The One and Only ♥

The Missing Pieces of My Life

2013-08-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

Life, will never ever perfect. It's just like, no one will ever smile perfectly.
I'm sure that everyone will have the hidden-self. The part of themselves that only they know about it. There's also the hidden part of their Life with those sadness no one will ever understand. Some people who experienced the pain will never wanna others to feel that. Because they know, once there's pain, the scar will always be there.
I'm tired of thinking and re-calling memories these days.
I know that I shouldn't be like this. This period, I should've burned up the night fighting for the assignments and the coming examination. But, I didn't. I tried to make myself busy with things to do, but still there's little space for me to think.
I wanna stop thinking because I don't wanna re-call those memories, I don't want to make myself regret, I don't wanna think that you're just gone like that.
For a thousand times that my father told me, it is good for her. I understand, but isn't it too soon for me?! I just can't accept that she leave me like that. She promised that she'll wait me finished studies, only she'll be relieved.
My life is just like a mirror, me and my family will always be there for sure, and I can change the background wherever I go with them. It might not be the perfect one but used to be a complete one. But now, it's not only cracked, there are yet missing pieces.

No matter how, You'll stay Forever in my Heart.

I Miss You, and I will always Love You !

In this Cruel World

2013-08-09T23:00:00.000-07:00

People used to be very kind and nice to you when you're in good conditions.
To make it simple, when you benefits them, they'll always be by your sides until you're not capable to do anything for them.
This world seems to be colorful and wonderful when I was a little kid. But as the days goes by, lots of things I've learnt. By observing things and those people in my life, it seems this world is not as beautiful as I thought before. Or maybe It never beautiful at all. The colors of the world faded, slowly becoming grey and became dark eventually.
I just don't understand, why people can be so selfish. People often take everything for granted, they will never remember who sacrificed for those happy moments.
Being so selfish and realistic tends to become a norm in this cruel world.
What an awful scene.

I'm Glad to have HIM (4)

2013-08-04T10:11:00.000-07:00

Since we got back together, we've never been better.

Somehow, I feel he changed. Not becoming worse, but better instead.

From what I know, what was happened in the past six months makes him feel sorry.

He tried to make us new memories, so that I can replace those little things somewhat hurts me last time.

However, my brain tends to figure out something sometimes.

For an excuses, maybe I was afraid. I don't know whether this happiness will last.

I don't know when I have to deal with those things again.

Recently, somehow I practice myself to get prepared for everything that will probably happen again.

Even though it became a kind of stress for me.

It is true that this choice is mine, I've make the decision. I will deal with it.

No matter what, I have to trust him since I gave him the chance.

For the past half year, all worries and frustration burdened me every single day.

Now things seems to go more smoothly, worries and frustration reduces.

Although argument still happens within two of us, but we can deal with it in a better way.

Still, I appreciate everything he had done for me.

Hope that we'll be Alright for now and in the future.

2nd and the Last.

2013-05-08T00:39:00.000-07:00

All of a sudden, it comes back.

The feelings that I could never know how to put into words.

However,

The coming back is a decision I made.

I give it a 2nd chance, and a chance for myself,

that might be a last chance, I whispered to my heart.

I don't know whether the decision is right or wrong,

But, I will just follow my heart.

I promised myself to take full responsibility for the decision I made.

Somehow there is always an answer in my heart. I know it !

By the way,

I want to say Thank You.

No matter what or how we will be in the future.

I'm so thank you that you let me know that I never failed.

I'm so thank you that you let me know that I worth it.

I'm so thank you that you let me know that I won't regret for what I trusted.

Thank You ! =)

Anyway, cheer up !
There will be a better tomorrow. Life goes on.

Dreams will come true if you have Faith on it. ^^

"Sometimes"

2013-04-10T15:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I just don't feel like talking.
I used to be very talkative and hyperactive when I'm with my friends.
But why?! Recently I don't feel like talking at all.
I turned off Facebook chat. I don't pick up my phone, I left those message at the tone.

Sometimes, I'd like to be alone.
When I'm alone, I don't have to pretend to be anybody else. I can just be myself.
I can release all my emotions. I don't have to hide.
I don't have to fake a smile all the time.

Sometimes, I'd like to be with my friends.
Hanging out with them, having meals with them, chats with them for hours.
Kinda relax when I'm with them.
Provided no one talk about stressful stuff or daily stupid routine.
I still can accept something like sharing their stories even though sometimes kinda sad.
But these are friend's talks.
One of the most enjoyable thing when sticking with friends is the moment you forget about everything and just freak out, smile and laugh.

How are you recently?

You smiled today?

------- Missu Missu -------

Sasaki =)

The Voice 3/4/2013

2013-04-05T14:30:00.000-07:00

Here we Go ! The Voice.

Shout to the extreme ! Enjoy to the fullest !

Singing for 5 hours is just Insane. It's Fun !

This was my first time go karaoke with my closed friends at Kampar.

I pretty enjoy it. Feel so happy and relax.

Thank you girls ^^

Friends =)

It was just so coincident, he was there with his friends at the same time.

The feelings.. I don't know how to put in words,

but I just smiled. =)

Anyway, after the enjoyment.. after you'd fully relaxed..

Here is the time to tensed up !

It's time to prepare for coming exam.

That's our Final exam for the third trimester of Foundation studies.

Gambate nahh.. Everyone ! =)

One Month after the Break

2013-04-03T12:57:00.000-07:00

People says, "Time" is a very powerful thing.

Now you might be hurt, but feelings will fade away followed times passed.

I need Times and I know it.

But it's already one month since He left.

I didn't actually expect to use this much of time to forget one person who only spend half a year with me. What I mean, to forget is impossible, but at least feelings fade.

Missing someone every single day make me suffers a lot.

Sometimes I wonder if he'd missed me as much as I am.

Well, although I know it's pointless.

I used to forget things easily due to certain incidents happened to me last time.

It's my own technique to protect myself and it's the best way to stay happy.

But, things about him never goes out of my mind. I wonder...

My daily routine with Him reminds me of Him all the time..

Every single things I'd done with Him I'll never forgets...

Those memories just stuck in my mind and keep on reminding me of Him...

However, The Best Thing I can ever Do is to Smile.

Just Stay Strong, and be a Cheerful Girl.

Life is still have to carry On ! =)

Have I grown up a lil bit? =P

What is meant to Be, Will Be !

I miss him !

Here comes The End

2013-03-05T04:24:00.001-08:00

Eventually, I failed again.
I failed for who I am..
I failed for my own character.
I failed for my attitude.
I failed for what my impression towards people.
Eventually, I failed !

No matter how we fight together,
no matter how persistent we are,
we still lose for one "respect" towards elders.

For the sick of the happiness for everyone we loves,
we'd chosen to go our way.
That might takes some time to recover the wounds,
but that might be the only way we can choose, perhaps...

However, now I know it's really hard to pretend happy when you're freaking hurt inside.
But, if it's necessary for you to do so, you will do it.

2013 Valentine's

2013-02-14T07:53:00.002-08:00

My 1st Valentine's day ... without Him...
He's not around..
or shall I say that we're not together celebrating our Valentine?!

Well, today is 2013 Valentine's day.
I'm sure that most of the couples will enjoy their own sweet time today.
But I don't stand a chance. I am not alone either.. >.<
He's not besides me but I'd received greet messages from him.
Hmm... I think that's what he can do for me in this conditions.
I should understand the gravity of his situation.
Anyway, I am happy for it.

My creation.. Happy Valentine ^.^

Happy Valentines' Day to all of You ! Cheers !

Final is around the corner

2012-12-21T09:37:00.000-08:00

Final is just around the corner..
Everyday I'm Studying...
Notes... Reference books...tutorials....
Damn tiring.. My eyes.. My brain.. Gonna burst soon..
I was having a nap just now..
I dream mummy daddy and my bro.. Even in my dream, there is still an intrapersonal communication which telling myself to go study stop wasting time here.
Damn Stress !
Wish me luck in Final.
Keep Charging. ^^

I'm Glad to have HIM (3)

2012-12-09T09:39:00.000-08:00

Yipeee.. Officially 3 months now. And yet I'm still appreciate our relationship.
Hehe.. my friend said we're cute little couple.
And he bring me one good news, I know his parents dislike me, but his relative supports Him..
When I heard it, I was like... "I believe I can Fly ~"
Hehe

I'm glad to have HIM (2)

2012-11-26T06:52:00.001-08:00

This was really heart broken incident.
I never felt like this before.
My tears were never stop running down no matter I just think of Him.
I know I am immature.. I know I'm not that strong enough to support Him.
But I promised I will try my best to do it.
I Promise !!!
Please don't leave me. Don't let go of my hand.
I don't want what I have now all become our memories.
I will never forget. (24/11)

If it's was just a memories. ='(

I will appreciate what you gave me.. for all just give both of us a chance.
I love HIM.

I'm glad to have HIM (1)

2012-11-09T06:44:00.000-08:00

I am really appreciate this relationship. It's already 2 months we've been together, and I am Glad to have Him.

I feel secure.. He gave me happiness.. He makes me fall asleep with laughter, wake up with sweet memories.

Happy Anniversary ! ♥

Change myself !

2012-09-22T14:10:00.000-07:00

My Life .. My Character ..
I did realize something wrong with me, but I just selectively not to think about it, ignored it, because as long as I happy, I enjoyed myself.
I think I can take myself for granted, but now I realize it wasn't like that.
In this society, it doesn't work. This kind of character and personality failed.It works only in front of my dearest parents and closest person. But in the society, I'll be disqualified.
Ever since I realize something that darken my beautiful world in my lifetime, it wouldn't stop continue becoming darker until now, my imaginary wonderful world is almost darken. I like damn disappointed. But this world is really very grey as I'm always afraid to face it.
But anyhow, no matter how strong will that I'm not going to change myself for others and just to be myself, it's all bullshit when you met someone who meant something to you, eventually you will change it !
It wouldn't be easy. But I believe I can !
It's just as simple as you don't want to lose him or her.
No matter how, the things that I should improve I will try my best to do so, as these are all for my own good. That's why that somebody is only my motivation to do so.
I know I will thank him one day.

SMILE =)

My new life with Him ♥

2012-09-21T09:50:00.001-07:00

Yes ! I'm with Him ♥

My boy boy.

I like him. He treat me really good.

I believe he won't disappoint me.

I hope myself had found a right one, won't be wrong again this time.

But, honestly, a bit quite stress I'm with him.

Some stress is from myself, some is from him.

But, I hope I can handle it.

I learnt, It's time to grow up !

I know I can =)

♥

Not bad right ?!

For present and yet forever !

1st trimester break

2012-09-14T09:40:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, how are you recently ?!
Hmm.. I just finished sitting my final examination last week.
I'm going to have one week break. Yeah ! Have fun for sure =)
I'm going KL one day trip before going back hometown.
I stayed at my friend's house which at Klang.
I enjoyed the trip very much with him. hehe.
One week break actually not really enough for me, and for the week I did nothing also. haha
But I take time to accompany my mummy, I really happy and enjoyed it with her.
I was glad that she willing to go out with me also.
And lastly, my cousin's wedding ceremony and dinner .
That's the week I had. Seems boring but I enjoyed some times. =)

Recently Mii ! ^_^

Hair growing ~ Happii

No Pain No Gain !

2012-08-08T11:36:00.001-07:00

Ever since I'm here started my University study life.
Individually, I learnt a lot of things that it's true I'll never learn it if I'm staying at hometown besides my dearest parents as a Princess.
" No Pain, No Gain ! "
Great wordings I often tell myself recently.
Since I'm here, I've learnt a most valuable things for me is to be Independent.
I get use to be alone. I get use to settle things by my own self.

Well, an incident to share in this updates.
As you know, my transportation everyday from hostel to campus, to and fro is bicycle.
Within a month, I had bicycle accident twice ! Yes, It's twice.
Now I damn phobia of cycling.
Today is the second time I fell from bicycle, but lucky that I didn't seriously injured like last time, (2 weeks ago).
My friend said that I didn't have good cycling technique. haha
Damn Phobia. Some more today evening there was an exam.
Phewww.. lucky hands not injured. Thank God.

Moreover here,
recently my lifestyle is just exactly like a zombie, looks like a panda, acts like a cadaver.
Damn tiring life. For example, these 3 days I continuously got 3 tests, tomorrow there is a presentation for me, I some more yet well prepared.
Sleeping hours daily less than 5hours.
Yawn all the day, Sigh everywhere ...
Arghh... I just need to relax. Aiks..

Here I am,

Extreme Panda eyes, Tiring face ! >.<

Gambate. Good Luck for me ! ^_^
3 more days, I can have a deep break for 2 days maybe?!
LOL. more than enough for me to sleep for a whole day, energy charging.... Haha

Homesick. Times Fly.

2012-07-29T00:04:00.001-07:00

Hey there, for almost one month since my last updates. Time fly.
Recently, I really freaking busy on my coursework.
I am totally exhausted. Sigh*
Now I have one week free from examination eventually. But actually I'm still not free because I still have a lot of coursework and coming soon examination to handle. One week free isn't a good news for me. Coming next week total up 3 subjects test for me. Oh My Goodness !
Sometimes I really feel like fed up and tiring of this study life. It's really make me crazy.
And sometimes I'm so damn Homesick. I miss my dearest parents and my brother. Even I've talk to them every night through Skype. But still I miss them a lot especially during weekend.
Oh ya. Time past really fast. t's already one week since last week I back my hometown.
What I did actually? I have my haircut for my messy hair. I went Bon Odori met my old friends.
And happily I accompanied my parents for the 2 days of weekend.
Thats my look after the haircut. Pretty face comes back?! Haha.

Recently me !
Since Last week haircut at my hometown. ♥

So thats all for the updates. I'm going to continue study again. Sigh*
Bye guys ! Have a nice day =)

My Birthday 2012

2012-06-27T09:58:00.000-07:00

27/06 is my Big Day.
Supposed to be very happy today, but due I'm not at hometown, so feel a bit down.
Some more I've no friends to celebrate with.
But luckily, my birthday dinner still found one friend accompanied.
My Lunchie and Dinner for Lonely Birthday, and my Favorite drinks, OCHADO. Haha.

And This is me, my look recently,
Hmm.. ever since I came here, my pretty looks gone. ='(

Looks older compared to the latest pic before this?!

Anyway, pretty incident recently.
I've met one relative I've never known before.
Recently, my daddy met his cousin at my hometown, and his son are also studied in the same university with me. That's why I met him.
So, I accidentally have one more cousin in my life.
Not bad still, he's a good guy. =)

However, this birthday I assume yet celebrate, pending till my sem break that was September.
Mummy owe me one birthday present . Hehe.
Love You Mummy & Daddy.

Uni-Life

2012-06-11T06:49:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, How are you recently ?!
I'm not really good here =(
As you know, I'm here attempt to adapt my Uni-Life. It's uneasy as I think.
But much things I've learnt here, but the most valuable things I'd learned was INDEPENDENT.
This is one I'll never learn at my hometown when my parents besides me.
I must adapt having meal alone, or maybe even alone inside the room for a whole day.
This small little town has no shopping complex, no cinemas, no karaoke. I've totally lost all my entertainment.
Anyway, I shall take time to adapt, most of the time instead of in the University, I'll just closed myself inside my room and never come out until I'm going out when I'm hungry.
So my Life here is just Sleep, Study, Eat. Nothing much entertain me. So it's quite boring.
Let's talk about last week, really bad luck so I think. Both of my bicycle tyre punctured within one week. OMG ! But I never forget to Smile. And so I can carry on my life with positive minded thoughts.

I'm so stressful with my foundation studies right now.
Seem nothing I'll earn for every trimester of mine instead I just keep on studying and put more efforts on it.
I really don't know how can I do it,
3 lab reports for 3 different science subjects "every week", tutorial for 5 subjects every week, assignment and examination. Ohh dear.. Sigh*
What I just can say is, Keep Charging !

Nothing much here to share, just I'm trying to find some joy in the boring life ^_^

Something to share with you,

A beautiful sunset and so I liked.

And, I'm going back hometown this weekend, so damn excited. Hehe.
So Good Luck for me, see you soon.

Suit up ! Lab coat.

2012-05-30T01:10:00.000-07:00

Haha.. Hey everyone, updates here. ^_^
From Day 1 until now, it's the3rd of my Uni-Life.

As usual, I'm going my class today in the morning.
And, the highlight today was my Lab coat. After class, I went Block A 2nd Floor, the office of Center of Foundation Studies to collect my Lab coat, as I'd try the size and pay for it during the Faculty Day last week.

Unfortunately, the size I've taken is out of stock, that was XS. Then he gave me the size S. I think more or less the same, but still a little bit longer. Never mind, I've no choice.

The way I look when suit up my lab coat here.

Looks alike A doctor?! Professor?! Haha

I like this lab coat sooo much. I love this looks long time ago. Haha.

counted successful on my dream?! ^^

---The End---

First Lecture Class

2012-05-27T21:11:00.000-07:00

Good morning everyone !
My Year of Foundation First Trimester started today.
This morning was my first lecture class.
I'm heading university early morning to attend the class.
Here I am =)

Heading to Uni Capture ^^

Lovely Converse on the way. Haha

The class not as bored as I think. Quite interesting. Today subject was Mechanics.

But there are around 150 students in the hall. Quite a lot.

Anyway Have a nice day today.
and good luck for tomorrow ! =)

Ice-Breaking & Telematch

2012-05-25T07:59:00.000-07:00

Today is still my University Orientation week.
I think is the last day for the orientation, and today was the Ice-Breaking session.
The unfriendly me no planned to go before but was infected by my friends, and so I joined.
Wow.. I hate the most, woke up early in the morning today and went to my University by 7.30a.m. As we're cycling, so must awake earlier to have enough time to reach there on time.
Luckily, our friends are separated into different groups but I met 2 friends in my group. How lucky I am, because I afraid of meeting new friends in a totally strange groups.
One group are around 20 person. And I'm in the group of 11. =)
There are around 450 of students there. Quite a lot it seems.
Anyway, I'd played a lot of games today. But all on water gaming. They sets all the punishment to let those students get punished on wet their bodies. And so included me ! I'm wet !
At the last part of the games, The Telematch.
All those games we played on any sections, we'll get a code. At last, by using all those codes, find out those alphabet, and match it to become a words.
Hehe.. I'm clever this time. Somehow I do not know why I could found the words.
So happy even though no special prize, but I help out our group. :)

Another happy things to share today was I help out a cycling girl in my university near the heritage hall.
When I was on my way back to hostel, I'm with my friend, and I saw a girl stand besides the road and try to fixed her bicycle. I walk passed and turn around again ask her whats happening to her. She told me her problem and we're trying to help out. But we've tried our best, still can't fixed it. I suggest her to call up the bicycle shop phones for service. She called and wait. I say take care I got to go now it's late, and say smile and thanks us.
I feel really good after I helped the girl.

Happy Day ! ^_^

Today was really a nice day. =)

My New Life at Kampar, Perak

2012-05-20T22:43:00.000-07:00

Hey there,

as you know, recently I moved from my hometown to Kampar, Perak for my further study at University Tunku Abdul Rahman ( UTAR ).

I just checked in my hostel under my university, Danish House.

The room looks clean and tidy.not bad still. But the first night after I checked in, I found that my room wardrobe drawer got 4 cockroach. WTH?!

I panic and ran down to ask my friends for help. Luckily they caught 4 of it. Thank you very much.

I made a complaint next morning, the management some more told me they cant do anything because the room before they passed to us had cleaned and the room now should clean it by ourselves. Oh Damn !

Hey yo! New Life at Kampar. Must be an independent Girl.

Woots. My keys. Keys for rooms,house gate and door, lock for bicycle, computer lock. Damn many.

Thats all for my updates here. Have a Nice Day !

Miss you mummy daddy and my bro and friends at my hometown !
Learning to be independent ! Wish me Good Luck ya ! :)

GoodBye Hometown

2012-05-17T11:01:00.000-07:00

Hey there,
it has been a long period of time I'd gone out for blog-ing.
Miss my bloggy sooo much ^^

Anyway, Bad news updates here,
I'm gonna to leave my hometown so soon and heading to Kampar for my further study.
Say GoodBye to my Sweet Memorable Hometown. :(

Thanks a lot and really much appreciate my dearest friends for giving me the best farewell ever.
I do love you guys.
And those precious gifts. I'll sure bring "them" along, accompany me everyday.
Keep In Touch Guys, Don't forget me !

" I'll be back not because of everything is wonderful here ( my hometown ),
but there is somebody I couldn't found at there "