The Window to my Soul

The Magic Portal

2012-07-30T08:34:00.001-05:00

Come to me my dear wizard,
through the magic portal of space and time

Take me on a magical adventure,
exploring new places we long to find

Seeking the treasures there,
that are waiting to be discovered

Going forward slowly at first,
as we seek the depths of this new place

Make your mark with your magical staff,
of the places we explore

As we race towards the last treasure,
our hearts are beating very fast as we gather speed

Finally together as one we claim the prize we were after,
as we scream joyfully with elation at what we found

Smiling at each other we slowly exit the magic portal together,
as we come back into the real world again.

Copyright ©2012 Countess Demetria

Dedicated to Homer Courtois

For My Grandpa

2010-12-18T07:39:00.005-06:00

My Sweet Grandpa recently died and I am very sad. So I'm reposing this poem, and dedicating it to my Grandpa who died on December 10th 2010. He was very close to me and my family, and means so very much to me. This picture is of Me (Erin O'Malley) and my sister (Dori O'Malley) when we were kids with our Grandpa. I am the older Sister. I always remember Grandpa in his Work clothes like he is here in this picture. He was a very hard worker, and a wonderful man. He always helped people who needed it, and was a very kind man. He never said an Unkind word to anyone. He Was a man of his word to a T. He taught his family and friends the same values he had. He was a Pillar of his Community and will be dearly missed. Grandpa you enriched my life and made me a better person. I miss you so very much.

Wesley E. Bradbury

September 8, 1923 - December 10, 2010

GONE ON

The Love Of My Life

2008-12-15T15:23:00.005-06:00

You are the light of my life,
the glow of my soul,
the beat of my heart,
the love of my life,
You are my everything!!!

Copyright ©2008 By Countess Demetria

I wrote this for my fiance Carl Blundred.
We are now Married!
We We Got Married Feb 4th 2012

Happy New Year!

2007-01-01T00:00:00.000-06:00

Have a Very Happy New Year.

Make every moment count,
Count on those you love,
Love even when you hurt,
Hurt none, and help all,
All things lead to a good laugh,
Laugh and have fun always,
Always be ready for the unexpected.

Copyright ©2007 Countess Demetria

My Heart Sings

2005-11-07T07:14:00.000-06:00

My Heart sings your name Oh Lord,
God Almighty, The Most High, Sovereign Lord,
God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob,
The Mighty One of Israel,
Holy Father, Lord Above All,
The Eternal God, God the King,
I Am Who I Am,
The Rock, The Holy one of Israel,
You who breathed life into the Heavens and Earth,
Your name is above All Names,
My Love for You grows with each passing day,
I praise your Name, and give you the Glory,
I await the day when I go home to be with you.
To God be the Glory forever and ever,
In Jesus Holy Name I pray, Amen

Copyright ©2005 Countess Demetria

This is a Poem Prayer for God.

God Bless You, and Yours-
Countess Demetria

God Is Love & Hope

2005-10-29T20:30:00.000-05:00

When there is no hope in this life,
Hope in the Lord and his promises,
He will walk with you by your side,
God will always love you unconditionally,
He will never leave you no matter what,
He will guide you in the dark and light times,
And will be with you until the end,
So keep your eyes on Him who loves you,
Love, Obey & Serve him with all your heart.

Copyright ©2005 Countess Demetria

God Bless You and Yours-
Countess Demetria

Take Me Home

2005-10-11T01:11:00.000-05:00

Take me, Take me away now,
away from all the sadness & strife,
away from the reality of life.

Take me, Take me far away now,
Away from all this pain I feel inside,
Give me a safe place where I can hide,

Show me, Show me where the birds fly,
High up above the clouds they soar,
Take me to Heaven where pain is no more.

Copyright ©2005 Countess Demetria

Tears Of Crimson Blood

2005-09-24T20:51:00.000-05:00

My Heart cries hot tears of crimson blood,

My Soul aches at being torn from it's twin,

My Mind screams with rage and confusion,

My body has lost it's longing and, desire it once felt,

I'm in the eye of a tornado, and if I move one way or the
other I will surly die,

There is nothing to do except wait out the storm, and
hope I survive.

Copyright ©2005 Countess Demetria

Online Heartache

2005-09-07T18:11:00.000-05:00

E-mails
E-cards
Messenger
The Eloquent Words Make My Heart Flutter

Sweetness
Kindness
Thoughtfulness
My Eyes Sparkle As I Smile

Longing
Lusting
Desire
My Body Needs To Be Touched

Hugs
Kisses
Caresses
I Long To Be Loved

Tears
Sadness
Despair
My Hope For These Things Is Fading

Copyright ©2005 Countess Demetria

Desires In Loneliness

2005-08-12T06:32:00.000-05:00

In my life of loneliness,
I have wants and desires.

I see people all around me smiling and laughing with each other.
They share their lives in love and adoration.

People take for granted the life they have together,
not realizing what it would be like to be alone in their desires.

I see them live and love one another, and wish I had someone too,
I look at them with longing, knowing I can never have the same.

Some nights I have dreams of being with another,
loving and being loved in return.

Then slowly I awake and realize that I am still alone.
The loneliness replaces the fulfillment I had felt in my dream.

Again I am alone in my desires.
Forever untouched, unloved, and alone.

Copyright ©2004-2005 By: Countess Demetria
All rights reserved.
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NOTE: I wrote this poem during 2005 when going through some deep depression because of loneliness. This poem is really how I felt for a long time. The part about the dream really happened. I wrote this poem after waking up from that dream.

UPDATE: I'm Now Happily Married!!! Back then I never thought I would meet anyone who would love me. I was wrong, and so glad we found each other. So never give up Hope!

Abducted in my Dreams

2005-07-23T02:51:00.000-05:00

Captured, restrained, in pain
malicious ancient beings
clouding my mind

fear and frustration overcome
fighting to stay conscious
hurt, suffering, endless, prodding

many I see and I am only one
fighting for freedom
screaming without a voice

pushing against the pressure
resisting the their minds
letting none enter mine

survival my only thought
I am not alone
yet others do not fight

strong is my mind
resilient is my soul
courageous is my heart
giving up is not a thought
surrender is not an option

my mind pushing at theirs
my body will not go under
my soul will not surrender
my heart will not give up

tired, weakening, in pain
frightened, suffering, yet alive

my efforts pay off
they let go of my mind
too much trouble
not enough results

I'm home again
this time remembering
shaken yet not defeated

sleep is my enemy
dreams equal pain
stay awake or risk it again

Copyright © 2005 Countess Demetria

Gone On

2005-07-15T01:42:00.000-05:00

Gone on from this world to a new place,
It isn't an end, but a new beginning.

Gone on to forever be surrounded by beauty,
constantly showered with Gods love.

Gone on to talk and walk with the Angels,
never fearing anything ever again.

Gone on to sing praises to God,
in Heaven's glorious choir.

Gone on yet not forgotten,
forever in the hearts of loved ones.

Copyright © 2005 Countess Demetria

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I wrote this poem for a good friend of mine.
One of his good friends just recently passed away.
I also delicate this poem to his dear Father whom he was
very close to.

I dedicate this poem to all who have "Gone On" in the past,
present, and future.

The Courtshipof Lightand Darkness

2005-05-01T12:18:00.000-05:00

As the light pierces the darkness,
so does the darkness pierce the light

They do a beautiful dance each day,
one stepping forward then later stepping back

They give and take alike,
never one more than the other

The darkness surrenders to light,
then the light surrenders to darkness

They move in harmony as one,
in a dance forever locked together

They court each other with their song and dance,
always respectful of each others space

The darkness waits for the light,
to come and caress her face

Then the light waits for darkness,
so he can give into her embrace

Dancing together in an endless motion of flight,
they tease each other with caresses as the darkness
gives way to light

Copyright ©2005 By: Countess Demetria

A Journey Through The Global Village of Guatemala

2005-04-27T06:40:00.000-05:00

This past weekend April 22nd - 24th, I went to an environmental writers workshop. It was at a wonderful environmental Non pofit organization called Heifer Project. The headquarters are here in Little Rock Arkansas! The Heifer Ranch where we stayed was an hour away. Here is the web site for you to check out. It is very great thing to donate to, to help the hungry of the world be able to feed themselves! http://www.heifer.org/

There at Heifer Ranch they had a Global Village of Guatemala. It was a replica of a village in Guatemala to show us Americans and anyone else that goes to the Heifer Ranch what they have to live like. It is very eyeopening and I wrote a poem in Haibun form about my journey through the village.

The Writing workshop was wonderful and I learned so much. One thing I learned was how to write a form of Japanese poetry called Haibun. That is what this kind of poem is: Haibun.

A Journey Through The Global Village of Guatemala

Carefully hiking through the woods, watching my feet so as not to trip. See flowers beside water. Take a picture and move on.

cool breeze
leaves rustle
rocks crunch underfoot

Walk up cut steps in hill. Come upon huts in a group. Explore inside of huts, seeing how people live. Four flimsy walls make one hut.

walls of tin
cardboard patches
broom on dirt floor

Walking up the rocky path towards the next destination. I feel hot from the hike, so stop to take off my sweater. I take a drink of water before continuing on. I stop to watch people collecting water from the pond to pour in a trough for goats.

heat rising
cool refreshing water
observing others actions

Copyright ©2005 Countess Demetria
All rights reserved.

The Distance of the Heart

2005-04-26T03:33:00.000-05:00

The man of my dreams has come into my life and,
and has stolen the key to my heart!
The physical distance is very far,
yet our hearts are very close. May the distance between us,
be but a step within our hearts.

Fate's hand has shown us the way,
now we just need to follow.

When at last we finally meet our
bodies, hearts and souls can bind and become as one.

Copyright ©2007 Countess DemetriaAll rights reserved.

Bleeding Heart

2005-04-24T16:45:00.001-05:00

Dark clouds swirl around my heart,
Waring with the sun who wants to come in.

My heart is being pulled into a back void,
while the sun tries to come to the rescue.

I can feel the blood oozing out of my heart,
as the sun tries to put the blood back in.

The outer wound of my heart starts to heal,
yet too much blood is lost and I am weak.

I lay still, unmoving, uncaring, unresponsive,
afraid to let my heart be exposed again.

Maybe someday the sun will be able to shine light on my heart again,
Until then I wait for my heart to heal on the inside before I let myself feel again.

Copyright ©2005 By: Countess Demetria
All rights reserved.

Immortalitiy's Curse

2005-04-24T16:37:00.000-05:00

As I walk down this dark pathway,
seeking out my mortal prey.
I think upon how things have changed,
since my day turned into forever night.

Forever am I haunted by the silent screams,
I see in each humans eyes.
As I suck the life giving blood from their veins,
I absorb within my mind,
Their life experiences, emotions, hopes & dreams,
the essence of who they are.

Each time I walk among the humans,
I wander ever so close to danger's face,
For there is one who hunts me endlessly,
Forever trying to catch me off guard and unaware.

He is forever mine enemy throughout the centuries.
He carries a wooden stake in hand to plunge within my heart.
A slayer who's sole purpose in life is to kill those of my kind,
He is always seeking my trail looking for my lair.

I long for that witch I cannot have,
The sun upon my face.
Forever it seeks my death,
if I give into its embrace.

I am an immortal being for my time here on earth,
As wonderful as that may be to some, For me it is a curse,
for I cannot love nor have it returned,
Alone I shall ever be.

For what good is immortality,
if there is not one to share it with.
With all the centuries I have seen,
not one loving touch has caressed my face.

I walk alone down this dark path staying in the shadows.
slaying humans just so I can survive.
I continue on through the centuries,
always alone and forever in the darkness.

I have no friends to share my life,
nor love to share my burden.
No one sees me or knows I am there,
to them I am just the wind.

They see a candle flame flicker,
or a curtain blowing in the window.
Before they realize what is happening,
their heart stops beating forever.

Human blood is the only thing that keeps me alive,
I do not take it with pleasure, but only to survive.
I watch and wait in the shadows for a chance to take my prey.
choosing my victim carefully I walk towards him very softly.

I lure a man to his death deceiving him with my mind,
I seize control over him then take away his life.
Never did he know what would befall him this night,
he came to me like in a dream without knowing he would die.

I would trade this immortality at once,
if only I could have someone to love & them love me in return.
I want to embrace and love a man,
without the kiss of death upon my lips.

The life of an immortal being is nothing without love.
There can be no love without death's kiss in this immortal life.
Do not wish for an immortal life,
for with it comes a curse.

Copyright ©2004-2005 Countess Demetria
All rights reserved.

Mother

2005-04-23T07:30:00.000-05:00

I wrote this poem for my Mother on
Mother's Day, May 9th, 2004.
This page is dedicated to her.
She is the Greatest Mom in the world!

I will always love and cherish you,
with all my heart!

You are the one who gave me life,
and a brand new start!

Thank you for all you have done for me,
in my life!

You have helped heal my hurts,
and taken away the strife!

You are my Mother, confidant, and friend!
Let's stay this way together,

and never let it end!

Copyright ©2004-2005 Countess Demetria

Written By: Countess Demetria
For My Mother
Mother's Day, May 9th, 2004

Earth Day Virtual March

2005-04-08T02:09:00.000-05:00

Please join me and the Defenders of Wildlife to help the Arctic National Refuge!

Click on the title of this post to Join the march to send a free message urging your senators to protect the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge forever.

They are wanting to drill for oil in our Arctic National Wildife Refuge!

Please do not let this happen! Let your voice be heard!

Join for free and be part of the Earth Day Virtual March on April 22!

Thank you so much!

Countess

Why Not Me?

2004-11-05T22:25:00.000-06:00

Why did you take my friend away from me?
They had loved ones and a family.
Why did my friend have to die in my arms?
They had so much yet to live for.
Why did they have to be the one to go?
They had a strong courageous heart.
Why did it have to be today that they die?
They had so many dreams left to fulfill.
Why could it not have been me instead?

Copyright ©2004-2005 Countess Demetria

Dedicated to all of the men and women in
the U.S. Military. Past, Present, and Future.

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What I was thinking when I wrote the poem "Why Not Me?"
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I could see in my mind a Soldier holding his bleeding friend in his arms as he says his last words and takes his last breath. With all the odds against him, he felt he should have been the one to die instead of his friend. His heart brakes as his friend's eyes go still, and his pulse is no more. He looks up to see his friend's spirit go into the light. He knows that tomorrow that might be him, but wishes at that moment he could trade places with his friend. He is looking at death in the face as he is talking, before death takes his friend.

I thought of the people as being men, but it could be a man and a woman soldier or two women soldiers. I wrote it so it could be either man or woman. I wrote it so it isn't restrictive to one sex or type of person. People can interpret it to mean what is in their hearts to them. It could be any person dying in a friends arms, not necessarily just a soldier.

The life of a Soldier

2004-10-26T14:52:00.000-05:00

To be a soldier is a dangerous task.

Never knowing when duty will call.

Nerves on end, ready at a moments notice.

Harsh conditions and little sleep.

Going into battle never knowing if this is your last.

Will your friend survive this battle today?

Will you have to morn the loss of yet another friend?

How long will you be made to stay and fight?

A lot longer than you were told, it just isn't right!

Far away from your family and those you love.

You wait for mail call, for some word from home.

When none arrives, you feel so alone.

There is no glory or pleasure in what you do.

You are just serving your country, but wish you didn't have to.

The life of a Soldier is not for everyone.

You must stay strong in the face of death, until the job is done.

Copyright ©2004-2005 Countess Demetria

On The Wings of an Eagle

2004-10-22T12:06:00.000-05:00

This year has flown by on the wings of an Eagle.
Flying high and fast to get to where it has to go.
Never looking back, always looking ahead.
Seeking and searching it sights what it wants and takes it.
Never landing nor slowing down as it is flies off with it's catch.
The year is near it's end, as the Eagle soars closer to home.
Very soon as the year comes to a close, the Eagle will land in it's nest.

Copyright ©2004-2005 Countess Demetria

The Life Trees Live From Autunm 'Til Spring

2004-10-22T10:34:00.000-05:00

Yellow, Red,and Brown the leaves fall to the ground.
The trees slowly let go of their covering.
They show their true self as they are laid bare.
No more coverings to hide their imperfections.
They stand tall and proud of who they are.
Their roots go deep within the earth.
The Mother Earth nourishes them in their dormant state.
The branches have to stand up to the ice and snow.
Some are as strong as a rock.
While yet others break under the burden.
They all look dead and yet still are alive.
They suffer through the wind,rain,ice and snow.
Yet through it all they still survive.
The air warms and the ice and snow melts.
Slowly little buds break through their limbs.
Budding leaves start to appear and new branches sprout.
The trees are green again, tall, proud, and full of life.
Thank you Mother Earth for keeping them alive.

Copyright ©2004-2005 Countess Demetria

Suffocated by Loneliness

2004-10-21T14:15:00.000-05:00

Loneliness surrounds my soul.

I start to choke as it squeezes my heart.

I can hardly breathe anymore.

Now my lungs can't expand.

No air left to breathe.

The pressure from loneliness grows.

Finally my heart starts to burst.

It can take no more.

I slowly die inside.

Never to have known love.

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This poem is not about the death of the body, but rather

the death of HOPE. The death of the hope of ever finding love.

The vampire woman represents me. The blackness around the

woman represents the suffocating loneliness.