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Becoming a Farmer

2011-05-05T05:41:00.000-07:00

Wow... It has been a long time since I wrote a blog. I'm sorry for the 3 people that actually read my blog. Lol.

So i'm living in Carrollton now. I graduated from School of Ministry, still waiting on my bachelors degree, but i'm done! :) My parents bought a home out in Carrollton, GA. The first couple of months were rough out here because the house basically had to be renovated because all the wiring and drywall had to be redone. So some weeks in the beginning there was no electricity and this was in the winter still. So I slept by the fire place on a air mattress. That air mattress was my bed 3 months, that wasn't so bad, it was having to pick it up every morning and putting it on the back porch so the men can work on the house during the day and bringing it back in at night close to midnight every night. There was a week somewhere in the 3 months that we didn't have running water as well, so I would go outside and wash my hair with a water bottle. It was at that point that I realized the God was preparing me for something. Lol.

Man... so much has happened since I last wrote a blog! I have job now its a part time job at CVS. Its a job! I'm slowly on my way to fulfilling my goal. At first I wasn't getting anywhere because I had major truck problems which took away everthing I made. I am now at a spot now, where every paycheck I am able to pay some towards my debt. I was hoping to get a second job but at the moment I'm making pretty decent hours, but I may still get one in the future.

The last thing I wanted to write about is about the title. My parents went to a family reunion last weekend in florida, I had to work. But they came home with a farm! Yes that's right a farm! We now own a baby goat, a rooster, 4 chickens, and 10 baby chicks! So now every morning I wake up to a rooster crowing. The first day I spent half the day helping my dad build a chicken coupe and fed a baby goat with a bottle. We named the goat billy and he follows you everywhere you go outside. My dog thinks the goat is a dog so she keeps trying to sniff billy's butt. Lol.
So my parents say this is just the beginning, that we will get more animals later on.:) I never thought of myself as a farmer but I guess I'm going to start learning how to be one.

Hopefully it won't be so long before I write another blog. I still have alot more to say but I have to go do some farm work. Hahaha....

The wall

2010-12-20T08:10:00.000-08:00

Hey, its been awhile since I last wrote. Well i'm finally done with school of ministry for the most part. So now i'm on my next adventure but hopefully this adventure will not last as long as the last adventure. My goal is to get a job and pay off all my unpaid bills and save some up for my venture into full time missions. But as for right now I do not know where that will be.
So thats my plan but, these past couple of months have been pretty hard getting anywhere with my plan. I have been trying to get a job but no luck yet. I don't want to just sit around and do nothing though. I feel stuck with nothing to do and nowhere to go. He always does that to me though, I make a plan and go after and then things get switched around. I am at a loss as to what to do. I know I still have the same goal but as to how to reach that goal, I do not know. I was told this transition was going to be hard and they were right. Its hard to transition from doing something everyday and having your whole day planned out for you to not knowing at all what you are going to be doing the next moment. But that is the life I chose to go after and i'm not going to back down every time I can't see around the corner. I have to just remind myself why I chose this road and not listen to the doubters around me. I know He's got this! :)

Stolen Joy

2010-10-21T07:16:00.000-07:00

It is scary how fast the enemy can steal joy from you. He did it to me just last night. In a matter of minutes I was back in my past. I allowed the enemy to play with my mind and thoughts. I was back in his playground. He had complete control of my thoughts.

How? How did that happen so fast? How can I stop that from ever happening again?

I must be firmly planted in the word of God. I must be able to recognize his tricks and the negative thoughts that are planted by the enemy. Speak truth over the lies the enemy has fed me. I am more than a conquerer in Christ who gives me strength. I have to remember the call on my life and remember God's grace.
The enemy knows when to attack, he knows when you are most vulnerable. He knows what to use against us because he studies our ways and our insecurites.
We have to know when we are most vulnerable, so that can be ready at all times for an attack. The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy. But God has given a way out from the enemies traps. His way out is His truth.
This is what I would do. I will become more planted in God's word and know His truth. I will know when I am vulnerable and know when it is the enemy feeding me lies. I know my call and remember God's grace and mercy.
The enemy will not steal my joy again. I will not let him!!!

"For I know the plans, 'declares the Lord,' planse to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Windows

2010-10-19T19:58:00.000-07:00

I love it when God allows us to see little windows of our life. He allows us to see were we are now and how far we have come. I love those moments when I can see where I would have acted differently in certain situations than I do now. God gave me several windows today, where I saw that I have grown. Sometimes we forget how far God has brought and that is God has to remind us time to time. God has brought me very far. He is still doing a new work in me everyday. He doesn't have to the things He does. He is so gracious. Thank for sticking with me and not giving up on me even when I gave up on myself. He has brought me through tough times and gave me an amazing hope for the future. His Love gives you a hope for things that you on your own would never think was possible.
It is so cool to know that the best is yet to come! I have no idea what I will be doing in my life even 3 weeks from now. I do know that whatever it is it will be amazing because I serve an amazing God and if I am being used by Him in the littlest way it will be amazing. I do not remember the last time I had this much joy for this long. It is all because of His mercy that I am able to experience such great joy!
I can do anything if I have God in me and beside me. I no longer have fear of the unknown. I know if God calls me to it then He believes in me and who am I to doubt what God believes!
I stumble at times but I get right back up. In the past I would dwell on all the mistakes I make, but I have learned that does nothing but hinder ms from making things better. I know I will continue to mistakes but I know who to turn to first now and that is God. He always picks me up when I fall, forgives me, and tells me to keep going. He doesn't take away your gifts or what He has called you to just because you mess up. He knows you will mess up before you do. He uses the messed up sometimes. :) He did throughout scripture, why not now? I just don't want myself to get in the way of Him using me, like it did with Moses. God wanted to use Moses to speak to Pharoh but Moses did t think He was capable because he couldn't speak clearly. God knew about his speech impedament and He wanted to use him anyway. Moses didn't think God was big enough though. God still used Moses but He might used him alot more if Moses had believed he could Have been used more. I want to be used by God in the way He wants to use me despite my insecurities. God is much bigger than any insecurity I
have. I dont want have the regret of wandering of what could have happened if I allowed God to fully use the first time He calls me.
If you do read my blog I want to pray that God will give me wisdom over these next few weeks and that I will hear His voice clearly. I want to go and do whatever He says, so I have to be able to discern His voice from others. Let it not be mans, the enemy, or my own voice but Gods that I follow. Thank you for reading what is on my heart. :)

Nearing the end of this season...

2010-10-15T18:19:00.000-07:00

Hey guys sorry it has been so long since the last time I wrote anything. I do not have internet at the apartment and so that means I would have go out of my way to go write a blog and well. Lol. I'm just not a blogger unless I have alot on my mind or alot to say. So I guess tonight is one of those nights.
So I'm in the last month of this season of my life. I have no idea what is going to happen in a month from now none the less a few weeks from now. I do have some thought and ideas, but like I have said before it is all up to God and what He has for me. It is exciting and nerve racking at the same time. It is for sure an adrenaline rush. I know that whatever it is will be an exciting next season of my life. I love this part of my life. I love living life with God totally in control of my life. He is directing the sails of my boat. I can not think of a better way to live my life. Yes, I do have worries at times but when those worries come I try my best to replace them with God's word. If I have learned anything here it has been the only way you can defeat a negative thought is with the word of God.
My heart is to reach God's people anyway that I am capable. God has blessed me with the ability to move from place to place. I used to hate that my father was in the military and that we had to move around growing up but now I view it as a blessing because He was just preparing me for what He had for me in the future. I want to travel the world and share God's love to all His children. Not only has God has blessed me with the love of traveling He has also blessed me the thrill of adventure. I love that God can use anyone to do much greater things than themselves. He is a huge God! I am ready for my next adventure, wherever that may be! He is so GOOD to Me! I LOVE YOU GOD! I know that sounds cheezy but I don't care anymore, I really don't! I want to see the world the way God sees the world. I want to love the way God loves. He is such a gracious God!
Please pray that I will have wisdom in approaching the decisions for my next adventure. Pray that I truly hear God and that I will fully obey Him. Thanks for hearing me out and thank you so much for your prayers! You are an Awesome person for reading this. :)

Striving

2009-03-09T20:16:00.000-07:00

I have learned alot over the past few weeks. Some of the things I have learned I cannot even express in words.
I have no idea what I am going to be doing in the future, I don't even know what I am going to be doing tomorrow or when I get done typing this. All I do know is that if I truely want to follow God and to do his will then I need to learn to die to myself every second of the day. I need to concentrate on the now and what God has before me right now. I have made plenty of mistakes, some I cannot take back but God is not asking me to take them back, he is just asking for me to learn from them and give them to him. So I do not hold on to them any longer. I don't know how I am going to get through this season that I am in right now, but I do know I will get through it. I have to. It is a hard season but I know that I will learn much from it because I already have. I know God is preparing me for what he has planned for me in the future.
It has become too easy to fall. Too easy to give into the lies of the enemy. But as easy as it seems as tempting as it seems, it is not worth it. There is a better life then what the world and the enemy shows you. It is not easy but it is worth it.
I want to be driven again. I want to be on fire! I want to be passionate about God's calling on my life! I want to be thirsty and hungry for HIM! So much that nothing can ever stop me again or ever let me forget!

Fight

2009-01-29T15:15:00.001-08:00

So today was yet another day in which God decided to stretch me and give me a glimpse of what He is calling me into.

I was searching through piles of linens for a full fitted sheet. It is like trying to find a needle in a hay stack. So as I was sinking into the linens I got a call from charity and she asked if i could go with her to see someone at the hospital. It turned out someone who just recently started coming to church on sunday at the dream center tried to commit suicide today. He was at the emergency room and his mom was frantic. So charity stopped what we were doing to go and try to comfort her as much as we could while she waited to see what would happen to her son. He did not do anything as far as we know but he was very close to it. We stood there listening to his mother with tears rolling down her face as she began to tell us that she didn't know what to do he has been like this for awhile but this time it just got too close. He is 20 years old and lives in the house 14 other people doesn't have a job and just feels like he has nothing to live for.

We didn't get to see him becaus he was in the triage and we were not aloud to go in there. I just stood there as charity talked and comforted the mom. I just took it all in and was praying that God would show up not only for the son but also for the mother. We didn't get a chance to pray with her before we left because she went in to see her son and stayed in there to fill out paper work we told her to keep us updated if anything happens and if they were going to keep him for awhile or send him somewhere else. She was so surprised that the church would come out to see them.

We came back to the dream center and I picked up where I left off in the linen closet. But I will not forget what God allowed me to see. I pray that God will continue to bring the broken, hurting, lost, and sinful to us. I never want to get to busy with what I am doing and miss out on being used by God to reach His children. Never let me be the one speaking into the lives of those people, instead let it always be you through me, therefore I will not be concerned with what I am going to say.

I know that I cannot help others in defeating their battles when I cannot even fight for my own battles inside. I want to fight for myself, for THEM.

I am willing to be willing. Show me the things that I need to change in my life and let go so that I will never be in the way of being used by you.

My day or God's day?

2009-01-24T13:31:00.000-08:00

So I haven't posted in awhile....

God has opened my eyes to so many things lately. It is hard to explain in words but I have peace. I have not had peace in a long time but God has given me peace and I have finally excepted his gift. I finally can speak about my future without being anxious or worrisome of doing the wrong thing. I still don't know what He has for my future in detail but I don't even know what He has for me today.

I woke up yesterday just like any other day, but it was not like just any other day. I went to morning prayer and then instead of leaving as soon as it is over to see if i could get a quick nap in I stayed because a friend needed comfort. I left prayer and got ready for class quickly because i wanted to crame in some last minute studying for a test that turned out we didn't even take. He gave us an extension and will take next time. I was thankful. The rest of the time I had freedom to sit and take in what the teacher was talking about for both classes without beating myself up for not studying like i should have messing up on a test. After class I ran around to a couple different businesses to try to get some last minute money for our fundraiser and only sold 5. But when I got back I found out that one of my friends decided to buy 5 more from me so, it was a blessing. I then left got some lunch and then headed to the dream center for a day of painting, at least I thought. I got there and right when I got out of my truck charity walks out and asks if I am going on outreach with them and I told her I would have to ask. I called donna up real quick and she told me to go on outreach instead of painting. So I got on the shuttle with charity and the team from utah and left. We went and got some apples and bread from the warehouse to give out to an apartment complex. Most of the team went door to door handing them out while 3 of us stayed behind to bag them up for the team that was going out. As I was bagging apples one of the guys came back and told us that someone excepted Christ after getting apples and bread. The guy asked to recieve Christ in his heart so 2 guys on outreach led him in a prayer and he excepted God into his heart. How awesome is that! I have done alot of outreaches but not that often do get see actual fruit. God allowed us to see some fruit that they day though. Anyway on the way back to the dream center the lady from utah got a call from her daughter and found out that her daughter's husband's aunt died last night because her son shot her. Wow.. So her daughter needed money so they could go and be with the family. So then the lady needed to go to a bank to transfer money to her daughter's account. So I was asked to take her when we got back from outreach. We don't have the same banks as utah so we had find a cousin bank and the original directions got lost. I called the bank they found and just asked for the closest location did not know it was not a cousin until we got there. So they told us cousin bank and we started heading that direction by this time we were pushing for time because banks close at 5 and we are now in traffic. We got lost a couple of times and then finally got some concrete directions from my good friend angela. We made it to the bank on time then we had a new task at hand we needed to find a western union to transfer the money. Got stuck in traffic again but found one then headed back to the brdc. It only took us 2 hours for what we thought was only a 20 minute errand. It was all good though because we had fun with it and we accomplished the task in time and she blessed me with gas money. :) By the time I got back to the dream center it was 6:20 and everyone was gone and everything was locked up. So I left for home.

I said all of that because I started out thinking it was just going to be another day in school of ministry, but God had different plans for me.

1. Spent much needed quality time with friends
2. Was given grace and did not have take a test
3. Went on outreach and I love outreach
4. Got see fruit and God move on someone's heart
5. God allowed me to help someone in need
6. Got icecream with some roomates! :)

There is no telling what will happen when you totally release everything into God's hands especially your time.

Holiday Break

2009-01-02T19:35:00.000-08:00

This holiday break has been quite the experience for me. I have learned alot about myself and what areas I need to grow in. It has been rough but worth going through. I know God is preparing me for his work and I keep learning from my mistakes. I know now that it is better to see my mistakes and to go on than to just continuely condemn myself for them. I will never move on if I am always looking back on the things I have done wrong. I have to push myself to see the mistake as an opportunity to grow and do better next time instead of another reason to try to prove God wrong in calling me to do anything for Him. God knows more than anyone else what He is doing and He knows me better than I know myself. So I'm going to strive to stop holding myself back from God's blessings and calling and just believe He can do it! Its not about me, its about Him who lives in me! I am just a willing vessel trying to be obedient to the will of God by dying to myself everyday.

God can use anyone

2008-12-02T20:26:00.000-08:00

So i don't have very much time to do a blog but i just wanted to say just this little bit. I have always known through reading the scripture that God can use anyone, but it wasn't until I actually saw it happen in my life i really believed it. He can use people dispite what they are going through, because in the end it is not about you in the first place. So I know this is something most people already know or have heard in one point in their life if they have been christian for long, but I don't think anyone really realizes how true it is until it God actually uses them to do something beyond their own ability and despite whatever hurts or struggles they are going through in life. I will probably elaborate on this later when I have more time, but this has been on my heart and mind alot lately and I just had to get it out.

Take time to have fun!

2008-12-01T09:59:00.000-08:00

This is Mark and Chris. We took a little break in the walmart parking lot during our amazing race at the beginning of the year. We had a blast!

Everyday adventures...

2008-11-30T16:54:00.000-08:00

So I arrived at the dream center this morning for church thinking by chance this would be a normal day. That is funny because there are no normal days at the dream center that is what i love about the place. So anyway I get there and we have a waterfall coming down in multiple places in our back building. The sanctuary side has a new rood so it was fine but the other building has not been fixed yet and it rained all day yesterday. So anyway the roof is leaking majorly in the room above the kitchen. Man, I just realized I should have taken a picture. So that is what we did an hour before church started was mop and shop vac up all the water on the floor and put trash cans where it was pouring down. We have other leaks in odd places as well with water stedily coming down. The roof guy is suppose to come tomorrow, so pray that he comes and he actually starts working on it instead of just coming and looking at it. That building does alot throughout the week and it is still just the beginning of the many things to come. I hate to see it like that. Anyway I know God has it covered I mean He is the one got the building in the first place. It is all good. So on the to do list for this week wash all the towels that were used today in drying up rivers of water. WOO WHOO!!!! I love what I get to do and I don't mean that sarcastic at all. I truly love what I get to do everyday! I hate the normal, I would go crazy in a normal setting whatever that might be. Alright that is it for now. Hey 3 posts in a row thats pretty good. Sorry I don't have any pictures of today it is just not the first thing you think of when you see a waterfall coming down inside. :) At least I don't.

2008-11-29T13:27:00.000-08:00

I know this Long over due. But this was during the Hurricane. We were at the dream center. Not only did we run a shelter for a nursing home and assisted living patients we also painted Donna's office! We had alot of fun at the Dream Center as you can see in this picture. God did some amazing things during that week and a half there. It was my first time ever doing shift work for security! I will never forget that time in my life when God got me safely out of a hurricane not the one going on outside but the one going on inside of me. He is faithful and He knows where you are.

Its been awhile....

2008-11-28T14:34:00.000-08:00

Have really been through alot this year in the internship already. I don't ever write on here anymore because so much is happening in my life its hard for me to gather thoughts to write about just a smidgen of what is going on. But I am trying to get back in the habbit of writing blogs. Because I don't know where I am going to be next year and I want to have something for people to find out what I am doing and what kind of things God is doing through me.

So I guess I will just start with the most recent big thing. It was the thanksgiving outreach. I loved it! The part I loved was actually getting back testimonies before the outreach was even over. I also loved being actually a part of the delieveries 2 days after the outreach. The interns got to deliver to families that didn't get any that registered late. It was great opportunity to be able to go to familes and hand them a thanksgiving meal for them to be able to cook on thanksgiving for their family. The best part about that was being able to pray for them. There was not one family that turned us down when we asked could we pray for them for anything. One lady even prayed for us after we got done praying for her. I love where God has me. I still can't believe how amazing He is and how he can use someone like me dispite MYSELF. He still gets the glory.

Over 400 familes were delieverd a thanksgiving dinner!! In less than 3 hours i might add.... We had alot of volunteers!! :) Thank you God for letting me be a part of something Amazing and is a blessing to so many.

My Heart

2008-09-20T20:53:00.000-07:00

I already typed this up once and my connection got lost and the whole thing got lost, so I am not going to remember everything I wrote before but hopefully I will get the main point across.
Man looks at the outward appearance and God looks at the heart.

The real problem is who you are not what you face.

What comes out when we get squeezed and crushed

This came out of some old notes of mine and it really got me thinking.....

What is in my heart? Does God have my heart completely? Am I holding anything back from God?

Well I know I would love to answer that God has my heart completely and I am not holding anything from Him. I would love to say that when I am squeezed and crushed God will flow out of me, but I can't say those things. And it is very hard for me to admit that.

I want be able to serve God with everything that is inside of me. I want to have a pure heart. That means giving up everything that is not pleasing to Him. My question is how do you give up something that you have held onto as long as you can remember? The only answer I know to that is......GOD!

I want to be able go the distance and do the things God has called me to do. I know that means I am going be tested and tested and tested because I will not walk in those things until God knows I am ready. So i want to get that point to whene I am squeezed and crushed, the only thing left to come out of me will be God's Holy Spirit. I don't want even one corner or crack to be filled with something other than Him. I know God is getting ready now. That is why..... I WILL NOT GIVE UP!

Empty me God! I want more of you and less of me.

Holy Fire burn away my desire of anything that is not of you and is of me! FILL ME WITH YOU!

What is in your heart?

Desires and Passions

2008-08-24T18:00:00.000-07:00

So after church today I just sat in my car at the apartment because I didn't feel like getting out in the rain yet. So I sat and pondered everything I had just heard in church service today and thought about all the things God has placed on my heart. So I started writing....

I want to to have a heart that is willing and obedient to go and do to whatever and wherever God calls me. I have no idea what the future holds for me. I do know that the desire that are on my heart are not just there to be there but I believe there will be day that I see each one of the things God has placed on my hear to come to pass.

I have a heart for nations and cities! I want to love on the orphans everywhere and help them find their heavenly father. I want to go to the forgotten and the places most are too afraid to go to. I want to see hope brought to the hopeless and Joy to the depressed. I want to see chains broken from people who have been bound since birth. I want to see people fight for the freedom they thought they could never have. I want to love on the hurting, poor, and lost. I want to walk in the Holy Spirit and I want the Holy Spirit to guide each step and word that comes from me. I want to walk with courage and boldness like never before. I want show God's children how beautiful He thinks they are. I want them to see themselves how God see them. I want to see Hope, Courage, Faith, Love, Joy, and Peace brought to God's children. I don't want to get in the way of what God wants to do through me. I want to go the distance. And I want to go even when I'm scared.

I don't know what the future holds for me but I do know that it is not going to be no ordinary life with an ordinary job. :) God knows the desires of my heart and He knows I love an Adventure! :) Here I am Lord, send me!!

What I am learning...

2008-07-30T17:52:00.000-07:00

Would I be found guilty of prayer and worship to God?
When God test our faith He often puts us in situations where we can't find any other way out but Him. -No Escape
I can not forget about the power of God. When we are obedient and trust God He wil show up.
The inexcapable platform of pain provides the undeniable proof of faith. God can bring us through unhurt.

Wow... God is...undescribable. There are never any words that can truly describe Him. Why do we so often decide not to trust Him? We have seen so many times before that He takes care of it all even better than what we had in mind. Sometimes we even find ourselves trusting strangers before we trust God.. what is up with that?

Stand up person in a Bow down World

2008-07-20T17:34:00.000-07:00

Alright, this was sermon that was preached awhile back and it is a good one too...

Fear can play a part of living for God or bowing down to something else. There is always a second, third, and fourth chance to compromise. Are you going to take those chances? Here are some examples...

We can't let ourselves get killed. Will you deny Christ if it meant you would lose your life if you didn't? God has the expiration date not man.
This is a foreign land. Even though they have a different culture and different beliefs will you change yours to show respect to them or will you stay true to yours? There is always a line to be crossed.
Lets bow down and not mean it. Bowing down is a sign of surrender. God is a jealous God.
Just do it one time. That one time opens a door for the enemy to come in.

Fear the eternal fire rather than fearing the temporary fire. Let your faith be fireproof! Worship God while you are in the fire.

Deliverance came through trusting. There is no other God who can deliver like our God.

What you see...

2008-07-13T11:41:00.000-07:00

Ministry is about what you see.
Are you going to see it the first time? You are going to have to see past the natural and see it right away. Your definition of ministry is going to be tested. You can no longer look at things in the natural, you have to look with spiritual eyes. Not everyone is going to see what you see. They are not going to see what God has shown you. But you cannot let that take away what God has showed you. Just keep praying that God sees it and try to see it like God sees it. I want to see things through His eyes. You also have to be careful of getting tunnel vision and take a step back so that you can see beyond what is in front of you. God is much bigger than just what is in front of you.

This was a message preached awhile back, almost a year ago. It still speaks to me. I so want to be able to see things they way God sees them. I want to see myself how He sees me as well as others. I want to look at God's children as He looks upon them. I know I will always be tested because I have chosen to follow God. Therefore the enemy will bring all kinds of tricks my way to try to trap me in confusion, blindness, and worryiness of what God can actually do in and through me.

Epic Worship Album

2008-07-11T11:28:00.000-07:00

The new Healing Place Church album is here . . .EPIC WORSHIP! It was a LIVE recording from the Amplified weekend. The new album contains 13 original songs that can be found at the HPC online store. Check it out on HPC's website or itunes! I really do love the Album!! :)

Who Am I?

2008-07-10T16:47:00.000-07:00

O.k. so I came across this in my journal today and I just felt like putting in a blog because it is so bold!

1. Who am I?
- I am a child of God
- I am a daughter of the Kind
- I am LOVED by my Father
- I am a princess
* She is selected
* Held in high regard
- I am a warrior
* We have to fight for God, family, and friends
- I am a fighter
* We can't give up on our calling
- I am a servant
- I am a follower of Christ

Wow.... There is more in the journal entry but I just wanted write about this for now. I mean that is some pretty bold stuff, don't you think? Why can we not walk in that kind of authority everyday of our life? God says we are these things so why don't we walk in these things? I want to be that warrior, fighter, servant, princess that God has called me to be! I want to fight for what I believe in! I want to follow Christ with everything that is inside of me! I want to fully except the LOVE the God has freely given to me! I'm sorry God! For not excepting your gifts! Why won't I except them? I want them..... I desire them.... something is still keeping me from excepting them fully though.

More Walmart Fun!!

2008-07-07T18:33:00.000-07:00

Hard times...

2008-07-02T21:02:00.000-07:00

Why do we make it so hard to trust in God? He proves Himself time and time again with one situation after another and yet we still find excuses not to trust that He will take care of us. It is hard to trust in Him fully but its even harder not to trust in Him fully. We are just blinded by logic and what the world says we should be doing with our lives that if we do anything other than that we are not being smart and its not going to work. I'm tired of being weak and not staying strong in what God has promised me and believing God will provide a way. I'm tired of having doubt in myself and what God can do through me. I'm tired of being pulled back into my old thinking habits. I'm tired of having joy torn away from what God has blessed me with..... my life! I want to be strong enough! I want to be bold enough! I want to walk in the authority God has placed in my life! I know God has given me all of those things, but why can't I except them? Why can't I use them? I'm tired of not excepting blessing because I don't feel I deserve them! If you are reading this... I'm o.k I just wanted to get some things out.

He listens and He knows...

2008-06-30T10:39:00.000-07:00

So most of you know i almost had a near death in the family. It came at me as a shock and I truly did not know what to do. I have never had anyone die that was really close to me before. But God showed up! The doctors did not think my papa would make it and if he did they said he would be paralyzed on the left side. So far none of that is coming true! He is recovering and moving all of his body! All because our GOD listened to our prayers and cries for healing in his body and knows our hearts! :)

My Grandma and Papa have always been the people I have honestly looked up to my whole life. From when I was little I would always go to visit them during the summer and go fishing with my papa and ride horses at my uncles. I look up to them because you don't see many marriages like theirs. They truly put God first in everything they do and they have stayed together for over 60 something years. My Grandma is a sunday school teacher and she sings in her choir. My Papa is does pretty much everything around his little old church besides be the preacher, but I'm sure he could do that as well. They have just always been faithful with everything they have done in life and I really look up to them as spiritual leaders. So when I decided I was going to follow God and go wherever and do whatever He calls me to do. It meant so much to me when they said they were proud of me. Their little church has kind of adopted me as their missionary. They have supported me every step of the way. I love them so much and they mean so much to me.

Thank you ALL so much for continuing to keep my Papa in your prayers!!!

What FUN you can have with no money!

2008-06-30T06:40:00.000-07:00

We saw an opportunity to have a little fun with the camera in Walmart so we took it. After the last hit, Mary Beth was getting ready to kick me in the head, but I told her that there is a walmart worker behind her!