Heart Locker

Maybe

2013-10-16T13:39:00.000+05:30

May be you can't see..

the tears in my eyes,

that doesn't mean I can't cry..

May be you didn't know..

I was pretending to smile,

that didn't mean i was happy..

May be you heard me saying..

that i was fine..

it didn't mean that i wasn't hurt..

May be you didn't even know..

that you don't know me,

I understand, doesn't comfort me,

Because I know you don't

even you don't know me..

Through My Eyes

2013-09-10T00:49:00.000+05:30

If you could see by my eyes,

you would see a million cries.

A million griefs lost in the smile,

a long road that ends in a mile.

Those eyes full of hopes,

need your hands to cope.

So much they have to cry for,

yet they know its not the time to die for.

Fighting is the only way,

to make your smile win this game.

enlightening yourself everyday,

to make yourself win the fame.

If you could see by my eyes

you would want to cry for cries.

You may not have a million to smile,

But million feelings to share for a while.

P.S.: For those helpless people who need a hand for help, for those people who still has got humanity left in them. Helping them is helping yourself.

Someday Someway

2013-08-25T17:24:00.003+05:30

She jumps in my thought,

She pumps in my blood,

every moment I live,

stronger it goes to tie the knot.

I look through the air.

I see a picture of her.

I close my eyes

I see you to my surprise.

You are always high on me,

Just like the sky on me,

You shine through my days,

Like the sun and its rays.

You gonna stay in me,

till my life will stay in me.

No matter what way,

We gonna make it someday.

P.S.: I Miss You

Deep Within

2013-07-23T02:20:00.002+05:30

Each breathe of mine,

without you it's not fine.

Most of my life belongs to you,

And the rest is mine.

My life is worthless,

my days are mirthless.

Without You,

That's How I'm

Without You.

Bring back life to me,

Bring back sense to me.

I'm so cold and numb,

Bring back please,

get me some.

The tale of me & you is not over,

you are somewhere deep within

Until my love & life is not over.

You'll be all in me,

Somewhere deep within.

She's Been the Love

2013-06-25T20:47:00.000+05:30

She's been away,

while I'm left on the way.

She's been far,

just like the shining star.

She's been all,

when I've nothing at all.

She's been the light,

in the lonely scary night.

She's been the hope,

while I've no way to cope.

She's been the wish,

like the Gods grace n bliss.

She's been the only,

When I'm all lonely.

She's been my ever,

For who I can wait forever.

P.S.: I'm missing you so terribly that I can't find life any more in me.. I wont let it end this way.

Different World

2013-06-03T00:40:00.000+05:30

Lets make a world,

defined in a different word.

Where emotions're worth,

in the humans on this earth.

Where selfishness is a forgotten term,

and, enemies are some rotten germ.

Where love is in the air,

and, we get so much in fair.

Where eyes get full of happy tears,

and, you get cared for years.

Where life doesn't seem worth leaving,

and, you get one more day for living.

I wanna belong to that world,

where people don't act curled.

Lets define it in a different word,

and make it different world.

P.S.: There was a lot to say but I wanted to keep the poem short. Let me know how you felt reading it?

StrangeRs Again!

2013-05-31T06:50:00.000+05:30

Once, on a day,

through the life's way.

You meet one, strangeR,

and they become your life changer.

Doing every possible thing,

to get attached by the string.

Either its running miles,

or even by faking smiles.

StrangeRs become friends,

over & over like trends.

Sharing every laugh,

even the fears & tears, in half.

So one day, you feel,

being more than friends.

So some way, you steal..

heart, being more than trends.

You'll never realize,

the miracles you did.

To make them ever realize,

just happy, all you did.

Hugging, Kissing, cuddling,

time keeps flying away.

Later its puddling or muddling,

life keeps changing away.

Once, on a day,

it becomes a blame game.

somehow or someway,

relationship becomes a lame name.

Taking each other for granted,

or with time you're changing.

feelings aren't strong as planted,

because someone stopped trying.

Over & over once on a day,

tolerance is now enough.

It just happens this way,

its impossible & is now tough.

Someone who you liked the most,

is someone now, hated the most.

you move on with a life changer,

again just like being the strangeR.

Left with memories,

with some faded times.

Love notes & gestures,

& voices like some faded chimes.

Desperation becomes separation.

Importance becomes ignorance.

Try hard, keep them away from their pain,

before you become strangeRs again.

Once, every day,

remember how you started.

Try your best every way,

Just the way, how you started.

P.S.: Always put the same effort in your relationship which you put in the beginning else you will start being strangers and will even end being strangers.

P.S.: This is my first attempt of writing such a big poem so excuse... But do let me know what you liked or disliked about it.

Morning without You..

2013-03-30T20:09:00.001+05:30

When I open my eyes

I see me waking up lonely.

Tears rolling out as my cries

I wipe my tears,

as I'm alone and only.

C'mon, come to me,

just make some sound.

I wanna feel you near to me,

just make me feel you around.

How am I supposed to be,

when you are not there.

I want you close to me,

like the light and the air.

Oh! baby you're making me pray,

pray for you every moment I'm alive.

I'm without you every passing day,

wanna hold you tight...

until every moment I'm alive..

Sunset & You..

2013-03-29T19:19:00.001+05:30

Watching the sun go down,

I see the morning turning to night.

Been missing you so much around,

come back to me & hold on too tight.

You will come back,

breathing with this trust.

Down with memories attack,

craving for you, like this thrust.

Like the reflection of the light,

in my heart you shine.

You're so lovely, You're so bright,

come back to me, wanna make you mine.

I'm watching the sun go down,

thinking of my princess in the crown.

Soon we will be together in the town,

will be watching the sun go down.

This Morning..

2013-02-22T03:02:00.000+05:30

This morning in the balcony

When the sun is high and warm..

I stand with all my agony

Yet I woke-up with all the charm..

I know the day, it's so clear

When I'm gonna meet my fear

When I'm gonna feel my dear

I'm waiting for, it's so near

Just few more breath,

And I'm gonna see her in my eyes..

I will have no more death,

I'm gonna hold her with my cries..

Words will be so silent,

Action will be so still..

yet we will mean,

the thousand words,

we gonna feel..!!

P.S.: It's just 1% of what gonna happen..

I want you.. want you to know..

2013-01-13T21:41:00.000+05:30

I want you.. want you to know..
Don't know when you gonna read my words..
But whenever you read..
I just want you.. want you to know..
That it seems like, part of my heart stopped..
When in me, missing you topped..
I know its temporary..
I know that I will be back..
Back into your arms soon..
Yet its so terrible without you..
Sometimes its next to impossible..
But the feelings of you being with me..
Is yet so alive..
I want you.. want you to know, till the time its there..
I will keep me going..
I want you.. want you to know, as soon as it will go away..
I will be so crazy & run back wandering for you..
Doesn't matter how far you will go away..
I will get back in your arms, running away..
It's been hours didn't get any of your text..
Didn't even hear your voice..
I want you to know..
That is something making me loose myself away..
I want you.. want you to know..
That I want to create memories with you..
Memories where you can find only me and you.. ♥♥
Memories which wont belong to anyone else..
Memories which wont belong to either of us..
Memories which will be for both of us..
Don't know what you're doing at this time..
When I'm trying to make my words rhyme..
Don' t know even I'm there in your thoughts or not..
But I want you.. want you to know..
I just can't get over your thoughts even for a second..
Probably when you will hold my hand..
& will be with me..
Then only I might think of anything else..
or then only I might care for anyone else..
or only then I care for me too..
B'cause that's when I will know..
That you're there with me, too..
But when you're not there..
I want you.. want you to know..
I can't see anything..
Stars don't shine anymore..
Sun doesn't light my day anymore..
I can't feel anything anymore..
I'm getting blind and numb more..
My heartbeats has become a pain..
I want you.. want you to know..
I'm getting cold, just so much without you..
I want you.. want you to know..
I miss something in me, so terribly without you..
I want you.. want you to know..
I miss you so much, when I'm without you..
I want you.. want you to know..
That's how I am, when I'm without you..
I want you.. want you to know.. I've so much to tell you..
When I'm without you.. I want you.. want you to know..
I want you.. want you to know..
that, I want you..

Back In Time

2013-01-06T21:59:00.001+05:30

Every second my heart,

rings a bell as alarm.

somewhere it hurts,

but its as good as charm.

I know, we were together,

in the time that passed.

I wish, we could gather,

in the never ending time that lasts.

I want to go back in the time,

when we talked for hours.

The past that has grime,

when we smiled for hours.

Bring back the time to me,

I want to live her more.

Bring back that mine to me,

I want to love her more.

I wont get it fade away,

I'm gonna hold it tight.

She is like a fay away,

One day, I'm gonna hold her tight.

Too Near Even Too Far

2013-01-06T21:11:00.000+05:30

I see a girl so beautiful,

no matter what, as usual.

She gonna be the angel,

gonna be the girl so delightful.

She got mysteries in her smile,

though she lives far in miles.

But makes people love and shine,

even though she's not mine.

Too near but even too far,
just like the shining star.
can see but can't touch
as if i'm locked in the bar.

I wish she could see,
I wish she could feel.
I wish she could know,
she is the only one..,
one on my prayer wheel.

I know some day I will be free of that cage who keeps me far.. n will be with you Forever.. ♥♥

Two Strange"R"

2012-12-28T16:00:00.000+05:30

What a strange life we have… sometimes very easy to understand and sometimes very difficult to understand.. sometimes very lucky sometimes very unlucky.. but I know that this is life.. Strange Life.
What if one find a strange girl in this strange life.. This is what happend with me.. I found one strange”R” and it has become now so strange for me that I don't know how I can understand that girl so deeply? How I know almost everything about her? But she is the girl who really does not want anyone to show the mirror of her. And I know why she does not want that.. Because she knows everything about her.. she knows what she is.. she wants to keep those things to her.. she knows that this world will damn care about her.. about her feelings.. She does not want herself to show to this dirty world that she had not been happy inside but had been pretending to be happy.. people always find the smile, so good on her lips.. but never cared about why she is bound to wear that smile.. she is not happy inside.. She is the girl who does not want people to have two faces on them but she knows that this world is so bad.. and everybody try to just show there beautiful face but tries to hide the horn on their head which will hurt someone a day..
I now know a girl, she is Strange”R”. But I want to tell you that you are not a stranger for me… I don’t know how I know you but I know you for the fact. I know you don’t like me understanding you and bringing those things up in front of you, which is buried deep inside your beautiful heart. But I keep bringing those and you get angry, you get rude.. but why cant you believe that you got someone like you.. That’s me.. just like you.. but I guess you don’t like it because you wanted to be always unique. But you found that you are not the only one of your type.. but the same God made you.. made me as well with many similarities between us.. I know that strange”R”.. Oh ! God I love to have a Strange”R” who is not a stranger.. please tell her.. not to go away from me.. Thanks for giving me that strange”R”

Happy New Year 2013 – Make Resolution

2012-12-24T16:32:00.000+05:30

Funny New Year Resolutions:

> I won’t take bath everyday, this is my bit to conserve water.
> I promise to stick to these resolutions for more than a week.
> I will learn what the “resolution” means.
> I will not hang around girls because they think I love them.
> I will not bore my boss by with the same excuse for taking leaves. I will think of some more excuses.
> Will try to smoke more, since it will keep the tobacco workers on their job, & they wont be jobless.
> I promise to be nice to my dog. I won’t starve him to death more than 10 times…. in a month.
> I will stop giving excuses to my girlfriend for being late on every date. And, I am not lying this time.
> I will stop sitting idle. Would rather utilize my precious time by sitting on Facebook.
> I will stop peeping into my girlfriend’s male friends profile on facebook.
> I will change my undergarments everyday.
> I will not stare at other girls, when with my girlfriend, though I am not sure when I’d be alone.
> If someone would ask me for choosing one between Babes and Bikes. Babes, I sympathize with you.
Wackiest New Year Resolutions:
> I will stop biting my nails as some places in my nose have become unreachable.
> I will save money from this new year. And, making missed calls tops my to-do list.
> I will stop sniffing my socks every time I take them off.
> I will try to find out the reason behind me having an email id on almost every e-mail service which exists.
> I will stop irritating my Facebook friends by storming their wall with Farmville updates.
> I will stop changing my profile picture 100 times a day, now I would change it only 10 times.
> I vow to brush my teeth everyday. Oh ! please exclude Sunday from everyday.
> I will stop replying with K, LOL, to my friends’ texts.
Serious New Year Resolutions:
> I will mend broken relationships.
> I will focus more on giving rather than taking.
> I will make it sure to give my love a good night kiss whenever he/she sleeps, and a peck on his/her forehead even before sun’s rays wake him/her up.
> I will quit smoking. Not for me, but for my family.
> I will stand by my love come what may.
> Every morning I would say these words to my Love, “Give me all of your tears and take from me all of my smiles”.
> I would try to become my kid’s best friend.
> I will do my bit to stop corruption in my country.
> I would never ever doubt my Love’s commitment for me. And, this is a resolution for the whole life.
> I will not crib about things, would rather remain content for what has life given to me.
How to make a New Year resolution:
> Although many of us make a New Year resolution at the beginning of a New Year but we do it more out of a custom than with actual planning. Also, people don’t spare much thought in finding out what he/she will actually like to achieve in the year. Hence, the success rate with New Year resolution is actually poor. Some tips therefore can become handy in making your New Year resolution a success.
> Fix your target: What is really important to you? What do you want to achieve in the coming days? Setting your priorities will help you set your New Year’s resolution better.
> Make a realistic promise: When we promise, we promise big, without really considering the possibilities of achieving it at the end. This is one of the major causes of higher failure rate with New Year’s resolutions. Hence, make yourself a realistic promise.
> Make an optimistic promise: Try and look at the positive side of the promise. Leave the negative ideas aside. Hence, instead of saying that ‘I’ll not be late at my appointments’ say ‘henceforth, I’ll reach everywhere in time’. The positive tone will help you improve your chances of success.
> Break down big goals: If you have promised yourself a big thing set small targets at first. Instead of looking at the big task on the whole, taking small steps towards achieving it will help you to reach the target easily.
> Develop other habit: We all know that some habits are hard to change. Hence, the best way to change an old habit is by developing other engagement. If you have decided to quit smoking, find another engagement which will relax you and will take your mind away from smoking.
> Never Forget: What you need to do after you have made the resolution and always keep a track what you have achieved & what yet need to be achieved.

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One in Billions !!

2012-11-24T02:39:00.000+05:30

When i was miles away,

I rested in your thoughts..

whispering in your ears,

hugging you tight..

lips are sealed tongue is tied,

look into my eyes..

read through unspoken words..

holding me so tight..

The one thing that i wanna say

I whisper.. to the one in billions..

but you are million miles away..

I Love You.. more than the trillions...!!

When my eyes are closed..

2012-11-24T01:52:00.001+05:30

When my eyes are closed,

take me to a place, so warm and safe

right there, i see your face, your beauty.

even when you are 80,

the beauty that can never be replaced.

A smile to pull out of the grief,

an embrace to feel out of the blue,

a place to hide more..

there i will always be..

let the sun burn out and moon to fade

No matter what, will always be there,

the love i have got, will never fade.

when you are alone and sad

go to the place so warm and safe,

I wait there opening my arms..

patiently waiting even when I'm no more..!

The Last Time..

2012-11-24T01:14:00.000+05:30

Sitting on the edge of the roof,

all numb to get scared,

hitting up by the proof,

you were the only one..

the one to make me smile,

the one who could give me all her heart,

to make me walk a mile,

even when she is hurt & i'm hurt..

every ounce of my soul,

every drop of my blood here,

would want only you..

if you could be here..

the last time, I would touch,

the last time, I would feel..

the last time, I would hear,

the last time, I would live..

... just in love of you!!

Your Smile..

2012-10-18T03:22:00.000+05:30

I know there's two faces,

facing different places.

But the feelings, one,

since the heart is one.

Ask your heart once,

If you close your eyes.

Who you want around.

When the emotions are high

whose hug you want around.

I know it's just difficult.

But what makes it impossible.

Hold my hand,

& we will make it possible.

Every smile that I see,

makes it easier.

Every pal with you,

makes it closer.

P.S.: Keep Smiling Love..!!

LOST

2012-10-16T22:48:00.002+05:30

Where am I looking at,

What am I looking for.

What way to go out,

What way to come in.

Lot of queries to ask,

Lot of memories to erase.

Lot of things unsaid,

Lot of things undone.

This is what we get mad after,

this is what we get sad after.

This is what, was before,

This is what, is today.

We knew all of 'em.

But were still lost yesterday.

& lost untill today.

Will be lost forever untill the time ends!!

Questions to God!

2012-08-23T01:00:00.000+05:30

I wonder why "life" is a web of complicated roads, when everyone has a common start n the common end. Why we are supposed to go through different ways. I don't know what God had in his mind while engineering human but as far as I know everyone meant to be live together like friends in brotherhood. So they are supposed to walk along on the way to death after they are born. But why they get different lives to live. When they can accompany each other like friends and make each other's life simple. Simple to live and simple to die. A life full of simplicity.

Anyways, God gave us what we were supposed to get. We are not one of the best creatures of the God but the most complicated creatures of God because everything that happens here in this world either good or bad humans are responsible for that. I wonder where's God, what role does he play. Is he only supposed to give life and take life. What about the rest, rest that we live. Seems like we are an entertainer to God, isn't it? He just watch us playing our roles and the only role that he plays is to give life and then to take life. I want to scream out and ask to that God we all are your sin, then why do you have to let us live like soulless life? Why we don't see happiness around? Why every human says they aren't happy? Why everyone has got a pain? We spend our life just after one thing i.e., running after happiness. We say that human has got endless desire and that's why humans can never be happy. But I want to ask that God who's sitting somewhere in heaven, who's responsible for making us, when he blessed us with everything then why he had to bless us with endless desire? Is it because he never wanted to see us happy? I tried finding an answer to it but the only answer I got every time is he never wanted us to be happy. :(

Why God? I don't want to be an entertainer to you just take my life and show me hell. Because for now there's no where hell than living on this earth with this life. Take away all I have, let me born again maybe then I can live a desire less life. A life without any wish.

Hope you answer my questions when I happen to meet you!

I guess we all have this question to God, isn't it?

Anonymous (part II)

2012-08-19T21:45:00.000+05:30

Sometimes, I feel like that God locked me in such a black glass box through which I can see this complete world, and no one can see me. I can feel what they go through but none can feel me. I can see them laughing sharing their happiness but no one cares whether I am happy or not. When the people out are happy gives me a little smile burying the extreme pain inside for not even been able to share my smile with anyone. It all goes inside this black glass. I get all those feelings that they can feel, yet I am so isolated. I cry alone for me and for their pain. I smile alone when they are happy. I scream in this loneliness that I want to be happy, I want someone to be there with me when I am in pain, when I am in tears. Want someone to wipe off my tears. I am screaming for help but none can hear my voice. Its all me inside, its all my loneliness inside.

Living in the walls of your own thought consisting all the emotions waiting to burst out.. but nobody knows whats up with you, that's where you lived that anonymous life. Look at the faces around and ask yourself is there anyone like you, who you think he/she knows you ? And they might have the similar question in their heart too. So that's how we all are different in this world with different feelings, different beauty, different intelligence and everyone is unique ! So do you and so do I. So never judge anyone on your understanding. Give as much love as you can. Because they need more of love than you so don't hate them.

I sit back at the glass and watch days passing by including all festivals and occasions, nobody ever wished me a good day but I wish them all. I ask myself, why I had been hated for too long yet I am surviving in this hope that someday, someone will be a part of me, will share all that I have got. And will give me all their love just to see me smile once. I know that someone, will never let me die alone being anonymous. Don't know when but one day I will share this anonymity with someone anonymous like me.

Do you wait for someone like that ?

She's the One !

2012-08-15T17:26:00.000+05:30

She's the one I am destined to..

She's the one I am in love with..

She's the one without who I can't live..

She's the dream for who I would sleep forever..

I don't think a breath without her..

this world means no more without her.

Oh! God this life, let me live for her..

Oh! God this life, let it end only for her.

Let me born again..

I want to love her again.

B'coz she's the best..

she is the prettiest.

She's my morning and she's the night..

She's my life and she's the death.

She's unique and she's the one..

She's my truth and she's the fun.

Anonymous (part I)

2012-08-09T02:36:00.001+05:30

You might be thinking why this title "Anonymous", but do you realize ever what life we live. We have got such a huge world with numerous countries and Islands which all together makes a population of 2 billion people.
But do you have that one person in your life who can completely understand you, who can devote all their life just for you and die just for you.

How you will feel like when you will have that one person to unconditionally love you throughout. I know it sounds like a dream coming true but trust me if you ever happen to find that person you will never ever cry out, your life will seem like a bed of roses. Anyways, how strange is it ? You spend whole life finding one person to love you and you can't find one, how unfair is that to mankind !!?

Had been living alone for years in the boundaries of my own thoughts, never found one who could really have taken me out of those boundaries. I feel more pity when someone comes to you stays for a while gives you hope that they will take you out but at the end they leave you making those boundaries more stronger and taller which you can neither jump nor break. The good thing about the walls(boundaries) that nobody can come inside too. So again a lesser hope to find someone for yourself. So you live an anonymous life where no one knows you.

Are you living that Anonymous life too .. ??

p.s. : Second part is also up hope you will like that too.

Love You More..

2012-08-07T18:50:00.000+05:30

When I look into your eyes,

my heart wants to sing a song.

When I feel you close in my heart,

my hand wants to write a song

When you touch me with your love,

my soul wants to love you all (my life).

When you stand by my side,

my will wants to fight for our life.

When you put your faith in me,

I just be the best in me.

When I see the pain in you.

I just want to die for you.

I just want to love you more,

I just want to feel you more,

I just want to see you more,

(with all your love...)

I just want you to live me more.