大大的天空小小的视野

感谢你 18岁的我

2018-02-04T01:02:00.000+01:00

致18岁的你

谢谢你在那一年

尝试了不一样的自己

认识了不一样的人

过上了不一样的生活

很感谢你当时的每个决定

虽然不都正确但我依然庆幸

感谢你勇敢的踏上了新的土地

感谢你学会了照顾自己

感谢你不停地接受新的人事物

感谢你坚强的走过了一切

即使当时的你是多么的不容易

从年初的打工到拿成绩然后申请奖学金

再到后来的决定接受哪个奖学金

最后来到法国以及在法国总总的一切

还有12月4号那一天

你真的很坚强也很勇敢

即使不完美偶尔也懦弱寂寞

但你已经做得很好了

你很棒

虽然被逼着突然长大

却没有迷失自我

18岁的你我为你而感到骄傲

28岁的我依然不完美

虽然做的决定或许依然不都正确

但我希望 38岁的她会感谢我做的一切

18岁的你谢谢

28岁的我加油

38岁的她等着

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

So I type, again. And better, I cook, too

2015-03-21T16:04:00.000+01:00

So here I am, again.
Couldn't get a job and getting bored alone in the house in daytime, I was thinking of what should I do to spare my time.
Many friends left Toulouse, for their internship or for their job.

I have been doing nothing since I last came back from Malaysia, almost 2 months since.
My boyfriend bought me a camera when I came back, nothing professional though, since I'm still a beginner, and other dslr cameras are quite expensive, for us, at least.

So I have been thinking for weeks, what should I do to make the time valuable.

So I took classes, to learn Hadoop, but I gave up after taking the introduction of Hadoop and the mapreduce courses because I realised that, with my laptop, I can't really practice it.
So I watched videos, to learn an interactive data visualization software, Tableau.

To be frank, they didn't really interest me, except the introductions, because I'm not sure if I'm going to use these softwares in the future. Seriously, the life is more boring than ever when you don't know what person will you be, what you need to learn, what you really want, and what you need.

I was literally LOST.

And then, I started to think (or rather tried hard to reflect of) what I like to do. And suddenly something popped out, COOKING. Ya, I remembered once I had wanted to be a chef (and I still think that I will be in the future. Don't laugh at me!).
So I started to cook, for my boy and for my own pleasure.

Thus, I started cooking, only fancy things though, with the recipes I found on internet, oriental and western. Foods that I had never tried to cook before. I had always did bakings like cheesecakes, brownies, yogurt cakes, cookies, pear chocolat cakes, tarts, &c. &c. But for cooking, I had always cooked what I already knew how to cook.

I made stewed beef, pastas, lasagnas, beef steak (trust me, it's not as easy as what you think when it come to controlling the cooking degrees),and some french dishes. Then I cooked some honey-roasted porc, char siew, cantonese roasted duck, claypot rice, pickled chinese cabbage with porc 酸菜扣肉, and some other chinese dishes.

Then I thought, why don't I capture these dishes with my camera?

Without professional skills, the photos are not as good as what I wanted they to be.

One day my bf bought us an entire duck. I learned how to cook magret de canard. Again, it's not easy, especially to control the cooking degree. My bf and I like the duck to be cooked with still a little bit red in the middle of the magret. ( they is no such best cooking degree, for duck, so for beef. It depends on how you like to eat). Since I couldn't cut it all the times to check if it's done, I have followed the advices on the internet, saying to make the skin crunchy by cooking the salt-and-peppers seasoned duck breast on a really hot pan for 5 minutes each side then 10 minutes in the oven with 200 degree celcius. Then I have prepared a simple sauce with balsamic vinegar. With the duck breast, I cooked some simple seasoned quinoa and salades. I didn't want to make something which might influence the taste of the duck breast. I like its own taste.

So it looked like this

We completed the meal with a bottle of wine. Nothing expensive though. A haut medoc 2011 from bordeaux. They went quite well along.

Then we bought a whole chicken. I had so many ideas with the chicken, and first came in my mind, the white chicken rice. I have always loved the boiled chicken, for both its taste and its texture. I knew it's not that easy to make it, to have it cooked and tender, without making it dry. So I kept looking of different advices online.

Here what I have done. I put ginger slices, chopped green onions and the chicken in a pot of water, entire covering the chicken and boiled it after putting the lid on. 1 minute after it's boiled, I turned off the hob, without removing the pot nor the lid. After 5 minutes waiting, I remove the chicken and colded it with tap water ( have in mind that the tap water here is cold, I didn't need iced-water.) When it's entirely cold, I put it again in the pot, boiled it again for 3 minutes this time (my chicken is quite small, so I don't need to cook long), and waited for 10 minutes with the hob off.

While waiting, I prepared a sauce with soy sauce, sesame oil, oyster sauce, sweet soy sauce, peppers and the chicken soup.

Again, I colded the chicken down and cut it into small pieces. Surprisingly, it's so easy to cut it.

I then use the chicken oil and chicken soup to cook the rice.

The rice looked perfectly cooked with the oil. And it's indeed tasty.

Looks delicious huh?

I think I had over cooked it, by waiting 10 minutes at the last step, because my chicken is pretty small. Hmm, will try 5 minutes next time. My bf was surprised that the breasts are not dry at all, but I had tasted better. Will try again next time.

So here come the problem, I had a pot of chicken soup. What should I do with it? Knowing that there is no more chicken, so it would be too plain to put in vegetables and make it a soup. Then I remembered something I loved to eat, especially when I was sick. Ta da, chicken porridge, with some mushrooms and eggs.

A small tip for the porridge: put the washed rice to the fridge the night before you cook the porridge, it will make the porridge like mine--sticky and thick.

Voila, what I cooked this week. Like what I said at the beginning, nothing difficult, only what I like. I love the original taste of ingredients.=)

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

do you still remember? 你还记得吗？

2013-09-11T23:52:00.003+02:00

There was a place, where I could note what i had done.
It was this place, where I could moan how much i wanted.
It was still this place, where I can review something i have already forgotten.

It was a period, when I wrote down everything i had done and every sentiment i had.
It was this period, when I wanted so much to tell the world what was in my thinking.
It was still this period, when I have grown up the most.

But in few days, this place will be closed, this period will be forgotten.
Today, i have decided to read every post i have written and every comment i've got.
I could back up everything but I'm not going to do this.
The blog is too saddening, too naive and too much of moanings.

那里有我写给排球队的信，记载着我第一次看到雪的感动，那些无数想家的寒冷夜晚，第一次滑雪的激动，第一次溜冰的无奈，第一次在外地过生日和新年的悲哀与幸福，那些心理的挣扎，那些一同走过的朋友，那些读过的书，那几段逝去的恋情，还有那位英年早逝的二哥。

突然发现，有很多的事情已从我的记忆中消失。
是我善忘吗？还是我没真正在意过？又或是我根本不愿再想起？
人是否都如此？
有好多曾经觉得很重要的事，如今却忘了。
那，我曾经的在意又是为了什么？

今天的你，又在意了什么？
明天的你，还会记得吗？

曾经觉得我很重要的你，如今还记得我吗？

人在不同的阶段总有不同的人事物陪伴着。
来来往往，你能真正抓住的有几个？你还记得的有那些？

我曾经写过：

梦中我失去了你
梦醒我依然没拥有你
梦中爱情走了
梦醒爱没来过

该留在梦中或快些清醒
似乎已不再有分别

梦里梦外你都不是我的。

可是，有谁可以真正拥有一个人？
如今的我不是不相信人与人的感情，我只是变得实际了一些

这段时间我长大了一些，成熟了一些，也老了一些。
开始学会不是每件事都要向别人交代，虽然还有待加强
开始明白不是每个人都在乎你所说、所想的一切
原本藏不住秘密的我，开始也有了属于自己的小小世界。
当然大多时候会忘记，可是也没什么不好的，不是吗？
或许你会感叹，现实是多么的残酷，足以让一个天真的女孩，变成一个烦心的女人。
我不怨曾经发生的总总，毕竟上天让我长大了

曾经我这样写过：
秋天来了
在这个季节，风吹着叶子
有叶子的陪伴，
风不孤单。
下个季节，叶子走了，
孤单的风有谁陪伴？
你走了，孤单的我又有谁陪伴？

如果可以，我宁愿选择，
上个季节没有来。

可是现在的我即使一个人也不觉得孤单，虽然还是害怕一个人宁静的夜晚。
现在的我很庆幸上个季节曾来过，即使那个季节逼迫我长大。
可是
回忆终究属于昨天，不适合留给明天。
该忘记的，即使记得也只剩惆怅。
就它们走吧！我那逝去的青春，我那长大的无奈，我那远离的天真。
今晚就当作为回忆哀悼，让那些年的情绪淹没吧！

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

again

2012-10-03T00:47:00.005+02:00

i know the endless separations are parts of our life,I know every separation means another beginning in our life.but i still cant help being emo and sad every time i look at the back of someone and wonder when will we see each other again. Will we still be the same? will we need to find some topics to discuss about so that we won't be awkward? Will I be our 'hi-bye' friend or even a stranger?

The room..where i've said a few times of 'goodbye and goodluck'
The corridor..where i've heard the sound of the heavy footsteps heading to an uncertain future.
The door..where i was able to have a last glance at the ones who were heading to the lift.
The bed..where I've let the long hidden tears to get out from my painful eyes.
How many times i told myself to be proud of them
How many times i told myself don't be sad.
How many times i told myself it's ok.
How many times i felt my cheeks were wet with tears.
Tears will stop dropping,life must keep going.we will meet again,the day it should be.
Make your own way and i will be here supporting you.
our roads will cross again one day just like how they crossed when we first met.

The cold night, the sick boyfriend, the naughty cat, the only left, emo me....
'baby,it's ok.i understand your feeling.'
'no,u don't.the feeling of losing a family and you dont know where to go when u'r lost.'

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

holiday began with a weekend in Barcelona

2011-12-29T15:59:00.000+01:00

it was a rainy day in toulouse,but a sunny day in barcelona.

we departed about 11 o'clock in the morning and we reached there at about 2pm.Although it's a sunny day,it was still cold,well,we were at the end of autumn.

after having a picnic lunch in the hostel,we went to the town.

it was crowded since there was x'mas soon,everyone was out to buy presents.

were we lost??

it was so tempting.. but since it was so cold,we decided not to eat ice-cream

yummy yummy!are u tempted too?

we went to the cathedral (accidentally,since we wanted to go to sangrada familia and we did a mistake)

we had a 'teatime' at 7pm in a cafe and i had a really good hot chocolat (no photos since aurelie is the one who took those photos,may be ll upload again when i see here)

after few hours of walking,we found a nice restaurant for a dinner.of course,we took a menu of tapas!

patatas bravas,although i know it's just fried potatoes but still,i love it

aubergine (it's the 1st time i tried,it was so delicious,the aubergine was so sweet,and the spices they used didn't make the aubergine lose its original taste)

fried chicken(actually it was not that special)

lentils (it didn't look nice but it did really taste good!)

meatballs (well,u know what is meatball)

after the dinner we went to a bar with our friend,nicolas,who is studying in barcelona.

we drank some nice sangria and we went back to hostel at about 1am.this is the end of the 1st day.

the next day,we were like all the tourists.

we went to parc de joan miro, botanic parc.....

a lunch in a small restaurant,it's difficult to find a restaurant on sunday

a nice picture taken in the parc de guell

we went to sangrada familia,we took a dinner,i had a paella and we went back to hostel since i needed to wake up early in the morning for my flight.

well,we did play cards before going to bed.

my last meal in barcelona,a nice breakfast in hostel

this is the end of my weekend in barcelona.

holiday continued in karlsruhe,germany

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

梁静茹-情歌 cover

2011-10-17T13:07:00.000+02:00

we actually practiced this song for spectacle de semaine internationale (performance of international's week).but i can't find the video for the moment,so i post this cover 1st=)

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

离别

2011-09-02T15:32:00.000+02:00

离别总是感伤
一个人整理行李
一个人收拾情绪
然后
一个人搭上飞机
不想走其实很想留
但
还有该负的责任
在那个远方
背着大家的期望
走向自己的梦想

再见了
明年的大家又是怎么样？
再会了
明年的你还会不会在这个地方？
会不会又有哪个他离开我们的家乡？

长大了发现
原来生活没那么简单
原来人没想像中那么坚强
思念与不舍只能留在心上
我一个人飘向远方。

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

5 more to go!!!!!

2011-05-24T10:38:00.000+02:00

aja aja!!!!5 more exams to go...
5 in the same week..hmm..need to find a strategy to study then!

since when i'm scared of this kind of exams???i've changed...

ganbatte!!!!!!!!

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

加油！！！

2011-05-22T20:48:00.000+02:00

你能的！两个星期一定能读完！然后就放假了！！加油啊！！！
我不要补考。。。。
你不是笨蛋，两个星期一定够的！加油啦！！！！决不放弃！

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

是世界变了还是我太天真？

2011-05-10T21:43:00.000+02:00

是世界变了吗？为什么校园罢凌会是新闻首页？
是现在的社会生病了？还是一直都是这样？
我很庆幸当年的我从没遇过或见过这种事。
我很庆幸当年的我天真的以为再怎么不喜欢一个人，不理他就好了。
我很庆幸我的学生生涯没有类似的污点。
欺负别人的学生，你们是怎么了？是生病了吗？还是疯了？
乱骂人的观众，你们又是怎么了？不知道谁是罪魁祸首就不要乱骂人。

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

paques 2011

2011-05-05T00:23:00.002+02:00

Paques mean easter day in France.

the holiday started with the giant chocolate egg from my bf.

on 23rd April,chin tee,zhilei and I took a plane to Bruxelles. (i was so scared when the plane was landing because the pilot decelerated suddenly,i had the feeling that our plane was going to crash)Finally we reached Bruxelles safely and we went to hostel immediately and here we met our 4th member of the trip LIU YUFEI,a friend of zhilei.then,we went to downtown to meet our dear WILI,YONG CHANG and our new friend,JIAWEI!!i was so happy that they could come to travel with us.

the 1st and 2nd day,we walked around in Bruxelles and the 3rd day in Luxembourg.I don't really know what i have visited because i was keep chatting with others and was trying to appreciate every moment that we were together.On Monday,3 of them left Luxembourg to Paris.The difference was so obvious and that night,I felt a bit down because this might be the last time we travel together.

Well,the trip still went on.We went to Amsterdam the next day and for the first time,I went to SEX MUSEUM!!!!!There are some nice photos or paintings and some funny comics,however the others made feel bad,some even made me feel nausea.After dinner,we went to RED LIGHT DISTRICT (an 'EXCITING' day huh =P) We walked around and when back to our caravan.

The next day,we started our day by visiting Anne Frank House.A place who made me sad the whole day,until now,i'm sad once i read the diary that i bought or articles concerned.Just because she was a Jews, she needed to hide with her family for 2 years.They couldn't talk normally,they could walk everywhere,they couldn't see their friends and family,they couldn't go to school,they couldn't even flush the toilet!!and they thought that they were so lucky!(so how lucky we are now compared with them) after 2 years of hiding,we were betrayed by don't-know-who and dead not long after that except her father.I hadn't known much about this before,thus i bought a 60th edition of her diary.This is the most important thing that i've learnt during the trip.

On the same day,we went to Keukenhov,a big big big garden where we can see a lot of flowers!(especially Tulips)Kuaci and I tried to take some nice photos.Unfortunately,the field which was supposed to be colorful (the field that u could see in most of the post cards) was fully green.

We went to windmill village the last day we were in amsterdam.In the village,there is a cheese's shop where we had our lunch!(because we could test every cheese.)

the night we reached bruxelles,it was a rainy day.Kuaci and I were so happy when we found the hostel.1st,because we didn't need to walk in the rain,2nd,the hostel was just like a house,even more like a house than my house=P.We went to instrumental museum in Bruxelles and we bought a lot of chocolates.

And we went back to Toulouse on the 30th.The night of 30th,i took a night train to my bf's house.What a tiring journey huh?

ps: pls belief me that i was the one who took those flowers' photos with my canon IXUS 90IS but not a DSLR!

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

baby cat~

2011-03-23T00:07:00.000+01:00

yes,u didn't misunderstand!i just bought a baby cat,i mean kitten =) many ppl asked me:why cat??euhh...because my room is too small for a dog?because dogs are noisy?because dogs are dirty?well,the main reason is,my bf loves cats,and it's his b'day soon (i mean in about 1 month =P)

His name is JACOBIEN,why??because i was studying maths for the exam this evening when we decided his name.Besides,the short-form,JACO is kinda cool,isn't it?As a 3-month-old baby,he's fat and big!!!his former master let him eat as much as he wanted..

i saw an announce from a Chinese couple and they are selling it with those accessories for 50euros.When we saw the photo,my bf was so excited and wanted it,so i just contacted them and bought him.We was told that his father is a persan,and we guess his mom is an america short.

He's kinda cute,i mean when he doesn't scratch.I couldn't sleep for 1st 2 nights because he kept jumping here and there,still a baby huh!WELL,i still need to confess that I HATE CATS!!!!they like to scratch and only 4 days,i have a lot of wounds!!!!ok...i ll try to be good with him...and be PATIENT..

Nowadays,i read news all the time to get the latest news in Japan.It's very sad to see those who have lost their houses,their families,their friends and almost everything..
i can't stop imaging if i were them,what situation would i be.i would probably be crazy and cause more troubles....I was so touched when i see Japaneses who were so calm and disciplined.They are certainly 1000000 times more sad than us,but they know what should they do now,and they manage to control themselves.THUMB UP for Japaneses!

By reading news everyday,i know that there are still a lot of crimes in the world.I just don't understand how could people still keep hurting other people after seeing these scenes.To burglars,thieves.....,think of ur family and friends when you injure other people..you are just unforgivable..

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

不同的你们

2011-03-08T18:58:00.001+01:00

很久很久以前，我遇见了你们。

两个完全不同的人，一个嬉皮笑脸，一个和蔼可亲，用不同的方式欢迎我。
那个像哥哥的，总会发现不开心的我，然后静静地听着我的哭诉。
那个像敌人的，总会发现装开心的我，逗我说出心事，然后再向我发炸弹，让我哭笑不得。
他们就是这样的人，总在我伤心时，帮我疗伤。

两个完全不同的人，却同时在我低落的时候跟我说：如果需要倾诉的对象，我在这。
我生病时，给我饭吃；我哭时，借我肩膀；我要买东西，陪我逛街；我成绩差，帮我补习；我心情烂，逗我开心。
他们就是这样的人，总让着我、疼着我。

两个完全不同的人，却不约而同的有着充满心事的背影。
不懂事的我，总很三八的挑起他们心里的那个痛。
有点多管闲事，可是我也希望我是他们的药，可是有些事，小孩不要知道比较好。
他们就是这样的人，总把我当小妹妹。

两个完全不同的人，却同时去了巴黎，留下我一个。
为了前途，他们说，巴黎实习比较好。
他们就是这样的人，总会为未来着想。

两个完全不同的人，离开时却都让我流泪，然后第二天无法见人。
以后的我，伤心了，找谁？
以后的我，饿了，找谁？
他们就是这样的人，总让我舍不得分离。

人好像就是在许许多多的离别中长大，可是长越大离别越多。
我会长大的，然后等待着另一个离别的出现，然后再继续长大。。

对了，其实也没有很久，我们就在一年半前认识，可是好像认识了好久好久。。。

好不容易找到的合照，你们也太少合照了吧？？！！

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

朋友 ≠ 信任

2011-03-04T02:59:00.000+01:00

至曾经陪伴我成长的那个你，

初临海滩结交广泛，

海浪波涛沙粒离散，

被迫分离何其无奈，

永不和谐惟有感慨，

曾经美好深记心怀，

昔日人情来生还债，

自知无罪无法透泄，

终生遗憾友人不解。

是我走了，还是你离开？是我错了，还是你不明白？

曾经的笑声眼泪，是我忘了，还是你不再期待？

朋友和信任之间，我以为是个等号，原来未必如此。

我以为你会信任我的，忘了他也是你的朋友。

我和他之间，你选择相信他。

是因为他那可怜的双眼？是因为他那自残的行为？

还是因为我伪装的不在乎？

不在乎，是不让你难为。

不在乎，是不让自己流泪。

何必怨天怨他？何必哭声满天？

我选择的是坚强的面对和绝对的信任。

而你选择相信他，相信那‘天’大的力量。

相信信‘天’的他，绝对没有害人的邪念。

如果不信‘天’就是我的错，那我大错特错。

因为我永远都不会相信，“这一秒向天祷告赎罪，另一秒诅咒别人”，不是一种罪。

因为我永远都不会相信，“只要向‘天’乞求原谅，偷窥、跟踪、冤枉、狂骂都不是错的”

我不怪你不信我，我只怪人性的险恶。

我不责备你的不解，我只恨友谊的脆弱。

没有你，我过得不坏，只是偶尔深夜会听见你的声音；只是翻着我们的照片，看着我们看过的电影，吃着我们一起煮过的菜，我的心里缺的那一块会酸酸的、刺刺的。。

如今我已不再期待你明白，只想让你知道，我是多么的珍惜我们短暂的友情。

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

新年来咯~~

2011-01-28T21:07:00.000+01:00

古语说得好，每逢佳节倍思亲。。

新年就要到了

可是除了准备些聚餐，也就没什么气氛了

很怀念从前新年前办年货的感觉

非常兴奋的买衣服

非常的期待除夕夜大家都聚在一起的感觉

可是随着年龄增长，大家都有自己的世界

刚开始是有些人有自己的活动，来了一下就走了

过后，有的就像我，到外地读书、做工，没办法回家

在过后，有些有自己的家庭，无法回家。

人啊，总是越大越无奈

有时候朋友要见面，你无法说不

有时候你想回家，没有假期

有了另一个家庭后，又不知道该去哪边庆祝，毕竟另一半也是别人的孩子

可是，最最无奈的是家里的长辈

多么希望新年时快快乐乐，热热闹闹的度过

可是年复一年，回家的越来越少，最后就只剩下自己的同辈，一起感慨岁月流逝

希望孩子回家，却不希望孩子难为。

开心孩子长大了，夜里，却感慨孩子都不在

突然觉得其实嫁给外国人没什么不好的

虽然他不懂你的节日与文化

他不懂你的兴奋

可是至少，新年时，你不用回他家

你还可以把他带回家

如果以后幸运的嫁给了外国人，我一定要在每一个新年回家

虽然那时候在家的应该也不多了。。

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

x'mas and new year holiday

2011-01-08T17:51:00.001+01:00

during this x'mas and new year holiday,i've planned to travel in prague(praha),budapest,venise and paris with kuan ee,yih quan and ruenn ing.

i've even booked everything,bought a lot of winter clothes and boots(coz it was very cold in prague and budapest).

i took a night train on 18th december and i reached in paris 6am on 19th december.

i went to cdg airport and waited for 7 hours.

finally it was 2pm and i was prepared to check in.

BUT,my flight was cancelled....

the person in charged asked me to go back and finally,i passed the WHOLE holiday in FRANCE.

LUCKILY,it was quite fun because i passed x'mas and new year in my bf's house.

i ate a lot of foie gras and seafood.(so lucky)

i got a lot of presents too!

the most important is what my bf gave me----an ipod nano

i was so surprised!

got a cache mire too and other presents.

then i went to paris with kuan ee,yih quan and ruenn ing.

kuan ee gave me a guess's purse and yih quan gave me a mug from budapest.

after paris,i went to laval to visit kah wai and yau.

Although there is nothing to visit in laval,but i'm so happy to see them!

and their house is just comfortable.

finally i came back to toulouse with my bf and we were sick for a whole week..

now i keep skipping class due to sickness but i keep studying,don't worry^^

let's see photos...

in paris before x'mas

had our own pre-xmas lunch

entree

My plat-beef steak

his's plat-aligot and sausage

x'mas eve's dinner--aperitif

i made them!!!1st entree

2nd entree--foie gras

plat--st-jack cheese bake

dessert--ice cream

dinner with his family

x'mas lunch(with his cousin)

his brother and his cousin

x'mas's lunch with his family

entree--foie gras again

2nd entree--seafood

plat

wine

presents!!!!!

ipod,cachemire,perfume,scarf,paris travel's guides and chocolats

kuan ee and entree--moyanais egg salades (yih quan n i took the same)

ruenn ing's entree+plat+dessert--big salades

yih quan's plat--coq du vin

kuan ee's plat--fish cheese bake

my plat--escalope de poulet

our desserts

arc de triomphe

le louvre

macarons

tour eiffel

moulin rouge

notre dame

entree 1--crepes jambon fromage

entree 2--foie gras

entree 3--soupe d'oignon

entree 4--escargots

yih quan's salmon

my beef steak

kuan ee's duck

ruenn ing's entree+plat+dessert--pasta

dessert 1--apple pie

dessert 2--mousse de chocolat

new year's lunch,entree--caviar

others i didn't take=P

my own x'mas presents for myself

presents from friends

(guess purse from kuan ee,alcohol's chocolat from kah wai,budapest mug from yih quan and espirit chocolat from yau)

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

为情自杀

2010-12-11T22:51:00.000+01:00

今天看见了一篇为爱自杀的新闻
这个男生因为跟他的女友分手而自杀，以书上写着：请别怪她
我想这个男生是真的爱这个女生吗？
让大家知道他自杀是为了她，目的是什么？
难道他就不知道这会给他带来什么结果吗？
这女生就这样被网上千千万万个不认识的人指责
你说她错了吗？
她到底错在哪里？
不爱了，就没有资格说分手吗？
难道欺骗他，不开心地跟他在一起才算是好女孩？
你说她自私吗？
自私在哪里？
不爱了，勇敢跟他说，不贪于他给的温暖，他自私了吗？
自私的人是他吧，选择自己离开也非得搞乱她的生活。
难道从没想过，她以后的日子会有个黑点吗？
有人说他是罗密欧，而她不配当他的朱丽叶
我想说，我不知道她配不配，可是我确定，他不配当罗密欧
毕竟罗密欧为了陪伴爱人而死的，而他的死为他爱的人带来了很多的困扰
而她，根本不需要成为他的朱丽叶，因为她没必要为他自杀。

（以上观点为个人意见，若有异议，恳劝忽略）

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

梦里见到你。。。

2010-11-28T22:01:00.000+01:00

昨晚做了好多好多的梦。

梦到自己在家了

梦到跟家人出去

梦到跟家人吃饭

梦到跟他们逛街

突然，看见了一个很熟悉的背影

那个瘦小的

那个慈祥的

是阿嫲（奶奶）

我跟她说，我二十一岁的生日快到了

她说，那回家吧。。

突然被手机吵醒

竟然是中午了

心情很糟

有6年没梦到她了吧

没想到，梦到了却是短暂的。

很想回家

可是刚发现，可能没有假期。。

我想

我真的是想家了

我想

我是真的该回家了

二十一岁的生日

如果没有考试，

我会不顾一切的回家庆祝

在我熟悉的地方

跟我熟悉的人。。。

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

2010-11-27T13:30:00.000+01:00

昨天的市中心到处都是烟，
突然想起了马来西亚的农历七月
后来发现某个住宅火灾了
突然想起了那件事。。
昨天的市中心不是很冷，
可是为什么心里是凉凉的呢？
(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

生日

2010-11-24T21:01:00.000+01:00

原本我明年生日的那个星期有三个考试，所以打算不庆祝了。结果前几天发现那三个考试提前，而且我生日那个星期没上课！！！虽然生日前的那个星期会很忙，考三个试加上实习的presentation，可是还是非常开心！因为总算可以庆祝了！！！由于接下来那个星期是新年，所以决定申请回家庆祝生日。希望老师准许，那我就可以回家啦！！！开心开心！马来西亚的朋友要开始存钱给我买礼物咯！哇哈哈哈哈！！
(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

累

2010-11-04T09:09:00.000+01:00

想念曾经和我

一起吃饭

一起玩

一起大笑

一起八卦

一起毫无顾虑

的你们

即使那只是瞬间

足以让我做回自己

足以让我放松自己

或许

我是真的累了

嬉皮笑脸

不懂装懂

原来不做自己是如此的累。。

(n.n)xin ni(u.u)

2010-10-21T16:50:00.000+02:00

什么时候开始
物理笔记也成了我搭地铁时的读物。。

airplane?shooting star?

2010-10-20T22:26:00.000+02:00

airplane?shooting star?

there is a shooting star in the sky!!

oppss..that's actually an airplane..

can i pretend that it's shooting star?

so that i could make a wish,

wish that my family,my friends and I would be happy everyday..

学着知足

2010-10-15T00:28:00.001+02:00

夜深了

我们是否也走尽了？

沉重的

决定走出第一步

太多的不舍

但已忍无可忍

你的呼吸声

似乎是对我的呼唤

决心被动摇

是假象？是幻想？

还是你想把我留下？

我只想选择相信

相信你也舍不得我

假如是梦我不想醒

假如是实我不想睡

就让我一味地相信吧

因为这样

有个借口让我留下

抓住你残余的温暖

就算寥寥无几

我会学着珍惜

在你身旁

闻到了那熟悉的香味

贪婪地呼吸着

你擦干我的泪水

我有沉迷于你给的温柔

即使不多我很满足

再一次离不开你的身边

再一次原地踏步

我唯有学会知足

2nd year--2 imacs

2010-09-26T22:26:00.000+02:00

came back to france 2 weeks ago.
kinda busy because i came back late.
especially when i'm in imacs.as usual the time table of imacs is full during 1st semester.
since i missed 3 days classes,i need a lot of time to catch up.

i went to a birthday party on last friday.
i had a lot of activities this week.

1)went Japanese restaurant with honey on tuesday.
2)had a mooncake festival party in my house.pei xin,edwin,zhe lung,sandra,kuaci n wili came to my house to have a dinner.then we ate mooncake+drink tea.chao jiong also came to join us.we had a lot of fun!after that we took tanglung and accompanied edwin,zhe lung and pei xin to universite paul sab to take bus.
3)had a celebration of mooncake festival+ zhe lung's birthday in the afternoon with a lot of malaysians,1 of them is a senior that i've rarely seen.but thanks to him,we had a delicious lunch in a chinese restaurant.then i brought them to the coffee shop that honey had introduced me--French Coffee.As usual,coffees there are very nice.We did enjoy it!then we went shopping(well,i would say i brought them go shopping.because i didn't buy anything but other ppl did=P)then we went to garonne.there was a occitane's festival.then we went back to kuaci's room to had our dinner--pizza and chose our songs for international week.

well,this is my life during these 2 weeks.although i do really miss my family n friends,i still enjoy my life.

here are those photos when i was still in malaysia

i)volleyball team gathering

ii)2nd jie's wedding:

family

small brother

pretty 2nd sis

sistas

daddy

planning...~~

don't worry,it was not my wedding,just helped 2nd sis to hold her flower

they rarely seem so smart=P

brother

wish u sweet sweet always

yam seng~

大大的天空 小小的视野

感谢你 18岁的我

So I type, again. And better, I cook, too

do you still remember? 你还记得吗？

again

holiday began with a weekend in Barcelona

梁静茹-情歌 cover

离别

5 more to go!!!!!

加油！！！

是世界变了还是我太天真？

paques 2011

baby cat~

不同的你们

朋友 ≠ 信任

新年来咯~~

x'mas and new year holiday

为情自杀

梦里见到你。。。

生日

累

airplane?shooting star?

学着知足

2nd year--2 imacs

大大的天空小小的视野