musings of a slightly crazed woman

pondering

2010-02-17T21:32:00.000-08:00

i was to thinking the other day.I need a hobby that i can do outside of warcraft and that doesnt need me to go out even when it is bitterly cold.was talkin about my stories i am "working" on and that is a option. but another option is that i could look to learn to code the basics. I mean both of those are good but you know when you feel like you could do something that might improve stuff for

a Couple of days later

2010-02-07T00:22:00.001-08:00

I found out just before the funeral that the laptop deal I had signed for had been withdrawn. *sigh*so I am saving now hehe.The funeral was nice it was touching and I am actually glad I went. Thing is I still miss him alot and it hit me there what had happened. I sat talking with my nan on the way home and she brought up something I had completely forgotten about.I used to have a budgie at my

Looking forward

2010-01-29T22:16:00.000-08:00

Dispite the constant family wars that are going on (and yes silvia I am aware you are probably reading this) I am sick of this rift I am fucking sick of people not discussing things with others. It is about time one of us actually said this but now is my turn to say it.Grow the fuck up we are all adults here and yes its a stressful time for everyone right now and a bit of tact is needed as we

the day is fast approaching

2010-01-26T21:16:00.001-08:00

The day I have been dreading ever since the news had broke about my father.the funeral, I dont know why but part of me inside is actually trying to keep my brave front up and its actually getting harder now as the realisation is kicking in. I do have one saving grace which is I am keeping busy.I know I have not slept properly in weeks and now the days are mergin. oh well i had better try and

It Must go on

2010-01-14T18:21:00.000-08:00

I know this is going to sound so cliche but I think to stop my own mind going absolutly crazy. I must start looking after me. I know thats wrong of my to say that given my current circumstances but I feel the time is right to kick start this attitude now.There is no point in running around making everyone else happy when deep down inside you are as miserable as sin. Heres to the future.

with a heavy heart I write this

2010-01-12T20:24:00.001-08:00

As the title says.I lost one of the most important men in my life today. What upsets me the most was I didnt get chance to say goodbye.If there is one thing I took for granted as a child it was the fact that my father would always be there for me. Sitting here with litterally tears in my eyes as I write this, all I can say and I do know is he is going to be very very sorely missed. I have

Depressed

2009-11-01T19:00:00.000-08:00

Its been a while and not a fat lot has bloody changed.Still deperesssed still the fact I feel trapped and the fact I seem to be closing the world out isnt doing me any favours at all. (hence the lack of facebook/twitter updates) Acutually thinking that I want things to change I really do want to be happy again and right now even the smallest thing ticks me off and I cant do much about it! which

thinking...... (yes again)

2009-09-12T06:29:00.000-07:00

Had a few moments to myself last night to think alittle (wow been having alot of these again)Am just thinking if I should do several things and curious how one thing is going to um work out.I guess I shouldnt contemplate to much I mean if I beat myself up too much about one thing theres going to be nothing left for anyone else to right? :P then again I have been told I do beat my self up too

here there and everywhere

2009-09-05T18:25:00.000-07:00

Yep kinda neglected this thing yet again whoops my bad,Got my wow shit sorted and me and Milliontwits (wow he is getting his name about with me now I want commission for this :p) Have got our little guild running under the name Sponsored by Twitter (yea me and creativity at 3 am in the morning dont mix) Have actually got a good chuckle out that name. have had bad headaches over the past few

lets see

2009-08-31T02:59:00.000-07:00

Now its fast approaching my birthday (shock bloody horror.)Have ya ever got the feeling that sometimes yer just to old to put up the fight for stuff ya used to.Had this myself this Morning I actaully just felt too old in general. Its not that I turn -that- old just a measly 26 but when you wake up from a day out and still find yaself hurting (only partly) the day after you kinda think that.I was

ok xp vs 7

2009-08-27T12:28:00.000-07:00

Now I am not nocking neither just some things I have noticed.WIN7You have to make sure with this you know exactly what you want from it. with me it had issues with a couple of things.1. It seemingly hates warcraft. Now I know win 7 is "new" but with me If it cant handle WoW its not worth it and with my machine hmm yea I was pushing it lol.2. Programs Just randomly locked up. Really infurating

The joys and tribulations of Windows 7

2009-08-25T23:12:00.001-07:00

Su Win 7Originally uploaded by applecoredAs you can see this is a screenshot of my hastly set up windows 7 set up.Yep I am writing this under the influence of several cups of coffee after trying to get to sleep for a hour I thought "hey I know what would be a great mind fuck! Sort the drivers out for win 7 On yer main pc" Mind fuck was a understatement. I bitch now but I gotta say in its defense

Pipex the baine of my life.

2009-08-21T05:41:00.000-07:00

I have gone off the handle several times over this company and I am going to do it yet again.I had NO trouble with them when they were Bulldog but Now they are Pipex I am having issues. Now we called them up complaining. It wasnt the first time we had issues with them. A small list from what I could remeberRandomly cutting the landline attached to our broadband account with them - this

various things.

2009-08-08T09:28:00.000-07:00

Ok This is a biggish one but meh I am gonna say it as alot have been building up regardless if people like it or not.The New wave of pop musicNow I am not one to normally bitch (feel free to snicker here if ya must) BUT there are several new popstars/singers/rejects. I type rejects because as I type this JLS were on (and who the fuck are they exactly?) and Lady fucking Gagga (sorry those who

bah

2009-07-24T04:22:00.001-07:00

BAHHHI got back into Warcraft. Though gotta admit its nice actually starting anew. I dont know it just feels really empowering. Expect me to rant a little more about this when I level more as thats what normally happens LOL.Last Entrymany thanks to OMG we're pregnant and Sami for the kind words and I still have not found it or anything like that, But I did learn a lesson from a friend on

hmmm

2009-07-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

Ok this is going to sound really werid comming from me butcan self confidence be fakedI say this as I have seen so many self assured people when I myself am wishing I had that myself.maybe I am reading too much into stuff again or sitting here and thinking about stuff alot more.I got to add NONE are regrets or anything like that just a whole load of what if's and its leaving me with really big

Charities & things that I mull over

2009-07-05T07:43:00.000-07:00

This will be a longish entry from me for a change as there is several things I need and want to touch on.First of allCharitiesAs alot of you know I tweet a aweful lot :P but there are some people and Charities who use twitter to help them get their causes across. Alot of them have personally touched me as in the case of one or two I have had happen to me.Anyway this isnt about me for a change :

Oh my oh my oh my what a busy busy week.

2009-07-02T16:31:00.000-07:00

First of allThe heatWhere the hell did this damn heatwave come from?! WHERE?! its roasting and not fun with me walking around in a damn dress! (yes a rare rare thing and no No photographic evidence hahaha)Give me a freaking thunderstorm with rain that isnt at 3 am in the god damn morning!A big Blog entryThis is something I am slowly working on but a couple of my twitter followers know I am

MJ and various other bits

2009-06-26T10:15:00.000-07:00

First and for mostMy respects and condolences go to MJ's family it is never nice when someone looses a key member of their family. He will always be remembered for his music, This one of those things when someone asks where you were and I can say I heard it from some of the finest people and my friends on Twitter.Like many of us he was part of our childhoods and we are all sure he would have

Loads of travel

2009-06-23T12:16:00.000-07:00

Ha loads of travel planned this week.Lets see its -not- too often I plan something like this and I am actually planning on headingSouthportLiverpool (will be up there twice :P excellent love the docks)BlackburnOrmskirkSt HelensLeighnow of course all this is weather permitting but right now I dont care even if the weather is shite it will still go ahead. it'll do me good to get out the house.I am

A random thought or two or three

2009-06-21T03:23:00.000-07:00

Well not just one thing a matter of two things.There is a sheer amount of false people in my life which fucking sucks. It was really gutting to actually feel again, that once I shifted alot of that crap out my life its back again.I should actually be happy that i caught them now right? Maybe so but its just heightened up the guard that I have up almost constantly anyway. Was having this

The Weather of Late and father's Day

2009-06-19T08:00:00.001-07:00

eye of the stormOriginally uploaded by applecoredWell as you can tell from the photo its been interesting to say the least. How did it go from being so nice on Sunday to this? Ah well I am glad its acting like this now instead of being a complete wash out for me next week so I cant complain much hehehe. just gonna have to keep an eye on it next wednesday night before I make any firm plans,

Loose Ends, Drunk Mistakes and Facebook

2009-06-16T15:38:00.000-07:00

Ok so its not all to often things play out like this but they have!I am actually stuck for things to do! and I actually feel like getting out there and having a laugh, I guess I could put one plan into motion. Which is what ever cash I do save after I come back from liverpool. (yes I am going to hear gasps from where when I say I aint the worlds biggest spender)is to just well go out sometime

Shutting the local Neighbourhood kids up

2009-06-15T13:47:00.000-07:00

Ok I think I have found the most fool proof method to this EVER.Find the heaviest bit of music you have in your collection and in my case its thisShould ignore the fact that its a lineage music vid but crank that up and it can almost drown out any car radio and force them back in doors hahahaha ah the things you do when yer bored.I do have other ways and I cant show ya those as it involves me and

Hot Hot Hot

2009-06-15T02:39:00.001-07:00

Ray Of LightOriginally uploaded by applecoredYep again a hot weekend and yet again soo disturbed sleep cause of the freaking heat! Lovely.Something good you can say did come out of it, afterall it gave me a chance to actually get out with the camera and attempt to try and take a few photos. Shame only one came out right >< maybe the others will once I get round to tinkering with them at least