People called me Tracy @ Rysa...

When i decided to share my life with someone else..

2012-09-30T22:37:00.003-07:00

Its been seven months since i decided to share my life with someone else....a person that comes and go into my life for seven years old....giving me pain...happiness....sadness.....and everything....To be short...somebody that i tried to forget very hard yet...the person always come across in my mind without i'm realizing it...

To be honest...when you decided live together with somebody else....it is not like a fairy tale story that you always dreamed about....I always dreamed that someday..my Prince will come to save me...He is so prefect in loving me...taking care of me...and He never see someone else more than he seeing you...(You are the first and the last for him)....But what happen is...several months after my big day...i found truth pieces by pieces....And after all...when all the pieces combined ....it make me to conclude that..its a force....
People say that when you sharing your life with somebody else..means that you are ready to give and takes...i admit that yes...a husband and wife must be ready to give and takes...discussion is vital among two person...and above of that... Sincerer and belief is the most important things that every couple needs....when this two things vanished in a family....i think that its hard to continue your life with your partner.....
Selfishness is another things that we need to consider....When you are single...you just need to think on your own benefits...but when you decided to share your life..means that you need to put aside selfishness..never think on your own problems and needs...you also need to remember about your partner needs...
Freedom is another things.....When you share your life with others....doesn't mean that you don't have any freedom...but never cheat your partner what you are actually do...At the end...when your partner know what you do..and it is something that hurt her/him....then you have to accept that you made your partner suffering pain with believing you....As a women...i think that it is easy to understand women thought...they just need to be loved...they need to believe that her spouse loving her very much and there is no other women that can share the love they get from their spouse....
i think that......this is for now.....bye....

Putus Cinta...

2012-04-04T05:40:00.000-07:00

Pernah kah anda PUTUS CIINTA?..hehee...Rasanya semua orang pernah melalui saat-saat seperti ini..tak kiralah sekali..dua kali...tiga kalii..tak terkira..bagi yang berpeluang untuk jatuh cinta buat beberapa kali selama hidup anda..dan juga ....tak kiralah anda lelaki atau perempuan...sama-sama ada perasaan dan sama-sama ada hati...

Lelaki dan permpuan diciptakan berdua didalam dunia..kadang-kadang...si lelaki yang setia akan bertemu dengan si wanita yang tidak setia dan begitu lah sebaliknya. Tetapi apabila suatu ketika setelah menemui cinta sejati baru mereka sedar..bahawa cinta datang bukan dalam keadaan yang sentiasa manis sahaja..akan ada masa di mana cinta itu hadir dengan kesakitan..kepedihan...kekecewaa...kesedihan...tetapi itulah pelangi cinta manusia....Ia bergantung kepada seseorang untuk menghadapi perkara tersebut.

Kepada lelaki/wanita yang sehingga kini masih lagi dengan permainan cinta kalian, hentikan perkara tersebut kerana anda melukai hati seseorang yang terlalu menyayangi anda. Belum tentu anda akan menemui insan seperti mereka pada masa hadapan sekiranya dia akan meninggalkan anda...

Bagi yang pernah terluka kerana PUTUS CINTA..percayalah anda berhak untuk mendapatkan CINTA SEJATI anda...cuma anda perlu bersabar untuk menanti masa tersebut....

Dan percayalah...bukanlah semua jodoh kita itu adalah insan yang sempurna..yang punya segala-galanya....Ingat bahawa manusia diciptakan untuk saling melengkapi antara satu sama lain...

Semoga CINTA SEJATI anda akan sentiasa bersama anda selamanya...

History of my life after my sweet 17

2012-04-03T00:10:00.009-07:00

Humm...dah lama aku tak buka blog aku ni..nak hampir 6 bulan kot..well not because i dont have much time but...i dunno how to express my feeling....ahahaha...So...almost 1 year after i left my carreer as Imigratition Officer... How do i feel?..ahaksss...Actually there is no specific feeling..(how come baby?..)...why?..because i'm happy a little bit....bored so much....and i feel that i am "decompressed" (ayat baru kerr?...) myself here....But...that what people said...When u go to the new place...u will learn many things....When you are working..it is very different from what you learn before this...

Working in small organization like this making me sick...sick in term of development of my knowledge...I left librarian world almost 2 years...and most of facts that i've learn before is stored neatly in the bottom side of my brain...and yes..i'm still in the process of recalling all of that.. But..that is not an easy task.....Good side when you are working with people that have a little knowledge about ur filed is they never ask more from you...You yourself need to create something that can amaze them or yourself..

But never mind...it is something that you can learn step by step..ahaksss......eventhough sometimes you feel that u are burden by you job..why?..because u need to do everything..u are the acquisiton librarian, catalouger, supervise circulation task.....Technician....everthing you need to do by yourself...When you ask for courses..it is very limited....oh my God....it's more challenging than my previous job....

Emm....Forget about this topic...today..i would like to share my story about life....i begin with after i finished SPM....Here is the cronology of my life.....

2003 - Finished with SPM. My result....absolutely not Excellent...Not Good...Only Moderate..

2004 - Got engaged

- Futher my Study at Diploma Level. (UiTM Kampus Samarahan, Sarawak.- Dip. Pengurusan Maklumat)

- Joined Militry Service. (ROTU TUDM).

2005 - Study and training.

2006 - Study and training.

2007 - Finished Diploma Pengurusan Maklumat. (CGPA: 3.53)

- Tauliah ROTU TUDM.. become Askar Susu...dengan gelaran Lt. M Treciae Binti Majit (PSSTUDM) 18.06.2007

- Futher my study at Degree Level. (BSc. (Hons.) Library and Information Management)

2008 - Study

2009 - Finished my Degree. (CGPA: 3.55) Konvo on Oct 2009.

- Working as Waitress at Elusion Lounge, Courtyard Hotel 1B Hypermall. (04.10.2009)

- Called for Interview by SPA for the post Pen. Penguasa Imigresen Gred KP27. (13.10.2009).

- Called by Inti College to report on duty for the post Library Assistant. (22.12.2009)

- Called by SPA to report on duty on 23.12.2009.

2010 - Started my job as Imigration Officer on 04.01.2010.

- Called for interview by SPA for the post Pustakawan S41. (10.03.2010)

- Attend MTEST. (11.03.2010)

- Become "Calon Simpanan" for the Post Pustakawan S41.(Mei 2009)

2011 - Called by SPA tu submit few documents to enable them process my posting. (28.03.2011)

- Called by National Library of Malaysia to report on duty at IPG Kampus Keningau on 03.05.2011.

2012 - Getting Married.(10.03.2012)

Humm.....sometimes..i dont believe the miracle that God has give to me in my life...it's like a dream...but yet its true...I'm not brilliant person..but i am lucky person because i'm hardworking..(ahahaha...) I'd like to read books on motivation and there i learn lot about how to achieve success in a life... some of my favourite author in the field of motivation is Zig Ziglar, Frank Tiblot and many more..So...people out there....success not came easily..you have to paid it with your own vitality...i still remember on my last semester of my degree level...I'm taking 2 killer subject..(Database + Programming)...At that time...if i'm not mistaken....all of final year student need to take 9 subject in 1 semester including research....And almost 6 months...i sleep ony 2 hours per day.. no time to play2..jalan2...and thanks God because for the both 2 killer project...i scored A and A-.....(eventough aku dah lupa ilmu-ilmu database n programming itu sekarang)...

So.....my advice to reader..

Never give up...
Believe that..there will be time for everything..
Never underestimate the ability that you have...
Never blame anyone for what had happen in your life...

So....Jumpa anda di Puncak kejayaan...

Should we Divorce?

2011-09-30T04:22:00.000-07:00

Nice Story....

Very inspiring...try to read this up to the last paragraph..

To all married couples and singles who intend to get married...

(Story based on a Men story....)

When I got home that nigt as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, "I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quitely...

Again I observed the hurt in her eyes..Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?.. I avoided her question. This made her angry... She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!.. That night we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But i could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, she had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore...I just pitied her!...

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore iti into pieces. The women who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of realse. The idea of divorce which had obsesses me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she didn't want to distrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had caried her into out bridal room on our weeding day. SHe requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't any body contact since my divorce intention was explicity expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten metres with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I didn't looked at this women carefully for a long time. I realised she was not young anymore. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its tool on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dressesbut could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she ahd grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me. She had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to officeee...jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid and delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstirs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew. I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realised that since I carried her into my home on our weeding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a realtionship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage.

Some things that husband should aware:

1. His wife is the gerat gifts that God gives to him.

2. If u feel very far with ur wife, try to find out the reason why its happen? then stepby step solve the problems.

3. If u fallen love with somebody else, remember that ur wife still waitin for u. don't hurt her...coz she already doing many things for u...

4. God craete one women to every man in this world. so dont ever think that u can have 2,3,4 or more than that...

Happy readinggg.......

Kecewa

2011-08-07T06:04:00.000-07:00

Sesungguhnya kekecewaan yang disebabkan oleh diri sendiri itu adalah lebih baik dari kita mengecewakan seseorang.....

Teruskan perjuangan yang belum selesai sehingga ke titik akhirnya..

Jangan biarkan engkau terus dibayangi oleh kenangan-kenangan masa silam..

Chow dulu....

Weekend

2011-08-06T21:32:00.000-07:00

Selamat pagi semua..sepatutnya aku ke kk untuk appoinment hari ini tetapi aku batalkan memandangkan kenderaanku yang belum kubaiki lagi...jadi aku cuma berehat dirumah sahaja...mungkin pada minggu hadapan baru aku akan ke kk...dan sepatutnya minggu hadapan, aku fly ke kl untuk sesi pendaftaran master..tetapi memikirkan bahawa aku nak fokus pada bizz dulu aku batalkan hasratku itu...biarlah aku buat satu persatu..kalau tak nanti usaha aku tak akan sampai kemana...uplineku sering menasihakan aku agar FOKUS....dan itulah yang aku lakukan sekarang...

Kekadang...datang juga rasa putus asa dalam hati kerana gagal untuk influence orang...tetapi aku sering kali mendapatkan semangat dengan membaca entri blog upline-uplineku yang telah berjaya..bagiku..merekalah mentor-mentor hebat yang sentiasa membimbing aku bila aku perlu dibimbing...

Apa yang hebat dengan bisnes ini?

Bisnes MLM yang pertama kali aku join....

Dulu waktu aku diperkenalkan oleh Kak Ash mengenai bisnes ini aku mengambil masa hampir 5 bulan untuk memikirkan mengenai bisnes ini..Aku tak ambil keputusan mendadak..Mungkin itu jugalah yang difikirkan oleh orang-orang yang aku jumpa..may be..aku cuma follow up mereka...agar mereka juga akan turut sama dalam perniagaan yang hebat ini.

AT 181...

Akademi ini ditubuhkan oleh CDM Kartini dan suami dan kini.. akademi ini teah mengeluarkan hampir ratusan graduan yang berjaya dalam bidang perniagaan...Aku antara pelajar yang masih belajar di akademi ini..Masih lagi mencari-cari titik kejayaan sama seperti mereka.....

Kenapa aku nak buat?

Bukan kerana aku gila duit..

Tetapi aku nak langsaikan Personal Loan dengan Hutang PTPTN ku yang masih bertimbun...
Aku nak bagi hadiah kepada kedua orang tuaku..

Aku nak bagi rumah..tanah...

Aku nak bagi peluang pada adik-adik ku untuk menikmati hidup yang lebih baikk..

Dulu..aku hidup susah...

untuk bayar yuran sekolah...ibu dan ayah pagi-pagi dah bangun..ke kebun untuk menoreh..

kalau cuti..aku juga turut serta..selain dari itu..ibu dan ayah bercucuk tanam untuk menapung kehidupan kami sekeluarga...

Tanam padi...sayur..then kalau ada lebihan jual kat Tamu..selalu kat Tamu Tenghilan..

Kalau musim buah..aku jual buah kat guru-guru atau rakan-rakan sekelas..

Kalau durian..dapatlah RM5.00 sebiji...kadang-kadang beg aku rosak sebab bawa durian dalam beg...Lepas balik dari sekolah..aku jahit beg itu..kadang-kadang mak yang jahit....

Musim buah Belunu...aku jaul belunu RM 0.20 sebiji..

dapatlah aku merasa makan makanan kat kantin sekolah..

Dulu Mak bagi duit 20 sen..paling banyak 50 sen...ayah kata..x baik budak-budak pegang duit banyak-banyak kesekolah....kadang-kadang aku masak bekal untuk diri kusendiri....lagi jimat....

Perjalanan ke sekolah mengambil masa hampir sejam..Jalan kaki jer...Taklah jauh sangat..cuma 5 km jer....tapi sebab dah biasa..jadi tidak masalah bagi diriku...

Mengingat kembali kenangan-kenangan tersebut..aku tersedar...rupa-rupanya..aku nie telah diasuh untuk menjadi tabah oleh mak dan ayah sejak dari kecill..telah diasuh untuk berdikari sejak dari kecil...dan aku juga telah didisiplinkan oleh ayah aku sejak aku kecil....aku bersyukur...dan aku cukup beruntung kerana dijadikan seperti ini..mungkin kalau aku dilahirkan senang..aku tak akan menjadi setabh seperti sekarang..

Aku sering berpesan dengan diriku sendiri..kalau dulu aku boleh hadapi semua cabarna tersebut dengan senyuman..kenapa tidak sekarang....Aku tahu aku boleh berjaya dalam bisness yang aku join ini asal aku berkeinginan untuk berjaya..asalkan aku berusaha sedaya-upaya aku..

Wahai rakan-rakan ku diluar sana...yang masih hidup dalam zon yang selesa...untuk menjadi senang memang bukan senang...tetapi kalau dibuat betul-betul..tidak susah untuk menjadi senang...

Harus ada ketabahan dalam hati..

harus ada kesabaran dalam hati...

Follow bisness ini kerana hidup kita bukan hanya untuk makan gaji..tetapi banyak lagi yang kita boleh lakukan seandainya kita buat sesuatu yang orang tidak buat...

Sekian untuk hari ini...

Jumpa anda di Puncak Kejayaaann...choww....

Kelab Jutawan

2011-08-01T07:31:00.000-07:00

Bukan senang untuk menjadi senang..bukan susah untuk menjadi susah...

Belum cuba belum tahu..

Cabaran

2011-08-01T07:19:00.001-07:00

Penat sungguh semalam...aku jalan awal dari kampung dengan niat untuk jumpa dgn kawan2..share-share knowledge.....share-share pasal peluang bisnes yang boleh di buat..Sewaktu sampai di Tuaran, kereta tiba-tiba macam jem..nak jalan pun susah...Nasib baik my Cousin yang kerja di UMW tu cuti..then minta tolong dengan dia...dia tinggal kat area 1B..aku risau kot-kot tengah2 jalan keta aku tu tetiba melompat ke....meletup ke......tetapi aku beranikan diri untuk driving.....hampair2 tak sampai kat rumah my cousin tapi nasib baik last-last boleh sampai juga....Sesampai kat rumah cousin....dia kata break jem.....check punya check punya check...break aku tinggal nak meletup lagi...alahai...dah lah hari minggu....banyak kedai yang dah tutup..nasib baik ada keta yang boleh dibawa untuk mencari part2 yang perlu ditukar....cari kedai tu masalah lagi....pusing sana..tutup sudah..pusing sini..pun tutup sudah...alahai...aku rasa macam nak bomm jer kedai-kedai tu...dipendekkan cerita...keta ok menjelang pukul 6 petang.....dan aku perlu bergegas untuk balik keningau...dan tak jadilah aku berdemo lagi..sekarang ni aku tengah down..tak tau nak start balik macam mana...

tapi aku percaya..setiap yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya..mungkin semalam aku tak sempat jumpa orang..mungkin esok lusa...ada pula orang yang akan cari aku...betullah cakap orang..mana ada dalam dunia ni yang senang nak dapat..berak pun kena cari tandas..makan kena cari kedai atau masak dulu....bak kata orang..orang gila pun susah nak hidup..

apapun..aku kena teruskan juga bizz aku ini..selagi aku tak buat...aku makin jauh untuk berjaya..aku makin lama untuk capai apa yang aku mau..aku tidak akan pernah berjaya....

sesiapa yang nak share pengalaman bizz dengan aku..call or sms...013-6289690/019-6129690...

Mari kita mencapai Kewangan Mandiri

2011-05-05T07:39:00.000-07:00

Kawan-kawanku
marilah kita mencapai kewangan mandiri dalam kehidupan kita
agar kita boelh menikmati kepuasan dalam kehidupan kita
agar kita boleh memperuntukkan sedikit daripada kesenangan kita kepada yang memerlukan..
dan agar kita boleh hidup bukan kerana untuk bekerja..

apakah maksud kewangan mandiri
maksudnya apabila pendapatn kita melebihi daripada perbelanjaan kita

seperti contoh dibawah

Gaji bersih RM 2000.00

potong untuk bayar rmh katakan RM200 tinggal 1800
potong untuk bayar broadband RM70 tinggal RM1730
potong untuk bayar bil telefon tinggal RM100 tinggal RM1630
potong untuk bagi dengan mak ayah katakan RM500 tinggal RM1130
potong untuk bayar kereta katakan RM400 tinggal RM 730
potong untuk minyak setiap bulan RM200 tinggal RM530
potong untuk bayar parking katakn RM100 tinggal RM430
potong untuk bayar personal loan katakan RM300 tinggal RM130
potong untuk makan dan minum sebualan RM300 jadi -270..

dimana wang untuk disimpan buat masa hadapan?
dimana wang untuk bayar PTPTN..
kalau dah kahwen mana wang untuk anak-anak...'

jika ingin mendapatkan jawapan marilah kita belajar di AKademi terunggul di Malaysia
Akademi Taipan 181..

The new of me

2011-04-24T04:29:00.000-07:00

Aku dah lama buka blog ni..tapi kerana aku tak ada masa so aku tak pernah update pun blog aku ynag cute dan comel ini..seingat aku..last aku update blog ni tahun lepas..bulan 3 ke empat..dan setelah aku teliti dan baca balik coretan-coretan didalam blog aku ini baru aku sedar yang semuanya melalut dan tak ada maknanya..but never mind...lepas ni i will use this blog untuk sharing with others about passion in life.....my life and any good story that might be ca inspired others....