Ram Bansal, the Theosoph

A mini Autobiography

2012-01-28T20:14:00.000-08:00

My name is Ram Bansal and I was born in 1948 and brought up in a family of fighters for freedom of India from British Empire. When I look for a single word for defining myself, word ‘experimenter’ appears to be the most appropriate based on my characteristics and activities. I have been playing many roles, many simultaneously, that form part of my biography.

Childhood, A sharp mind in an ailing body

This is what I was known in the beginning of my life. I suffered an acute small-pox in my childhood with survival with a frail body. Added to it, I had until the age of 12 years a bad habit of eating soils of different kinds that kept worms in my abdomen surviving and feeding on food I used to eat. Apart from this bad habit, I had been a disciplined boy with interest in my studies only. My memory had been very sharp and it remains reasonably good even at my present age of over 63 years. I had been an above-average student.

Adolescence, An Emotional Lover

At the age of 16 years, I was attracted to a girl, and we both called that connection a love affair and still do that, in-spite of the fact that I could never touch her. I got busy with my education and she was married to someone else. This relationship made a deep void in my personality with a deep-rooted desire for loving and being loved. That void still exists as I never got that sort of love from anyone. I don’t know whether this desire shall go off with my death, or I will find someone with a matching desire before my death.

Boyhood, A Brilliant Student

I have been a sharp student but my involvements in so many things never took me to the top of studentship except in childhood when diversions had been minimal. Still, I am satisfied that I did well and achieved whatever I wanted in the field of my education. I consider myself still a student, and devote my considerable time and other resources to get me educated more and more.

Here, I need to confess my greatest weakness, that of non-participation in any game or sport, which I consider important for developing physical skills. I lack in physical skills usually found in capable persons. This I compensate by my unusual intellect.

Blooming Youth, An Aggressive Engineer

I had been a very successful Engineer with deep interest in the subject and profession and had a fairly good career in this field enviable to many of my friends – reaching the level of Chief Engineer in 10 years of employment. I used to feel proud of myself when some of my colleagues used to consult me on engineering problems not directly related to my jurisdiction or my field of study – Electrical Engineering.

I consider my period of Engineering studentship at University of Roorkee (now an IIT) as an opportunity to grow physically and intellectually in a highly healthy envirinment

Outlook about Money, A Poor Marketer

I endeavored in the field of business but miserably failed for my inapt handling of marketing needs of the world too much corrupted with money-mindedness at all costs. I flopped as a business-person.

My poor marketing skill has its genesis in my not giving much importance to earning and accumulating wealth as a status symbol as many of friends, family members and relations do and keep on asking me to do the same. I consider money to be important in life to the point of meeting daily needs and necessities. Beyond this point, money becomes a burden in itself and diversion from intellectualism.

For my never having more than enough money under my control, I live a modest life with minimum possessions, modern facilities and comforts. Still I feel contentment with this lifestyle of mine. This has affected my way of working. In 1993, when personal computers got developed and began to sweep the intellectual world into its fold, I too wanted to have computer which was beyond my available means. So, I went to a bookshop, purchased a book on computer hardware, studied it, went to computer market, purchased computer hardware components with minimum configuration, assembled them at home, and began using and learning more about computers. Since then, computer has been my best friend and a utility.

Purpose of Life, A Researcher

During my education and later studies, I learned that many well-known scientific theories and concepts are proved wrong by later researchers with new propositions. Due to this, I treat every scientific and engineering theory with doubt and try to establish some improved versions of these. This made me a life-long researcher in every topic I deal with.

I am of the opinion that the Earth instead of orbiting around the Sun is jumping up and down between two positions in space, with this new geometry explaining all related phenomena of weather changes and variation in day-night cycles are very well satisfied.

Current theory of visibility of things through reflected light from their surfaces reaching the viewer’s eyes is also proved wrong by me. Similarly, I have proposed a new geometry for formation of images in a mirror.

I researched for 8 long years on spirituality theories and practices and concluded that all such things are psychological games played by cunning persons as their businesses on innocent persons to misguide them. These researches made me a determined atheist.

What I Love, Authorship

I am less a ‘writer’ more an ‘author’, as I write only my original ideas after a lot of research and pondering over the matters dealt by my writings. Of course, I do write books on Engineering and Computer Sciences, as a writer to earn my livelihood.

After my full growth and finishing my academic education, my most favorite subject of study and authorship has been psychology on which I write articles and publish them online. It gives me a boost to my quest when I find that my writings are liked by readers. I like my professional subject of study – Engineering, but its practice is blocked now for my living in a village. Still, I keep on writing books on Engineering for print media.

Organize your Self and Home, Periodically

2012-01-26T17:40:00.000-08:00

Organizing the self means providing adequate time for every desired activity to lead a balanced lifestyle. Organizing home means so that it provides the most desired environment for the person. These two aspects of life are keys to a happy fulfilled life.

Organize your Self and Home, Periodically

‘Love Me or Leave Me’ Attitude is Disastrous for a Relationship

2012-01-21T12:02:00.000-08:00

‘Love me or Leave me’, is often demanded by some of those involved in a relationship without understanding its meaning and consequences. This attitude means that the person is going to remain in the relationship what he/she has been before the relationship without any adjustments for the partner of the relationship. This is rigidity of attitude and a way to block the relationship.

Every new relationship, between two independent individuals that far, needs some readjustments in the attitudes and lifestyles of the two persons for the sake of each other. Two must be prepared even for sacrifices for each other. If some one or both stick to their lifestyles what they were before the relationship, the relationship is going to be doomed.

Once, long back in 80s, I developed a liking for a call girl knowing very well her profession. She was very well groomed and cultured and we began meeting often. She was always punctual and behaved as loving partner during her meetings with me. Once, she did not turn up for a few days. On next meeting, I asked her the reason for her absence, which she plainly explained, “You know my profession and my obligations”, and that was the end of our relationship. To me, this meant that she was not interested to come out of the glut she was in and was continuing her profession even with a relationship with me. For her, I was just a customer like many others. Her attitude was just, ‘love me or leave me’. I repented for my choice.

That and similar other experiences indicate that a person hardly gets changed from what he/she has been during his/her formative years from the age of 16 to 20 years. That is the critical duration of the person’s physical, mental and intellectual growths and whatever he/she becomes in these years is hard-wired in his/her personality. This may change only with concerted efforts of the person with his/her realization that he/she needs to change to adjust to a new situation.

A person hard-wired for a lifestyle un-congenial for durable relationship with someone, often, develops an attitude of ‘love me or leave me’ with no intention to change or readjust in view of a new relationship. Such a person, on his/her own volunteer out of developing a relationship with someone, in the interests of both – self and the prospective partner. He/she is not fit for a relationship due to his/her rigidity of attitude in accordance to his/her hard-wiring.

The genesis of this article lies in a friend’s involvement with a woman rigid on her attitude, obviously hard-wired for a free life, un-congenial to a relationship. The friend is heart-broken today and he asked for my thoughts on the issue.

jo: How To Bee Friendly: Wait for You

2012-01-18T22:23:00.000-08:00

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Conformism versus Courage of Conviction

2012-01-15T14:20:00.000-08:00

As the evening arrives in village, villagers hear howls of jackals in nearby fields. It begins with one jackal howling and soon it becomes a chorus from hundreds of others far and wide. Through this chorus, jackals show their solidarity with each other each registering his/her presence in the howl. Are they really unanimous on some issue? I wonder seeing persons all around having differences even on petty matters and fighting with each other. I thought coolly over this difference between jackals in the fields and people in the village.

Jackals don’t have any issue in between them to differ with each other, they just register their presence through their respective howls. There are no clashes of their interests too in between them to have differences. So, their chorus is neither concurrence with each other nor any differences in between.

People in the village find clashes of interests with each other so they fight with each other on petty matters. Here again, they are not concerned with any larger issues to have differences with each other. What I have particularly noticed that tend to avoid differences by agreeing with each other on large issues not concerning them immediately or individually. They tend to differ with each other only on issues of their individual or immediate concerns. This is what pains me and has forced me to ponder over.

As far as larger issues of nation or humanity level are concerned, people generally choose to just howl together like jackals in the fields without bothering about the issue. While conformism of jackals is for real absence of any issue, conformism of people on larger issues before them is for their too much involvement in petty matters to have any time for larger issues concerning humanity, world or even their respective nations. So, this conformism of humans is more painful that that of the jackals in the jungle.

As far as large issues are concerned, people choose the most convenient paths of concurring with each other without really considering merit of the issue because the issue is not of their immediate or individual concern. Consider, for example, voting pattern in India for electing representatives for state assemblies or national parliament wherein people vote for mostly anti-social elements just for getting a quarter of liquor for their immediate gratification rather than considering fate of the nation in hands of anti-social elements with which they are least concerned.

Same attitude of people is visible in granting recognition of greatness to anybody if someone in the society does so for the first time for any reason. All others just concur not to displease anybody as they feel that they are not going to lose anything by their concurrences. This sort of conformism is worse than that of the jackals in the jungle.

For this reason, India has so many greats without contributing much to humanity or the nation. And, painfully, many such greats are seen pitched against each other. Consider two contemporary greats of India – Akbar and Shivaji who remained always at loggerheads with each other, still the two are termed as great personalities of Indian history. Logically, two contemporary persons of mutually opposite views can never be great persons of a society. But it happens in societies of conformists.

What is generally lacking in people is the courage of sticking to their respective convictions but they hide this cowardice of theirs by not pondering deeply over the issues with large dimensions and have a fixed conviction of their own. They say they concur because they don’t have a conviction on the issue. This is found to be the most convenient path by them to follow without displeasing any major group of people.

When I go by my conviction and assert on my views, I am called a radical by many of my friends who don’t agree with me. When I confront them with my arguments and my logic, they just avoid saying that they have not much interest or time for the issue. How funny – they have enough time and energy to oppose my solitary voice but have no time to ponder deeply over the issue.

Different Ways I look at Engineering

2012-01-06T20:00:00.000-08:00

I am a graduate in Electrical Engineering but I don't see Engineering as a particular subject of study or of profession, but as a lifestyle, as an art of living. This concept of mine is derived from the fact that 4 years of a person in a professional institution during his/her stage of final formation does not merely provides education in a particular subject but provides him/her an opportunity to grow into a thoughtful person through imparting a particular individuality to the person. Yes, I got my real individuality during my University days from 1967 to 1971 between the ages of 19 and 23. Since then, I am just pursuing that individuality of mine in all spheres of my life. Since, this individuality is a gift to me from my studies at Engineering, I call every gain of it as various aspects of Engineering. Various facets of my individuality as gifts of Engineering are discussed here.

Education

First of all Engineering is an education that teaches art and science of working of certain things and phenomena not merely as subjects of study but as sources of deriving analogies to understand life in better perspective. Engineering education trains the brain to be analytic by nature and look at things in their analytic ways rather than as gross products. This way, the person become habitual of questioning what, how and why of everything coming his/her way.

Extension of Sciences

Engineering is an extension of sciences with the latter working as an ideology while the Engineering is path to utilize the ideology for human welfare and further development of civilization. Sciences work only at the root level of development process which in essence is Engineering.

Means of Living

Engineering is a profession wherein the persons body as well as brain find opportunities to be useful in togetherness to the humanity, apart from providing bread and butter to the person's own living. It is one of the two highly paid and respected professions, the other one being Medicine. I enjoyed my working as an Engineering professional in various industries and was never limited to my field of Electrical Engineering. For industries, Engineering means way to solve problems and show path of further development.

Thoughtfulness

During my education in science and engineering, I came across many theories that were considered to be true at some point of time but later failed and were abandoned for new theories. This process tells me again and again that there is nothing final and ultimate in the field of knowledge and sciences but everything is ever evolving. For this reason, I look at every accepted fact with a pinch of salt of doubt and look for alternatives to replace them. This makes me a life long explorer of facts and a discoverer.

Social Engineering

The greatest use of Engineering I make in social engineering wherein I try to read minds and try to direct them to be free from preconceived notions imposed on them by others, particularly about god, religion, spirituality etc. In my opinion, all these concepts have misguided the humanity and pushed it to inhuman levels through terrifying the minds. I intend to make them freely blossoming to usher in a new world of tomorrows.

LL8 : An Affirmation Once Again

2012-01-06T17:31:00.000-08:00

LL8 : An Affirmation Once Again:

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My New Year Resolution

2012-01-01T02:36:00.000-08:00

With the flood of new year resolutions by friends online, I too got charged with thought of having a resolution for myself also. This resolution is related to my love-life for the rest of my life. Many friends of mine, online and offline, know that I am love with a woman now living in United States with her two teenager kids. We have been online friends for about 5 years and during this period, I have been adoring her intellectual leaning. Our love affair began about a year back with many in-between breaks between us for fishy things. But, neither I nor she could detach from each other fully bringing us together after every such breaks. I find that she is more sentimental about me than I am for her.

She is about 20 years junior to me by age, so I was hesitant to rope her in my love but I realized that she was in love with me for a long time before we declared our love for each other. So, it is her choice to which I have bowed before rather than I imposing my will on her.

In the last few days of pur online contacts, she has more or less surprised me by her dedication for me in-spite of my ignoring her many times in between. This has made me to resolve to continue my love affair with her for the rest of my lifespan even under condition of living separately at such a great distance from each other.

Irony of our love affair is that none of us can afford to travel such a great distance for a meeting in a foreseeable future. Moreover, she has compulsions of taking care of her children and their education single-handed and so can not afford to leave USA at least for another five years to come. In-spite of this, she is hopeful of our unification someday, although, she has no firm plan about this.

I hereby resolve to continue my love affair with her for ever whether we ever meet or not. Let it be an online marriage of two lovers with no foreseeable physical contacts, a truly platonic love. This is akin to my first love affair when I was only 16, with a girl who got married to another person as I pursued my higher education. I feel that I still have very soft corner for her though we never touched each other. I have befriended her husband and I am distinguished family friend of her. She is now around 60 while Indian women loose their sensuality at about 45. We are just good friends with memories of the past in the background.

Cause, Reason and Purpose of a Relationship

2011-12-24T01:07:00.000-08:00

Cause, Reason and Purpose of a Relationship

My Experiences at Authorship

2011-12-15T13:23:00.000-08:00

I had been writing articles for a long time, whenever I found time from my professional work, for some newspapers and journals apart from books for print media. With these, the competition was often local with respect to the media, and I often felt satisfied with my authorship jobs.

The Internet connectivity provided me opportunities to be on world scale for my authoring skills. I began with my numerous blogs on -

Indian politics and social dynamics,
psychology,
health and well-being,
businessmanagement,
my life experiences,
my scientific discoveries and
articles andessays of general interest.

I should admit that my performance proved to be below average except for my blog on psychology.

Once, I came in contact with an online article site Helium, registered myself and wrote about three dozen articles which did well with a good readership. It was for the reason that I was working in between good authors with a healthy work culture. Then the site administration decided to limit the site to authors from English speaking countries only, and my association with the site was discontinued.

An online friend advised me to write in Hindi for the local population, and in compliance, I made Hindi equivalents to each of my English blogs and began writing with high in spirits and enthusiasm. My radical views on atheism and highly-distorted known Indian history did not find favor with narrow Indian orthodox mentality and many readers felt hurt by my frank writings. So, I discontinued writing on my Hindi blogs.

In March 2011, I came to know of Wikinut and their promise of lifetime royalty looked attractive and I began writing on that site. They credit to the authors account money based on page-views but at a very low rate. For nearly 100 articles of mine during the last 9 months, my accrual is less than two pounds with on an average 250 visitors per day on my articles.

About six months back, through some online friends, I came to know of an article site Triond, and I began writing on that site along with my blogs. There, although authors are asked to categorize their articles, these categories are often over-ruled by a commanding software at the time of publishing the articles. Many times, I requested for changes in categories of my articles which were declined by the software or the administrative staff. This was, I felt, an invasion on my right to categorize subject-wise my own writing but I tolerated but looked for other sites for posting my articles.

In the process of Triond, one of my articles ‘Principles ofGaining Knowledge’ was put under ‘gambling’ category. Then, I wrote an article ‘Foolish Triond’ on my discontinuing writing articles for the site until some corrective measures were taken by the administration, in protest against putting my philosophical article under gambling. This article has been put under category of ‘mental health’ by the foolish site.

During my probing for some other article sites, I got registered at Hubpages about two months back and have so far contributed over 40 articles with my currently expected payment of about $2 per month from Adsense advertisements on my articles. This is a minor incentive for me writing on Hubpages along with a major incentive of improving my writing skills through continuous feedback from the site administration and for being in between good authors on Hubpages. In the process, Adsense revenue from my English blogs has also improved.

The Dearest to Everyone including Myself - Own Conviction

2011-12-10T08:56:00.000-08:00

Every individual is different from all others in his/her characteristics, and this individuality is the natural unique selling point (USP) with each of us. With so much of individual differences in between us, we still claim to belong to the same species of life - the humanity. For this reason, I had been trying to trace out something which is common in all of us, and I believed that such a thing would be the dearest to each of us. With years of research, and an intrinsic view about the self, I found this common element - 'conviction of the self' and it is also the dearest thing to each of us, including myself.

This dearest attribute to each person one makes him/her a self-righteous person, often considered a negative attribute in a person.Is this thing really a negative aspect of one's personality, or the general consideration about this is erroneous? Let us examine it critically.

Self-righteousness is considered a negative attribute for two reasons -

The person becomes rigid on his.her own views hence non-accommodating to those of others.
This proves the person's views to be subjective, or missing in objectivity.

I beg to differ on these general views on this issue. Firstly, when the matter comes to the conviction level of a person, all related factors must have been given due consideration by the person, so there rises no question of non-accommodation of other's views. If the person has convinced him/herself on an issue, there is no point in becoming flexible on that, else the conviction is false.

Secondly, objectivity is an intellectual exercise and an ideological thing. It differs widely from wisdom, which deals with realities of life in practice. I give a higher value to wisdom than the ideological intellect. This dictates to me that being subjective is no sin. We conceive ideological things for our intellectual discussions only, and when it comes to realities of life, each one of us becomes subjective. Even in law, judicial officers' personal views, that are naturally subjective, on any matter are given considerable value.

Thirdly, diplomacy and conformism in our societies have degraded humanity in real terms of morality. Advocacy against being subjective and favoring accommodation of others' views against one's conviction are disguised supports to conformism and diplomacy as mere intellectual exercises devoid of wisdom.

For all these reasons, being rigid on one's convictions, non-accommodating to others' views and being subjective are justified. I fully endorse such things after thorough considerations of all aspects of the subject matter.