tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544Thu, 05 Sep 2013 10:38:24 +0000stripperstrippinglapdancerstripper diarypole dancerpole dancingself sufficiencysustainable livingpermaculturerelationshipsfemale superorityfemdomlapdancingthe secrettravelling stripperbadass bitchesdominant femaleeco livingfemale authorityfemale commandfemale dominancefemale supremacyfuturepulse.netlaw of attractionlovemanifesting wealthsustainabilitytattoostravela perfect circleacceptancealternative healthalternative lifestylesbelievingbipolar disorderdeathproofexotic dancerfaithfetishesfilmsfree spiritlondon strippermind moviesmovie reviewmoviesmusic reviewnatural healthnatural medicinenatural remediesorganic farmingreceivingself sabotagingsexsex diaryspiritual growthtattoo arttattoo designstattoo picturestattooed chicktravellingyoutube1920s1950s2012D/sN.E.R.DWWOOFacceptingactorsactressesadsenseadult adsenseaffiliateaffiliate marketingalternative cultureambitionsanti-christianityanti-religionapple macarmageddonaskingaspirationsass kicking chicksball busting babesbeachbeach lifebespun.combi-polarblogger layoutsbohemianboob jobbooksbreast augmentationbreast enhacementbreast enlargementburlesquecandy girlchakra balancingchakrascheap callschicks with gunschris crockercivilization collapseclairaudientclairsentientclairvoyantcomputer knowledgecontrolling mencreating wealthdaddy issuesdeviantdiablo codydietdissenterdissidencedominance/submissiondominatrixdommedreamsdrum and bassduffyebayeccentriceducating the massesenvironmentalistexotice dancerfemale led relationshipfeminismfeministfighting girlsfinancial dominationfitnessflash layoutsfool's goldfools goldfree callsfree wirelessfuel girlsfuture chaosfuture homesfuture trendsfuturistic homesgaiageek lovegeeksgiftsglobalizationgoal settinggoddess religiongreasergreen livingheathenhedonisthereticherpes curehigh contrasthighly sensitive personholistic healinghorny stripperhouse boathouse boat designshouse boatshtmlhtml codinghunahustlinghypnosisidentity chipidleistindividualistinternet addictionjunojustin nozukakings of leonknowledgelearninglibertinelifestyle trendslongboard skateboardlouise brookeslovefilmlower back tattoomacbookmacintoshmama genamanifestationmass controlmaverickmenmickey avalonmistressmoneymoney saving tipsmusicmyspace layoutsnatural healingnew agenew zealand filmsniteflirtnonconformistpaganpaganismparanoiapeacepeak oilpsychicpsychological issuespurityquentin tarantinoreadingrebelrenegaderetrorewildrock musicrockabillysacred femalesave the futuresavingssay no to 0870self beliefself confidenceself discoveryself educationself esteemself explorationself sabotageserving womensex tipssexblogshallow breathingsimple livingspankingsspiritualitystevie nicksstripper talesstupid mistakessubmissivesun salutationsurferssurfingsurfwisesustainble aidtalksugartattoo artiststattoo resourcestattoodles.comtattooingththe oceantraining mentravelingunconventionalveganvegetarianvision boardvisualisationvisualizationvolunteeringwaiterwaitresswater homesweb layoutswhole foodswhy not byron baywishlistworld orderworshipping womenyogazeitgeistzeitgeistmoviePersonal diary of a tattooed travelling temptress in search of serendipity.http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (anon)Blogger1048125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-4776035216795850728Thu, 05 Sep 2013 10:38:00 +00002013-09-05T11:38:24.162+01:00I am really not enjoying real time sessions. I resent the many phone calls and emails from utter idiots that I have to wade thru to get to the 1 or 2 worth my time. Then I am only managing to actually book and do one session a week which, at £130-150 a session is not enough money. Thank fuck for P my longterm money slave who gives me money twice a month between £600-800. I really, really want tohttp://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/09/i-fucking-hate-being-dominatrix.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-2096634847594887648Sat, 31 Aug 2013 19:36:00 +00002013-08-31T20:36:03.549+01:00The sugar daddy thing didnt work and I got burned out trying to get money from men. My next plan is go to Durban at the end of the year, stay with C and get a job at a coffee shop or cafe, surf, skate, hike and get blogging again. What I like about Durban is there are hotels and a diverse city life, there is the ocean, and there are the mountains an hour out of the city. Everything in one placehttp://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/08/going-back-to-go-forward.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-7113900218955956766Sat, 03 Aug 2013 23:47:00 +00002013-08-04T00:47:00.103+01:00So I've been researching the world of sugar daddy dating for the past two weeks and have entered the bowl but have not yet met anyone as I have only had two emails and one is from an Indian guy and even though he is decent looking and well educated/spoken, I am wary of Indian men. The other is from a French guy but he is away until the 19th, so we shall see. If I lived in London I could have methttp://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/08/sugar-oh-honey-honey-you-are-my-candy.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-2793153722213342131Wed, 10 Jul 2013 18:45:00 +00002013-07-10T19:45:09.554+01:00I've found myself at an unexpected place in life. Everything was going swimmingly, well, I was managing to keep my head above water, but now, I'm out at sea with no idea which sea or which way to paddle. I'm 34. My recent history had me both being a stripper (since 2004) and a financial dominatrix / fetish webcam model online (since 2006). Both these things have now died and I am left with http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/07/a-bone-fide-loser.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-7660686722051821323Tue, 14 May 2013 15:03:00 +00002013-05-14T16:03:51.638+01:00 My heart breaks from the overwhelming nostalgia of this era that this track takes me right back to. I would give anything to relive these days.http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/05/binary-finary-1999-best-version-released.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-5360450210916750940Tue, 14 May 2013 14:02:00 +00002013-05-14T15:02:12.446+01:00 I was at this fucking rave! Mother 2! I was like 17 years old, I was one of the stage dancers, I watched this doco with my dad and explained rave culture to him, OMG!!!!http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/05/mother-productions-becketts-trek-rave.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-5221708556453245868Fri, 10 May 2013 20:46:00 +00002013-05-10T21:46:06.652+01:00 I want to hike every day, in between trees and up trails, I want to slip on wellies and take the dogs for a run on the beach, I want to tend to my food garden and cook for my guests, I want to ride horses into the mountains bareback and bitless, I want to cuddle baby goats and throw corn to a sea of chooks, I want to be suntanned and squinty eyed looking over an expanse of land that is all mine,http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/05/a-dream-for-life.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-1501163961293137934Sun, 28 Apr 2013 09:04:00 +00002013-04-28T10:04:51.212+01:00 This month I went to Spain twice. 3 days in Madrid with my mom and 4 days in Barcelona with my gay friend. Normally being a hermit and used to my own company, it was a learning curve to have someone else in my life 24/7. Traveling with these two people made me realise that maybe I would like to be in a relationship again. I guess I do miss being held and looked at, desired and loved. That it’s http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/04/into-wild.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-6884557572047745354Thu, 25 Apr 2013 19:40:00 +00002013-04-25T20:40:36.904+01:00This scene actually brought me to tears. I cant explain how moving this is and not just as a fan of the show, but for what the example this sets for women the world over. You do not need brute force to rule or to change the world.http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/04/dont-mess-with-daenerys-stormborn-of.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-6684798277318609047Tue, 12 Mar 2013 09:19:00 +00002013-03-12T09:19:25.120ZIve been having a big think about my life and I have realised that I have built up these big walls and I am hiding and scared and I dont want to live my life like this, but I also dont want to take these walls down in this country. I dont want to make my life in the UK. It is too cold and I have no interest in the men here who are just useless. I have been on dating sites for a year and not met http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/03/im-immigrating-to-australia.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-1024457344958958807Fri, 01 Mar 2013 23:57:00 +00002013-03-01T23:57:18.122Z He came into my life to deliver a chest of drawers and after he left, I couldnt stop thinking about him. I was turned on. Something I haven’t been in a long time. Later that day he called to say he had left his trolley behind and could he pick it up in a couple days time, I said sure and thought to myself it must be a sign that we are meant to get to know each other. I don’t know if he did it http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/03/the-ghosts-of-men.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-2683362937827181389Sun, 06 Jan 2013 20:19:00 +00002013-01-06T20:19:51.787Zhttp://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2013/01/alt-j-tessellate-official-video.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-5531386716688363327Fri, 14 Dec 2012 12:55:00 +00002012-12-14T12:55:31.799Zhttp://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/12/mae-west-on-mae-west-full-bbc-doc.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-2503324348737963061Tue, 20 Nov 2012 13:47:00 +00002012-11-20T13:47:34.419Z Everybody should watch this every morning while brushing their teeth.  Ive been saying this for YEARS and this same idea is what has taken me on so many adventures, trying to figure out what it  I desire doing.  Part of it is inspiring other people to break free and follow their hearts.  I do this through my own example and writing about it online.http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/11/what-if-money-didnt-matter.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-5128673764112880382Mon, 12 Nov 2012 23:06:00 +00002012-11-12T23:06:16.399Z Every book I have read recently has in some way lead on from the previous book and all have had something to do with consciousness. I went to the esoteric store today and bought some crystals and a dowsing pendulum as something I read mentioned dowsing and it struck me as something I would like.  In the store I picked up a book about it and after the bits I read, decided to get myself a http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/11/who-pressed-my-pause-button.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-750283250051584438Mon, 05 Nov 2012 16:40:00 +00002012-11-05T16:40:04.448Z In the past few days, I have felt strongly that I simply want to stay at home, away from people and just listen to music and study more about consciousness and spirituality because taking on these subjects has opened a door I cant reverse out of and I am now battling with a lot of really mind boggling existential questions that I dont know anyone to talk to about. I no longer go on Facebook, http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/11/retreating.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-1920181789291498662Mon, 29 Oct 2012 23:35:00 +00002012-10-29T23:35:10.920Z Sometime in my early 20s I renounced Christianity and have been since going it alone. Its been really hard because the truth is hard. I now feel like I am floating alone in life with no connection to anything and I feel that this is something I need to remedy but Im not sure in what way. I want to find some sort of spiritual ritual that helps me feel connected, supported and protected and nothttp://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/10/looking-for-answers-looking-for-meaning.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-2307571917309708177Mon, 22 Oct 2012 12:12:00 +00002012-10-22T13:12:23.398+01:00 For a long time I have not thought of myself as unemployed because Ive been falling back on this online fetish business but now that I am so completely burned out from it that I cannot even face it, I have come to the realisation that I am, in fact, unemployed.  And while the label as such does not bother me as most conventional labels are for other people and not myself, the lack of income http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/10/we-are-all-made-of-stars.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-6221940692257981084Fri, 19 Oct 2012 23:21:00 +00002012-10-20T00:21:27.010+01:00 I wish I could hire like a talent coach or manager, someone who could come along and help me figure out what my talents are and then develop them and then market them. You know, like, Ive always wanted to act, or to be on TV as a presenter but like on a travel program in a journalistic, documentary way, not like a “hey, this is a hotel, blah blah”. Like a TV presenter with a brain, that gets tohttp://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/10/i-wish-i-could-hire-like-talent-coach.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-3360481116069039846Thu, 18 Oct 2012 10:16:00 +00002012-10-18T11:16:26.136+01:00 Im happy sleeping alone.  Its been a year since my last relationship.  Its been a soul searching year and Im not sure Im any closer to finding whatever it is Im looking for.  When I get into my bed, I wonder if Id like someone in it with me, to hold and be held by and I dont.  I dont feel I need it.  My mind is just not on being with someone.  Im too busy trying to find a way to make a living http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/10/pitter-patter-of-pawed-feet-itchy.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-1114263301271961346Sat, 13 Oct 2012 23:53:00 +00002012-10-14T00:53:42.102+01:00 ...something I could do, at any time, from home, wherever.  Like paint, or sew, or sing, or draw, or something that is mine, something unique to me and that I could sell easily.  But when Im at a lack for things to do, I dont doodle, I dont paint, I dont sing to myself, I dont do anything but sleep, or watch movies, or eat. I once thought Id be a writer, or a photographer and definitely an http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/10/i-wish-i-had-skill-talent.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-8693834812558423127Wed, 10 Oct 2012 20:12:00 +00002012-10-10T21:12:22.022+01:00It became very clear to me while volunteering on the guest farm in South Africa what a horrible person I am.  I mean, there is a lot of good about me, but mostly, Im a really ugly person. My mom and I have moved in together, which is a weird thing as it is that I cant get my head around.  Im almost 34 and Im living with, and off, my mother.  I am fucking horrible to her.  Short tempered, mean, http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/10/mostly-i-think-im-horrible-person.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-3500740577190491743Wed, 10 Oct 2012 16:59:00 +00002012-10-10T17:59:54.507+01:00http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/10/pnk-try.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-9096288539282425930Mon, 24 Sep 2012 23:28:00 +00002012-09-25T00:28:42.228+01:00Im reading Jodie Marsh's autobiography and like when I read Geri Halliwell's, Im feeling pangs of regret that I didnt make something of my life when I had the chance.  I was young and stupid in London 10 years ago, more than 10 years ago, I had my youth, my looks, everything going for me, except belief in myself or any kind of support.  Those two things are so important.  If you dont believe in http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/09/how-do-i-fix-it.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7756544.post-7268335944658553031Wed, 19 Sep 2012 23:13:00 +00002012-09-20T00:13:41.465+01:00 I want my own business doing something I love that keeps me interested and takes me places, but I want a home to come home to where I have animals and a good man who loves me right I still harbour this want to be known, like a TV personality or something... I was always a show off but it never paid off... And now Im just scared that Im past it.  I'll be 34 in February and Im starting to no http://innocence-wisdom.blogspot.com/2012/09/i-want-so-many-things.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (anon)0