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05262019

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Sun, 26 May 2019 12:12:00 +0000

I’m back! And I might be updating this blog regularly now that I have an iPad. Yay!

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Tue, 05 Jun 2018 12:32:00 +0000

Moki decided to leave us today...for good. I will always, always miss you my baby.

Radar Trainee Confessions

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Mon, 11 Dec 2017 13:27:00 +0000

Taken at the back of our shower room, este office. Sorry, may mga sinasabon kasi dun sa loob. Haha. Introduction/pasilip to my plan of writing about our experiences as radar trainees. It won't be a post about our complaints. Takot ko lang. Haha! But seriously, it will be like a compilation of stories of our battles and struggles as trainees that we normally voice out over plates of food and bottles of *cough* water. Don't worry, I'll thread lightly. Haha. Well, we actually talk about those moments and ended up laughing. Not that we don't take our work seriously. Believe me, we fucking do! (Please don't get me wrong, omg. Mapapahamak ba ako neto?) I think it'll be a funny post. I was inspired when I once again read the speech I wrote about our training days (ibang training din yun. Andami dba bes?!) I know our radar training days will be over soon so I wanna put those memories into writing para may mapagtawanan din kami when the time comes. Natatawa kasi ako habang binabasa yung graduation speech namin nung training. Proud na proud pa nung gumraduate kami. Yung tipong, "Hello world, we're ready for you!" ang feeling. Maiiyak ka sa pride and joy. Tengene, hindi kami naorient na iiyak kami ng dugo 3 yrs after. May mas hihirap pa pala dun bes! 😭 😂

So, yun. Next post soon!

#radartraineeconfessions
#abanganangsusunodnakabanata
#postatrisk
#nsfw

10202017

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Mon, 11 Dec 2017 12:19:00 +0000

A lot of people don't really know or understand what I do for a living. When I passed the training, our neighbors seriously thought that my parents finally have a pilot for a daughter. I used to tell people that I work in CAAP as an air traffic controller. Over time, I realized that both my workplace and my work are both jargons to almost everyone. So, to make things easier, I just say I work at the airport. When I had the chance, I brought my parents to my workplace because it's easier to just let them observe what I do because I struggled explaining to them my work.

03242017

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Mon, 11 Dec 2017 12:18:00 +0000

That moment when,after filling up a form needed for your item, you realized that you're just 5-digit worth. And a very low 5-digit value at that. #Adulting???!!!

10132017

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Mon, 11 Dec 2017 12:18:00 +0000

A message from a former officemate asking me where she would find one of my previous entries opted me to write a new one. It made me happy that somehow someone finds my posts worth reading or entertaining. I'm not the most creative writer. I just write out of boredom. It also helps me practice my grammar because my work sometimes destroys it. Ha. Ha.

I am an air traffic controller. Don't ask me what that is yet. I can't find the right words to explain it and it can be lengthy. Anyway, our work uses phraseologies to communicate with pilots and fellow controllers. So we use phrases, which means that they're not sentences, which means there are no subjects and predicates, so technically they don't express a complete thought. But, when you're in the aviation industry, sentences are a n

12112017

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Mon, 11 Dec 2017 12:18:00 +0000

I hate this feeling when my hand's itching to get ahold of a pen and write every word that floats in my head. My head feels like exploding, it wants to pour out all those thoughts that's been consuming me these past years. All these years were so overwhelming, time is so overwhelming, the situation is so overwhelming, all of it drains my strength. But I can't seem to start. I can't seem to figure out what those words are. It's making me uncomfortable and excited at the same time.

Self-righteousness

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Mon, 11 Dec 2017 12:15:00 +0000

It's Holy Monday and I ate pork. Did I already commit a sin? I am a Catholic. I go to church once in a while. I am not a devotee. I used to be a church organist. I sometimes attend praise and worship sessions. But I am naive when it comes to the doctrines and church laws. But I pray. A lot.

Just earlier, my colleague reprimanded me because my dinner is pork. I told her I didn't have any other food and asked her if it's bot allowed. She said that it is if you're a devoted Catholic. She then went to my other officemate ans started a chismis.

I'm getting so tired with these self-righteous people. They always think that they're a better person because they go to church regularlu and that they observe the religious practices. That's why my faith towards my religion somehow weakened because of these very people. They talk about other people, judge other people and condemn other people. Who are we to judge? Who are we to elevate ourselves from the rest because we think we know better? Who are we to impose our own rules and beliefs to someone else? We're just mere humans. I hope we put more value to our faith than our religion.

06162017

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Mon, 11 Dec 2017 12:15:00 +0000

I can't believe that our youngest brother is now 22 years old today. Time just flies so damn fast. Funny how these realizations bring you memories of your childhood.

10142017

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Sat, 14 Oct 2017 04:07:00 +0000

You are not obliged to do anything to people you don't like. Just roll your eyes and you'll be fine.

10082017

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Sun, 08 Oct 2017 00:54:00 +0000

It's a sad, toxic place.

0831217

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Sun, 10 Sep 2017 11:48:00 +0000

Boyfie's birthday gift is a 32in television. Haha

01032017

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Sat, 06 May 2017 22:29:00 +0000

As you grow older, you learn to choose who and what your priorities are. You become more aware of what you wanna do with your life and who you wanna be with. Your circle of friends starts to become smaller, your social interaction becomes shorter, your hours are spent more on the few people that really matter to you. It may be a sign of growing up. You no longer have the desire to please anybody, to show off, to be in, to be accepted because you are already at ease of what you are and you're sure that your family and true friends will accept you and will be there for you no matter what.

A lot of people get pressured when they reach 25. They say it's the right time to get married and have kids. That's why others get fucked up because they seem to be living with a time bomb above their head. You make mistakes when you hurry. And when you do, you get frustrated and feel that life is over for you. Maybe that's why there's what they call a "quarter-life crisis". I don't believe in it. It is just an excuse of 25 year olds to get away with the pressure of what an early adult must have, a stable career, a strong relationship, a healthy savings, etc. When they commit mistakes, when they feel frustrated, when they wanna get away with responsibilities, they blame it on their age. When I was 25, I was busy burning my ass off to pass the training. When I was 26, I was busy studying for my licensure. And now, I am busy redecorating my hive and planning of binge-watching. I didn't have any big-time moment of breakdown. I don't know. It could be me being lucky or I just don't give a fuck.

A Letter to Imee

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Sun, 05 Mar 2017 02:06:00 +0000

Hi imee,

God thinks you're awesome. You're loving. You love and care about your family a lot that's why you have become responsible. You work so hard so you can give enough allowances to your brothers. Most of your friends want you to be their bridesmaid and that's saying something. You are talented. You sing well, you play the keyboard quite well, you're good at calligraphy and you have a knack in photography. You want to know more about your work. You have become more patient than you were before. You are a good furparent. You are a loyal girlfriend. You have everything: a loving and supportive family, a sexy and an amazing boyfriend, hardworking brothers, an awesome job, a beautiful room and a fluffy and beautiful cat. You have a lot to forward to. Most of all, God loves you and believes in you. You are amazing, Imee. Continue to shine. 😊

Love,
Imee 😊

Social people

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Thu, 05 Jan 2017 01:11:00 +0000

Now that I think about it, I realized how lonely people can be. They seek too much attention, they brag about what they can, and they seem to want to be admired too much. Maybe that's the reason why a lot of people turn their attention on social media. Because that's where they can be someone they just aspire to be, or what they want others see of them. They can filter rhe negative and highlight the positive. However, it's sometimes becoming so pathetic. Their life's like becoming an entertainment. Not in a positive way, though.

12262016

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Mon, 26 Dec 2016 11:28:00 +0000

I wanna learn Spanish. ❤

12262016

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Sun, 25 Dec 2016 18:13:00 +0000

It's so hard to deal with people sometimes.

Snaps from Pinto Art Gallery

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Thu, 13 Oct 2016 02:33:00 +0000

Crab mentality

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Tue, 04 Oct 2016 08:50:00 +0000

Funny how some people quickly notice other people's luck. They don't realize that they're just as lucky as they are. Or maybe that's what they don't want, others having the same gift as them because they think they deserve better. I don't know where they're coming from so I may not have the right to say anything. It's just my opinion that life would be less complicated and happier if we ignore things that frustrate us. If we can't change a thing, then we need to change our perspective.

09292016

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Sat, 01 Oct 2016 01:04:00 +0000

He's not fond of saying I love you but you feel it every single time. That's why you're always caught off guard when he says it out loud. He says it in the most unpredictable way. Like when you're eating. He suddenly tells you he loves you and that's when you realized he's been staring at you this whole time you were chewing, or rather eating like a savage. ♥

22 Non-Negotiable Things Everyone Needs To Learn

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Thu, 21 Jul 2016 09:51:00 +0000

1. Be grateful. Always. A thank you can go a long, long way, may it be the bus driver or your colleague or your boss – never ever forget the people who lend a hand and helped you be who you are right now. Keep in touch, ask them how they are, how’s life, how they’re holding up – never forget. Never. Sometimes great things happen to us because of the people who never think twice about helping us. They are a part of us, of our success, let’s not forget that.

2. God is always faithful. If you ever feel like God is no longer hearing your prayers and your wishful desires, He is, so do not be discouraged. He knows exactly what you need and when you need it. Life is a lot longer than what we think, we need to exert patience and trust all the way through. The things we desire, the things we pray for will absolutely show up when it’s time, when we’re most ready. We need to learn to STOP rushing everything.

3. You’re on your way. Contrary to what you think, you are not lost. Detours and more detours are certainly a part of life in order for you to find your way. It’s okay to make unexpected wrong turns, trust your guts. You are just on your way and no matter how dark it has been, how confusing it gets or how uncertain everything is right now… you’ll find your way.

4. Don’t rush love. Stop forcing love, stop fighting and stop looking. If it’s meant to find you, it will find you. Stop trying to make it work with everyone who greets you hello, or sends you a message, or to everyone who smiled at you across the street. Stop insisting love with all the wrong people, in all the wrong places. A love that’s meant for you will blossom and will bear fruits of kindness, passion and concern in due time. Stop waiting for that reply, for that call, for the date offer, just stop. Stop wasting your time waiting. Remember, love raised out of the need to feel worthy or beautiful will never last. Let go and delight in the assurance that love will find you at the right time, in the right place with the right person.

5. Everyone is struggling, be compassionate. Everyone you meet is fighting their own battles. If there’s anything I’ve learned the most, it’s this, as human beings with hearts, we need to put ourselves in their shoes before we can jump on the bandwagon. Before we start judging them, or their life choices, or their behaviors – we need to fully comprehend the amount of struggles they are going through. We aren’t the only one with battles, we are all conquering and overcoming. We need to be more sensitive and sympathetic.

6. Hustle and hustle hard. The truth is, your future will never be fruitful if you just sit around right now. Your future is something you have to work hard for right now. I know sometimes it gets exhausting and that’s a valid reason to take a pause. But you have to continue grinding, your energy right now will never be the same when you turn 45. Right now is the perfect time to invest in your career.

7. Be kind and let the assholes be assholes. Just imagine how fragile your heart is, imagine it filled with hatred and evil thoughts – not pleasant huh? Fill it with kindness. No matter how rude and mean people are to you, you are not obliged to reciprocate their behavior. Do good to those who do you wrong. Always exchange hatred with love, you’ll be so much better off. At the end of the day, you’ll sleep better.

8. Choose your battles. Not every battle is worth fighting for. Learn to let go, sometimes peace is more important than proving you’re right. You don’t have to be right all the time, surrendering doesn’t equate losing, sometimes it’s winning.

9. Your family is your greatest connection. As you grow up, bear in mind that your parents also grow older. Often times we lose track of our family, we are so caught up in the midst of pursuing grander things for ourselves, for our career, love life, self – that we forget to even send our sister or our father a simple how are you message. Connections are important, we need to remember that they are the same people who stood by us before and who stand by us now and in the future.

10. You are your passion, so feed it. Whether it is acting, food styling, traveling, writing, singing – do it. You have to feed it with actions, these are the desires of your heart that defines your identity. Don’t you ever compromise it. If ever you haven’t found yours, keep looking. Keep looking.

11. Be polite, always. Even in the smallest of things, hold the door for someone, bring your mother some flowers, send your best friend a sweet note, buy a random beggar a meal, smile at random strangers, say sorry, say good morning – do it, trust me, it helps the heart.

12. Take good care of yourself. You are young yes, but you need to look our for your health too. It doesn’t matter if you’re healthy or you’re not sick, still, take care of your health. Exercise. Eat healthy, sleep, drink water, put some sunscreen, anything for your health and wellness. Spend money for yourself. You need it and trust me, when you turn 40, you’ll thank your 22-year old self for it.

13. Go out on adventures. Even the cheap, small ones – your soul needs it. This is the perfect time to do it, don’t reason out work or money, you will never stop working and you’ll never have enough money, so do it now. Don’t tell yourself that you’re tired, you aren’t physically tired. Your body isn’t tired. Your soul is. These cheap adventures can surely help you out.

14. Listen. Listening just to respond is different than listening to actually understand and comprehend other people. Look at them right in the eyes and listen. Just listen. Be there to listen, not to respond. We have to remember that not all things revolve around us.

15. If you ever find your soul mates, don’t let them go. If you ever find people you can sit down with for hours just talking about life, dreams, politics, movies, coffee shops, don’t let them go. They’re one of a kind.

16. Always be open for new things, take risks. Learn new insights. New people. New culture. New places. Grow in all aspects of your life possible. Connect with the people who can contribute new learnings to your being, let everyone you meet be a vessel of such. And always be resilient enough to take risks – your choices don’t have to be definite all the time. You are allowed to make some wrong moves, some wrong turns. You are young and right now you can benefit from all the experiences you can get. You are capable and strong, more than you’ll ever know.

17. Learn to love being alone. As enchanted as we all are with the idea of having someone special, I hope you also learn to delight in the fact of being alone. Take yourself out on a coffee date with your diary and thoughts. Go out alone, pray alone, laugh alone, cry alone.

18. At times, do things to please yourself. Not others. Stop doing things for other people’s opinion. Do it for yourself. Dress up. Look good. Feel good. For yourself not for other people’s validation. You don’t need to force yourself on everyone you meet. You don’t have to change for others too.

19. Be an inspiration. Always try your best to encourage everyone you encounter in this lifetime. May it be through a simple Facebook status or a plain piece of advice – do it. Offer your shoulder, send a tight hug or a sweet kiss – anything that can be a way for someone to feel extra lighter, extra better about life.

20. Learn vulnerability. Learn to feel and feel deeply. Cry if you must; shout, if you must; talk, if you must – just feel it. Let every kind of vulnerability surface, because contrary to what they tell us, it’s okay not to be strong always. It’s okay to be lonely, to be sad over failed relationships, broken friendships and tragedies.

21. Stop overlooking every mundane moment and start appreciating each one. We feel empty most of the time because we dedicate ourselves so much in pursuing more amazing things, experiences when in fact they’re all right in front of us.

22. You are the only one responsible for your own happiness. You can be the sea or the star, you can be the wind or the fire, it’s entirely up to you.

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07212016

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Thu, 21 Jul 2016 09:51:00 +0000

I'm happy today. So hashtag blessed. Lol 😁

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Independence

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Sun, 12 Jun 2016 15:31:00 +0000

I arrived home wet from the rain for having to ride my bike from work. It's not that I have to, you know. Riding my bike just gives me this cute illusion of being in London, or Paris, or Tokyo. Haha. Not to mention that I can save P60 for not having to commute. And that's actually my only exercise, if you can consider that one. Today's the second time that I completed my home-office-home route scratch-free. For me, it's a big accomplishment knowing how busy the streets are, how nervous I am whenever I'm at it, and how clumsy I am.

Since I was able to spare a few monies today, and since there wasn't any food left, I decided to buy a cheap pizza, a coke and a couple of beers. Call it cheat day. My boyfriend's gonna drop by before he goes to work so we need some foodies while watching a movie later. Sweet life!

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Procrastination

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Fri, 10 Jun 2016 12:47:00 +0000

Everyday I scold myself for reading a novel instead of Doc 4444.

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Cancel Hiatus

noreply@blogger.com (eelemi22) — Fri, 10 Jun 2016 08:59:00 +0000

I'm back. Wordpress was actually a lot better but I can't let this blog go, despite the export feature. I've put a lot of efforts into this years ago and I just can't let it go now.

I'm back. Not that I have much to say though. I'm no longer in the mood to talk much about what has happened or what is happening lately. I've been to busy with things to come up with a sensible blog. My mind's been full of thoughts but I can't seem to put words into them to give them justice. And yes, I'm lazy to type.

I'm back. Same as before, my first few paragraphs are just like a senseless stream of words trying to explain something and of which needs a reply as short as 'Okay'.

Anyway, I'm back. For the benefit of reviving this blog. And I'm trying to empty my brain from not-so-important things so I can concentrate on more pressing matters at hand, firstly, my upcoming check-out. I need to study like hell. My dryruns are just as bad as my study habits. My coffee dosage is doubled now but my sleeping hours are just the same, in fact they're getting longer. Haha. Too much excuses, I'm just actually lazy.

I now have a cat by the way. His name's Moki. He's Persian, and loves to bite and sleep on his back with his legs wide open. He's just one of the countless gifts my boyfriend gave me. Lucky me.

No, I don't wanna go into a lot of details about my awesome boyfriend and my awesome relationship because the Internet is getting creepier and nosy-er. I wanna keep it and us private because what we have is something special. It's not for public consumption and definitely not for entertainment. The Internet has loads of information already that everyone can pass up to become a private investigator. People love to talk about themselves all the time, eh? And they're actually so passionate about what they believe in that sometimes it becomes funny. I could go on and on about it. Some other time maybe.

Just like that, I'm saying bye!

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