Colors

half a dream

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Sat, 18 Oct 2025 15:32:00 +0000

Between our laughs,

a hush lingers.

You’re here,

but half a dream,

a warmth

I can’t keep.

Maybe it’s fear

that keeps the air still,

or trust

still learning how to breathe.

You wear your calm

like quiet armor,

stitched with old ache,

and hope that never gave up.

And still,

I feel the faint pull

of something unnamed,

a thread between us

that asks for nothing,

yet never lets go.

Because even quiet love

reaches out,

softly, without asking.

And I do.

I reach for you

in the hush between our words.

The Gang of Kozhikkode

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Sun, 09 Jun 2024 06:09:00 +0000

In Goa's embrace, where the waves softly play,

I met my dear batch mates on a sun-kissed day.

Beneath the palm's shade and a sky so clear,

New friendships blossomed, and laughter drew near.

The sea whispered secrets as we shared our tales,

With hearts wide open and spirits that sail.

From dawn's gentle light to the moon's tender glow,

In each other's company, our bonds began to grow.

My birthday dawned, a day so bright,

Celebrations sparked in the warm Goa night.

With cake and music, and dancing so free,

Joy flowed around us like the waves of the sea.

Under the stars, with smiles and cheer,

We danced through the night, holding memories dear.

The music played on, our spirits soared high,

In the magic of friendship, time seemed to fly.

As dawn painted colors across the wide sky,

We knew that the moment of farewell was nigh.

Yet in our hearts, a promise did bloom,

To meet once again, and to banish the gloom.

Though we part ways, our hearts stay entwined,

In messages and memories, our ties are defined.

Till we gather once more, another place another time,

We'll cherish these moments, so vivid, so bright.

So here's to the laughter, the dance, and the fun,

To the bonds that we've made, now tightly spun.

We'll meet again soon, under the starry skies,

Till then, dear friends, it's never goodbye.

the unfinished

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Thu, 06 Jun 2024 16:54:00 +0000

In shadows deep where ruins weep,

She stood alone, a heart to keep.

With calloused hands and spirit bold,

She dreamt a fort from stories old.

The stones were cracked, the beams decayed,

Yet in her eyes, the vision stayed.

She toiled through nights, her muscles sore,

To breathe life into dreams once more.

Against the odds, she braved the storm,

Her will a fire, her heart a norm.

Each brick she laid, each beam she set,

A testament to no regret.

The base was strong, the walls rose high,

The fort began to touch the sky.

Yet as she worked with hope aglow,

A shadow cast a cruel blow.

They came with words and empty praise,

To steal the work of all her days.

Removed from dreams, her place denied,

She watched as strangers took her pride.

In silent grief, she stepped aside,

The fort stood tall, her silent guide.

Another's name upon its face,

Yet in its stones, her soul, her grace.

She built from ruins, heart unbowed,

Her legacy in every cloud.

For though her hands no longer build,

The fort remains, her spirit filled.

midnight musings

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Mon, 13 Mar 2023 18:22:00 +0000

memories are all you have left

cues to the growing distance between us

hope in my heart, i smile again

but how do i mend this broken trust?

your voice still touch my heart

the smile on that face

brightens up the faded times

thoughts of times i wish i could relive

fills my soul with a smile so bright!

i wish it's a bad dream and i wake up now

but how do i mend this broken trust?

maybe it was a mirage

we never existed the way i perceived

maybe you are hiding an ocean from me

for reasons you believe is best for all.

i wish i could hug you one more time

but how do i mend this broken trust?

driven

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Fri, 10 Mar 2023 19:37:00 +0000

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deluge of emotions, I cannot contain

endlessly searching for peace within

every drop of tear, a testament to loss

perplexed by the world's fickle nature

tangled up in feelings that won't untie

holding on to memories fading away

insecure, I struggle to trust again!

an endless battle, or so it seems

nowhere to go but forward

gnawing thoughts, linger like a ghost

aching for comfort that never stayed

deep wounds, consumes my soul

i have to keep pace, until I see light.

forever 🧚‍♀️

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Wed, 08 Mar 2023 18:31:00 +0000

drowning the world in your charm, so dear,

enchanted by your every move

enduring love that will never fade

perfection, beyond compare.

the moments we shared, precious and real

healing words, of comforting togetherness

illuminating hope, rejoicing the soul.

as I gaze upon your face

nestled in our friendship, forever

gentle memories of joy, I hold

ardent emotions, I can't erase.

deep in our hearts, may we remain

in love, captivated by our trust!

of broken notes and tunes!

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Mon, 06 Mar 2023 18:31:00 +0000

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drenched in memories, the smiles and the sighs

echoes of hope, playing a symphony

eager heart beats, rushed with anticipation

pondering on moments we shared

time stood still, as I embraced the changes

hurdles we face, with love and grace

i hold on, overwhelming darkness around

alone, trying to find a way through this labyrinth

numbness spreads within my soul,

glimmers of joy, of love once held

amidst the chaos, a longing that cannot be denied!

delicate and pure, hope shimmers through the dark

intense emotions, playing a symphony!

a friend, a valentine!

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Tue, 14 Feb 2023 05:50:00 +0000

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ensnared in the world,

fear, despair and hatred.

out of a heartfelt rhyme

to phrase what i need to say!

eternity maynot be enough

to voice my wishful fondness

for the laugter we share

and our long conversations

rising in your love, in a way

that makes my heart beat faster

and my feeling is unrequited-

doesnt hurt me anymore!

take me back

to when you loved me

a warm embrace,

is all i wish for.

a treasure, a friend

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Fri, 09 Dec 2022 13:50:00 +0000

sometimes miracle do happen

when no one will ever imagine.

broken, not ready to heal,

glad you still tried to mend.

you help the road seem straighter

each day, the sunshine seem brighter

life lessons that flares my sipirt

time with you, gives me peace.

the little things in life,

conversations, an apple tea

it all seems so precious

it all seems right with you.

the best people come unforeseen!

i wonder if you are aware

of the positive vibes youve sprouted

forever and always, without any doubt.

my comfort companion, a safe shelter

a jewel worth a fortune!

filled with warmth and affection

being with you, heals me!

venting

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Tue, 15 Nov 2022 08:38:00 +0000

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the fumes from the incense sticks

camouflage the anguished air

music and prayers are meant to cure

but how does one heal, from within?

at times the darkness engulfs

anger mine the buried memories

the silhouette of togetherness

withered into the sunken past!

no warmth in sight, no hug to melt

as thoughts gnawing my mind

just silence and shadows

where love used to bloom!

you have to open yourself up to getting hurt again, if you ever want to heal

forever!

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Sun, 13 Nov 2022 02:59:00 +0000

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if only words could extol your virtue

a treasure, protected in my heart!

and 'us', a bond that weathers

the test of time and persevers

time will weave memories for us

in laughs, tears and long walks.

healing the hearts, we'll grow

reassuring in the darkest of nights!

when the day is hard on you

be assured, you aint alone

keep me in the midst of your mind

close your eyes and i'll be there.

will letting go liberate us?

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Thu, 27 Oct 2022 18:58:00 +0000

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when uncertainty abounds

and our heart refuses to let go;

taking a leap of faith

is the last thing we are prepared for.

what we hold on to so tightly

is what will liberate us, they say

its a fight, clinging on to what we see

through the reflections of a stained glass!

time is like season, they say

it withers, then heals and bloom again.

wonder how it feels to wait and bloom,

knowing that we have to wither again.

exhausting as it is,

the smile will never fade

the memories are here to stay

engraved with blistering pain.

our mind have a silly tune to it!

it justifies what we feel is right.

we will see darker times

let our love be strong enough

to hold our thoughts together

expectations, uncertainties and fear

let them not drain us down again!

stand up for the love you share,

for, let there be no more heart aches.

life, love

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Wed, 14 Sep 2022 20:01:00 +0000

memories being awkward, as a flash

lately, your eyes is all i see

its a matter of perspective, yours evolving around

the relationships you've built over years

somewhere or the other, beyond a fallen wall

we built our dreams, only to fall again!

lying in the bed, crowned with the calm of peace

a touch of frost, haunted with a sense of love

your kiss echoes the essence of my smile

a touch could awake the life in me!

a hint of lust sinking into my lips

beads of sweat build on our skin.

in my arms, i hold you tight

hoping that my dreams would hold you through.

when we met, i knew it was fate,

as i look into your eyes, deep as a sea.

i'd love you forever, now and beyond

intertwined with your soul, i promise i'll not shed a tear!

Puzzle

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Fri, 09 Sep 2022 20:16:00 +0000

I ll watch you walk away

For the words cant heal the pain

Numbness around me

An empty version of who I was

I ll let the puzzle unfold

Piece by piece till it shows

Torn and shattered in a box,

I wish i could make you stay!

intrigue

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Fri, 02 Sep 2022 10:08:00 +0000

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painting in the canvas of your skin

the gentle touch, leading to blissful art

desires, emotions and fear negotiating

wrapped in my arms, the warmth growing

lips, flavoring my lustful inclinations!

സ്‌മൃതിപഥം

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Sun, 05 Dec 2021 05:30:00 +0000

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നിൻ നിശ്വാസമിന്നെൻ മനസ്സിൽ പ്രണയം വിടർത്തി

പ്രണയം നിൻ മിഴികളിൽ കവിത രചിച്ചു

കവിതയീ ലോകത്തിലിളം കാറ്റായി ഒഴുകി

ഇളം കാറ്റിലെൻ മനം നിൻ നിശ്വാസം തേടി

Needs

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Tue, 24 Aug 2021 18:47:00 +0000

Its funny how relationships add up..

the one you seek doesnt seek you

you dont seek the one who seeks you..

you dont seem to notice the eyes on you

yet the eyes looking away gets all attention

you loose the one yearning to hear you,

spending time with the one who doesnt notice you!

its funny how relationships add up..

eyes dont seem to see the obvious

mind dont seem to sense the evident

resentful is how we feel

how do we make ourselves content?

Madness. Love.

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Mon, 12 Apr 2021 17:45:00 +0000

I hate to invade your thoughts

muddled, mystified by my emotions

but i wish to leave a sign

a warm inscription of love.

Together in our dream

I long for a retake..

when our hugs meant the world

The smoke around us

building our walls stronger.

The feelings never give or take

but from within..

worthiness is just a perception

beautiful imaginations implored

Smiles summon memories

the deep impression of want..

thirst for the lost relationship

lifeless eyes, yearning for that kiss.

scared to acknowledge

disregarding the obvious!

An illusion or not,

falling in and out of memories

with the forgotten ghosts of past

It stands out, when its quiet

Alone, pulling out to the world i invent

breathing my lament, no one to judge..

I miss the warmth of your skin,

the kiss that was never given.

the stories we’ve never shared

the long roads we never took.

I could look into your eyes and dream

sleep is just a feeling,

wrapped in the comfort of your hug.

Every time i express my love

the insane fear of loosing you sinks in

The sensation cant be relived,

But in that pain, you are engraved.

Forever.

Caged, Not anymore!

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Fri, 05 Mar 2021 21:16:00 +0000

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The more i strive to be with you

The more my heart breaks

I made a wreck of my nose

I hit it with my phone..

the anger, the anguish,

the misery of neglect..

Shivering, I cry shades of innuendoes

tears washing myself, away from me.

There was a time, not so long ago

a newborn had cried, scared of her surroundings.

A man held her with a certain strength

confused, but convinced that his girl was special!

I was shaken by a dream, Dad

shivering in agony, i wiped my sweat

I saw you slip in the darkness of the night

projecting the reflections of my own inceptions.

I felt a hand on by shoulder, a concerned sound

Can you blame me for being attracted

to someone who remind me of you, Dad?

I feel like a bird with a broken wing

ugly, unable to hold myself or fly

I feel trapped, reluctant to move

the fear that I'll fall, gripping my veins

I hide my truth, put up a brave face

but world, know that I die. day and again.

Today I met someone who held me tight

let me re-discover, forgive my fear

I realise I am scared, tired and alone

I realise I miss you and will always do.

I wont hold myself from the thought anymore,

instead I'll clasp it tight and let myself grieve

I'll struggle, but i'll not fall! I promise

I'll stop letting my life slip away!

love

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Wed, 25 Apr 2018 18:56:00 +0000

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embrace love

even though it burns

seek it with dedication

for, through pain

you'll find paradise;

where the angels

with burning sword

wouldn't stop you!

my bundle of joy!!

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Fri, 22 Dec 2017 21:54:00 +0000

love is when I heard your first cry,

my world ceased to beat all the pain

traces of tiny dots of crimson flowers

wrapped in the warmth of your mother's love.

in the midst of all the drama,

the wait, the pain, the rush of nurses in green

clock ticking away the moments we would never relive

today it happened, you were born!

the world is the witness,

when I first looked into your eyes

the lights faded away, a dreamy languor

all I could see is hope and happiness.

memories are to stay, nervous as I am

you looked at me with half closed eyes

someday I'll hold you, and walk you to the world

I can't wait to be your dad, every single day!

Thoughts

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Thu, 21 Jul 2016 01:55:00 +0000

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undying is the thirst for love

unending is the search for a smile

in this world of complexity

there is one thing soothing -

unwinding a day in your thoughts!

birth

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Thu, 21 Apr 2016 18:20:00 +0000

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curtains roll with a muted silence

the drama unveils before the world.

your quest to hide, thus begin

camouflaging the reality around!

to explore the emotions, i was born

conceived, contemplated by a mass

who seldom speak of this mundane life!

tears, laughter and cheer

its bliss to see you sway.

rejoicing my birth, you dance

fervent admirers or art!

fueled by your verve, i breathe

i am your soul, your reflection

your incarnation, i am YOU!

for all Victorians ..

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Mon, 20 Jul 2015 12:20:00 +0000

i am proud that i was once part of this campus.

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for all non-Malayalam speaking friends, the words could be interpreted as follows

Memories cooler than the showers...
Speeches lustrous than the blazing fire...
Oh!My Dear Victoria..

that nurtured the young minds with wisdom
Do you feel my ruffle today?

Moto G Gen 1 boot freeze issue (test steps)

noreply@blogger.com (Anil Sawan) — Wed, 01 Apr 2015 08:48:00 +0000

My phone got hung in the boot screen today morning. I tried to find out solutions, but most of the solutions on net was not working for my phone. So I got in touch with a global Motorola customer support agent. He tried to fix the phone for over 45 minutes remotely, but nothing worked. Having done that he transferred the ticket to a customer support agent in India. The difference was huge and the contrast was unbelievable. The Indian support guy started with the same first question as the global guy - Have you tried the hard reboot option?. I said yes and before I could explain him what else I have tried and what we found out he said - It would be better to show it at an authorized center. Wo Hero! That was fast. you did not even try to check the issue!

Further I did spend some time in multiple web pages and checked random steps and I found out the root cause. Unfortunate for me, I would have to visit a service centre since my phone boot log is not recognizing the boot up folder or cache. Maybe there is a way for them to rewrite the boot logs. If my phone has to restore the factory settings, all my data is gone :(

For people who are facing similar issues, I am writing preliminary tests that you can do before you each out to a customer center. It might same some time.

Problem: The device gets hung at boot screen where you see the Motorola icon followed by "powered by Android". The device does not get booted up.

Resolution:

(1) Hard reboot - Press and hold Power button for 120 seconds.

if this does not resolve the issue, go to (2)

(2) With the phone powered off, press the VOL DOWN KEY for 2-3 seconds then POWER key then release.

(3) The device will display different BOOT OPTIONS

(4) Use the VOL DOWN Key to SCROLL to Normal boot up (option 1) and VOL UP Key to select

if this does not resolve the issue, go to (2), (3) and then (5)

(5) Use the VOL DOWN Key to SCROLL to Recovery and VOL UP Key to select

Tip: If the device reboots, you may have waited to long to make a selection, you will need to begin the process again.

(6) The device will display the Motorola logo and then the Android in distress ( logo with Exclamation mark)

(7) Press and hold the POWER key and press the VOL UP key once.

(8) The device will display additional menu options (Text will appear in BLUE)

(9) Use the VOL DOWN Key to scroll to wipe cache partition and the POWER Key to select this option

(10) The device will then perform the partition wipe

(11) The device will reboot and start the normal power up sequence

if this does not resolve the issue, its bettwer to visit an authorised service centre (if no data has to be saved, you may choose to try reset to factory settings before visiting the service centre)

Authorised centres in Bangalore:

B2X KORMANAGLA BANGLORE # 20 1ST FLOOR, 7TH MAIN ,80 FEET ROAD, above Voda phone 1ST BLOCK KORMANGALA Bangalore -560034 above Voda phone 560034 Bhagyalakshmi.R 8792426727

B2X MALLESHWARAM BANGLORE 15/8 , 1st temple street road ,malleshwaram , bangalore : 560003 ( opp to asha sweets food camp ) Behind Vinayak Hospital 560003 Manjunath 9066644931