A Beautiful Mess

Favorite

2010-12-07T22:26:00.001-08:00

If you could only understand how much i play this song... this particular version has to be my most favorite of them all.....

Gravity

this is for all my fellow students that are putting in the last minute work to close out this semester... if you feel anything like me right about now then im sure this would be a bit of fresh air for you.

St Vincent

2010-11-30T20:46:00.000-08:00

I like to feel like I put some of you guys on to new fantastic artist when i post random videos in lieu of a real post..lol

I recently fell upon this here gem while listening to the track "Maniac" on Kid Cudi's new album. Her song was sampled on the chorus of the song... and of course with me being the person I am, immediately take to the lovely world wide web to find out more about her.

Long story short... She goes by the name of St. Vincent and is pretty damn awesome.. A true gem indeed...

Been playing her nonstop for the past couple of days

(song Kid Cudi sampled)

Best situation ever !!

love

yea she actually deserved a whole post

What do they call me

2010-11-11T21:45:00.000-08:00

ive been waiting for this to show up on youtube...

love love love this performance

phenomenal from all four of the ladies....

but ledisi ...... *sheeesh* o'lawdamercy

a moment

2010-11-07T23:01:00.000-08:00

You can't tell me Al Green doesnt make you smile.

love

i lost 15lbs

2010-11-06T07:51:00.001-07:00

....... tonsillectomy is no joke

this is just within a week

Horror story

2010-11-01T12:56:00.000-07:00

man oh man. I havent been on blogger to actually write a "post" in months...

For a while i was debating between the fact if i should continue to post shit about myself and my life on this world wide web or if i should just stick to keeping my random rambles amongst personal friends and/or caged in the membrane.

eh..

To say the least I missed Blogger.

So I guess the only question is, where do i begin.....

well first I guess i can start with the mere fact that I am in recovery mode from a tonsillectomy I just had last wednesday and let me tell you............. worst recovery ever.(Not that I have anything to compare to it, since this is my first surgery ever.) As the days progress, I feel worst. That's some complete mind fuckerage right there. You would think as the days progress, that the pain would subside since you would technically be healing. umm no.

For those of you that dont know what a tonsillectomy is, it is the surgical procedure of the removal of the tonsils.

*cricket sounds*

Yes, you read right. I got my tonsil removed....... NO, im not 5....Yes I am grown. People always equate tonsil removal to a kiddie procedure that babies get but let me tell you adults get them done to for many adult reasons.... (sleep apnea, tonsillitis(<-no joke), enlarged tonsil, tonsil stones, strep throat, & etc). And unlike when kiddies get it, adults dont heal as fast and painless. Tonsillectomy for adults is a mental and physical WARFARE aka worst pain ever!!!! Okay, Im exaggerating but you get the jest. Well any who, before I got mines done, i scanned the internet to do a little research on what to expect to mentally prepare myself. Hell, I even asked a few people that I knew that had theirs done. And when I tell you that EVERY story that I came across was like a freaking horror story... I mean it. Each story went from everyone crying of the agonizing pain, how they lost all this weight, how they couldn't eat or do anything for weeks and even how they lost their taste buds for some months. ((O__O)) I was shook.

Hearing and reading all of this had me mentally prepared to look and feel like an abandon refugee...... I was over it! I was so over it and filled to the brim with horror stories that i was practically no longer nervous about the surgery or recovery anymore. I had excepted the fact that I was going to wither up into a dry bag of bones, so I was real nonchalant by the time surgery day came about.

*Well anyways.... fast forward a few hours after surgery.*

The first few hours after surgery was a doozy. I woke up to my nurse, sounding like my mother, yelling my name telling me to stay awake *whilst she injected sleepy pain medicine into my iv*

-______________- I couldn't stay awake for more than 5 mins......blah blah blah.. not much pain here as i was too doped up to feel anything. shit I couldnt even feel my legs... (this came to my attention after I abruptly got up to use the restroom and went tumbling face and IV forward out of my bed... heh) Anywho, after being their a few hours fighting my sleep. i grew tired and disgusted and demanded that they release me. They released me. then i slept the whole drive home. :-)

Okay off topic but back to the real story at hand..... the first two days was easy. Barely any pain, I slept like a baby.. *Special shoutout to my $60 Pain Medicine*

Pain was so miniscule, i was sleeping good, talking and eating tuna salad, yogurt and wonton soup (still soft food) like my throat wasnt a big ass open sore. Just living it up free as a bird and shit. I thought back to some of the horror stories i read and laughed. Like "ahhh sad weaklings how can this be so bad"

**Pain Medicine can make you cocky**

little did I know.

Eye before the storm. O_O

I am now on day 5 and i feel like complete dried up elephant shit.

I cant even manage to say a single word without feeling like im slicing my throat. Hell the mere task of swallowing ones spit or water is like preparing to swallow a jagged crab shell. a tear welds up in the corner of my eye every time. I cant eat anything but ice chips..

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and i have headaches and ear aches that can crush any sinus infection that anyone has ever had.. intense boots. I feel like this is death. and its just day 5 of the 14 day recovery. *cries*

My once glorious pain medicine is not so glorious anymore... that shit is like blood now... i need it to just be able to eat a cup of ice... which is now my preferred meal of the day.

Hunger is not even the word to describe how i feel right now... like i get hot flashes just hearing or smelling other people eat. I tried to eat a bowl of potato soup earlier and almost felt as if i was about to throw up all my internal organ so i had to quit. Very disgusted... i wonder how much longer till i will be able to see my ribs. o_o

anywho enough wooing myself....I know this is only a temporary situation and I dont mean to scare off anyone else that is thinking about getting their tonsils removed. Regardless, of everything that i just said, I think getting my tonsils removed was one of the best decisions i have made as far as my health is concerned This temporary hell beats the chronic hell that i was experiencing with my tonsils throughout time. So if you are reading my blog/horror story, Dont let me terrify you. Go through with it. Your body will thank you.

*looks back at what I wrote* Yea so I practically wrote a entire essay for you guys with this post and didnt even go through everything that i wanted to talk about. *le sigh*

guess i'll leave it at this yummy red velvet cupcake that i wish i could devour right now.

cupcake i got from BuckHead Diner in Atlanta Georgia

BEST DINER ever!!

next episode: The Impala Meltdown

2010-10-16T09:15:00.001-07:00

awesome

2010-10-14T14:27:00.000-07:00

I miss my lil conversations with the babies! their lil innocent minds say the cutest most darnest things.
even though this one is drugged out lol

:56 is way too funny

Random

2010-10-06T11:03:00.001-07:00

just for Dilla

Medulla

2010-09-28T10:41:00.000-07:00

The Day of the Women

2010-09-15T18:52:00.000-07:00

"I Spit on Your Grave"

O_O
Im not gonna lie
i would probably go off the same way...
fuck that

Im a Fan

2010-09-13T13:38:00.000-07:00

Such a breath of fresh air.. I love her spirit.
Pure.

Lil' P-Nut

2010-09-08T07:13:00.000-07:00

lmaoooo this was too cute...
Eazy E reincarnated lol lol

lol
but on some real shit my lil 7 yr old cousin can blow him out the water...
imma make him a youtube video lol

Nostalgia

2010-09-01T09:58:00.000-07:00

what does this song remind you of?

me? south carolina in my grandpa's barn... heh
(it was actually more fun than it sounds)

You wanna know what cute is...

2010-08-28T18:31:00.000-07:00

check out this little dumpling

RIP Aaliyah

2010-08-25T12:13:00.000-07:00

I can not go through this whole day with out acknowledging Aaliyah. Before the beyonces, ciaras and rihannas came on the scene Aaliyah was rocking people's worlds. (including Damon Dash, Jayz, RKelly alike) I loved her and as most teenage girls i was completely devastated when she passed.

See, I in fact was an Aaliyah stan and on the day she died, i was up early in the morning doing what the average teenage stan does..... hawking and stalking her fan page (i was 13, what gives), thats when all of a sudden a RIP post pops up on the message board. i was like HUH?!?!?! O_O whhhhhaaaaaatttttt!

..... ran to the tv and waited........ and waited some more

Then, I saw it. Aaliyah was indeed gone...

I tell you for a 13 yr old stan that was the biggest blower before school started. but i will not get into a whole spill about the crocodile tears and sadness because there is no need for it; no more mourning.

anywho...

I use to be so in love with this video, I would go as far as to actually calling The Box and requesting it ( ya'll know that shit cost). Once i bought her music video dvd set (-_-) i studied and learned the entire dance. yes the entire dance (not to mention the other videos that I memorized ).... Wait, before you think that it couldn't get any more pathetic than that, check this. I would even "passionately" sing it out loud to an nonexistent guy as if i was Aaliyah herself, all while dancing -_-
heh, i was such a weird ass.
but today i found out i wasn't the only one cause two ppl responded to me saying that they too memorized entire dance numbers from her diff videos.. so im not alone on this weirdo boat
.
BTW just imagine how awkward and silly i looked betweeb 1:42-2:00
i hate it all

this post, in fact looks like a 16 year old wrote it.. and im not okay with that. I enroll back in school soon. *rolls eyes*

**

Aaliyah also makes me think of my old childhood best friend Candace and all the many of days that i would go over her house and we would listen to her albums hours on top of hours..... ugh i miss her. RIP Candace Baby

Groovy

2010-08-25T10:30:00.000-07:00

Daft Punk "Harder Better Faster Stronger" song came on my ipod shuffle this morning and i could not stop thinkin about this video ever since. This video takes me back to a time when my brother and I were potheads and complete daft punk fanatics. we watched every video for this song.

But nothin beats this girl dancing. Like not even the daft bodies or daft hands (even though both were awesome)

I instantly fell in love with this stupid video a little over a year ago. This girl goes all the way in with her quirky yet some how groovy dancing. Don't know if it was the weed or what but i can never forget it.

If you do not smile or laugh once while watching this girl dance her nonexistent ass off you have got to be one of the most bitter ass individuals out here. lol

You cant tell me that this video doesn't make you feel like you are tripping... hard.

i die at 1:33-1:37 (her lil power kick)

my brain

2010-07-29T10:03:00.000-07:00

Civilization by Marco Brambilla from CRUSH on Vimeo.

"Civilization by Marco Brambilla"

Marco Brambilla will be directing Kanye's video for his single Power... with work as the one you see above. i can only imagine what this video is going to look like. I don't expect anything less than genius.

But about this piece......
what do you see?
how do you feel?
.....eh
?

'debauchery x fake-shit-that-you-think-is-real-shit x brotherhood x sisterhood x no hood x Tyranny x unexplainable shit x beyonceism x invasions x metropolis x future and modern day dystopia x universal mind control x Illuminati(?) x and some more shit' .... mmmh

Yea. So this video pretty much sums up what the inside of my brain looks like when I am asked questions based around politics, religion, music, tv, and americans .....................
yup.

thats about it...

Beats of the Djembe drum.. Music of Mali

2010-06-18T12:45:00.000-07:00

music like this makes my heart smile.

P R O U D

I just thought I should post....

2010-06-17T14:42:00.000-07:00

Semhar - Pretty Girl
"A Poem describing another side of "Pretty""

Check her out on youtube for more

Such a beautiful poem and such a gorgeous woman

anywayssss... just sliding through. I will be posting soon. i miss you and shit

Inspirational

2010-05-07T13:47:00.000-07:00

Watch this at Boston.com

#WOW

hello new followers!

2010-04-21T13:48:00.000-07:00

why hello hello

im shocked that i still get new followers even though i don't update my blog as much as i used to... im only 5 short of 100 now :-)

KOW *bougie neck roll*

The fact that I still get followers kind of makes me want to blog some more. I'll admit, I have been extremely lazy these days and have resorted to my lil ol' tumblr to keep the blogger bug away... but who am i?

I mean to be real, I actually kind of miss Blogger.

I'll be back a little later to rant about the beautiful yet ugly things in life, the crazy world that we all in live in and the places I have been in the last few months... (Philly, Cali, Vegas, ATL, home..etc) <-- alot of fuckery might i add.

oh and just an FYI.. i dont write in full complete sentences nor do I use perfect english or punctuate my words. In fact, I even make up my own words so if u have a problem...#shrug

in the meantime

Soon We'll Be Found

2010-03-26T18:13:00.000-07:00

SIA

If you dont know of her, you need to hurry up and make yourself acquainted with her. Her music is simply beautiful and heart warming. I just love it. I've been listening to her latest album "Some People Have Real Problems" for the past week and I havent been able to put it down yet. Her voice is amazing. I say if you like Feist, Fiona Apple, Regina Spektor and or Esthero then you NEED to check SIA out. love love LOVE her.

Check the video out.

Sia | Soon We'll Be Found from Concord Music Group on Vimeo.

Wow.. i had no idea...

2010-03-11T13:36:00.000-08:00

Diggy - Made you look Freestyle (Flow Stoopid) from Diggy Simmons on Vimeo.

so uhh yea......
i kno im late but DAMN
let me find out this lil boy has skills...
i see u Diggy

Whaaaaaaattt

2010-03-10T07:34:00.000-08:00

okay when did Payless start giving all of this straight off the runway shoe????

i mean im not gonna fake, for the past couple of seasons Payless has been stepping their game up. I have bought some bad ass wedge biker boot by featured designer Alice+Oliver from Payless but this Christian Siriano line is looking quite desirable...

For those that dont know who Christian Siriano is, he was the winner of the fourth season of Project Runway... That's all that I really know about him. But I guess that's all u need to know.

All his shoes run at about $79 ... (boy has Payless came a long way lol)

i dont know.. i may have to get a pair or something... lol

I personally am digging the blue ones for myself. As you can see to the right (pictured with Christian Siriano) Amber Rose rocked a pair not too long ago for NY fashion week. (dont know if she just wore them for his show or what.. but none the less, they are still hot)

LOVELY

these are pretty hot too

Im diggin it.