Nothing Lasts Forever

fuck everything

2010-09-06T13:48:00.003+08:00

fuck you for never making the time to listen to all the things i needed to say.
fuck you for always thinking i was wrong.
fuck you for ever doubting me.
fuck you for trying to make me be someone im not.
fuck you for all the abuse you gave me over the time.
fuck you for taking advantage of me when i was grieving for my mother.
fuck you for all the lies you told.
fuck you for thinking your family was perfect and i was getting in the way.
fuck you for forgetting all i did for you.
fuck you for thinking i was useless.
fuck you for leaving me to cry it out on my own.
fuck you for making me hurt myself.
fuck you for making me feel like it was my fault you cheated on me.
fuck you for not giving me space when i needed it.
fuck you for thinking everything would be okay.
fuck you for the fact that i could never write down all the things i could say about what you've done.
fuck it, here's a big fuck you to the world and all the one's in it that have done things to me.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH.

2010-09-01T02:00:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I just stop everything and think about how beautiful u are. And everytime, I wish you could stop in that same moment and see how much I care.

♥

2010-09-01T00:23:00.002+08:00

Why do you come by if you're leaving?

And why do you give all the way in to take it back?

2010-08-31T21:29:00.000+08:00

You're the best thing I never knew I needed.

Beyond Control

2010-08-31T21:18:00.002+08:00

Meeting you was fate.
Becoming your friend was a choice
but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

0,0

♥

Worth Waiting For

2010-08-29T02:54:00.000+08:00

The worst part of life is waiting.

The best part of life is having someone worth waiting for..

How To Deal?

2010-08-29T02:44:00.003+08:00

How do you cope when the one you love
is with somebody else and there's nothing you can do about it.
How do you deal with
the fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do...

It's killing me to know
That your heart's with me
But you're with her cause I chose to be.

Happy To See Them Happy

2010-08-29T02:22:00.004+08:00

''The happiness you give makes you more happy than the happiness you receive.''

I feel so happy at this point in my life right now.
I saw my lovers happy with
their girlfriends now.
Well these lovers aren't just anyhow man,
they were sincere to me,
I saw their effort,

but that time i was so indecisive.
I pushed them away
and hurt them in some ways.

And for some reason when i saw them
happy with their new lovelife,
i just felt happy as well.

Coz back at the time and if I chose to be with
one of them
i would probably just hurt him,
not because im not loyal
but because I am a person of responsibilities..
I need to go oversea
and anywhere in the world
and i hate to think that I'm away
and they're there waiting for me
every single day..
missing me...
it's so absurd..

I guess it isn't my time yet.
And i know someday
when my life's journey is at the peek,
i hope to finally meet
the one who is set for me
and God should help me
and tell me''He's the one''.

One of them told me before,
Distance is not a problem with me
as long as you know you love her/him
it's not impossible to stay together.

Distance makes the heart grow fonder. -He said.

And that time I was firm with my decision,
I cant bare for him to wait for me to come back everytime. :(

And see now,
he is happy with his new love :)

And it makes me happy too!

I made the right decision,
for him.

♥

2010-08-11T00:25:00.000+08:00

You were full of shit.
But you knew exactly what to say.

Hard To Do Easy Things

2010-08-10T23:49:00.002+08:00

I probably shouldn't say this but..
It's really stupid when something that could be so easy is being made so hard.
Maybe we're living in that old mindset again
but that's not how I want things to be.
I just find it funny that every single other person in the world
is able to just grin and bear it for a while,
because that's what they want to do.
I guess that's not what you want to do?
Kinda feels like the tables have turned a bit.
I've gotta admit that I'm pretty damn frustrated.

Good Intentions

2010-08-09T23:43:00.001+08:00

Baby, do you understand me now,
sometimes I feel a little mad,
but don't you know that no one alive,
can always be an angel,
when things go wrong I seem to be bad...
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good.

I Was His

2010-08-08T21:29:00.001+08:00

looking back I remember every moment
where he made me feel on top of the world
I was the world, not only that

I was the sun, the moon, the sky, and all the stars in it
in those moments I was infinite, I was everything, I was his

Hopeless But Hoping

2010-08-08T21:24:00.003+08:00

I don' t like getting my hopes up about you anymore.
Because the likelihood of anything happening isn't very high.
And even then, what's the point, right? But here I am hoping.

Cycle of Bad Doings

2010-08-08T20:50:00.002+08:00

Nobody wants to ADMIT this but BAD things will keep on happening.

Maybe because its all a chain and a long time ago,
someone did the first bad thing
and that led to someone else to do another bad thing
and so on...

Wish It Was Me All Along

2010-08-08T20:42:00.003+08:00

I sometimes just kinda really wish I was the right kind of person for you?
Because then maybe it wouldn't be so hard.

Helpless

2010-08-06T03:01:00.001+08:00

I can't do this.

No-one gives a shit, no-one understands, and no-ones helping.

I'm completely and utterly fucked. I can't cope.

What a Waste

2010-08-06T02:56:00.000+08:00

This is your biggest mistake, what a waste, what a waste, what a waste.

2010-08-06T02:47:00.003+08:00

FACT: The more you talk about that person to others,
the more you fall in love with that person.

Fight We Can't Win

2010-08-03T13:52:00.001+08:00

Everyone is the same. We are all replaceable and completely unoriginal.
We are simply a product of past. Even our spontaneous behavior is predictable.
At least I'm at peace with it. Cause it's a fight you just can't win.

Goodbye

2010-08-03T13:23:00.000+08:00

I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me,
Never gonna catch me cry,
You must be blind if you can't see,
You'll miss me till the day you die.

Change To Save Your Life

2010-08-03T12:23:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, change is too much to bear.
But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life.

I Know Better Now

2010-08-03T12:17:00.002+08:00

I aint like that now. I know better .
I know now that people lie ,
and promises can be broken as quick as they are made .

I understand that I might never be loved ,
and too quickly good things fly in front of my eyes before I can reach out and grab them .

I know that I can’t change or help time,
so every now and then it will just run out.
There isn’t a place for everyone in the world,
so if you’re standing alone for awhile, that’s why.
Not everything in life comes easy ,
but when you work the hardest, that’s when it’s the best .
You can’t always expect people to care,
and even when your best friends stab you in the front,
don’t think for one minute that they didn’t already aim for your back.
They missed for a reason.
I have found out too soon, that in the end,
you are your own best friend .

Everyone will be broken at some point in their life and more often than not ,
its gonna hurt like hell .
But you can’t stop it. You can’t change your fate.
Some things are meant to be and all the pain you go through
will end up resulting in something huge .
You don’t know what it is and when it happens,
it will hit you like a ton of bricks.

At some point, when you have experienced everything you can,
the words ‘Life’ and ‘Risk’ won’t mean anything to you anymore.

Someone You're Trying To Forget

2010-08-03T12:10:00.002+08:00

Getting rid of the idea of a person is

harder than getting rid of a person.

Your Idea of Me

2010-08-03T11:57:00.002+08:00

Your idea of me is fabricated with materials
you have borrowed from other people and from yourself.

what you think of me depends on what you think of yourself.

perhaps you create your idea of me
out of material you would like to eliminate from your own idea of yourself.

perhaps your idea of me is a reflection of what other people think of you.

or perhaps what you think of me is what you think what i think of you.

You made me a liar

2010-08-02T20:25:00.000+08:00

I used to swear to anyone that would listen that I couldn't live without you.

You made me a liar.