CUTE POISON

2016-10-14T14:01:00.002-07:00

why it's always me ??? I had never been experienced things like this. I know she won't be back. Even I don't want her to be back though. But still I wait for her. do i love her ? I doubt that. If I did, why did i let her go. Did I ? No . She did it herself. I liked Antora once. But I don't feel anything for her now.

2015-03-24T09:31:00.001-07:00

জানি না । বুঝি না , কিছুই বুঝি না। আমিই মনে হয় সবার অযোগ্য। আমি কাউকে ভালবাসতে পারিনা। খুব চেয়েছিলাম শান্তা কে ধরে রাখতে। খুব শক্ত করেই । কিন্তু কখনওই ওকে সেটা বুঝতে দিতে চাইনি। আমি ওকে আমার মত করেই ভালবাসতাম। মেয়েরা নাকি যদি একবার বুঝে ফেলে কোন ছেলে তাকে খুব বেশি ভালবাসে তবে সে নাকি তাকে বোকা বানাতে পছন্দ করে, ঘোরাতে পছন্দ করে। শান্তা কি কোনভাবে বুঝে ফেলেছিল যে আমি ওকে অনেক ভালবাসি। হয়ত বা ভুলটা আমারই। আমিই ওকে বুঝিনি। শুধু তো ফেসবুকের একটা পাসওয়ার্ড ই চেয়েছিল। আর তো কিছু না। আমি প্রথমবারেই ওকে সেটা দিয়ে দিতে পারতাম। কেন দিলাম না। ওকে ভালবাসি না তাই ? আমার তা মনে হয় না। আমি বলেছিলাম ফেসবুকে কি আছে না আছে আমি ওকে সব ই দেখাবো, আমি ওকে ওর ফোনে লগিন করে দিব দেন ও বাসায় নিয়ে গিয়ে সারাদিন দেখুক । কিন্তু ও শোনেনি কথা। ও পাসওয়ার্ড চায়। তবুও ওকে আমি সেটাই দিলাম। তাতেও ওর মন ভরল না । ও বলে এখন নাকি ওর সেটা দরকার নেই। যখন চেয়েছিল তখন কেন দিলাম না। তখন আমি অনেক রেগে গিয়েছিলাম। অনেক বেশি। খুব আজেবাজে কিছু বকা ঝকাও করেছি। এরপর থেকেই ও আর কথা বলেনা আমার সাথে। অনেক বোঝাতেও চেয়েছি। ও আমার ফোন ধরেনি। টেক্সট এর রিপ্লাই দেয়নি। আর আমিও বা আর কোন মুখে গিয়ে দাড়াবো ওর সামনে ? আমি যেসব বকা দিয়েছি ও কখনও কল্পনাও করেনি আমি কখনও ওকে এসব বলব। আমি নিজেও কি ভেবেছি। ভাবিনি। তবুও ওর জেদের কারণেই ওকে এভাবে বকতে হয়েছে। কতদিন তো হয়ে গেল, আমি ভেবছি ওকে আমি ভুলতে পারব। কই পারছি না কেন ? এমন তো কতবারই তো হোলও আমার। এমন তো না যে এটাই অরথম। কিন্তু তারপরও ব্যাপারটা কেমন যেন। এখনও প্রপ্তিদিন ফেসবুকে গিয়ে ওর প্রোফাইলের সামনে বসে থাকি, ওর ছবি দেখি, ওর স্ট্যাটাস দেখি। কি করছে ও। কেমন আছে ও ?

এর মধ্যে যে নতুন কোন মেয়ে আসেনি তাও না। কারও সাথে কথা বলতে ভাল লাগে না। কথা বলতে গেলেই ওর কথা মনে হয়। আরে এই কথাগুলো আমি আমার শান্তার সাথে বলতাম। এই মেয়ের সাথে কেন বলছি ? তখন আর কোন কথা বলতে পারিনা। কেমন বোরিং মনে হয় তখন ওদেরকে। কেন এমন হচ্ছে আমার সাথে ?

হ্যা ওকে ভালবাসি একথা সত্য। কিন্তু আমিও যাবনা এবার আর ওকে ফিরিয়ে আনতে। আমার ভালবাসা আমার কাছেই থাক। ও ভাল থাকুক। আমি দূর থেকেই দেখি।

2015-03-07T09:09:00.000-08:00

অবস্থা এখন খুব খারাপ যাচ্ছে। আমি জানি এমন টা খুব বেশিদিন থাকবে না। আমার গতিপথ একদিন বদলাবে। ঈশ্বর মানুষকে এক অবস্থায় সবদিন রাখেন না। তবে এই দিনগুলাওর কথা আমার খুব মনে থাকবে। এই দিনে এক সময়ের খুব কাছে থাকার ভান ধরে যেসব মানুষগুলো আমার হাত ছেড়ে দিয়েছে তাদের কথাও আমার মনে থাকবে। আর যারা আমাকে বিশ্বাস করে, আমার উপর ভরসা করে আমার হাতটাকে আরও শক্ত করে ধরে রেখেছে, আমাকে উতসাহিত করেছে তাদেরকেও মনে থাকবে।

heart_broken

2014-08-07T15:34:00.002-07:00

she was just like a gust of wind in my life. she taught me how to love, she taught me how to live, she taught me how to have fun.... she taught me the meaning of love. she changed me by my inner or outer part...it was not me before i met her. i lerant to walk along a road even in a midnight. she ocupied me with my heart and soul....

and after doing everything suddenly she disappeared with my heart leaving no trace...we were just a breath apart and now we are million years.

I know where to find you and take my heart back. But i won't do that. my heart has the highest safety with you. please keep it safe.

about 22

2014-07-23T10:34:00.001-07:00

um going to be 22 by coming 13th. by 22 Ghandi had two kids. Mozart had 33 symphony. and i am not just a university graduate. i have no money either. i created nothing...they had done a lot of things to surprise the world and i even did nothing to surprise my girlfriend yet. one of my friend is recruited as a co director of an upcoming movie...if you look at him you wild say that he is nothing... how the hell did he manage it..? and if you look at me you would be much frustated.. yo might say you should do something man...talent is everywhere in your body. they are glittering in your eyes...they re forcibly coming from your face, from your expression. But the real thing is I am a fake..and a good faker... I fake everybody. People around me think um a by born genius but actually in my mind or brain um nothing. but in case of my film director friend he has got some talent inside... but he rarely shows it. but what you have something you shoe more even multiple times than that... and that's certainly me....

Sometimes I fake myself either. I tell myself , hey dude you are genius.. do something. Then I sit to make plans. A true story you should know is I am a good planner... and idea gets trapped very easily in my brain. I make ideas, I make plans...and then with a over excitement I make too much plans. Then according to the universal rule I can finish nothing and most of the time i even can not start.

Random

2014-07-22T15:12:00.000-07:00

it was just one and a half week together... that all it took for me to fall in love with you. One weeks together and we are now million years apart. i know we will never meet again. my life was never like this before i met you. One and a half week just like the best time in my life. I was never happy before in my life like this course of time. You were really awsome. I will never I repeat will never forget you for rest of my life...If you ever come back and call me again O won't refuse. I will always be there when you need me. Just call me once and I will be in rush to reach you.

2014-07-12T03:00:00.000-07:00

ধুর এমন কেন সব। সব মেয়েগুলোই কেন এমন ? আর বেছে বেছে কেন জানি সবসময় আমার এমন মেয়েগুলোর সাথেই দেখা হয়। একটা মেয়ে একটু টমবয় টাইপের একটু রাফ টাইপের হলে প্রবলেম কোথায়। কেন একটা মেয়ে এমন হয়না যে ভরা পূর্ণিমার রাতে আমাকে ফোন করে বলবে আজ সারারত একটুও ঘুমানো যাবেনা, আজ জোসস্নান করব। কেন হয়না কোন মেয়ে একটু পাগলী টাইপের যে মাঝরাতে হুট করে বাসা থেকে বের হয়ে এসে বলবে চল আজ নান্নার বিরানি খাব। খুব ক্ষিধা লেগেছে। খাওয়ার পর বিল দেয়া নিয়ে কোন মেয়ে একটু ঝগড়া করতে পারেনা ? সবসময় আমাকেই কেন বিল দিতে হবে । ঠিক আছে বিল না হয় আমি ই দিলাম কিন্তু সে একটু ছলনা করেও ও তো সেটা বোঝাতে পারে। সে বললে পারে আমার কাছে ভাঙ্গতি নেই, তুমি দাও। আমি বলব ভাংতি আমি করে দিচ্ছি। সে এটাতে হেরে গিয়ে আমাকে আরও কোন বড় ধরা খাওয়ানোর জন্যে ফাদ পাতবে। আমি যখন সেটাতে আটকে যাব তখন সেই আবার আমাকে সেখান থেকে টেনে তুলে বিজয়ীর হাসি দেবে। আমি যদি মাঝরাতে গিয়ে তার বাসার সামনে দাঁড়িয়ে থাকি সে নেমে এসে বলতে পারেনা চল সিদ্দিকের চা খেয়ে আসি ? কেন কেউ একবারও বলেনা চল আজকে ঘুরতে যাব। আমি জিজ্ঞাসা করব কোথায় ? যেখানে ইচ্ছা সেখানে। যতক্ষণ গাড়ির তেল থাকবে ততক্ষণ আমরা ছুটব। যখন গাড়ি থেমে যাবে তখন একটা পাবলিক বাস ধরে বাসায় ফিরে আসব , আর কাউকে পাঠিয়ে গাড়িটা নিয়ে আসব। আমি বলব পাগল হয়ে গেছ। সে বলব আমি পাগল হয়েছি। এবার তোমাকেও হতে হবে।চল এবার পগলের সাথে। নদীর ধারে দাঁড়িয়ে সে বলবে আজ কবিতা বিলাস। তুমি আমাকে নিয়ে কবিতা লিখবে আর আমি তোমাকে পড়ে শোনাব। রিকশায় করে যাওয়ার পথে যখন ঝুম বৃষ্টি নামবে , যখন গুটিসুটি হয়ে আমরা দুজন রিকশার হুডের নিচে লুকাব তখন যদি আমি রিকশার হুড খুলে দিয়ে বৃষ্টিকে উম্মুক্ত করে দেই কেন সে খুশিতে আত্মহারা হয়না। মেয়েগুলো কেন এতে বিরক্ত হয় ? কেন শুধু ডেটে গেলেই সারাক্ষণ চিপাচাপায়, রিকশার হুডের নিচে গুটিসুটি হয়ে থাকতে হবে। কেন শুধু সারাক্ষণ ই তার কানের কাছে আই লাভ ইউ বলে প্যান প্যান করতে হবে। এটা বলা ছাড়া কি আর কোন ভাবে ভালবাসা প্রকাশ করা যায়না ? আমি তো শুধু কোন একটা শরীর চাইনি। আমি সবসময় চাইতাম এমন কাউকে যে কিনা আমার খুব বড় বন্ধু হবে, খুব প্রিয় প্রতিযোগী হবে। শুধু দুঃখ একটাই, আমার কখনো এমন কারও সাথে দেখা হয়না। আমি জানিনা কোন মেয়ে এমন হয় কিনা। আমাদের সমাজের মেয়েগুলোর ছোটবেলা থেকে খুব জোর প্রচেষ্টায় থাকে তারা যেন একজন খুব ভাল মেয়ে হয়ে ঊঠতে পারে। তারা কখনো মানুষ হতে চায়না, তারা মেয়ে হতে চায়। এজন্যেই হয়তোবা আমি যাদের দেখেছি তারা সবাই একেকজন মেয়ে। কেউই মানুষ নয়।

sucks

2013-12-03T02:30:00.000-08:00

I broke up with Tanha today. It was just about to be three weeks till today. She was just going out with another guy. Literally she was not virgin. And she was going out with a guy who was just can be compared to his uncle.

2011-07-05T01:35:00.001-07:00

jjl

Micael Jackson

2011-06-29T04:52:00.001-07:00

Singer, songwriter. Jackson was born August 29, 1958, in Gary,

Indiana, to an African-Americanworking-class family. His father,Joseph Jackson, had been a guitarist but had put aside his musical aspirations to provide for his family as a crane operator. Believing his sons had talent, he molded them into a musical group in the early 1960s. At first,

the Jackson Family performers

consisted of Michael's older

brothersTito, Jermaine, and

Jackie. Michael joined his siblings

when he was five, and emerged

as the group's lead vocalist. He

showed remarkable range and

depth for such a young

performer, impressing audiences

with his ability to convey

complex emotions. Older brother

Marlonalso became a member of

the group, which evolved into

theThe Jackson 5.

Behind the scenes, Joseph

Jackson pushed his sons to

succeed. He was also reportedly

known to become violent with

them. Michael and his brothers

spent endless hours rehearsing

and polishing up their act. At

first, the Jackson 5 played local

gigs and built a strong following.

They recorded one single on

their own, "Big Boy" with the b-

side "You've Changed," but it

failed to generate much interest.

The Jackson 5 moved on to

working an opening act for such

R&B artists asGladys Knight and

the Pips, James Brown, and Sam

and Dave. Many of these

performers were signed to the

legendary Motown record label,

and it has been reported that

Gladys Knight may have been the

one to tell Motown founder Berry

Gordy about the Jackson 5.

Impressed by the group, Gordy

signed them to his label in 1968.

Relocating to Los Angeles,

Michael and his brothers started

work on their music and dancing

with their father as their

manager. They lived with Gordy

and also with Supremes singer

Diana Ross when they first

arrived there. In August 1969,

the Jackson 5 was introduced to

the music industry at a special

event, and later served as the

opening act for the Supremes.

Their first album, Diana Ross

Presents the Jackson 5, hit the

charts in December of that year.

It's first single, "I Want You Back,"

hit No. 1 on the Billboard Hot 100

chart in January 1970.

More chart-topping singles

quickly followed, such as "ABC,"

"The Love You Save," and "I'll Be

There." At the age of 13, Jackson

launched a solo career in

addition to his work with the

Jackson 5. He made the charts in

1971 with "Got to Be There"

from the album of the same

name. His 1972 album, Ben,

featured the eponymous ballad

about a rat. The song became

Jackson's first solo No. 1 single.

For several years, Michael Jackson

and the Jackson 5 maintained a

busy tour and recording

schedule, under the supervision

of Berry Gordy and his Motown

staff. Gordy wrote many of the

songs recorded by the group

and by Michael Jackson as a solo

artist. The group became so

popular that they even had their

own self-titled cartoon show,

which ran from 1971 to 1973.

The Shape Of Life

2011-06-24T14:38:00.001-07:00

Sometimes we make mistakes and we have almost nothing to do then. Then it makes us to think, and finally we try it to do better and then best. But best is always very very clever. Very much time it fools us,And we don't understand. But that's nothing, we can do this more than it. And we wil do and must defeat it. Courages are the power for the time of all, for the situations of everything, and of course of the every sphere of life.

Bill Gates Biography

2011-06-23T08:35:00.001-07:00

Entrepreneur. Born William Henry
Gates, III, on October 28, 1955, in
Seattle, Washington. Gates began
to show an interest in computer
programming at the age of 13 at
the Lakeside School. He pursued
his passion through college.
Striking out on his own with his
friend and business partner Paul
Allen, Gates found himself at the
right place at the right time.
Through technological
innovation, keen business
strategy, and aggressive
competitive tactics he built the
world's largest software
business, Microsoft. In the
process he became one of the
richest men in the world.
Bill Gates grew up in an upper
middle-class family with two
sisters: Kristianne, who is older,
and Libby, who is younger. Their
father, William H. Gates, Sr., was a
promising, if somewhat shy, law
student when he met his future
wife, Mary Maxwell. She was an
athletic, outgoing student at the
University of Washington, actively
involved in student affairs and
leadership. The Gates family
atmosphere was warm and
close, and all three children were
encouraged to be competitive
and strive for excellence. Bill
showed early signs of
competitiveness when he
coordinated family athletic
games at their summer house on
Puget Sound. He also relished in
playing board games (Risk was
his favorite) and excelled in
Monopoly.
Bill had a very close relationship
with his mother, Mary, who after
a brief career as a teacher
devoted her time to helping raise
the children and working on civic
affairs and with charities. She
also served on several corporate
boards, among them First
Interstate Bank in Seattle
(founded by her grandfather),
the United Way, and International
Business Machines (IBM). She
would often take Bill along on
her volunteer work in schools
and community organizations.
Bill was a voracious reader as a
child, spending many hours
pouring over reference books
such as the encyclopedia. Around
the age of 11 or 12, Bill's parents
began to have concerns about
his behavior. He was doing well
in school, but he seemed bored
and withdrawn at times. His
parents worried he might
become a loner. Though they
were strong believers in public
education, when Bill turned 13
they enrolled him in Seattle's
Lakeside School, an exclusive
preparatory school. He
blossomed in nearly all his
subjects, excelling in math and
science, but also doing very well
in drama and English.
While at Lakeside School, a Seattle
computer company offered to
provide computer time for the
students. The Mother's Club used
proceeds from the school's
rummage sale to purchase a
teletype terminal for students to
use. Bill Gates became entranced
with what a computer could do
and spent much of his free time
working on the terminal. He
wrote a tic-tac-toe program in
BASIC computer language that
allowed users to play against the
computer.
It was at Lakeside School where
Bill met Paul Allen, who was two
years his senior. The two became
fast friends, bonding on their
common enthusiasm over
computers, even though they
were very different. Allen was
more reserved and shy. Bill was
feisty and at times combative.
They both spent much of their
free time together working on
programs. Occasionally, they
disagreed and would clash over
who was right or who should
run the computer lab. On one
occasion, their argument
escalated to the point where
Allen banned Gates from the
computer lab. On another
occasion, Gates and Allen had
their school computer privileges
revoked for taking advantage of
software glitches to obtain free
computer time from the
company that provided the
computers. After their probation,
they were allowed back in the
computer lab when they offered
to debug the program. During
this time, Gates developed a
payroll program for the
computer company the boys
hacked into, and a scheduling
program for the school.
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