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To the one who turned stranger

2021-10-02T10:08:00.003-05:00

23 SEP, 2021

Life has been too much constricted. We are not only confined by physical boundaries but by our thoughts as well. Imprisoned; that our mind finds its way to the small crater of memories or the concealed feelings. We hardly tend to live in the present or ever think of the future. Life has changed its purpose.

Today I came across one of my old diaries, on which I used to let my mates write about them and some words for me. I turned the first page. "Appreciate our Friendship!!!". All those sentiments, devotion, consent, and enjoyment were well explained by those three words in a simple but way deep down. I couldn't help but turn the pages and read every word with their faces on the page like in the movies during the '90s. All those pranks, stories, memories, desire, resentment, and disappointment that I had kept in a box and forgot to unwrap, all came back to me. Every word, sentence, paragraph, page told thousands of stories, millions of jokes, billions of hopes, and reminded of infinite sweet curves. If only I could bunk the reality and live in my imagination. If only I could turn the pages of my life back and write over them again. If only I could write an essay on "My Best friend" again without a second of thought. If only I could receive those letters written to me by them on their copies. If only I could attempt surprise tests in just half an hour. If only I could..............! If only I could.............!.If only I just don't have to say if only.

Today I acknowledged, how I kept lying to myself that life goes on without them. I am fine even without them. I was trying to forget someone, someone whose remembrances make me a little depressing than I should be. I was being distant from myself. Yes, they carried some portion of me with them. We long for the better days, but we know, deep down, the best days were the ones they spent with us. They are not only the ones who were isolated by time but also the ones who were separated by circumstances. Someone with whom we lost bond while tightening the thread. We pulled the thread aiming to tighten the knot but it couldn't stand the circumstances.

Today many of us wake up searching for the meaning of life. Deep down, we know that it hurts a little more every day to wake up to nothing but the void. I wonder if I ever cross your mind and your heart feels a little more deserted. If you ever open the gallery, start scrolling for a photo but halt because you saw my picture. If you still remember the nickname you gave me.

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Friends?

2021-08-24T08:25:00.041-05:00

"Can we be friends?" said she after some hours of nattering. It wasn't the first time I perceived this question but sudden anxiety developed inside me. I don't know what it was strange but still familiar.

"Are you sure?" I enquired.

"Of course, pretty sure. Is there any problem?"

"But we are not familiar with each other."

" Then we will."

"You are talking about the future, which is vague."

After some minutes of silence, she said, "I feel like you don't want to be friends with me."

"That's not the case. I might be friends with you, but not so quick."

"So, then do you have any best friends? If you don't make anyone your friend easily, then the best friend is the matter to be thought about. Do you?"

"I am everyone's friend but never the BEST FRIEND. I wasn't anyone's favorite."

"Oh, it's obvious. But you mentioned that you are everyone's friend, then I am also your friend, aren't I?"

"Yeah, but that's one-sided. And when anything is one-sided, it's not worthy."

"So, do you have someone to count on?"

"Of course, I do have some friends."

"Do they count on you or choose you over others?"

"I am not sure. It may be an option but never a person's choice. I was a choice, yes, but never the one who chosen."

"But everyone must have one such friend. So, why don't you?"

"I know when everyone has to choose between me and others, no one will choose me."

"Then what about those whom you call friends?"

"I am not sure. People barely approach me. The thin thread of our friendship is over a sharp sword. It may break at any time, slowly without our knowledge."

"So it seems that you are lonely, aren't you?"

"Not. I have one friend whom I can always count on, belief in any circumstance, trust with every decision, and for whom I am the only choice."

"But........ Okay, leave it. Would you like to say who it is?"

"Sure, that's me myself."

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Hope !

2021-06-26T20:05:00.005-05:00

I long to see that angelic smile,

Sitting by your side for a while.

That nostalgic smile still survives,

For the past has been back alive.

I am strolling around the locus you once mentioned,

They are engrossing more than their description.

If I could ask you even now, for the escapade you craved,

But now, your contact is nowhere saved.

Long gone are the days of knocking around together,

Making promises which don't last forever.

When you were around, loneliness was a myth,

Your company was enough to put my life in sync.

It's to remind you but not to say,

I am not more than a memory away.

Travel to the days of foolishness and time spent,

To the days that cannot be brought back again.

Someday our roads might cross by fate,

Or we could even behold each other gaze,

That day will be the most pleasant,

Traveling from present to past and past to present.

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Isolation

2020-07-25T09:58:00.009-05:00

He doesn't need a couch or a pillow,

He will have them wherever he goes,

Deep into reflection, resting head against the wall,

Memories flash, but he cannot have them in his arms.

He walks through the same congested blacktop,

His yearnings are falling steadily like raindrops,

For people, rain is a beautiful scene to mark,

For him, sunshine is like his shadow in the dark.

Beside walks his entangled shadow,

He is seen mourning in his meadow,

He gets replied from his inner heart,

Even in the present he couldn't apart from the past.

He encounters the feeling of impending doom,

Behind the merry face, he is wearing the merest mask of gloom,

He swallows his feelings before others,

Since no one wants to listen to what he suffered.

His blue sky is now no more clear,

Things are always not the same as they appear,

It was long before he lived incongruity,

Today life has shown him utmost disparity,

People are resented, scorned, and unheard,

Till their body is buried under,

One must bury their dream and be a gravedigger,

They are so bold who stood in such weather.

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प्रश्न मित्रताको

2020-07-08T07:13:00.004-05:00

साथी;
सुन्दै मन प्रफुल्लित हुने यो शब्द , कठिन अवस्थाको आश्रय यो शब्द, जीवनमा एक्लोपनको आभास हटाइदिने यो शब्द, गन्तव्यको सहयात्री यो शब्द, विश्वासको पात्र यो शब्द, स्मृतिको भेल यो शब्द । खै ? कुन शब्दले यो साथी शब्दको बयान गरु? यो शब्द यति विशेष छ कि यो शब्दको जति बयान गरे पनि म थकित हुने छैन ।
सोच्नुस् त शब्दले नै यति श्रेष्ठता बोध गर्दछ भने यो शब्दको पछाडि जो व्यक्ति छ उसको तपाईंको जीवनमा कति महत्त्व होला । तर मलाई कहिले काँही डर लाग्छ यो शब्दबाट । यो पनि बत्ती मुनिको अँध्यारो जस्तै हो कि । प्रश्न उठ्छ "असलमा मेरो साथी को हो ?" सोच्ने गर्छु साथी भनिएका जो जति व्यक्तिहरू छन् के साँच्चै तिनीहरू मेरा साथी हुन् र? कतै मैले आफ्नै खुट्टामा बन्चरो हनिराको त छैन? सोच्छु, आफैलाई प्रश्न गर्छु "एउटा अपरिचित व्यक्ति केही क्षणको वाक्य आदन प्रदान गर्दैमा मित्र हुन्छन्?" यदि यसो हो भने म जीवनमा साथीको कल्पना समेत गर्दिनँ ।
कति सोजो छौँ है हामी । साथी शब्द मै साथ छ तर पनि यात्राको क्रममा दुई वाक्य साट्दैमा उसलाई हामी साथी भन्छौँ । के साथ दुई वाक्यको हो र ? सधैँ आफ्नो लागि मात्र सोच्ने हामी आफूभन्दा सम्पन्न व्यक्ति देख्दा साथी बनाउन पाए हुन्थ्यो भन्ने सोच्छौँ । के साथ फाइदा हेरेर दिइन्छ? अझै गल्ती गर्दै छौँ हामी । कक्षाकोठामा सँगै बसेर पढ्ने हरेकलाई हामी साथी भन्छौँ । सोच्नुस् के साच्चै एउटै कोठामा बसेर पढ्दैमा साथी हुन्छौँ? इन्टरनेट र सामाजिक सञ्जालमा भेटेको व्यक्ति साथी, आफ्नो साथीको साथी पनि साथी, काम गर्ने कार्यालय वा स्थानमा उपस्थित सबै साथी, आफ्नो प्रशंसा गर्ने व्यक्ति साथी, आफ्नो गल्तीमा औँला नदेखाउने व्यक्ति साथी, यसरी त तपाईंको कति साथी छन् जिन्दगीमा । साथी भनिएकै कतिले छोडे र फेरि कति आए ।
अब तपाईंहरू सोच्दै हुनुहुन्छ होला "यसरी त मेरा सबै साथीहरु साथी नै होइनन् । के मेरो जीवनमा साथी छैनन् र?" तर त्यो सोच पनि गलत हो । मैले पनि मेरो जीवनमा तपाईंहरू जस्तै धेरैलाई साथीको पद दिए तर थोरैलाई त्यस पदको सम्मान । त्यसैले तपाईंको साथी ऊ हो जसलाई तपाईं साथी पनि भन्नु हुन्छ र त्यस पदको सम्मान पनि दिनुहुन्छ । आफै विचार गर्नुहोस् एउटै कक्षामा पढ्ने सबैलाई साथी भन्नु हुन्छ तर सबैलाई समान सम्मान दिनु हुन्न । कुनै एक (वा बढी) व्यक्तिलाई आफ्नो नजिकको मित्र बनाउनु हुन्छ । त्यसैले अब साथीको पद कसैलाई दिनु हुन्छ भने उसलाई सम्मान पनि दिनुहोस् ।
असल मित्र को हो? मित्रता कस्तो हुनु पर्दछ? के धेरै पछि भेटेको साथी पनि साथी हो? यस्ता सबै प्रश्नको उत्तर हजुरहरुले विभिन्न मान्छेबाट विभिन्न उत्तर पाउनुहुनेछ । तर आज म आफ्नो विचारमा मित्रता के हो, कस्तो हो भन्न गैरहेको छु । सायद हजुर र मेरो विचार नमिल्न सक्छन् तर एकपटक ख्याला गर्दिनुहोला ।
मेरो पछाडि अरूले कुरा काट्दा त्यसको विरोध गर्नु नै मित्रता होला । मेरो गल्तीलाई औँलाउनु र सही बाटोमा हिँड्न सिकाउनु नै मित्रता होला । म निस्तब्ध हुँदा मेरो मुहारमा अंकित भावनालाई बुझ्नु नै मित्रता होला । मेरो आफ्नै परिवार पछि मेरो सबैभन्दा बढी चिन्ता हुनु, हरेक ईच्छा, चाहनाको कदर गर्नु नै मित्रता होला । विद्यालयमा शिक्षकले हाम्रो स्थान परिवर्तन गर्दा फेरि शिक्षकलाई सँगै बस्न अनुरोध गर्नु नै मित्रता होला । जीवनको रमाइलो क्षणहरु सँगै सिर्जना गर्नु मित्रता होला । आफ्नो अन्तस्करण बाट सिर्जित भएका भावना कसलाई निर्धक्क खोल्न सक्नु मित्रता होला । सबै जना मेरो विरुद्धमा हुँदा मलाई बुझेर मसँगै उभिनु मित्रता होला । मेरो हारमा अरू हाँस्दा सहयोगको हात बढाउनु मित्रता होला । आफूले भनेको हरेक मनपर्ने र मन नपर्ने कुरा, स्वभाव, आचरण आदिको ख्याल गर्नु मित्रता होला । धेरैपछि भेटेपछि पनि सम्बन्धमा तनाव नआउनु मित्रता होला ।
समयको प्रतिबन्ध नभई आफूले कुनै पनि बखत सहयोग माग्दा सधैँ सहयोगको लागि तयार हुनु मित्रता होला ।
यसरी मित्रता बारे कति प्रश्नहरु छन् र हरेक व्यक्ति अनुसार आ-आफ्नो उत्तर । कति प्रश्नका उत्तर भने ओझेल मै छन् । तर मेरो विचारमा मित्रतामा कुनै प्रश्न हुँदैन । हुन्छ त केवल विश्वास, भरोसा, आत्मीयता, सहिष्णुता, भातृत्व र भग्नित्वको भाव, प्रतिबद्धता, एकता र सदभाव । मित्रता भनेको नभनिएको प्रतिबद्धता हो, रगतको सम्बन्ध नभएनी आत्माको सम्बन्ध हो र लँगडोको लागि बैसाखीको जस्तो सम्बन्ध हो । जब हामी कुनै मित्रतामा बाँधिन पुग्छौँ तब हाम्रो शब्दकोषबाट एक्लोपन हराएर फूलको माला थपिन्छ । मित्रता त्यति सजिलो छैन न त्यति कठिन । तर याद राख्नुहोस्, जब तपाईंले विश्वास गरेर मित्र भन्नुभएको व्यक्तिले साथ छोडेर जान्छ नी, त्यसपछि तपाईंलाई मित्रता शब्दबाट पनि डर लाग्ने छ । त्यसैले तपाईंले कसलाई साथी बनाउनु हुन्छ, तपाईंको हातमा छ । प्रकाश दिने दीप लाई पनि अन्धकार छँदै निभाउने आजको संसारमा असल मित्र पाउन धेरै गाह्रो छ । यदि पाउनु भएको छ भने त्यो मित्रताको दीप लाई कहिलै अन्धकारको सहयात्री हुन नदिनु ।

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Schooling life (Nepali article)

2020-07-07T08:54:00.003-05:00

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Last time

2020-05-31T22:05:00.006-05:00

Hold my hands one last time,

Like when we have steep rise to climb,

It's always radiant to have you nearby,

When it's about walking under the night sky,

Even when walking on the dark empty road,

My pint up emotions could not explode,

Fill the spaces between my fingers by yours,

We’ll walk over dry leaves again for hours.

Look into my eyes one last time,

Let concealment be poured into our heart for some time,

When your gliding hair hinders my goal,

I’ll lift it from your eyes and look into your soul,

Your eyes evoke myriad memories,

Hiding elegant smile for me,

Inside them, you cache a paradise,

For a person so dear it's hard to say goodbye.

Come and sit beside me one last time,

We'll share the memories of an unfading time,

Rest your head over my shoulder,

Let the evening get darker and colder,

Feel how the breeze caresses our faces,

They remind of those old familiar places,

In this perfect moment, speak using those lovely eyes,

For I want to share my feelings hidden inside.

Hold me in your arms one last time,

But I want to hold you for my lifetime,

My safe place is being in your arms,

For I always fall for your sublime charm,

Embrace me so tight that I can mimic your heartbeat,

Without you, I'm like a puzzle incomplete,

When I’m in your arms you heal my soul,

And again, I get lost in a paradise of my own.

Maze

2020-05-09T08:49:00.002-05:00

Sometimes I laugh upon myself,

Sometimes I wonder about other,

Some are chirping for empty inbox,

While some for empty stomach.

Where is the meaning of it,

Where is the humanity,

When you laugh seeing a person falling,

When your hands move forward only after laughing has been complete.

How ignoble has been the emotions,

How extravagant the empathy,

What is the meaning of that sympathy,

Commenting on Facebook's post with mediocrity.

I am a foolish person I know that,

But people don't laugh at me cause they all are,

Isn't it foolishness to want to be young in childhood,

And to want childhood after being grown up.

Who said humans are the most sane creature,

Ask them the list of things and people they love,

Ask them their first love,

They will miss them in one and parents in another.

Why do people always recall same thing or person,

Having the intention to forget them,

They name it the act of running away,

But always thinking of same, how could they.

The problem of knowledge is not about grades,

Its about the confidence people have,

Intelligent people are full of doubts,

While stupids are the one with confidence.

Everyone is desperate in their words and action,

They all talk about inner beauty,

But gyms are always crowded,

And libraries with so few people.

Why people are so proud of technology,

They all know it but all unaware,

Education took them from thumb impression to signature,

But technology took them back to thumb impression.

People baffle themselves by their thoughts and blame other,

Comparing satisfied life with successful life,

Although they know success is measured by others,

Satisfaction by their own soul, mind and heart.

Friendship

2020-05-01T06:41:00.003-05:00

Though we might not remember the day we met,

We might have talked through eyes; I guess,

We didn’t know each others name to take,

Here today, we don’t need words to express.

Although not my birthday I received a gift,

The most precious one; your friendship,

I want to share every glimpse with you,

For you are a friend so true.

In your lonely days having creepy views,

Remember I will be there standing by you,

I ran to you when things were tough,

Never forget my hand when things will be rough.

We have absurd memories to recall,

Your friendship when my back was on the wall,

You are the friend I count on for advice,

The company of your is a paradise.

You interrupted me whenever I was wrong,

We argued and fought all day long,

You became my base whenever I tripped,

Our words might but heart will never conflict.

I wanted to thank you my friend,

But sorry for I couldn't explain,

I wish to god, oh my beloved friend,

May this friendship never sever to the end.

Cloud

2020-04-17T09:01:00.001-05:00

Listen to the roar of cloud,

Heed the cry of it,

Even among the companion of untold friends,

Solitude has never left it.

Sometimes it dances with euphoria,

In the setting of sky,

Look! How beautiful is the pattern,

Like the army marching in a line.

Either it is posing for a photo,

Or opening a magical chest,

The flash so bright and the closing of shutter,

Like a lion going to have a bite.

It might be living in an ancient age,

As it is black and white,

Since it cannot fathom our signs,

It is such a stubborn child.

Rolls along with the wind,

Forsooth it is it's best friend,

Always comes together,

Like a new born baby with it's innocent cry.

People's heart fills with pleasure,

When they see it cry,

But when it doesn't seem to stop,

People bear the wildest agony.

Look! How beautiful the cloud,

Bright, as sun has been it's crown,

Feels like it is talking to me,

Something good going to come after a murk.

It must be a lunatic musician,

Canopy it's drum and rain drops it's stick,

Plugging with lusty clamor,

Like children jump over the sweets.

Unsaid Goodbye!

2020-04-13T02:12:00.003-05:00

No matter how good is your vocabulary,

You will never find the word to express this misery.

Everyone has to confront this not only once,

But time and again in life as you advance.

To utter a word shivered his heart,

To speak even a word his lips couldn't apart.

Think about the next if the first is so tough,

To urge that word his strength wasn't enough.

It was the last day of their gathering,

Slowly they were approaching the time for scattering.

Past memories reflected in his eyes,

How couldn't the immense love arise?

The most outspoken was dumb,

His heart was beating like madman on a drum.

So called bold was also shy,

He could do nothing but cry.

It was the first time all together but silent,

Tears falling like stream so violent.

The most scary whiteboard became pleasing,

Everything appeared appealing while leaving.

Everyone departed with souvenir of their friends,

Thinking about memories together they spent.

Even after several tries,

No one could utter a "Goodbye!"

Contrary

2020-04-09T08:54:00.002-05:00

Far from the city, there is a village,

Where people don't erect walls between houses,

People wake up along with the sweet song of birds,

Which carries melody and euphony like the message from Lord,

Far from the city, there is a village,

A divine place where nature rests.

Far from the desert, there is a forest,

An undulating place where nature breathes,

An ideal place to appreciate mother nature,

Where a poet wants to cover every inch of it in a paper,

Far from the desert, there is a forest,

A pristine art of nature; flawless.

Far from the glacier, there is a river,

Every time new yet always there,

Hides dark might in its hush flow,

Advancing steadily without any fixed place to go,

Far from the glacier, there is a river,

Takes different forms as it wanders.

Far from the turbulence, there is solitude,

Where no other voice is louder than that of you,

A peerless time to search for self,

In this journey, there is none you can seek for help,

Far from the turbulence, there is solitude,

Looking inside the soul in a pensive mood.

VOICES OF MY HEART

2020-04-04T04:18:00.002-05:00

Those were the days I was perplexed, maybe everybody would feel it. Wondering at the starry sky, it was a great pleasure indeed; endless memoirs as that of the stars, the mind was an ocean with curiosity to do something new; something no one has done yet, behind all of these things those quality time with weird friends, maybe we can call it a gem of life, meant a lot to me.

If anyone asks “What is life?” I will say “Remember the time when you wished to travel the world but you have no penny. Remember the time when you were admonished for the mistake done by others. Remember the time when your outfit was messy yet everyone loved you. Remember the time when everyone believed in your lies. Yeah! Remember the time when you were a child, when you had nothing in life but lots of enthusiasm, when you had your own world, your own happiness, your own definition of happiness, your heart was pure, no any jealousy no any greediness and the time when you dared to walk no matter how many times you fell down."

But today life has become just like a conductor, travel every day but reach nowhere. I used to think, I will make a house and live contentedly, but today's need for a house has made me a traveler. There was a time when I used to ask my parents to go out for dinner, but today I wish I could have dinner with my whole family members at home. When I started earning then I realized interests were fulfilled by my parents' money, my own money was just used to fulfill my needs. Life is like a mobile that runs smoothly at the beginning, but as you grow old people become bugs and your goals become your antivirus. Your challenges are the junk and your determination and passion are the cleaners.

“Be self-dependent” almost hear this word much time. But what is it to be self-dependent? Now let’s expand our imagination. Just close your eyes and open the eyes of your heart and remember the first time you walked on your foot, the time you wore your cloth yourself, you went somewhere alone, and most importantly remember the time when you learned from your mistake. Yes, being self-dependent is learning something new and we are never always self-dependent.

If I open the book of memoirs, I remember those weird friends, those weird moments. Don’t know where they are. Those words “I will be by your side forever. I will be there for you no matter what. Don’t be reluctant to ask for help” might be unsaid but we could feel it. But today everyone’s life has changed. It has taken a new turn, entered a new world, a new journey of life, and a new destination. Some they don’t have leisure from work, some they don’t heed about friends. The clock is ticking; life has been flood with memories. Years passed by, we make so many new friends, but always fail to make memories like that with those fellow friends.

Childhood; how to elucidate this word, those memories can make you laugh when you are crying and make you cry when you are laughing. The time when our heart was attached with people around us, among our friends, our families, not with the electronic device, nor with a virtual world. I am thankful that I spent my childhood in the real world, not in the world of lies, where people text each other in the same room, where they barely meet their friends and family. Sitting around the fire in the winter and listening to those scary stories, sharing joy, pleasure, was really a thrill.

Those moments; precious time with beloved friends; singing in the classroom, hitting the desk with hands, pencil, whatever we get, it was a lot better than going to the concert. Those silly answers, those weird dances, weird memories, argue among friends; oh they are now irreparable. Cleaning the bench with friend’s bags, making excuses for not doing homework, our precincts were sky, imagination flew on a paper plane, enjoying the breeze that touches our soul, and our imagination flies along with it. The moment when we used to sleep on the sofa watching television at night and find ourselves on the bed the next day; the bliss of childhood was immense. Childhood is like being drunk, everyone remembers what you did except you.

The theory of life has changed now.

If I ask “When was the last time when you ran through the open field to feel the same freedom, same pleasure, excitement, and return to the same world again?” (Do u remember..............?)
When was the last time when you slept in your mother's lap?
When was the last time a dog ran after you?
When was the last time your mom told you a story?
When was the last time when you talked to a stranger without reluctance?
When was the last time when you dissembled an electronic gadget without any reason?
When was the last time you danced in rain?
Do you remember a day in recent years when you spent a whole day without using cell phones?

All I wanted was to live the life of my dreams, which would probably be the best adventure in life, but life was like rain; which comes down with pleasure but brings flood in others life. The true friends in your life are your childhood friends. They know your past, your story, the song inside you, the goals of you which were laughed at by people, the real you, imperfection inside you; yet walk by your side in every walks of your life. But, where are those friends now? My heart is still calling their name, searching for unconditional love, the potency they spotted inside me when I was broken into fragments and made me; the real me. People say “Nothing lasts forever” but the reality is “Same time doesn’t last forever”.

Don't ask

2020-04-04T04:05:00.002-05:00

Don't ask human about humanity,

Don't blame other for your defect,

Cause it's hidden behind thick fog of vanity,

None other but you have to protect your respect.

Don't ask nature about it's beauty,

Don't forget it's the creator's gift,

It's smashing views are now only seen in movies,

It's charm is the best thing than can ever exist.

Don't ask sky about it's height,

Don't worry even if its the darkest night,

Cause its when the stars are bright,

Set a goal and take a heroic flight.

Don't ask mountain about it's strength,

Don't always search for easiest path,

Pile up might and go to the length,

The way to success has no formula of math.

Don't ask ocean about it's depth,

Don't ever try to test its might,

Plans are always better kept secret,

Cause minute units are heeded when environment is quiet.

Don't ask wind about its direction,

Don't make fun of baby's cry,

If you fail make a move with new intention,

A laugh at curiosity obliges scientist to die.

साथी

2020-04-04T04:02:00.000-05:00

थाहा थिएन आखिर माया के हो
थाहा पाए सबै उत्तर तिमीलाई भेटेर ।
मेरो मनको सबै भ्रम टाढा भो
मनमा भएका सबै कुरा तिमीसँग साटेर ।।

सोच्ने गर्थे माया बिना जिन्दगी चल्दैन
आगो बिना कुनै पनि कुरा बल्दैन ।
बल्ल थाहा भयो साथी बिना जिन्दगी चल्दैन
र ईर्ष्या भए कुनै कुरा बल्न आगो चाहिँदैन ।।

यहाँ सबै जना प्रगतिको दौडमा छन्
मेरो खोज निरन्तर असल मित्रको जारी छ ।
अर्काको प्रगति हेर्न सक्ने छैन कसैको मन
विगतका स्मृतिले मेरो मन खिन्न भएको छ।।

यहाँ को ठुलो को सानो थाहा थिएन मलाई
भन्थ्यौ हरपल साथ दिनेछु तिमीलाई।
मलाई यति ज्ञात थियो तिमी मेरै हौँ होइनौ पराई
असल साथीको दृष्टान्त भयौँ तिमी मलाई ।।

कहाँ गए ती दिन

2020-04-04T03:58:00.002-05:00

याद छन् मलाई मेरा बालापनको रमाइलो याम

जहिले भनिन्थ्यो सधैँ रमाइलो गर्दै जाम ।

ती साथीहरुको यादमा रुन्छ सधैँ मेरो मन

कसरी व्यक्त गरूँ लेख्दा लेख्दै काम्छ मेरो तन।।

नयाँ साथी बनाउन लाग्थ्यो मलाई रङ्ग

हाँस्दै खेल्दै बित्थ्यो समय तिनीहरू सँग ।

यो संसारको मोहमायादेखि थियौँ धेरै टाढा

ती पलहरु सम्झिँदा बिझ्छन् मनमा काँडा ।।

कहिले ठुलो हुन्छ भनी देख्थिएँ सपना

तर आज बाल्यकालको रमाइलो भयो कल्पना ।

सानो छँदा भन्नेगर्थेँ डाक्टर बन्न चाहन्छु

तर आज मनले भन्छ बालक बन्न चाहन्छु ।।

बाल्यकाल भनेको घडीको सेकेण्डको सुइरो रहेछ

आँखा खोलेर हेर्दा बाल्यकाल नै बित्दो रहेछ ।

अचम्म रहेछ यो समयको नीति र खेल

अब कहिले हुने होला हामी सबैको मेल ।।

आकाशको चरी जस्तै मुक्त थियौँ बाल्यकालमा हामी

भविष्यको लक्ष्य सोच्दा सोच्दै बद्लियो काहानी ।

खेलौनाको लागि खस्थ्यो मेरो आँखाबाट आँसु

कोही भनिदेऊ ती सम्बन्ध फेरि कसरी गाँसु ।।

कल्पनाको संसार थियो ठुलो हुने चाहना

साथीहरुसँग घुम्न जान गर्यौँ अनेक बाहना ।

चौतारीमा सबैसँगै बसेको झल्झली आउँछ याद

जिम्मेवारीको बोझले थाकिसक्यो अब यो काधँ ।।

जीवन

2020-04-04T02:55:00.001-05:00

विद्यालयको परीक्षामा सिकाउने साथी त धेरै भेटे
तर जीवनको परीक्षामा कसले साथ दिने होला ।
किताब भएको झोला त भारी लाग्ने यो काधँलाई
जीवनको जिम्मेवारीको बोझ त के होला ।।

विद्यालय त केही पल बिताउने चौतारी रहेछ
यसकै शितलमा जीवनको मानचित्र कोरीदो रहेछ ।
किताबमा त केवल जीवनको परिभाषा थियो
यसको अर्थ त बाल्यकालको स्मृतीमा भेटियो ।।

समयले गति फेर्यो जीवनमा नयाँ मोड आयो
यो मनमा आज फेरि त्यही गीत गुन्जियो ।
सधैँ साथीहरुसँग हराउने मनले एकान्त खोज्यो
एउटा शान्त कुनामा बालापनको तस्बिर झल्कियो ।।

क ख बाट सँगै सुरु भएको यात्रा आज कहाँ पुग्यो
सँगै हाँसेको सम्झेर मेरो आँखा भिज्यो ।
आँखाबाट कुरा हुन्थ्यो अनि मुखमा मौनता
नबोले पनि कुरा बुझ्ने साथी भेटिन्छ मात्र एउटा ।।

World

2020-04-04T02:40:00.002-05:00

How strange the world is,

You are one in billions,

Yet you're compared with rest,

Regardless you can climb the Everest.

How frustrating the world is,

Nuclear wars have canopied the world,

You are messed with riots,

When you ought to bring up your Patriot.

How astonishing the world is,

People yell to admire cloudburst,

But umbrella is always searched first,

Deep in heart shadowy dreams are nursed.

How cruel the world is,

They take your passion away,

And see your identity decay,

When you ask for help answer is always May.

How inhumane the world is,

All in the race of competition,

Never behind to play game of derision,

And animals are kept in prisons.

खै?

2020-04-04T02:23:00.003-05:00

मुहरबाट मुस्कान हरायो, आँखाबाट चमक

झ्यालबाट बाहिर हेर्दा देख्छु सुनसान सडक ।

घरको भित्तासँग बोल्छु, मनको कुरा खोल्छु

सधैँ एकान्तमा बस्छु, मौनतालाई अँगाल्छु ।।

रातको निद्रा हरायो, दिनको उज्यालो

विपनी त होइन सपनी राम्रो लाग्न थाल्यो ।

जितमा रमाउन छोडे अनि पीडामा रुन

खै किन हो खुसीले सकेको छैन छुन ।।

सबै मित्रहरू हराए, साथदिने हात

जीवनको गोरेटोमा छैन कसैको साथ ।

कलाको कदर छैन, मौलिकताको सम्मान

कति बाँच्नु सहेर व्यथा अनि अपमान ।।

जीवनको ऊर्जा हरायो, गन्तव्यको ठेगाना

मुटुको मुटुमै सज्यो मेरो सबै चाहना ।

जन्मेदेखि लड्दै छु, बाँच्नको लागि सङ्घर्ष

विश्वास छ यो कठिन समय छिटै कट्छ ।।