LIGHTS on!

(About Fears) Healing for the Past, Test of Faith in the Present & Hope for the Future

2016-05-02T09:07:00.001-07:00

"For I know well the plans I have in mind for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare, not for woe! plans to give you a future full of hope."
Jeremiah 29:11

This is the perfect Bible scripture that I can gain strength from.
I am having strongs tests of Faith now, if I can believe that my future will be bright.
I encountered a quote, it says, To be an artist one should believe in Life.
And my chosen career path is to be an Interior Designer and to be one, I should be an artist.
So in my career path, I'm still struggling and will do my best to gain diploma.

Though, there are some struggles that I encounter, personally, that I want to open up about it even when it should be just a secret. And please, don't judge me right away.

Cause, I know, even though I do have a unique condition, I'm a normal person.
I could be shy to say this but, I experience weird things that makes me struggle.
Like, there are times when I have involuntary speaking and gestures, but somehow i can still manage to control myself. I don't know exactly what triggered my unique condition but I must not fret cause I take (oleanzapine) a medicine prescribed by my psychiatrist.
Plus! It's good to rely most especially to the Life Source, that is God.

I do have fears....
that's why It's quite hard to dream about the future.

But, thankfully even when I'm not too brave as a strong woman should, reading Biblical promises helps me to gain insight to be bold about my desire for a good future.

My fears were like, (i don't want to mention though, cause words are powerful but I'll say it
in the most pleasant way).

It's Life, and I'm afraid of losing it.

I had an experience that made me feel the fears that seems to affect me spiritually or psychologically. This is the story....

In holy week of 2012, I had a call from my aunt telling me that they are looking for a girl, named Anna. She was like just reporting that she is lost. I hardly can remember her, who is from the province Mindoro. I've been to their home but can't remember her. But, as the story goes, I was having thoughts that maybe she was only at her friends house stayed for a sleep over, cause my Aunt says she didn't go home that day.

Then, later on she called again to tell the bad news, she was found dead.
The worst scenario that is unimaginable to happen to a woman or a girl.
Anna was raped and killed.
When I understood what was my Aunt talking about over the phone, I started to cry loudly.
I don't know it sure enough, if I am only emphatic to sense such experience, cause I was like crying so hard, like how a baby cries.

Then, we decided to sympathize with their family so we went to the wake.
And It was the saddest scenerio I have ever seen.
A girl, who is Anna, who's lifeless wearing her school uniform in a casket.
She had a bruise on her neck. (I don't want to talk about it but it created fear).

I did pray for her while looking at her, (the saddest thing that my eyes laid upon).
Her Mom was saying Anna wanted to go to Disneyland, but when she died, she is going to a better place than Disneyland. :(

And I know her Mom meant Heaven.

Then, when it was disorienting to see a sad event, I had psychological fears later on that made me experience something strange.

Few months later, my friend and I were in a taxi, on the way to our friend's son baptismal.
She (my friend) asked me how was the experience back in the province.
I can hardly talk about it cause I'm afraid, seeing in my mind and mental image of Anna.
I started to have fear, of dying.
I learned the hard way, that Life is fragile, and learned that the world around us can be a hostile place. That's why to pray more is what I learned to do, cause their is so many harms in this world like how drug addicts affect people with the crimes they do. Like the crime done to the young 12 year old Anna.

2 months later after she died, I remember I was hysterical in the taxi while fear was overtaking me. I had goosebumps from toes to head. I don't know if I was being a medium to be able to have a spiritual communication with the dead. I was seeing her feet in my mind.
And I was like, I don't want to die. I was so afraid, that automatically I was praying, speaking words like In Jesus name, i rebuke it. Things like that.

I had fears in the middle of the night to shouting from my sleep, saying I don't want to die.
And some nightmares.

Also one afternoon, I had fear, that was something so strange, that made me shout out loud calling "PAPA PAPA",.. it was like a spiritual force that, taught me how it was like calling for help when Anna was being attacked and forcefully taken out of her will.

Those were my fears.

It was something spiritual. So I did consult psychiatrists to help me recover from something traumatic. I'm praying that there will be more kind people in this world and no brutality and killing. Crimes are prevalent in the News, that's why I learned to trust God more now.

That's why, I thank God so much for the grace of healing from the past, and trusting in Him for the wisdom to discern how to live right with the gift of life, and the hope that there will be future as He has promised.

Blogging is good to reminisce the past. (I could have done blog about theatre and my 18th birthday)

2016-05-02T07:57:00.001-07:00

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It has been a long while since I last did a blog. My life so far isn't too interesting to know, though. But here is a blog if you might like to read it.

I'm being nostalgic about my past, though I have poor memory that's why i knew i needed to blog to remember beautiful events, if only I did grabbed the privilege of doing an online journal.

I wish I did write about being a thespian and could have collected pictures or videos of happy moments such as being part of a theatre plays, and rehearsals, which were two of major productions in 2005 and 2009 from my college's theatre organization. (MAPUA TEKNO TEATRO)

Those events in college were wonderful to remember now and reminisce on, because I gained lots of friends from my co-actors and i have learned a lot on acting and singing plus every rehearsals we do exercises that helped our bodies to be fit. And I was slimmer way back before. Now, I miss theatre! And the only way to get into theatre again is, if I win the lotto I will produce stage productions, (If winning is easy, just to be rich instantly) I wanted to fund musical or stage drama someday with the help of Directors. It can be pretty costly to do it and Im wishing that I can gain friends again cause now, I rarely have even small conversations from my co-actors, and I hardly remember all of them.

It was not too huge as the theater done in West End and Broadway but it was an awesome experience doing Disney Musical.

Before I become a part of Mapua Tekno Teatro I watched the earlier batch of thespians doing Cats, and Phantom of the Opera, they were really good.

There are a lot to know about Theater, especially from the veterans in PETA.
Maybe I will try someday to do PETA, when my budget and my schedule allows me to.
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"Words are the most powerful thing in the universe"

2012-08-26T08:09:00.001-07:00

Faith filled words will put you over.
Fear-filled words will defeat you.

Christianity is called the great confession, but most of us Christians
who are defeated in life are defeated because they believe and confess
the wrong things. They have spoken the words of the enemy. And
those words hold them in bondage. PROVERBS 6:1-2 says.
"Thou art snared with the words of thy mouth."

"If Satan Can't Steal Your Dreams"

2012-02-08T05:27:00.000-08:00

From the Author JERRY SAVELLE

CHAPTER 1:

"SATAN TARGETS YOUR DREAMS"

It would be wonderful if God just laid out the
whole picture of your life and said,
"Now, here's where you're going; here's everything
that's going to happen before you get there;
here's each day of your life for the next 15

years, and here's how it's going to turn out."
However, if He did that, our lives woudn't require

faith.

God is not going to lay everything out for you.
He'll give you one piece of the puzzle at a time.
Each piece connected to the other piece will

create a perfect picture of God's plan for your

life.

But those pieces must be connected together by

faith in His word. Every step you take must
be a step of faith.

Psalm 37:23 says,
"The steps of a good man are ordered by the

Lord...." In this journey of faith, you're going

to have to be very sensitive to God.

Like Abraham, you must take the steps God ordains

and directs so you'll end up at the destination,

to which He has called you.

By faith, he (Abraham) sojourned in the land of

promise, as in a strange country, dwelling in

tabernacles with Isaac and Jacob, the heirs with

him of the same promise:

For he looked for a city which hath foundation,

whose builder and maker is God.

Hebrews 11:9, 10

As you will see later in this book, Abraham didn't

know where he was goingg, but he was always

looking.

Are you looking today? Are you looking for the

manifestations of what God has promised?

Are you anticipating the fulfillment?
Are you laying aside all doubts and expecting God

every promise to happen?

Right now, God is building something in your life.

It is your job to look for what is built and made

by God. In order to do this, you have to create a

proper atmosphere and refuse to fear anything that

would stand in your way --- even failure.

CREATING AN ATMOSPHERE FOR YOUR DREAMS

Quiapo Manila with Churchgoers

2012-02-06T08:03:00.001-08:00

Quiapo Manila with Churchgoers

2012-02-06T07:57:00.000-08:00

"showbiz doesn't please me well" (I hope they please God more, not people alone)

2012-02-02T09:25:00.000-08:00

What I notice on shows on Philippine TV:

1.May tamang balita
2.Showtime
3.Fliptop (youtube)
4. Lyrics ng mga songwriters (na hindi tama)

Nakakaaliw ang panoorin.. kaninang gabi, Feb 2, episode. (May tamang balita)
There was this part, on Madam (Wish ko lang style)
The host was reading a - letter wishing for (like in wish ko lang)..

It says this, even not in perfect exact phrase..

"I wish hindi na ko kutyain ng mga tao dahil lang pumiyok ako ng isang beses, pero bakit nung si Anne Cortes tatlong oras pumipiyok sa concert niya, okay lang. Samantalang ako, parang (ipapako na nila sa krus)."
---Maxene (name changed a little) seems it's Maxene Magalona.

I am actually against this kind of what's happening in the showbusiness, I am not really wanting to get noticed,but I sense and know that there is something wrong in showbiz.
Making two parties, have dispute, and hate, thanmake them both friends.

And the worse part of it, is, these words, wereto the extent of discriminating anne and maxene at the same time, as wellas it has been blasphemous.
Sorry for being this way, but, I don't intend to please any personwith how true I am, I speak what I think is right for me.

What's true for me, can't be for you, or might be.
Please do respect my opinion on this.

Nakakasawa lang kasi sa industriya nababawasan ang pagiging maka-diyos ng mga pilipino, kung
ang mga sinasabi ng mga tao sa TV ay puro (against the Faith).

--I will give you examples:

One time, on showtime, a lola was waving her hands,,
Vice Ganda saying lola was like, waving "Palaspas"---when actually palaspas is very sacred.
(For devout Catholics they know how to pay respect to true religion or
to God.)

I am no perfect human being, if i notice some people's errors, that doesn't mean, I don't see
speck on my own eyes. In fact, I am spiritually young, like just "baby" on spiritual level.
I am no expert on Faith, but I care of how I do please God, i wish I do really please Him.

If judging people for how they are, spiritually, I have no right, ultimately, because...who am i???

Me? Just absolutely, explaining my own mind in the best light I know. I transpire, what I think
is right for me, and if I get haters, it's best for me that, I remain true to myself.
Than, to be appreciated for making lies.. or pretense.

Galit ako sa, kamalian sa show-business, pero hindi ako galit sa mga taong-showbiz.
Kasi trabaho lang naman nila yon, at they are doing what they supposed to be doing, since
they were probably directed to do it, or influenced, mentally or verbally (not being their complete-real-self).

I can't be apathetic, and indifferent, kung pwede lang mag-salita sa tv, gagawin ko na eh..
pero, I won't do that. Of course, hindi ako pasikat na tipo ng tao, nagpapaka-totoo lang.

Isa pa..lalo na sa industriya ng Hiphop at Rap.. pasensya na sa mga maiinis, pero I don't find
FLIPTOP and good source to see the people's skills on rap, puro payabangan lang eh..
magmumumura tapos mamaya mag-babati?

Diba mali???

Kasi mag salita ka na nang lahat ng masakit sa taong kausap, sabay bawi?? Normal? i don't think so.

Ayoko kasi maging plastik, that's why I make this note as a medium to speak.

Sana lang talaga, kung may mga rapper sa pinas na gusto mag bigay naman, nag substance
sa mga kanta nila, mag-bigay naman sila ng BUHAY sa tao.

MAGSILBI naman sanang daan para magbuo ng pamilya, systema o kahit ano pa man, basta sa
ikabubuti naman ng mundo...

4. ULAN - - alam mo ba yung kantang ito?
Yung nagsasabi ng buhos ng ulan, wag ng tumigil, na lulunurin ang mundo????
'TAMA po ba ang mga lyriko na ito??'

I don't think so.. dumaan na ang ondoy,pedring,reming at sendong. Mga pangyayaring
hindi maibabalik ang mga buhay na nawala at buhay na napinsala, di lang ang bahay.
Walang amount ng pera ang kahit kailan, makapagpapabalik ng buhay nila.
Nakakalungkot, ano ba silbi ng musika, diba, kanta ay dasal??

We sing because we pray 3 times.
Or we sing, because we explain ourselves..
Sila kaya mga songwriters, they sing, because they express themselves in
words, or they are praying to the devil, they just don't know they do?
Or worse if, what if they know it, but they still do it.

Ignorance is a sin, though how about the innocent?

Where is the justice in system of Showbusiness?? Where is that
Righteousness, even to those who make money for the business,
sharing these material possessions for those who has less,
and making lives better? Diba tama naman ako, somehow,
I know, you get what I mean.

thanks for reading. - - - abbie

(Please do judge me back in return, when I judged anybody wrongly.
Because, those who do judge, will be judged. As well as, there is
no one too righteous and good in this world, the real truth and
the Righteous is God, alone.)

Jesus I need you to be my savior.

2011-12-19T04:34:00.000-08:00

I need to be saved.

This time, I have no full control of myself, but I am striving my
very hardest to explain this personal story, that is paranormal and
can be considered as a result of unmindful actions I do.

I have had a recent experience that is very diabolical.

Please don't judge me that I am crazy, but, not everybody might understand me,
because this is so hard to explain.

To tell everybody downstraight, this event recently like typhoon
Sendong, that killed many people in Mindanao.

May have something to do, with the evil in the spiritual realms.

I hope that I am not at my lowest spiritual point, i thank God.)

I am not crazy, though at times, I lose my control, I act like
dancing while singing in front of the mirror, not knowingly, that I am
probably making magic, or using occult-power, without my knowledge.

And automatically, there are times, that my hands and feet sweat a lot,
at the same time, it's raining. (Crazy right? But I can't completely understand
this that is happening to me, nobody else, can even explain to me.)

This experience of mine that is very personal, is demonic and paranormal.

I was controlled for many times, to speak-in-tongues, but these tongues that I was speaking is evil and been used by *sort of Witchcraft* or *demonic* power, trying to take charge of my mouth, to make CHANTS.

I was losing control over my mouth, everytime I was attacked by this spirit.
I guess this spirit is a demon or maybe, something that has to do, with psyching up of people that has mind-kinetic-psychology that makes movement to a person's body.
Trying to rule over mind.

I don't want to lose my volition, and my will.

I do trust in God, and I even make songs that is Christian.

Realizing, that I was doing these things, while I am in the bathroom, naked,
taking a bath, and rhyming... (sometimes using instrumentals of Known artists, and changing words of some artists that has blasphemies.)

Like example..
I have been listening to T.I. GOT YOUR BACK, and the line that says,
on adam and eve.. "MAY GOD GIVE NOT ***T ON THESE TWO"

And i do change that line to, "MAY GOD MAKE US A BLESSING OF HAVING US TWO."

I keep on changing words on blasphemous songs, but to the extent that I don't record them, and sometimes, I even laugh at my songs when I mess up my rhymes.

I have been psyched-up, and even have spoken words that has evil in it.
Like *damning* God, but it have happened with my own mouth, only with the force
of this air, that comes out from my mouth strongly.

There are times, that I even feel that I am hurt.
While this wind comes out from my mouth, it also makes me speak these hateful words, automatically.

I am asking for God's divine mercy, for speaking words I don't mean.
Not really meant to come out from my mouth, because I don't even have those
words in my heart. But, there is really something that controls me, taking
over my mouth to speak.

(Right now, I am just writing these, to explain my side easily.)

Awhile ago, when I used the bathroom, that *AUTOMATIC* speech, said to me, "WHAT IS YOUR LIFE, ABI?"

See? how crazy it can get, how would anybody, realize that they are speaking words, they don't mean??

WHAT HAPPENS TO ME, is... these words only comes out, when this STRONG AIR from
my stomach forcing up to my throat and then, words come to make me talk automatically (words i don't even have in mind, first, before speaking).

This is probably one of the signs of times.
I can't make people believe me, but I am completely being honest.

THIS hand symbol, that is an "OK" sign for many of us, i automatically do, without me choosing to do. Is something that I fear, that it is also that three six sign, or the sign of the illuminati or the sign that signifies an alliance to the Beast.

Beast or Satan.

There are people who were led astray and leading people astray, when they are pursuing the fake-light, or the angel of the light---that is Lucifer, and not the REAL light, that is JESUS CHRIST.

I am a mystic, though, I have been led astray by some MIND CONTROL or BRAIN-WASHING.

2011-12-19T02:36:00.001-08:00

Schizophrenia

2011-12-19T00:55:00.001-08:00

I think I am schizophrenic, though I never want to complain.

What is schizophrenic?

For my own experience, I have had much of schizophrenia recently.
I have been challenged on how to think.

Sometimes, we have to admit that WE THINK, but not really STRAIGHT.

My mind is a sanctuary for me, and I have to claim that everybody has to get their PEACE of MIND, each moment of their life.

Since, God, (Jesus) and His father, with the Holy Spirit, gives us all the salvation,
to receive peace, hope and love.

But, what if?

There is a time, in your life, that you have been,
Battered? Mistreated? Disrespected? Distracted? Disturbed?

All of these, have happened to me, in a Spiritual Manner.

Was it, because God chose to chastise me?
Or is it, because the beast or the devil, wanted to steal my joy?

I may never be always perfect with my thoughts, words and actions.
Accepting my wretchedness before God's eyes, is important for me,
because I claim that I am an adopted daughter of God the father.

Did you know, that there are spiritual ways, how a person can be inflicted with pain, and make them look like they are afflicted?
I've had, these kind of pressure, personally.
I needed to look for Christ, to make me free from all insanity.

Swallowing my pride is what I do, and trying my hardest to manage myself to think right,and move my body in such a way, that I have complete freedom to live.

My movement have been very strange recently, my mind have been battling with (probably somebody else's mind), that's why I needed to think smarter, even when I can't be always wise at times.

Pretending to be smart, is just acting like a know-all-person, and that's not me.

My imaginations have been fantasies, and believing that these fantasies could happen are just complete *DAYDREAMING*, but I am trying to just, think freely, when there is really power in visualizing.

BUT WHAT IF? Some psychics would change your thoughts?
Then change your behavior?
Then morally, create horrible effects on your system?
When the mind acts like the controller of our whole body.

Or what if...???? THERE IS THIS DEVIL, that really tries to send you thoughts, to destroy your peace?

REMEMBER DEVILS are SPIRITS, hitting or making our minds his TARGET, attacks
our Psychics.

Much even worse, these evil spirits only do want to destroy people's peace,
behavior, and much worsened when these spiritual enemies, continually
killing a person's sense-of-peace to live freely.

That's how, I can really justify that there is really a calling for
people to FREE THEIR MINDS.

Do others really has the ability to steal somebody else's thoughts, and intellectually become thieves to others thinking?

Respecting somebody else's mind, must be the first concept of a person, who is working with God.

But look around us, what do we see? what do we listen to? what do we watch?

Are all of these, healthy for our own minds, or does it only create "war-of-the-minds", to give confusion and distraction, of one's thinking?

We cannot blame people with how they think, we cannot even blame ourselves with what we are in our minds. We cannot blame the whole world's spirituality with who we become in our minds or spirits.

Only for the reason, that we are just influencing one another in ways that happens spiritually.

I respect all minds in this land (Philippines), but, forgive me, when I want to
judge that there are psychics who are so mean and wicked with their minds.

And I respect them, but I cannot love them.
Since, I have had experienced being mistreated by some spiritual influences.

I guess this is not being Pathetic. This only means that, there are really stronger minds in this country, that takes charge and takes over minds of others.

I am not proud of my countrymen, who does strange acts of abuse, accusations
with using someone's mind, for their own benefit, or to make someone's life negative.

Help me serve Christ

2011-12-17T21:42:00.000-08:00

PLEASE HELP ME to do it, with your help.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!

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I am saved!

2011-12-17T20:33:00.001-08:00

I cried, to know how to be happy. I've made mistakes and failed, to appreciate how to gain glory, and to triumph from challenges. I have been CRAZY to be at my most Sane. I just simply love myself, because God showed me, how a person can be manipulated by the beast, but God himself is the Christ, savior, redeemer and the BEST.

I am saved from all kind of MESS.
♥ i love you Jesus! ♥

"How to make someone PSYCHOTIC"

2011-12-16T23:49:00.000-08:00

(MY GOAL on this BLOG is TO SPEAK HONESTLY HOW I WAS TESTED TO BECOME CHRISTIAN,
and trust the Holy Spirit to give me self-control.)

I cannot completely speak out everything about the People in the industry of Music,
like especially this "Showbiz world" of RADIO.

I don't want to earn money from this, or make a controversy.

I would only want to explain my
SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCES about RADIO, TELEVISION and even OPM, music artists.

I am not too perfect when it comes to mind-power.
I am clearly not a MIND-READER, not even sure if I can receive TELEPATHIC messages, but I thought of maybe sharing my thoughts on somebody else.

I can't just assure that everything that I have encountered tremendously recently, as these "PSYCHIC ATTACKS" are completely from the influences of the RADIO.

My conscience is clear, I am not lying.
I am HONEST, to Goodness, I'm telling you, God knows everything.

My life recently have really tested me with how I can really manage to
maintain, not losing my mind, my temper, and my morals.

My mind, my heart, my soul, and my whole being, is what I'm sure, God can judge, alone.

Probably, I am a little bit of crazy, or maybe suffering from
PARANOIA, SCHIZOPHRENIA or SELF-HYPNOSIS.

I tell you, I really get OUT-OF-CONTROL of my system, at times.

I'm blogging, just to find somebody who can, at least tell me if they
can relate to me. I heard there are people, who are also "SPIRITUALLY
DISTURBED."

There are also many books about these, like "DELIVERANCE", "PSYCHIC POWERS",
"WAR OF THE MINDS".

Maybe, most of us, can understand this concept of MIND, having "VISIONS",
"VOICES",

I just can't understand, why would these "PSYCHIC INFLUENCES"
that comes to me, are so "devilish", like it has been manifestations of the DEVIL.

Satanic, Occultic, & Magic.

Mystics, could be the best description to these people involved.

Right now, I am at peace with my mind, and my whole body. Though, everytime I get under attack, I tend to lose control over my mind and my body.

I am not epileptic and autistic, to clear things out, but, the power that comes to me
like a trance is so hypnotically affecting my behavior, attitude, mentality and body.

I no longer like to consult to Psychiatrists regarding this matter.
I think I have had enough dose of the "XYPREZA" anti-depressants, I have had back in 2009.

I just can't go back to my previous psychiatrist, since I need money for some other stuff.

Many of my experiences, psychically, that came to me, are these:

1. I have frequent, speeches or words that comes out automatically from
my mouth. (I have read it is called TRANCE MEDIUMSHIP)
Whenever this happens, my words became, foul or bad words, and most often they are blasphemies or curses.)

2. I felt weirdly *sexually aroused* in the way, that my body then follows in such movement, like pushes me or pulls me to lay on bed. (These events really do eats up my energy.)

3. Whenever I feel that arousal, my "navel" or in tagalog "puson", feels squeezed tightly, and then i feel strange on my genitals, eventually when I feel pressed on my tummy, I secrete much of my white discharge.

(I know this is abnormal, I just don't know, who else in this world who is Christian, can realize this phenomena on NEW AGE?)

4. I can have nightmares often, even sleep-paralysis, or "bangunot", what is interesting about this, is whenever I get these bad dreams, I hear voices talking,
some speak in our native tongue, some of them speak in english.

5. My thoughts are sometimes, changing in an instant, like some other minds, can just swap their minds on me.

Do this thing, has to do with ILLUMINATI or FREEMASONRY?
I don't really know, I can't understand it all, but why are these things, take place, when these are like what has been fed on my mind, by the MEDIA.

Spirits are us, and we spiritually affect one another.

2011-12-06T08:55:00.000-08:00

“ON SPIRITUALITY”

Maybe this is like: Transcendentalism...

I don't have that broad knowledge about this branch of Philosophy, and even in Psychology, but I think I can say something.

Forgive me, it's going to be arbitrary.

Based on my own experiences.

First, may I ask you this, "Do you believe in spirits?"

If so, do you think, we are spirits?

Of course, we are, only we do have this body, that makes our spirit filled with what we feed our temples with.

Christianity explains that THE BODY IS THE TEMPLE OF THE Holy spirit.

I can't remember this philosopher saying that, the body is only the cage of the soul.

If you know him, can you please tell me who he is.

On this instrument, BODY- what are we breathing for?

Where life came from? Why are we living, and having breath?

It is the spirit, right?

I apologize if I'm getting to spiritual, and my mind isn't intellectually better than yours, though, i think I can share my own view on this, context.

Hey! I'm only 24, & there's billion terms about everything existing in the dictionary and encyclopedia. I am not a Genius. Just average, probably, lesser than average.

But, I assure you, my EQ, is higher than my IQ. And I wish, my whole character can be good enough to be called Dignified.. anyway.

I am not, making myself look like better than how anybody sees me, in fact, I appreciate to be hated or even misunderstood.

But! I would love to be loved, than hated, of course!

I've always been good to everybody, like a kid, not being mindful of any criminal ever existed.

Having my security, around me, made me have the complacency of no-danger zone within the vicinity I'm at.

Back to spirits.. I think I need to explain better, but this is how I say things out.

Wish you can get my idea, though.

On Transcendentalism, I heard Ms. Oprah Winfrey, is an active practitioner of "higher-consciousness", maybe it is, like spirituality?

It could be like, Meditation? Yoga? or any thing like it.

Maybe. Another practice of Deism?

I don't know, exactly.

It must be depending upon the believer on what it really is for the person.

I, being a Christian Catholic in faith, and grew up in religious/pious family, and where I live is a community of Christians.

Good thing! I was baptized to be one since when i was only 2 months fresh in this world.

I would choose to be one, forever. That's how IN LOVE, I AM in faith.

God may be smiling at me now. Why not? He is always on the watch. Witnessing my every move can be a challenge to be a Christian, with all of unnecessary actions I've been doing in my life.

Lately.. ridiculously, acting silly on my own-weird-supernatural-psy-paranormal-phenomena.

This is probably, explicable on the issues about SPIRITS.

What is a spirit? It's the breath, the air, the Life.

Amazing right? It's like, great to imagine breathing altogether in this whole world.

Sharing the same atmosphere, and life is all around the planet.

Thank goodness! Life, can be indeed more appreciated when we realize God's wonders.

People working day and night, getting up early, before sunrise, going home few hours after sunset, and studying life in a day to day basis.

Like, nobody can even be ever perfect and expert LIFE, am I right?

Knowing energy comes from people too, there has been a study, a body emits great energy, radiating to its surroundings. Do you know where can this be true? I just had a glimpse of the video on that.

Being alive in the flesh, and strong physically,

how can we about to explain and feel the life of the soul within us?

Is it possible that, there can be other souls, (from living bodies) able to use our own body for their movements? Or kinetically by other people's mind? Like of psychics?

What is OBE? How can someone be able to be experiencing out-of-body?

I may be alone, minding this idea of out-of-body and psychic phenomena, when I know, I haven't been very busy in while with work.

Though, a nudge in me, telling me to just blog this out, and hoping someone out there can be a good samaritan to me, to explain and share his view.

Even when, many of us, probably don’t spend much time on this kind of issue, pre-occupation or having too many work to get done, like 24 hours in a day isn’t enough.

Or VICE-versa, I mind this cause, I don't have work as of yet, aside from -freelancing on little or Minor business.

Some people doesn't even mind this issue, because of being occupied with their work.

On the matter of souls, I have many experiences with this.

I myself, understand that there are mysteries, in this world, and if only there is a teacher to be educating me on everything in Life, I excitingly have to be his student.

If Mahatma Gandhi is alive, probably, I will ask him these things.

On thoughts, dreams, ideas, visions, and sounds, are there impact on us, transmitting to one another these kind of frequencies with the use of our minds??

What is telepathy?

What is it called like, when I hear sounds, to loud in my head, sometimes, when I am about to fall asleep and even when about to wake up.

And why is it, when I am dreaming, it felt surreal, sometimes it even seems like reality, with all the senses being able to perceive, visually, and with all the senses working, in dreams, i can touch, taste, smell, see and hear. Even, sometimes, unfairly, I do differently in dreams, than how I supposed to be doing in reality. Sometimes, my mind can seem to be very against myself.

I know, I don't consider myself as my own enemy, for the fact, I embrace my own being, whether I know I am, imperfect. I still, love myself like my own best-friend.

Furthermore,

Not being autistic, of course! I don't want to claim that, even if being "autistic savant".

Even when I have, some challenges in psychiatric, I don't like the concept of "losing mind", "losing self", "let's get crazy" kind of lines on songs I hear on the radio and on tvs.

It can't be autism when I find a haven in my own, sense of security being alone, at times.

"SOUL TIES"

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(please wait.)

spirituality

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(to update)

"On Marriage and sex"

2011-12-01T08:18:00.000-08:00

Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous.

—Hebrews 13:4

Filipino Hero of the Day

2011-12-01T08:09:00.001-08:00

Pinoy MMDA rescued a foreigner, fr a snatcher,call him a hero,after being shot right after the perp. get back at p'que.

What sex really mean to you?

2011-12-01T07:41:00.000-08:00

Have your lights on? TRANSPIRE me!

if you may ask..

What is sex for me?

Well, that has to be between husbands and wives alone.

Not to have it, with extra-marital affairs, or casually.

I know it's easier to have it said, than done, right?

But, to tell you frankly, I'm one of the women, who still pursues to keep "virginity",

until such time, i hopefully have to lay on the bed right next to my husband.

When, I know, I have no idea, honestly! If, will i ever get married...though.

I wish I will! In a very conservative view of Marriage, consider me, one

of Christian women, who prefer, sex-right-after-Marriage kind of thing.

An excellent wife is the crown of her husband,
but she who brings shame is like rottenness in his bones.

—Proverbs 12:4

LOVE ON TOP

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ob7vObnFUJc

FEEL GOOD MUSIC BY BEYONCE

Bring the beat in!

Honey, honey
I can see the stars all the way from here
Can't you see the glow on the window pane?
I can feel the sun whenever you're near
Every time you touch me I just melt away

Now everybody asks me why I'm smiling out from ear to ear.
(They say love hurts)
But I know
(It's gonna take the real work)
Nothing's perfect, but it's worth it after fighting through my fears
And finally you put me first

Baby it's you.
You're the one I love.
You're the one I need.
You're the only one I see.
Come on baby it's you.

You're the one that gives your all.
You're the one I can always call.
When I need you make everything stop.
Finally you put my love on top.

Ooo! Come on Baby.
You put my love on top, top, top, top, top.
You put my love on top.
Ooo Ooo! Come on baby.
You put my love on top, top, top, top, top.
My love on top.
My love on top.

Come on Baby
I can feel the wind whipping past my face.
As we dance the night away.
Boy your lips taste like a night of champagne.
As I kiss you again, and again, and again and again.

Now everybody asks me why I'm smiling out from ear to ear.
(They say love hurts)
But I know
(It's gonna take the real work)
Nothing's perfect, but it's worth it after fighting through my fears.
And finally you put me first.

Baby it's you.
You're the one I love.
You're the one I need.
You're the only one I see.
Come on baby it's you.
You're the one that gives your all.
You're the one I can always call.
When I need you make everything stop.
Finally you put my love on top.

Ooo! Baby.
You put my love on top, top, top, top, top.
You put my love on top.

Ooo Ooo! Come on baby.
You put my love on top, top, top, top, top.
My love on top.

Baby it's you.
You're the one I love.
You're the one I need.
You're the only thing I see.
Come on baby it's you.
You're the one that gives your all.
You're the one I that always calls.
When I need you baby everything stops.
Finally you put my love on top.

Baby.You're the one I love.
Baby You're all I need.
You're the only one I see.
Come on baby it's you.
You're the one that gives your all.
You're the one I always call.
When I need you everything stops.
Finally you put my love on top

Baby.
Cuz You're the one that I love.
You're the one that I need.
You're the only thing I see.
Baby baby it's you.
You're the one that gives your all.
You're the one that always calls.
When I need you everything stops.
Finally you put my love on top

Baby.
Cuz You're the one that I love.
You're the one that I need.
You're the only thing I see.
Baby baby it's you.
You're the one that gives your all.
You're the one that always calls.
When I need you everything stops.
Finally you put my love on top

Baby.
Cuz You're the one that I love.
Baby You're the one that I need.
You're the only one I see.
Baby baby it's you.
You're the one that gives your all.
You're the one that always calls.
When I need you everything stops.
Finally you put my love on top

RH BILL (ACCORDING TO Harvard Medical School and the Mayo Clinic)

2011-11-30T22:09:00.000-08:00

"I understand the side of PRORH and ANTI-RH BILL. But, remember there is business and large money will be let out once it is implemented."

ACCORDING TO Harvard Medical School and the Mayo Clinic

1. Artificial contraceptives kill children. When does human life begin? At fertilization, when the sperm penetrates the egg. This was the unanimous response of medical experts (including doctors from Harvard Medical School and the Mayo Clinic) at an eight day hearing of the US Senate.1 Do birth control pills and the IUD kill the embryo? Yes, the pill has a secondary “postfertilization effect”, according to the scientific journal of the American Medical Association.2 The American Journal of Obstetrics and Gynecology pronounced that the intrauterine device brings about the “destruction of the early embryo.”

http://www.scribd.com/doc/41621096

1.Artificial contraceptives kill children.

When does human life begin? At fertilization, when

the sperm penetrates the egg. This was the unanimous

response of medical experts (including doctors from

Harvard Medical School and the Mayo Clinic) at an eight

day hearing of the US Senate.1

Do birth control pills and the IUD kill the embryo?

Yes, the pill has a secondary “postfertilization effect”,

according to the scientific journal of the American

Medical Association.2 The American Journal of Obstetrics

and Gynecology pronounced that the intrauterine device

brings about the “destruction of the early embryo.”

Quiapo Happenings

2011-11-29T08:58:00.000-08:00

Lego Paradise at SM THE BLOCK

2011-11-29T08:52:00.001-08:00

Encounters with Poochies

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make animated gifs like this at MakeAGif

SM Manila's Christmas Season Starts

2011-11-29T08:32:00.001-08:00

With Manila Mayor, Mr. Lim