The Purple Clad Jewel

Bathing Suit Wearing, Naps, The Letter B, and Library Things...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Mon, 12 Sep 2016 15:15:00 +0000

We have been busy, busy around here. Not a "oh my goodness- we have no time for anything" type of busy, but a taking care of kids, doing school, the big kids made a swim team, Ellie's doing pre-school, serving at the church, exercising, studying our bibles, teaching Sunday School, discipling our children- kind of busy.

Anyhoo, things are running along pretty smoothly. Babies are finally on sleeping schedules- both are finally sleeping through the night- and I feel like a new woman just having a full, uninterrupted night of sleep-
BAM- New. Woman.

Ellie, as always, is totally a rock star and continues to be sweet, kind, and the Queen of silliness.

I took her on a little date the other day and had to stop by the Post Office. While there she was eating a box of raisins. The lady behind us in line asked her if she knew where raisins came from.

She said, "Yeah. This box."

I'm mean really?. That. Kid.

The kind lady then proceeded to explain to her that yes, while her raisins did come out of that box, they originally started life as grapes. That made her laugh.

She basically refuses to wear anything other than a swimsuit these days, and being the "totally on top of things" mother that I am- I totally let her. Dentist. Library. Home. Grocery Store. She's shown them all that bathing suit wearing has no season. We've even had a few friends give us some hand-me-down ones just so she can change it up a bit.

I found her asleep like this the other day. I wish my other kids were so dedicated to their studies.

Henry- Just because he's so cute...

On our date we headed to the Library for Story Time...

They hear a story and make a craft...

She's so fun.

This past week she was learning the letter B in school. So we totally traced her Big Brother and then she decorated him...

It was so fun she insisted on decorating herself...

That's what's been going on. Hope everyone has a great day and week!

Happy Monday!

School Is In Session...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Mon, 05 Sep 2016 00:29:00 +0000

So School is officially in session here in the Land of Helder.

Three weeks in and I'm just now getting around to a First day of School picture post.

At this point in my life it's just a miracle that I'm finding time to do it before they're married.

Kane is a Big 6th grader.

Ruthie girl is a 3rd grader.

Ellie is starting some pre-school stuff.

And the Henry-man is crawling around eating stuff off the floor and pulling- Every. Single. Thing. off of -Every. Single. Shelf. in the house.

It's going great!

There's always a few bumps getting started but I think it's finally all worked out and we are now well on our way to a fabulous school year.

Ruthie Loves: Chic-Fil-A Sandwiches (I mean who doesn't?), having friends over, gymnastics, playing house, and movies.

Kane-man loves: video games, having friends over, reading, pizza, and going to his Aunt Tori's house.

Goobers...

Her desk all ready to go...

His desk all set up in his bedroom this year...

Daddy pics!

Ellie Loves: Bathing suits, marshmallows, swimming (she learned this summer), playing with her sissy, and pizza.

If you're curious what a day in the life of a homeschooler looks like- here it is- Our Giant wall of School work...

Hope Everyone is doing great and your school years are all starting off with a great, big, awesome Bang!!!

Blessings,

Celebrating 50 Years...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Sat, 20 Aug 2016 08:00:00 +0000

When we went home in July we were there to visit family, but a large part of why we went when we went was to celebrate my parent's 50th Wedding Anniversary.

50 years of marriage. Isn't that amazing!!!

I can't even begin to tell you how thankful and blessed I feel to have parents that love each other and are committed to each other. Talk about security and a great example!

Their marriage has been such a godly example to me of God's design for marriage.

One man.

One woman.

Sacrificial.

Loving.

Faithful.

Committed.

Respectful.

Trusting.

So in celebration of this grand event we did what most red blooded Americans do and we threw a party!

Me with my parents, and siblings...

Cousins...

Tons of friends and family stopped my to celebrate the happy couple...

My sweet friend Lindsay- was so good to see her!...

Thank you Mom and Dad for allowing me to grow up in a home where I knew that my mom and dad loved each other and were committed to the vows that they made before God and one another. I'm sure there were times when it would have been easier to throw the towel in and call it quits, but instead you made a decision to remain committed and faithful. Thank you for respecting the importance and the permanence of marriage.

Marriage is magnificent and glorious and often mysterious, and I'm so thankful you showed me the importance of fighting for it and enjoying it as the special gift from our loving creator that it is.

Blessings,

The Lake...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Thu, 18 Aug 2016 19:37:00 +0000

While we were back home back in July we were able to go with Nolan's grandparents and that side of the family to the lake for the day.

It's always so much fun spending time with them. They laugh, play games, tell stories... it's a blessing, and we are so thankful for each of them.

While at the lake we were able to swim (at least the kids did, because it was cold and rainy), ride jet skis, and ride behind the boat on tubes. Here's our day in photos...

The Kane-man was a little bent out of shape that I made him wear a life jacket for swimming... sorry dude...

I think she gets cuter every day...

Ruthie...

She's so pretty- inside and out.

Grandpa Doyle and the Henry-man are big buddies...

Cousin Landry is tons of fun! She loves our babies and I miss her loads.

These two on a jet ski together is scary I'm not going to lie. They like to live on the edge... I do not.

She thought she was so big getting to ride a tube.
I thought she was to little to be riding a tube.

Obviously I was outvoted.

*insert eye roll...

My one request about riding the jet ski was to ride but not get wet. We got too far out when a storm came up on us. I was pretty sure we were going to get killed by lightening out on the water. My life flashed before my eyes.

Ellie might as well be a professional cake decorator. I mean who doesn't love all their sprinkles in one, giant, pile right in the middle of their cake?

We love us some family and had a blast hanging out.

We are blessed with so much family. They all love us and bless us each in their own ways. I wish we were able to see them more often, but now that we live away it's just not possible, but the time we do get to spend with them is all the more sweet and special. God is good and he went above and beyond when he blessed us with family!

Our summer was busy, but oh so good!

We are almost done with our first week of school! I can't even believe it! Pictures of that to come!

Blessings,

Summer Endings, New Beginnings...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Tue, 16 Aug 2016 00:17:00 +0000

What a great summer we've had!

And of course having family come visit always ups the fun factor!

My brother and his family came into town for a couple days. We took them to the pool, and cooked them a genuine southern breakfast with cheese grits and all (by request by my sweet niece who had been here once before).

We also celebrated another of my brother's kiddos birthday while they were here. She turned 3. So we got real festive and stuck a candle in here grits. Surely on a southern scale that's like a 10. She was excited to have a candle to blow out and we were excited to celebrate her sweet, little life. So Yay!

Cousins are the best...

Henry-man loves the water...

Kane is by far Henry's favorite. It has been so awesome to see Kane take on such a big role in taking care of and loving on our little guy. I just know they will grow up with a special bond. It's so neat to watch it forming.

Well, we start school tomorrow so summer is officially over. Boo.

Lot's of things going on now that things are getting started though...

Children's choir
Swimming tryouts
Henry has an upcoming ear surgery (tubes)
Dentist appointments
Well child checkups
Nolan's starting up another semester of Seminary
Youth Bible study
I'm teaching 3rd and 4th grade Sunday School

It seems like the list goes on and on, but what a blessing to be a part of a big family with a great husband and five awesome kids that keep me busy! I'll take it any day!

Praying and Hoping that everyone has an fabulous school year with lot's of wonderful opportunities to tell others about how unbelievably awesome Jesus is!

Blessings,

Chores...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Sat, 13 Aug 2016 20:38:00 +0000

I'm sure you've done the math.

We have a lot of kids.

Including our sweet foster babe...5 to be exact.

So in order for things to run like a well oiled machine (Ha, yeah right) we require that our children do chores.

Usually they have really great attitudes about helping. Especially since we have started fostering they have gone above and beyond to help. We've seen so much maturity and growth in that area. What a blessing!

However, sometimes the chores are a little too big for my Ellie Jane and she isn't happy about it. She wants to help- Bless her!

Sissy wouldn't let her help put up the silverware...

It's so hard being three...

We have chickens. They poop on my deck and dig up my yard. Lucky for them I like eggs.

While Nolan and Kane were out of town a few weeks ago Ruthie got chicken duty. Let's just say there are some chores she doesn't mind and chicken duty isn't on that list...

Ellie's such a good helper...

Sometimes too many eggs are carried and an egg gets dropped. Sometimes it gets messy.

But it's ok.

We just pick up the mess and move on knowing that despite the mess, lessons were learned.

Here's a horrible metaphor for you...

We're like that broken, mess of an egg.

We have fallen.

We are broken...

Praise the Lord, he came to clean up the mess and to set things right again

Blessings,

Not A Morning Person...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Thu, 07 Jul 2016 08:30:00 +0000

So apparently there's a limit to most things.

That includes Little Miss Thing's joyful, upbeat, happy personality.

From the hours of asleep to not fully awake there seems to be a window when frumpy and moody reign.

Somebody's apparently not a morning person.

P.S. All of these pictures were taken in between her telling me to get off her bed so she could go back to sleep. Whoa girl. Keep it together.

Even cranky and bent out of shape she's so cute. If she doesn't want me hovering over her trying to take her picture, bright and early, while she's still trying to sleep, then she needs to reign in the cute- Seriously kid...Sheesh.

Don't worry, within minutes of these pictures she was wide awake, in the kitchen, climbing on the counters, helping herself to the bananas, back to her usual happy self. All was right with the world.

Blessings,

Summer Dayz...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Tue, 05 Jul 2016 08:30:00 +0000

In an attempt to get outdoors this summer despite the south's heat and humidity I talked the hubster into getting a pool membership.

It's been totally worth it.

The kids are getting some exercise, playing with other kids, getting some vitamin D, and becoming better swimmers. We've met new people, had some great conversations, and enjoyed each other as a family.

And I've totally mastered packing a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. So there's that.

This girl is so funny. She has met more people at the pool than the rest of the family combined. She just walks right up in the middle of groups, introduces herself, and makes life long friends. She's the best. I've said it before and I'll say it again- I hope she stays this personable and friendly forever. She challenges me to be a kinder, friendlier, more joyful person without even knowing she is. Love. Her.

Dives are being mastered...

Boys...are weird, but I just love him so much in spite of all the weirdness.

Did I mention that half the time we're the only ones there? So it's like having our own personal pool that I never have to clean or manage... It's the only way to go.

Never leave your camera lying around...

He'll regret this picture when I show it at his wedding someday. #paybackbymom

Other than swimming not much has been going on. The kids have been reading and playing piano. Kane's become a master lawn mower- Yay for that.

Our sweet neighbor surprised Ruthie with a Fairy House hidden in our yard the other day- so fun!

We've been taking care of babies- our own and fostered- diaper changes, bottle feedings, and nursing, baths, and cuddles...it's very glamorous.

Our sweet little, foster baby is beautiful and sweet. Please continue to pray for her and her family. We've been so blessed by the outpouring of love that's been shown to our family since bringing her home- meals, gifts, friends coming over to hold and cuddle babies and the big kids while I shower and get some things done. We even had a group of ladies we did not know bring us a weeks worth of meals and buy us some groceries. It's been challenging to say the least, but already the blessings have outweighed the struggles. God is beyond good!

Happy Summer and Blessings,

Forever Ago Birthday Party...Oops.

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Fri, 01 Jul 2016 08:00:00 +0000

Forever ago we held Ruthie's birthday party.

It was a girly, vintage inspired, outdoor tea party with fancy attire preferred and finger foods and lemonade for all. And of course cake- A Giant. Pink.Cake.

Each girl received a bag of goodies with their name on it that doubled as place settings.

I basically stripped my house of decorations and took them all outside for this shindig. Nothing but the gift bags and the goodies in the gift bags were purchased (and the food of course).

We served turkey and cheese on croissants, cheese puffs, veggies, and lemonade in mason jars.

No girly party would be complete without a ginormous pink cake- Ombre for the win!!!

Little Sister was in sugar-coma bliss- No nap, all the sugar she could hold- it was like a dream come true. When the melt down finally came I knew the party had been a huge success- lol.

Blessings,

Hair Growing and Photo Shoots...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Wed, 29 Jun 2016 14:52:00 +0000

Little Miss Thing is finally growing some hair! After a year or so of her pulling her own hair out she has finally broken free of that horrible habit! Yay! There's even enough for a bow!

Blond? Where did that come from? But it's so sweet and cute! And as we go to the pool it gets blonder and blonder!

The other day we had a little impromptu photo shoot...

Dirty feet and all...

That smile completely cracks me up...

I want to bite that face...

What most of the pictures really looked like...

She really was having fun- Ha!...

Little Girl- I love you so! Beautiful inside and out and so kind and full of joy! I pray for you to love God and to know Jesus in a way that your little heart can't help but explode from the love that grows through that knowledge of him!

She's so busy and fun. I just love her!

Blessings,

Summer of Awesome- Still Awesome...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Mon, 27 Jun 2016 21:03:00 +0000

H-man is getting so big.

He started crawling over the past few weeks. Eight months old. I can't even wrap my mind around it!

He is so cute and funny. A mouth full of teeth and the worst napper on the planet...not cool.

His big brother spoils him rotten and is turning him into a spoiled monster who thinks he has to be held around the clock.

But that face though...

Little Miss Thing is into everything. Why do they call it the Terrible-twos? It should be the into everything and too much energy Threes. She's so funny though, and might be the friendliest child ever. I hope she stays that way forever.

Those eyes...

Love her...

Why is he wearing this vest? It's like 100 degrees outside. So strange.

I took this girl for ice cream the other night and it basically took her like an hour to eat a bowl of ice cream that was about half the size of mine. I asked her why it was taking so long and she told me she wanted to savor every bite. It's like she's her father in a female, younger, smaller body- bizarre.

He just crawls around making messes the whole way.

Summer of Awesome is turning out pretty awesome.

However, I'm not actually getting any of the things I originally set out to do done.

We finally got certified to Foster and we've had three babies all under three weeks old in our home over the last few weeks since summer started.

Right now we have a sweet baby girl. Please pray for us as we walk this path God has brought us to.

Pray that:

-We will be the family she needs right now and love her the way God has called us to love.

-Her family will receive the help that they need, and that hopefully we can love on and encourage them in the process.

-For her to continue to be healthy.

-For our own children to embrace her and to love her without any holding back.

-Most importantly- For God's will to be done and for us to obey and trust that His plan is always best no matter what.

So obviously Summer of Awesome has taken on a different look than I originally planned- Less reading and sewing and more diaper changes and bottle feedings. But ultimately I hoped that this summer would be Summer of Sharing the Gospel. What a better platform to open conversation with tons of people- than when they look at me like I'm crazy for having two babies under the age of one and three others for a total of five kids.

"Hey person- it's a God thing. Let me tell you how awesome He is."

Blessings,

The Summer of Awesome...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Mon, 09 May 2016 21:51:00 +0000

So I've officially declared Summer 2016 the summer of the following things:

-Summer of Sharing the Gospel

-Summer of Reading

-Summer of Creating

-Summer of Getting Healthy and Fit

I know. It's been declared probably too many things, but I couldn't narrow it down to just one. It seemed to me like all of my choices held their own level of importance. Some more than others obviously.

The plan to Share the Gospel is simple. Like Nike always says- "Just do it." If I'm out and about start conversations, hand out tracts, basically just get the word out that "God is Awesome and Jesus Saves". I plan to enlist the help of my children. I mean don't you think we would have more missional/evangelical minded people in the world if we trained up our children doing it from a young age? Get relational with my neighbors and invite them to church, vbs, or just over for dinner and games, and some gospel talk. Mainly the point here is to be more purposeful- make it happen. People need to know that all have sinned, and that all have fallen short, and that Jesus filled the gap and died for any and all who believe. But how can they know if we don't tell them? So Summer of Sharing the Gospel 2016 is all about telling people.

The plan for Reading is to aim for at least 30 minutes of reading a day. This of course will be separate from my bible reading. This plan also will include my children. We have a pool membership this summer so the plan will be to swim in the morning and to come back in the afternoon for resting/nap/reading time. Our local library and Barnes and Noble has a great reading program for children that awards prizes when they meet their reading goals. If your kids are anything like mine- prizes are a big help!

Here's where I'm at with my reading list so far:

Women of the Word- I'm really excited about this one. I've already started it and it's super good so far...

Glimpses of Grace- is about seeing God's grace even in the little day to day tasks like changing diapers and washing dishes.

The Pastor's Wife- I know this may not be relative to many of you, but I'm super excited about this one!

Fierce Women- Using our fierce strengths to encourage and inspire our husbands.

Desperate- Encouragement, help, and answers for moms.

Disciplines of a Godly Woman- I'm almost finished with this one and it's amazing! We could all use a call to be more purposeful and disciplined as we walk in our faith. I'd call it a very practical look at Sanctification. Every Christian woman should read this book.

Family Driven Faith- Raising our children to walk with God.

-Seeing and Savoring Jesus Christ- by John Piper
-Mere Christianity- by CS Lewis
-The Case For Christ and The Case For Faith- by Lee Strobel (they have a simpler/shorter versions of these for youth that my 11 year old is reading.)
-Fifty Reasons Why Jesus Came to Die- by John Piper
-The Reason for God- by Timothy Keller
-The Meaning of Marriage- by Timothy Keller
-The Next Story- by Tim Challies
-The Missionary Call- by M. David Sills
-The Holiness of God- by Sproul
-The Knowlege of the Holy- by A.W. Tozer
-The Cost of Discipleship- by Dietrich Bonhoeffer
-Anne of Green Gables- by L.M. Montgomery
-Pride and Prejudice- by Jane Austen
-The Scarlet Letter- by Nathaniel Hawthorne
-The Secret Garden- by Frances Hodgson Burnett

My kids and I also enjoy it when I read aloud to them. So I will be reading children's books to them as well throughout the summer. If that interests you here are a few that my children and I would highly recommend (I asked them):

-Doctor Dolittle
-Robin Hood
-The Bronze Bow- (a must read!)
-The Bridge to Terabithia
-Old Yeller
-Mrs Frisby and the Rats of Nimh
-The Tale of Despereaux

Summer of Creating is pretty self explanatory- My creating of choice will be sewing. I love to sew, but sometimes my life doesn't always allow for me to prioritize it, but this summer it's happening.

Summer of Getting Healthy and Fit- feels more complicated and right now feels like it will require the most discipline. I'm getting a membership to a gym and plan to start working out with free weights and doing cardio with a friend this week. I'll tell you more about the diet side of it when I figure it out. Ugh.

Anyhoo...That's what's happening around here. If you'd like to join in the fun on any or all of the summer happenings you can find me on Instagram @thepurplecladjewel - Just tag me or use any of the following hashtags:

#summerofsharingthegospel2016
#summerofreading2016
#summerofreadingkids2016
#summerofcreating2016
#summerofgettinghealthyandfit2016
#summerofawesome2016

Happy Summer of Awesome Friends!

Blessings,

Let's try this one more time...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Mon, 09 May 2016 03:24:00 +0000

Blogging...

I've not been very dedicated to it in the past.

How are so many others able to keep them up? Do they have super powers that I'm unaware of?

Some days I can't even find the time to brush my hair- so blogging isn't usually real high on my list of must do's.

But I want it to be.

The truth is I a have this desire to write, to create, to put my thoughts to paper. I want to tell you (whoever you may be), all the many things that I feel God is laying on my heart- about faith, hope, joy, family, ministry, serving, and life. I want to be real and I want to share where my heart is, and what God is doing in my life.

God is big and he's awesome and I want to make him known. I'm not eloquent. I'm not even a good writer. What I am is a wife to a pastor, mother, friend, daughter, sister, and most importantly a child of God. And I need a place to write about all that my God is doing...

So what better place to start than here...On my little, neglected blog.

So stay tuned...

"The Harvest Truly Is Great"

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Thu, 16 Jul 2015 18:18:00 +0000

So I'm about 10 days out from leaving for my mission trip to the Dominican Republic.

I honestly have so many emotions and things cramming into my head right now that I can't even make sense of them all.

I'm excited...super excited! I've never been on a mission trip out of the States before. I've never used a passport- I might do a happy dance when they stamp that bad boy. But while a stamp in my passport is super awesome, it isn't the reason for my ultimate excitement. I am overcome with joy and excitement for the work that God is preparing me and our team for.

"Then he said to them, "The harvest truly is great, but the laborers are few; therefore pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest." - Luke 10:2

The harvest is great my friends! The people of the Dominican Republic need to hear the hope that is our Savior Jesus Christ. We are called to go! The "laborers are few"- we must go...

If we don't. Then who will?

I think so often we think that the great commission from Jesus right before he ascended to heaven to "Go" was meant only for the apostles, or only for people called to be full time missionaries, or only for pastors, but the truth is- it was spoken to all of us. If we truly are Christians it was meant for Me and You.

I don't think this means that we all have to rush out and get our passports. Although imagine the great and mighty work God could do if we all summited to the call to sale all of our possessions and follow him wherever He led us?!...

But maybe God isn't calling you to live in a hut, among tribes in Africa.

Instead- maybe your mission field is right in your own community.

Maybe it's your neighborhood.

Maybe it's your job.

Maybe it's the neighborhood across the railroad tracks that you avoid.

Maybe it's the homosexual community.

Maybe it's your family.

It could be the Senior Adults where you live.

Maybe your being called to foster children.

Maybe it's, lovingly speaking up and reaching out to those that support abortion.

The point is- We are ALL being called.

I pray that as a church our hearts will be softened and our eyes will be opened to the wonderful things God has for us. And that we would be moved by the things that move Him.

Jesus didn't see color. He didn't see sexual orientation. He didn't see male or female, and He didn't see age. Rich- poor. Sick or healthy.

What he saw was a sinful people in need of a loving, merciful, and sacrificial Savior who was willing to lay down his life for his precious children- and all he asks is that we daily take up our crosses and do the same.

One of my very favorite bands is Rend Collective Experiment (You Tube them and thank me later). One of my favorite songs of theirs is "Build your kingdom here". Here is my favorite verse and the chorus:

"We seek Your kingdom first
We hunger and we thirst
Refuse to waste our lives
For You're our joy and prize
To see the captive hearts released
The hurt, the sick, the poor at peace
We lay down our lives for Heaven's cause

We are Your church
We pray: revive this earth

Build Your kingdom here
Let the darkness fear
Show Your mighty hand
Heal our streets and land
Set Your church on fire
Win this nation back
Change the atmosphere
Build Your kingdom here
We pray"

Let us refuse to waste our lives. Let us lay down our lives for Heaven's cause. And let us pray, as His church, that He will "Revive this Earth"!

Please prayer for me and the team going with me as we head out to the D.R. and please pray for the hearts of the D.R. people that their hearts will be open to the gospel.

Blessings,

Lessons From My Morning Run...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Wed, 29 Apr 2015 16:06:00 +0000

About three days a week I drag myself out of bed to go on a morning run with one of my good friends. We talk, we laugh, we share, and a couple of times we might have even shed a few tears. I don't know if it's because it's just so stinkin' early that our senses are dull and before we know it we've spilled our guts to one another. Maybe it's in an attempt to forget that our legs are tired and we feel like a pack of monkeys have jumped on our backs. But, whatever the reason, we open up and we share our lives with each other. But it seems like one of the most common topics we seem to always come back to is how as women, wives, mothers we often feel overwhelmed and inadequate.

Why is this?

We worry about laundry not being washed, dried, and folded the second it's dropped in the laundry basket. We worry about dinner not consisting of a grain, a perfect protein, and a vegetable. We worry that we aren't skinny enough, or that our haircut isn't just right. We worry that we don't keep our homes clean enough. We worry that so and so irons her husbands pants before she even hangs them in his closet or that she irons at all (because I do not- but that's a whole other post). We worry that our prayers aren't eloquent enough or that our bible study time isn't in-depth and intimate enough. We worry that we aren't liked. We worry because our kid doesn't have enough friends or that they spend too much time playing video games. We worry that we worry too much!

And what's worse- Is that often times instead of our hearts breaking for one another and lifting one another up in prayer we compare ourselves to each other. We take intimate information that was entrusted to us and we put ourselves up against it to either make ourselves feel better or to inwardly punish ourselves for not being more like that woman.

In an attempt to be real and transparent- I tell you I'm not immune. Early in the mornings when I'm out running with my friend- I talk about all the laundry I'm behind on, how my poor husband has to dig through the clean clothes to find himself something clean to wear. I never iron- I would rather chop my own arm off. There are days where my children drive me to say and act out in ways that would make you drop to your knees and pray for me right where you stand. Sometimes we eat popcorn for dinner because I feel like the simple act of opening the fridge might bring me to tears. Sometimes I'm hateful to my poor husband for no other reason than the fact that he walked into the room. And there are times when my laundry room is so full of clean and dirty clothes all piled high on the floor that I have to re-wash clean clothes because I've lost track of what's what. I don't tell you all of this to give you ammo to judge me, but to let you know that you are not alone. All of these things make me feel at times like a failure. They make me feel inadequate and like I am so overwhelmed with it all that I might cry- and sometimes I do.

And it seems to be universal. Every women I spend time with seems to share this burden of time spent feeling overwhelmed and inadequate. We all play the compare game. We convince ourselves that every other woman has it together and is Super-wife or Super-mom but us. We find our worth in things of this world- clothes, hair, how clean our house is, how well dressed and put together our families look, how 5 star our meals are, and the list goes on and on. When the one place we should be looking for our worth and our sense of calm and peace is from our Creator and Heavenly Father. Isn't that why Jesus Christ died on the cross? To free us from the burdens of this world. To free us from self doubt and worry. To free us from anxiety and comparison.

Dear Friend, find comfort, for "everyone who is born of God overcomes the world..." - "our faith" is the "victory that has overcome the world" (1 John 5:4). Have faith in our Savior. Have faith that his promises are real and true. Don't let the world define you or let the world's view keep you from encouraging and lifting up those women around you that are hurting and struggling with the same worries and doubts that plaque us all. For it is in Christ that we have "victory" and that "victory has overcome the world" and all the doubt and peace robbers that come with it. "Love one another" (2 John 5), encourage each other, and pray for each other. And "walk in the truth" (2 John 4) knowing that it is only in the truth that we will find our worth and be able to steal our joy back.

Our Life In Collages...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Wed, 15 Apr 2015 20:27:00 +0000

Hello there!

As usual I said that I would be trying to post each week, and as usual- I've not done that...oops. Sorry.

So this post is going to be a catch up of all things life related- with pictures- so Yay!

To make it easy- I'm going to start at the top left of each collage and work my way clockwise...

Here we go...

1. We got some BIG news! We are expecting baby #4!!!

2. We may need a bigger bed. On Saturday mornings it's getting a little tight when everyone piles in...including the dog.

3. Baby #4 will be due around Halloween 2015. This picture is the picture we used to announce his/her's soon to be arrival. (Thanks Pinterest)

4. Baby's first ultrasound

You might not remember but in my last post I announced that we are going through the required steps to get certified to become a fostering family. I did not know that I was pregnant when I wrote that post. We are still 100% planning on continuing on that path. We actually finished up our 10 week certification classes just last night. We still have some other things until we are completely certified, but we are closer each day. Really the only thing that will change is that there will have to be a window of a few months when we have baby #4 where we do not take in a child. We want to make sure that we don't throw too much change on our kiddos (and ourselves) at once. We want to make sure we adjust and allow time to bond and get used to baby #4 before we add a baby #5 (I wrote the number 5 with my head between my knees! Holy cow!)

1. I'm headed on a mission trip to the Dominican Republic in July! My passport finally came in and I couldn't be more excited!!! What a wonderful opportunity to share the gospel and the wonderful hope and joy that come from the truth that is our my Savior Jesus Christ! And on top of that- first passport ever- Woohoo!

2, 3, and 4. The wonderful group I am going on the mission trip with is in full swing having lots of fundraisers for our trip to the D.R. I took these pictures in our churches fellowship hall while we were getting our Spaghetti Dinner prep on.

I know what some of you may be thinking... She's pregnant! How could she possibly be going on a mission trip?! (your doing the math in your head right now to figure out how far along I'll be- I'll help you out- I'll be 26 months along- right at the end of my second trimester.)

I know it may seem crazy- but just because I'm pregnant doesn't change the fact that I feel a huge burden to go on this trip. I felt that way before I was pregnant and I continue to after the fact. I've spoken with my doctor and have been given the green light. I know that things happen sometimes. I am well aware of the dangers and concerns, but the truth still remains that I have prayed diligently about this trip and the fact that I'm pregnant hasn't changed how I feel. The truth is I would rather be in God's will in the Dominican Republic and something go bad than to be at home disobeying his call. I know that may sound crazy and maybe even irresponsible to some, but as Christians we are called to go, to proclaim the gospel, to disciple, and I am so excited at this opportunity.

I hope that you will commit to praying for not only me, but our team as we prepare our hearts, our bodies, and our supplies for this trip. Pray for our safe travel there and back. Pray that we will do the work and run the race that God has prepared for us in advance. Please pray for the people of the D.R. that their hearts and minds will be open to hearing the good news that is our Savior Jesus Christ.

1. Little Man placed in the top 6 at the Sonata Festival (piano)! He went up against over 18 other kids some of which have been playing for a year or more than him.

2. Spring is here! The weather has been so amazing and the kids are having the best time playing outside. Little miss loves to take her book and climb this tree in our back yard.

3. We walked down to our local Square the other day and while we were there I let the kids climb the big awesome tree in the middle of the square. It was really awesome right up until a city worker came and chased them down. Oops!

4. This girl is funny.

5. We invited anyone and everyone over to our house back in February to celebrate Fat Tuesday with us. I prepared over 400 beignets for us to eat...it was crazy town!

1. Wedding photo booth with the brother and sister-in-law.

2. The girls were Flower Girls in the same wedding.

3. The wedding was back home and while we were there we took the kids to the trampoline gym. Ellie had a blast!

4. My sister went home the same week we did and brought her kids. Little Miss and her cousin got their pedicure on.

5. Funny Faces with cousin Landry.

1. Before it gets unbearably hot and the mosquitoes start carrying off my children we have been trying to get in as much park time as possible.

2. While working in the kitchen one day I turned around to find the smelly dog like this. So like any normal person I took out my camera and took a picture. Duh.

3. I'm still running. Around 3 miles 3 days a week. I'm starting to feel the extra weight though. My goal is to run up until the mission trip. We'll see though.

4. Little man is a reading machine. Right now he's working on "The Hobbit" and "The Incredible Journey".

We've been in full swing soccer mode around here.

1. Ellie and I have made the most of it. We're quite the cheerleaders.

2. Little man is doing great! We are hoping to get him onto a competitive travel team in the fall. Soccer really is his sport.

3. Little Miss is worn out after every game. She hasn't scored a goal yet, but we have one more game and we're hopeful.

4. She keeps on smiling though!

5. Team Helder- dad's the coach..What a team!

There you have it. There's of course been some other things going on around here that I didn't have any pictures of. Nolan preached this last Sunday. His sermon was wonderful and so convicting. I am so blessed and amazed to see the way that God is working in his life. The kids are doing awesome in school- reading and learning like all-star pros.

Hope everyone has a blessed and fun day! Until next year! (haha- just kidding...I hope.)

The Great Unknown...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Wed, 04 Feb 2015 23:40:00 +0000

"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior"

Have you ever heard the song by Hillsong United called "Oceans"? It's a wonderful song. One of my favorites probably.

In the past few months I have deeply prayed, like the song states in the chorus, that the- "Spirit would lead me where my trust is without borders", and that God would "let me walk upon the waters- Wherever He would call me". That He would "take me deeper" than my own, human feet would ever take me on there own. And that my "faith would be made stronger In the presence of the Savior" through whatever door He would choose to open to me.

When we came to Alabama six months ago I knew right away when he blessed us with our home that he was calling us to use it as a place to gather, to fellowship. We have tried to stay faithful to that calling by opening the doors to our home as often as possible. However, as I prayed my prayer of Him "taking me where my trust was without borders" the more I felt the burden to use our home for something more.

It was around this time that a few different things happened. 1) We started to really speak to our children about the need for Christ's followers (Christians) to see and to serve through love the needs of those hurting around them. 2) I started to become really good friends with my neighbor who has devoted her life and her home to the needs of foster children. And 3) I started to diligently read the blog of a sweet friend from many years ago who has been called to foster children- and just recently adopted two of those children. And as I prayed my prayer and began to open my eyes and heart to what I knew God was trying to tell me- I knew...

...He was asking me to be faithful to the scariest part of the prayer. The part where he takes me "deeper than my feet could ever wander"...He was calling us to open our home to children through Foster Care

Would I have chosen this path on my own? I'm not sure. If I'm being totally honest I would probably say "no".

It's scary.

It's uncomfortable.

It's the unknown, and that is never a fun place to be.

But the comfortable place isn't where God always calls us to be. Actually the more I grow in my faith and love for Christ the more I'm realizing that if I'm comfortable I'm probably NOT where He wants me to be.

So I spoke to Nolan, and he immediately was supportive and on board. We spoke to our children. We told them about this wonderful opportunity to open our home and our hearts to the hurting and how it is a perfect opportunity to show Christ's love. One of the proudest moments in my walk as a mama was the moment they both said how much they loved the idea. How they loved the idea of loving on a sweet child that may have not experienced much in their shorts life. We have plenty to give around here and my sweet babies are ready. God went before me and prepared the hearts of my husband and my children. He was just waiting for me. For me to say "Here am I! Send me."

Last night we attended the first of ten classes that we have to take to get licensed. We have to have a home inspection, and get background checks. Nolan and I have to be interviewed together and separately, and our kids have to be interviewed also. I tell you all of this to ask you to please be praying for us as we travel this journey.

Pray for peace.

Pray for our hearts to be opened to whatever God has for us along the way.

Pray for the hearts of our children as this will be an adjustment. The main concern they've voiced is the sadness that will be present when a child has to leave our home when their time with us is up. Pray for understanding for them.

Start now praying for the children that will be placed in our care. Pray that they will make a smooth transition, and that they will see Christ and know his love while they are in our home.

Pray for us that we will be able to love those children through the heart of Christ. And that we will be able to be His light in a very dark situation.

In the song, "Oceans", it talks about God calling us out upon the waters to the great unknown. Where we know that our own, human, feet may fail us, but that it is there, in the great unknown, that we find God. And that because we find him there, "in oceans deep" our faith will stand- it will not fail...

Pray that as we are headed into "the great unknown" that "our faith will stand", and that even when things get hard and the waters feel deep that we will "Call upon His name" and that there, in the unknown, we will find Him.

"He has never failed, and He won't start now."

"Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)"
By: Hillsong United

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Oh, Jesus, you're my God!

I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

Happenings and Such...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Fri, 23 Jan 2015 03:12:00 +0000

Hello!!!

So you know what's going on- I've decided to basically make this blog my family scrapbook. Just a log of all that has been going on in the lives of our little family. Now that we are living in Alabama it also seems like a great place for our family to see what's been going on in our lives. So here it goes...

A sweet girl in our youth group had a birthday the other day at this great park that we have been wanting to take the kids to. It's a historical park with a great playground, live animals, hiking, and buildings that were true to the 1800s. It was so much fun and the kids had a blast! Here are some pics from the day...

Sister Love...

Love this one! Ruthie's hair- Wild!...

Getting pushed by big sister...

Look at that face!...

Zip Line...

Silly faces with her Mama...

My boy (he styled his own hair- Love it!)...

This goat looked at us like we were crazy. We probably are...

Nolan and the kiddos with a few boys from our youth group...

Later that night it was pass time for Nolan to get a haircut! He preached Sunday so he needed to look goooood. As you can see he was so excited about it...

Baby Girl turned 2! I'm pretty sure she was more excited about the balloons we got for her little party than anything else. Next year she's just getting balloons. There was a green one but her sister made sure to pop that one about five seconds after we got home...

We bought pizza and I made cupcakes- It was quite the party!...

I'm not sure she liked it...

Happy Birthday Baby Girl!

This last picture is from Christmas. I just love the picture so I thought I'd throw it in. I love the man in this picture with me so much! He's pretty much the best. I need to tell him that more often. I want him to know that I'm proud of him and how hard he works to love his family. I'm thankful for the way he shows me and the kids how to follow and love our Savior. And he's nice to look at...so there's that too.

So that's what has been going on around here.

Blessings!

Year In Review...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Sat, 10 Jan 2015 05:01:00 +0000

Our 2014...A recap.

Where to start?

A lot happened in 2014 I feel like.

Early 2014 my hubby started to feel the call into ministry after being a high school teacher/coach for the last 8 years. We visited three different seminaries pretty sure that God was calling him to school first in preparation for full-time ministry. Even though we were fairly certain that seminary was God's will Nolan still seemed to have a nagging feeling that maybe we were wrong (when you have a wife and three kiddos to think about, quitting your job, becoming a full-time student, and hoping you find a part time job that pays you enough for you and your family to survive on can be a little scary). However, after visiting Southern Seminary in Louisville, Kentucky we felt certain that is where God was calling us...

We were wrong...

The day after we arrived home from Louisville sure that we were headed there a friend of ours who is a pastor at a church in Alabama called us and told us his church had an opening for an Associate Pastor/Youth Ministers position and he felt like God had laid my husband on his heart.

God is so funny sometimes isn't he?!.

So once again we started praying for direction, for peace, and for His good and perfect will to be accomplished through us.

Would we ever make a decision? I was starting to wonder.

In the end we truly felt God calling us to Alabama. The hubby felt at peace knowing that he would be providing for his family while getting experience serving and working in a church all while doing his seminary work online. It really was amazing how God worked out all the little details and showed us (me mostly) that sometimes we must earnestly seek and pray for His guidance and will to be revealed, and He doesn't always make it easy or quick. We must learn to be patient as we learn to listen and understand what He's saying to us. While the uneasiness of being in limbo and just not knowing what we were doing and where we were going was enough to make me completely frazzled at times I wouldn't change that time in our journey for anything. Learning to earnestly pray and seek God during that time grew my faith in ways I didn't even realize possible. We learned to trust God's provision and to know that He would make his plan clear to us in His time. I learned to trust my husband as he lead our family. It was such a blessing to experience His hand at work in our lives and has become such a huge part of our story- how God has truly shown himself good and faithful to us.

So in 2014 Nolan changed professions and we moved to Alabama! Pretty Huge Right?!!

We bought a house that was built in 1912.

In the short amount of time we've been here we've made some amazing friends.

We love our church, and immediately felt right at home. We work with the youth at our church. We have them over often. The highlight was our tacky Christmas sweater party. I wore a Christmas jumper with matching turtle-neck. It was pretty legendary I'm not going to lie.

In November we took the students out door to door to pray for those in our community and to offer meals to those in need for Thanksgiving. It was eye opening to see the huge need in our own community, and a blessing to take our students into the community to serve. We delivered around 40 meals to those in need on Thanksgiving. It was awesome to be a part of! Since we didn't go home for Thanksgiving we had our own Thanksgiving here in Alabama and invited a few friends over to celebrate with us. I cooked my own Turkey! It was so scary and gross- I totally didn't pull out the bag that was inside it...oops.

The kids and I volunteer once a week at a local thrift store that raises money to buy food for the needy. It's pretty awesome to serve right along side my kiddos, and to see them learning to love and serve those in need.

Little man played football for the first time ever, and started piano lessons. He rocked Jingle Bells out like an All-Star pro at his Christmas Recital. He's now in basketball season, and he's getting better and better. He continues to be an amazing reader, but his most exciting news of all is that he excepted Jesus Christ as his personal Lord and Savior in January of 2014!

Ruthie continues to be sassy, but at the same time sweet and loving. She loves her big brother and and thinks he hung the moon. We are hoping she might play soccer in the spring but in all reality she just wants to dance, twirl, dress-up, and use her imagination to take her to places that I'm sure are full of unicorns and colorful dresses and high-heels.

Baby girl is a mess! She is by far the friendliest child we've had. She waves at and tells everyone she sees "Hi!". She's a climber, but by far the craziest thing she does is take her diaper off every chance she gets! I seriously can't hardly keep the thing on her- and it's all fun and games until she's poopy! I'm sensing potty-training in her near future- Ugh!

Nolan is doing awesome and I love him more and more each day. He's serving in our church. Working on his Masters degree through New Orleans Theological Seminary. Playing basketball when he can, and starting Monday I'm making him do a 10-Day Detox with me...He's very excited about it. I feel so blessed to share this journey with him by my side!

There you have it...2014.

It was pretty great!

And crazy...

And Silly...

And Wild...

And sweet...

And I loved every bit of it...

I hope your 2015 is Amazing! Happy New Year!

He Is Faithful...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Wed, 09 Apr 2014 12:30:00 +0000

If you haven't read the first part of my testimony you can read it HERE.

Part 2- All Grown Up:

I left off talking about how even in the most beautiful of God's gifts- in my case- my marriage- sin can take root and cause pain and strife.

The hubby and I got married when we were pretty young. I was 22 and he was 21. He was finishing up his bachelors degree down in Texas when we got married- so after the wedding off to Texas I went with my bags packed with not only clothes, but big dreams of marital bliss and happily ever afters.

Once we were settled in we immediately started going to church. Nolan had not gone to church since he had been in high school and his parents had made him. However we were married now- so he was more than willing to go to make his sweet, new wife (me- haha) happy.

I'm not going to lie- marriage was a huge adjustment. When you move in with your significant other you find out all sorts of stuff about the other that you never imagined...some good- and some- not so good. However, we made it through those first few years better for the things we'd experienced together.

In the next few years Nolan finished school- started a career, we moved a few times, and we began to start our family. First God blessed us with a sweet, little boy, and then a few years later with a loving, cuddly, little girl. It was around the birth of our little girl that Nolan began to struggle with his faith. Now when I say struggle what I really mean is he came out and told me that he wasn't completely sure that he had ever truly believed in God, and if he did he definitely wasn't sure he believed in the Christian God. He started throwing around words like atheist and agnostic. He told me he would no longer be joining me and the kids to church. He had always been a Sunday morning service goer- never Wednesday or Sunday nights. I knew deep down that if I had ever said lets not go to church anymore that he would have said, "Sounds good to me". But despite knowing this it still felt like he had literally punched me in the stomach, and that my world had just crumbled to the ground.

Up until this point our marriage had been fine- good even. We had the occasional disagreement, the occasional fight, but nothing, I mean Nothing, had prepared me for this. I was literally devastated. We had two little ones. How was I going to explain to them why their daddy never came to church with us? What happened when they got older and they started questioning why they had to go if dad wasn't going? I was the wife- it is not biblical for me to lead our family spiritually- how in the world would I do it? It was through all of these questions that I became very, very angry. Angry at Nolan. Angry at God. The angrier I became the more I lashed out at Nolan. The more I lashed out at Nolan the more depressed and distant he became. He was confused. He was very depressed. He was hopeless. He was Lost. And I was just angry- and I let him know it often.

Around this time a close friend and mentor of mine was sweet enough to let me share my burden with her. She advised me, prayed with and for me, and told me to bring my kids and come to her church. So that's what I did. Every Sunday I would load up the kids and go to my friends church without my husband. I would love to tell you that I did this with a happy spirit, but the truth is- I felt like my spirit was completely broken. I usually walked out the door with a snide remark to Nolan about him not joining us and him making me go alone. This went on for about a year, but it was sometime during that year that God really laid it on my heart that all the nagging, complaining, and snide remarks were doing nothing beneficial in the war for Nolan's soul. He revealed to me that what Nolan needed was prayer and grace.

I'd love to tell you that over night I stopped nagging and that the angry outbursts just disappeared, but the truth is it took time and lots of prayer. Prayer for Nolan to know the truth, and prayer for myself- that I would learn to love him right where he was. And God was faithful. He met me were I was- broken, hurt, and angry, and little by little my anger ebbed, and the atheist philosophical books littered around my home began to be replaced by Christian titles. And then one day out of the blue Nolan was dressed to go to church with us. And almost four years ago, sitting in our room alone, Nolan excepted Christ into his heart to be the Savior of his life.

Since then God has begun a work in our family that is beyond anything I could have ever imagined! Nolan has stepped into the role of spiritual leader of our family leading us in bible studies, prayer, and to church. God has healed our marriage and brought us closer to one another than we have ever been. In January 2013 God blessed our family with another sweet, baby girl. In January 2014 I watched as God allowed Nolan to lead our 9 year old son to Christ. God is moving, and we are willing and ready to answer and to follow wherever he leads. And all of this because he was willing to answer my small- fragile prayers with power and faithfulness that has blown me away!

He is faithful. Through this he has shown me so many things. He has shown me to rely on him. To trust in him. To give it all to him. He allowed me the opportunity to pray over my husband- to be a part of the amazing miracle that took place in my husband's life. And while it was the hardest season of my life so far- He used that time in my life to draw me back to him because if I was being completely honest- before my husband came out and said he was a non-believer I was just going through the motions. Doing the minimal- no more- no less. He used what felt like a hopeless situation to bring about new life in Christ for my husband and myself. I have recommitted my life to Him, and am so thankful that he was gracious enough and patient enough to show me the way back.

So while I became a Christian when I was very young I spent many years wasting time- not forming the relationship with Christ that he calls us to experience. Through my husband's salvation he showed me the many areas in which my own relationship with him was lacking. He showed me that he is my Savior and that he should be #1 in my life, not my husband, not my children, and not my things, that nothing else can replace the giant, God sized hole in my life but him. Daily he transforms me, molds me, and shows me areas in my life where I need his guidance, grace, forgiveness, mercy, and wisdom. Sometimes he has to teach me these lessons through discipline and suffering in order to humble me and to show me his ways are better, but thankfully these lessons always come through love, and with hope of a new and brighter day.

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases,

his mercies never come to an end;

they are new every morning;

great is your faithfulness.

'The Lord is my portion,' says my soul,

'therefore I will hope in him.' " -Lamentations 3:22-24

I don't know where you are in your walk with Christ. Some of you reading this might not even know Christ, but as I sit here I pray over this testimony in hope that it will reach you right where you are. That from it you can see how powerful and amazing the Love and Mercy of the Lord Jesus Christ are. Maybe He's calling you to walk closer to him, maybe he's showing you areas of your life that need prayer, or forgiveness, maybe he's laying someone on your heart that needs to hear about his saving grace, or maybe it's you that needs his saving grace.

Wherever you are- know that he is faithful, that he loves you, and that he will meet you right where you are- no matter where that might be.

Blessings,

All Roads Lead To Somewhere, But Where?

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Mon, 07 Apr 2014 16:52:00 +0000

I have posted this before. It's my testimony- my hope and prayer is that you will take from it how much I love God, and how wonderfully, amazingly, good and loving He is. It's a two part post so I will post part 2 later this week (probably wednesday)...

Part 1- Before Marriage:

I have a true story to tell you.

It's about the road that has led me to this place that I'm at right now. While the road has been rocky and the journey a little ugly at times- it has led to the most wonderful of places.

I started on this road when I was about 7 I think (while the exact age seems to have left me- I remember clearly the place and the company). I was sitting in the hall of my house where I grew up waiting to use the restroom when my father came down the hallway. I asked him to sit down and visit with me for a minute- I had some questions. Questions about Jesus and God. Questions about my salvation and where I would go when I died. There in the hallway, with my earthly father's support, waiting to use the bathroom, I chose to believe in Jesus Christ as my Savior.

Fast forward a few years to a teenager who believed in Christ but really didn't take it much further than that. Who was super quick to throw others under the bus with judgement for their "sin", but felt like since she wasn't going to the parties and doing "those" things then she must be doing right by God. Right?.

Fast Forward a few more years to college. I continued to say I loved God and believed in his Son as my Savior, but unfortunately continued to live a life that was contrary to what I professed. I made many poor decisions and followed the road of the world in a way that I'm sure made satan sing with joy. I dated and then later became engaged to a guy that was a relationship unhealthy for both parties I'm sure. Emotional damage seemed to be the base for which that relationship was built on. I prayed and prayed that God would heal our tattered and torn relationship. I was marrying this man for crying out loud! How could we ever have a successful marriage if we couldn't even date properly? I shed tears over the brokenness of it all- all the while crying out to God to fix what we seemed to tear down and break so frequently. With invitations sent out, two wedding showers under our belt, dress, flowers, and cake all purchased, and less than a month before the wedding we threw in the towel and walked away from each other.

What had gone wrong? Had I not prayed hard enough? It felt like complete failure had consumed me. Embarrassment. Shame. Hopelessness. What had started as a smooth road, had turned into pebbles, then rocks, then boulders, and had come to its end as this huge mountain that I could see no way over. Along with the ending of what I thought was supposed to be the beginning of this new life came other changes. I immediately moved home to my parents after living on my own for 3 years, changed schools (or so I thought at the time), and basically just tried to figure out where it had all gone wrong.

The next few months to follow would not be what I would describe as pretty. Without going into too much detail lets just say that rock bottom seemed to be my new address. However I had mastered the art of putting on a happy face and making it seem like all was well in the world. I was not happy with the person I had become, and I know that God was saddened by where my life had gone.

It was one of those things that in the midst of the sin and shamefulness I could hear and feel the Holy Spirit convicting me. Telling me to turn away from the ways that seemed to be consuming me, but I just kept turning from him and digging myself deeper and deeper in. I just kept turning to the world to try to put out the pain, but it only seemed to produce more pain and more trouble.

It was during this time of lowness that the future hubster came into the picture (again. Seeing as how he and I had grown up together and then dated in high school for a couple of years off and on, only to part ways when I went off to college). I'm not going to lie and say that it was all roses right from the start, because frankly drama usually follows when your heart is saying one thing and your brain is saying another. However, after a few talks, a few situations, and a few shed tears it became apparent that Nolan was God's answer to the prayer I had prayed a year earlier. The prayer where I had prayed for him to heal the brokenness of another relationship with another guy. The prayer where I thought he had abandoned me and left me hopeless. The prayer I thought he had chosen not to hear- not to listen to. It wasn't that he didn't care or had chosen to ignore me- instead like a faithful and loving parent he had just chosen to say "No."

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you back from captivity." -Jeremiah 29:11-14

You see, only He knew my future. My small faith had left me feeling abandoned and alone in my time of need. I felt that God had failed me, but he had really delivered me choosing to reveal himself true and faithful on his time, not mine. Most of all he chose to show himself loving despite the lack of love I had shown him.

Nolan and our marriage was a "good and perfect gift" that could have only "come from above," but like I'll show you tomorrow when I finish this story- sinful nature is not pretty, and can unfortunately, cause hurt and pain within the most wonderful of God's gifts.

For now I'll leave you with this. My hope is that through my story you can find hope. Just know that God is faithful, and merciful, and always- ALWAYS- shows himself true. Unfortunately we have to hit rock bottom sometimes to recognize our need for him, but find joy in those moments- for it is then that God's Glory and Awesomeness can truly be realized and we can find him.

Blessings,

"Shake, Shake, Shake"- Guest Blogger Tana...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Thu, 03 Apr 2014 15:59:00 +0000

Today I would like to welcome my sweet, friend Tana- who has graciously agreed to be my guest blogger today- Yay!!! I consider Tana to not only be a friend, but also a mentor. She is a pastor's wife, a mother to three grown children, and a blessing to me. I'm so excited for you to read what God has laid on her heart. Welcome- Tana!

When Kasey asked if I would like to guest blog for her, I was excited! I love Kasey! I also love to share what God is teaching me! As I began to think about what God has been showing me in my life, I realized how God has used several younger ladies to remind me of some very simple truths that I have easily been overlooking. Maybe you have been overlooking them also or maybe you need to share your enthusiasm with someone. Anyway, here it is...

Enthusiasm and Joy for what God is doing.

It doesn't matter how old you are or how long you have been saved, your enthusiasm for what God is doing should never become mundane. As I have watched these ladies embark on new directions in their lives, their enthusiasm and willingness to be obedient has been an inspiration to me. I am reminded that we should all be enthusiastic for the new paths that God is leading us down. If God is not leading you down a new path, then my heart breaks for you because I suspect you may not be listening closely to Him. I suggest you find someone who is excited about what God is doing and catch their zeal! Enthusiasm breeds enthusiasm! If you have gotten boring and stale in your walk with God, then maybe you need to listen to MercyMe's song "SHAKE" and find a person who is simply trying to be obedient and catch their enthusiasm. Rejoice in the way God has changed you and "SHAKE, SHAKE, SHAKE, like your changed, changed, changed!" (Seriously, check out this song! I love it, even though my dancing in the kitchen causes great embarrassment to my 16 year old.)

Doing new things is hard but oh, so worth it!

One of my sweet friends, Katie, is taking her dream job with Compassion International. She and her husband (our youth pastor) of 14 months are moving to a new state, where they know no one, to impact lives in a global and kingdom way simply because God is calling them. Like most “God things”, it is exciting...and scary...and unpredictable...and exhausting...and peaceful. Most people would not dream of giving up all that Katie and Justin are giving up to follow God's plan. Most people tend to keep things the way they have always been simply because it is easier. Katie & Justin know that things would be so much easier to just continue as everything already is and they are serving God in an impactful way now. (And selfishly, it would be much easier on my family if they continued their work with our youth.) But what adventures and blessings would they miss by doing things the easy way? What adventures or blessings are you missing because it is easier to stay in the status quo? It's ironic that this is one of the lessons God has reminded me of because I often long for the status quo. I have to remind myself that it is a JOY to be allowed to be a part of something God is doing and if my life needs to remain unpredictable to experience it, then I need to rejoice and embrace the changes!

Theory and Reality are not the same.

Being enthusiastic and willing to get out of your comfort zone to follow a new path that God is leading you down sounds wonderful in theory but in reality…not so much. It sounds exciting but it is really scary. It sounds grandiose but it causes us to feel inferior. Doing God's will sounds spectacular until it means leaving everything that is familiar, that you love, to be obedient. The reality says that most people who embark upon these journeys do so knowing that many people - both family & friends - will not understand their decisions or share their enthusiasm. People need to understand that these two things, theory and reality, are not the same and that whoever is embarking on the adventure needs to know it is okay to admit the reality and deal with it. It doesn't make someone less willing to be obedient, it simply makes them human. SO, find a way to give REAL support. ACTUALLY pray for them on a regular basis. LISTEN to their thoughts and feelings without judgment because their pendulum will swing between a confident "I can do all things through Christ..." and "...I am not worthy, how can I do this?". They don't need you to fix anything, they just need some love, listening, & encouragement.

Being in the center of God's will brings peace but not necessarily happiness.

Most people think that if you are in the center of God's will, you will be happy. Read #3 again and see if that describes a happy person? Being scared, feeling inferior, uncomfortable, alone, and without support does not evoke feelings of happiness for most people. However, it does bring a peace that transcends all understanding and a contentment that can only grow. I can't imagine that the Apostle Paul was happy in prison but he was at peace and continued to be obedient. Life is not going to be easy just because a person is obedient. But the strength that God gives to live in obedience brings contentment and satisfaction like nothing else. Don't feel guilty when you aren't necessarily happy but be joyful and content, nonetheless.

God is good, all the time, and all the time, God is good.

When a person is struggling, it is easy to forget to praise God. When life gets too comfortable, it is easy to forget to praise God. When daily routines become mundane, it is easy to forget to praise God. But no matter what the circumstances of our lives, God is good, all the time and all the time, God is good! SO PRAISE HIM ALL THE TIME! When was the last time that you truly pondered the "God is good..."statement and believed it with all your heart? This fact has been one of the most consistent things I have found in my ever changing journey. Something we should ALL remember!

I am so thankful that God uses so many people to teach me so many things. I feel so blessed to have friends of all ages in every stage of life to learn from. I feel humbled that these friends allow me to walk their journey with them and learn through them. I am grateful that Kasey asked me to share this with you. It is not earth-shattering but I pray it spoke to you in some way! (If nothing else, check out MercyMe's song, "SHAKE"! It is so FUN!!!!)

Much love to you and the wonderful PURPLE CLAD JEWEL, Kasey!

Blessings,

An Excellent Wife Who Can Find- My Prayer...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Mon, 31 Mar 2014 18:36:00 +0000

10 An excellent wife who can find?
She is far more precious than jewels.
11 The heart of her husband trusts in her,
and he will have no lack of gain.
12 She does him good, and not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She seeks wool and flax,
and works with willing hands.
14 She is like the ships of the merchant;
she brings her food from afar.
15 She rises while it is yet night
and provides food for her household
and portions for her maidens.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
with the fruit of her hands she plants a vineyard.
17 She dresses herself with strength
and makes her arms strong.
18 She perceives that her merchandise is profitable.
Her lamp does not go out at night.
19 She puts her hands to the distaff,
and her hands hold the spindle.
20 She opens her hand to the poor
and reaches out her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of snow for her household,
for all her household are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes bed coverings for herself;
her clothing is fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates
when he sits among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them;
she delivers sashes to the merchant.
25 Strength and dignity are her clothing,
and she laughs at the time to come.
26 She opens her mouth with wisdom,
and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.
27 She looks well to the ways of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children rise up and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women have done excellently,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain,
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands,
and let her works praise her in the gates.
(Proverbs 31:10-31 ESV)

( I know it says mother's day but I thought

it was fitting for the Proverbs 31 Woman)

My prayer today is that I will be a blessing to my husband. That his heart will trust in me, and that I will be of great value to him.

That I will take care of our home making it a place where he and our children can feel relaxed and taken care of.

That from the abilities God has given me I will be able to take care of and provide for my family things such as yummy, healthy food, and warm clothes and shoes for their bodies and feet.

That I will be a good steward of our money spending it wisely with my family's best interest always at heart.

That I will not be lazy, but work diligently not only for the well being of my family but also so that my children can see the godly example set before them.

I pray that my heart and eyes will be aware of the needs of those around me, and that when I see someone hurting from that need I will be quick to provide however I can.

That my heart, mind, and soul will trust in God for provision. That through that trust I will know that our future is secure.

I pray for wisdom, patience, and kindness to go out before me. That my children and husband will see how much I love them and that they will be thankful- as I am thankful for them.

I pray that God will help me to focus on my walk with him- not things of this world.

I pray that I will look to Chirst in awe and wonder always remembering that he is my provider, my strength, and my all.

-Amen

Blessings,

When Our Own Words Just Aren't Enough...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Wed, 26 Mar 2014 16:47:00 +0000

For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. -Hebrews 4:12

The other day I was speaking with a sweet friend and she made this comment:

"When I find myself not knowing what to do or what my purpose is, God always reminds me to just pray. That is something I can always do."

Prayer can be and is meant to be powerful...

It is our line of communication with the One True God. It should not be taken lightly, and it should not be forgotten or over looked.

Uunfortunately, I think we underestimate the power of prayer in our lives. We thank God for our food and families, and we fall asleep in bed at night repeating the same prayer we pray every night- and for most of us our prayer life stops there.

Prayer Is and can be- So much more.

The bible is clear-

We should pray for God to be glorified (Matthew 6:9)

Pray that God's kingdom would grow here on earth (Matthew 6:10)

Pray for laborers for the harvest (Matthew 9:38)

Pray to know God better (Colossians 1:10)

Pray for power to comprehend the love of Christ (Ephesians 3:14-19)

Pray for our enemies (Mt 5:44)

Pray without ceasing- not losing heart (1 Thes. 5:17, Luke 18:1)

Pray for healing (Jas 5:14-16)

Pray for protection from evil (Matthew 6:13)

Pray for forgiveness of sins (Matthew 6:12)

Pray for unbelievers (Romans 10:1)

Pray to be filled with the Holy Spirit (Luke 11:13)

Pray for boldness in sharing the gospel (Acts 4:29)

Pray for wisdom (James 1:5)...

The list could go on and on.

A couple of years ago I joined a mom's prayer group. The idea of the group was that each week we were presented with one scripture verse that focused on a specific topic and we were to pray that scripture over our children. I had never done this before, but was open and willing to participate.

Over time I came to see that praying God's word (scripture) was powerful. His word is "living and active" and "sharper than any two-edged sword," and from it I began to see God moving and working in the life of my family in ways I never had before. His word is able to "discern my thoughts and the intentions of my heart" far better than even I can- when I don't know what to pray- God always does.

John Piper shares,

If I try to pray for people or events without having the word in front of me guiding my prayers, then several negative things happen. One is that I tend to be very repetitive from day to day and hour to hour, and I just pray the same things all the time. . . . But the Bible . . . . gives me biblical things to pray for so that I’m not praying with empty and vague requests like “God bless them” and “God bless that.” Rather, I’m asking for specific things that the Bible commends.

As I grow and mature in my walk with Christ I can see that part of that growth stems from not only reading God's word, but as I read, praying that scripture over areas of my life so that it can move and work the way God intended it to.

For me praying God's word has brought me closer to God. It's brought me in alignment with his word. I've learned that his words are far better than any words I could ever come up with on my own, and when I can't seem to find the words to pray- I search his Word. It has helped me get out of ruts, and his word moves me- not only to emotion, but in action. And praying God's word makes me think about his word in a deeper more meaningful way- it has become very personal and very real.

I would encourage you to try praying scripture. God is faithful- and he will not let your efforts be in vain. Let His words be your words.

Blessings,

Spiritual Gifts...

noreply@blogger.com (Kasey) — Sat, 01 Mar 2014 20:53:00 +0000

Not long ago, at the urging of my sweet mother-in-law, my husband and I decided to take a Spiritual Gifts test.  My husband is disciplined, eloquent, educable, rational, and logical. He loves to study- to gain knowledge- to search and find the answer, and then to share these truths with whomever he can. Did I mention he's patient? So it was no surprise to see that my husband's highest scores were in Teaching, Administration, and Evangelism. Mine being Giving, Serving, and Encouragement.

This is where I would like to be totally honest with you:

Sometimes I feel like my own gifts are small and less important than other gifts. I find myself thinking that maybe if I were smarter, more organized, more goal-focused, disciplined, or logical God would have been able to use me- in what I see in my small mind- as a more useful- mightier way for his kingdom.

The truth is- sometimes I see God using my husband to speak God's truths to his co-workers or using him to share the gospel with family and I think to myself- "All I'm capable of or been gifted with is the ability to bake muffins for people. How will that ever bring God the glory and attention that he desires and fully deserves."

I don't know if some of you have felt this way at times, maybe I'm alone, but I'm here to tell you that it's out right lies straight from the enemy himself. It has taken prayer, reading God's word, and even speaking with my husband for me to see this.   God's word is clear that we are all united and brought together to become one in Christ:

"For by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think with sober judgment, each according to the measure of faith that God has assigned. For as in one body we have many members,and the members do not all have the same function, so we, though many, are one body in Christ, and individually members one of another. Having gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, in proportion to our faith; if service, in our serving; the one who teaches, in his teaching; he one who exhorts, in his exhortation; the one who contributes, in generosity; the one who leads,with zeal; the one who does acts of mercy, with cheerfulness." -Romans 12:3-8

We are each given different gifts that we should concentrate on and give our energies to. This scripture shows me that each gift is important, each gift is worth mentioning, each gift has merit, and each gift has its place, and that without each gift the body (the church) is incomplete and not whole. While some of the gifts may be more public and some more behind the scenes- they all work together- complimenting each other for one purpose and one goal- To Glorify God.

I'm so thankful that God is opening my eyes and my heart and allowing me to see that I too belong in his body. That I too can be used to point others, through my gifts, to His glory. He doesn't need me for this, but he allows me to- because he loves me.

So- if like me you find yourself sometimes feeling sorry for yourself or inadequate in your gifts hold on to God's word and remember to "earnestly desire the spiritual gifts..." (1 Corinthians 14:1)- they are given for the good of the church "to serve one another, as good stewards of God’s varied grace...in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ."   (1 Peter 4:10-11). And remember that sometimes even muffins are exactly what's needed to share the love and grace of Jesus Christ!