Living The Dream With Go-Go Rach

Fourteen

2022-12-04T18:53:00.010-05:00

It’s been almost twelve years since my mother kicked me out the first time. Unfortunately, I don’t have anything left to support the second time (actually, it was the FIFTH, but who the fuck really cares, anyway?)

Nobody.

At.

All.

Although I was used to that, I hadn’t expected to go through HELL. I hadn’t expected to find myself an aunt-unwanted. Of course. Things really suck. I’ve got nowhere to go from here. I don’t want to go anywhere from here.I just want to be DONE.

I’ll admit, I am so sad. My brother hates me. So does my mom. And, apparently, I’m never gonna get to meet the kid.

It sucks almost as much as knowing your mom hates you.

Although I’ve done my best to move on, I simply can’t.

How does one reconcile being hated? Dismissed? Forever? And EVER? I’m nothing to nobody. I’ll never be anyone to anybody. Ever.

It’s been FOURTEEN YEARS.

I’m old.

I’m tired.

All of my friends are DEAD, or, they've abandoned me.

Just like me.

Only, they’re free. Free from this flesh I cannot stand.

FOURTEEN YEARS.

Is a long time.

Too long.

Way too long.

Fuck fifteen.

Peace OUT.

SEVEN YEARS OF FREEDOM, WITH AMY LEE COY

2012-12-08T08:53:00.000-05:00

Author. Blogger. Musician. Wife. Daughter...

*MENTOR.*

*LIVING/LOVING HER OWN *LIFE*

*THE FIRST EVER, CERTIFIED SELF RECOVERY COACH.*

A wonderful, amazing person, whom I am proud to call "FRIEND."

Her words, encouragement and book stay with me, through every moment, while I walk my own path to FREEDOM.

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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, DECEMBER 7, 2012

2012-12-07T12:18:00.003-05:00

Hello Fellow Dreamers!

How was your week? 

Mine was wonderful, since I moved into my new *HOME!* My roommate is just as amazing as I thought she was when we met. She works hard, plays hard and has a great life. 

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"MAKE A WISH" UPDATED

2012-12-05T13:44:00.000-05:00

This morning I woke in my new place. For the first time, in nearly twenty-two months, I feel one hundred percent safe, happy and *HOME,* at last. I humbly thank God for every single blessing I've received. I moved out of another terrible situation into one that seems to be exactly what I need.
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S*&^% HAPPENS!

2012-12-01T01:04:00.001-05:00

When my roommate, his girlfriend and I had a conversation the other day about the move, they blew off my utter melt-down with the term, "SHIT HAPPENS."

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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 30, 2012

2012-11-30T03:29:00.001-05:00

Hello Fellow Dreamers!

How was your week?

Mine?

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LIFE SUCKS THEN YOU DIE A POEM WRITTEN BY GO-GO RACH (2010)

2012-11-28T19:02:00.001-05:00

A Poem written by Go-Go Rach

October 2010

LIFE SUCKS. THEN YOU DIE

Some of us just suck oxygen.

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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 23, 2012

2012-11-24T02:27:00.001-05:00

Hello Fellow Dreamers! How'sit?

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving, in the company of family and close friends who treat you with respect, dignity and honor, as we all deserve.
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HOLIDAYS SUCK ASS

2012-11-22T15:16:00.001-05:00

HAPPY TURKEY DAY, MY FRIENDS!

Today represents the first Holiday Season, since I was a kid, that I am blessed to experience in a traditional way. I get to spend Thanksgiving AND Christmas with a friend's family in a home filled with love, encouragement and HOLIDAY CHEER.

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NOW WHAT?

2012-11-13T17:44:00.002-05:00

Me. Alone. Sitting on my gorgeous (donated) bed, in my luxury condo-it's like an Italian Villa.

Finally. Everything is OKAY.

I'm settled into a beautiful condo, in the heart of San Diego, right where I want to be, with everything I need in order to get back on my feet and get on with LIVING THE DREAM.

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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY. OCTOBER 26, 2012

2012-10-26T21:18:00.000-04:00

Hello Fellow Dreamers!

How was your, um, lately?
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NOW IT'S JUST ME.

2012-10-16T12:20:00.000-04:00

It was you and me against the world. Now it's just ME.

What's Shakin' Peeps?

Well, I am finally gonna write that post. The one where I say I've been through too much to...um, do much of anything, let alone write.
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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 14, 2012

2012-09-14T21:21:00.008-04:00

PRAISE GOD! I MADE IT BACK TO CALIFORNIA!

*Happiest Dance EVA!*

Now, it's time to find a new home for Go-Go Rach Land and, FINALLY, get on with LIVING THE DREAM!

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WHY GO-GO RACH IS HERE!

2012-09-10T00:13:00.002-04:00

So, yeah. I am not Go-Go-ing ANYWHERE! I am back in CA and will be blogging, wrting and SoMe - ing to my heart's content, full-force, as soon as I am settled. It's just a matter of where.
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GRIEF, LOSS AND THE AGONY I FEEL FOR THE TRAGIC DEATH OF MY ONE TRUE LOVE - TOLSTOY EARNED HIS WINGS

2012-08-24T15:15:00.012-04:00

My Angel, just a few months before we came to ASSVILLE.
May You Rest In Peace, Always and Forever xoxo
8/15/00 -8/9/12

My darling. Tolstoy, I am so sad that you are gone, but feel a strng sense of relief that you no longer have to suffer through the devastation that continues to consume my life.

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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, JULY 20, 2012

2012-07-20T10:47:00.008-04:00

Hello Fellow Dreamers! How have you been?

Things with me are, well, HECTIC!
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LEGALIZE, REGULATE,EDUCATE, MEDICATE #MMOT

2012-07-14T13:39:00.019-04:00

Now that my recent legal issue is behind me, I want to discuss how much I miss being able to smoke pot, without any fear of arrest or notice, as I used to in California and Las Vegas, with glee and stability of my mounting issues.

Medicinal Marijuana doesn't exist in North Carolina. From what I hear, this state is nowhere near legalization. I'm amazed at the amount of time and resources thrown away in favor of CRIMINALIZATION of pot smokers.

I'm actually afraid to smoke here, since one whiff of the heady smoke will most likely bring the PIGS, called by a nosy neighbor, of course! Not that there's any good weed available here, anyway (so I hear!).

This is just another example of the ignorance that floods what I've come to call "HILLBILLY CENTRAL." Dear God, I cannot wait to get the FUCK outta this hell hole!
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THIS TOTALLY SUCKS ASS!

2012-06-30T14:34:00.002-04:00

This amazing painting was created by one of the many
INCREDIBLE women who volunteer at ROOMS AT THE INN (Thanks so much, Mary!)!

When my mother threw me out, with no prior notice, in February of 2011, I was forced to leave behind nearly everything I owned, while I suffered through sheer hell for sixteen months.

It kills me to think about how close I was to mind-blowing success and LIVING THE DREAM that I worked my ass off for and imagined all my life only to have it ripped out of my hands by my supposed "family." I'm still reeling from the shock of it all.

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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, JUNE 8, 2012

2012-06-09T01:05:00.000-04:00

Holla Fellow Dreamers!

How's your month?

I know. I haven't been around much, but I told ya'all, I gotta get my books written.
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THAT'S ALL.

2012-05-22T23:50:00.005-04:00

READ: FLAMING FUCK OFF

*sigh*

I found out from a mutual Facebook friend that my brother spent two weeks at my "mother's" home in Las Vegas, where they, apparently, got rid of my stuff.

This came just about a month, after my brother swore everything I left behind was still neatly packed, ready to go, whenever I'd be able to get it.

Which, would have been within the next month, since I am getting a boat load of cash before my birthday.

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I WAS A TEEN AGED BANK ROBBER MS EXCERPT - REVISED 1/6/12

2012-05-19T07:30:00.007-04:00

This is the introduction to my current W.I.P. which is a story about a girl whose life was virtually destroyed by her emotional terrorist mother and her premature brainwashing by twelve-step dogma, as I detail in this post.

As I stood, freezing, in the middle of an empty hotel parking lot, located in a tiny coastal town in Maine, I could see a limousine making it's way through the snowy roads towards me.

Even though I'd confirmed the appointment the day before, I still worried. God forbid what may happen, had the car been late, or not shown up, at all.

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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, MAY 18, 2012

2012-05-18T04:57:00.004-04:00

Hiya. Happy Dream Check Friday! How was your week?

Mine. Well...
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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, MAY 11, 2012

2012-05-11T18:36:00.003-04:00

Hello Fellow Dreamers!

How was your week? Mine was positively BRILLIANT! I have been supa busy, getting my life in order and lovin' it!

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F*&^% YEAH!

2012-05-10T14:34:00.006-04:00

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DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, MAY 4, 2012

2012-05-04T13:16:00.009-04:00

Hi Fellow Dreamers! How was your week? Mine was outstanding, as usual. I have been reading, writing and generally enjoying my new life, in a home, with Tolstoy. He is a very happy boy. I am a very happy Go-Go Rach!

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