tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34066235Mon, 02 Sep 2024 02:58:51 +0000ChristmasHRTSOC standards of care Harry Benjaminamanitabeliefscharityclausdaydreamingestrogenfaithgender dysphorialonelinesslovemedicationmuscariamushroompersecutionpillspoetryreligionsantaselfsmarttransgendertranssexualwishingIt's called "deep stealth" now, sometimes it's called "going dark". I've been there. For the past 17 years, I have lived my life in the mundane hum drums of normalcy. I had Gender Reassignment Surgery in the late 80's and since then, I've lived my life as any woman. I have been successful. I've had a wonderful career. I love to write poetry and play classical music. And I still love the good old rock n roll of my youth.http://cindianna-jones.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (Cindianna Jones)Blogger57125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34066235.post-5692841151386634943Sun, 05 Aug 2012 12:05:00 +00002012-08-05T05:05:36.137-07:00When I moved to California, I left my past behind. 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By my reasoning this http://cindianna-jones.blogspot.com/2007/05/whats-my-sign.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Cindianna Jones)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34066235.post-700145868600133589Fri, 27 Apr 2007 06:15:00 +00002007-04-26T23:15:49.524-07:00I've been having many depressing feelings today.&nbsp; My folks came to visit for four weeks and left early yesterday. I look forward to their visit every year. I plan all year for it. And when they leave, I am totally crushed.&nbsp; I cried all day yesterday and today. I've been doing nothing but moping around. Why did this thing have to tear my family apart? Why did I have to leave my home http://cindianna-jones.blogspot.com/2007/04/why-did-god-ignore-me.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Cindianna Jones)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34066235.post-431719289695831433Tue, 10 Apr 2007 06:52:00 +00002007-04-09T23:52:04.684-07:00 I've always admired the British. They are students of language. At least that's the impression I get when watching their news reports or see one of their citizens interviewed on television.&nbsp; Their prime minister can also speak in real sentences…something that escapes our esteemed leader these days (President Bush). <?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />http://cindianna-jones.blogspot.com/2007/04/i-love-british.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Cindianna Jones)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34066235.post-2701939450016705234Tue, 20 Mar 2007 22:06:00 +00002007-03-20T15:06:37.517-07:00 Many of us have been following the trials and tribulations of Steve Stanton, the city manager of Largo, Florida. Steve's legal representative has prepared a response to the city council: &nbsp; Steve Stanton's reply to Largo Commision &nbsp; Most of the response is two included articles titled "Workplace Gender Transition Guidelines" and "Transition Issues in the Workplace" both by the Human http://cindianna-jones.blogspot.com/2007/03/steve-stantons-reply.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Cindianna Jones)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34066235.post-2528685300365255206Tue, 20 Mar 2007 20:26:00 +00002007-03-20T13:26:13.608-07:00 A theory isn't a theory unless there are supporting facts. Until there are supporting facts, it's just a guess or postulation. For example, it is just a theory that the ball will fall to the ground if you let go of it. A theory is the best explanation given the facts that we can measure. If there is nothing that can be measured and tested, then it can't be a theory. This is called rational http://cindianna-jones.blogspot.com/2007/03/theory-and-faith-unite.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Cindianna Jones)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34066235.post-1052179195537173680Mon, 12 Mar 2007 21:37:00 +00002007-03-12T14:37:03.868-07:00 When I considered suicide it was to "show them" or to "make them feel guilty or sorry" for me. It wasn't selfishness that motivated my thoughts.&nbsp; It was an ending to punish those who knew me. I finally realized that sentiment had no logic. It had no resolution in MY favor.When you are in the depths of depression, you can not think clearly. Rationalization is pointless. Thoughtful http://cindianna-jones.blogspot.com/2007/03/contemplating-suicide.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Cindianna Jones)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34066235.post-4712254251995181585Sat, 10 Mar 2007 09:00:00 +00002007-03-10T01:00:29.602-08:00I've been accused of "always being the victim" and in the next breath that I'm "egotistical". I sort of see the two as being mutually exclusive. I have been the victim in my life.&nbsp; But when I started my transition, I vowed that I would no longer be one. With only a short stumble along the way, I've been true to my promise.I am tenacious, stubborn, logical, and yes, at times even egotistical.http://cindianna-jones.blogspot.com/2007/03/victim.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Cindianna Jones)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34066235.post-8524363903292753872Mon, 05 Mar 2007 04:55:00 +00002007-03-04T20:55:51.365-08:00Many religions can not exist without the preponderance of evil. It is inconceivable that reasonable moral values (like, don't steal, be nice to other people, don't rape your sister, etc) can not be taught without the vision of an empowered religious leader and buying into a religious cultism of sorts. 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