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noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 01:00:00 +0000

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Interesting Evening

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Wed, 15 Oct 2008 03:58:00 +0000

I had an interesting evening, I spent the evening at the Michael W Smith - Stephen Curtis Chapman United concert. Volunteering for Compassion International at the Compassion table.

Now it is possible that I am a fool, in fact I am sure that at times I am. It is possible that I am naive, in fact I am sure that at times I am. I was shocked at the response of some of the people.

Part of what we did was to place ourselves in strategic places before the concert, during the intermission and directly after the concert. Our job was to be visible with packets of children so that people could sponsor children if they wished and to answer question about child sponsorship. Our job wasnt to make people feel guilty or to bother them into sponsoring a child.

Now I before I get on my soap box and eventually explain what the puppy is doing on this post let me first tell you about all the people who came up to me and told me how they already sponsor a child and what a difference it made in their lives. That was the high point of my evening.

Now let me tell about the part that kinda surprised me. As we would stand there and people would walk by, some would see the packets and smile at me and walk past.

This I understand

Some would just walk past and not even notice me.

This I understand

Then others (several others) would make eye contact with me, start to smile, see the Compassion packets in my hands and turn their head and stare at the wall as they walked passed me.

Uh... Yeah I got nothing.

I mean I understand that not everyone is led to sponsor a child, I understand that not all Christians have reached the maturity level where they are thinking outside their direct community. In fact Unless you can walk up to the compassion booth and know that you are doing this not because God says to take care of widows and orphans but because this is what you want to do, then please stay away. I don't want you to give out of guilt or out of a sense of duty or because"God says you have to" 2 Cor 9:7 (the message)"I want each of you to take plenty of time to think it over, and make up your own mind what you will give. That will protect you against sob stories and arm-twisting. God loves it when the giver delights in the giving."

After all we did get 65 children sponsored and I think that is fantastic. As people would take one of my packets and I would point them to where they could take them and fill them out, I found myself praying "Thank you God, now just one more."

Ok back to the Puppy. You see during the concert while all the people were in watching the concert there wasnt all that much to do and Mike and Myself found ourselves sitting and talking. Joking really over how to make people sponsor a child. It started with the idea of getting a t-shirt that said "if you dont sponsor a child then you are dead and souless inside" and ended with me saying we needed to get a puppy a box and a hammer and tell people sponsor a child or else....

It was good for a laugh since both Mike and I knew that we could never hurt a puppy. A cat on the other hand.........

Um... Yeah!!

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Tue, 14 Oct 2008 13:54:00 +0000

I dreamt I was in love last night. not the nice stable, been in love for years kind of love, but that new lets spend every moment together kind of love. It was really strange and I have to say that I'm not sure if the dream was good or bad. The person I was in Loove with in the dream is someone I only sort of know and lives thousands of miles away so it isnt some stalker type dream. I'm kinda hoping it is more getting used to the pills I have to take now.

I can deal with that.

To be frank I enjoyed the feeling but even in my dreams I had that "this can't end well" feeling I get whenever I think about myself and relationships. I just don't think I am destined to be with anyone.

It sucks but I have learned to deal with that.

So now I sit at home getting ready to work with this bittersweet feeling in the pit of stomach. I was happy in the dream, even if I knew it was a dream and if it went on it would end badly I was happy in the dream. Happy in a way I havent felt in a long long time, and like a drug im sitting here missing the feeling I felt in my dream.

I don't know if I can deal with that.

Brennan Manning Video on Jtindie.com

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Fri, 26 Sep 2008 16:40:00 +0000

hey guys just letting you all know that I loaded a wonderful video of Brennan Manning on my podcast site at jtindie.com the site for Jt's Indie Christian music Podcast

Working late

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Thu, 25 Sep 2008 14:36:00 +0000

Spent most of the night re-programming www.jtindie.com to try and get everything just so. the website is now so much more than just a home for Jt's Indie Christian Music Podcast.

Added
Photo Gallery
Indie Christian News
Videos of Interest
Indie Christian CD reviews

as well as the Podcast

News - Eowyn

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Wed, 24 Sep 2008 22:32:00 +0000

I posted this on my site www.jtindie.com, Jt's Indie Christian Music Podcast

This is a very sad day indeed. Without a doubt, one of my favorite artists in the Indie Christian Genre was Eowyn. I say was since she just announced on her myspace page that she was quitting the music ministry.

As I said. A sad day. I was very Lucky to get meet Eowyn when she played a music Festival near my home and I left that meeting with the feeling that this was the “real thing” not a person who is touring just for fame or monetary gain, but to really make a difference in peoples lives. I am sorry to see her go and if you are interested here is the letter she posted on her myspace page.

“My favorite verse my whole life has always been “I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me” Philippians 4:13. That scripture has helped carry me through some of the hardest times of my life. Mainly it was always used to encourage me to continue with a dream that God had laid upon my heart many years ago, that I so often felt too insecure to do. God has constantly reminded me that I might not be able to do it, but with His help, I can do anything, even when things seemed impossible.

My favorite verse lay heavy on my mind today as I write this blog. Today, it has a different meaning. Today, I am finding it very hard to see my life other than what it has been for the past 10 years. My husband and I have worked long and hard to do a ministry that God laid on our hearts to reach the youth, but on this day….God is asking us to let it go. I don’t know if He will ever reopen that door of our ministry again, but I do know He is shutting down this current work and moving us into a new season. As I sat here crying this morning telling God I can’t do this, and that I don’t know how to be anything but who I have been for the past 10 years…Philippians’ came to mind….I can do all things through Christ….

While the Eowyn Music ministry has been around for many years, 10 to be exact, my husband and I actually jumped into full time ministry in January. We have been blessed this year to do over 70 shows in just six months and travel all across the United States, and Germany is It was one of the scariest times of our life, butJstill coming up! also one of the most exciting! We knew that God had given us new vision, with a new album, Silent Screams, and we couldn’t wait to go on the road and share our hearts with others, especially the youth. Many of you may have read my past blogs about the hardships this year, but through it all God provided every step of the way, financially, spiritually, and emotionally.

What you may not have heard of enough, are the miraculous ways God came through. Every month my husband and I owed a minimum of $10,000 which included 4 Musicians for hire, business bills, personal bills and bus fuel. This figure did not include if the bus broke down, or if fuel was higher than expected. One month it was $6500.00 just for three weeks of fuel alone. But I tell you this to show you the miracles of God! He provided everything we needed exactly when we needed it most. And no matter what you are going through today, He will do that for you as well!!

What you may also have not heard enough of are the amazing people that we had the privilege of meeting (many of you!), the AMAZING players that we had the opportunity to serve with (thank you especially to Josh Baker, Josh Donis, Charlie Simpich, Jordan Wood, Craig Sumner, Aaron Tosti, and Brent Clifford..these just from this year), and the many youth that dedicated their life to Christ. This has been an absolutely amazing year of blessings and truly an amazing 10 years that I will never forget!

But now, this day… financially, we just can’t continue. This week we found ourselves unable to meet all of our bills and found ourselves unable to even pay for fuel to the next show. It wasn’t poor planning on our part, we just had a lot of things happen, from several checks given to us from past shows bounce, and several venues ended up canceling upcoming dates due to economic hardships… and this just being a few of the things. God used all of this to show us He was allowing this season of this ministry to shut down. This month He began to allow doors to shut and then so lovingly began to prepare our hearts for this moment, even though at the time we didn’t realize that’s what He was doing.

We will be doing a few last shows coming up which I will announce soon on the websites. The way things are looking, it will most likely only be one or two of the current ones we have, as we will be canceling all others. So please be sure to make it out, if you are anywhere close! We will also still be heading to Germany in December which I am absolutely excited to be apart of this event! To all the shows we had to cancel, I am truly sorry! And to all the fans/friends who were going to come out, I am also very sorry!

I do want to thank you guys for everything!! Please know that I will still check my site everyday and will still pray for you if you need prayer. That part of this ministry will never end! We will also leave up the website and online store for a time, so that if you would like to purchase any of the merchandise, you are able to do so. This will also help us financially survive as we begin to look for new jobs. You can also still get the songs on Itunes and the cd’s at Lifeway Christian Bookstores, The Mardel chains, and many others. A side note…the online store is run by my family so you can go to
www.eowynmusic.com and make your purchases there which will go directly to us. But most importantly, you can help by praying for us. Please pray for direction, wisdom, comfort, peace, and joy for everyone involved, especially my band members. If you know of anyone looking for a drummer, keyboardist, bass player or guitarist, please let me know or write them personally. You can link to them from my myspace page www.myspace.com/eowynmusic To Josh, Donis, and Charlie…I will never forget the memories we shared and I will always be thankful for the time that God brought you into our lives! You were not only the best players I have ever seen, but also the best friends I could have ever asked for. I will miss being on the road with you.

Lastly, I know that some of you may question why God would allow something to shut down if it was truly about Him and for Him. I can’t completely answer that, but God reminded me of something I wrote in my journal one year ago. He asked me one question… “Will you give ME glory, even in your death?” I thought He meant physical death at the time, so after contemplating a few moments I said, “Yes Lord.” Of ThenJcoarse I was still hoping I wouldn’t have to die anytime soon! yesterday as I began to feel God shut down the ministry, I kept saying I feel like I’m dying!! I feel that my whole identity is about to die! (which to those of you who are worried…I realize this isn’t true…it’s just hard to believe at the moment… but I will get there.) Then God immediately reminded me of what he asked me a year ago….”Will you give ME glory, even in your death? I answered… “Yes, Lord”.

My husband asked me last night, do you regret doing this? And without question I quickly responded, “not even a little bit!” I will never forget the amazing faithfulness of God! I will never forget the memories that He allowed us to make. I will never forget the doors HE opened for this Independent Artist that many said would never open. And I will never forget the blessing of being able to meet many of you!! Whatever God has called you to do, DO IT!! Even if for a Season! And Do it to the Glory of the Lord! All of us who have been apart of Eowyn Music are excited to enter into our new Season! To Jesus Christ be all the Glory!!

I love you guys,
Eowyn”

A View From The Foxhole

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 12:24:00 +0000

Well here I am, back in the foxhole. stress has started to mount and aside from the whole sick in the stomach feeling I'm doing ... well ok I guess.

School has started so now I have to worry that my son may or may not be at school each day. things otherwise are about the same, lots to worry about and little I can do about it.

They say there are no atheists in foxholes and that is probably true, but the reason is that once you lose your faith you leave the foxhole, quit fighting and just wait for it all to end. I'm not that bad but I can see how you get there.

Too Cool

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Sat, 09 Aug 2008 17:10:00 +0000

Worship is wonderful thing

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Sat, 09 Aug 2008 15:51:00 +0000

As I write this I have been listening to some worship music on my computer and while I agree and know that worship itself cannot be accomplished alone, I do see the use of this music for bringing me in tune with God and helping me thru hard times. While it isn't worship, it is important.

My life has been mixed lately, times of great joy mixed with so much pain and loneliness. I find myself wondering just what the hell am I doing, and yet I find my self clinging to Jesus. It is this dichotomy that I wonder about. Why can't I just have faith? There is no doubt in my mind that Jesus is real and that He died for me. still I find myself doing the dumbest things...

I guess this is what being human is.

a humbling encounter

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Thu, 07 Aug 2008 13:30:00 +0000

I had something happen last night that really humbled me. I will tell you what happened in a moment but to understand it I need to explain some things. First off I am part of a group called Farpoint Media, they are the ones who Syndicated my Podcast JT's Indie Christian Music Podcast. They also put out a metric butt-load of other podcast. They also do live recordings of several of their podcast. Two of the Podcast The Babylon 5 Podcast and Slice of Sci-Fi are the two that you can listen to the live feeds and hear all the behind scenes stuff. So on Wednesdays and Thursdays you will usually find me in the chat room talking to the people and listening to the Feed.

You can also log on to Second Life and Listen to the live feed there as well since Farpoint and Thirdlife books have space in Second Life (just search for them in second life). Now I am not going to take the time to explain second life to you here, other than to say that I like it and you should at least try it out. So Im show up in second life and start saying hi to everyone there, when someone says:

"Hey are JT from the Christian Music Podcast?"

To which I tell him "yes" and bow.

He responds "Man I love your podcast, its great"

I thank him and tell him how being part of Farpoint brings out the best since you are always trying to be as good as all the other podcasts on Farpoint, but inside I have to admit that having a complete stranger recognize me from my podcast was a very humbling thing. It is times like that, that really push me to make JTICMP the best podcast I can.

Hey I'm Back

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 16:05:00 +0000

Hey Everyone,

I know I havent been around much lately. I have been focusing almost all of my time on my Podcast, that you can find at www.jtindie.com that is the link to JT's Indie Christian Music Podcast. I am planning on posting here more often now. so I just wanted to drop a line and let you all know about it.

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 02:47:00 +0000

Another night at the bar. someone please put a hit out on me.

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 12:43:00 +0000

In the airport after my first flight

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back to the music

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Wed, 18 Jun 2008 13:26:00 +0000

Ok got some new music for you today. Many thanks to the podsafe music network.

Playlist
Dandy Warhols - legend of the last outlaw trucker
Smut peddler - if your going to be dumb you have to be tough
After son - Woman, desert woman

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Sun, 15 Jun 2008 22:52:00 +0000

One of the pluses of living in penn hills. took my first ride of the summer.

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Well Moving sucks

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Fri, 30 May 2008 16:43:00 +0000

Yep that is pretty much what I feel like. it seems that no matter how much I pack or throw away It doesnt make a difference. I'm starting to think that my crap is breeding faster than I can get rid of it. Still I know I am making some difference if only because I noticed that I have a lot of empty shelves and a large pile of stuff waiting to get thrown out.

anyway the music for today comes to us from the Podsafe music network and is by a band called ardent octupus, the song is titled different kind of rain. I hope you enjoy it.

I dont want to go to work!

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Thu, 29 May 2008 11:58:00 +0000

Yet another day riding off to hell... i mean work.

Saturday Night at the Lave lounge

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Sun, 25 May 2008 01:43:00 +0000

Lava lounge

What is wrong with me

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Sat, 24 May 2008 21:55:00 +0000

Yep its after six on saturday and im at work. yeah if you ever meet me. kill me.

The is a place where dreams lives

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Fri, 23 May 2008 16:19:00 +0000

Yeat that was us a while ago. and tomorrow we will be getting together again. so I am looking forward to that. Todays music is all curiosity shop. I found out about them via sowerby and luff podcast.

Curiosity shop - Dreams of Piccadilly, Never ending Green, Green Grass grows.

Curiosity shop comes via the podsafe music network.

The Deadly Kiss

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Thu, 22 May 2008 15:14:00 +0000

better day

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Thu, 15 May 2008 16:30:00 +0000

Than yesterday.

No Im not going to talk about it. what i am going to talk about is our current excitement at work. it seems the neighbors are getting a tree or two cut down. So I have pretty much spent the day watching them. i especially like the tree grinder, i could of used that the other day. sure cleanup would of been messy and the people would of talked but hey sometimes you just got to do what you just got to do.

song for today is called for the lillies, from slow gun for shogun. thank you podsafe music network

bad day dont ask

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Wed, 14 May 2008 22:22:00 +0000

I'm not sure if it is the surprised look or the sound of plastic breaking that I find more enjoyable. As my fist drove pieces of the cell phone into the mans skin, it didnt matter which one I enjoyed more, all in all it makes for a great beginning of a day.

Oh Sure you get talked about but at least there is one more person who will think twice before talking, loudly, on a cell phone, in public.

Personally I don't even believe there is anything wrong with it, oh if it has to be against the law it should be something like 'jaywalking' and have a 10$ fine just to make sure that people don't do it to often, just often enough that it keeps the inbred mouth breathers inline.

I realize that in this day age something like this is much to ask for, especially in a time where all the sheeple have been convinced of their inheirent value and for some reason they view their rights and wants above everyone elses.

Free speech you cry out. well to hell with you, all free speech means is that no one is going to throw you in jail for saying what you want to say, it does not mean that you wont be ridiculed, denighed things, made fun of, judged, and treated poorly.

but hey thats just me using my free speech, and if you dont like you are just as free to shout back, if I find it interesting or entertaining I might even listen.

Long Weekend

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Mon, 12 May 2008 14:10:00 +0000

hey everyone how was your weekend, Hopefully it was more restful than mine. I'm Pretty sure I stopped moving only when I collapsed into bed far to late every night, only to get moving far to early each day. But then that is the way some weekends are.

It was mothers day this weekend and that was no small part of my running around. While it was a long weekend it was a good one. I am however happy to be back at work where I can relax and only worry about little things like conveyors and 100 ton foundations... you know little things.

I figured we all might need a little smile today so here is Deirdre Flint with her song 'Boob Fairy'
Courtesy of the podsafe music network.

I had planned something a little more serious but to tell the truth.. I needed to smile just as much as everyone else.

Enjoy

JT

A change in the air

noreply@blogger.com (JustTerry) — Sun, 11 May 2008 02:07:00 +0000

Well the three or four of you that regularly go to this blog may have noticed a change. I got tired of just posting the same boring crap day after day

This is what I did
here is what I had for lunch
man this annoys me.

same thing all the time. So I decided to make a change. Now this change has several influences. The first and probably greatest influence is that I have been putting out a music podcast over at www.jtindie.com and putting out that podcast has both taught me things and given me access to the world of podsafe music that I had no clue was out there. So the music I play on the show is legal for me to play on the show.

neither you or I have to worry about the damn jackbooted RIAA knocking down our doors. For that I want to thank the following podsafe music providers.

Ioda Promonet
Podsafe music Network
Magnatune

It is so simple for me to find a good song and post on here that I simply love doing it.

My next influence (perhaps Bad influence) is Jared Axelrod and his DAILY (yes you read that right) DAILY podcast the voice of free planet x. It is on this podcast tha Jared posts music mashups fiction, performance art, poetry, interviews, and just about anything else he can get his hands on. (he once did a interview with a stuffed panda that was pure genius) This is what had given me the idea to take both my blog (what you are reading) and my Podcast (www.jtindie.com) to 5 days a week.

That Is why I have been posting some of my fiction and poetry as well as musical finds. By the looks of things you can expect more of everything in the future.