simple things

moving, cleaning, and swine flu

2009-11-08T15:57:00.000-06:00

Can I just say I am sooo glad October is OVER! It was the worst month ever! Not that November is kicking off in style or anything, a 1900.00 water damage bill from our house in the "other town" did little to help my mood! However I do see the silver lining and know that the shower there is finally fixed and we can look forward to a year of renting it with no worries.... I HOPE!

So we moved to a new house and let me tell you it took FOREVER for us to move by ourselves. I guess when you are moved you just take a look around and say....yup....pack this shit up! When you move yourself you take a look around and say.....wait a minute...do we really want to move that shit?

We have had a lot happen to us in this month.

1. We moved and it took ALL Month

2. Karl went out of town in the middle of the month, and he was in budget month all month while we were moving and let me tell you we were both stressed the eff out!

3. The most important thing this month that happened was Kena turned 1! Her theme was lollipops, because she just LOVES lollipops!!!! So for her birthday party I made homemade lollipops and put an edible picture of her face on them. Edible kena pops :) They were adorable, however they did come out a little softer than they should of. I will attribute that to the corn syrup I added to the recipe.

4. We entered in a chilli cook-off and we WON! Well we won best new comer of the year :) My chilli was called "Mean Monkey Chili" and Karl's was called "King Kong Chili". We had fun and it was worth the stress. The name of my chili was based on two books I read to Kya, Mean Soup and Monkey Soup. Both books are well worth a look up and read.

5. My sister and my foster mom both came out and visited this month which was awesome!

6. Kya and Kena both caught the swine flu. It was the worst two weeks of my life. Kya was sick for 9 days with 103-104 fevers non-stop and breathing trouble. We wound up in the ER twice. I didn't really give my self the time to freak out, but when it was over I realized just how scared I was! Counting your baby 3 year olds breathing at 3am while listening to her chest rattle and wheeze is not an event I want to ever repeat! When Kena got it I rushed her straight to the Dr and I am forever thankful for the Dr and the pharmacist who came in after hours to make sure she got tamiflu that night. I tell you Tamiflu is worth its weight in gold!

Don't even get me started on the H1N1 flu mist and how you can get sick from it or from just being around those who had it!

As I type this up Karl is still moving boxes around and we are still getting the house organized. Sorry for not commenting on your blogs or posting this month. It has been a little crazy this month and I am just thankful it is over!

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moving again...

2009-10-05T00:35:00.000-05:00

So a new cute rental house literally fell into our lap. I am so ready to be out of this house. It served its purpose but I am ready for a house that is ant, mouse, and mold free...( I really think the pipes in this house are clogged with filth and the basement is so damp I think it permeates through the whole thing.

Karl has been working 16-20 hour days almost straight for the last two weeks. During the week he will come home, eat help me get the girls in their pajamas and then turn around and go straight back to work. He hasn't even seen the new house yet. I rented it and called him to tell him we were moving. So we paid rent in both places. We have one month to move. I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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whew that was close...

2009-09-24T23:46:00.000-05:00

I was driving down the road with Karl and I was putting lotion on my hands. I took off my bracelets because sometimes the lotion turns the silver black. I wear two bracelets everyday. I never take them off... in fact I am a serial jewelry wearer. If I put it on it stays on until it literally falls off... Or I have to take it off to not ruin it. Like my butterfly necklace! Lesson there learned. If I didn't take it off before a shower the water would make its way into the necklace and get the wing of the butterfly wet. NOT GOOD! The artist Neile sent me a replacement (totally sweet of her).

Well, my one bracelet slipped down between the seats of the car. I couldn't reach it. I thought I would wait till I got home to get a paper clip or pen or something to try and get it out.

Fast Forward:

I went to get the car cleaned out and washed the other day. Guess what I forgot to do! YEP... Get my bracelet. This is my sister bracelet the one I gave all my sisters. Including Angel.

I forgot about it until I walked into a playdate and saw a friend wearing a similar heart pendant bracelet. I ran out to the car to check on it and sure as shit it was gone. And well....

I LOST MY SHIT!

I realized my bracelet means more to me than anything! I mean it ranks up there with my original wedding set and my new wedding set. It means everything to me.

I bawled cried my mind raced.... HOW in the world was I going to get it back? It had been sucked up by the worlds largest vacuum cleaner and lord knows what those car wash places suck up.

Apparently a lot. Because when I called the manager told me they look through it before the dump it. Sure enough... there was my bracelet in the trash.

I picked it up and put it back on my wrist where it will remain forever....

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Writing has become well writing...

2009-09-10T22:58:00.000-05:00

I have soo many things going through my mind, so many stories to tell but lately I have a hard time getting them out of my head and onto the screen. I feel like it all comes out in a written sort of garble.

Kena is about to turn one and I find myself literally in disbelief. I know I have said this before but I feel like I have missed something. Like half of her first year vanished before my eyes and I missed it. It feels like she should only be 8 or 6 months not 11. I feel like I didn't examine every little aspect of her first year the way I did for Kya.

Kena has added a joy to my life I never knew I needed. She is the best cuddler and hugger ever. She gives me kisses and hugs when she wakes up in the morning without being prompted or asked. She is always smiling and loves to explore. She is a quiet soul and only cries when she is really hungry and tired. She is a flirt and coy, loves her daddy bunches.

She loves lollipops, bugs, and anything Kya is playing with. She follows her sister around like a puppy dog and demands equality. If Kya has it or is eating it.. SO IS SHE!

Now here is the question... am I done? Am I done having kids? I don't really feel done. I feel like I should have one more, or maybe even two. Realistically I think I should be done. I have two hands, I can carry two, two seems like a realistic number. My heart wants more. I am getting to old, to tired and lets face it my body STILL hasn't bounced back from Kena. I really do not want to see what will happen if I have another. There is the whole c-section thing... ANOTHER C-SECTION! uggggggggg I was afraid the whole time with Kena I would die. SO there is that too....

I wish I would of started younger some days.... but then I would not be the same parent. I am a much more mature, patient, and giving mother than I would have been at lets say 21. So while I wish I would have started younger it is only because then I would have 4! Sooooooo that is where I am. I want more, but I don't want more. ohhhh the insanity of it all...\

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we are back....

2009-09-04T22:22:00.000-05:00

I have to say this was the best vacation ever... even though we hit a screwdriver on the way and had to change a tire on the side of the road, stop at a town for a new tire to replace the shredded brand new tire..... it still ROCKED!

We spent the whole day on the beach.

Basically we woke up, ate breakfast, put on sun screen and suits and went to the beach. We would come back for lunch, take naps, wake up put on sunscreen and suits, go back to the beach, come in for dinner. At night we would grab a kite, flash lights to look for crabs, or just collect sea shells. It was amazing!

I am still collecting myself and getting on normal time. Since we have been back Kya started pre-school, we had to go get our dogs, we had Dr appointments and as I type this most of my suitcase is still NOT unpacked. Not to mention we are turning around and going out of town again tomorrow.....

Oh and I am also gearing up for Kena's 1st birthday. Hard to believe she will be one in a month.
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beach house here I come...

2009-08-21T00:16:00.000-05:00

This is the view from the house we are renting. I can barely contain myself.....

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and then she was three...

2009-08-17T08:53:00.004-05:00

SO much has been going on in the simple household! We have had birthdays and parties, and many many photo shoots!

I know every single mom says this and I know this is sooo not original but holy shit I can't believe how fast the last three years have flown by! I can barely believe I have two children let alone my baby girl Kya turned three!

I am currently preparing to go to the beach/ WOOHOO... those of you who actually read me know I have been dying to go to the breach for two years now! Well I am finally getting my little wish.

Before Kya was born we went to the beach every year. Well babies have a way of turning your world upside down and inside out. In a good way, but def different.

I will hopefully be posting while we are at the beach. I am looking forward to taking pictures of the girls at the beach! woohooooooo

here are my faves from her 3 yr photo shoot and her birthday party.

and can I just say I flippin ironed that whole sheet and when we were done and Kya was in bed I went to edit the photos and realized you can still see the lines GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I made her skirt from a blogger i read and I can't for the life of me remember which one she is! So if you read me and you did this skirt first I love your blog and I read you... I just can't remember which one of you it was... grrrr i hate that. I made the t-shirt with a white t-shirt from walmart and fabric paint. I printed a 3 from my printer and then used an exacto knife to cut out the 3 on freezer paper. Made by Rae taught me how to do this!.. Kya actually painted it. WHen it is dry you peel off the freezer paper waa laaa a 3 shirt!

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Just three more minutes...

2009-08-07T01:05:00.000-05:00

Every time I ask Kya to do anything she doesn't want to do, she will ask for 3 more minutes. "Just three more minutes mom!" Preeeaasseee JUST THREE MORE MINUTES!"

My parenting Style:

1.I have no idea where this three more minutes came from, or why three is the magic number. She hates to be side blinded. If she is playing I need to give her a 5 minute count down. As long as I give her a count down the world it all roses. It is when I say, ok lets go time for bed... or ok no more TV... or put that down and lets get in the car. She looses it. I really don't blame her. If Karl did that stuff to me, I would be all like.. wooaaaaaa dude.. .I am busy.... give a girl some warning alright! SO even though YES i am the mom, and YES what I say goes, I do give her the common courtesy of a warning, when and if it is possible.

2. I also like to give Kya choices. For example if Kya is throwing a fit and refusing to go to bed, or pick up a toy, or stop putting her feet in her sisters face, I always give her two choices.

choice sets:

a) you can either walk to the bed room and smile and read books

b) you can cry, kick, and scream as I carry you to bed and get no books

(she always picks A once I was carrying a sleeping Kena and Kya did the dead weight thing uggggg)

Choice sets:

a) you can either pick up the toy and put it where it belongs

b) mommy can pick it up and throw it away

(she ALWAYS picks A... because I tell her if you treat your toys like trash then so will mommy... to date I have thrown away a barbie, a baby doll, a necklace, and a pair of shoes (dress up dollar store)... also if she throws her toys while she is mad... like at me or something I throw it away. If you throw it you don't care if it breaks so I will throw it away. After I threw away her Cinderella doll she runs to pick stuff up if I ask. I am all about sacrificing a 20 dollar item for a lesson learned. Also she NEVER throws anything at me, those dress up shoes were a lesson learned quickly. She is allowed to be frustrated but we don't hit people we love, especially with objects!)

Please note.. I do not yell or scream at my daughter, my voice is loud as it is I personally do not need to really yell and I don't think it does any good. I do however discipline and reprimand gently...with the occasional eye roll and holy poop mutter... common I AM HUMAN! I also do not ever under any circumstances ever ever ever.... never ever believe in corporal punishment, spanking or swatting, or anything! I also don't believe people who say their kid needs it. I believe it is a control and anger issue and done out of frustration. utter frustration. I believe in "persuasion through love" and hitting does not come from love.

Now the putting her feet in her sisters face? I am at a loss.... I mean I explain in over and over and over but....but it is like her feet and kya's face are two magnets lol... I guess time will only tell. I mean she is only almost 3 in a week!

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a fish in the hand...

2009-07-31T22:42:00.003-05:00

We went to the local fair again this year and it was once again a blast! Except this year I am not waddling around and needing to sit down every 5 minutes.

Daddy won Kya a fish this year and well she just LOVES it. Now my job is trying to keep the thing alive for as long as possible. Today we stopped at a pet store in a town about an hour away and bought her fish a fishy friend.

Neither of the fish have a name, she changes the name of the fish every five minutes which just makes me laugh and smile all at the same time. Kya just cracks me up... Today in the car when she was trying to get me to pay attention to her over and over again I had to tell her I was busy and had to pay attention to the cars around us she sighed and said, "you break my heart mama" to which I just have to smile and tell her I am sorry I have broken her little bitty heart.

So the fish are most likely going to die, i mean really it is inevitable, however I am thinking we should actually make an investment in a real fish tank because the bowl is hard to see into and Kya really can't watch them swim around... which is mainly the whole point in having a gold fish right?

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that shit ain't swag...

2009-07-30T22:17:00.000-05:00

I have been reading all over the blog world about all this hoopla and drama over swag at the blogher conference. Lets get this straight.... CROC's ain't SWAG... some free sippy cup shit and dvd's aint SWAG... Some lame ass pencils, pens, and the little kodak recorder you got... that ain't SWAG! Pushing, getting upset, and writing about the SWAG you got makes me laugh... cuz my dears that shit ain't SWAG!

You guys aren't famous celebrities getting paid to host or BE SEEN at an award show. You guys aren't even blip's on the screen of the Internet in this great big world. The shit you got... was a bunch of leftovers they had, and marketing said... "Hey yeah why don't you go to that blogher thing those people keep HOUNDING us to sponsor and throw some free ~~bobble heads~~ Mr. Potato heads at..."

Last time I checked SWAG involved a huge basket being personally delivered to you buy a guy wearing a head set attached to some sponsor with A LOT OF MONEY! Someone who also was soooo impressed by you they wouldn't shove you into a small room with a bunch of needy, grabby woman all looking at the same little bag with a sippy cup inside drooling over it.

SWAG involves Manolo Blahnik , Mania Perfume by Giorgio Armani, and some new Apple IV iphone you haven't even seen advertised yet. Along with an hour long massage by the HOT guy in the corner. Or a tent you are given an assistant to personally escort you through before the big event. SWAG involves being PAID and BRIBED to be at an event.. You my friend....PAID to go there.

That shit you got....that ain't SWAG.... that is called FREEBIES! SO stuff that free pen in your junk drawer and get over it.

** noted to add**
Over the last couple of years I have thought as soon as my kids are done nursing and I am no longer pregnant I would love to go to blogher... However after every Blogher event there is such a negative vibe. People always saying ohhh but other than THAT it was great. Seems to me it is just going to get worse... so until it does get professional and less high school reunion esk', count me out. I would rather spend my money on a real vacation.

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what does age mean anyway...

2009-07-27T01:26:00.003-05:00

Here I am 36 years old and I seriously feel like I should be 26 not 36! How did the last 20 years or so slip past me?

Speaking of age Kena is going to be 1 in like 2.5 months! That just really blows me away. Kya seemed to take FOREVER to turn one. I feel like Kena's first year has gone by way to fast and I want these last two months to SLOW DOWN already! SHe is cruising all around the house, grabbing anything she can to pull up and walk around. SH ewill slide down my lap in the morning when she is done nursing and just about grin the biggest grin ever, because she is just as pleased as pie she can crawl around on her own. I rearranged the book shelf today so all of her books are on the bottom shelf. Then I realized I haven't read as much with her as I did with Kya, so starting tomorrow I am going to select two books every morning to read with her while Kya is still asleep. Once Kya is up I am chopped liver and it is all Kya all the time. Tonight Kena was blowing on her food after I did because it was hot. SO CUTE! ahhhhhhh if I didn't have to have c-sections I would sooooo have another one.

It really does feel like I had her last month.

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it's a beautiful day...

2009-07-24T08:34:00.003-05:00

to put some clothes away? UGGGGGGGG! Why is it that no matter how often I put the clothes away and swear to myself I will stay on top of it next week, it never happens. NEVER. I will inevitably have a huge pile of laundry needing to be put away, and when I say huge I mean HUGE! IT is the one thing I can not seem to figure out. When I try to put it away during the week it just never gets done.

Dinner: Dinner is also the bane of my existence. I never plan ahead enough to have something really yummy in the oven. Ohhh well about once or twice a week I will succeed but more often than not I am scrambling at 4 or 5pm to figure something out. As much as my husband likes to think he is not a picky eater he is a VERY BIG picky eater. For example: He soaked some steaks in a soy sauce marinade, it ended up in the marinade for three days due to schedules and laziness... not wanting to grill etc. When we did grill it it was very obvious the marinade had penetrated the meat. When you cut into it there was a clear line where the brown marinade had gotten to then there was a pink line of medium cooked meat. It looked a little weird. SO he did not eat. Hubby would NOT eat the meat.

I get mad all the time. For a while I was trying new dinners and trying to cook from my crock pot. I made a meatloaf in it. He wouldn't eat it because it wasn't like the one I always make. He literally wouldn't eat hamburger meat.

Hubby will not eat, tomatoes, green peppers cooked in food, meat of any kind he has decided he can not trust, i.e. color or texture.... squash, avocados unless it is in guacamole, Brussel sprouts, broccoli unless it is smothered in cheese... chicken at all unless it is BREAST MEAT ONLY, cauliflower, carrots cooked, cabbage unless it is sauerkraut, pork, steak, and chicken needs to be cut at least 1/2 an inch off of the bone or fat, NO Mushrooms of any kind, no tomato soup, pea soup, bean soup, he will eat the meat out of vegetable soup, no fish of any kind however he will sometimes if in the mood eat fish sticks, no seafood at all, no shrimp, crab, mussels, scallops or clams, no tuna fish. No vegetable lasagna, no eggplant, crock-pot concoction of any kind unless it is meat. Nothing that has been in my refrigerator for a week, but if we go down to his moms he will eat ANYTHING she serves him KNOWING she gives us expired shit all the time.

You wonder why dinner is the bane of my existence... *sigh*

So tonight I am throwing some pork ribs into the crockpot and making a side of rice...

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unfriending in the new age...

2009-07-23T00:00:00.002-05:00

i don't know why I believed we were friends.... i should have known you were a friend shifter when you didn't come to my baby shower, but I went to yours, you didn't come to my wedding anniversary, didn't even call me to see if my babies were ok after I had them but I did all that for you... you didn't even call me to see if I was ok after my sister died or to see if the move went ok.... but you know what just put the icing on the cake for me... your twitter account, and a lack of me on it. How dare you say your mad at me for missing ONE lunch date.... when you my dear have missed my life.

SO call me tacky, call me whatever you want.... but don't call me your friend, because I am a good friend and I deserve better than that.

adios....

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My Girls... my life... my way...

2009-07-18T20:17:00.009-05:00

My girls...

Kena is sooo cute lately she has begun what i like to call power crawling. She crawls all over the house and follows me around. The good thing about this house is she isn't confined to one room. Where Kya was basically confined to the living room for most of the day because of the steps Kena kid of just roams free. Of course within reason. the doors to the bedroom and bathroom are closed. She is allowed in those rooms but I like her to be at least within ear and head poking distance. Kya was bored where Kena is really getting to explore. Kya had only me to entertain her where Kena has Kya and me.....and lets face it Kya is WAY more entertaining than I am.

Kya really is the most polite little girl ever, it is really hard on her because we always have kids at our house playing with her stuff... and well being the two almost three year old she is and having a new baby sister in the house well she likes her stuff to be HER STUFF! I don't blame her, she shares her stuff all day everyday and well sometimes it gets old and you just don't want everyone using your stuff all the time. I do however require her to share her stuff and well these are lessons that will probably take a long time to learn.

Thankfully she has some really lovely playmates. I love how her friend Aubrey is so gentle with her, always remembering that Kya is younger than she is, and they never ever argue or fight or even get upset with each other. After we play with Aubrey, Kya asks for her almost every single day for a week! Arun is another friend Kya has had since birth and the three of them are really kind of kindred spirits. They enjoy being around each other and miss each other when they don't see each other. There are three new siblings to add to the mix but well, since they have been born I have moved away and it is hard to get the younger ones together on a regular basis although I am determined not to give up! There are two more girls and a boy who are all around the same age again. SO total there will be 4 girls and two boys... and each little boy gets two girls to play with! lol BONUS right :)

She also plays with a little girl named Averi, whom she takes gymnastic class with once a week. They also never ever argue or fight with each other. They play so sweet next to each other and they take care to make sure the other one always has something to play with. They are the same age and I hope they will be life long friends all though school.

She is a very lucky little girl she has many wonderful little friends. Heather the rockstar.... who is a tender hearted little whisp of a thing, Kya likes to call Feather.... Then there is Zipporah, whom Kya calls "Porah" head strong with an imagination as big as she is, you never know what she will say or do next... she is one step ahead of you that is for sure.

All of these little girls and boys are Kya's friends and that isn't even all of them. What a cute assortment of personalities.

On another note:
I always find it funny when adults question why I co-sleep with my children who are just that children. No one likes to sleep alone. Husbands and wives can go into detail about how alone they feel when their spouse is out of town. Or how they feel out of touch if one spouse goes to bed earlier than the other. Some spouses even have nightly rituals that include each other, they don't feel relaxed or comfortable if the other is not there. Yet we as adults expect our littlest ones to sleep alone. To curl up in a bed far away from the only thing they know to exist other than themselves....you. Woman are no longer taught to trust themselves or their instincts when it comes to sleeping with their chuldren. Nurseris, cribs, and bassinets are the tools we humans have created to try and make life easier for ourselves. When what we are doing is just the exact opposite.

so that is how i feel about that...
hmmmm

run fat dog run...

2009-07-07T00:02:00.003-05:00

I have two boston terriers. One boy and one girl. Mo and Sara. They are 14 and 13 years old. Between them they have had over 6 surgeries and multiple procedures! They have always gotten regular check-ups and all their shots on time. I do love my dogs. However lately it has been more of a love/hate relationship. I mean come on.... how many times can you clean out your dogs crooked tail hole, because yes her tail grew IN instead of OUT, and well it gets infected every now and then. I just wish they would grow up and move out and get their own place where they clean up their own poop and feed themselves... I am OVER IT...over it i tell you. I do love them though.

Both of my dogs have snored for years! YEARS I tell you. IN fact after having given birth to Kya I had to finally kick them both out of my bedroom because they snored LOUDER than my husband. I am not kidding you. Most of Kya's pre- birth video's are where she is rolling around in my tummy have Sara snoring in the back ground. My husband was so pissed I kicked them out of the bedroom he joined them in the living room on a bedroom return strike! Well silly little husband. Once you LEAVE the bedroom on a IF THE DOGS GO I GO strike... weeelllllll "don't let the door knob hit ya where the good sleep I am getting while your gone thank the LORD split ya" yeah so I kicked them ALLLLLLLLLL out of the bedroom. If you snore your OUT! I mean a person can be sleep deprived for only so long ya know!

Anyhow... I really digress....

Lately the two dogs were having a hard time breathing. I thought for sure the wheezing accompanied by a gag and an occasional puke fest were sure signs of heart worm. Of course it WOULD flippin be the first year I opt NOT to get them the heart worm they would get it. SO I loaded them up in the minivan convinced I would be having a HUGE bill for heart disease and god knows what else. The list in my head was LONG!

1. Mo and Sara could barely walk let alone breathe.

If they didn't have heart worm/failure Sara was limping and I thought for sure she had pulled her leg out of socket the day before and would need some kind of surgery. This was the real reason I finally made the appt. I mean they were old and hacking and waddling and limping but they were OLD!

Sooooooo 300.00 later the vet tells me they are just FAT!

FAT....

Thats it they are FAT...

Well I knew that.

I could of told you that.

So I resolved to relieve my husband from the dog feeding duties and I was putting them on a diet. A real diet.
I got the paper work from the vet. Bought the expensive diet food. And well put them on a diet.

Karl says they are old... let them be happy and eat what they want. I say let them loose weight so they can at least breath and give them one treat a day and take them for WALKS.. WALKS make them happier than FOOD!

bahhh humbugggg says the hubby. He has been in charge of feeding them for years. Plus over the last 4 I really have been pregnant and nursing and taking care of kids so the last thing I cared about was how fat the dogs were. Well I figured it was about time I paid attention. So DIET city for them. See I am not prone to feeling sorry for them. They lay around and get attention all day long, if they are hungry they will eat.

Well three weeks later and they are SKINNY! They haven't eaten in three weeks lol... but they are definitely skinny. They look like completely different dogs, and they are acting like puppies again.

but mostly.... They no longer SNORE!

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The fifth of July

2009-07-05T23:30:00.003-05:00

Is it just me or do you also hate the people who shoot fireworks off at 11pm on a sunday night the day AFTER the fourth of July?

Today is the birthday of one of my favorite people in the world. My sister.. my sista.. my sista from anotha motha..

The person whom I call when anything good, bad, and ugly happens in my life.

She dosen't really read my blog, but her hubby does... so tell my sister i love her.

*****

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tucks tuck tuck tucks........

2009-07-05T23:28:00.000-05:00

When you gave birth did anyone tell you to take tucks wipes with you>? I forget who actually told me to take them with me, but I dutifully went out and bought some and (no pun intended) tucked them into my little neatly packed hospital bag.

Now before i had kids I had never had the problem one would need to have in order to need tucks. But let me tell you. I sure as hell did after I gave birth... and I even had a c-section. I got the hemorrhoids from the "C" word. I swear I ate more flippin prunes than should be humanly allowed and yet I was STILL constipated and I STILL got hemorrhoids. Those babies are the worst.

My friend just had twins two days ago, and I am making a little gift basket for her. When I saw this on the mom central site i laughed and agreed to do a little ditty about it because, if someone doesn't tell you these little babies are the shizz and you should put them in your purse, then at least you heard it from me. SO I am going to give them to my friend whom I am going to see in Oklahoma Wednesday. Hopefully if she has the problem these will help her as well as they did me :)

Ohhh and I am one of the lucky ones.. mine actually went away. My MIL however has had the same one for 25 years! ugggg

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Galveston Tx

2009-06-28T23:14:00.000-05:00

I have been really craving the beach for a long time. Not to mention some of the women who's blogs I read are either living at the beach or they are going to the beach... either way I am jealous jealous jealous... happy for them of course *wink* *hugs* but still wishing I was either living with them or being packed up in their suitcase!

The other night I was telling Karl how much I really miss the beach. We were making plans to go to the beach in August in Ocean City< MD. The reality of the situation is it won't be happening.
1. It is a VERY VERY long drive with two kids.
2. I will not fly until I can take zanex again i.e. done nursing
3. I really hate flying anywhere you will be staying for over a week with car seats at 30.00 a day to rent, car to rent, clothes to stuff into small suitcases, stroller to schlep, connections to make
4. fuck it I HATE TO FLY! sorry i just do

I go back east at least once to twice a year! I have never ever not been home for longer than 12 months. Speaking of which why do I still say going to PA is going home when it hasen't been my home for over 15 years. Yeah.... I have no idea why I still say "going home".

SOOOO I went out and looked at rental houses in Galveston, TX and fell in love! They are beautiful and right on the beach. So I have convinced Karl to go to Galveston, Tx for a week the last week in August! YIPPPEEEEEEEE

I am inviting Karls family and my family to come down as well. It would be nice if we could have a vacation every year our kids go on with family to the beach. My sister lives in Dallas and my two brothers now live in Houston. SO really Galveston, Tx for a vacation is a no brainer. Hopefully they will join us. Before kids we went to the beach every year with my sister and my foster family. They also have extended family they like to spend time with as well as other traveling they like to do so with kids and timing it seems we have not been able to go for the last 5 years with them. I really really miss it. I miss the sand, surf and walking along the beach. Kya is really into building sand castles so I am hoping she will have fun. I am not a big SWIMMER per say.... I am more of a play in the surf kind of gal so hanging out with my kids in the sand is just fine with me.

yiippeeeeeee yippeeeeeeee..... now I just have to tell my best friend we aren't driving to Maryland before she reads it here :( i love you sweetie.....

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holy crap I am hungry

2009-06-27T00:20:00.000-05:00

Seriously I am hungry ALL the time. Well not in the morning when I should be hungry, but by noon or 2 I am starving and I can eat from noon until midnight! Right now I am craving a huge slice of cheese pizza from NY! Well we know that won't happen... but earlier I was craving a HUGE sweet potato, before that it was a big ass steak. You name it I have craved it. This nursing is crazy this time. At least that has to be what it is right? I don't ever remember being this hungry ever before I started nursing babies.

I am hoping when Kena weans herself I will go back to normal eating desires. Because right now I could eat anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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good times :)

2009-06-22T23:45:00.004-05:00

So many times I look back on my marriage and I honestly can not picture my life any other way! Even though we are living in a rental house, renting out our house 2 hours away. Living in a glorified trailer with mice and ants and only two small bedrooms. I have never ever been happier. I mean don't get me wrong some days as I am spraying down the ceiling with ant spray because nothing organic works and I think we actually LIVE on an ant hill, (and if I see one more ant crawl across the floor or my baby I will just about freaking loose my mind) I don't really mind this house!

We are probably going to actually start looking for a new house in a year or so. We want to make sure our house continues to rent out before we become responsible for a new mortgage. The last thing I want is to be responsible for two mortgages and not be able to handle it. We have budgeted so if we need to we can cover both and still be ok. Well OK, not rock star, but definitely OK! Every time I look at my hubby he is house hunting on the Internet. I think he is really sick of this house. I think he somehow feels where we live is a reflection on who we are. He feels like people look at where we are and assume he is not doing well for his family. I tell him.... when I look at people in big houses and brand new cars and all that stuff mostly I see time! Time spent trying to keep it. Time away from family. Now don't get me wrong, I know we are lucky to be able to afford what we have. However at the same time LUCK had NOTHING to do with it! We have worked very hard to have the education we have. The life experiences we have had have also gotten us to where we are. We both served our time in the military to put ourselves through school.

So me...being the little girl who grew up in government housing... I am in no way looking at our rental house as a flag staked in the ground as to who we are. Or who my husband is. On the contrary I look at it as what we are willing to endure and go through to ensure we raise our family the way we want. Through thick and thin we are a family.... Our little family....

So when my hubby looks on the Internet at all these houses, prepping to buy one next year... I look at them and think... ehhhhh its nice, but does it have a back yard for a garden? I NEVER would of said that 4 years ago! It is amazing how becoming a mother really shifts your priorities. Now don't get me wrong I have always been on the frugal side, but I have never wanted a garden or to live in the country!

We are leaving in two weeks for a little road trip to Oklahoma and Texas to visit my sister. I am sooo excited. Mostly because I really do enjoy road trips.

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Separate

2009-06-22T22:40:00.000-05:00

Yes- I have watched them. I use to like them. I am just sooo sad for their whole family. And I will say it. I think Jon is a complete wuss jerk ass!
Everyone is always saying how she is mean to him.. well uhhhh it is hard to be nice to someone who is like a 9th child.. and now he just goes and proves it. I am tired of people saying ohh poor jon she was mean to him, blah blah blah....... you only get treated how you let them treat you. He should of bucked up a long time ago. Now he is saying he got married to young, what a loser.

He got his ears pierced, bought a hot rod and is partying it up with young girls and cheating... it just all makes me sick.

He is a lazy husband, of course he isn't talking to her... he is talking to his GIRLFRIEND!!! WHat kind of man sleeps with a 23 year old and ditches his 8 young kids and wife... ohhh I know a LOSER!

I have never posted about reality tv and all that jazz... this just really makes me sad and angry for those kids!

he said he might get a job offer... lol.... why so he can QUIT that too? flippin LOSER!

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Happy Fathers Day honey...

2009-06-21T11:45:00.003-05:00

Father's Day... What a great day to be a great dad! Kya, Kena, and I bought daddy a t-shirt, two books to read called "my dad is great", and "Daddy's Little Girl", Daddy reads to Kya a lot. So i figured books were a good gift. The big gift is the gift we made at playgroup. The friend hosting had her dad mix cement and all the kids put their hand in, wrote their names and used beads to decorate them. SOOOOO CUTE! We are going to pick them up on the way out of town today. We are going to Karl's brothers house to celebrate with them and Karl's mom and dad.

I have never really had a real dad to celebrate fathers day with. My father and mother split up when I was 6 weeks old, he was never around. My mom and him had issues. He was abusive, and my mom was afraid of him. Who wouldn't be. Then his new crazy wife kept him from coming around, then my mom's psychotic live in kept him from us. Then my dad died when I was barely 15. I had just escaped the hell of having a step father who is trying to be your constant molester by running away from home, only to have my real father die in the hospital after a motorcycle accident.

I have never had the experience of crawling up on your fathers lap and knowing he loves you more than any other man in the whole world ever will. Crawling in a mans lap who is suppose to be your dad.....and actually not worrying if he was going to try to slip his hand down your pants when no one was looking. Told by him and my mother my whole life my real father didn't love me. Told he had given his parental rights away. In my mind he had given them away to a man who was beating and molesting me... where was the justice in this world?

I have also had men whom I have called dad of my own volition, men whom I have tried to make my dad. Only to find them truly indifferent in the long run. Not that they don't love me in their own way. Lets face it though if your not doing everythung you can to be around for the big events willingly your really just being forced and guilted into participating in my life. Who really needs that? Either of us. We can just be really good friends and drop the guilt. Just makes everyone feel bad.

Where is this going..... well

Fathers day use to make me mad and sad, as well as mothers day did. Lets face it all things to do with parents use to make me mad and sad. DO I mourn the fact that I never will know the love of a parent that is truly unconditional? Yes. However it no longer is a stinging pain... More of a dull ache in the back of my mind.

Knowing my daughters will have a completely different parental experience than I did, gives me a peace in my heart.

Having a husband who's love for his daughters is eternal, selfless, and will surpass anything our marriage does or does not face is a beautiful experience.

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artist time...

2009-06-19T23:51:00.001-05:00

I keep feeling guilty about not painting... I have no idea why. There is no time limit on me as an artist. Right now I am a mom, i am a mom first. My day is dictated by the whims and wants of a 2 1/4th year old and an 8 month old infant. I paint when I can, sew when I can... run and work out when I can... I am not unhappy about anything in my life right now so I need to give myself a break and not care if I do or do not create every free second of my day. If I want to veg out in the morning with a hot cup of coffee in front of the computer.... or pushing warm oil crayons between my fingers against canvas I should be happy about either.

I need to take every day as they come. My girls will be in school before I can believe it. I don't want to wish I had done anything but enjoy them, right here.....right now.
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taste great less filling...

2009-06-17T00:24:00.004-05:00

I think of things to blog about like ALL FREAKING DAY! Then I get here and I am like .....blank....

nada nothing i got nothing.

so here it goes the ever favorite post in bullets.

1. I have a dentist appt tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it at all!
2. Kya has started acting all teenagerish with the shrugging shoulders and the laughing during timeout and the go ahead mommy start timeout over.... see if I care.
3. My new camera sucks because I am tooo stupid to use it
4. I am putting a swim suit on tomorrow and I don't care who I blind.
5. My knee hurts and I need to go to the Dr to get a brace for running
6. I really really miss the beach
7. I really really really miss the beach!!!!!
8. I am hungry constantly this nursing thing makes me ravenous
9. Kena just turned 8 months and she weighs 19.4 pounds
10. I just paid 300.00 to be told by the vet my dogs are just FAT! SO Karl is no longer allowed to feed them. I think they have already lost 4 pounds in 4 days I shit you not! Mostly because they are on a hunger strike until daddy is allowed to feed them again. I have bad news for you MO and Sara... NO MORE just kibble...

kibble kibble and more kibble... ahhh kind of like this post..

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i double dog dare ya!!

2009-06-12T23:05:00.004-05:00

SO Andi and Miriam from MotherTalk just put out a new Daring Book for Girls (the Double Daring Book for Girls) and I am contributing to a book shower. What is a book shower, you ask. Well, from what I have heard and understand it's sort of like the fun version of a book tour but all on the Internet. So no real review of the book--just a lot of throwdowns, challenges, and double daring of people.

Here is what I am suppose to do:

• Pick one of the activities from the book

• During your post week, write about doing the activity and challenge readers to a throwdown to try to beat your time/performance
• Ask your readers to leave a comment if they've written about taking up your challenge.

Ok well I have been having a hard time trying to figure out which activity I would want to dare my readers to do! The one I WANT to do is the "How to dye your hair with kool aid" activity because HELLO how fun is that. But realistically who would do that besides me.

SOOOO I am challenging you to hang a spoon from your nose for longer than 1 minute! DO NOT CHEAT and bend the spoon.... you are only allowed to breathe on it to make it sticky... ok... go and let me know if you beat a minute. Get your hubby to do it to. Heck at the dinner table tonight challenge your family to see who can do it the longest and the winner gets a prize. Maybe a big slice of dessert OR doesn't have to help with the dishes.

Karl and I did it tonight at dinner and it was so cute watching Kya try to balance a spoon on her nose. Up until tonight I hadn't realized we had never done that with her yet. Of course Karl won so I CLEARED the dishes.... haha

Comment and let me know if you did it :) I can't wait to hear who you dared to do it with you.

I also challenge you to ACTUALLY color one of your kids hair with Kool Aid for the summer and send me a picture to post... I am actually going to challenge our playgroup to dye all the kids hair for the fourth of July Red and Blue.... I will have pictures up on the 4th. Let me know if you actually take my dare... COME ON! ONE PINK HAIRED girl will do :) How cool is a book that teaches a girl how to DYE their hair with kool aid. Where was this book when I was a kid?

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