See through my Eyes

Few examples of amazing true friendship

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Thu, 26 Mar 2015 00:17:00 -0700

Hi! I just wanna share my thoughts over one of the blessings, a relation that makes our lives brighter, gives us memories to assure us that we really lived our time. It is the Friendship.

I know many girls who say, “Friends are just a mean to kill your time. Nothing more!” There are many guys who say, “You can’t trust anyone. Once you put your guards down, your so called friend would throw you off balance to get what he really wants.” I don’t feel like arguing with them. Yup, they might have some terrible experiences. I agree that everyone can’t be ideal friend. But it is not right to question the whole existence of this beautiful bonding based on few bad experiences.

I may just blurt out some quotes from famous poems or novel to describe this relationship, but let me stick to reality. Still, I feel like defending this amazing relationship. A friend is more than just a shoulder to cry or a clown to cheer you or a bond to bail you out of trouble; it is the source of a vital energy. This energy may give you hope when you feel like “Oh crap! I made a blunder again!” This energy may give you strength to carry on before you succumb to the feeling “I can’t do it. I am not made for it!” This energy neutralizes the dark energy so that you don’t think “I am nothing! No one needs me! None love me!” Aren’t those feelings familiar? I bet those are! If you ever had those feelings and managed to recover as well, I guess you already know what a friend can do, no need to read my whole crappy article to learn things you already know.

Let take few instances from real life on how friendship saves people.

Friendship drew her out of shell:

I know a girl who couldn't talk to people. She was s timid, shy girl who imprisoned herself in her limited world. Restrictions, insecurity etc where squeezing her more and more inside a sphere. She could see others from inside and other could see her too. But she couldn't reach out to anyone neither

anyone could reach her. One day, she met someone on Facebook. He cracked some jokes and she smiled. He made up some funny incident stories and she smiled more. Then, he asked, “So, tell me,what do you like?” She was smiling, so unconsciously she blurted out her imagination, her weird fantasies as she wasn’t feeling insecure there for some reason. First time she talked her heart out. Gradually she opened up like a blossom blooms into a flower. Then that flower drew attention of other. Somewhere between in this whole process the wall of that sphere had dissolved into air and she could reach out to others.

Friend shared the burden:

I know a teen who was depressed as he couldn't figure out what he would do in his life. Whatever he thought to do in future didn’t seem to him good enough. Yes, he was ambitious. But he was falling apart. But there was a friend who believed in him. He participated in whatever he tried. They failed together, they succeed together, they cheered together and they also cursed the world for being so hard on them together. But they shared the load throughout hence both managed to pull through.

Friend made her live again:

I know a girl who couldn't sleep. She had chased a ghost for many years in the name of love. And pieces of shattered reality were pricking in her eyes, hence she couldn't sleep. Then, someone said, “You are taking to hard on you!” She get annoyed. They quarreled. She said, “Put yourself in my shoes. Then you wouldn't do those big talks.” He said, “Whatever! There are hundred peoples in this world to make up for moron who didn't care.” She asked, “Ya ya! Tell me one name.” He really told her many names who had rooted for her, who had acknowledged her, who had tried to cheer her up. She realized something and said, “Hey! No worries! I won’t let you guys down. I am a hotty. I will seduce a hunk soon.” They smiled together on it.

Friends who touched the life:

I know a guy who realized his potential because of friends who were rooting for him. I know college girl who does a part time job, works whole day to keep her dreams alive. And that energy I was talking about earlier keeps her going. Well! I don’t need a fancy quote from a novel or poem to describe friendship. Google and you would find many, so spare me that extra typing effort. But all I can say, “A true friend would help you shine more brightly.”

But still, few words of caution for all. There are few opportunists who aren’t there to be friend. They are there as long as you are putting everything to maintain the bond. Friendship isn’t a business agreement; give-and-take isn’t applicable here. I see it in kids. A little boy says, “Wanna play at my place. My dad would order pizza. We would share.” Other little boy says, “Sure! I will bring some cookies.” Then, they smile selflessly to each other. I have seen it in grown up peoples too. I have seen friends sharing feelings, I have seen friends achieving things together and also screwing up things together. Please keep the Maths out, let your heart take over. After all, we are emotional beings and our emotions make us special. Let us just live few bring emotions, let us live in few memorable moments and let make our moments memories with friends whom we cherish.

With this I am signing off,

Your host and pal

Saphyaire

Keep smiling and make some moments memories with your pal

End of chapter II, here we depart

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Sun, 23 Sep 2012 03:31:00 -0700

That's all , good bye sister!

What is real? When I can feel things with my sense; I can see, feel the touch of it and even smell the thing. I don’t know the exact definition of reality, hence sometimes I suspect my reality because my mind has habit to play with me. It makes things so real for me that I get obliged to accept them though they don’t exist. But I really suspected twhether those things really don’t exist or my mind is showing me something.

I was desolated old palace. But curpets were new though there was abysmal silence. Only the sound ihear was of flow of water. I was in a hall with many door, all were same. I was puzzeled,

--- Where am I?

Suddenly, something passed by which chilled me to my bones. I was trying turn but I was freezed and I was terrified.

Then a boy appeared near the door in front of me. But he wasn’t looking at me as if I didn’t exist for him. He passed through the door and was gone. Something inside me told me that I should follow him. I gathered all my will to move my muscle and break through. I ran behind him. I keep running and running as if there is no end of that corridor. There wasn’t much light. Just few torches which was fixed on columns were burning with red flame.

Then suddenly I saw a shadow. I hid behind a column. I heard a voice of a boy or a kid. The voice was becoming louder and louder and then it turned into shouting,

--- Go away! If you want to escape, just break out and go away!

That voice had pain it, a deep pain. Then voice came down and he started panting.

I came out of darkens, closer and more closer to the boy.

But he wasn’t looking at me. He wasn’t looking at anything! He was lost in himself, panting. Then again that freexing familiar coldness wrapped me. All things became more vivid. There wasn’t much light yet I could see through that darkness.

I was standing there waiting for something! Something was around, not that boy, something very familiar, something very close to me.

I all on a sudden that boy rose and shouted with all his might,

--- Go away!

Then all things before me changed and it was a cell with iron bars. I saw a paw with furious sharp nails trying to come out and two bright eyes in that darkness of cell. Every feeling was so vivid , so real. Even that eyes were so familiar,

--- It can’t be!

I stepped back and a beast broke out of cell. It was that familiar black cat but it was bigger. It was looking at me and I could feel the warmth of his breath.

Then in few second a shrill shout was heard that echoed in that closed suffocating corridor and that cat pounced on me.

But it didn’t attacked me, it merged into me as if it wanted to come me. It wanted break out of his prison to merge with me. Before I discern how I got there i bunch of arrow was coming at me. I was frozen. Few of those penetrated my limbs but I couldn't feel any pain. Before I could figure out anything all things faded away in a blink of eye and I found myself on floor.

I rubbed my cheek and looked around.

At my right, on a bed Asha was sleeping, my dear sister.

Then I realized I was dreaming. It was my last night there. The next they would admit me in a orphan home.

I looked around, that room had been my room for many weeks and I had a sister there. I started as orphan and then I got Shahnu , then Asha. But ... I just smiled and said to myself,

--- Good night! Just one more day and after that my days would change again!

Dear sister

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Fri, 21 Sep 2012 00:04:00 -0700

Thank you for everything!

Time and tide wait for none. After discharge from hospital Asha kept me in her home. She accepted me as her brother and was very kind to me. She was the only child of her parents, so having someone to talk with was a good feeling for her. I liked her as she used to take care of me and she could understand what I wanted to say but couldn’t like I am hungry, I am bored; I was a shy kid. In a few days she became very much familiar to me, but still I used to feel bad as I knew I was an unexpected addition to the picture. There family album didn’t have space for a boy, who came from no-where and started to enjoy a share of their resources. Asha didn’t think like that but I could see this on her parents’ face. The very sight of me started to annoy them. But they were tolerating me just for Asha. But I decided that I would leave, no matter what!

One day I was playing card with her.

--- Bull dog 300 pound

I turned my top-most card and submit it sadly,

--- Only 230 pound

--- Ha ha! Your champs are on dieting I guess!

She takes out next card and shouted on my face in joy,

--- Raaaaaaaank 2

Without even looking at my next card I succumb to her blow.

Suddenly, I felt there was pause for a moment. I curiously looked at cards.

Yes! It was great blow for me, heavy blow.

Asha shouted in joy,

--- 520 pound, the giant, yahooooooooo! It’s bad day for you!

I turned my next card. It was rank 5 with 6’7” height.

I started praying inside mind,

--- Not this one! Please! Rank or height or even matches but not weight!

Asha tabled her card,

--- Mask, matches 281. Aaahha!

I looked at my card and submitted it sadly.

Asha looked at it and then looked into my eyes.

I said,

--- Hogan, 302 matches!

--- Okay, okay, you got it!

--- My reign starts, now just pin-falls, one after one! Ha ha!

--- Let us see!

Suddenly, uncle interfere,

--- Asha, me and your mom needs to talk with you. We are in hall.

She turned to me and said,

--- No cheating! I will be back in few minutes.

Few minutes passed after that. I was surfing through my cards. I wasn’t left with many good cards.

I went near door of hall to get water from purifier. I could hear the conversation between Asha and her parents as things were heating up.

Uncle was trying to convince Asha,

--- Listen it’s not about money. A kid means responsibility. We two are in job, you need to take care of your study.

Asha replied,

--- But I didn’t feel any responsibility. Many girls have brother. I don’t think it affects their life.

Aunt interfered,

--- Own brother is different thing! We don’t even whether his name is real or not! Now days, we can’t guess anything of someone’s character.

--- Do you want to say …

Uncle stopped her,

--- Look! Your mom is right. Who knows! On one morning we would find some jewelry missing and Naga would be gone! Why take chances! Besides there is thousands of orphans living in there and they take good care.

--- The only thing which is pricking you is that Naga isn’t your blood!

Uncle replied,

--- Look! You are growing up and God has given us all. So, if he is from bad background someday his past would find him and we would be in trouble. Don’t you read newspaper!

--- We are talking about a kid!

--- It’s not about a kid, it’s about where he belongs and we are having unsafe feeling about it.

It did hurt me, but I was not crushed. I knew, sooner or later, that day would come. Beside I didn’t have much packing to do, in fact I have nothing to pack. So, I just went back to table and start pretending nothing happened.

Few minutes later, Asha came. Her head was down and she was not looking at me.

I said,

--- My turn! I would finish the game.

And I knew, it was the last game with her and I enjoyed it.

Thanks for everything, big sister.

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Thu, 13 Sep 2012 02:25:00 -0700

Am I dreaming!

I remember my dreams, not all. But I lived many dreams, as if it was another world for me. Sometimes I even wished to stay there but I awoke and forgot. I woke up to reality that confused me more, that seemed stranger than dreams to me. So, I never asked myself, “Am I dreaming?”, because reality wasn’t like real to me.

I woke up. My head was feeling heavy. I tried to move which inflicted a good pain to my limbs. I quit, sink in softness of bed. I looked around and realized I was probably in hospital as two more patients were on my right. I tried to think and my head hurt. Suddenly, a moment flashed in my mind and I uttered,

---Shahnu, station! What the hell!

Then I regain my composure and realized, someone had taken me to hospital. I sign of relief left me.

--- How you doing?

I suddenly heard a girl voice from my left. I looked and find a girl standing there. She was taller than me and older too, but a teenager. She had long black hair. She asked again,

--- How you doing?

I was little confused and scratched my head. I found that my head was covered with bandage.

She asked,

--- Does it hurt? You was hit hard on your head. Thank God, my family was there.

Then I asked or I should say mumbled,

--- Whaaat haapeneed.

--- Well, I think you should take rest. When did you wake up?

--- Just now!

--- You were unconscious for three day! How you doing!

I removed the bed sheet over my body and stared at my body. It was wearing a white dress. My hands right hand was wrapped up in bandage.

Then she offered me chocolates and asked,

--- What is your name?

I looked at her eyes. It was calm, just like Shahnu but it was deeper and darker. She had soothing smile on her face.

She asked again with more curiosity on face,

--- What is your name?

I replied,

--- Naga.

Then she asked,

--- What was you doing in station? Was your family with you? There do you live?

Fate had brought me to a familiar situation. But I stayed calm and replied,

--- I have no family. I was with a friend there,

--- Where is your friend now?

--- Gone!

--- Gone? I don’t get you!

--- I was there to bid him good bye.

--- He must have told you where he was going!

--- He was in a hurry, I guess.

Then I again sank in bed and closed my eyes.

I knew she had saved my life but I didn’t have the joy to be alive. I didn’t even have that cold feeling in me. All that I had what emptiness and a question,

--- Why?

Puppet must put to rest

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Sat, 28 Jul 2012 01:05:00 -0700

A puppet

Sometimes life wants to say something to us. Life that bears gay and sorrow and then it sometimes give us beckon that a change is near. But we don’t catch it or ignore it. There would be no bolt from blue for you if you understand the beckon of time, beckon that whisper in your ears about the changes.

Trees were wet in shower of soothing spell. Wet soil had gathered enough for moisture. I and Shahnu were playing inside the train engine.

Shahnu shouted,

--- Everyone aboard, next station 100 km away. Helper, start feeding the giant!

I was hungry and the word ‘feeding’ fueled by appetite.

I said to Shahnu,

--- Can we go back, I am hungry!

Shahnu gave me weird look,

--- Go back, common!

I emphasized my word,

--- I am hungry!

Shahnu took a long breath and released and said,

--- Okay, train delayed for three hours.

Then he looked into my eyes and paused as if he was watching something in my eyes.

I jerked him and said,

--- Lets go!

He said in low voice,

--- I have some coins. He can get something from nearby station.

Then he pointed to a tunnel and said,

--- On the other side of it, there is a station.

Then again a took a long breath and said in discouraging tone,

--- Lets go!

--- Are you okay, Shahnu?

He jerked off as if he was sleeping and replied,

--- What! Yes, okay… I’m okay. Lets go!

We started and within few minutes entered the tunnel.

It was quite hot over there. Tunnel was just few miter long, hence only the middle part of tunnel was dark. I called Shahnu and it echoed inside the tunnel. It was fun so I tried a little bit of shouting, though my effort didn’t inspire Shahnu.

Shahnu was walking ahead of me. In the end of tunnel Shahnu turned to me and said,

--- Here we are!

--- Where!

It was a small station, Dharakul with just two platforms. Thickness of crowd was evident that it wasn’t a busy station either.

Shahnu told me,

--- Once train used to go through this tunnel and this station was a busy one. Since the shutdown of wagon shed this station has lost importance and this tunnel is not used any more. Let’s go! We will find some shop on station for food.

We went on the platform. We bought bread and some bananas.

Out of curiosity I asked Shahnu,

--- How did you get the money? I hardy find some small work to earn something!

--- Hmm! That is my secret!

It fueled my anxiety and I started pushing him for the truth,

--- I am your best friend and I can keep secret.

--- I can manage enough for both of us. Why you bother?

--- Common, Shahnu!

--- Ya keep pleading, the king is happy! Ha ha ha !

--- Tell me, where did you find work?

Shahnu paused and looked to me and smiled,

--- Naga, it doesn’t matter for you anymore!

I was feeling little annoyed. I shouted,

--- Fine!

And I turn my back to Shahnu and keep eating my bread.

Few minutes later Shahnu put his hand on shoulder and gently said,

--- Naga, take care!

I turned back and about to say something, suddenly a announcement on loudspeaker was made for some train which suppressed my voice.

Shahnu then started,

--- I enjoyed my moments but the puppet show is over. Puppets must put to rest.

--- What are talking about?

I was confused.

He smiled and said,

--- Happy journey!

Suddenly, I heard some shout. I turned back and saw crowd of few people was shouting at me. Before I could figure out what they were saying, a shrilling sound of siren drew my attention and I found that I was standing very near the edge of platform. I hurried to get at safe distance and almost succeeded. Before I could feel that I escaped an accident train hit a piece of brick of the edge of platform and it flew towards me. As soon as it hit me everything was black then I saw Shahnu as if he was in my mind. I fell and all got vague. A crowd ran towards me to save me. I closed my eyes and heard for Shahnu for the last time,

--- Puppet must put to rest. Carry on, friend! Good bye!

I fainted due to bleeding but I didn’t have pain; I wasn’t afraid as if there was nothing just oblivion. In that oblivion a sound of humming make me sleep like a little baby. I was in peace, for the first time in my long life.

The beckon

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Mon, 23 Jul 2012 01:34:00 -0700

The beckon

I like to painting as every colour reminds me of my own. Sometimes pale, sometimes bright but I never have a clue what I would end up, meaningful or else!

Shahnu was looking dim and that was really bothering me. He had been with me every time. I would have been lost without him by my side. So, I had a feeling of gratitude for him. I decided to do something to cheer him up.

I just sat beside him. After few minutes of pause I started,

--- Everything okay buddy!

He looked at me and said,

---- Yes, fine! Just has nothing to do!

---- I thought you were a free bird or something. So, why sitting like a duck!

He looked into my eyes. His eyes were empty. After a few minutes he managed a little smile or fake little smile and asked,

--- Will you come? I am going out then.

I nodded and we went out.

Everything was looking nice like a painting with wet colours. Sky was clear then.

We were walking quietly and I was feeling weird as I not habituated with a calm side of him. It was like a satire on the Shahnu I know. So I made my mind to make things normal.

--- So, tell me again why you are acting like this.

He smiled and said,

--- Acting like what!

--- We don’t see this side of yours so often and it can make anyone assume that some girl has kicked your ass and left you battered or something like that.

--- Naga, you are changed. Now, you are making fun of me! Till few week back if anyone told me that you could develop some humor I would say , we are talking about Naga!

--- Your blessings.

--- So, at last I have done some good work and now I may hope to live in heaven after I die.

Then we both laughed.

Suddenly, I realized Shahnu was not at my side. I just turned and found him staring at an alley.

I called him,

--- Hey, Shahnu.

He turned his face to me and without any excitement said,

--- Hey, lets go this way!

As he started I followed him and after few minutes we hit a dead end.

I looked at him and asked with smile,

--- Which way!

He climbed the wall and reached top of it. Then he shouted,

--- Common it is just few feet.

--- Why do I suppose to go other side?

--- Common Naga, see for yourself.

Then I climbed it too and reaching top I was about to say,

--- Now wha..

And I sight before me really took away my words.

There were few wrecked wagons. Railway tracks covered with long grass. And an old train engine, rusted and one could tell that it couldn’t move anymore. But it was more like a jungle with few bushes and big trees. Huge iron wheels, shafts where scattered all around. That remind me of the day when I started my journey with Shahnu.

I curiously asked,

--- What is this place?

--- My secret hide out!

--- Hiding from whom!

--- Not that hide out, Naga! I came here to be alone; in peace.

--- But still, what is this place?

--- An old wagon factory. I love this place because I love trains.

He jumped down the wall and ran toward the train engine. I followed him.

He climbed up the engine and entered the driver’s cabin. He shouted,

--- To the far-away land.

I was smiling on him; suddenly I felt a touch on my shoulder. I felt a cold hand that chilled me to bone for a moment. I turned back but none was there. It was the cold wind but I felt as if someone hugged me and taken away all the warmth out of me.

Then Shahnu’s voice drew my attention,

--- Common, climb up, Naga.

Within a blink of eye that coldness disappeared and I feel the wind that rushed toward a dark tunnel after whispering something in my ears.

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Wed, 4 Jul 2012 01:01:00 -0700

The Day

It’s raining now. I hear the thunder. But I feel peace inside me. I have nowhere to go and have nothing to do. I didn’t know what would be my destiny. In this tranquility I recall my journey.

It had been raining for two days but not heavily. Rainbow showed up in the sky. I was standing on the door, looking at the rainbow. The view was like a painting. Suddenly I heard Shahnu.

--- What you doing?

I looked at him and took a long breath and replied

---- Nothing. Just standing over here and have nothing to do.

Then he followed my eye and said,

--- Rainbow! It’s like a fairy tale.

---- Fairy tale! Why!

Shahnu smiled and reply,

---- A colorful tale. A boy in story, poor and distressed, ended up finding something sterling. Many times find a princess or find his destiny that changes his fate or ….

He paused for a moment and looked into my eyes,

---- That doesn’t happen with us.

--- Why are you complaining?

He laughed and replied,

--- Me! Norway! I am fine with it. I can get what I want. In fact, I don’t want too much.

Then I took a deep breath and said,

--- I wonder where Neel is right now!

--- Don’t worry, he is fine. We are birds.

Then he ran outside and stretched his arms and shouted as if he was happy,

--- We can fly. New home, new place! Only the same sun remains with us.

Then he put off his shirt and started going round and round,

---- I love rain. Rain, rain, you came again, for your friend, to meet your friend.

He was acting weird, no doubt. I couldn’t take my eyes off him.

Then he bent his knees and sat down. For a moment I thought he was crying. But when he showed his face I saw a fake smile and he was looking serene.

He said to me,

--- Hey Naga! Are you happy with your life now?

--- It’s much better than what was before!

--- Would it be same! If things get changed. If wind changes its direction. What would happen to fallen leaves? Fallen leaves!

Suddenly, he started laughing. But it was like a mockery. A weird, cruel laugh! He almost scared me.

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Tue, 19 Jun 2012 02:33:00 -0700

Blending in

I was lost for some time and found myself back. The best way of knowing what is wrong is just

try it. I now, more sure of where I belong. So, I am going to live my fantasy again, in my

words, in my world. Let that journey continue…..

How does it feel when you know where you belong? I certainly didn’t know that, but

I was starting to believe that I was one of them. After spending years in a room, talking to silence,

I was in a world that was unknown. A world where sun was nice, wind was fresh and sounds made me feel that I was not odd and ignored.

One day, I was roaming in street in Shahnu and Neel.

Shahnu asked me

--- So, how you doing here?

--- I feel good with you guys.

Neel just went ahead of us and turned to me. Then he put his elbow on my shoulder,

--- Buddy, I am not too wise. But I think something is cooking.

Shahnu exclaimed

--- Where, are we invited? What’s in menu?

Neel replied

--- When does a boy see a girl with sparkling eyes? Tina is cute. You are cute too, Naga.

I was kind of confused. But, suddenly Shahnu poked me,

--- Ya, she is cute.

I was feeling little uncomfortable.

Neel then went behind me and pushed me gently. He said to Shahnu

--- He is blushing. So, sweet. We have a couple in our nest.

Shahnu was about to join him but I played a trick and told Shahnu,

--- I am hungry. Can we go back now? And started to walk fast towards our nest.

Then I realized that I was alone. I stopped and turned back. Shahnu told me,

--- You go. I will be there soon.

Saying this he rushed to somewhere.

I asked Neel

--- Where is he going?

--- To arrange some food.

--- Shahnu always takes responsibilities.

---Well not always.

---Why do you say so?

Neel paused for a while a said,

--- You might have changed him. He was kind of selfish before. Now he always manages something for all and that something is always better what we might have done!

He then turned back to me and said,

--- I need a chat with him. You go ahead and I will join you guys soon. See you later.

Then he ran away.

*****************

It was raining that evening. We were little worried as Shahnu and Neel had not returned till then. But we were cracking jokes on each other, as usual. Suddenly, Jinu asked me,

--- Where is Neel? He was you and Shahnu.

--- Stuck in rain I guess.

--- In rain! You don't know them. Anyway whats up?

--- Nothing just watching you guys.

As soon as I finished my words Shahnu showed up.

--- Hey, what's going on!

Jinu asked him,

--- Where is Neel buddy.

Shahnu replied,

--- How do I know? He was with Naga.

At this I said ,

--- He went after you.

--- Well, he wasn't with me. He can take care of own self. Believe me.

Suddenly Tina exclaimed,

--- You are too cold, Are you okay?

I turned to her and saw her hand on my shoulder, but I couldn't feel it. I was feeling cold, may be because of getting drenched in rain but I was fine. Shahnu smiled and asked ,

--- Are you fine , hmm ! Don't catch cold that's too bad.

I nodded and some words escaped my mouth

--- Guys, may be I need rest.

As I was about to exit the room I cat jumped before me. Even today that thing reminds me of something.

to be continued...

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Fri, 8 Jun 2012 02:41:00 -0700

I can still remember myself on that day in a old battered desolated house.But that desolated house was home of some poor boys like Shahnu.

Shahnu stop at the door and told me,
--- just quite !
He entered the room. Then it was pin drop silence for few moment. Then Shahnu
lifted his hand like a terrorist surrendering to army and cry out,
--- look who showed up guys !

Then few of them pounced on him.In a moment all was changed and it was like a scenario of returning of family member after long time.Hugging, jokes,laughter and out burst of energy of life. Shahnu then suddenly shouted,
---hey guy! we have a new member...meet Naga.
and pointed at me. I was just enjoying the scene. Suddenly a hand stretched out toward me ,
--- welcome buddy.
With little hesitation I introduced myself,
--- I am Naga.
Suddenly Shahnu put hand on my shoulder and addressed his pals,
--- I am home with a new friend and we are starving. Now didnot your mother taught you how to welcome guests !
One of them shouted ,
--- this is for only those who have mother!
then all broke laughter as if Shahnu cracked a joke !

In few seconds I realised that it was a joke. They were all orphans. That was why they were there. But I used to think "orphan" refers to some poor ,unfortunate people. But their smile have some other impression on me. I dont now know fake or real ,but they seemed happy, like a family.They were all acting like stupid.Stupidity expressing some heartiness....... overwhelming and spontaneous.

Vague Call

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Mon, 4 Jun 2012 02:38:00 -0700

Shadow

Before a little play of war began within that small cell that bruised poor woman somehow managed to give a cruel laugh to drew attention but ended up gasping for air,

In a low voice with little tone of whimpering she uttered,

--- Nothing matters for princess, nothing for my dear. Soon they both will be beyond all this pain and worries.

Digvijay lowered his sword as he asked,

--- What you mean?

--- She has crossed the boundary of this kingdom. She will sacrifice herself for princess, for the life she dreamt of, and she will give it to her.

The torment captain shouted in rage,

--- Where is princess?

Digvijay swung furiously and kicked his jaw before he could make another move. Captain fell on ground and started groaning in pain .Digvijay rushed to her and grabbed her shoulder and asked again, but this time louder,

--- What you mean?

--- She will give her dream to princess. All her beautiful dreams and it will be her life. And her soul will make those dreams true for her. A beautiful life like dream.

---What rubbish!

--- She will sleep forever. A beauty sleep, Far away from all mortal sorrow.

--- Your queen has lost her mind!

Suddenly a sound drew his mind. He saw captain escaping. Digvijay roared,

--- Stop you rat!

He followed captain out of cell, picked a bow from a dead hand. As he launched the arrow the scenario faded into a mist .Sound of leaves and crow, and suddenly found myself middle of a jungle. Standing like petrified I noticed Shahnu in a distance walking though bushes . He turned and saw me standing still. He shouted at me,

--- We have to go miles Naga. Move on. Hurry up.

I started walking My eyes were full of questions. Shahnu stared at me for once and said,

--- Naga out with it. Is there something to say !

--- How we came here? I can’t remember.

He stopped and turned and looks at me with puzzled eyes.

--- How we came here ! you walked ,I walked ,on feet ,in full sense for more than 30 minutes and now in middle of jungle you are asking me this !

---But I don’t remember. We were in train.

---Previous night. Its morning .Sun shining in sky. Look up.Now if its joke, I advice do it after 40 minutes .I am hungry Naga.

He started walking again. I followed him with many questions playing in my mind.

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Thu, 31 May 2012 02:09:00 -0700

Darkness

An iron door swung, as a troop marched in. It was a corridor of prison, shrill scream echoing in air. The person leading the troop entered into a cell. He looked down as his leg hit a something fallen on ground. It a body of a man, bruised by torture. Her back was bearing red deep wounds which were evident that he was lashed. He sat down on knees and grabbed his hair and said,

--- Well, well, it seems like the great, mighty Mihant finally come to dust.

Then he look forward .A woman was tied, with her hand stretched over head, spread, tied with chain. Her face was facing the stony wall. She was shivering in pain. A torment was whipping her bare back. With every hit she was screaming.

The person leading the troop rose and ordered,

--- Stop.

Swing of the whip stopped as the heavy manly voice filled the air.

He came near the woman, and grabbed her hair an then slapped on her face and shouted,

--- What did she said?

The man with whip kneeled as he answered politely,

--- My lord! Her tolerance is incredible. She is determined to be silent.

--- Too strong , Is that so ?

He turned and took few steps back. Suddenly he turned and kicked her belly with her boots. It make her gasp for air as lunged emptied .The he rushed outside shell and returned with a small dagger . He shoved the tips of dagger in her mouth making cuts on her lips ,then ordered,

--- Whip!

With every hit on her bruised back she trembled with pain. Her mouth has bleeding.

He took out the dagger and took the whip and mocked her,

--- So, you have incredible tolerance power. Lets test it.

Then suddenly he whipped her thighs. She moaned in pain. Blows continued .Her moans again turned into shrill cry of pain.

He roared,

--- Where is princess? I will not kill you. I will make your life hell. Every moment you will ask for death, and death would not mercy on you neither I .

She was whimpering as blood was flowing freely from her wounds on thighs.

Suddenly, sound of iron drew their attention. He rushed back and found few men with Arabian sword fighting his men. Then an arrow passed kissing his hair. He jumped inside the cell to save his life. A man entered the cell for him. He picked the dagger, rose and shoved it into him and took his sword.

Another man entered the cell. His eye bulged as he saw the person, and with bitterness uttered,

--- Digvijay ! How it can be !

Digvaijay smiled at him and said,

--- I have an unfinished business . I have to free you from all worries. Look at you ! So many burdens. Don’t worry , I will pay for every meal you gave me by freeing you from this bondage, my friend!

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Wed, 30 May 2012 04:55:00 -0700

Alone in new journey

Shahnu offered me to stay with him. I accepted that call of journey. I didnot have any reason to look behind the road I left. It was just a road , lie before me, sneaking out of the view, touching the contours of lands. He took me to a goods train.

Like a drifting wood in mid sea, on mercy of waves , that would take him somewhere, I was helpless. Darkness was brewing.In the light of moon nature was smiling. We were sitting in a wagon on bundles of rice stalk. We both were silent , lost inside ownself. Suddenly Shahnu broke the silence,
--- So, I am curious to know how you have been living ! I mean, you are orphan, none to take care. Then how you managed stuffs for your belly.
I reamined silence for few moments , then replied,
--- I used to live with a person.
--- wait, then why are you here ! What happened ?
I just close my eyes and sank my head between knees, and said,
--- he driven me away.
--- Oh ! don't worry friend.God pissed on us ,yet life have to go on. I meet a monk who said,
"what gone history and tomorrow is mystery, today is for you and you have to live it,then your today little bright with some joy from inside ".
but he didn't told me how to find joy when you are hungry but I managed it anyway .
I lift my head and looked at Shahnu. I didn't know much of him But I guessed that he was like me yet he laugh back to mocks of fate.

The wheels started rolling . Slowly the metal figure begun to move. I looked out. Railway track, lied till horizon, Gradually train gained speed. I was enjoying the wind. But I was little afraid too. I never did a train journey before .Town, village,jungles passed by. I asked Shahnu,
--- Where are we going ?
---I thought u would not ask. Its Bankur, a small town where I spent many days. I have few friends there.
---Why dont u stay at one place ?
---Because I am bird, buddy. Nothing to hold me back. Like a fallen leave wind sweep me away somewhere else.
Then after a pause he said to me,
---Naga, have a nap. Its still few hour journey. We will be reaching Bankur by dawn.

Chapter II

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Tue, 28 Jun 2011 07:45:00 -0700

new journey

In a mysterious mist a hand haunting for something to hold, then a body appeared, out of the smoke. Devastated, wet with blood. He fell down on ground. His clothes were ragged, full of mud and dirt; he was panting heavily. He stood again on his feet his all his effort. He started to run again like a man try to escape from his dark fate. then chaos killed the order in order in air. Sound of iron that filled the cave an rose to ceiling and echoing all over the cave. A shrilling cry followed by dazzling light. In a distance, a woman was on her knees. It was damp and cool. There was some water on floor, red with blood. Then gradually all faded out. In darkness, only sound of breath and weeping that gradually calmed down,

I woke up by a jerking. I found a boy examining me with curiosity.

--- are you okay ? Hello !

Somehow I managed to to sit.He was a boy around my age.Dark and slim,with curly black hair.But it was evident from his appearance that he needed some lesson on hygiene

very much.

He asked again,

---are you okay? Why are you lying beside road? You are looking sick. Can I help you?

I did not understand what kind of help he could provide, so I remained silent.

He said again,

--- Are you sick? You are not looking well!

Suddenly my yes caught bread in his hand. I was down with hunger. I could not keep my eyes off it.

He understood what I was following.

---hungry ! Got It !

He offered me a piece of it. After little hesitation I accepted it.

---Anyway, I am Shahnu

Thus he introduced himself with a weird smile revealed on his face from one end to another.

I replied in soft voice,

---Me, Naga.

---Naga, Never heard a name like that.

Then he examined me again and asked,

---Are you lost! Or you are a beggar or orphan !

That question came to me like a bolt from blue. I knew there was no bond with anyone anymore. I paused for a moment and accept my fate. I summoned new identity on me,

--- I am orphan.

That fleshly screen remained the same. But I knew all had changed. Just only a name remained that I would keep with me in my new journey, Naga.

a unlikely saga : No sign of pain,Naga chapter I , pg 5

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Tue, 21 Jun 2011 06:25:00 -0700

We came home around evening. Sometimes later Shinu went out. Driven by a strange urge I went to his room. I never saw my mother. I began to look for that picture to just have a glance. I never have her touch on me, affectionate touch. I was ransacking the room like a bull in china shop. Few minutes later I found it under bed. She was beautiful. Big eyes, sharp nose and a round face; she was smiling as if she can see me, her son , part of her. Suddenly I felt something in my chest. I put my hand there. A beat, my heart, I could feel it strongly, keen and palpitating. I had a thought of stealing it but I didn't dare . I kept it where it was. Then walked out silently. Her face was in my eyes, and I close my eyes wishing to meet her for once ,in dream ; because I had heard that man see dreams about his wishes and desires.

A little suffocating made me awake. My room was full of smoke. I ran to Shinu’s room..There was none. In panic I started calling him and run all around the house. Then I rushed to main door and found the demon, red flame keenly stretching its tongue to take over all. I ran to my room, it wasn’t caught by fir till then. Opened the window to call out for help. But I found villagers standing with burning torch and enjoying the scene. Even Shinu was among them. I cried out for help. None approached. Shinu lower his head and lost in crowd. I was petrified in shock, paused. Then I gather all my courage to save all that I had then, my mother. I ran to Shinu’s room but it was domain of fire giant then. Standing there for minutes I was trying to find a idea to make my way to mother’s picture, last thing I can claim as mine. But I was blank. I surrendered to my fate. Walked to my room silently and sat on knees. Flame was turning over everything, climbing the wall to stretching itself on ceiling .But I was still, calm. Betrayed by all I lost my love for this fleshly screen. But Fate has something else for me.

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Wed, 15 Jun 2011 09:26:00 -0700

fate Staring at change

Suddenly a roar rose and people rush towards entrance of garden. It was Lord Hinushi, with his followers. They were carrying a cage and a box. Hinushi was a tall old brown man, dressed like a monk with long black hair and beard, his head held high in air with selfish pride, a witty smile and wrinkled forehead were evident of his great intelligence to people. People were clashing to touch the feet to get some dust of the man close to almighty. He asked his followers to put that cage and box near the banyan tree at center of garden.

Running his finger on beautiful mosaic surface of box , he called me with affectionate smile on face . As I was approaching him My view caught the creature inside the cage.It was a big dark cat. With his bright eyes he was following me. But his eyes were very calm as if he was harmless. Hinushi put his hand on my shoulder ans ask,
-- why you lokk so puzzled and scared ? What is bothering you ? my son !
Looking at his smiling face I shook my head approvingly but remained silent.
He then said,
-- do you know why you are here ? A bad creature is waiting for his turn to do something bad for us , and he dont like cute children. Now how can we take change with our dear innocent Naga !
Then he lifted me and affectionately rub my cheek and said,
---We will perform a ritual to satisfy God so that he would protect our dear people from that demon .Now go and sit inside that circle dear.
I saw a circle drawn on ground by chalk.As said I sat inside it. They started some ritual. Suddenly that cat drew my attention.He was still staring me. He was panting badly. I started feeling bad for him. Then gradually a cold feeling turned over me. My body became so heavy to me. Air was filled with sounds , yet deep inside me I was feeling abysmal silence. As if I was held captive like that creature. As if I could see my image in his eye; my loneliness and emptiness . Then a humming sound entered my ears. Charming voice of a woman, overflown with affection. But sound was poking me. I was feeling too empty, not even a desire to move a muscle. That cat was staring at me with bright eyes , so familiar eyes. Then suddenly ,being sick of all feelings brewing in my mind I rose and shook my head. I found that cat dead . After few moments ritual was over. Hinushi was addressing people . In that crowd I was alone. Alone with my heavy heart watching that poor cat with complaisant feeling.

At evening we came home. I was feeling so numb. That eyes were chasing me.

A saga,: naga......... chapter I ,pg 2alone

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Tue, 7 Jun 2011 22:24:00 -0700

I used to stay at home alone when Shinu when to field.All I had ,was my imagination. Borrowing few colors from reality I made my own world.I had a friend there, a part of me;in fact, it was me.I used to talk to myself, question myself.In my world, I used to spent time wandering around in dusty field,watching ripples in pond, Listening to tweets of bird.In that abysmal silence of room few sounds from inside me used to give me a soothing consolation.

One day, while I was busy with me, a chaos drew my attention. Driven by curiosity I went to the door and peep through a hole in door. The main doors was always closed for me separating me from outside world .I never doudt Shinu’s intention, and never tried to cross that threshold against his will.

I saw a crowd was gathered on road near our house.The were angry on something. Their frown was evident in their speech. Shinu was trying to convince them., one against a mob.But they were not trying to hurt him.I was curious to know what was happening.

I sharpen my senses and employed them in this task.

A man from crowd told Shinu,

-___ curse is curse. None pet a snake which would surely bite him to death. What you are doing cannot be justified. Curse must be ended, once and for all.

Everyone supported the man with loud cheer.

Shinu: Many rituals have been performed to overcome that bad spirit. We believe in power of God. Do you all think that what we tribute to almighty went in vain ! Why all people were silent all these years ?...

Another man interrupted him,

--- You are talking like a kid. I know you have affection for him ,deep inside you. Its you own blood. But cant you see. The prophecy is becoming truth; all these signs; we all will be perished. Naga born with a shadow that will reign over our village; light and life will be gone.

Shinu : But this…….

Another man interrupted,

---time has come Shinu. You know it well. We believe in you, you are one of us, but that child is not an human; why you are weak to a relation which has no base!

Suddenly I was feeling heavy. They all were against my existence. It was not hard to understand. Shinu never treat me with affection, as if my presences poke him. But I never imagined that people would blame my existence; who am I ?

to be continued...

A unlikely tale............. Naga

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Mon, 6 Jun 2011 20:05:00 -0700

Starting the play.....

I am alone in home for three days, but I am enjoying it. After a long interval I have found myself with me. Sometimes sitting beside window I ruminate the past. It seems like a fantasy. I try to lift the veil to have a glance of those scenes of that unlikely play. Though a mysterious mist of time making it vague, I can hear all dialogues clearly. After every few moments, I find a character standing perplexed like lifeless, freezed; a very familiar face, bewildered by fate; its me;

Chapter I

Just empty within me

I am Naga. When I opened my eyes I found myself in a rural area ,Shanabir, which was forgotten by time. Shinu, whom I knew as my father was only link to this earth.My idenetity was kept mystery even from me. Emptiness was the most familiar feeling for me.It used to brew around me like a snake coiled around its prey and make me freezed.With an empty heart I used to look out of window, a bright beautiful world restricted to me. Sometimes , being sick of peaceful coexistence with lifeless things in my small room ,I used to try to find meaning of something; and a common question that used to pock me: Who am I ?

to be continued....

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Mon, 14 Mar 2011 00:17:00 -0700

I was one of those fool who used to thought he can can understand the depth of woman's heart, pureness of her feeling. Most beautiful feelings are hard to express.

I am lucky that someone love me from bottom of her heart. But I was so mean. I was just expressing my feelings in words, but she couldn't.But I was just asking to proof pureness of her feeling........ a tough task.
Yet she proved, she gave me all she can give to tell me how much she love me.I could saw myself in her eye, though I given her nothing............I am so selfish , and debonair feelings of my love changed me in a moment.

I am reluctant for every sorrow I given her .........
I PROMISE I WILL GIVE MY ALL TO SHOW MY LOVE LIKE SHE DID
I WILL GIVE MY ALL TO MAKE HER HAPPY LIKE SHE DID <3 <3

I can see

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Sat, 12 Feb 2011 00:06:00 -0800

beyond all sound all around

I am calm like still water of pond

Gentle breeze Whispers few words

I close my eyes to see all

I see a grew shadow sauntering in night

Then faded into red light of dawn

A fleshly screen appear in light

His wounded feet washed in dewdrops

With a sarcastic smile of mock

He ran away from light to dark

I see a child on a sea-shore

With gentle efforts making sand-castle

Digging sand then pile up with joy

Ignoring waves and wounds of palm

He put himself to save childish art

Next day found nothing, all was gone

With a frozen touch I come to sense

Summon the chaos to my existence

I am not babbling over glass of wine

What I am saying yet hard to define.

Inside of me

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Thu, 10 Feb 2011 19:45:00 -0800

I dont know What has come of me !
Feels bit low whenever I try to rise
I gulped down all mocks of fate
Assuring myself all will be well
In Hole in my boat in the mid of sea
I am struggling like fool to stay afloat
I cant sort out my strife by any way
How can i walk on my own way!
I tried to live my life,not to survive
Dreams runs wild in my red blood
But When I try to Grasp myself
I find all empty inside my heart
buried under burden of reality
All surrender and sing of o great fate
Waiting with bated breath , same hope
I am compelled to sing along with them

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Tue, 1 Feb 2011 01:37:00 -0800

I was playing flute in a train on my way back to home. A worshiper of Krishna came to me and started a long lecture on spiritualism. But he was at peace. He didnot find wealth ,haven't any car,yet a joy was on his face. He claimed that he had met his destiny.
What is success ? just money in pocket, and a well decorated and illuminated house with a luxury car parked outside ! Is that all. Then why people bluff about dreams, aim of life, peace of mind. Sell your dreams and be happy being a machine that do what it is programmed for, no personal decision.
I dare to Dream. But my best friend arindam says, go for reality ,chase money. thats all. So, does everyone living for fake,just for a common thong.What about the morals and great values that teah us about our destiny and follow your dream.
End of the day......... all choose money, luxury.
what about peace of mind though with enough earning to keep u happy. Money is not dream. Its necessity. So, earn it but not sacrificing your soul.

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Mon, 31 Jan 2011 00:25:00 -0800

Someone living inside

And a golden evening of winter
in a corner of my innocent heart
i feel warmth and a silence urge
that arouse many beautiful desire
I close my eyes and ask to him
Why are you so restless today?
What bring so much joy in you?
Is there anything you want to say?
Then he become more restless
flashes many moments in inward eye
Every Moment was about you and me
how you came to live in my nights
your every words is like a touch
your smile became ray of charm
If you still believe you are so far
Come and just once look into my heart.

wage of toil

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Fri, 7 Jan 2011 03:10:00 -0800

Wage of toil (Poem)

In dim moon light a vague shadow

A fleshly screen unlike human being

With head between his dirty knees

Face wrinkled with patches of blood

Looking at his dirty rough palm

A coin wage of his toil after the day

Too small yet all for him, all he got

Toil gave him just the cursed appetite

Was paid to mock him, a cruel satire

Then he takes a breath of peace, agony

And laughs on his fate, a common fate

Echoes all over, a bitter nonsense laugh

The glory of creation and hard work

Faded into agony of that laugh,

In abysmal night that dominates his life

A abysmal night that is truth of his life

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Sun, 12 Dec 2010 19:58:00 -0800

How can I say to u

When morning comes

n golden light shine on ur bright face

a sweet dream fade away

u wake up a gorgeous smile

u take my name in ur heart

I feel ur scent in the wind

though we r too far

but doesnot mean we dont meet

How can I say that

what u mean to me

How I can I say that

what u make me feel

How can I say that

How U touch my soul

When u come to my dream

and say with a smile that

" I am yours"

U came like a thunder smile

that change my life in a spur

U came Like a merchant of dream

That gave me a dream to love

and u came to me like a someone

that I was just living for

and u just cast a spell

and make my life butiful as never before

How can I say that

what u mean to me

How I can I say that

what u make me feel

How can I say that

How U touch my soul

When u come to my dream

and say with a smile that

" I am yours"

All I wana say just to u

that I luv U

and I will always do

I will not b far away

n u will always find me

whener U reach out to touch me

calling my name

avishekbose81@gmail.com (Avis_wind) — Fri, 10 Dec 2010 23:14:00 -0800

Just u r in me

I was walking alone
alone in my way
dont know when u join my side
now I started to feel
It was for good
thats what was in fate of mine

just u r in me
I cant stop feeling
I cant stop thinking about ya

Just u r in me
I cant stop luving
I cant stop dreaming about ya

I have spend many springs
with an empty heart
I didnt noticed whn u came
dn u filled all dt

just u r in me
i cant stop looking
I cant take my eyes off ya

just u r in me
I cant stop luving
I cant dreaming about ya

I just feel I find myself
but after losing my heart
I just wish if its dream
I die before wake up to light
When I hold u
I just wish
that moment dn get freeze
I will just live life
live my whole life like ds

because just u r in me
and i just wish
it will stay the same
I will look at ur gorgeous smile
and will not take my eyes off ya

just u r in me
i wish ds wish comes true
and I will live my life holding u