Me.name.R.Joan

:)

2013-08-05T21:23:00.000-07:00

Cherish your solitude.

Take trains by yourself

to places you have never been.

Sleep out alone under the stars.

Learn how to drive a stick shift.

Go so far away that you stop

being afraid of not coming back.

Say no when you don't want

to do something.

Say yes if your instincts are strong,

even if everyone around you

disagrees.

Decide whether you want to be

liked or admired.

Decide if fitting in is more important

than finding out what you're

doing here...

-found this somewhere in Facebook page. I just want to share this beautiful words to everyone who have the same passion as mine:) -

The Prayer (Celine Dion feat. Andrea Bocelli)

2013-07-20T10:04:00.001-07:00

I listen to this song everytime I upset. This song somehow soothe me and give me peace at heart when I can't control myself, when I'm sad, angry, and when I'm on the verge of giving up. Lyrics by Carol Bayer Sager and David Foster, performed by Celine Dion feat. Andrea Bocelli. Enjoy:)

I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go.

And help us to be wise in times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way

Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace

To a place where we'll be safe

La luce che tu hai

[I pray we'll find your light]

Nel cuore resterà

[And hold it in our hearts.]

A ricordarci che

[When stars go out each night,]

Eterna stella sei

Nella mia preghiera

[Let this be our prayer]

Quanta fede c'è

[When shadows fill our day]

Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe

Sogniamo un mondo senza più violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza

Ognuno lo dia la mano al suo vicino

Simbolo di pace, di fraternità

La forza che ci dà

[We ask that life be kind]

È il desiderio che

[And watch us from above]

Ognuno trovi amor

[We hope each soul will find]

Intorno e dentro sé

[Another soul to love]

Let this be our prayer [Let this be our prayer],

Just like every child

Need to find a place, guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe

È la fede che

Hai acceso in noi,

Sento che ci salverà

My Awesome July :)

2013-07-11T08:47:00.002-07:00

It's been a while since I wrote something in this blog. I was busy with the final semester work, but thank God everything went very well and so as my final result. Nothing feels any better than finishing my diploma:) And the next step would be degree, I'm not sure if I'm ready for it, because I'm still in the mood of holiday-ing..haha!. So, now it is the month of July, and it has been cold, gloomy, and rainy most of the times in this small town of Kota Samarahan, Kuching. oh! For your information, I am now staying here at Kota Samarahan for the time being, while waiting for the degree-intake result come out..hehe. I am now working at a stationery shop, only a few meters away from our flat. It is something new and awesome experience for me, because living in such a way could be something that you will not forget for the rest of your life! <3 :)

My Birthday Prayer

2012-11-21T07:32:00.002-08:00

O God, I thank You for giving me another year of life.

I thank You for all the people who have remembered me to-day, and who have sent me cards, and letters, and good wishes and presents; for every-thing which I have been enabled by You to do and to be in the past year.

I thank You for all the experiences of the past year; For times of success which will always be happy memories; For times of failure which reminded me of my own weakness and my need of You; For times of joy the sun was shining; For times of sorrow which drove me to You.

Forgive me, for the hours of I have wasted; for the chances I failed to take; for the opportunities I missed in the past year. Forgive me that I have not made of life all that I might have made of it and could have made of it. And help me in the days which lie ahead to make this the best year yet, and in it to bring credit to myself, happiness to my loved ones, and joy to You.

* I copied this from a book " My Travel Companion". Today is my birthday (21.11.2012). I'm glad that I have a circle of good friends who remembered my birthday, I love you guys and may God Bless you all. I don't actually expecting my friends to remember my birthday, because I tend to keep it secret, only certain people knows it. And for those who forget, It's okay..I'm not that evil to force you guys to remember it anyway, don't have to feel bad about it, I understand :) Hopefully you guys having a great day today.*

The wonders of you

2012-11-08T23:20:00.000-08:00

You are Precious

Precious highly than any Stones and Gold.

Strong and firm, but soft as wind;

Hardly seen yet easily touched.

Barely understood;

Your pure Heart.

Passionate; is what you are.

Just like the stream,

It never stop flowing.

You always know where you are going.

Because it was all well-written by God.

Your journey was filled with rocks;

Big or small, it does not matter.

You will get through it, as long as there is hope,

You will never stop.

If you found a new road,

do not be afraid to explore, my dear.

You are strong enough to lead your own steps.

Other forces cannot change your nature,

When that happen, show them, what you are really made of.

And...there will be always someone, the right person,

who will wait for you,

To love you, to take good care of you, to walk with you.

A man who appreciate you,

Are the man who can open your eyes,

That you are more than you are today.

And you will realize

That you are worth to be loved

Life is not always there to stay with you.

Time will never stop, and sweet memories cannot be drawn by itself

It has to be you, yes, only you can write your own story.

And I wish to be one of your favorite readers,

You know me so well, so I devoted myself to be your faithful readers.

Hopefully, at the end of the road,

We will meet again, I pray.

Dedicated to my special and wonderful Friend,

I just want to show my love and appreciation. You are such a beautiful person and strong. I am really happy and lucky to have a friend like you. You are more than just a friend for me, a Sister, i preffer to call you that:) You always unsure with your heart. You are afraid to be hurt again, I understand. Though I never experience such a things, but I understand how it feels to be hurt, because I am a girl who have a sensitive heart, and a fragile mind. So I made a short and simple words to cherish you. Just to let you know that I will always support you, and you are worthy:) Worth to be loved, to enjoy life, to receive all the loves from God, you are more than you expected, my dear. Remember, everything happens for a reason. You've been struglling to survive all this time, but don't worry, God promised to give You a ' Special Gift' from heaven, because of being His faithful daughter:) And I pray, that you will find what you are looking for. I pray for your health, be strong as always, and be happy in every day of your life. I also pray that you will find Peace wherever you are.

There's A Reason

2012-08-20T09:34:00.000-07:00

For every pain, that we must bear, for every burden, ev'ry care,
There's a Reason

For ev'ry grief, that bows the heart. For ev'ry tear-drop that is shed,
There's a Reason

For ev'ry hurt, for ev'ry plight, for ev'ry lonely, pain-racked night,
There's a Reason

But if we trust God, as we should, It all will out for our good,
He knows the Reason.

I copied this from a book, forgot what is the title..
To all the people out there, remember, everything happens for a Reason, no matter how hard and painful your life, you must NOT give up easily.

Kind (Eisley)

2012-08-20T07:18:00.000-07:00

Here's a song from the band Eisley, I discovered this band about three months ago..and I thought this band is quite unique for they have their own style and genre, and its different from any other band (I guess..). Everytime I listen to their song, I feel so calm and peace, like I'm somewhere in a woods, in a dream. why don't you give yourself a listen, if you have the same interest as me, it's worth a listen. enjoy:)

I'll buy you a diamond if you want me to

pass the world, pass the world we fly

we went high

yeah we flew high

and finally you met me in your dreams

chorus:

(so be very kind

don't let the world, fall on your shoulders

If so, oh hopefully

I would find, i would find you again)

I'll cry with you honey if you need me to

dry your tears, dry your tears for you

there is no crime, there is no crime

You and I are meant to live our dreams

(chorus)

oh this is just what we need

and this is finally for real

I guess we never wanted anything else

I guess we never wanted anything

and you were right to love me

THE GARDEN IS NOT THE GOAL, THE GOAL IS TO GARDEN

2012-08-17T07:08:00.001-07:00

God!! I'm so happy!!!...this thing never happen before..and I'm gonna make sure it will happen again:D. Look, I'm the kind of person who likes to listen to what other people might think about me. What I mean is, I want to make sure that I know my mistakes and weaknesses in whatever stuff I get into, involved or do, especially my artwork. I want to listen to what other people responds when they saw my work, so that I know what is the problem. Few days ago, I posted my artwork in one of my groups in Facebook, the group is known as 'Art Dreamer', and most of the people in the group are good in art. You can find a lot fascinating, awesome, and beautiful artwork in that group. There is one guy who suddenly commented on my post, and I am really appreciate and thankful for his beautiful words. Here is some of his advise,

No matter the artist, you, me, dali, picasso, rembrandt, anyone.. the final piece of work is not the art. The "art" is the act of making the final piece of work, weather it be a painting.. a piece of blown glass,

a sculpture, or even a garden.

NEVER forget, that the garden is not the goal.. the goal is to garden and follow the path through the garden.. in order for other people to see the garden how you did in your minds eye.

Think of it this way.. If i hold your painting up and ask you what your looking at.. dont say "fruit"..
The answer should actually be .. a painting.. or better yet, fibers wrapped tightly into a canvas stretched on the ribs of a tree.
Never let your eye deceive you. This is important!

After seeing his comment, I was like, "My God..that is so beautiful", I'm not sure whether he copied it from somewhere or someone, but it's really nice to receive such a words from someone who loves the same passion and share the same dream just like you, he might be just a 'nobody' for you, but sometimes words a more powerful than anything in this world, it can change one's heart. Since I don't have any confident in my artwork, these quotes are so touching and inspiring. I'm going keep these quotes in my life journal and remember it always, also, I want to inspire the people surrounding me with this quotes and give them hopes to keep on moving forward in their journey to create a beautiful artwork:)

I'm not 'Alone'~

2012-08-17T06:17:00.001-07:00

Here comes holiday..since I'm not going back to my hometown..so I have to spend my whole week with assignments so that I won't die because of boredom sickness..aa~ being left behind and living in this room all by myself is kind a normal things for me..yaa..I'm used to it..sometimes I like being alone, not because I hate people surrounding me..NO, absolutely not. It's because I somehow realize that I can focus on my work when I'm alone in a quite place, my brain will automatically 'generate' on its own and come out with some perfect, brilliant and awesome ideas! cool huh? hehe..,but apparently, I feel like a real loner~(gosh..sounds pathetic..huhu..) since I entered UiTM, found new friends and fun room-mate:), I'm so happy and I just can't stop hang-out with my friends, been there done that, sharing everything good and bad times together, staying up all night together just to get our assignments done. So, what happen to me right now is that I'm living in this room ALONE, no room-mate, she's now at her hometown probably enjoying herself out..aa..suddenly missed her..,because we used to go out together and do all kinds of things in our lovely room;) now she's not here, the emptiness seems obvious..no sounds of her, quite boring. Well, hopefully she's having a great time with her family and......manage to finish her assignments on time! haha~...dear room-mate, please come back early~^^

BEAUTY HINTS, AT NO COST

2012-08-17T03:56:00.004-07:00

for all the girls out there..here's a beauty tips, free and no cost at all...all you need to do is to follow these rules^^

For Wrinkled Brows
Try the well-known cream, Sweetness of Temper. It tones up the facial muscles, reduces wrinkles and is very uplifting.

For The Lips
Use the marvelous lipstick Silence. It is particularly good for lips that have been disorted by uncharitable gossip.

For Lovely Hands
There's really only one preparation to use. It is called Generosity. Get a large size jar.

For Facial Tone
Expose the face to the morning air, especially between six and eight o'clock.

For Clear Eyes
Faithful care with that tried and true protective preparation, Modesty. For the best results we recommend that you carry it with you wherever you go.

The true meaning of LOVE

2012-08-17T03:37:00.001-07:00

Love

is Patient, Love is Kind.

Love is not Jealous;

it does not put on Airs.

it is not Snobbish.

Love does nothing Rude.

it is not prone to Anger,

it does not brood over Injuries,

but rejoices along with the Truth,

Love covers over everything,

Believe everything,

Hopes everything,

put up with Everything.

Love never Fails.

Learn To Forget

2012-08-16T23:27:00.002-07:00

A good memory is a blessing, but if it is too good, it is not a blessing. There are things we ought to remember, and other things that is our duty to forget.

Train your mind to forget all the iron words, all gossip and slander, all unkind look, and the invitation you did not get. Forget the seeming carelessness of those who love you; they are often too busy or too tired to do all you desire.

Forget unpleasant things. Be carrying them in your mind, you make it a chamber of horror. Do not allow the wreckage of a month or a year to fill your mind with mental junk.

Train your memory to store good things only, and forget that which can hurt yourself and others

Cherish the fond memory of all that makes you grow, but sink and love all trace of the bad things you know

taken from,

Don Bosco's Madonna

Life

2012-08-16T22:42:00.004-07:00

What is there to regret
if life is so full of suffering
it's true, life is like a dream
everything floats away to dreamscape
All of it creates hopes and wishes

life is not a self-forced destiny
humans only plan but God judges them
only then it can be understood,
the real price of reality and life itself
that things need understanding and
sacrifices

And try to stretch your mind wider
Happiness and bitterness will come ahead
If we happen to survive from the angry waves
our hearts will cry out of joy

But we are loose in the battle of life
then we accept it as it is
for life without such experiences
is really worth nothing at all

We know from the past mistakes
We have finally come to our senses
We learn that nothing is forever
Not every chapter of our life
Has a bed full of roses

Love and life is what we make of it

Regards from
'The Crying Soul'

Standing in the shadow - Delain

2012-08-16T12:32:00.002-07:00

Standing in the shadow of our lies
to hide our imperfections
doing anything we can to hide
Eyes wide open but still blind
to see what really matters
and insecurity won't go
see me in the shadow

Standing by the ruin of your soul
that cries for some more meanings
wondering when you have become
so cold

So cold
And all the pictures of your past are gone
So cold, so cold
Forget yourself and who you are
Another life is not that far

Standing by the paintings of your dreams
But you have awoken
And all the purples and the greens have turn
to black
And the ruins of your soul
have died, no more meaning
I wonder when you have become so cold

So cold
And all the pictures of your past are gone
So cold, so cold
Forget yourself and who you are
Another life is not that far

To The Person whom I Love The Most

2012-08-16T10:27:00.000-07:00

everything I do, I do it for you, only you. although sometimes it hurt me a lot when I have to sacrifice myself just to please you, but that is all I can do to make you happy, since I'm the only one you have, and I have only you in my life. Nothing else matter when it comes to you, you are my only hope, my only dream, my only reason to live. I can't imagine how am I going to live without you. We have been through everything together. All the sad memories helps me to become a better and strong person. Sometimes we mad at each other, but honestly, really..I never meant to hurt your feeling, its hard for me to breathe when I saw your tears, I felt heavy in my chest everytime I make you cry, and I regret for what I have done. Because of me, you cried so many times. I keep on telling myself not to hurt your feeling anymore, but still..., I really want to make you happy, to make you proud, to take care of you..not because I feel responsible for you..but its because I love you. If only I can break free from all my egos, temper, selfishness, and my stupidness..,things would be easy and better between us, no more tears, no more heartbreaks, and no more sadness...sometimes I use the word 'I hate you' everytime we fight, but it doesn't mean anything, I NEVER hate you. I used to be a trouble-maker, but because of you, I changed. I didn't realize this before, until the time changed everything, I finally awakened. Now I know what is real and what is wrong, what is true and what is not, I 've learned the lesson of life, I'm grown up now, but still I need you, still I need you to stand by my side, to support, to encourage, to teach, to guide and light up my life. Your words inspire me a lot, I keep all your words in my heart and use it as a guide for me to keep me from doing something stupid. I'm so grateful for having you in my life , my life would be meaningless without you. I try to be as strong as you, but it's so hard, I'm such a cry-baby, I always try to endure all the pain and swallow it like nothing, told myself not to cry for a small thing, you never ask me to be a strong person, but I want to be like you, I want to be strong and tough like you, whenever storm and earthquake falls unto you, you never cry and you never complain. All you did was you cover your heart with prayer, gained the strength from Father, then you off to battle. Sounds easy, but it almost kill you. Life never been so easy for us, that is why God gave us His Son to look after us. You believe everything happens for a reason, you believe nothing is impossible, you believe nothing of worth comes easy, and because you said it, I believe you.

Will you stay the same or will you fight?

2012-08-16T10:21:00.003-07:00

If I stay the same, does it mean I give up?

If I stay the same, does it mean I'm stupid?

If I stay the same, does it mean I'm a fool?

If I stay the same, does it mean I'm a coward?

If I stay the same, would it make a different?

If I stay the same, will they hurt me again?

what will happen if I stay the same?

If I fight back, does it mean I'm a bad person?

If I fight back, does it mean I'm sensitive?

If I fight back, does it mean I'm wrong?

If I fight back, does it mean I'm ego?

If I fight back, does it mean I'm seeking for attention?

If I fight back, will someone hurt?

If I fight back,would it make a different?

what will happen if I choose to fight?

so I said "let it be..", because I know, only God UNDERSTAND how I feel.

I don't have to say it out loud, because He knows my silent suffocation.

He will send me A friend to talk with me, because I know that is how He SPEAK to me.

He know how broken I am, He put all the pieces back together

just to remind and force me to become more stronger than before,

and heal my wounds.

That's how I learn how to appreciate all the people that makes me suffer.

The new me:)

2012-08-16T10:19:00.001-07:00

This...is.. my new blog,
after years, months, weeks and days passed..
left alone and discriminated,
I finally let my old blog 'die'..something went wrong and the content was quite childish and...'bad'.
I somehow realized that i should make a new start and change everything from bad to good.
so, in this new blog I wish I can share something good and show more the 'secret' side of me..ngeehehehe~

I'm back :O:D:)