My Family of Women

If i had a son.......

2014-03-07T14:16:00.001-08:00

If I had a son...
I would tell him to find a best friend and ask her to be his mate. I would tell him that loving your best friend is easy but maintaining it can be rough. Your thoughts and wants are very important but your desire for her and her well being will be paramount. I would tell him to ALWAYS put God first, even in front of your best friend. Because son, you won't know how to love her or even love at all until you know the love of Jesus. And same for her. If she doesn't know Jesus then don't date her until she does. Patience is important when dealing with love. Son you will find your thoughts will go to her at all times. You will know her great attributes and her bad ones. You will accept her for who she is while challenging her to be better. She definitely will do the same for you my friend. There will be a certain level of peace when you are around her like some kind of special strength you get from just being near her. Your friendship with her will feel very natural. You will be very intentional about spending time with her but it shouldn't feel forced. And you shouldn't have to force it. Your spirit mind and heart should be on the same page. Choices and circumstances can play a big part in your relationship with your love. You may have to make tough choices for her benefit or yours as a couple. Make sure you tell her that you love her, she needs that. Finally, Love is doing. You will feel a lot but your actions will show if you love her not your mouth. Son, I hope this guides you. Love is not an exact science but I hope this helps you clear up some things when you need it. I love you very much. Dad.

Mom, you are my heaven

2013-12-15T20:51:00.001-08:00

Mom, you are my heaven
your prayers have brought me through
Through heartache and pain
Through shame and gain
Mom, you are my heaven

From my first words to my first step
From my first bike to my first kiss.
You were always there
Mom, you are my heaven

Through my attitudes
My selfishness
My knowing-it-all
You knew all I needed
Mom, you are my heaven

Now, I am grown
Now, I have grown
Because of your love
Your kindness
Your protectiveness
and your prayers
Mom, you are my heaven

The sun has stop shining on you
Because the Son is now shining on you
Heaven has a new angel
Mom, you are my heaven.

The fam

2013-11-30T12:51:00.001-08:00

I had a great day with the FAM yesterday. We relaxed, picked up a tree, saw someone steal from the store then steal a car(crazy), decorated our tree and watched a movie. Its the simple things. Except for the car thing that was just weird and crazy. Merry Christmas

I Love Hard

2013-11-18T19:10:00.001-08:00

I love hard
I love deep
I fall completely in

I love hard
I love deep
I'm slow to open

I love hard
I love deep
But when I do

I love hard
I love deep
If I'll trust you with my heart

I'll love hard
I'll love deep
But if you break my heart

I love hard
I love deep
I'll be done with you

I love hard
I love deep
I will forgive

I love real
I love love
I try to forget

I love deep
I love hard
I am me

Love is indescribable

2013-11-11T14:44:00.001-08:00

Love is indescribable
We hear from many people. Why do you love me? We give many answers like "I love your eyes", "you are so sweet to me", or "we are soul-mates". But Love is still an action word. Or better yet a person but we will talk about that another time. When you truly love someone you are driven to "do". Whether you want to or not. You know what they want, you know how they are(good or bad or both), you lift them up when they don't deserve it, you become unselfish. Are you perfect at it? NO, not even close! But the more you love them the more you will sacrifice what you want for what they want. You give without wanting anything in return except the acknowledgement that they know and appreciate that you love them. But how do you put Love into words. I can't do that! I am not skilled like that, nobody is. The love that you feel for someone is so strong there are no words but there are actions. Did you notice I said nothing about the physical side of love. That is the byproduct of all those feelings inside. Having the physical before the "real love" and calling it love is not love. That's sex. Its what you prove during the hard-times or how you act during great success that really determines someones love. Yes the addiction of wanting to be with the person is real. Or spending lots of time with them. Or just seeing them and wanting to just hold them. All real but you really can't explain the emotion it is too intense! The next time we ask somebody to explain why they love us. Maybe, just maybe, we should ask ourselves who has been there for us. Who knows my faults and don't care. Who listens to us even when we are being a butt. Who tolerates us when we are soooooo mean. Who puts us first. Or who wants to put us first. Who shows us with their actions that they love us. Love doesn't make you choose and doesn't hold on tight. Love wants the best for you. Love trust if you want to fly away that you will come back and If you don't you have found someone that gives you that love. Therefore, you are happy, it hurts but you are OK with that as long as they are TRULY happy. You can't force love but it is intentional. It is powerful. It is truth. I hope this blesses you and makes you a better lover of people.

Dreams

2013-10-24T20:51:00.001-07:00

I've seen you from a far
Swag for days, classy
Mysterious righteous
You've taken hold of my heart
You have changed my life
Ms Dream

Your eyes cause eruptions in my spirit
I'm caught up with joy from your smile
A kiss I have never felt drives me forward.
You have changed my life
Ms Dream

I'm infatuated by your walk
As your curves keep me locked on you
The strides of those legs speeds up my heart
You have changed my life
Ms Dream

I want you, I always have
Come to me, my love
Draw to me, don't run
You've changed my life
Ms Dream

Fine, I'll keep chasing
You won't get away my love
You are my beautiful sweet
Dream
For you have changed my life
Ms Dream

Great day

2013-07-20T21:06:00.001-07:00

My daughter Ephesia Williams is now the new Teen Plus America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nuff said!!

Freedom

2013-07-06T19:33:00.002-07:00

Freedom
What is freedom
Are we free to do whatever we want
Free to say whatever we want
What makes us free
Free from what
Who set us free
These questions can be tough to answer
In america we love to feed on "freedom"
Yet we don't know what it is.
We have sacrificed freedom for security lately, because we didn't want to take responsibility for our own actions or we are scared because we can't control everything
Fear makes us lose discipline and takes advantage of our own imaginations but
This is about me, not America
So I will answer them from my own life

Freedom to me is not being forced to sin
It means I have the choice to do what is right
Yes I have the right to say what I want but...
I have the right to do or say what is right also
Which means its good to be silent sometimes
What makes us free is really who makes us free
His name is Jesus
He did what was right so I could have the choice to do the same
Because of Jesus I'm free from myself
As dangerous as the world can be I can be much worse
I walked this world for a short time but I can tell you there is nothing worse for me than myself
My fear, my insecurities, my hatred of myself has cause more issues or cost me more opportunities than any one person.
But you see I am free because I am free to turn around
Free to go forward
Free to run to the One
Sometimes I choose to stay in sin because it is safe and secure
Its what I am used to
So, I was free to do that but...
I was wrong to do it
So to me I am free to do what is right in God's sight
What does freedom mean to you?
ServantPrince

And yes I want to read your answers :)

The sweet sound of music

2013-05-19T00:53:00.000-07:00

We are God’s instruments. We are His music. Music is suppose to inspire just like Lauryn said. just like any other instrument we can’t do anything without the Musician and His skilled hands.

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control what a sound they make.

Once the Musician gets His hands on you He tunes you with His word. It comes through hearing the word, through convos with the All mighty, through wise men and wise women who has word flowing out of them. This incredible music that comes out of us from His skillz is love, joy peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Which inspires whoever hears Him. They gravitate towards Him. They can’t help but acknowledge the sweet song of Grace. Their body can’t help but to move to that sweet sweet sound. So ya See the instrument can never take credit for the Music that is coming out. No matter how great the instrument that has been made it can not play itself. But the Master Musician can take a broke down instrument and make it sound great. The music sounds so good people can see it. Feelings of hunger we have had because of the holes in our stomach dissipate with the food of the word and the water of life, that fiya water. Hearts black and empty are now full and unimaginably pure. Worlds in solar systems are finally placed in a black hole never to be put on people’s shoulders again. Scales as hard as adamantium turtle shells finally fall off so our soft eyes can finally see the truth and see life the way its supposed to be. Angry faces fused by welding tools are now freed to smile with joy. Then the Musician causes other instruments to work as a symphony of new music created for the sole purpose of the One. So be that instrument, let our Savior use us so we can be a part of that sweet music that comes from Him and causes joy unspeakable.

When the storm is coming

2013-05-09T08:39:00.001-07:00

When the storm is coming things get dark.
When the storm is coming gray skies loom over my head dealing death stares.
When the storm is coming you feel it in your bones like our old motha's in the front row
When the storm is coming our teeth rattle with anticipation of the coming rough precipitation
Then the storm hits ......silence
We pray that it will stop
We pray that it will end
No one wants to go through the winds and rain of pain
I see some fold because they can't handle this latest storm
I see some fight until they are knocked down blow by blow
But they fought with honor and came back stronger
Then I see some win what a glorious sight
This is the time where you see who you are and who are your friends
When the storm is in your face bucking up to you like a bully in the hood
whatcha gonna do huh. You ain't got nothing. Where ya momma. Where ya friends. Gimme that and this too. Awww you cryin' now. Lil punk.
Is this gonna be the time you stand up to the storm
Will this be the time you fight for your life
That the fear just isn't as big as the pain of letting the storm win again
That you rather fight and die than live in fear of this bully this storm
Is this the time you start living
Is this the time
Is this the time

ServantPrince

18

2013-04-17T17:03:00.000-07:00

So as of April 9th I became the father of an adult. It is kind of surreal. Pam and I used to think 10 years from now our kids will be 18, 17, 16, 16. Now that it is here it is a little weird. Slowly we are learning to let go of the teenage parenting and starting to understand what parenting an adult will be like. One, communication will be more like friends talking or mentor-ship Two, dealing with them making mistakes that you saw coming a mile away but they wouldn't listen. Three, enjoying the freedom. Four, enjoying our girls becoming successful, Jesus filled adults. We of course are still learning ourselves so in another ten years I might change this statement(wow, Pam and I are now rookies again). But until then, let us lift up a glass of water(I am out of white grape juice). Here's to becoming parents to adults.

Gamer

2013-04-05T16:09:00.001-07:00

I am a gamer

I am old school

I don't whine about the difficulty

I don't whine about shotguns being over-powered

Instead I'll hit you with a pipe like Streets of Rage and call it a day

I just game

I played Atari boxing, Contra, X-men, Street Fighter

There was no fuss

Saving Zelda, dreaming like Mario 2, cutting steel as Ninja Gaiden,

Just give me 3 men and some teriyaki and I'll figure out the rest

I just game

I don't lose reality

I still love on my family

I go to work

I gets things done

I am a gamer

Notes from the message on Thurs. Passover(Easter) party

2013-03-29T09:16:00.003-07:00

There is a lot to the story so I am going to focus on God’s main goal and who God is.

gen 3:8 Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. 9 But the Lord God called to the man, “Where are you?”

10 He answered, “I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.”

Obviously our Lord visited Adam a lot to ask the question “Where are you?” Showing that God wants relationship. But because of our sin we were separated from Him. humanity had to pay for this but how? Jesus, and He was already going to before the foundations of the world.

matt 22:34 Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together. 35 One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question: 36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”

37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’[c] 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[d] 40 All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

This shows how important having a genuine relationship with God is what God’s will is for us. He also wants His kids to have great relationships with each other too. He showed us how to love God and how to love each other then proved it by dying for sinful humanity. And yes He knew some would still hate Him even though He saved their souls. Yet He still did it. Jesus is love.

Rev 21:3 And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. 4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’[b] or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

5 He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” Then he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.”

6 He said to me: “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life. 7 Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children.

God loves us so much!!! He just wants us to love Him. I love Him and because I do I follow Jesus. Jesus has made me new because He died for me and His blood covers all of my sins. He has made me pure, holy and righteous because of his death and resurrection. Because of His love for us He put on flesh, He didn’t sin and He showed us how to live. Then He took the punishment that we should have had and died for us. But He beat death and the grave so we can have eternal life with Him. Again the goal of God is for us to have great loving, truthful relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ. The King of kings and Lord of lords

If you want to have a relationship with Jesus just ask. Ask Him to be Lord over your life. Repent of your sins. Believe He is who He says He is. Believe that He rose from the grave. Nobody gets to the Father unless they go through Jesus.

john 5:36 “I have testimony weightier than that of John. For the works that the Father has given me to finish—the very works that I am doing—testify that the Father has sent me. 37 And the Father who sent me has himself testified concerning me. You have never heard his voice nor seen his form, 38 nor does his word dwell in you, for you do not believe the one he sent.39 You study[c] the Scriptures diligently because you think that in them you have eternal life.These are the very Scriptures that testify about me, 40 yet you refuse to come to me to have life.

Knowing the bible frontwards and backwards doesn’t save you or change you. Truly loving and the person that the bible is talking about, does, and His name is Jesus!

These are some of the ways God describes Himself

I AM
I AM THAT I AM
I am a father to Israel
I am a great King
I am alive for evermore (Jesus)
I am Alpha and Omega (Jesus)
I am for you
I am from above (Jesus)
I am God
I am God Almighty
I am gracious
I am he
I am he that comforteth you
I am he that doth speak
I am he that liveth, and was dead (Jesus)
I am he which searcheth the reins and hearts (Jesus)
I am holy
I am in the midst of Israel
I am married unto you
I am meek and lowly in heart (Jesus)
I am merciful
I am the Almighty God
I am the bread of life (Jesus)
I am the door (Jesus)
I am the door of the sheep (Jesus)
I am the first and the last
I am the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob
I am the God of thy fathers
I am the good shepherd (Jesus)
I am the light of the world (Jesus)
I am the living bread (Jesus)
I am the LORD
I am the LORD, and there is none else
I am the Lord GOD
I am the LORD in the midst of the earth
I am the LORD that doth sanctify you
I am the LORD that healeth thee
I am the LORD that maketh all things
I am the LORD that smiteth
I am the LORD, the God of all flesh
I am the LORD thy God
I am the LORD thy God from the land of Egypt
I am the LORD thy God that divideth the sea
I am the LORD thy God which leadeth thee by the way that thou shouldest go
I am the LORD thy God which teacheth thee to profit
I am the LORD which exercise loving-kindness, judgment, and righteousness
I am the LORD which hallow you
I am the LORD, your Holy One
I am the resurrection, and the life (Jesus)
I am the root and offspring of David (Jesus)
I am the Son of God (Jesus)
I am the vine (Jesus)
I am the way, the truth, and the life (Jesus)
I am their inheritance (speaking of the priests)
I am thy exceeding great reward
I am thy part and thine inheritance (said to the Levites)
I am thy salvation
I am thy Savior
I am thy shield
I am with thee
I am with thee to deliver thee
I am with thee to save thee
I am with you alway (Jesus)

Mind Blowing

2013-03-09T00:21:00.001-08:00

It's mind blowing

The production of this destruction is revolutionary

As kegs of gunpowder go off in my head I think where am I going

I thought I started this journey on a freeway.

It was smooth and fast.

I could see what was coming around every turn.

Any sinner with their sin could be seen and pointed at with disgust.

My daily bible beating was done without fail.

But as my hidden sins continue to mount up.

The road has seem to have shrunk

Unto a highway.

The fast track for Hell

I swear it was all down hill.

Yet at the time my highway was heaven in my eyes.

Full of judgmental behavior and supposed-to's

Then my hidden sins started weighing me down

like my eyelids after driving from Portland to Seattle with no sleep

Causing me to get on the off ramp and make a right on front street

On the surface this street seemed painfully slow.

Full of stoplights and caution flags

But in reality this surface street caused me to get passed the surface and get deep.

I'm talking under the flowing lava deep

Down to my rotten, disgusting core of egomania

I took just enough time to get off of my self to ask.......

Who is Jesus really.......

Then that's when my shortcut appeared.

Or big bright light that I decided to walk into even though everybody says stay away

But I wanted to die to myself because

He came down to where I was, stuck in traffic and showed me there was a better way to live.

That He is not afraid of my congestion of sin or yours for that matter

I knew that I can truly be free because of the King that died for His people

So these detours that I thought were slowing me down

Like a turtle stuck in the tar pits

Was actually speeding-up my journey by adding nitros to my heart

Jesus Jesus Jesus has blown my mind

Now I Do life with my fellow sinners

I'm free from being judgmental and free to love just how Jesus loved me

Full of sin and ignorant on how to get out of sin

Now I'm back on that freeway

Detouring people to the highway

So they can slow down

To see their front street

And realize there is a shortcut to Heaven on earth til Heaven

And His name is Jesus

Walking with Christ

2013-03-05T20:45:00.002-08:00

As I go through my journey with Christ I continue to want to be more like Him. But what does that mean? From what I can tell it means I choose the sinner over the sin. I love the person more than being right. It means that I am THE sinner that Jesus loved more than the sin(that he hates) that I do. It means I'm not as judgmental as I used to be because I realized I'd be judging myself. It means the sin that people do doesn't shock me like it used to because I used to do that same thing. It means when I read that Jesus hung out with the scum of the earth so He could be their friend and love on them. He was hanging with me. I am the scum of the earth(I am made from dirt by the way). Jesus always shows full Grace and full Truth wherever He went. He got to know the people He talked to. He got into their lives so that His "way" was a way to at the very least listen to. All I know is if someone came to me and started telling me all the things that I do wrong, and they never took the time to get to know me. Oh I'd be hot at them in a second. You know what is cool is that Jesus knows you but gives you time to get to know Him so He can do only what Jesus can do. Change your life!!! I want people knowing my friend, Jesus, more than my reputation, my status, my life. I am so blessed to know Jesus and to be in His kingdom. I know where I go if I die. I know I'll be with Jesus but God's will and mine for that matter is that everyone be with this amazing King and friend, Jesus. Here on earth and In the Kingdom to come. So I hope you get to know Him and if you already know Him I hope that you get to know Him more. I am still on my journey but the more I get to know Jesus the more I love who He is and how He goes about His business. Jesus is the Messiah and my King. I will follow Him anywhere(hopefully with a good attitude lol)

ServantPrince

Update

2013-02-21T10:35:00.000-08:00

What a amazing week. First my daughter wins the Northwest Plus America Pageant. Then my eldest daughter gets accepted into University of Washington at Bothel and Washington State University. Wow what a week. My other four daughters are doing excellent in school and have dreams of doing well in life. My family is awesome. I love them dearly!!!! Lord you are aaaaamazinnnnng

Pageanting for the family

2013-02-19T16:44:00.000-08:00

I had a amazing weekend with my children! We went to Vancouver, WA to watch Ephesia,16, win her first pageant. Phee was amazing. She answered the questions with poise. She was graceful and elegant. She showed joy and happiness wherever she went. My other girls were supportive, loving and excited for Phee. Pam of course is very proud of her as am I. My mom and both of my aunts was able to come down too. I am soooo blessed to be a dad of these great women God has us raising. When we heard Phee's name we all freaked out except mines was on the inside because I was security also lol. The place erupted in support also. Wow what a weekend, the Northwest Plus America Pageant was amazing. Intelligent beautiful women showing off how God made them, which is "beautisome" (beautiful and awesome). Ephesia getting involved in pageanting (another made up word) has been a great experience for the whole family. If your looking for something that your daughter can get into pageanting is a great opportunity. Thanks for reading. I'll have another post soon. cya later.

But God

2013-02-19T14:43:00.002-08:00

Lord I will follow you I promise

Son will you go over here and say hi to him
but God I don't want to
Son will you bring him some food
but God this is my last piece
Son will you put me first
but God I need to by this new dress
Son will you believe the best of people
but God do you hear what he said about me
Son will you stop judging people
but God do you see where they live
Son will you treat people like I would treat them
but God they are thugs and dirty

I'm so lonely
but God
My rent is due
but God
I have no food
but God
I have no home
but God
I feel like a failure
but God
The doctors say I'm going to die
but God
I have no education so how am I going to get a job
but God
I cant walk
but God
My sins are too heavy
but God
It's impossible
but God

Baby Girl

2013-02-09T13:25:00.000-08:00

as my hands touched your skin
my mind goes to when it began
hours of talking and laughing
feeling each other out to see if we meet
in the middle of love
then,,,,,,, it happened
that one night when it all changed
butterflies fly into action when we see each other
the temperature gets warm
the nerves shake with ecstasy
but when we lock eyes in a crowded room
there’s only us
every look every movement every touch
means the world
time away feels like hours of pain
the smallest of kisses can cause an eruption of love
an avalanche of passion
this love is real
it can never change
it will live forever
love like this
changes you

People over Pride

2013-02-04T13:51:00.002-08:00

people over pride
that’s how I ride
with my gangsta lean of love
I’m above the petty
I ride with peace

I purposefully choose people
because pride leads to loneliness
seclusion, separated from the right
even if I am right
I’ll be right by myself
so I ride with peace

with my hand on the wheel swerving
dodging prideful potholes
like mario vs. turtles
Andretti has nothing on my skillz
I flow through the traffic of my mind with ease
These brake shoes of peace given to me by the Lord above
would stop Optimus Prime and his crew in their tracks
I ride with peace

with my orange drink in my hand
sipping the goodness of relaxing thoughts toward my brotha
I ride into the sunset like Billy
Kid, you don’t know me
I ride with peace

2013-02-01T14:29:00.002-08:00

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Dive

2013-01-24T12:24:00.000-08:00

It’s written all on my face

My love for you is real deep

I open my mouth......can’t speak

My left knee got so weak

Maybe i’ll just dive

How does love do this to me

What is love doing to me

Why can’t I stop loving you

I guess its time I stop fighting it

Maybe I’ll just dive

My soul goal is to please you

Your number one and my only one

Your goals your dreams your aspirations

I want the best for you

Maybe I’ll just dive

The touch of your fingertips

The warmth of your kiss

The way you lay in my arms

Makes me want to dive

Your hopes become mine

My wants mean nothing

My joys come from your smile

And If I can share them with you

forever

I will dive

Heavenly Thinking

2013-01-22T11:56:00.001-08:00

Some have wondered why I am so positive. I have simply told them "it's because of Jesus". This is true and the whole truth. Jesus loves me. Jesus has changed my life. He healed my past, present and future. He has changed my thinking. My now is better and my future is bright because ultimately I will see Him face to face.
The more I understand heavenly thinking the more positive I get. The more I understand heavenly thinking the more I can forgive people. The more I understand heavenly thinking the more I see people the way Christ sees people. Which is a expectation of greatness. Christ made us all with the expectation that we will love Him and each other. There is no need to say negative things to people. Why because God made us individually different for a specific goal in mind. For every person that you say negative things about I'm sure there is a person saying negative things about you. It's just not worth it. I know some say these things in the name of truth. But what good is truth without full Grace coming before it. I'm sure there is a better way to say the truth in a way that helps people grow positively and not spiral down hill. This is a example about thinking heavenly. Or some would say "Christ like". Respecting God's creations, seeing things the way God intended and doing those same things should be our goal as lovers of Christ. Love people with full Grace and full Truth like Jesus has done for you.

6

2013-01-19T19:26:00.001-08:00

12 eyes 6 noses

12 ears 6 smiles

12 legs 6 bodies

one love

6 personalities

6 different conversations

6 different styles

one love

Christ made you

confident

courageous

curious

cute

cuddly

and kind

one love

To my daughters

Moriah Makaelah

Ephesia Taja

Ruby and Esther

I love you

Love, a life worth living

2013-01-18T18:34:00.003-08:00

love
such a crazy thing
it never stops
its on the clock
but it all feels insane
like magenta moss and red pumpkins
love is the thing
that changes the rains of pain
to the joy for this boy
longevity, loyalty, and support
makes living with love
a life worth living