Charity

Suffering.

2012-02-12T09:36:00.000-08:00

"Suffering is seasonal.... This too shall pass. There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens. Be still and KNOW that I AM GOD. I will RESTORE you and MAKE YOU STRONG"

■-I just wrote this, this morning. I know the Holy Spirit gave it to me today.. For myself, and to share with whoever else might need it. I put it together as the Lord had given it...

■Today, if your ready to give up, DONT. There is HOPE. Keep on keepin on and Stay Strong.... Keep your EYES on the LORD. Do NOT lose FOCUS of him. Keep his words in your heart (Deuteronomy 11:18), and stay in prayer always, The Lord WILL deliver you!

■If you are suffering today and you have been suffering, PRAISE JESUS! There has never been a suffering that has had to be endured that didnt have major blessing's waiting around the corner. EVERY person IN the BIBLE who SUFFERED came out VICTORIOUS and GLORIOUS, Even JESUS hisself suffered.. (and remember JOB)

■Please dont give up, as much as i'd like to, im not going to.. Matthew 19:26 “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Remember that. God can DO anything. He can fix any situation, and turn any situation around at any time. So dont give up, lean on him. PROVERBS 3:6 "In all of your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your path's straight."

■You have not been forgotten, the Lord has heard your cry.

■Romans 5:2-5 Boast in the hope of the glory of God! Not only so, but REJOICE in your sufferings! Because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us!

■Romans 8:18 Our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us!

■*Peace Be Still, I KNOW that am YOUR God..... For without Me, you can do nothing.”

Scriptures Used:
■A time for everything - Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
■Peace Be Still - Mark 4:39
■Be Still and know I am Your God - Psalms 46:10
■I will restore you - 1 Peter 5:10
■Stand Firm - 2 Chronicles 20:17
■Keep his words in your heart - Deuteronomy 11:18
■Without Me, You can do nothing - John 15:5

Valentines Day: Love Yourself

2012-02-09T09:44:00.001-08:00

Valentines Day is coming soon.. It's only 5 days away.. It's inevitable that there will be many disappointments, But if you love yourself.. You can never go wrong :) Happy Valentines Day To All!

I hope you all know this was for my own personel pleasure, and humor :P I wasnt being serious..... lol

Free Beauty Cluth -From E.L.F (with orders of 25$ or more)

2012-02-08T18:26:00.000-08:00

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Love.

2012-02-02T22:50:00.001-08:00

Place me like a seal over your heart,
Like a seal on your arm;
For love is as strong as death,
Its jealousy unyielding as the grave.
It burns like blazing fire,
Like a mighty flame.
Many waters cannot quench love;
Rivers cannot sweep it away.
Song Of Solomon 8:6-7

Back At One.

2012-01-11T23:58:00.000-08:00

It's UNDENIABLE that WE should be together,
It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never,
The basis is need to know, if you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real...
If all things in time, time will reveal..

One... You're like a dream come true...
Two... Just wanna be with you...
Three... Boy it's plain to see, That YOUR the only one for ME...
Four... Repeat steps one through three...
Five... Make you fall in love with me...
If ever I believe my work is done, then I start Back at One

So Incredible, the way things work themselves out...
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about babe...
And undesirable, for us to be apart..
Never would of made it very far...
Cause YOU know that you've got the keys to MY heart <3

One... You're like a dream come true...
Two... Just wanna be with you...
Three... Boy it's plain to see, That YOUR the only one for ME...
Four... Repeat steps one through three...
Five... Make you fall in love with me...
If ever I believe my work is done, then I start Back at One

Say farewell to the dark of night, I see the coming of the sun...
I feel like a little child... Whose life has just begun...
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine...
You threw out the life line... Just in the Nick of Time.....

One... You're like a dream come true...
Two... Just wanna be with you...
Three... Boy it's plain to see, That YOUR the only one for ME...
Four... Repeat steps one through three...
Five... Make you fall in love with me...
If ever I believe my work is done, then I start Back at One

The Rhythm Of Gospel Awards - Brotha Joseph

2012-01-10T18:16:00.000-08:00

Hey There! :) Could you do me a favor? Yea? No? If not it's cool ;) But if your interested (or maybe you know of him yourself!) vote for my friend "Brotha Joseph" in the *RHYTHM OF GOSPEL AWARDS* (im going to post some of his links down below so you can see more of what he's all about!)

Now in order to vote im pretty sure you have to vote for all of the categories listed, okay, im not pretty sure, im 100 % sure because i just had to! :) lol But obviously i didnt know any of the people listed, Aside from Brotha Joseph, So if you know of the other artist's/name's mentioned, go ahead and vote for them or whoever you chose! But on the one's listed (down below) Vote for Brotha Joseph ;)

Here is some ways to listen to his music, find out more about him! Check him out, he's pretty awesome.. I actually first found him, while driving down the road one day, a car passed, i seen some signs on the vehicle, i wrote down the info, looked it up, and i started following him on Twitter and checking out his music & website & stuff :) So check it out! And if you can, please vote!

Rhythm Of Gospel Awards: HERE

Then click "VOTE HERE"
Then(scroll down and click the white button that say's above it "Vote Here"

Or just go here for voting: VOTING

He has an awesome ministry and message.
He has been nominated for 4 different awards!

#5 Holy Hip Hop CD Of The Year
Brotha Joseph -"In God we trust"

#15 Holy Hip Hop Song Of The Year
Brotha Joseph -"Change your mind"

#29 Holy Hip Hop Artist Of The Year
Brotha Joseph -Spring, Texas

#38 Rhythm Of Gospel Music Video Of The Year
Brotha Joseph -"Forgive Me"

^ That to Me, is a BLESSING. An Accomplishment. Congratulations to him! For all of his hard work, and for spreading the word of God.

Twitter: http://twitter.com/brothajoseph

Main Website: http://brothajoseph.com/

Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/brothajoseph

God Bless You!

p.s. i seriously need to learn how to spell "rhythm" lol- that was hard to type alot, i kept wanting to write rythm ;) i didnt know there was an H in it..... bahaha.

One of these days, Your gonna love me.

2012-01-03T19:00:00.001-08:00

We used to chase that boy home from school
We called him freckle faced red headed fool
He was different, he wasn't cool like me
Sticks and stones didn't break any bones
But we never left well enough alone

One day he ran away from home you see
And I passed him as he walked away
And in his eyes I heard him say

"One of these days you're gonna love me
You'll sit down by yourself and think
Of all the times you pushed and shoved me
And what good friends we might have been
And then you're gonna sigh a little
And maybe even cry a little
But one of these days you're gonna love me"

Patty Sue was a small town beauty
I took one look at her and had to pull her to me
Lord knows she should have seen right through me
When I promised her the world
But at 17 you only want one thing
I left her standing with my high school ring
Innocent tears in the pourin' rain
As I walked away

And I still see her in my dreams
And to this day she's whispering

"One of these days you're gonna love me
You'll sit down by yourself and think
About the time you turned from me
And what good friends we might have been
And then you're gonna sigh a little
And maybe even cry a little
But one of these days, you're gonna love me"

Now everybody stands up
The congregation sings
It's a song of sweet forgiveness
And as the chorus rings
The wind blows clear my memory
The pages start to turn
And suddenly I'm singing
The moment that I learn

"One of these days I'm gonna love me
And feel the joy of sweet release
One of these days I'll rise above me
And at last I'll find some peace
And then I'm gonna smile a little
And maybe even laugh a little
But one of these days...
I'm gonna love me.."

Scariest Dream i've had in a long time!

2012-01-03T08:49:00.000-08:00

Last night i had the most terrible dream... And now that im officially awake at 10:20-ish, it doesnt seem as terrible as it did at 2 AM. And to YOU it might not seem terrible.. But let me tell you, Last night i woke up at 2 AM, SCARED to death, i grabbed my cellphone, cut it on to light up my room, to make sure nothing was in there, and then i ran and cut the light on. I then, got back in bed, curled up against the wall (so i could see all of my surroundings) and called my MOM!!!

Seriously, im not kidding lol. I called my Mom, i was so scared, she didnt answer, but if she had i was going to ask her to come get in bed with Me... I layed in bed, with the light ON, my eyes WIDE open, untill 5 am. Just laid there... Terrified.. I prayed the entire time, then finally at 5 something, i cut the light off, and some how fell asleep.

^ Now that is just my experience of waking up from the dream. If your ready to hear the dream... Read on. I might leave alot of things out, because it does involve some OTHER people in my life, wich i dont want to mention, so you wont hear it all, but im going to share what i can, and what i can remember.. There was alot.

First it started out, i was at a cemetery, with a group of people, and walking through the cemetery, i could see each dead person above their grave. But they just stayed on top of their plots, walking back and forth and talking amongst themselves, they also had around them what seemed like a bubble.

Next Me, and a group of people went to a game room type place, and there the ghost's were again, all in their bubbles, talking amongst themselves, and ONLY i could see/hear them.

I pointed them out to other people and said, You cant see them? ..I can. I said watch, then i greeted some of them.. Some would respond, some would wave/smile, some wouldnt. Some were rude, some were friendly..

We walked outside of this place, and on this little walkway, where some woods were, and i could see the two spirits of the two people i was with, running away from them, and i said, look, there yall go!

Then a group of people and I went back to this house, and in this house was a GIANT HUMONGOUS sized TURTLE. A big dream turtle. It was as big as my living room, it was as big as the living room it was in. And it belong to my cousin Ryan... (which is funny because he really does have a turtle, named tooter, lol but this definetly wasnt tooter) ... Out of all of the people in there, This TURTLE just happened to look at ME, and get very angry. And it seemed like it was just because i was there.

This turtle, started growling, and moving its legs, trying to get to me as quickly as it could, as if it wanted to devour Me... So i begged for Help, for someone to save me, and i ran into this room, and the room was empty, and had a door, but on top of the room was an opening.

I looked up, and some how the turtle had turned into this huge bug (or something, i cant explain) and it was standing at the top of the opening, ready to attack Me....................... And that's all i can remember from that.

Then, i was at a party with a bunch of people, i can only remember my Sister Inlaw Hanna being there.... I was told, that a surprise guest was coming to see me.. I was a little scared, but really excited.. Because i thought it was my Ex- Fiance........

So i sat around waiting, as everyone laughed around Me.. I sat in a rocking chair.. Put my white jacket over my head because im not too much for surprises, they make me very nervous.... So i put the jacket over my face, so nobody could see my expression for this "Surprise Guest" and i could hear everyone laughing (including my sisterinlaw)

My SURPRISE guest got on top of Me, and for some reason i grabbed them, and tickled them, and i could hear it was a girl, and she laughed.. Either ME or SHE pulled the jacket off of my head, and this person on top of me, had no face, or a head, only hair, and it was my hair, i could see it was my hair, my curly hair (exactly the way it looked yesterday) and she started choking me with her hands, i didnt realize what she was doing at first, and then i realized her hands were wrapped around my throat, and she was trying to kill me, i could tell she wanted me dead, and she started chanting something about "CHAINS"- I grabbed her hands, ripped them off of my throat, but she somehow over powered me and began to choke me again, so i kicked her off of my body with my feet, while grabbing her hands once again, and i started rebuking her in the name of Jesus, and saying something repeatedly about chains.

And that's when i woke up.

It was so real, which is why i cut the light on, and wouldnt go back to sleep. I couldnt stop thinking about how real it had just felt. It was terrible... I have no clue what any of this means, but im still terrified, right now as im typing.

Im thinking my surprise guest was MYSELF.

Does anyone have anything to say about this dream? Any kind of interpretation?

Fish hook, In my foot (dream)

2012-01-02T09:49:00.000-08:00

Once again, i am having some crazy dreams.
And fortunetly, im able to remember them when i wake up.

A few nights ago, i had a dream that my two Grandfather's took Me fishing.

(Mind you, Both of my Grandfather's are alive, and they are both right now living in the same nursing home.)

Recently my Aunt Shirley moved her Brother Dick (My Uncle) in the same place, he died not long after..

In the dream, all three of us was out on a dock, some how Uncle Dick was mentioned, But when his name was brought up, someone told me to be quiet, and not talk about it because Papa didnt know he was dead.

Anyway's, let me rewind a little, before we went out to go fishing, we stopped at a gas station, and i was in side of a building with windows, i was standing looking out (it was raining a little because there was raindrops on the window) and i just happened to see Wayne Newton, pumping gas into his car.. lol

I looked out the window, he looked at me, and my hands did a sign language of I LOVE YOU. I touched my eye. My fingers drew a heart in the air, and then i pointed at him.

Alright, back to fishing.

My Grandfather's were going to teach me how to fish, in the dream.

We had three poles, and were all out casting our lines.

I casted mine several times, and each time, i would get a few tugs, but nothing was ever there..

It was windy out, the skies were dark...
And finally, i threw it out the last time..

It went out, and the wind blew it back, AT ME.
It hooked into the bottom of my foot.

I could feel it too... That stupid fish hook, deep in my foot,
Within seconds the fish hook, turned into a key shape,

like this:

And my Papa, told me how to get it out, You have turn it this way,
and pull........

I turned it, and pulled..

It felt like it took a whole 5 minutes to pull it out of my foot.
It was a terrible feeling.

What on earth does this dream mean?
Does anyone have any idea?

Talking about Me?

2011-12-29T18:46:00.000-08:00

Sitting around talking ABOUT Me, Isnt going to make anything any better for You, Or For Me....

Really, it isnt going to help, fix or make much of a difference... In either of our lives..

BUT... Praying for Me...
Will Help YOU, and ME.

God will honor your prayer, if your praying with a good and pure heart, and praying for God's will..

You cant just sit around hating people and/or talking about them, especially talking negative/bad about them....... It's just so wrong.

(ESPECIALLY if you dont know them... just because you know "OF" me, or have heard "ABOUT" me, doesnt mean you know me.. maybe you should try to get to know me before you go judging me.......)

Instead of sitting around gossiping, Pray for Me...

Instead of sitting around gossiping about anyone, Pray for them...

When someone around you wants to gossip/talk bad about people, stop them, and say let's just pray for them instead, because what your hearing probably isnt even true...

Dont waste your breath on things like this... Dont waste your time.. Dont give in to the devil, and do evil things like this, he loves it, and you doing it, along with everyone else, is only giving him more power in your life.

What are you going to benefit from doing this? You or any one else? I just dont get it...... Find something better to do...

Hmm

2011-12-26T11:06:00.000-08:00

You cant please everyone. No matter how hard you try. You cannot possibly make everyone happy and/or satisfied. Your darned if you do, and your darned if you dont. It doesnt matter how innocent you are, people will always find things to say about you.

Philippians 4:13

2011-12-21T23:56:00.000-08:00

2 Corinthians 12:9

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

I've made alot of mistakes in my lifetime, im 25 years old, and i learn something new every day, and every day, i get a little wiser, and a little stronger... As this years ends, im thinking alot about everything... And i've learned SO many things in the past few months..

Things i never even knew... Things i THOUGHT i knew something about, but it took a tragedy in my life, to learn all of the things that i truly know now.. And the things i am going to share with you, is only a few things. I promise you i have learned SO much more.. But it would take me a lifetime to share, and it's getting late ;) So ill make it short.

One thing i have learned about this year, is my strength... But I KNOW without a doubt, without GOD i would have none.. I truly am nothing without the Lord. I couldnt face a minute of any day without God.

I am WEAK but HE makes ME STRONG.

I know for a fact, If it wasnt for my faith in God, and my love for the Lord, and knowing how to call out to him during these times, i would have never made it through a single day.. But because i have Faith in GOD and i know the POWER of GOD, i called out to him, and he heard my cry, as he always has, and he has been there for Me... He has been with me every second of every single day.. From the moment i was born, untill today, he has been by my side... Always.

Isaiah 40:28-31 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, The Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary,and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

And another thing i have learned this year, is that God will never put you through something that is too hard for you to handle.. And i think the reason of that is so that YOU WILL depend on him, and KNOW that you cannot do it without HIM..

So if your going through something, and you dont even know your own strength, maybe you dont even know if you can make it through the day, just remember, GOD would NEVER put you through something to HARM you, and he will never leave you during those times. IF YOU NEED HIM all you have to do is CRY OUT TO HIM. HE WILL SAVE YOU, he will rescue you, and keep you all the days of your life... With GOD all things are possible... And when YOU are WEAK, he will be your strength.

1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

And i think thats why i love the saying "THERE IS A LIGHT AT THE END OF EVERY TUNNEL" Because no matter what your going through, know; there is always a way out, there is always a way through, and you are never alone, GOD will be there, to help you, guide you, strengthen you, but even better, he will be there holding your hand. You are never alone. The Bible say's God will never leave you nor forsake you, and it's true... The Bible also say's God isnt a man that he should lie, His promises are real, and will stand true, untill the end of time.

I would LOVE to know........... What you have learned this year (2011) What has been your greatest discovery, your greatest revelation, what have you learned this year, that will define you today, tomorrow, and in the year 2012, Feel free to let me know. I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR YOUR STORIES!

Psalm 27:1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

Matthew 17:20 He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”

Mark 10:52 And Jesus said to him, “Go your way; your faith has made you well.” And immediately he recovered his sight and followed him on the way.

Every day is a new day (to start over)

2011-12-21T23:27:00.000-08:00

Well it looks like the year 2011 is almost over.
And 2012 will be here soon enough, and it will be a new year,
a year to start over, and start again..
Start fresh.

But you should always know, no matter what, that every day is also a chance to start new, and start over.

Do you know that the Bible say's:
God's Mercies are new EVERY MORNING.

So no matter how many times you fail, or fall, or slip, EVERY MORNING, his love and his mercy is NEW.... EVERY MORNING!

So tonight, before you lay your head down, get on your knees, and Thank God for what he has done for you, even if it seems like lately he hasnt been present, I assure you, HE IS... Thank him, Give him Glory/Praise.. And ask him for his help tonight and tomorrow and the day's ahead.. And know that tomorrow morning, is a time to start over, and start new again...

Dont just wait for the NEW year :) Start tomorrow...
When you open your eyes, and the sun is rising, it's a new day.
Forgive, and forget, and let go of the past, yesterday is gone...

We cannot help/fix what happened yesterday, or last month, or ten years ago, it's gone, forever, you cant go back, but you can always, every day, begin again..

If your reading this tonight, I pray the Lord Blesses you, And i know he will :) Tonight, Tomorrow, During the days ahead, During Christmas time (: And all through-out the NEW YEAR! :)

Things will get better.

2011-12-16T09:44:00.000-08:00

Ever since Mark called off our Wedding, And i've spoken about it openly, online, You cant imagine the messages/emails people send Me.. People who have been through similar situations, and some even worse. And some people are just writing me out of no where, talking about depression/cutting/bullying and other life issues..

And even though it's a little overwhelming because i dont know all of the right words to say.. Im glad that people are finding trust in me to tell me their stories, and to trust in me, to give them good advice back.

At first i didnt really wanna talk to anyone about anything (especially online) But, turns out, it wasnt such a bad idea... Because people are reaching out to me, not only to help me, but for my help. And that is never a bad thing.

I got an email today from a girl, who made my situation look like nothing. What she's been through lately, Im not even sure i could handle very well, and im pretty sure i could handle alot =/

But anyway's... As i was responding to her letter, my own words, blessed me. And i thought i'd share some of my responce... For those of you who are going through something today, and you dont know what to do, where to turn, how to start, just stop what your doing now, and say the name of Jesus.. You know the Bible say's, your not required to pray with many words, just saying "THE LORDS PRAYER" is good enough. Because God already knows what your needing, and what your about to ask for, and he knows what you need, and what he is going to give you..

In the beginning of my situation, i constantly prayed for what i wanted, GOD I WANT THIS, I WANT THIS, I WANT THIS, AND ID PRAY PRETTY SPECIFICALLY.. FOR WHAT I WANTED.. But when i realized nothing was changing, I realized it isnt what i want.. Or what i "THINK" i want.. It's up to GOD.. And it's up to US to let GOD know, that we want HIS will in our lives, and that we will ask for it, and accept it, and trust in him.

So i learned to pray The Lords Prayer.

Just say "Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, THY WILL BE DONE, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespassers, and we forgive those who trustpass against us, and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil"

(READ MATTHEW 6, the whole chapter, it's really good)

It's that simple... Pray it, and mean it, and trust God, and watch what he will do for you!

Here is some of my reply, i cut out the personel parts that replied to her situation.

Things will get better... With time things do get better.. And eventually, everything will end up okay.. At first i didnt think i was going to survive a second of any of it... I felt trapped in my own mind, and i couldnt escape everything. I was so close to killing myself.. But i knew my better. I kept my eyes on JESUS... Every day, no matter how bad i felt, I Praised God. Even if i didnt feel like it, Even if i didnt feel like i wanted to Praise God.. I DID IT ANYWAY. I would go in my room/bathroom and put on Christian music, i would get on my knees, raise my hands, and Praise God, i would thank him for everything, no matter what it was, even for my heartache i thanked him................. I read my bible every day, i downloaded a ton of bible verse apps on my phone so that constantly i could read his word, and i kept the TV mainly on Christian stations...........

All of that ^ Is the GREATEST decisions i have ever made in my entire life.

God honors your prayers, your thanks, your praise, every little thing you do that gives him any kind of attention/love, he blesses you in return.. Trust me.

It was the worst thing ive ever been through in my life, and by the sounds of it, all of your situations were too........... Dont give up, hold on, stay strong, even when you feel weak, your not, keep your head up, things will get better eventually. They might not be the way they were, but some day, some where, some how, you will find peace, and joy.

I thought it might help someone out there today going through something... Thanks for Reading.. And dont ever, ever, ever give up.

-Charity

Top Suggested Christmas Gifts For The Ladies (mom, bestie, girlfriend)

2011-12-07T20:01:00.001-08:00

My Top Suggested Christmas Gifts for Girls who love *ALL THINGS BEAUTY*

1. The Split Ender

Everyone has split ends, and everyone gets their ends cut off, but not everyone wants to keep cutting their hair off! Especially those chicks who want to grow their hair longer ;) And i know alot of you do! The Split Ender is a perfect gift, for young or old!

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Split Ender

2. Any Jewelmint Piece! Im addicted to Jewelmint. I cant get enough of this Jewerly Line! I have several pieces, and i've bought my Sister a few pieces as well, and she LOVES them! Sign up

3. The New Smaller Barrel INSTYLER. It is so fabulous! It comes in Silver, or they have two NEW colors! Pink, or Purple! It makes the prettiest curls, and does so much more! It's an all in one kind of iron!

Instyler

4. Gift Cards! Gift Cards! Gift Cards! You can buy a gift card to anywhere, or just buy a VISA/MASTERCARD gift card that they can use anywhere! So if you dont know what to get someone, get them a gift card, you cannot go wrong with a gift card, ever!

5. The Conair Spiral Iron. This is a must for ALL girls! Everyone loves it, It's definetly a winner/keeper ;) I highly recommend it!

Enjoy 10% Off Storewide at ConairStore.com! Enter Code CONAIRSAVE10 at checkout. Offer ends 12/31/11.

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6. E.L.F (eyes lips face) Cosmetics/Cosmetic Tools that are super affordable, fun, and adorable! Have you checked out their new Blingy line? Sooo Awesome!

Eyes Lips Face

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And you can always shop at my Mark Store ;)

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...If i think of anything else i'll definetly share! :)

My Thanksgiving.

2011-11-29T17:21:00.000-08:00

My Thanksgiving, wasn't any different than any other day.. It didn't even feel like Thanksgiving... Didn't even feel like a Holiday. I had no want for the food, i ate once, and didn't touch any of it again, which is SO unlike Me.

My Thanksgiving was spent with the people who love me, even when i dont deserve it. I may not have been where my heart truly wanted to be, But i was here, alive and well, and so thankful, to God, that we were all together in one piece, under one roof, all safe, and healthy......

Here are some pictures from my Thanksgiving, of my Family.... Enjoy...

My Dad, Cutting the Turkey.

Me & Abby

Me And My Sister behind Me

My Sister Polly and Me

My Sisterinlaw Hanna and Me

My Brother Bill <3

My Brotherinlaw Justin

Dad Again

Bill doing what he does best, SINGING!!
Check him out! His Staff Band

My Two Sister's, Susie & Polly, And their Babies. Maverick & Bella

Maverick & Bella, lols

Dad & The Boys, Outside singing, Playing music

LOL at Grandpa's lil head

Bum & Woo

And that night, we went black friday shopping! ;)

Abby & Me, In Walmart, 12 am, The place was CRAZY.

Lady Luck Tutorials (re opened)

2011-11-19T14:06:00.000-08:00

Well, looks like im opening my Youtube Channel back up. I closed it all down because i was getting married. But since that dream was stomped on (NOT MY CHOICE!!!) looks like i have to do what i have to do.

I have a phone bill due again, and no husband, and no money, so it's either i get out and get a job doing something that i dont even like, or i can continue what i was doing on here, and make money the best way i know how! And besides Christmas is coming up, and i would like to buy the people i love gifts as i usually do! (Who knows i might end up having to get a job too!!!)

Uploading a new video now, i hope you all enjoy, and please do subscribe!

Lady Luck Tutorials
^ Check it out

My hope is in THE LORD.

2011-11-17T15:43:00.000-08:00

I used to be the girl who cared more about her makeup messing up in Church, than anything else... I used to care more about what i looked like to everyone else, rather than spending time in the presence of God.. And now im the girl with snot running down her face, and tears running down her cheek, and not caring if there is a soul in sight, because JESUS is ALL i NEED and in HIM, I AM FREE.

If Jesus lived the way we lived, we wouldnt be FORGIVEN. If he had sat around worried about what he looked like, he would have never died for our sins. He was beaten, and humiliated, and degraded, for US so that WE could be free and forgiven, and washed of our sins.

I cannot PRAISE GOD ENOUGH for everything he has done, everything he is doing, and EVERYTHING he is going to do! My hope is in YOU, LORD, ALL DAY LONG!!!! ---*You are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. (Psalm 25:5)*---

I cant wait for Church tonight!! There is NOTHING better than the presence of the Lord, and the presence of the Holy Spirit!!!!

He is the Lord of Lords, The King of Kings, he is my EVERYTHING.

Tent Revival (In Porter Texas)

2011-11-15T10:08:00.000-08:00

Please come and join us and other local churches in Porter, Tx!
Just north of Houston, Tx on State Hwy 59 (Eastex Freeway)

The tent is located just south of the main Porter road (FM1314) on the north bound service road.

You can visit our church website and get a little information about us at: FaithMountainChurch.com

We are starting Wednesday, November 16, 2011 around 7pm

His Staff Band (That's my Brother's band) will be the worship band on most nights unless the guest speaker bring their church band.

Please let me know if you have any questions!

His Staff Band Youtube Channel <-- Check out some videos

I will be there, and we can all have a good ol time, visiting, and praising the Lord!!!!!!!

Im not strong enough...

2011-11-10T19:41:00.000-08:00

....I once heard this quote, that said:

"If you want to make God laugh, Tell him your plans"

Pretty deep, huh?

Well, Unfortunetly, I wasnt trying to humor God..

You know the Bible say's not to boast about tomorrow,
because we dont know what tomorrow will bring...

Maybe i talked too much back then about tomorrow.
I was so busy being so happy, and so excited, and so into the moment,
Maybe i wasnt supposed to talk about the days ahead....

Maybe i thought ahead too much?
Maybe i spoke too soon....

So many things i think about every second of every day. It never fails that i have a million things on my mind.

From the time i open my eyes, all through-out the day, untill late at night when im laying in bed...

You cant imagine the thoughts i have.

And this time change, doesnt help things much.

The days are longer, the sun goes away sooner, it gets dark at 5. The seconds last for minutes, and the minutes last for hours, and the hours? They feel like days.

And as for the weather, it's cold. I dont like cold weather.

You know.... I am 25 years old.. And for as long as i can remember, i've been through alot. I've been through so much, that i've actually learned to block out many moments in my life.

But never, have i ever, been through something like this. I cant even describe to you what it feels like....

And i keep trying to remind myself that there are bigger problems in this world, people go through worse things every day of life..

I keep reminding myself of the people in this world who have lost loved ones, or my sister's, who have had miscarriages, can you imagine how they felt? And if they can get through it, you can too Charity.

That's what i tell myself.. If they can do it, so can you.

If they can fake a smile on their worst day's, then so can you....

That's what i tell myself..

I used to think that I was so strong... I can get through anything, and i can praise God through every storm, I can come out of this untouched..

But all of a sudden........... Im weak.

I feel like i cant over come anything. I feel like i cant do anything. I can barely get myself out of bed in the morning. I have to make myself take a shower and get dressed (yeah yeah i know we all do)- But i have to make myself, do these things.

I dont even want to open my eyes in the morning, and when i do, i just wanna go back to sleep.. And i keep waiting, just waiting, to wake up from this nightmare... I keep thinking to myself, Alright, God, The Jokes over, Everyone can come out now and say "GOTCHA!!!" ...But it doesnt happen.

And as for people saying it get's better... When? When does it get better? It doesnt feel better yet.. I know time heals all wounds, well with this ungodly time-change, i should have enough time in two days for these wounds to heal.. (joke, yeah not really "haha" funny, but... okay im sure you understand the dry humor)

And i tell myself every day, tomorrow is gonna be the day that your gonna be okay, tomorrow YOU are going to wake up and be happy, TOMORROW is going to be the day that your going to wake up without a worry, and not think about anything.. But every day.... I wake up... And those days, they dont come.

And then the millions and millions and millions of thoughts, every second, of every minute.

What is wrong with Me?

Is this even normal?

And Mom say's Charity.. You have to have faith in God, and the funny thing is, I DO........ I do have faith in God, my hope is in God, all day long, but i, my own worst enemy, some how, i, am tormented, i am struggling. I am not as strong as i thought i was. I am not the person i thought i was.

I dont even know who i am.
I dont even know who i was?
I dont even know who i will wake up and be tomorrow.

Honestly,
Im losing my mind.
And when i say this, it's not just a phrase, or a figure of speech, little by little, every day, i am losing my mind.

Every day i ask God for peace, and in the midst of it all, i feel that spark of peace, in my spirit... But before i know it, my doubt, and everything else, puts out that spark.

See this?

This is why, i do not sit in my room alone, lol, look at me, millions of thoughts, and i could go on and on and on and on and on.

And the strange thing is, nobody understands it. Nobody can feel what im feeling. Nobody can help me right now..... I've never felt so alone in my entire life, and i know im not alone in the physical sense, im surrounded by people, but i am alone. In my own little head. I am alone.

And i have no answers, nobody can give me any answers.

All i can say is God must think something of Me, to put me through something like this... I better see a rainbow after this storm.... (and a pot of gold too! because unfortunetly, after all of the making of my big plans, and quitting my main source of income, i dont have a dime to my name, and i have a big stupid phone bill left on me too...)

Yeah buddy, You wanna make God laugh, Tell him your plans.

Im gonna shut up now.

Listen to this song.

And if you can remember to..
Please Pray For Me.

Once again, Goodbye.... (twitter/blog)

2011-11-05T10:42:00.000-07:00

Im just letting everyone know, that i will no longer be using twitter, or my blog for a while....

What im going through right now, is one of the hardest things i have ever had to deal with..

I have alot on my mind, alot to think about, alot to do, and figure out.

Thanks for all of your support, love, and concern.

Im done...

2011-11-02T09:23:00.001-07:00

I just realized something after reading a tweet about Jesus having haters and being perfect.

I bet if Jesus lived in our times right now, And he had a blog like this, He wouldnt read the hateful comments that i get, He'd over look them, and pray for those people.

He wouldnt give them a second of his time. He might quote a scripture or two but other than that, Jesus wouldnt ever lower hisself to that level...

And if im a Christian, im supposed to be like Jesus. So guess what?

Im going to continue praying for you, as i had been before... I pray God blesses you, and you live a life filled with wonderful things. But other than that, Im done with this... Keep your head up, and BE BLESSED!!

Lies/Gossip.

2011-11-01T15:05:00.000-07:00

It's a shame what people do to hurt other people..
People should honestly be ashamed of theirselves..
But i wouldnt expect anything less from sinful people.

Think about what your doing/saying before you do it, or say it.
And remember what goes around comes around.

Luke 6:31 - Do to others as you would have them do to you.

And you should also, have fear in the Lord... I will never do anything to get anyone back for anything they have done, rarely will i ever even say anything to them, because im a peaceful person, i come from a peaceful family, we dont fight with other's, we talk it out like normal human beings...... But i promise you, That one day, BECAUSE i trust in the LORD, the Lord will fight my battles for Me. He promises it over, and over, and over in the Bible.

Romans 12:19 Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord.

^"SAY'S THE LORD".... God is not a man that he should lie.. The Lord doesnt lie, If he said it, he will stick to his word. Keep that in mind the next time your doing what your doing to other's: REMEMBER THAT..............

Numbers 23:19 God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?

And dont think to yourself, Oh no.. Not me.. God wouldnt do that to me.. You are no different than anyone else, God is not a respector of persons.. That means he doesnt favor you over me, or me over you.

(and if you dont get your payback now, you will eventually, maybe even in an area of your life that will hurt the most, maybe even through your children)

Acts 10:34 Then Peter opened his mouth, and said, Of a truth I perceive that God is no respecter of persons.

But God does love his faithful children.

Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

And i do believe God would honor the prayer of a faithful/loving heart, over an evil/ungodly person.. If your being evil, God cannot do anything for you. He doesnt work for the devil, or the enemy, or demons.........

If you claim to be a Christian, ACT LIKE A CHRISTIAN. And dont just ACT like one, because people see right through an act.. You can tell a tree by it's fruit, and if your showing ungodly fruit's in your life, through your lifestyle, and your own tounge, people will know/see the difference.

Matthew 7:16 "By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thorn bushes, or figs from thistles?"

Good fruit's of the spirit is this:
Galations 5:22 But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,

Does any of those apply to you?
Are you faithful, good, kind, patient, joyful, peaceful, and loving?

If none of those describe/define you or or your spirit, then you need to rethink how you are living your life.....

You should rethink about who you are, and who you are in Christ. If your a child of God, your not supposed to be a trouble maker, or a gossiper, you arent supposed to lie, and spread lies, You arent supposed to hurt people intentionally, especially people who are already hurting.

Proverbs 6:16-19 There are six things which the LORD hates, Yes, seven which are an abomination to Him:
1. Haughty eyes
2. A lying tongue
3. Hands that shed innocent blood,
4. A heart that devises wicked plans
5. Feet that run rapidly to evil
6. A false witness who utters lies
7. One who spreads strife among brothers.

Im so sick of people talking. Im starting to believe they are only talking just to hear their own voices. I've heard enough, i've seen enough, and im tired of it all.

I once heard a story about rumours being like a bag of feathers, thrown out the window, once the wind blows, those feathers go all over, now try and go out and collect all of those feathers.. It is impossible..

And so are the lies/rumours that you spread.. Once it leaves your lips, it spreads like a disease, and it is not fixable, it's incureable, and it causes trouble, and hurt.

You cannot possibly go pick up all of the feathers that you through out the window....... IMPOSSIBLE....... So remember that, seriously, stop and think about it next time.....

Im at a loss for words right now, im so sick of people talking/gossiping, making up lies, and spreading lies.

Grow up, and be adults, be a child of God, be the Christian you claim to be, and act like it.

Leviticus 19:16 - "Do not go about spreading slander among your people. "Do not do anything that endangers your neighbour's life. I am the Lord."

Proverbs 18:8 - The words of a gossip are like choice morsels; they go down to a man's inmost parts.

Proverbs 20:19 - A gossip betrays a confidence; so avoid a man who talks too much.

Proverbs 11:13 - A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy man keeps a secret.

Proverbs 16:28 - A perverse man stirs up dissension, and a gossip separates close friends.

Proverbs 25:23 - As a north wind brings rain, so a sly tongue brings angry looks.

Proverbs 26:20 - Without wood a fire goes out; without gossip a quarrel dies down.

Proverbs 26:21 - As charcoal to embers and as wood to fire, so is a quarrelsome man for kindling strife.

Proverbs 26:22 - The words of a gossip are like choice morsels; they go down to a man's inmost parts.

Psalm 52:2 - Your tongue plots destruction; it is like a sharpened razor, you who practice deceit.

Psalm 34:13 - Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies.

If you have a lie to tell, or spread, go write it in your diary, or go sit in your bedroom and repeat it to yourself over and over and over, and then look at yourself in a mirror, you'll see how pathetic you really are.

And id love to know what you think your acheiving by spreading lies, and making up stuff.. You make yourself look like an idiot. I know the truth, so looks like you lose this time........ And once again, i rebuke you in the name of JESUS.

This world is filled with sick, twisted people,
I PRAISE God that i do not fall under that category.
I am not a part of this world, God has set me apart from this world.

Honestly, im not surprised, i seriously dont expect anything different from people, The bible say's that the world will hate me, but it hated Jesus first..

"If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first." John 15:18

If this world could hate the Lord, then i am no different. I guess we live in a world of good and evil forces, and we just have to stay strong in the Lord, and put on the armour of God, and get through it.....

Ephesians 6:11 Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes.

Phillipians 2:15 that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world

Im gonna keep praying for you all, because im a child of God, and that's what Christians do..

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For those asking... (about me getting married)

2011-10-31T22:40:00.000-07:00

Im so tired of people asking

When are you getting married?
Are you married yet?
Are you coming back to youtube?
When's the big day?
When's the date?
When are you moving?

No no no no no and no.

....Here's a little message to inform you all, i'll say it once, and i wont repeat myself, i hate even saying it now...

1) The wedding was called off.
2) So, obviously, im not moving anywhere now.
3) I am not coming back to Youtube.

My entire life/world has been flipped upside down, and i dont know that anything will ever be the same, ever again. So unfortunetly, the answer is no.

There is nothing i can say, im not going to be answering any more questions, so please dont ask Me. And as for the rude/hateful people out there, Please leave Me alone. If you dont have enough nerve to say it to my face or call me on the phone, then please, hold your tounge, and mind your business..

Im having a hard enough time right now dealing with everything, i do not need anything else.

So, please, everyone, just give me some space, and stop with the married questions. I know you are all innocently asking, im sure you didnt know, because i havent announced it yet, But now that you know, please just leave me alone about it.

Goodbye....

2011-10-10T23:29:00.000-07:00

So tonight i feel like im writing my own eulogy. Only im not dying, just
simply dissappearing from the internet world. I started my Youtube channel in 2007.... Posting my first video, never expecting to get a single view.. But knowing i was a tad bit entertaining, only because i made my own home videos here at home, and Me and my Mom would watch them after i was through, And of course.... We'd always seem to get a kick out of them.. Maybe it was just because she was my Mom and loved everything i did, or maybe because there was something a little entertaining in Me. Something special..... So i decided one day, to share the things i do with the world.. Instead of just Me and My Mom and whoever else around here watched the home videos with us.....

Not only did i want to share with the world the things i did, but i wanted to share "ME" with the world....

I didnt really have a direction when i first started but i knew i wanted to share Me.. Even if it was a small part of Me. Before i knew it, i started receiving comments, emails, friend request, subscribers, and now today, October 11, 2012, I have over 13k Subscribers.

Some videos of mine exceed over 20k views. One video alone has 221,360 views, and counting im sure......

I never imagined i would get to where i am today. But what i am most proud of.. Is touching.. The lives.. Of strangers.. Deep inside of Me, there is a spark, a little spark of hope, that for years longed to reach out to somebody.. Anybody.. And Youtube was my way of reaching the
entire world..

I will never forget the people i have met, come in contact with, i will never forget the lives i have changed, or the lives/people i have touched, and i will never forget the people who have changed my life, and have touched me.

I have brought sinners to Christ, I have helped bring lost people to the Lord, I have encouraged people in so many ways, and i know i have because i get letters constantly from people telling me how i have inspired them, and blessed them.. I have befriended athiest's, which most Christians wouldnt dare to do, I have even changed the lives of some athiest's.... I have done more through my Youtube, Spiritually, then i have ever done in my entire walk with the Lord........ And i praise God for the opportunity!

I will never forget the conversations i've had with people, i will never forget one second of any of this. And i know it's sad that im leaving, trust me i know it, But there is a time for everything.. The Bible say's so.. There was a time for me to meet you, there was a time for me to
touch your lives, and share things with you, and now there is a time for goodbye..

Thank you for allowing me to share myself with all of you. Thank you for all of the amazing Opportunity's.. Thank you for blessing me, Thank you for allowing me to bless you! Thank you for EVERYTHING. I will never forget this.. Any of this.. And i pray that you never forget me, or anything that i taught you.. Always remember, there is a light at the end of EVERY TUNNEL. There is nothing in this life that you cannot overcome.... Keep GOD FIRST and everything else will fall into place.. Keep family second... And everything else after that.. I pray your blessed, untill the end of time.

I have so much more to say on this topic, but i have to go to bed, i have so much to do tomorrow, i'll be getting married soon, and i have to prepare for all of these things that are to come............. It's a big step in life, and im so ready for it...

Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

9 What do workers gain from their toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has
laid on the human race. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He
has also set eternity in the human heart; yet[a] no one can fathom what God
has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for
people than to be happy and to do good while they live. 13 That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.

15 Whatever is has already been, and what will be has been before; and God will call the past to account.

God isnt finished with Me yet, And he isnt finished with you either.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkq19TTLft4&feature=related

I've learned some folks wont care about your past.... Neither will they care about your wrongs or your rights... But they will never forget the glimpse of kindness they seen in you.