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Lucky I'm in Love with my Best friend

2012-06-27T20:34:00.003-07:00

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend.

What a fabulous song.

Lucky

by: Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat

No I am not a fairy, I am real.

2012-05-24T19:54:00.001-07:00

Today is the day I tell you who I really am and what I'm all about.

Yep... I'm gonna tell you everything.

The GOOD parts and the Real parts. I'm not calling it bad parts cause it really aint that bad. It's just life and it's real.

So here goes...Good parts first obviously haha

I'm a truly, naturally happy person. I love to love and I love people deeply. I'm fond of people and have spent many years trying to understand how different people react and work and that is why lots of people say that I'm good with people...LOl. I just understand them and always find a way to mold myself into how different people work and think. Perhaps that is why I am an actress. :)

I had an extremely hard time fitting in growing up and that is why I have no problem with myself now. I'm pretty content with who I am and that is why I very rarely get embarrassed by anything I do (however silly I may be). I believe I have been through some extremely horrifying events in my past and so it's kinda hard to feel any embarrassment after that haha.

I'm very much in love with my friends and family. I will do anything for them (see "real parts" for my 'But.."). Literally anything. The ones that know me best (all 3 of you haha) know that.

I work very hard to accomplish my goals. Everyday I get closer and closer to getting exactly what I want and that is probably why I'm also very happy all the time. I work very hard on what I think about and attract and bad stuff always finds a way of exiting my life...right on cue.

okokokok it ain't a fairy tale all the time but i'd say about 95% of the time it is because I don't dwell on the bad stuff long.

iight Real Parts. (I'm gangster also 95% of the time)

I'm no angel. I like to pretend I am but hey who doesn't?

I'm very passionate, I have very strong views and respect means a lot to me. I exaggerate 95% of what I say :D It is kinda my own inside joke/humor and I always laugh at myself for that. People who know me well know I'm just silly like that :D.

I can be extremely outgoing and also a complete loner.

When I get mad, I am a little too honest with people. Sometimes I really do go too far.

When people aren't grateful for things or disrespect me, I have a very hard time keeping my composure after a while and I get extremely upset.
It's definitely something I've been working on for a while cause really, you can't change anyone.

The problem I have is I care too much about people and so when I should cut them out of my life, because of how they treat me, I always find a way of letting them back in. Maybe because for me, instead of time healing my wounds, time just makes me forget why I was so hurt to begin with, and history always repeats itself. Eventually I remember and get upset again because people don't change.

But the problem isn't them. It's me. So their selfish or mean hearted or disrespectful or have treated me badly, that's just how THEY are. I can't change that. It's only hurting my heart more by bringing these people into my life and trying to help them and hope that one day they would see how they act.

The only person I can help is myself. You know how many times I have said that and not truly understood it till now.
I shouldn't be angry at them. I should feel sad for them. It must be so lonely to be out in the world and not understand why people don't understand you.
For that one trait, I am blessed.

I know who I am. I know that all I want to do is bring love to people. But maybe my focus shouldn't be on just people. Maybe my focus should be on people who want to accept my love and give it in return.

Alright so new goal.
I enjoy and attract only people who will accept my love and only show me love in return.

If your wondering why I speak in the present tense please view "The Secret". I live and breathe it every single day. (passionate)

ANYWAYS, I'm feeling really good about this new goal. You don't have to have drama in your life, you choose to have it in your life.

The wise words of someone that I have never met and have no idea of what his name is. :D

xoxo

You'll be in my heart

2012-04-13T18:11:00.000-07:00

I've been very fortunate in the last while to be surrounded by such loving people. I went through a tough time in September and if it wasn't for the people I love, it would of been much harder to get through.

Recently, I've been dealing with some matters close to the heart. I have a friend that I truly love and care about, who wishes we were something more.
I tell ya, when you really care about someone, this is probably the hardest thing to go through.

I know most people would say that it is probably harder for him, but I do truly love and care for this guy and even though I could never see us together, it's been so hard to think that one day he may no longer be in my life.
Is that selfish? To want to be friends with someone you truly care about whom may want something more?
It seems that were always cool until other people get involved and spread their opinions. You can't possibly make a valid judgement unless you are actually apart of this relationship. It doesn't matter what people think or say, they don't understand how much we have been there for each other, and how we communicate, and even though we don't always see eye to eye, we eventually understand each other because we care about each other.

Things happened last night that I'm not sure if we'll ever be ok again. But for the record, your my best friend and no matter what, I will always be here for you and care about you like I have from day one. You have a heart of gold, and so much love to give, now please go spread it, cause the world needs more guys like you.

xox

True Colours

2012-02-25T22:26:00.001-08:00

So I've been soo incredibly busy for the last while. Sometimes you get caught up in life that you forget to stop for a moment and just breathe, take it all in and most importantly, to feel grateful.

I'm one of those people that truly believes in that everything happens for a reason. What we focus on, we attract to our life and if people and things aren't in line with your goals and focus, then they start to leave your life.

I have these 10 "Focused thoughts" (I call them) that I well... focus on haha. My vision board hanging in my room, represents these thoughts and goals that I want.

I started this experiment in the beginning of August last year. It was amazing how fast things started to evolve in my life. How fast, people who weren't in line with what I wanted in life, left my life. By the end of December, I had accomplished half of those goals.
My vision board (I had made in January last year), I had almost accomplished all but one goal on my board by December. So of course, I am a big believer in what you focus on you get.

Anyways, so one of my focused thoughts was that, "I have found someone who loves and appreciates me. I'm surrounded by love".
It was like having someone pick weeds out of a garden. Suddenly anyone who didn't have the right intentions in my life or my best interests at heart, drifted from me. Those who didn't care about me or cared to understand me, became noticeable. Anyone who was a threat to me accomplishing my inner wants and goals, just left.
But then without the weeds left, it was spring time in my mind, as flowers began to bloom (haha). People who always loved me, were there for me. New people who wanted to love, listened and found a way. Only the most caring of souls became all that I was surrounded by and those who weren't in line with the happiness I was feeling,... did not like me thats for sure lol.

My point is, I've come a long way in the last couple of years and anyone thats travelled this crazy journey with me, knows that at the end of the day, the most important thing to me is my friends and family. I'm so grateful for having the opportunity to be surrounded by so many loving, true people. Most people hardly know one person like this in their lifetime. I, only attract these people now.
I feel blessed and loved everyday. Something that I always had a hard time feeling. Mostly because I wasn't surrounding myself with people that wanted me to feel this way.

If your having a tough time right now, try to do whatever you can to focus and attract only the things that will bring you love. Once you do, you'll feel a lightness and power to continue going after all of your dreams.

Here's a song I've been singing a lot lately. My favourite version is by Cyndi Lauper but Phil Collins did a good remake too :P

I know I'm a big dramatic cheese ball. But hey, I'm me. Love you Friends.
xox

Worrying, laughter and lots of food!

2011-12-29T22:09:00.000-08:00

You know what I hate?

I hate that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when your worried about something. That must be the worst feeling on earth...besides actual pain...haha obviously. hahaaha

But seriously. I hate worrying. I do it too much. There really is no point to worrying either. I should really talk myself out of it. Ok I'm gonna try now...
Melissa why are you worrying?
Will the reason you are worrying mean anything to you in a year? a couple months? a couple of days? Hours even?
I bet when you wake up tomorrow Melissa you will find out that there is no reason to worry at all. You know that always happens.
Well not always because if it always happened then you would probably never worry but as the case is...you do because it doesn't always happen...hahaha...anyone that knows me knows that I'm having a fit of laughter at myself right now hahahaha

ahhh life is funny isn't it?

I'm actually starting to feel better haha.
My good friend...for the sake of keeping things private lets call him Eragon (yep like the dragon)...so my good friend Eragon just texted me this quote about worrying: "Worrying is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do, but doesn't get you anywhere" ...Well put lassie.

It's very true though. You know how much time I've wasted in my life worrying!?!?! At least worrying tonight has led me to this lovely blog post ...but most of the time I just sit on my bed and watch a movie and eat my feelings and feel crappy because I'm worrying haha.

hahahaha wow I'm having yet another fit of laughter. I just recently discovered that everything I do involves food. When I was in high school I use to wish I would be the fattest person alive ( not really I just told people that cause I have attention problems 0f course)...but I'm starting to think that might happen haha.

My friend and I have this game where we text each other what we see at this very moment...basically it goes like this.

Me: "What do you see right now...go!"
Friend: "Snow" and then she sends me a pic. "What do you see right this second"
Me: "my bed". and then I send her a pic.

It's quite humorous. Not to mention you really get a feel of what its like to be the other person...step into their shoes if you will.
hahaha anyways why did I tell you that? OH RIGHT hahaha so Anyways most of my pics I send to my friend are of food. Whenever she asks me what I'm doing, I'm always eating... CAN'T HELP IT.

Maybe I should start blogging about food. I eat so much I might as well.

Wow I've totally stopped worrying now. hahaha it's fun being me.
Alright I'm gonna go to bed now. But before I go...heres what I see right this second...

Terrys Choco Orange.
Yum in my tum.
xoxox

My Christmas gifts!!!

2011-12-27T20:05:00.000-08:00

Along with my beautiful new pink camera, here is some of the other lovely things I got hehehe

A lovely TEA POT. Omg can't wait to have some spring tea parties haha

This beautiful Swarovski Crystal Ring!!

My beautiful Kardashians.

This AMAZING Curling iron. It actually works wonders!!!

Lastly this amazing Eiffel Tower for my room. I love Paris.

Trifle!!! YUMMMYY in my TUMMY

2011-12-27T19:48:00.000-08:00

My FAV christmas treat is trifle! OMG If you have never tried it before...go make it now.
My mom makes it every year and I'm eating it right now. It's basically three layers, Jello, Custard and Whip cream. Basically heaven in your mouth.
This is pretty much what it looks like...YUM

Oh my love

2011-12-27T18:34:00.001-08:00

For someone who is impersonating Chris Brown...This guy is real good. Ps. I LOVE this song.

Memory Lane...

2011-12-27T18:05:00.000-08:00

OMG been working so much! I'm exhausted. Can't wait for a few days off.

I'm actually feeling so sick today :( But this kind of cheered me up!...Took a stroll down memory lane and this is what I found...

Look how much has changed over the years LOL

WOW

2011-12-08T08:36:00.001-08:00

OMG. I'm dying. Wish I had this girls collection

This is Incredible

2011-12-07T20:31:00.000-08:00

Everyone please watch this video. Absolutely incredible.

http://player.vimeo.com/video/28066212?autoplay=1

I make myself laugh

2011-12-06T10:46:00.000-08:00

GOOD MOrning everyone!!
haha k good afternoon actually but I just woke up an hour ago so it still feels like morning!
Haven't blogged in soooo long! Been so caught up with school! :( Almost finished with school though! Can't for the life of me WAIT. It's been the hardest semester EVER.

This christmas break I'm literally gonna shut myself off from the world and just focus on my career and myself. I have a pile of books as tall as my bed just waiting to be read and I cant WAIT to dig into them!!!! I love that about christmas! Going outside and freezing my little tosh off and then coming inside to my oversized sweaters and sweatpants, hot chocolate and my comfy couch to curl up with a good book.

So recently I've really started to become more interested in so many different categories of books...I mean besides the usual business section and teen section LOL I'm really still a teen at heart :D
So heres what I'm gonna try over the break!!
1) The Help - heard it was a fab movie so I gotta try it no?
2) The Hunger Games - Has anyone seen the trailer for this up and coming movie? GAH SO EXCITED!
3) The Lying Game - hahaha I started it when I started watching the show in early September but due to an unfortunate semester I never finished it haha
4) The Game of Thrones - There hasn't been a subway cart I have been on that SOMEONE wasn't reading that book haha
5) Kevin O'learys new book - haha forget the title and too lazy too look it up (yawn) but you guys know him - he's a Dragon from Dragons Den!- FAB
6) The Message - a year and a bit ago I bought myself this beautiful pink Bible that I read from every so often and I really wanna finish it. At first it was only so I can say that I've read the bible LOL but now I'm actually really enjoying it and learning from it.
7) The Power - Has anyone else seen the new addition to The SECRET. - I live by it folks and I get through every challenge because of it.

I was gonna write a list of Ten but when I got to 4 I realized - who am I kidding? I read as slow as a 5 year old hahaha sooo I'll probs only finish like 2 of those books.. but it's a nice thought.

Anyways, haha, really gotta be productive today!! Need to start crakin on my Women, Power and Politics course! Stay tuned for some lovely twitter arguments on issues from the course hahaha

xoxo

SPOTTED

2011-11-27T04:40:00.001-08:00

Hey ladiess

For any of you that are obsessed with LC's hair tutorials, I've found another girl who has even more and is AMAZING!

Check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2XDAkw141Q

This one is my fav: http://www.youtube.com/user/lilithedarkmoon#p/u/21/TEpBXz9WHoo

xoxo

More LC...

2011-11-16T09:48:00.002-08:00

Heres where you can buy pieces from LC's new line!!!

http://www.kohls.com/kohlsStore/landingpages/lclaurenconrad.jsp

xo

Hahaha Forgetting Sarah Marshall or...

2011-11-15T08:34:00.001-08:00

Do we look alike?

2011-11-12T19:39:00.000-08:00

OK so a lot of the time when I first meet people, they always seem to say I look like one of these three celebs. First, lately soooo many people tell me I look like Olivia wilde. Don't see it lol
When I was blonde I got Lauren conrad haha. Funny story, back in the day some girl actually screamed and really thought I was her haha. I deff don't think we use to look alike though.
The other person I always get is Shannon Doherty. Don't see the resemblance there either lol.
What do you think?

Shannon and ME

Me and Olivia

Lauren and Me

My fav new trend!

2011-11-12T16:35:00.000-08:00

Soo recently I have noticed a lot of girls on the street wearing tights with interesting patterns.
While looking through celeb pics I came across this one in particular of one of my fav style icons, Kourtney Kardashian!!!! (below)
Notice how they can make such a plain outfit really spectacular!?! GAH I LOVE HER.
Note to self: Must.Go.Shopping.Now.
-xoxo

My Idol!!!

2011-11-11T20:31:00.000-08:00

GAh I love LC. She is one of my fav celebs as she is always so well put together. Here is another one of her FABULOUS Hair vids!

HAHAHA I love Jenna Marbles

2011-11-10T14:08:00.001-08:00

Wasted

2011-11-09T18:25:00.001-08:00

I love this picture quote!

2011-11-08T19:05:00.001-08:00

MICHAEL JACKSONS Doctor found guilty!!!

2011-11-07T13:22:00.000-08:00

HE's GUILTY! Dr Conrad Murray is found guilty of involuntary Manslaughter!! He faces up to 4 years of prison. Justice.

Lauren Conrads Waves! A Hair tutorial!!

2011-11-06T19:54:00.000-08:00

Breathe

2011-11-06T19:25:00.001-08:00

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

Another new fav!!!

2011-10-27T15:39:00.000-07:00