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Just Some Crap

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Sun, 12 Feb 2012 11:20:00 +0000

I've not been writing in this blog for quite a long time. Hell, no one actually read it anyways. Truth is, I'm just run-out of idea, or maybe I'm getting stupider. But, the latter seems more appropriate. Yes, I think I'm getting stupider. I feel lost, or maybe I am actually lost. Anyway, since no one gonna read this anyway, I'm just gonna post this crap just for the sake of posting something.

p/s: I need something to write about, ideas anyone?

[Best Practice] Handling A Windows-Based PC

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 18:35:00 +0000

Windows is the most used operating system in this world. And being the most popular, it surely attract a lot of haxxor to messed with your machine, be it from virus, malware or adware. Here are some BASIC tips to make sure your Windows PC doesn't end up f*cking your life.

1. Always keep the software up-to-date, run Windows Update regularly.

2. When installing application, don't just click 'Next', read what it's trying to do to your computer. Most today's application come with toolbar that had been proven useless and only cluttering your PC, and god forbids, some toolbar contains Adware, Malware and even Viruses. So, the next time you want to install any application, say, Yahoo! Messenger for instance, uncheck the box that say "ALSO INSTALL THIS TOOLBAR THAT GONNA HAUNT YOUR LIFE FOREVER".

3. Get an antivirus, although Windows 7 is by far the best Windows OS in its iteration and rarely caught with virus (at least for me), anti-virus is must have. Among the anti-virus that I suggest is Microsoft Security Essential because it's free and it's from the OS-maker. Heck, but Kaspersky, AVG or ESET32 works fine as well.

4. Install adblock to your internet browser. Most of malware and adware that are infecting PC comes from ads that you 'accidentally' clicked when surfing internet. Therefore, by installing adblock, you can clear most website that clutter with annoying ads as well as adding extra layer of protection against viruses.

5. Regularly check your PC for error. Run Disk Cleanup, Disk Defragmenter and use your Anti-Virus software to scan for virus at least once a month (once every to week would be better, tho). However, if your PC is equipped with SSD(Solid State Drive), please don't run Defragmenter.

6. Some application, when installed, is set to run during startup process. Take Yahoo! Messenger for example, it automatically run during startup so you can automatically sign-in whenever you start you PC. However, applications that run on startup can be a pain in the ass and makes you computer to boot-up slowly. To fix this, in the start menu, type msconfig and press enter. Go to startup tab and uncheck application that don't necessarily needs to run on startup.

7. Don't install application that you don't need.For example, we all know that Windows Media Player is kinda suck ass, but you don't have to install all video player available on the internet. As for me, VLC Media Player is by far the best video player and the good news is, it runs practically all video file, be it MKV, AVI or MP4.

8. Last but not least, in you find that Windows is hard to handle, just buy a Mac instead.

"The failure of humankind is not because they're stupid, it's because they refuse to read..."

Shut Up!

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 13:01:00 +0000

Blaming Game: Virginity Lost?

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 04:46:00 +0000

Topik ni dah lapuk sebenarnya. Virginity dah jadik macam rare gemstone, susah sebenarnya nak cari perempuan yang still virgin. Statistik dari hellioz666 mengatakan almost 70% UM students are not virgin, and that was a few years back*. If that statistic was real, how much more do you think the stats are nowadays? Anyhow, when talking about virginity, we can't help but blaming others. (Yes, we are the scumbags who love to blame others or, psychologically speaking, correspondence bias due to fundamental attribution error) Persoalannya sekarang, salah siapa? So, let's play the blame game, the game where there is no game over.

Amatlah malas untuk aku masukkan 'ibu bapa, guru dan agama' dalam persoalan ni, sebab cakap banyak pon tak guna. Dari segi statistik dah jelas menunjukkan bahawa ibu bapa memainkan peranan penting dalam membentuk budi pekerti anak muda remaja. Sama juga kesnya dengan guru dan agama. Walaupon wujud juga scumbag-scumbag berbentuk seperti di atas sehingga terlapornya kes bapa rogol anak, cikgu rogol anak murid, anak murid rogol cikgu bahkan ustaz rogol anak murid, yg mungkin boleh menjadi faktor dlm kes ini,tapi, aku masih percaya, these cases are minuscule and remote.

Since we've been limiting most of the factor, the only things that left to be blame is the person itself. The question now is, salah perempuan atau salah lelaki? Ramai yang cakap salah dua-dua. Perempuan yang tak tahu jaga maruah diri sendiri dan lelaki yang perangai macam bangsat hanya tau nk merosakkan perempuan. ( Contoh lelaki yg terdekat adalah aku, ya, aku, aku adalah jahat… Muahahaha)

Ada jugak yang cakap salahkan fitrah. Dengan alasan, sex is human basic needs. Aku agak bersetuju jugak, sebenarnya. Sebab having sex, is as a matter of fact, basic needs for most animal to ensure the longevity of their species. (<-- "untuk memastikan kemandirian spesis" tak sure aku translate dgn betul atau tak) Even from psychological point of view, sex is one of the biggest human motivation ever, besides 'eating'. However, 'sex' is a brain function, so does 'eat', that's why manusia boleh berpuasa. Therefore, I keep to my point of view, aku tetap nk salahkan otak. Sebab, otak yang kawal segalanya, kalau ko tak mampu kawal, itu salah otak kau, bukan salah orang lain. Hoccay. But, that's just my view. Korang, terpulanglah, silalah salahkan sesiapa yang korang nak.

p/s: Gua tak kesah awek gua masih virgin atau tak, gua hanya layan nasib. Lagipun, gua pon tak sure gua masih virgin lagi ke tak? Kahkahkahkah... Btw... Gua dah cross out UM from my list. Nasib, nasib jugak, tapi gua tak bodoh... lol...

Dynamic View - A Forgotten Features

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Mon, 17 Oct 2011 16:33:00 +0000

As a blogwalker who likes to blogwalking, I do found several in which I really like the writing from the author but the appearance is totally killing me. Most of it due to the 'rainbow' coloring, background music, and 'kiddie' fonts. Although most of the blog that I read was authored by someone who already over 18-years old (who should've known better how to make a readable blog), some of them doesn't really care if their blog is readable or not. As they usually said, "blog aku, bukan blog kau, sekati la aku nak buat camne, ko sakit jubor pahal...", and I have nothing to say to those, but if you really want someone to read yours, it's important to have your blog in a readable manner so that you can gather profit from traffic, nuffnang, or whatever fuck advert available. (Pardon the language, I iz no manner)

Rainbow troll iz rainbow troll

Thankfully, blogger had introduced a new template (it's not really new, since it has been available for months now) called dynamic view, which in my opinion, very pleasing and had increased readability by over 9000. It was created from the enhanced UI that was made available thanks to HTML5 and CSS3. (<-- I have no single idea what the fuck these mean, seriously) Sadly though, although the uses of dynamic views have increased, many have not yet implemented it as their template by default, (me, inclusive) since by using it, you'll be losing your plentiful of annoying widgets and even custom header. What interest me of dynamic view is, it makes reading blog that have many too updates a whole lot easier (I'm a busy man, given a frequently updated blog, it's hard to be keeping track of it if I ever missed any of the entry). For example, take a look how 'Terfaktab' will look like with 'Sidebar' view.

Pretty convenience huh? Plus, you didn't have to click 'older entries' to read 'older entries' (<-- Don't know why, I found this amusing.. LOL), just scroll the sidebar on the left. In case the sidebar is not to your liking, there are six other type of views available. You can have it by default if you want to, just edit your blogger template and choose Dynamic View. Word of advice, if you are just want to try, backup your template before hand in case you wanted to changed your mind. To make it easier for you, write in any blog address that you like to read below, and view it dynamically. Give it a try.
.blogspot.com

p/s: Not all blog can use Dynamic View features, for example, Obe's blog. (I'm not lying). There is also a chrome extension that makes it easier to change how you view blogger site, but it's not working quite correctly at the moment because you need to the delete the extra backlash in the address bar. Still, feel free to try tho.

Credit: Google

Rhytmic Paradigm

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Fri, 30 Sep 2011 13:43:00 +0000

A story of a rhythm,

Circadian it'd been named,

Hellish is life hymn,

If you not follow 'em...

But what of my paradigm?

Of my own rhythm,

Sleep, you call 'em,

Dead for moments…

I hold thee to live,

For I can't embrace death,

Even for moments [that] I have,

If only moments I had...

I sleep not when I should,

I wake not, but I [think I] would,

Hopefully would,

Since, if not, I screwed…

An untimely time,

It's not that I don't mind,

Sometime, I fly with rhyme,

There's a problem with my paradigm…

Untie the knot,

Let free what is not,

Remember me of what I forgot,

Wake me if I'm not...

p/s: F**k that, I'm gonna sleep...

I Don't Fear God!

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Sat, 24 Sep 2011 11:34:00 +0000

Firman Allah SWT:
“Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, takutlah kepada Allah! dan hendaklah (tiap-tiap) orang yang memerhatikan apa yang diusahakan esok (hari kiamat). Takutlah kepada Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha mengetahui apa-apa yang kamu kerjakan…”( Al-Hasyr:18)

I ask a person, did God ever ask us to fear Him? And they you go, up there. Petikan surah for you. Take that and brain that. But, do you really think God want us to fear Him? I mean, how can you fear something you supposed to love? Take this for analogy, some of us fear of spider, and when they fear, they want to be in a place no where near any spider. Do God want us to be far from him?

Or is it just a misconception of somewhat proportion. God never ask us to FEAR Him. And, as far as I believe, we should not fear God. Have you not done reading your Quran lately? Or do you not understand what you read? The thing about God word, He did not really put it straight to the point. If Quran is so definitive and straight to the point, it's gonna be so big,even mountain will be crushed. That's why we are given such a great man to be of guide for us, the prophet Muhammad S.A.W. PBUH, and mind the word, FEAR.

"O believer, fear not, because God will always be with the righteous"

Let me tell you something of the word I choose. Or should I say, the word God choose, which is FEAR. Why FEAR? We FEAR of something we don't know of. Like when you feeling afraid when you are in different place you're used to be, or when you afraid of the dark. You afraid, or fear, because you have to property of not knowing. What God really ask us to do, is to know HIM.

Curiosity is innate. Like our Prophet S.A.W once said, me paraphrase, "Go study until china". God want us to know everything that is available for us to know, and he said, "And you shalt not ask further beyond comprehension". Learn, but don't try to learn too much, we are not all-knowing, but we can be learning. . We want to learn something what we don't understand. And for something that we don't understand we fear.

And when we don't understand, our curiosity tell us to learn. God ask us to learn, the prophet want us to learn. (Eventhough, it says READ, you shouldn't read, you should understand and learn). So, when God ask us to fear, what God really want is UNDERSTAND and KNOW. Learn what you fear. What makes you afraid? And when you understand what you fear, you'll be the one of no fearing. You'll have no FEAR. And when you have no FEAR, you understand, and when you understand you started to LOVE. And that is the actual message that I see. "Love God".

"And with remembrance of God, you'll find peace"

You don't have to fear God, what you should fear is God's punishment. "Dear non-believer, for you is the scorching hell at which you'll be burn repeatedly…". I'm so sick of being ask to be afraid, 'till I have no fear. I don't fear. I love. And as far as I remember and learn, God also want us to love Him. So, why you have to fear something you supposed to love? God ask us to fear so we can learn about God, seek Him in every beautiful creation at which are HIS. And when you really do find it, you'll LOVE him. Don't FEAR, LOVE. And all praise in the world is belong to HIM.

Alhamdulillah, Masyaallah, Subhanallah.

p/s: "And some said, they can find something that is contradicting each other in the Quran, I said, invoke me something, there's always an explanation to things that happen.."

Some Cock Talk At 11.00pm

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Mon, 29 Aug 2011 03:50:00 +0000

Guess What

"Damn, that 'Punisher' shirt surely look goods on you"
"Really, thanks…"
"Where do you buy it? I'm surely want one for myself…"
"GUESS…"
"I don't wanna guess, just tell me, will you…"
"No, I REALLY mean GUESS"
"You know what, fuck you!"
"=.=' "

I Forgot What This Is About

"I never felt this good like this before when I forgetting something"
"What did you forget?"
"How can I tell you something that I forgot, FFS"
"Owh, I forgot that you forget, LOL" *trollface.jpg*
"Damn, I wish I can forget this conversation" =.='

Maybe Some Cock Talk

"I always wonder how do we know we've reach puberty"
"Mmm… after you masturbate?"
"Really? Wow, that's hard…"
"Mmm… why's that?
"Because, after you masturbate, you get 'soft'…" *trollface.jpg*
"Damn, I should have come with better answer" =.='

At 11.00pm

"I'm leaving tomorrow, would you care to send me to airport…"
"What? Tomorrow? Geez, can't you tell me sooner,
you're going to travel by plane, not by bus, FFS"
"Dude, relax please, why so rage? Thank god I'm telling you this today.
It's not like I'm waiting for the last minute…"
"Alright, alright… What time is your ticket?"
"12:00 am"
"Dude, that's like... an hour from now…"
"Yeah, so?"
"GO FUCK YOURSELF PLEASE, I'm so gonna let you die"

p/s: "Guess what, I forgot what this about, but maybe it's about some cock talk at 11.00pm" (Hint: Read the title)

Wordless Wednesday #3 : I No Like You

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 14:45:00 +0000

TL:DR I'm Not Joking

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Tue, 23 Aug 2011 05:13:00 +0000

As some of you might already know, today is the anniversary at which I'm fully developed as a human fetus and subsequently entered this world ( or earth as you might've put it) through the hard labor of my mother (Read: my birthday). Ever since, as most of the population of this world held believed , this is the day that we've been taught to be celebrated. Some celebrate with cakes, gift, or perhaps beer given that drinking was not something inappropriate religiously or you've reached legal age, at which the precedent was indeed not the case of mine. Or perhaps, should I really say that, in my case, I was never been celebrated with cakes, and gifts on the other hand, was definitely not on annular basis, although the fact that Birthday is an annual event.

However for me, it's not really a problem since I had never have high expectation for this day. To me, it's already suffice if I can get 'wordy connotation' from the person I deemed, close, and/or from the person who deemed me, close to them. I never expect any type of cake (FYI, I'm not really a cake person), or gift, in which it's highly appreciated but never obligated. To make my point clear, the reason I type this somewhat TL:DR post is not because I want to emphasize that today is my birthday, but I just want to make my site 'unwebly' (read: active)

In reality, what've brought me to write this lengthy 'word ordering' (read: post) is because it had came to my thinking, why we celebrate Birthday? Especially when your biological date measurement (read: age) is greater than 18+. Because, in my mind, I always want to be young, and Birthday is just a day that denotes we are one year older than the previous year, one month older than the previous month, and one day older than the previous day. Let's say, tomorrow is the day you going to turn 30, would you be celebrating you being old? Thus, it came to my debatable mind, why would we celebrate the day we became old?

It also came into my mind that since the advent of Facebook, birthday wishing was never as cool as it might have been before. I'm not questioning the type of person who just type 'HB', but I think it is agreeable that Facebook had made birthday-wishing awkward. Yes, it's true that you can wish anyone's birthday from any part of this world, but the fact that you have the ability to do so had reduce jubilation someone might received for their birthday, or to put it shortly, FB had reduce birthday wishing to mere word, with no emotion, whatsoever attached.

To make this fact clear, I, myself, sometimes don't really know what I should write on my Friend's wall when their birthday is coming up. It occurs to me that 'Happy Birthday' is so mainstream, everyone's doing it, and to have plenty of same type of post with little or no alteration besides 'HB' (which was a little bit annoying) or with added 'Bro' at the end, makes the wishing somewhat not really achieving what it should really be denoted as. Besides, to create a 'special' birthday wishes is just a waste of time, with exception that those wishes are intended for your significant others.

To make things worse, with the FB notification system, we don't really 'remembering' birthday as it should be, we are only 'remembered'. The bad thing about being 'remembered' something you don't 'actually remember' is you won't do it with all your heart, and honestly, it's sad. It is equivalent to the situation where you are 'remembered' that you should do a 'homework' you've completely forgotten, and because of that, your liberty of watching your favorite show that you've planned earlier is denied. Suck, isn't it?

Ok, enough Facebook crap, and this birthday crap. This post is getting longer from what I had initially 'decorated in my mind' (Read: Imagine) earlier. So, I have to end this here although given the capabilty of word-weaving (Read: writing) of mine, I could have wrote longer. With that, I present my thanks to anyone who being able to 'endure mental torture' (Read : Reading thoroughly) of this 'rambling' (Read : Higly intellectual piece of article)

Video of the Week #1

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Fri, 19 Aug 2011 02:02:00 +0000

You could have been all I wanted
But you weren't honest
Now get in the ground
You choked off the surest of favors
But if you really loved me
You would have endured my world

Well if you're just as I presumed
A whore in sheep's clothing
Fucking up all I do
And if SO here we stop
Then never again
Will you see this in your life

Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here laid to rest, is A love ever longed
With truth on the shores of compassion
You seem to take premise to all of these songs

You stormed off to scar the armada
Like Jesus played myartar
I'll drill through your hands

The stone for the curse you have blamed me
With love and devotion, I'll die as you sleep.

But if you could just write me out
To neverless wonder... happy will I become
Be true that this is no option,
So with sin I condemn you
Demon pray, Demon out.

Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here laid to rest is our love ever longed
With truth on the shores of compassion
You seem to take premise to all of these songs

One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl,
I'd do anything for you

One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl
Before I hope you die.

Wordless Wednesday #2 : So wordless, so win!!

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Wed, 03 Aug 2011 06:31:00 +0000

Pretentious: At certain point of time, we, human, had been pretentious. We love to pretend something we are not. We love to show that we are capable of doing something. We love to tell others only the good side of us, not the bad side. Don't deny it. Deep down, when you know someone is looking at you, you only want to show the good side in you. It makes you feel pleasant, and confident. Am I right?

Contoh: -
Aku kat twitter, pergh, berlakon jadik kucing wa cakap sama lu…
Ustard komen dekat blog lovesuck, pretentious sial.

Excuses: Most people, when encounter mistakes, try to make rational of it, by giving excuse. Excuse seems to be their hero that will save them over shame or humiliation. Shame, as we all know it, is unpleasant feeling to us, and like I said, something unpleasant is always being avoided. Thus explained why people giving up excuse for their mistake. Oh, this is because of this, and this is because of that. Naturally thinking, giving excuse will avoid us from being bashed or looked down upon by others.

Contoh:-
"Saya bukan tak pandai, cuma tersilap, sorry.."

Aversive : Avoidance to something that might contribute to bad or unpleasant feeling to ourself is called aversive. When we feel aversive about something, we try our best to avoid it. Aversive is indeed a part of fear, and when we fear, sometimes we started being aversive.

Contoh:-
Korang minat satu perempuan tapi korang kecut telor nak confess, takut kena reject kan? Betul tak?

We all doing this because we feel fear. We fear that people might judge us, or talk bad about us, thus we being, at some point, all of these. Baik laki baik perempuan. Sama ja. Betul ke tak pernah pretentious? Kalau camtu asal kau mekap? Asal kau berlagak macho? Tak bagi excuses? Kamonla, excuse adalah benda yang mostly semua orang akan buat. Tak aversive? Tak yah tipu. These is all are driven by our fear, and without fear, you won't survive. The only question is, WOULD YOU RATHER SUCCUMB TO FEAR?

p/s: - "You don't know completely of god, is that why you fear HIM?"

As of today....

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Sat, 30 Jul 2011 13:17:00 +0000

Megan Nicole : My Current Crush

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Tue, 26 Jul 2011 17:25:00 +0000

Guys, Grow Up #1

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Wed, 20 Jul 2011 11:48:00 +0000

Remember, remember the 9th of July,
The mass assembly and plot,
I know of no reason, why the tweets should ever be forgot,
But what of one tweet?
I know it is a troll,
And I know on 9th of July, people mind was clouded with their emotional thought…"

(If you're active on twitter, you may have known who's retweeted that tweet, and who tweeted that tweet, but just pretend you don't know a thing, will ya?)

Read this tweet @someoneelse that was retweeted by @someone. What is your first thought about it?
Is it appropriate? Is it inappropriate? Is it fascist? Is it optimist? Is it sexist? Is it racist? Is it realist? Yes, do tell me how would you judge that tweet. I'm so keen to listen anything from you. Come on, be honest please.

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Wordless Wednesday #1

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Wed, 20 Jul 2011 04:02:00 +0000

Please Be Mind-ed...

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Sun, 17 Jul 2011 09:45:00 +0000

Let us conferred,
Of what you inferred,
Things you blurted;
Was nowhere related...

What you've seen,
You have perceived,
What you had believed,
Is nothing but perspective…

Truth being said,
Of believe you wielded,
Contradiction it projected,
Authority you hosted,

Yet, authority dismissed,
Things they disliked,
Because they believed,
Of principle they declared...

Let us be minded,
Nothing is right,
Nor is it not,
You're mind-ed…

Let it be judged,
Fact from rumored,
So you're not blurred,
From reality, it is not…

P/s: Stroke me with what you thought, let me be mind-fucked, by my own words….

Bersih 2.0?

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Sat, 09 Jul 2011 12:35:00 +0000

This post is regarding Bersih 2.0, I bet you guys should've already know about this, but if you guys are dumb enough to not know about this, GTFO. No matter how ignorance you might be, you should know at least a little bit about what's happening.

Macam-macam benda aku dengar mengenai Bersih ni. Macam biasa, ada orang support, ada orang bangkang. Yang tak support mostly pro-kerajaan and yang tak support mostly pro-pembangkang. Tapi sebab Bersih 2.0 ni organized by NGO, so, aku rasa tak salah aku post benda nh, memandangkan aku masih belajar, dan pelajar TAK BOLEH MAIN POLITIK. Yeay.

Antara komen paling 'best' aku pernah dengar tentang BERSIH ialah seperti berikut, "orang Melayu jangan jadi BODOH. kalau UMNO hancur. Melayu memang musnah. Patut korang bersyukur kite ade UMNO sampai sekarang. Bersih kepala hotak korang." Korang tau ke sapa yang cakap, kalau tau, gelak je, kalau tak tau, tak yah tau, mmg aku tak nak bagitau. (Woi beliau yang tulis statement tersebut, aku troll kau, problem? lol).

First of all, aku tak paham, apa signifikan UMNO hancur dan MELAYU musnah? Mati ke MELAYU kalau UMNO hancur? Tak kan. Melayu boleh je hidup. Secondly, apa signifikan UMNO dengan BERSIH? Bersih is non-governmental organization who's fighting for fair electoral process. Kalau electoral process tu dah fair, kenapa perlu takut? You don't have to be afraid if you are right. Biar je la diorang nak buat apa pon. Because, as far as I'm concerned, if ever Opposition berjaya naik sekalipun, and diorang buat palat, feel free to go down on the next next election.

"Bodohlah ko, ko ingat sapa yang bagi kita merdeka, bukan UMNO? Kalau UMNO tak de, tak merdeka kita tahu"

Kahkahkah. Betul jugak kau cakap kan. Takde UMNO tak merdekalah kan. Woi, sebab UMNO merdekakan kita sebab tu kau nak sokong UMNO sampai bebila? Kamonla. Kita rakyat nak yang terbaik. Kalau korup, memang la tak sokong. Peduli la dia merdekakan kita ke tak. Ko ingat siapa bebaskan kita dari jajahan Jepun? Bukan British? Asal korang taknak support je British. Biar kita jadik Crown Colonies British je. Sekali dia buat baik, korang nak sapu bontot sampai bebila? Biarlah sesapa pon, pada aku, kalau ko salah guna kuasa, memang layak ko turun dan bagi orang lain naik.

*Disclaimer : I am not supporting PAS nor UMNO nor any other political parties. I am without affiliation. I wrote this only to exercising my freedom of speech that was stated in Article 10 of Malaysian Constitution, Clause 1 a) Every Citizen has the right to freedom of speech and expression.*

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Of Ignorance (I Don't Give A Fuck)

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Fri, 08 Jul 2011 02:13:00 +0000

"Yo, what the fuck you doing? Nevermind, I don't give a fuck…"

Aku selalu dengar, 'Ignorance is bliss', tapi betul ke statement tu? Bliss ke kau kalau ko ignorance? Bliss sangat ke? Tell me please. I want to know more. But from what I know, and from what I had experience, ignorance is one of the sickness that had always been in the blood of true #meleis. Tak percaya, tanya mak korang sendiri. Pernah tak beliau cakap, 'dah buat keje sendiri, jangan sibuk hal orang tua2..' or penah dengar tak sesapa cakap, 'jangan JAGA TEPI KAIN ORANG'. (Eh, mak korang takde cakap camtu ey? Ok, sori sesangat…)

Masalah utama meleis-meleis sekalian ialah suka telan je apa orang cakap. Sebab tu bila dah ada mak bapak yang tak menerangkan sebenar-benarnya tentang JAGA TEPI KAIN ORANG (i.e. give a fuck), korang telan 100%. Pastu bila dah besar, jadik bodoh bangang, tetap nk jadik ignorance.

"Der, kenapa ko nak sibuk2 sangat hal orang lain, mampuih pi la kat diorang tu, kubur lelain beb…"

Aah, korang betul, kubur lelain. Elok sangatlah budaya pemikiran korang yg kolot tu. Mmg la kubur lelain, tapi ko ingat kalo kubur ko sebelah kubur aku dan ko perangai cam celaka masa hidup, tak ke panas kubur ko nnti sampai gak kt kubur aku? Kubur tu macam rumah ko tau. Ko suka dapat jiran suka 'buat bising'? Tak kan, so, shaddap, dgr aku nk cerita sampai abis. (Ok, aku pon bukan baik sangat, aku akui, aku nh mmg cukup setan jugak sbnarnye, so aku tulis nh sbb aku pun nk cuba ubah diri aku, ok…)

Memang best bebenorkan kalo pikir kubur lelain. Tak payah nak amik tau hal orang lain, tak payah nak susah2 pasal orang lain. Tapi, sebenarnya bagus sangat ke pemikiran macam tu? Kalo ko rase bagus, dah, sila tekan butang pangkah kt hujung atas kanan, (button hujung kiri kalau korang guna Ubuntu or Mac <--betul ke tak nh aku tak brape nk sure sbnarnye… LOL), sebab entri ini akan jadi sangat panjang.

"Tapikan der, kalo lu je nak sibuk hal orang buat ape kalau diorang pon tak nak sibuk hal sendiri, kenapa ko pulak yang nak sibukkan diri 'buat keje' untuk diorg?"

Der, meh sini aku nak explain sikit, ada aku cakap ko kena amik tau segala? Ada aku cakap ko kena sibuk hal semorang? Takdekan? Aku tak abis cerita lagi, meh dengar bebetul. Bukan aku nak suruh korang SHOVE YOUR DICK to everyone to show that you care, aku just nak cakap, jangan tak amik port langsung. Sebab kadang2, JAGA TEPI KAIN ITU PERLU, tapi bukan JAGA TEPI KAIN SELALU. Kena ingat, sebab dua benda tu berbeza sangat.

"Tak paham lah der, lu nh cakap nk ilmuan je, aku nh bengap sikit, cebagi contoh sikit, cebagi…"

Ko nak contoh, meh aku bagi contoh. Ko jalan, ko nampak makcik cleaner tengah mop lantai, ko dengan selamba pijak lantai yang makcik tu baru lap. To you, "what do I care, it's HER JOB, it's not MY JOB, why should I give a fuck? Yes, I'm ignorance bitch…". Aah, ko betul, memang kerja dia mop lantai. Semua orang boleh kata pikir benda sama. Dah kerja dia, dia la kena buat. Kenapa aku lak perlu amik tahu?Kenapa aku perlu sibuk? Pada aku, memang betul itu kerja dia. Memang betul itu tanggungjawab dia. Tapi tak boleh ke korang jalan tepi sikit, bukan susah sangat pon. Yang korang nk ignorance melampau buat ape. Dia carik rezeki halal je pon. Kalau semua orang nak pikir it's NOT MY JOB, I shouldn't be doing it, memang hancur dunia nh.

Kenapa aku cakap macam tu? Cepikir sikit, korang nak sakitkan badan sendiri semata-mata nk jumpa doktor? "Dah keje doktor, mmg kalo sakit diorang la kena ubat" (<-- Kalau ada orang macam nh, mmg aku doa mati cecepat…) Perlu ke kita menambah kerja orang lain semata-mata sebab itu KERJA DIORANG? Perlu ke? Mcm contoh aku, perlu ke untuk korang jatuh sakit? Tak perlu kan, sebab tu la korang beli ubat, jaga kesihatan, untuk elak dari jumpa doktor, walaupun sebenarnya tanggungjawab mengubat orang sakit memang kerja diorg.

"Eleh, tu je ke contoh, benda tu semua orang tau, aku pon takde buat, sia-sia sial entri kau…"

Woi bangang, aku dah cakap kan entri aku berjela. Tak habis lagi. Itu salah satu contoh ignorance. Banyak lagi contoh lain. Mcm, korang tau jiran korang suami isteri selalu bergaduh, korang buat tak pot. "Ala, hal laki bini, kita orang luar takkan nak masuk campur kot." Pastuh esok keluar paper [SUAMI TIKAM ISTERI], lepas tu mula la korang mengumpat, "diorang nh laki bini memang macam nh, tiap-tiap malam aku dengar diorang 'gaduh', TAK SANGKA jadi sampai macam ni, tapi NO WONDER la jugak kan, dah suami mmg kaki pukul, nak buat camne…"

Memang bangang bertimpa, TAK SANGKA, pastu NO WONDER, bangang nak mampus. Cuba korang amik tau sikit hal jiran tetangga. Korang hidup satu komuniti, buat macam satu komuniti. Jangan buat FITNAH sudah, sebab tu aku cakap, JAGA KAIN ITU PERLU, tapi jangan JAGA KAIN SELALU, lagi-lagi kalau kain kau yang terselak.

Dah abis belum contoh kau, panjang berjela, memang takde sape nak baca…

Ok la, sbb dah berjela, aku stop la dulu, lenkali la pulak aku bagi contoh ignorance yg semua orang buat tapi diorang tak sedar diorang buat. Penat korang baca ye. Harap korang terBRAINWASH. Tapi kalau korang tetap tak terbrainwash, I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. Kahkahkah…

It's okay to not GIVE A FUCK sometimes, but if you GIVE A FUCK all the time, fuck you!!

It's NOT okay to always give a fuck, sometimes, you just need to NOT GIVE A FUCK!!

Come on, give me A FUCK, I'm in dire need of A GOOD FUCK...

p/s: NOT GIVING A FUCK is a type of IGNORANCE, and IGNORANCE is one mean of ESCAPISM, if you found out that you being IGNORANCE because you're think that your life is FUCKED UP, please, consult someone close to you or someone that you know can help you, better still, you can dial this toll free number 1-800-FUCKED-UP. This public message is brought to you by none other but ME…

The 'Story' #1

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Thu, 07 Jul 2011 10:04:00 +0000

There's one story that I always remember. I've read it quite repeatedly for years, usually when I met Him. However, recently, I've been too indulged with my world and I've been forgetting the story. And when I try to remember that particular story, I always stuck in the middle of the story and I couldn't be able to finish it and it's bothering me a bit.

Somehow, on a very specific serene beautiful morning, after I failed to remember the later part of the story, I was moved to re-open the book that I rarely open. I search for the story. And I found it. I read the story again, letter for letter, word for word, one by one. After I found the part that I couldn't remember, I was awe-struck. The passage that I've been forgetting goes like this:

"Whom shall enter the great fire; (In which) they will be neither live nor die. And success is only for those who purifies themselves. And magnifies the name of his Lord and prays. However, YOU PREFER THE LIFE OF THIS WORLD, while the hereafter is better and more lasting…"

Yes, I indeed had been preferring this temporary world of mine. Somehow I keep forgetting I should not forgot. O God, forgive me, for I've sinned. At that very moment I felt very devastated for what I've done. It feels like everyone is laughing at you for the mistake you've done, and you can't do nothing but held your head down and become saddened by it. And at that moment, something came to my mind. Why would I be devastated. The word of my creator should make me happy, not sad. Suddenly another story came to my mind. I reread it and it goes like this:

"When there comes the aid of God and victory. And you see men entering the religion of God in companies. THEN CELEBRATE THE PRAISE OF YOUR GOD, and ask for His forgiveness; surely He is oft-returning (to mercy)."

What a morning. Please don't let me astray for I'm no one, but one of need.

p/s: Yes, we all somehow forget something that shouldn't be forgotten.

Kerana Beliau Bapak Aku #3

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Fri, 01 Jul 2011 07:20:00 +0000

Entri ini adalah sambungan daripada entri lepas. Sila baca entri tersebut utk lebih pemahaman. Kalau tak baca habis, jangan semangat nk komen bukan-bukan. Terima kasih.

Dalam entri Kerana Beliau Bapak Aku #1 dan #2, aku dah cerita perangai bapak aku, baik buruk. Sekali lagi aku nk tegaskan kat sini, bukan tujuan aku nk burukkan bapak aku, bukan tujuan aku nk kutuk famili sendiri. My main intention is that I wanna say not every family is perfect, not every person is perfect, so don't judge half-assedly.

Korang mesti tertanya-tanya, kenapa aku sangat RESPEK dan SUSPEK kt bapak aku? Tak tertanya-tanya? Takpe, aku nak stori mori gak. Biarlah bapak aku mungkin bukan bapak yang paling baik budi pekerti di mata insan lain. Biarlah bapak aku dikutuk dicaci dihina oleh orang lain. Biarlah bapak aku bukan bapak yang boleh bagi aku kemewahan duniawi. Biarlah bapak aku bukan SULTAN BRUNEI. Bapak aku still manusia paling OHSEM dan sangat COOL pada aku. Bapak aku is the man.

Terlebih dulu, aku nk mintak maap kat bapak, kalau aku silap tulis, tapi aku sangat sayang bapak aku. (Mak, nnt ada masa ada la entri untuk mak pulak ok… jangan tacing). Berikut adalah sebab-sebab kenapa aku rasa bapak aku adalah bapak paling kentang sekali kat dalam dunia nh.

Walaupun wujud perempuan lain yg cuba menekel bapak aku, walaupun ada fitnah mengatakan bapak aku bawak kuar perempuan lain, walaupun bapak aku sangat sokong poligami, bapak aku adalah seorang suami yang setia. Bapak aku selalu tanya mak aku, "Maknye, maknye, kalau bapak nk kawin lagi satu boleh tak?", dan mak aku selalu jawab, "Suka hati la, asal aku cukup makan, cukup pakai..", tetapi, bapak aku tak pernah sesekali cuba menduakan mak aku. And with that you have my utmost respect. Over 9000.

Walaupun bapak aku kadang-kala lupa hal agama, bapak aku tak pernah lupa nk menasihatkan anak-anak beliau nilai-nilai kehidupan. Bapak aku tak pernah lupa nk menasihatkan baik buruk. Bapak aku tak pernah lupa untuk asuh kami adik-beradik menjadi insan berguna. "Kalau ayah ada buat silap, jangan ikut, kalau ayah ada buat salah, sila tegur". And with that, you have my utmost respect.

Bukan bapak aku selalu terleka, bukan bapak aku selalu terlena. Aku sangat bangga kerana bapak aku masih ingat hala tuju hidup beliau. Bapak aku kini sudah berhenti merokok. Bapak aku kini sudah berhenti dengan perkara lagho. Ape aku cerita dalam entri sebelum, hanyalah sebahagian dari story of what my father used to be, not what my father really is. And with that, you have my utmost respect.

Ada banyak lagi nilai-nilai hidup dan pengajaran yang aku belajar dari bapak aku, aku dah tak larat tulis. Senang cerita, my father will always earn my respect. Cuma satu yang aku kesalkan. Mak dan bapak aku dah cerai, aku tak nak masuk campur, sebab diorang lagi tua dan lagi kenal sesama sendiri. Siapa aku nak hakim? Siapa aku untuk bantah? Cuma aku harap, mak dan bapak aku boleh bersama macam dulu.

To all who thinks that their parents is not a good parent, please, at the very least have a little bit of respect. They are only human who tend to make mistake, what makes you better?

p/s: Sebenarnya tadi macam ada lagi nk tulis, tapi macam dah terlupa, so sampai sini je lah kot... nnt ada masa aku update lagi.. k..

Kerana Beliau Bapak Aku #2

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Fri, 01 Jul 2011 06:23:00 +0000

Ini adalah sambungan kepada entri pasal bapak aku.

Sesungguhnya adalah sangat celaka bagi seorang anak itu kalau dia buat blogpost yg menceritakan hal bapak beliau yg buruk saja, tiada baiknya. Oleh itu, aku selaku anak mithali dan "bukan celaka", kini nak menceritakan lebih lanjut mengenai bapak aku. Bak kata @qillerm seperti di bawah.

Ok, let the story commence.

Adalah adat seorang manusia bukan nabi, tidak maksum, tidak terlepas salah silap. Aku manusia yang percaya setiap buruk, ada baiknya, setiap kejadian, ada hikmahnya. Kerana dengan pengalaman, aku belajar apa itu baik, apa itu buruk. Dan begitu juga bapak aku, beliau sebenarnya insan yang sangat berwibawa dan aku sangat respek beliau.

Walaupun beliau pernah satu ketika dulu menjadi hamba nikotin, hamba rokok, aku berbangga sebab beliau berjaya berhenti. Ok, I'm a smoker too, but never once I blame my father for that matter. Korang jangan nak mulut langsi cakap, 'mana anak tak isap rokok, bapak pon sama'. Aku dah pernah tulis kat blog ni macam mana aku boleh start isap rokok, dan aku salahkan diri sendiri. Setiap kali bapak aku suruh aku belikan rokok, bapak aku tak lepas pesan, "kamu jangan ikut perangai ayah isap rokok, isap rokok tak elok untuk kesihatan".

Walaupun pernah satu ketika dulu bapak aku kuat main game dari solitaire, AOE, dan freecell, minesweeper dan apa haram game yg wujud kat dunia nh tak mengira waktu siang malam, bapak aku selalu menasihatkan aku supaya berdisiplin dan hargai masa. Bapak aku selalu nasihat, jangan ikut perangai yang tak elok, ikut yang elok saja. Bapak aku selalu pesan, tengok TV bebanyak adalah satu budaya tidak elok. Bapak aku juga selalu menggalakkan aku dan adik-beradik baca buku pelajaran dan bukan komik.

Walaupun pernah satu ketika dulu bapak aku kuat mengamuk tak pasal, tidur ikut suka, dan terkadang sembahyang tunggang langgang, bapak aku jugalah yang mengajar aku mengaji. Bapak aku jugalah yang cerita kat aku kisah-kisah nabi dan para sahabat. Bapak aku jugalah mengajar aku sembahyang. Bapak aku jugalah yg mengajar aku untuk hormat orang tua. Terima kasih bapak. Aku boleh bangga aku pandai mengaji, baca tulisan jawi dan banyak lagi.

Walaupun pernah satu ketika dulu bapak aku rempit sejati. Bapak aku turut mengajar basic membaiki motosikal. Mengajar basic pertukangan. Mengajar basic electric wiring. Tanpa bapak aku, haram aku nak tau macam mana nak tukar tayar pancit, macam mana nk pegang tukul, macam mana nak ganti lampu, macam mana nak bawak secara berhati-hati.

Dan setiap kali anak-anak beliau buat hal. Tangan bapaklah yang mengajar kami adik-beradik dengan cara sebat. "Ayah tak pukul kamu, ayah pukul perangai nakal kamu". Terima kasih bapak. Aku cukup ingat pesan bapak sampai sekarang.

Walaupun orang sekeliling pernah kadang kala mengutuk betapa buruknya perangai bapak aku, bapak aku lah mengajar aku basic agama, mengajar aku bertandang ke surau, mengajar aku berfikir secara rasional, mengajar aku supaya aku tak bodoh. Beliau turut mengajar aku dan adik beradik Matematik, Sains, dan Bahasa Melayu. Tak salah aku cakap kalau betapa pernah terlekanya bapak aku kerana godaan duniawi, beliau sentiasa mencuba untuk menjadi bapak yang bertanggungjawab. Kerana bapak, aku percaya manusia ini tidak sempurna, kadang terleka, kadang terlena, tetapi jangan BERHENTI MENCUBA.

p/s: Entri ini pon tak abis lagi. Nanti aku sambung cerita lagi. Please wait summore.. Kahkahkah...

Edit: Thanks @loveydoveydoo for the typo correction

Kerana Beliau Bapak Aku #1

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Fri, 01 Jul 2011 05:03:00 +0000

Tergeraknya aku menulis cerita ini adalah kerana telah aku terserempak satu blog entry yang bertopik 'Jasa Bapa Perlu Di Kenang'. (Gua malas nk bagi link, carik sendri, gua nk cerita pasal cerita gua, bukan pasal beliau)

Selamat Hari Bapak. Bapak mmg hensem.

Aku bukanlah dilahirkan dgn sudu perak di dalam mulut. Aku hanyalah seorang budak kampung luar bandar (ini kisah lama, harap paham, skrg kwsan rumah aku dah maju sikit). Dan dgn tangan kosong ini lah (gua xmakan guna sudu, remember, gua xde sudu perak.. k) gua menyuap makan setiap hari hasil kerja-keras penat lelah orang tuaku. Bapakku bukanlah director, bapakku hanyalah pencacai di kompeni kerajaan dgn gaji sebulan less than RM1500, dan mak pula hanyalah cleaner, ya cleaner, aku xmalu mengaku mak aku kerja cleaner semata-mata nk menyekolahkan aku. Tapi bukanlah aku nk menceritakan perihal mak aku, tapi perihal bapak aku.

*Early Disclaimer* : I am in no intention to bring shame to my family for the story that I am about to write, but I want this story inspire others so they can broaden their mind. Ambil yg jernih, buang yg keruh.

Mengenai bapak aku. Bapak aku once adalah seorang smoker berjaya. Rokok adalah peneman hidup beliau. Dan jujur aku cakap, aku butthurt bila Obe kata bapak yg suruh anak2 belikan rokok adalah bodoh, kerana anak2 itu adalah aku dan adik-beradik aku, dan bapak itu, adalah macam bapak aku. Dan jujur juga aku cakap, kalau bukan kerana bapak aku, tidaklah aku menjadi 'aku' sekarang. Terima kasih bapak.

Mengenai bapak aku. Bapak aku adalah gamer berjaya. Beliau yang mengajar aku meminati strategy games, chess, dam dan lain-lain. Pernah bapak aku sehari suntuk bermain komputer walaupun penat dileteri mak aku, bapak aku still main komputer. Dan jujur aku cakap, kerana minat bapak aku terhadap komputer menyebabkan aku turut sama mendapat minat yang sama, dan aku tidak buta IT. Aku darjah 5 dah boleh pasang siap komputer dari asas, aku masa still sekolah rendah dah tau macam mana nk install Windows. Terima kasih bapak.

Mengenai bapak aku. Bapak aku adalah penggemar bahasa. Beliau cukup anti dengan penyalahgunaan tatabahasa terutama di media massa. Ya, sehingga hari ini, media massa memaparkan politician tak tau berBahasa Malaysia dgn menggunakan perkataan 'mereka-mereka'. (Mereka is already plural, mereka-mereka is redundant) Terima kasih bapak.

Mengenai bapak aku. Bapak aku juga manusia biasa, tak terlepas salah dan silap. Dan jujur aku cakap, bapak aku pernah tido seharian tanpa menghiraukan penat lelah mak aku bekerja. Bapak aku pernah seketika dulu, sembahyang tunggang-langgang. Bapak aku pernah buat rumah macam kedai kopi, balik ke rumah cuma nk isi perut kendian keluar tah mana hala. Terima kasih bapak, anak mu ini akan cuba untuk tidak mengulangi kesilapanmu bila berkeluarga sendiri kelak.

Mengenai bapak aku. Bapak aku adalah rempit sejati. Yamaha 100 Sport, bapak aku tarik smpai 120km/h, amik kona, mcm dalam moto GP, siap keluar api seret tongkat kt atas tar. Dekat taman aku, bapak aku dipanggil 'Lebai Lap' (bapak ko hado?). Terima kasih bapak, sebab bapak, anak bapak reti macam mana nak handle kenderaan bertayar dua.

Mengenai bapak aku. Bapak aku adalah sedikit panas baran. Kami adik-beradik kerap di marah kerana tidur lewat, bangun lewat. Kena marah sebab kadangkala ponteng sekolah. Kena marah sebab baca komik (bagi bapak gua, komik membodohkan anak-anak beliau). Kena tuduh isap ganja walaupun kami adik-beradik cuma membakar kemenyan (Jangan tanya kenapa bakar kemenyan, hal aku tak cerita jangan sibuk). Tapi beliau tak pe. Beliau tidur lewat pukul 3-4 pagi takpe, kitorg tak leh bising. Beliau bangun lewat, ponteng kerja, takpe, kitorang tak leh bising.

Orang lain prot pret cakap bapak aku main judi nombor ekor. Orang lain prot pret cakap bapak aku ponteng puasa. Orang lain prot pret cakap bapak aku main terup blakang kedai kopi. Orang lain prot pret cakap bapak aku buat itu, buat ini. Tapi pada aku, bapak aku adalah bapak yang paling OHSEM sekali kt dunia. Bak kata Cobb Nobbler a.k.a Nami, "opinion is like 'asshole', everyone has one" (Ok, gua tak sure nh Nami or Jack ... ) Sebab apa aku cakap bapak aku OHSEM? Sila baca tajuk dan cuba paham… KERANA BELIAU BAPAK AKU!!!

p/s: Sbenarnya entri ni tak abis lagi, aku BELUM CERITA lagi positive side bapak aku, tapi sbb dah TL:DR, aku stop sini jap, nnt aku sambung cerita. Wait and see.

Of Cause (*not Of Course)

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Sat, 18 Jun 2011 11:55:00 +0000

Recently, numerous Malaysian government website has been attacked by group of hackers (according to Rais Yatim,198 government-related website was hacked). The reason of this attack was due to the ban of Piratebay and other file-sharing site as well as Wikileaks. Using the 'excuse' of internet should be a basic human right, the hackers group attack the government website on the 15th June. (Malas nk story panjang2.. kalau xtau, baca berita please...)

Q: Ape ko borak nh bro? xde kaitan dgn tajuk la...

A: Nak tau? bacala lagi...

Of Freedom of Speech

noreply@blogger.com (flazeroth4th) — Thu, 26 May 2011 19:17:00 +0000

"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness."
- United States Declaration of Independence, 1776.

Freedom of speech. Freedom of press. Freedom of expression. It is one of the major cause that people are trying hard to fight for. I, for once, fully support the freedom of expressionism. For me, it is up to the person themselves to speak whatever they see as right. Without bias, and without any partisanship. For me, it is good for one the speak of their mind to say out loud something that is 'not cool' so that the respective agent or the one with power can take action against. I believe in transparency.

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With the freedom of speech, to me, it will promote fairness by ensuring every person will know what REALLY happens, so that we can detect flaw in the system as a whole, as a community. There's no system that free from flaw in this world. Be it the LAW itself, it is full of flaw. Thus, by having freedom expression, someone who saw the flaw can speak out, and others can judge it, and make sure the hole being patch.

Besides, the freedom of expression is a very healthy way to promote discussion and generating knowledge. Imagine a world where you are blocked from streams of information. Aren't that pity? Poor North Korea, LOL.

"And so lies the mind of human, always conspiring, conniving is it's nature..."

Nothing in this world is free from flaw. Just like the freedom of speech. It is a very good things if it is used properly. However, like many other system in this world. There's always a hole somewhere. And the hole that make me despise freedom of speech is that people USED it to CHANNEL HATE and SPREAD NONSENSE.

It is no freedom of speech when you ignore the sensitivity of others.
It is no freedom of speech when you mocking someone's religion. (or even you're religion)
It is no freedom of speech when you clearly make a flaming remark to others.
It is no freedom of speech when you clearly CURSING someone.
And to all of that, PLEASE DON'T ABUSE THE FREEDOM OF SPEECH. You make the mockery to the cause of thousands of people who fight over their rights.

"It is a mistake to imagine that slavery pervades a man's whole being; the better part of him is exempt from it: the body indeed is subjected and in the power of a master, but the mind is independent, and indeed is so free and wild, that it cannot be restrained even by this prison of the body, wherein it is confined." -Seneca the Younger

p/s: If I had to choose between freedom of speech and my gun, I'd choose my gun. (and then I'd say whatever I want because I have a gun)