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Relief is a feeing

2012-05-26T18:23:00.004+08:00

People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead.

Pain vs Coping

2012-05-26T11:56:00.001+08:00

If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.

There are many kinds of pain. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.

Facing rejections!

2011-07-30T15:03:00.000+08:00

Recent events turns ugly when discussion comes into the picture! Maybe my stubborn character is the cause for everything, however, this is something i still cannot accept. There's no room for negotiation and i am expected to compromise in almost everything.. especially those that i cannot compromise at all.

The fact that even after the fraud investment case he encountered just so recently. i objected him from investing into his friend's so called forum/webhosting for forex trading claiming to earn high profits within short period of time. He claimed that i was not supporting in everything he's doing and so i gived in eventually to let him do whatever he feel is right. Results comes out to be losing his entire investment to this so called close childhood friend he TRUSTED more than me. Haha although the amount is not much, but its painful enough an experience as we are not in good financial situations(the reason he become desperate to this scam offer).

I used to be someone he seek opinion from, and i can sense that he take my advise seriously. Not anymore! Now anything little things his friend said is golden advise even if the result turns ugly, everything i say is just nagging and not being supportive. 1st is the investment, 2nd is a thai amblet that his friend said would bring better luck in things he do.. he choose his friend's advise/the amblet rather than me although i tell him i don't feel comfortable with this sort of things. 3rd, almost all of my friends know how much i cannot stand cruelty to animals as i treat their lives as equal as our own. He left me and walked away when i was traumatized by the sights of all the piercing through those baits use for fishing, crying like hell i ask him to accompany me but to no avail. I was angry and sad but i managed to persuade myself to behave nicely afterwards and try to patch things up. i admit i wasn't serious in this r/s in the beginning but now i really treasure it as from all those things he had done to me in the past touched me.

Woke up in the morning, gave him a call to tell him i actually miss him... sweet right? i know is normal, but its still sweet right? hahaha.... turns out...... he malign me for turning his alarm off, tell me his huihua credit is going to fine any staff who's late with fine. This HuiHua don't pay his staff any basic or OT.. give you a faulty almost scrap vehicle to drive which don't cover even a single cent for petrol or any repair cost if any parts went faulty. It seems to me like a blood-sucking company. Yes you get good take home pay for several months in the year when market is good whereby you have better sales. But... as long as you got sales, your pay is sure to be good if no matter which car dealer company you go to am i not right to say so? On top of that, some offers you basic, petrol allowance and etc.. It simply ridiculous for a company who offers no basic to come out with this kind of rules to follow!

Well my boyfriend rather be stupid to compromise to this ridiculous company and refered me as not supportive, what else can i say.. How do you expect me to support with ridiculous and stupid stuffs? Just like pushing you into the fire-pits? But since this is the way you want me to be, than i shall be... i shall not be concern and KPO about your thinking and decision, things that you think is beneficial never failed to be the things i think stupid. You want to let people ride on you than go ahead. I wish in time you will see why am i not being supportive, my effort is so unseen, is it just because i want to control you or is it for your own good.

I feel lesser and lesser loved day by day, incidents by incidents. Its the way you react to me, not the things you buy for me that counts. If i was that materialistic than why should i be with you in the 1st place? I could just find a loaded partner who can provide me much better than you monetarily without much effort, unlike yours that have to go through a lot of planning to buy the gift. Do you even know its the effort that touched me rather than the price of your gifts. Its that effort that make me feel i am being treasured... will i feel that kind of effort again?

10Months

2011-04-08T16:02:00.000+08:00

10 Months and 3 days after staying together under a roof, today, i finally take up the courage of moving back to my own home and stay with my mom and dad. Its a painful decision to make but i guess thats the best way to save my relationship.

Almost daily argument over the same old topic is killing the both of us. I cannot bear and tolerate HUIHUA CREDIT's babarian way and style of working, but you choose to bear with it so i should respect your decision. I'm too old to be quarreling over this kind of childish matter. I should be mature enough to hold on to the pain i have and carry on. I know that he won't stop me from doing so and my mom will spit ugly word on me... but... i WILL tolerate and i know i can do it! JiaYou...T_T

I am so going to miss my prince and princess, i wonder if they can still stay as close to me when they don't get to see me daily anymore. I doubt my own decision now.. Will i regret? This decision has a 2 directions to go towards to. 1 is that we can hold stronger as we don't get to see each other everyday and so we will treasure the moments more when we meet. 2nd is due to the lack of close time as we do for the past 10 months and our relation will simmer off as time goes by. I am feeling very insecure with great heartache.. what should i do what should i do?

Chinese New Year 2011

2011-02-19T11:03:00.000+08:00

So 2011 had arrived and is my rabbit year this year... Aiyaya, 冲太岁哦!

No wonder go casino also lose money.....

My mom ask us to wear red red to go also did not help wahaha!!! Preparing to go and lose haizzz,...

Hoping to win some money since they isn't any profit last night!

Hahaha..... but in the end lose all.... :"(

daily routine - sadness

2011-01-16T19:36:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, my mother gave me an advice that is very meaningful. She told me that life is infact just a very short period of time whereby it will end sooner than you even realize. After its over, everything will come to an end! Nobody knows whether there really has reincarnation or heaven etc... what if it don't, than everything about you and your life will just vanished from existence in this world and full-stop!

So why are we so persistant in getting the best in life over fame, money or status etc.? To get a better life is to get more money so that you can buy all kinds of thing you ever wanted? Is this really making the summary of your life happier?

Life is all about getting happier everyday isn't it?
But my life, i just cannot feel happy about it! Yes i have a bad temper, weird character, still i think to the least my heart is kind! I just don't like to show my weakness and kindness out can i? If somebody really care to put in more effort to understand me, that person will know that all the mean things i say don't mean amything afterall. I seriously love my dog i swear, but when you say that i am not responsible, not taking care of them and so on... have you spare me a thought? Do you know how much i miss them? Do you know how worry i am over the things you mentioned that they put all sorts of things into their mouth when we are not around? Seriously, i am so much younger than my elder sister and my mom has always reminding me of that she will not be here for too long, she is old. Do you know how heartache it is to hear that but still have to pretend that it does not mean anything?

Before we bought the dogs, i already told you that we will for sure quarrel regarding them no matter what the reason is. Although i admit that the situation now is worse than what i thought it will be. Please don't make it sound like i was the only one who wants to own dogs. You wanted them too though you only want one but there really isn't much difference between one and two i can guarantee that. There's no space for negotiation here and there and i am stuck in between both side that i equally love. I love my dogs and my mom really so so much! The dogs are not behaving correctly because they are not well train and so young still, they need alot of attention i know. But my mom won't allow them to come over my house to stay because my dad hates animals and they will quarrel. What you want me to do? I told my mom that i will stay over your side because they don't allow them to enter my house. Until the day she allow my dogs to come over, than i will come over. I make it so harsh and hurting yet the result is only she get hurt and i get hurt too without anybody realizing.

You really hurt me big time with all the things you do recently! Your career is really pushing me to the corner + you push all the responsibilities of dog's well-being to me (at least you sound that way). Just without a thought, you say that i have been going out late nowadays and neglect the dogs more and more day by day. You wanna think of how bz and tired we both are from work? You wanna think what is coming up soon whereby we have to make preparations for? You mean you really don't see the TRUE reason why we have been out till late these recent weeks? Talk about neglecting the dogs for days. How about neglecting my moms for weeks? Can you spare a thought for me how to neutral both north south pole balance when there's totally no flexibility given to me. I am already suffering and need to relax my mind a little in order to stay happy and find positive solution yet i am also another neglected victim too.. You still have to say things that hurt me? Just ask yourself have you been neglecting me?

Anyway, this passage is not meant to be read by anyone. Its just a diary, or rather my vend anger tool to keep myself happy; to stop quarreling with anyone like my mom whom i just shouted with. If happened you read this, just don't come and question me why i have to write till like this, i don't mean you are not good to me. Your words just hurt me especially when i'm already being squeezed in between. Makes me feel like nobody understand me( you know who you are i am referring to.) thanks alot. :'(

Batam trip 2010

2010-11-01T01:57:00.003+08:00

Just came back from Batam.. This is my very first time travelling oversea alone with my boyfriend only in my entire life till now. I have been anticipating for such a trip to happen and it FINALLY does..woo hoo~~ Its a 3 day 2 night stay in the cabana room honeymoon package(haha). The room was quite well decorated with flower petals on the bed and the bath-tub when we entered. But that idiot go and spoil the bed before i could take picture of it -_-*!!!

As it happens on the halloween night, there was a halloween party held there. Although it was quite a boring celebration but still better than nothing.

I felt contented about the trip afterall. Even though the bath-tub leaks,warm water is limited, and the electric plugs are not working, i could say that it was quite a memorable one despite all this negativities..... (beside, the things there are so damn expensive, worse than singapore eg. pringles chips -> SGD$5, can soft drink ->SGD$2.50 etc...) Its more like a relaxing trip rather than a spending havoc one... so 'mai hiam' so much la hor?? hahaha.....

Corset!

2010-09-05T18:13:00.000+08:00

I want to buy alot alot of corset! 不要问我为什么那么喜欢它. 没有原因! 我本人也很想知道我为什么那么喜欢穿corset leh...

惨了啦~~ this thursday nath aiai 的 bikini party really have to show off my fatzz liao... why dun wan corset party instead? haiz... than can give me an excuse to buy more corset ma haiz....

I am actually writing this inside my office here as there are no valuation form coming in for the past few hours and i am really getting very bored waiting for the time to fly. What else can i do huh?

Is there anybody out there by chance read my blog and want to sell car/ buy car? or have friends thinking of doing so? Intro to me leh... i help help although i not doing this line but my boyfriend is mah,.... than i kpo kpo haha.....

my presents...

2010-07-23T03:13:00.002+08:00

MoM - A durian design durian cake and dinner with my whole family except Chantelle who went to school camping. (what a waste)

Sis and her husband - *this is even more sad case* A Sony Vivaz which is lost quite some time ago and a hongbao..

hubby - Nixon digital camera for now and Iphone 4G with contract signed under his name when it launch.

My computer - Not ascessible to facebook at all from yesterday till now. not even after i de-fragmented it

Went shopping with my mom in the noon at Marina Square and Suntec. Came back home for dinner with family and cake at my sis house. Play with the kids and some photo taking and videos of my cute nephew Maximilan dancing ( kawaii ). After everybody went to sleep or back home, me and raymond stayed back to accompany my sister play Monopoly.

At last we came home and had some chat, some discussion, some quarrel and bath and somebody say wan to wait for me to come out from bath but was snoring lazily when i was back.

dunno how to say liao... was good was bad too.. stoopid computer too old liao, quarrel haiz... nvm la i will get use to it. Anyway already found a way to lighten the quarreling by using typing instead of open my mouth to talk. Guess i am better off as a mute.. perhaps

My Birthday!

2010-07-22T05:08:00.000+08:00

Haiz..... Dunno how to say about this birthday... Should be just another normal day for me...

I had my advance birthday present pretty early from my sis after i got into an armed robbery and my handphone being snatched away. My beloved sis bought me a brand new sony vivaz as present, but i lost it after using for less than a week and one month before my birthday my birthday gift was already lost! I got so upset that i hate myself so much and has got no mood to do anything at all!!!

I wonder if i can still really enjoy this coming birthday under this kind of mood.... Luckily i had Raymond by my side who encourages me to take up with morning job and get myself more busy and too tired to think about all this nonsense that is killing me deadly.

Although there are times we quarrel but yet he still give in to me afterall all this while. i wonder am i being too hard on him as my past relationship was in a mess and i just want someone who can tolerate all the nonsense so that i can feel the importance of myself or what? I really appreciate the thought of him to help me have a celebration as those who knows me well, they know how much i love to have one but didn't dare to think of it much as this loner here is always celebrating her bday with tears. Therefore is like, looking forward with fear that kind of feeling that i don't really know how to put it into words.. Grand celebration to me is like a dream ever since young... looking at photos of my sister having parties with envy as i do not have one during my childhood timess... but 希望越高, 失望就越大。

This is what i should know best however, i still cannot control myself of being snap between wanting to celebrate and not wanting.... i hate this kind of confusion i create for myself but am constantly creating it arrrgggggg......
But one this great this year is that i have a good boss that is very understanding and kind. Who offered me to take leave and spend my birthday with my family instead of going to work. I really am touched by it dramatically as most of u guys know that i am always in bad luck with jobss... All my ex-bosses are all babaric and not understanding... I think this might be the most wonderful gift life have given to me this year. Steve and Enqi... I hope that u both know how much i appreciate you guys... you both are GREAT~~!! Muackkzzzz ^_^

Getting normal? or.....

2010-07-16T11:35:00.000+08:00

After recomendation from raymond chan to work in his company(morning job), i started to wake up early. Although yet i still sleep late hahaa...

As for now, my japanese lesson is getting more difficult and difficult although its only at Elementary 2, i already started to feel the stress of unable to catch up! Maybe because i am old liao, brain not functioning as well sob... and also maybe i am too tired working 2 jobs together with this part-time study!

Whatever the case is, i feel contented at least my time is filled up by learning new things every single day i work and study! Therefore, i guess all the hardwork and tiredness are all worthwhile. Hope that i am able to cope with it and experience what a normal person life could be while i am still at it... cheerssss`~~

my life really.....

2010-05-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

Where got ppl so suay kena robbed by thief somemore with a knife in Singapore? haiz...young time got car hit and run accident, den got principle bribery case, stalker etc etc and now got arm robbery! What the hell?? why my life so many drama de? can it be less dramatic? dunno want to laugh at it or what know... haiz haiz haiz

Maximilian's Birthday

2010-05-20T07:20:00.001+08:00

I am so very glad he love the toy bus i bought for him.... seeing that he treasure it so much make me feel very contented and everything seems like so wonderful for the whole day.... Although is actually his Birthday but seems like i am the one that is getting benefit from the Birthday boy because he really make my day a great and marvelous one!!!!

This toy Gtr is not his present but i jus took a pic of it since i was there.... My sis and her hubby import this well-made toy Gtr from japan and trust me, it is really well done piece of toy... NICE

After the celebration at my sis place, i meet up with felicia and andrew for the $8 KTV session at cineleisure. Initially we went to AMK's de but 1 outlet got short circuit and causing the other outlet fullhouse! So in the end we end up in the cineleisure one instead LOL~~

my emo 'my melody' and me

2010-05-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

Went to cineleisure to watch show with friends and found more of the collection of my melody with tears... Aren't they cute and beautifyl?

so happy the last week.. nw sad back

2010-05-06T02:12:00.000+08:00

i dunno what is wrong.... am i really jus so dispensable? my 2 ex jus treat me like.... haha... dun wanna say la... jus found out from their friend that i am jus like a shit!!!

cat and it's milkbottle

2010-04-13T04:58:00.000+08:00

Today after my class, meet up with nath and andrew to Lor5 for dinner.... This few days keep eating oh no man... i must have gain so much weight!

On the way to Andrew's hse to use net n do homework, we walk past the auntie with big black dog i always visit and there's this new kitten there that is so tiny. The most interesting is when she saw her milk bottle she seems so excited! She can even grab her milk bottle on her own... kawaii desu ne? She refused to let go of her milk bottle no matter how we distract her and so.. she's really very lovely, i'm sure i'll be back for another visit real soon<333

No riding

2010-04-12T04:15:00.000+08:00

His name is Andrew... my supper buddy and he is a iphone-fanatic!!!!

This is what he illegally done and was caught on camera by ME wahahahahaa>,<
Give me $1000 fine bah....

New hair cut...

2010-04-09T01:57:00.002+08:00

Finally got my pay and got it cheque in hip hip hooray~~~!
Although the amount is very little but i decided to make a change and pamper myself to a new haircut! Rebond + color and cut.. Quite cheap la 127.80nia at Snip Avenue....

Now the color so dark very not use to it lo... haiz
Later at night meet my friend Zen for a movie session at Toa Payoh central watching future x-cop... The show is not nice and the computer graphic make me and him both abit giddy~ but i enjoy his accompanion though LOL... full of bullshits hee hee

莫文蔚-如果没有你

2010-04-08T01:12:00.001+08:00

like the meaning of this song so much... its very true! Although we know very well that the person will hurt us but if given a choice, u would still wanna get urself hurt too.....

Another Crazy Day

2010-04-08T00:41:00.001+08:00

Met up with Daniel and we went crazy eating at a 東北restaurant @ chinatown! Look at the food we ordered, there's only the 2 of us leh and the portion is big u know... The price is not expensive so we initially thought that the portion might be small thats why we order more but we did manage to finish up afterall LOL.....

Because the timing is very weird, i dunno should it be considered supper or breakfast :x Anyway, we went home after that meal and packup straightaway and head out to Sengkang Anchorvale sports and recreational centre and swim in the indoor swimming pool for 3 hrs. I haven swim for the past 10yrs lo now my whole body is aching like hell HAHAxxx... well in was fun la~~~

Night-time nath bring his squirrel friend to my workplace, Christina came and look for me also.... That was one Good day i had.... Just heard from Nath this squirrel is of my same age and am shock cos he look rather older

Stardust Nathalia's competition

2010-04-05T01:42:00.001+08:00

She came over my hse for make-over early in the morning and the result is fairly good i think hee

It yesterday at Bishan Junction 8's skygarden... It's a pity she did not get in but afterall she tried her best and can zai jie zai li in the next coming comp she wan to join at Kovan... All the best~!

That position above look like she and aki doing doggy position lo... but aki shifted while laughing while i take the shots le... ppl ard there were laughing so loudly also lo... hahaha... that was one embarassing moment nath hahaha

Cancer/Leo Cusp

2010-03-30T14:18:00.000+08:00

Persons born "on the line" between two Zodiac Signs partake of qualities found in both Signs or, more strictly speaking, have a blend of traits that may compose an individual nature. Due to variations in astrological calendars, this may became apparent during the last few days of a departing Sign, but the "cusp" (as it is termed) pertains chiefly to the first week of the incoming Sign. While the new Sign is gaining its ascendancy, the influences of the old will persist but gradually loses its hold day-by-day until, by the seventh day, the new Sign is in complete control.

Individuals born on the cusp of Cancer (the fourth Sign of the Zodiac) and Leo (the fifth Sign of the Zodiac) are ruled by both the Sun and the Moon. These cuspians are witty, ambitious and sometimes, extremely unscrupulous. Indeed, this particular cusp combination frequently produces the most corrupt of politicians who attain eminence. These natives are experts at appealing to the various vulnerable points of their associates and the inherent daring ambition provides the power of securing for themselves the preferment and advancement to which they aspire, even though better individuals may, of necessity, be sacrificed to their progress. Nonetheless, Cancer/Leo subjects will nurture the family group and take pride in the warm hospitality they invariably provide.The Cancer/Leo cusp combination, also known as the Cusp of Oscillation, corresponds symbolically to the period of human life at around the age of twenty-eight. Of all twelve cusps, these natives most clearly display the split influences of two adjacent Signs almost opposite in their orientations. Here, traditionally feminine orientations (associated with the Moon) and traditionally masculine orientations (associated with the Sun) are combined equally in one single personality. Thus, Cancer/Leo males are likely to possess strong feminine sensibilities and Cancer/Leo females display an accentuated masculine side. Integrated in such a manner, these contrasting characteristics can result in a highly-balanced and healthy personality. However, when there is a tendency to vie for ascendancy, this cusp combination often produces wide mood swings which can cause immense psychic stress. It may be hard for others to know exactly how to approach these cuspians and those who know them well will frequently ease slowly into conversations, sitting quietly until the mood becomes apparent. Generally, it is difficult (if not impossible) to push Cancer/Leo subjects from one psychological state into another due to the fact that they are resistant to emotional manipulation. The water element of Cancer results in these natives tending to respond through emotion, while the fire element of Leo provides a more physical aspect to the character, coupled with a tendency to respond to the world by way of action. Thus, these cuspians are normally quite intuitive and will leap headfirst into life, refusing to fret over whether their latest goal is realistic or practical. However, should the situation happen to require drama or courage, then these subjects most certainly possess both...in great abundance.
Cancer/Leo cuspians love being on the "cutting edge" of innovative projects and activities, possessing the vitality and ambition to be successful in creative endeavors. Indeed, "creativity" is one of the keywords attributed to these subjects and their caring nature ensures that the benefits of their imaginative powers will help others. Although they may not necessarily be suited to the position of leadership, they are efficient and their application to the task at hand is admirable. These natives also know how to delegate authority and work within a team environment. They usually prefer to be in the "thick of battle" rather than be found "sitting on the sidelines," and those who can work with these natives as true associates and partners are often able to share in such experiences, thus penetrating deeply into this cuspian's heart and mind. Cancer/Leo natives set high goals for themselves. They are great thinkers and possess magnificent memories. By nature, these are immensely sympathetic souls...particularly to those in distress and will contribute freely and lavishly toward relief. Loyalty to friends is yet another admirable trait associated with this cusp combination. Indeed, there is no trouble or disgrace sufficient to cause these natives to forsake those to whom they have given friendship. Females governed by this cusp combination are frequently among the best wives and mothers to be found in the entire Zodiac. They are good housekeepers and excellent cooks, with a pronounced desire for "pleasures of the table." Indeed, all these cuspians (regardless of gender) have a strong association with food.
Cancer/Leo natives are both emotional and traditional, often very interested in their heredity and ancestors. They are frequently prominent in the theatrical arena since their inherent flamboyance and love of attention make them natural candidates for fame. There is a tendency here for these natives to perceive themselves as the "center of the universe" and, sometimes, they are absolutely correct. However, often fascinated by their own brilliance and eloquence, Cancer/Leo cuspians may become self-hypnotized to the point where they consider themselves to be masters or mistresses of right or wrong. From high-minded reformers, they can turn into unscrupulous spellbinders and their self-confidence could cause them to ridicule their own conservatism. Once the Leo mind drops its idealism and falls prey to indolence or deceit, then the lunar forces of Cancer will take control in the worse possible way and stir the restless mind with jealousy. However, this may all be avoided by fostering the natural exuberance afforded by Leo and turning it to progressive channels. True Leo individuals born born during the early period of this particular cusp combination frequently rise high in such professions as medicine and law, as well as becoming fine educators. The reason for this is due to their human sympathies, which are strongly furthered by the lunar undercurrent supplied by the Cancer influence. Cancer/Leo cuspians often make excellent amateur chefs and some go on to make a career out of cooking. Since pleasure is paramount to this cusp combination, its natives are prone to sepnd money in order to feel good. Cancer/Leo cuspians enjoy physical exercise (which can aid to counter the stress inherent in the emotional nature of this blend) and there is a decided preference here to play team sports or participate in group exercise rather than any solo activity. In short, these natives are far too sociable to truly enjoy solitary running or any other form of individual activity.
Here, the powerful governing influence of the Sun (which governs Leo), assumes almost total control over uncertain Cancer (governed by the flickery and fickle Moon). Nonetheless, this lesser force is present and can evidence itself, much like the Moon will occasionally eclipse the Sun. Individuals born on this cusp combination should basically consider themselves to be the subjects of Leo and strive to shake off any lunar weaknesses that could prove to be their undoing. If such natives become retrospective, then they should consider the past and its traditions to be nothing more than a guide toward a much greater future. Should the Cancer/Leo cuspian become moody, then he or she needs to "snap out of it" and think in terms of ambition. When this combination becomes sympathetic to suffering, it is important that immediate steps be taken to improve the condition or the brilliant and intellectual qualities given to this cusp by Leo may easily become warped or even dissipated. Cancer/Leo cuspians tend to go through life with a strong shell around them...one that is not easily broken. However, such individuals are the first to express emotion in any given situation...the first to laugh and the first to shed tears. There is also a strong ability to see projects through to completion. Thus, they are good organizers and tend to be very popular or even inspiring individuals. These cuspians are prone to be more sensitive to the movement of the Moon through the Zodiac than are other cuspians and their mood frequently changes in tune with the Moon's passage. In essence, these are by nature normally gregarious, social, self-assured and fun-loving characters who live life with much enthusiasm. Usually domestic and peaceful souls, they possess strong emotional drives and refuse to sit still when loved ones are threatened. There is also a tendency in the character of this cusp combination to live in something of a fantasy world.
With regard to relationships, Cancer/Leo cuspians rank high in almost every area...the gambit from devotion to romance. In dealings with business partners and friends, these natives tend to fare better with individuals who are even in terms of disposition...ones who are able to promote a peaceful and constant environment in day-to-day activities. Steady jobs, well-founded relationships and a dependable mate are vital to these natives in order to even out their constrasting moods. Nonetheless, they will most likely remain happy (to some degree at least) so long as someone is paying attention to them.
The greatest strength of Cancer/Leo cuspians is to be found in their creativity and in their generosity toward others. Sometimes, these qualities will combine and result in an individual who provides thoughtful gifts or unique solutions to problems. In addition, blessed with an emotional orientation to life which makes them aware of the difficulties their loved ones must work through, this cusp is counted among the most understanding characters of the Zodiac.
The most important lesson to be learned by Cancer/Leo natives is that they need to work with people who are not only highly competent and can carry their own share of the load, but that such people are able to understand these cuspians on a personal level. It is also necessary for them to learn self-discipline and try not to concentrate overly much on the past...instead, living for the present. Additionally, these natives should note that it is essential for their blood and digestive organs to be well-toned. As with all cusp individuals, these cuspians tend to be attracted to others born on the cusp...particularly those who fall within the Libra/Scorpio and Capricorn/Aquarius combinations.

-- Possess the inward and sensitive traits inherent in Cancer --
-- Possess the outward and fiery traits inherent in Leo --
-- Tend to have rather volatile personalities --
-- Prone to movement...both physically and emotionally --
-- Life is prone to be focused on strength and grace --
-- Often lacking in self-discipline --
-- Apt to dwell on the past --
-- Need to learn to live for the moment --
-- Vibrant and energetic --Notable Cancer/Leo Cuspians Include:
Sir Edmund Hilary; Ernest Hemingway; Alexander the Great; Amelia Earhart; and Walter Payton

just realise i belong to this group since i'm born on the very last day of Cancer! Very Zhun lo

cancer the CRAB

2010-03-29T09:41:00.002+08:00

The association of Cancer with water dates back to the very dawn of astrology and the Ancients believed at one time that Cancer was the first Sign of the Zodiac because this was the entrance of life from the heavens to the primal ocean mother. Its actual placement within the Zodiac, however, is related to a relatively minor chapter in Greek Mythology and is associated with the one of the legendary Twelve Labors of Heracles (known to the Romans as Hercules). As his Second Labor, Heracles was sent to do battle with the fearsome, nine-headed serpent monster known as the Hydra which lived in the marshes of Lerna. During the fight, all the animals favored the hero but a giant Crab sent by the Goddess Hera (Queen of Olympus and the one who had dispatched Heracles to perform his twelve tasks, hoping he would not survive them) emerged from a cave and took a claw-hold upon the toe of the hero, thereby drawing his attention away from the Hydra. Due to this distraction, Heracles very nearly lost the battle but, after crushing the life from the unfortunate Crab, returned to the fight and eventually defeated the serpent. Impressed by its loyalty and courage, Hera (who frequently encouraged Heracles' failure in his appointed labors) placed the image of the Crab in the night sky. Since the Hydra had been a favorite of Hera, it was equally honored upon its death and also placed in the heavens, not far from the location of Cancer.

There are varying reasons to explain why the constellation of Cancer contains no bright stars. One is that the creature was too badly crushed by Heracles and another is that although Hera applauded the Crab's valiant effort to turn the tide in favor of the Hydra during the battle, it did nonetheless fail in its task and therefore, the Goddess withheld the award of distinctive illumination. Thus, it is the most inconspicuous constellation in the Zodiac.
Among the stars of Cancer is a small grouping known as the Asses, which appear on the back of the Crab's shell. According to legend, Hera had driven the God Dionysus insane and he roamed through Egypt and Syria in the midst of his madness. He attempted to recover his sanity by visiting Dodona in order to ask the Oracle of Zeus what he should do. As he came to a large swamp, he encountered two Asses, captured them and rode them over the swamp, thereby avoiding geting wet. Upon reaching the other side, Dionysus realized that he was cured and rewarded the Asses by placing them in the heavens. Another explanation for the Asses grouping of stars in the constellation of Cancer states that during the war between the Olympians and the Titans, Dionysus, Hephaestus and the Satyrs rode into battle upon Asses. Their braying and the confusion they caused made the Giants flee and for these reasons, they were given a place in the heavens on the Western side of Cancer.
Some sources suggest that astrologers later added the Crab to the ancient Hydra myth in order to have the Twelve Labors of Heracles reflect the Twelve Signs of the Zodiac. However, it is difficult to associate all of Heracles' tasks with the Zodiac and it seems almost certain that the Crab did indeed figure in the original version of the legend of Heracles' Second Labor. In Malaysian myth, Cancer was the "First and Only Crab" which existed long ago. This huge crustacean lived in a deep hole in the sea and was so large that her comings and going caused the ocean tides.

Positive Traits: kind, loving, emotional, intuitive, imaginative, shrewd, cautious, protective and sympathetic.
Negative Traits: changeable, moody, over-emotional, touchy, untidy, clinging, unable to "let go," and a tendency to wallow in self-pity.
Likes: hobbies, romance, children, parties, home and country.
Dislikes: failure, opposition, aggravating situations, being told what to do and being given advice...whether good or bad.

Spiritual Goal: To learn how to take a balanced view of things
Spiritual Correspondence: The Dominations
Apostle: Andrew
Prophet: Amos
Anatomy: Rules the chest, breasts and stomach
Corresponding Tarot Card: The Chariot
Associated Countries: Scotland, Holland and New Zealand
Associated Cities: New York, Venice and Amsterdam
Animals: Crustaceans, Otter, Seal, Turtle, Stag, Unicorn and Sphinx
Watchword: Sympathy
Keynote: Patience
Physical Manifestation: Flexibility
Mental Manifestation: Imagination
Motto: The Tide Will Turn
Quote: I Feel

2010-03-19T05:20:00.000+08:00

When I see you smile and know that its not for me, that's when I miss you the most.

You never were and you never will be mine.

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

H2 yesterday and today

2010-03-17T03:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went H2 with andrew to do my homework as drinking at the same time...When Lulu saw me doing worksheet, she was like "Hey this is a pub, u suppose to drink here not do homework gal LOL~~!!" Aiya, drink and do will do faster ma... hahaha

Today work there, at earlier hours theres nobody so camwhore with Tina ....

Later, saw my friend who used to work in sakebar there, wat a coincidence!

Nice working with her.... Tina..