Searching and Discovering

Discovering You

2014-01-26T00:25:00.000-08:00

It has been over a year since my last blog post so I thought it may be time to write a little something. So here it goes.

I recently read a quote that said, "I'd rather die than be someone else." I thought it was genius. Not because of death, but because of LIFE. What is the purpose of life? Why are we here? To be who you are, and no one else. That's why I couldn't help but think that to be someone you're not would result in a wasted life. Come on, you get a whole lifetime to be you, to discover and remember and polish the person you are supposed to be. Why on Earth would you shove this down the gutter and take on someone else's role? There is already someone else for that role. Only you can fulfill being you.

What drives you? What is important in your eyes? What do you think you're here to do? How can you add to life and the world? What are you good at?

I think this is something that takes awhile to figure out. We are all amazing in our own ways and there is something special about each and everyone of us.

Start listening to your truth. And flow with it.

Healthy Living: Day Two & Day Three

2013-01-16T21:05:00.003-08:00

Day 2
Breakfast:
-1 egg
-1 slice of toast
-1/2 a Banana

Lunch:
-1 cup of cottage cheese (I substituted this for a slice of cheddar cheese!)
-1 hard boiled egg
-5 saltine crackers

Dinner:
-2 hot Dogs
-1 cup Broccoli
-1/2 a cup of Carrots
-1/2 a banana
-1/2 a cup of Vanilla Ice Cream

Day 3
Well today has been a tad bit crazy so I didn't take any photos on my meals but I still wanted to post what I ate!

Breakfast:
-5 saltine Crackers
-1 slice of Cheddar Cheese
-1 small Apple

Lunch:
-1 hard boiled egg
-1 Slice of toast

Dinner:
-1 cup of Tuna
-1/2 of a Banana
-1 cup of Vanilla Ice Cream

I didn't have the exact results that I expected but this is a good start to begin my healthy living lifestyle!

Healthy Living: Day One

2013-01-14T21:23:00.001-08:00

I have decided to start getting healthy. I know this is going to be difficult changing my whole diet. But lets face it an apple a day keeps the doctor away, right? The diet that I am doing is only three days so I will post each day what I ate and then let you know my results!

Day One
Breakfast:
-1/2 Grapefruit
-1 Slice of Toast
-2 Tablespoon of Peanut Butter
-Coffee or Tea

Lunch:
-1/2 Cup of Tuna
-1 Slice of Toast
-Coffee or Tea

Dinner:
-3 Ounces of Any Type of Meat
-1 Cup of Green Beans
-1/2 Banana
-1 Apple
-1 Cup of Vanilla Ice Cream

AND lets face it the best part of this diet is the Vanilla Ice Cream!

Lasting Memories

2013-01-11T00:27:00.000-08:00

#3 Rome
Three years ago, my grandparents took me to Italy. Which just so happens to be my favorite country. I remember clearly standing in front of the Colosseum in Rome and as I looked up at the beauty of the ruins it actually hit me that I was actually there! Even though I had already been to Venice and Florence, It wasn't until I was in front of the Colloseum that it actually hit me.

So I guess I should start there....
The Colosseum, also called the Flavian Ampitheater, is one of the great works of Roman engineering. In the 1st century AD, when it was built, it was the site of gladiator fights, mock sea battles, and other enactments. It had three stories of tiered seats and could hold 50,000 spectators.

Trevi Fountain or the Fontana di Trevi is another must see. Certainly the most famous and photographed fountain in Rome, legend has it that whoever throws a coin into the pond will return to Rome.

Basilica di San Clemente was constructed between 1110 and 1130, this church of San Clemente is not one, but three churches built one above the other, with ruins dating from the earliest Christian times.

Palatine Hill is the archaeological center of Rome. It contains relics of great palaces and other structures from ancient times, including the Palace of Septimus Severus, the house of Augustus, the house of Livia and the Huts of Romulus.

And you can not forget to visit the Vatican and home of the Pope.

Ciao

Enjoying the world God gave us!

2013-01-09T23:35:00.000-08:00

For those of you that know me, you know that I love to travel. I love enjoying different cultures and what makes not only our own country unique but others as well...There is so much to enjoy in this world besides what is in our own backyard. Don't get me wrong, our own country is pretty incredible as well. I decided maybe I should open all of your eyes to the beauty that this world as to offer. I have decided to do a little research into the top 20 destinations of 2013. Every few days or so I am going to write about one or more different cities, that are the top cities you must see.

Note: Seeing how I haven't been to all of the cities I am going to be posting, not all photos will belong to me. When there is a city that I have visited, you will know.

#1 London
The Courtauld Gallery is one of the finest small museums in the world. Its collection stretches from the early Renaissance into the 20th century and is particularly renowned for the unrivalled collection of Impressionist and Post-Impressionist paintings. The Gallery also holds an outstanding collection of drawings and prints and fine example of sculpture and decorative arts.

The Palace of Westminster is the seat of both chambers of Parliament of the United Kingdom and is located on the north bank of the River Thames in the City of Westminster, close to other government buildings.

The Churchill War Rooms, the underground headquarters of the British High Command. It served as the nerve center of Britain's war effort during World War II.

The Royal Opera House was built in 1732. This well-known theater is the home to the Royal Ballet and Royal Opera, which regularly features world famous stars and performances throughout the year.

And last but not least....
A must see in London is Big Ben. If you visit the breathtaking clock tower during the day, you also must view it once darkness has come over the incredible city of London.

Bye

#2 New York City
Central Park extends from 59th to 110th streets between 5th and 8th avenues [Central Park West], Central Park is one of the iconic sights of New York City. While it may appear to be a beautiful natural area, be aware that it is entirely man-made except for the glacier scarred protruding rocks.

Top of the Rock is a 3-tiered observation deck on the 67th, 69th, and 70th floors of Rockefeller Center. The upper decks 260 meters above the street level you get a 360 degree view of New York City.

The Metropolitan Museum of Art is the largest encyclopedic art museum in the world under a single roof. Over 2 million art works from all periods and cultures are found in this collection.

Grand Central Stationed opened in 1913, and one of America's busiest terminals, Grand Central boasts a wide array of shops and restaurants to serve the more than 500,000 travelers who pass through every day.

Finally, the most difficult thing to miss when entering the city would be the New York Skyline.

Bye

Looking ahead

2013-01-08T12:56:00.000-08:00

2012 was a difficult year for me. It had some major ups and downs, but lets face it I am going to have more and more years of difficult times. All I can do from now on is focus on the future and not my past.....

I am beginning 2013 with a fresh attitude. I believe that if I make the right choices then good things are bound to happen in my life so here is to an incredible 2013.

My goal is to try and continue writing, life has kind of been a distraction but I'm hoping to focus more on my writing (:

Everything is different

2012-06-02T22:42:00.000-07:00

Awhile ago I found this quote and I really think that it describes my life.

This year has been really difficult for me. Last year at this time I had just graduated from high school, had a boyfriend, great friends, and the whole world in front of me. Over the last year a lot of things have happened that have turned my life upside down. For awhile I was unhappy because I felt like everything was just going wrong. Then I sat down and thought about it and realized that yes, everything has changed and become different in the last year, but different isn't always bad, it's just different.

A year may have passed but I have so many more years ahead of me. Some may not turn out how I want, but God has a plan for me and I need to trust him. I am a firm believer that everything happens because it is in God's plan and I believe that God will not give me something to overcome unless he knows I can handle it. So even though everything is different than last year, this is my life now and I am going to just sit back and live and love the life in front of me and not look back on the past.

Its been a long time.....

2012-05-21T21:13:00.000-07:00

It has been quite sometime since I have written a blog. I can't decided if it is because I have been to busy or just because life has been going so wonderful I didn't need to vent. Well my first year of College is winding down. I have one more final tomorrow and then one more on wednesday and then it's summer for me! Things have been a bit stressful lately with trying to stay caught up in school, work, and have a social life. But I think it has been going pretty well. I feel like things are starting to look up. Over the past few weeks it feels like so many things are working out in my favor and I couldn't be more grateful to God for that. For awhile I was kind of feeling alone and like no matter what I did things just would stay bad. But I stuck though it and now things are looking up. Now that i'm done with the stress of this semester i'm hoping that I will be blogging more. But lets face it I don't have much to complain about right now, but I am still on my journey of searching and discovering this world so I know I will be back (:

Until next time,

Regan Lechner

Throw the Stone

2012-04-17T00:27:00.000-07:00

Here is one of my favorite bible verses of all time that I wanted to share with you (:

John 8:1 to 8:11

"Jesus went across to Mount Olives, but he was soon back in the Temple again. Swarms of people came to him. He sat down and taught them. The religion scholars and Pharisees led in a woman who had been caught in an act of adultery. They stood her in plain sight of everyone and said, 'Teacher, this woman was caught red-handed in the act of adultery. Moses, in the law, gives orders to stone such a person. What do you say?' They were trying to trap him into saying something incriminating so they could bring charges against him.

Jesus bent down and wrote with his fingers in the dirt. They kept at him, badgering him. He straightened up and said, 'the sinless one among you, go first; throw the stone.' Bending down again, he wrote some more in the sand.

Hearing that, they walked away, one after another, beginning with the oldest. The woman was left alone. Jesus stood up and spoke to her. 'Woman, where are they? Does no one condemn you?

'No one, Master.'

'Neither do I,' said Jesus. 'Go on your way. From now on, don't sin."

Art can change your life

2012-04-11T10:09:00.001-07:00

As you may have noticed I have a bit of an obsession with One Tree Hill. Mostly because it influenced most of my high school years. It is an excellent show that I would highly recommend. I am terrible sad that it is over. Anyways, one of the girls named Peyton on the show is an artist and draws a lot of pictures that have meaning to her, had meaning to me, and may have meaning to you.

So here are a few (:

Who to blame?

2012-04-11T00:35:00.000-07:00

It is human nature to need someone or something to blame when things go wrong. I know I am guilty of this. I feel like a lot of people blame God when things go wrong. I can understand this because trust me I have blamed him a lot. But that doesn’t make it right. I am a strong believer that things happen for a reason. I believe that everything that happens in our lives God intended on it happening to teach us a lesson or make us stronger. Yeah, at times I still think wow really God why do I deserve that? It is common when your car breaks down, you have a bad break up, or a friendship ends to blame God. But maybe he had that happen for you. Maybe your car broke because you needed a new one. Maybe you had a bad break up because it wasn’t a healthy relationship. Maybe a friendship ended because that person was not meant to be in your life. Life isn’t going to be easy, but if it was then what would be the point in living? Life is worth living for our success and failures. For the good and the bad. Those are the things that make life so beautiful. Yeah, at times it is still difficult to understand, but I strongly believe that having the idea that things happen for a reason will make my life much better. I believe that God will never put a challenge in my life if he knew I couldn’t overcome it. I know I have not had a difficult life. Yes, there are some things that I wish hadn’t had to happen, but I now know that without them I wouldn’t be who I am. I don’t think that God is trying to punish me. I think he is trying to make me stronger. I am so grateful for this, because I know that who I am is because of him. I know that I wouldn’t have the good without the bad and I owe that to him. I am blessed to have someone who cares so much and to have someone who I know wont ever let me down. I now know things happen for a reason and I hope other people can understand that as well.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on my own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make paths straight."

Proverbs 3:5-6

Quote Three: Moving on

2012-04-06T09:58:00.000-07:00

Quote Three (:

I know, from experience, that moving on is very difficult. But you need to move on in order to be happy with your new life. when one chapter of your life ends another one opens and it was God's intention for you to get a new opportunity. At first it may not seem like it's what you want but give it a chance and if it isn't right for you then God will have you move on once again. But he doesn't do anything for no reason. Everything he does is to benefit you as a person and he wouldn't give you a challenge if you were not strong enough to over come it. Trust in God and it can change your whole outlook on life. For me I trust him with everything and at times I have my doubts but at the end of the day I know he knows me better than anyone and I have faith that he will make everything will be okay.

Am I good enough?

2012-04-06T00:36:00.002-07:00

I want to share with you one of my most inspirational quote and photo from my favorite TV show One Tree Hill.

BROOKE DAVIS: I was worried I wouldn't be enough for you. That's why I lied. That's what I'm afraid of. Not being enough. Not good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough.

I feel like many teenage girls go through a period in their life when they don't feel like enough. I know I have. In High School I was very insecure. I put other people's opinions before myself and that was stupid. The past few months I have finally realized that I need to do things for myself. Because there are only two opinions that matter. Myself and God. I am already perfect in God's eyes which means I just need to be happy with myself. I am currently reading a book called Life of the Beloved by Henri J.M. Nouwen and wanted to share a quote that relates.

"I have called you by name, from the very beginning. You are mine and I am yours. You are my beloved, on you my favor rests. I have molded you in the depths of the earth and knitted you together in your mother's womb. I have carved you in the palms of my hands and hidden you in the shadow of my embrace. I look at you with infinite tenderness and care for you with a care more intimate than that of a mother for her child. I have counted every hair on your head and guided you at every step. Wherever you go, I go with you, and wherever you rest, I keep watch. I will give you food that will satisfy all your hunger and drink that will quench all your thirst. I will not hide my face from you. You know me as your own as I know you as my own. You belong to me. I am your father, your mother, your brother, your sister, your lover, and your spouse....yes, even your child....wherever you are I will be. Nothing will separate us. We are one."

I have finally realized that if God loves me as much as he does then I can and will love myself.

Suddenly those negative thoughts:

~~not good enough~~

~~not smart enough~~

~~not talented enough~~

~~not pretty enough~~

have changed into:

I AM good enough

I AM smart enough

I AM talented enough

I AM pretty enough

I AM enough for myself and God and no one else's opinion matters.

I hope that this blog post can give other people a better outlook. At times I still find myself falling into my old way of thought but then I look in the mirror (figuratively speaking) and focus on what makes me the person I am. I am happy with who I am and I know that I am who I am because God intended on me being that way. God doesn't make mistakes and would never give me an obstacle if he knew I couldn't overcome it. Next time you don't feel like enough listen to that faint voice in the back of your head that says you are enough, because you are (:

Nine years ago

2012-04-04T22:19:00.000-07:00

......my life changed forever (:

Nine years ago today my baby sister was born. We may have our issues as sisters, but what sisters don't? But one thing that I know is that I am blessed to have such an amazing little sister. I can't wait to see her continue to grow into the amazing young lady and woman that she is going to be.

I decided to share with you the two major events about my sister that I will never forget.

First is the day that I found out that my mother was pregnant. I was 8 years old and an only child. I had asked or I should say begged my parents many many times to have a baby because I wanted a brother or sister. My parents took me for a bike ride through bidwell park one day. We stopped at a picnic table next to the creek and my parents sat me down right next to the water and told me that we needed to talk. They told me that my mom was pregnant and going to have a baby. Honestly that was one of the best moments that I could have asked for. I had wanted a brother or sister for a longgg time and hearing that I was so excited. I was a little nervous as well because that meant that I was going to have to share my parents. Which is a scary thought when you have been an only child for nine years. I knew my life would never be the same, but I knew it was going to be an amazing journey and it has.

Now I am going to say everything that I remember from the day my sister was born. Parts may be choppy because lets face its been nine years. My dad woke me up about midnight and told me that my mom was in labor and we needed to go to the hospital. I grabbed my bag that I had been packed for a few days. we drove to the hospital with my mom in pain the whole way. To be honest I was so scared because my mom is one of the toughest person I know, so seeing her in pain freaked me out a lot. Once we got to the hospital which felt life it took forever, my mom got set up in her room. My parents and I had planned on me being in the room during the birth because I had wanted to. Well that didn't go as planned because seeing my mom in the much pain did not sit well with me. My parents and I were still waiting for my grandparents to get to the hospital so I sat in a chair outside of my moms hospital room and read a book. Finally my grandparents got to the hospital. I went into the waiting room with my grandpa and uncle. At 4:33 on April 4, 2003 Gillian Rose was born, weighing 9 pounds. My Grandma brought me in the hospital room a little to early and I had to witness the after birth. If you do not know what that is trust me you probably do not want to. We spent awhile holding and awing over my baby sister. She was a beautiful baby. It had been a really long night for my family so we all fell asleep in the hospital room. My dad woke me up the next morning to ask me if I wanted to go to school, it was the last day before spring break. Being a typical kid I said I didn't want to because I was tired and too excited to have a baby sister. Lets face it having a crying baby over spring break made it difficult to relax but I got an amazing little sister.

Happy 9th Birthday Gillian Rose. I love you and always will.

Quote Two: Do not give up

2012-04-01T00:54:00.000-07:00

Quote Two (:

If the last few months have taught me anything it's that over times get better. Don't get me wrong I have my good days and my bad days. But I know that over times things will get better. Difficult things happen but it's how you let them effect you that makes you into the person you are. I am trying hard to be strong because I know that if I have a smile on my face it makes it just a little easier every day.

The truth is

2012-03-24T23:11:00.000-07:00

The other day I had a heart to heart with a really good friend about life. She said something to me that really stuck with me. She told me that she doesn't know if she could deal with the things that have happened to me the past few months and be okay. She said that I seem fine and happy. The truth is I'm not fine. A lot of shitty things have happened within the last few years, but the only thing that gets me through it is knowing that I will be okay. At times I feel so alone and have no idea how I am going to get through the next day, let alone the next week, or month. Being young can suck at times but feeling alone makes it even worse. In the last two years I have lost my two best friends. The two people who I thought I could always count on. It's difficult to lose your best friends but losing them while so much change is happening such as graduating and your first year of college makes it worse. I guess the point of this is to say things are going to be okay. At times I question this but at the end of the day I know everything is going to be okay and that is the reason I'm able to put a smile on my face. I feel like me putting a smile on my face really helps and honestly a smile is one thing that can totally change my attitude. So smile, be happy, and know that everything will be okay (:

Quote One: One Night I Dreamed

2012-03-23T17:32:00.000-07:00

I have become sort of addicted to Pinterest. Pinterest is an online vitural pinboard, for those of you who don't know what it is. Lately I have been pinning a lot of quotes and thought why not share them on my blog. So probably about weekly I am going to be sharing a quote. There may be times when I do more than one a week because some are just so good I need to share them!

Here it is!

Quote One (:

Italian Memories

2012-03-20T13:09:00.000-07:00

I am the kind of person that when I try something new like using a planner or writing in a journal I get into it for a little while and then it slowly dies down. I recently found my journal that I kept while I was in Italy two years ago and wanted to share with you all of my journal entries. I didn't write in it the entire time but I am going to share with you the days that I did (: Parts of it may be jumbled and may not make a ton of sense but it is my journal so it really only needs to make sense to me.

June 16, 2010

Day One

We departed the U.S. around 2:15. The plane ride to Germany was extremely long. I met a guy my age named Daimin. Damin was born in Germany and lived there until he was two and then him and his family moved to Sacramento, California. We arrived in Germany and I bought a postcard from the airport for my collection. After buying the postcard my Papa and I found euros in the machine that had been left. We boarded our plane to Venice. The flight to Venice was very short compared to our flight from California to Germany. We got to the Venice airport and had to get tickets from the mainland to Venice. Papa at first couldn't figure out how to get the tickets, he put in 50 euros, I had to show him that the machine only took 5, 10, and 20 euros. Silly Papa! We took a boat to Venice through the main canal. The buildings were all old but beautiful. We rode under the Rialto Bridge which is the oldest bridge in Venice. We walked around for a long time trying to find our hotel. We finally found our hotel but by accident. Our hotel was built in the 1200's! Old right? We went up to our room and took napes because it had been a longggggg day! Then we went to dinner. Of course we got lost again and found the restaurant by accident. Being a typical american tourist I got a salami/pepperoni pizza. After dinner we went back to our hotel for a good night sleep.

June17, 2010

Day Two

We had breakfast at the hotel. The day was mostly filled with learning about the city and shopping. We also walked to San Marco to check out that area of the city. We didn't have a very big day because we were all jet lagged.

June 18, 2010

Day Three

I woke up to Italians speaking Italian early in the morning as they were all walking to work early in the morning. After we ate breakfast we went to church. The art work was beautiful and so was the architecture of the building. After we found our way beck to the hotel we had to meet our tour guide and tour group. Our tour guide name is Donato and he is Canadian. We then went for a tour of Venice. After the tour we had a nice meal and then went for a gondola ride. The ride was so amazing. The gondola ride ended our day.

June 19, 2010

Day Four

Today was the start of our tour, we have to also have a local tour guide because Donato can get finned for giving us information inside churches. With the tour we went back to the church we had gone to the day before. Only this time I got to take photos. We also got to see how local masks are made. We got to go to see how class is blown and beautiful glass pieces. After that I went to look at the Doge's Palace which is giant and beautiful. I also got to see the dungeon and walk on the Bridge of Sighs.

June 20, 2010

Day Five

It rained all day. We went to a beautiful art museum and then we went to a house of a rich noble. The top floor was an art museum as well. We went back to the hotel the check out the Italy soccer game against New Zealand. Italians are very serious about their "futbol" The game ended with a 1 to 1 score against New Zealand.

June 21, 2010

Day Six

We left Venice on a bus and headed to Florence. It was interesting getting to see cars once we exited Venice. Most of the cars are tiny or cars that would be expensive in the U.S. We stopped to eat lunch at an auto grill that was over the freeway. Once we arrived in Florence we went to the hotel and then went for a tour of Florence. We went to a leather shop that Donato recommends because it's real leather at a reasonable price. After the whole tour went to dinner. We got three courses. The first was 3 different types of pasta. The second was steak! Yum! Florence is known for their steak. Finally, was dessert. After we went back up to the top of the Terrace with two girls from my tour, Emily and Laura.

June 22, 2010

Day Seven

First we went to an art museum. Then we went to a sculpture museum. After my grandparents and I went to the church that has Galileo's and Michelangelo's memorials. After eating Gelato we meet up with the group and went to go see Michelangelo's sculpture of David. Afterwards I got to go back to the leather purse store and grandma bought me a beautiful purse and bought one as well. Then we went back to the hotel and watched the Argentina vs. Greece game.

June 23, 2010

Day Eight

We did a back street tour of Florence. We also visited an old Florentine house. After we went and had cappuccinos and a snack. We also visited another church but could only be there for 15 minutes. After that I got to go to the Duomo with Papa, Laura, and Emily. We climbed to the top which is 436 steps up. It was beautiful.

I didn't write in my Journal while I was in Rome so that is the only portion that there isn't anything written about. I hope your enjoyed it!

may mean something to you

2012-03-19T23:57:00.001-07:00

Recently I found an old journal of mine. During my myspace days I went through a phase when I would write down all of the quotes that I would find online and liked. I decided to go through that journal and share with you the quotes that are still my favorite.

"Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear"

"I promise one day you will regret losing me and look back and say damn that girl really did love me"

"Every story has an ending but in life every ending is just a new beginning"

"Love is a journey not a destination"

"A kiss that is never tasted is forever wasted"

"The first time you fall in love it changes your life forever and no matter how hard you try the feeling never really goes away"

"Find someone that can make you smile and don't give up on them"

"Don't go looking for love, let it find you because thats why its called falling in love"

"Love doesn't walk away, people do"

"Love is like wind, you can't see it, but you can feel it"

"When I said I loved you, I meant forever"

"Love is just a word until you find someone to give it a definition"

"No matter what someone tells you there is a person out there that is meant to wake up to you every morning"

"If he's dumb enough to walk away, then you must be smart enough to let him go"

"Be with someone who knows what they have, when they have you"

"People put up walls not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down"

"I'm sick of all the tears, sick of all the sorrow, I just want to forget about yesterday and focus on tomorrow"

"The girl who seemed unbreakable - Broke

The girl who seemed so strong - Crumbled

The girl who always laughed it off - Cried

The girl who would never stop trying - Finally gave up"

"Tired of trying, sick of crying, yeah I'm smiling, but inside I'm dying"

"I'm something you'll regret losing, I promise you that"

"When you run from something, it only stays longer; if you fight, it only makes you stronger"

"Old enough to know better, too young to care"

"If you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best"

"Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry and just because she comes off strong doesn't mean there is nothing wrong"

"Love is falling for him every time he looks in your eyes"

"It's sad when people you know become people you knew,

When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life,

How you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can barely even look at them"

"It doesn't matter anymore I guess things happen for a reason, tears eventually fade, one day everything will be exactly how it's supposed to be, moving on is a process and you have to promise yourself that your really ready to let go"

"Heres to the future because I'm done with the past"

"Don't worry about the people from your past, there's a reason they didn't make it into your future"

Maybe one of these quotes may mean something to you (:

God has his ways

2012-03-14T14:30:00.001-07:00

"Be the change that you wish to see in the world."

-Gandhi

I have noticed lately that I am a lot happier than I thought I would be. With all of the things that have happened the past few months I thought that it would bring me down but it hasn't. I think that was God's plan. I have realized the past few months that I am a lot stronger than I thought and can take a lot more than I wanted to believe. I am finally to a point where I am comfortable with the person that I am. Yes, there are some things about me that I may not necessarily like but I am working on those. I am trying to be the person I want and who God wants me to be and suddenly I have more self esteem cause I don't really care what people think about me at least not as much as I did. I know that this is just the beginning of figuring out who I am going to be, but I think this is a good start.

Honestly, I owe this to the people who are in my life that have helped me a lot, but it is also due to the people who have hurt me the most in life. I am grateful for everyone who has been in my life because they are the reason I am who I am. Most importantly I am grateful to have such an amazing God that not only put those people in my life, but also took away the ones that shouldn't stay. God can work in mysteries ways!

more important than you think

2012-03-13T23:29:00.000-07:00

Things have been really crazy lately and I have found myself not being about to put as much time or thought into Jesus as I would like.

Anyways tonight I was at work and cleaning tables right before we closed. A man noticed my Young Life shirt and pointed and said your a Christian. I said yes. He asked me if he could ask me a question even though it may sound kind of odd. I put down my spray bottle and rag and said sure ask. I had no idea what he was going to ask but a million things were running through my head. He asked, "do you pray?" I answered yes and he said I was raised Christian but never really followed it until recently, and he said now I try and pray I find its a lot more important than people think. I completely agree with him. Then he asked me to pray for him.

So not only am I going to pray for him to be able to find his way with God, but I am asking for any of you who might read this and feel comfortable praying, to also pray for this man. This man had the courage to ask me to pray for him and that is not something a lot of people can do. I hope at least one person reading this can pray for him and all the other strangers out there that are trying to find their way with God. They need help and support just like I did when I first decided to follow Christ. God can do some pretty amazing things in a persons life and moments like these are when I truly believe that. I think God brings everyone into your life for a reason. Even though I only talked to this man for a few minutes he was also brought into my life for a reason.

"Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it"

John 14:13-14

Just another thought

2012-03-13T15:23:00.000-07:00

I have recently been thinking about what the next year is going to consist of. This semester has been crazy with taking 18 units and working 25 hours a week. I have realized that I am going to need to do the same thing the next year. It is scary realizing that I am going to be so busy but it is all worth it when I think about how a year from now I will be getting ready to move down to San Diego. I have sacrificed a lot for school and to follow my dreams but eventually all of that hard work will pay off when I have achieved my dreams.
I am going to have to take two summer classes this summer and both semesters next year take about 18 units. It is going to be stressful, but as long as it gets me where I want then it will all be worth it in the end. I am ready to move out of Chico and get on with my life but for the next year there are somethings that I need to complete here and still a lot more growing up that I need to go through. I think I made the right choice going to Community College and living at home because it is giving me a chance to grow up and try and figure things out things about myself and get a taste of the real world while I can still have the support of my family.

You are my Masterpiece

2012-03-12T19:53:00.003-07:00

A long time ago I found a piece of paper and I have kept it in my Bible ever since. It is an excerpt from the book "His Princess: Love Letters from your King." The piece of paper has become my Bible bookmark and today I decided that I would share it with all of you.

I love what I have created. I am delighted in you!

Don't ever feel insecure about what you think you are not, because I made you in my image and your uniqueness is a gift from me. I did not give you a life, my love, for you to squeeze into a man-made mold. You are royalty, but you won't discover that truth by gazing into a mirror. Let me be your mirror and I will reflect back to you your true beauty. The more you gaze at me, the more you will see my workmanship in you. The sooner you see yourself for who you really are, the sooner you can begin your reign as my priceless princess with a purpose.

Love,

Your King and your Creator

"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."

Ephesians 2:10

Best Friend Continued: My one true friend

2012-03-10T23:52:00.000-08:00

On January 13th I posted a blog about best friends and today I decided to add to that. High School and my first year of college was a time when I gained and lost a lot of great friends. Some moved away, others changed, and others well I haven't yet figured out why they left. For a while it made me feel like it was my fault. Like I wasn't good enough for them to want to keep me around. Lately I have been realizing that maybe they weren't good enough to be in my life. Maybe God took them out of my life because he only wants the right people to be in my life.

I still have some pretty good friends but one in particular stands out. Kristlenne Chantel Vicuna. But she will always be Chantel to me (: We have been friends for a long time but for a while we weren't as close as we are now. Our Senior year we got pretty close and then ironically we got closer when she went off to college. We usually talk on the phone about once a week sometimes more and whenever something happens she is the first person to find out. I trust her with anything and treasure our friendship more than anything. She knows that she can count on me for anything. If she was ever in trouble or just needed me I would drop everything and drive 2 hours to be there for her. I know that if she had her car she would do the same thing. That is what best friends should be. We are always there for each other in spirit even if we can't always be together in person. Yes our friendship isn't perfect. We have fights just like any friends but it always ends with an apology and honestly I could never stay mad at her for very long. We may not have a perfect friendship but what is perfect anyways? I would not change one thing about our friendship. She has helped me through so much and I know that she is going to continue to be there for me through anything because that is what a best friend does. I am very blessed to have such a great friend and I thank God everyday for blessing me with such a great friend.
12 of my favorite Best Friend Quotes
"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walk out."
"A best friend shares the good times and help you out by listening during the bad times."
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
"Best friend is someone who knows all about you and loves you anyway."
"Good friends are like stars…. You don’t always see them, but you know they are always there."
"My best friend is the one who brings out the best of me."
"True friends are like diamonds, precious and rare. False friends are like leaves, found everywhere."
"A best friend can tell you things you don’t want to tell yourself."
"A true friend is someone you can disagree with and still remain friends.If not, they weren’t true friends in the first place."
"A friend accepts us as we are yet helps us to be what we should."
"True friends are very difficult to find, hard to leave, and impossible to forget."
"A true friend reaches for your hand and touches your heart."

Hearing me rant

2012-03-09T08:31:00.001-08:00

I am irritated with people who take advantage of financial aid and other government handouts. I understand that they are there for people who need money to be able to attend college and that they do help a lot of people. I am pissed off at the people who play the system. I work 25 hours a week and take 18 units and I get absolutely no government help. I am driven to make my many dreams and goals come true and I am doing whatever it takes to get to that point. My parents are a huge help and even though they will never want to admit it they are nervous about how the next few years are going to hit my family financially. I am not mad that I don't get financial help because I do have a pretty good life. My family has a house, we have three cars, and overall we do pretty well financially but lets face it with the prices of colleges pretty well isn't good enough. Life would be so much less stressful if I knew how I was going to pay for college, but I don't.

One of the most irritating thing is when I'm talking to someone about school and I ask how many units they are taking and I get this answer. "Oh, i'm taking 12 units so I have a full load and can get financial aid." When I hear that I just want to start cursing and saying some very hurtful things, because I work my butt off and take 18 units not because I have to but because I want to.

The next irritating thing. My dad is an anatomy teacher so he gets a lot of pre nursing students in his class. At the beginning of the semester because of how impacted our classes are he has to turn away a lot of students that could be great students and that would have been a great addition to the class. Instead sometimes he gets students that skim because they just need to get there financial aid. Pathetic!

The final irritating thing. I was sitting in my Italian class yesterday and these two people were talking about financial aid. The girl said that she can't wait to get her financial aid because she needs a vacation. I got so irritated! Seriously that is what financial aid is to some people. A vacation! I would love to be able to take a vacation but I have work and school and no government handouts helping at all.

I understand the importance of financial aid and I am not saying that this describes everyone who gets financial aid. But like everything else there are problems with how it works. I think that is the issue.