your life. No one else knows you more than this person. You guys have been through the good, the bad, and the ugly, and still strive to make it last.

*If your relationship ends in this stage — You feel heartbroken; it’s tough. You can’t sleep, can’t eat, you miss him/her, you try to move on, you try meeting new people, but seems like nothing works. For whatever reason the split occured, it must’ve been something important, or something must have been so wrong that it took over. Being “just friends” is impossible, because if you tried to be friends, you wouldn’t be able to think of them in any other way besides the one you once “loved.”

To the one who has my heart

2011-08-08T16:27:00.000+08:00

When I look at you, my heart starts to ache and I have to look away because I know that I will start to tear up. Knowing that I lost you and will never be able to call you mine again hurts more than you will ever know. Every time I want to talk to you in person I forget what I have to say…

You make me happy

2011-08-07T21:31:00.001+08:00

You make me happy whenever I’m talking to you, being with you, or even just sitting with you. It doesn’t matter what we’re doing, but just being with you will make me happy. You constantly make me smile, laugh, have a great time with you, & just overall have hurting cheeks. I can’t help but wonder how I got lucky enough to have gotten someone like you. You’re the person I like & you’re the only person I’ll continue to like until I know it’s time for both of us to move on. I’ll keep you happy & you can keep me happy.

Just You.

2011-07-29T16:33:00.001+08:00

I just want you. I want to wake up to you saying ‘Good morning.’ I wanna sit with you in bed, talk for hours and not get bored. And maybe you can teach me how to play your favorite video games. I want to give you my undivided attention; I want you to pour your heart and soul out to me. I wanna make silly face at you and make you laugh. I want to be the only girl to make you smile. I wanna walk in the streets holding your hand. I want to be able to have my hair pinned back, in my old sweats and not be insecure. I want you to be happy. I wanna be able to tell you all my secrets I don’t even tell my closest friends. I want to give you kisses on your forehead. I want have a stable relationship with you. No yelling, no cheating, no bullshit, no secrets. I wanna lay in your arms and whisper you ‘Good night, I love you.

2011-07-24T15:05:00.001+08:00

MZA RNDU BLOG MZA. TAPI MZA TADA MASA NAK UPDATE. BUSY SEPANJANG MASA. INSYAALLAH MZA AKAN CARI TIME UNTUK UPDATE :')

I Like

2011-07-16T11:59:00.000+08:00

And everybody was talking about those PLKN things. Guess what? For me, Maaf! Anda tidak terpilik untuk menyertai PLKN Siri9/2012. Terima kasih. Isnt life is amazing? Hahhhh :) Tapi kan, teringin juga nak pegi haa. Tapi persoalannya, bolehkah mza hidup di sana sedangnya sekarang pun mza tak boleh nak berjauhan dengan family? Ehm, biasalah. Mza orang terpenting dalam family, hik :)

Okay, gemuk pendek -_____-

Happiness

2011-07-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

My first time wearing hijab. So how was it ?

You want to know what happiness is? It’s waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn around and see them in their most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. They breathe as though the weight of the world lays on anyone’s shoulder but their own. You smile, kiss their face in the most gentle manner so as not to wake them. You turn back around and an involuntary grin forms on your own face. You feel an arm wrap around your waist, and you know it doesn’t get any better than this.