"notes from dila"

Kaleidoscope: Time of reflection

2011-12-31T18:04:00.006+07:00

"These are the seasons of emotion. And like the winds, they rise and fall."

–Led Zeppelin, 'Rain Song': Houses of Holy, 1973

Two thousand eleven. So many things happened this year. Whether ups or downs. So many memories. Whether bitter or sweet. People came and went, or just passed by, and have pushed me to learn. Yes, here are the seasons of emotion. This is the year when so many mixed feelings have been playing around. The year where I have been learning so much. The year that brought me closer to the Almighty, the season of devotion. The year that introduced me to some new people, both good and bad. Again, having been lecturing me with another and another new lessons (of life). I could barely decide whether this is the year I love or the year I loathe. But this is the sacred year, even too sacred to be celebrated. And words "happy new year" seems undeserving enough to be yelled out to end these seasons of emotion.

Opening my 2011 resolution paper I wrote exactly a year ago, I irritated-ly grimaced. Too few I achieved. Too many I spoiled. Quite disappointing. But I won't bother too long, and have promised myself to learn more in sticking with the plan and not spoiling too many things.

Writing another new resolution for another brand new day, I narrowed down "the plan" and made it more specific. Hopefully it could help me be more focus in the completion.

Well, this is the end of the seasons of emotion. The point in which the tidal wave might be milder, or even wilder. The good day to forgive every single thing behind and to put all memories tidily in a box of history. And finally, the rightest time to free every burden and move onto the new day.

Farewell, two thousand eleven. Welcome, new days.

Fin.

Vie est belle ♥

2011-12-07T17:30:00.004+07:00

Any way to say hello

2011-11-29T12:25:00.001+07:00

Hello. I just realized that I unconsciously have this habit. That I would write usually at the beginning and at the end of each month recently. Actually I wish I could be in touch with this blog at least once a week. But poorly, I could not help my hesitance to do so.

Well, life’s good, as it is always be. It is just baffling me lately. I’ve been facing an issue where both my sensitivity and logic in picking the right decision is needed, cause it could be crucial to determine what kind of future I would have, as well as whether joy or despair I would gain from it. It has never been easy when it comes to choices, right?

As well as, couple things in this good life just got surprisingly overwhelming at certain point. But I hope I don’t really bother. And hopefully my comprehension on taking life the way it is will save me from drowning into a lake of sorrow.

I might be just in need to stop awhile and relax. Maybe that’s all. Isn't life too short to bother?

Love how Last.fm describes me based on the music I listened to

2011-11-01T12:01:00.010+07:00

Click here if you'd like to add my Last.Fm account ;)

October Climax

2011-10-30T19:54:00.011+07:00

It's Sunday, 7 pm. I'm on my room and about to confess that I just had a great weekend. And here let the pictures do the story-tell.

Beatfest 2011 presented by Soundshine Event

"I wanted her.." Sang Tame Impala starting our euphoria yesterday's night

The next day, taking Jessy to Cheese Cake Fac for some bites of strawberry cheesecake

And, Box Set of complete original recordings of The Beatles I just had,
even completed my great weekend on the last week in October

Random talks, from A to T | T? Tame Impala!

2011-10-17T20:06:00.008+07:00

It’s been a while since I last dropped you a post, bloggie. Is that a month ago? Wow! It seems like I got castaway! LOL Well, actually I just got back from work now, have been just being around, going nowhere, and nothing is particular. But, let me remember sort of things I did for the last four weeks.

Mmm, no special thing on the last days of September, I guess. Except, on the early October, I had a reunion with my college friends at Jessy’s house. Not all of us could make it actually, but we had fun anyway. We’re having such BBQ party, watching some bluray movies, etc. And, last weekend, I just had an employee gathering with my officemates at Cimacan, Puncak. Outbound, night talent, BBQ, Durian party, etc. I assumed, we’re all having a great time there. Of course we did, come on, it’s a free fun vacation! Haha..

Then finally, voila! The rest two weeks in October have been awaiting in line. Mmm.. Still got no plan for this weekend actually, but… Yay, Imma meet one of my favorite bands by the last weekend in October. TAME IMPALA! *dancing* Yes, they’ll come to Jakarta and have a show in Soundshine 2011 on Oct 29. Anyone, join me?

For sake of a "great scott!", lol, I got very very excited waiting for the rest couple weeks. I have to cancel my trip to Pari Island which at the first place I have been awaiting and is supposed to be at the same date. And I already did. Of course I did. Pari Island could wait, but Tame Impala’s concert couldn’t!

Well, I hope me and everyone will have great weeks left in October!

18-19: One fine short runaway trip

2011-09-19T19:35:00.001+07:00

Location: Tidung Island, Kepulauan Seribu, ID.

Whether chuntering or dreaming, you name it

2011-09-14T20:08:00.005+07:00

Life got a bit boring lately. It's like repeating all these used-to-be new stuffs. Waking up in the early morning, going to work, working eight to five, going home, sleeping, waking up again, going to work again, and on, and on. And I just realized it's been a year passing by.

I know, I'm just being ungrateful to this fine life by saying this. But just let me share it. This is just myself. And I really know how I never like routine. You know, doing the same things over and over again in the period of time. To me, as usual, it might not be a good sign. But those repetitions indeed are things making me survive as a grownup. Classic issue. Money. Hello, old friend! Ha-fukken-ha! *forgive my French*

I maybe just need some times off and have/do totally different things awhile. A little while. And I'm thinking of it now. However, this verily ungrateful mood I'm having is actually not always negative for me. You know, every time I arrive 'here', it always inspires me about what another new thing to do next. And so many interesting things will pop here and there in my mind. It's exciting at the final. Really. Just like what I have in mind now. How about writing fiction again, or trying acrylic painting, or joining Spanish/French class, or teaching speaking class in a formal institution, and etc, etc. So many. Yea, I'm always good at figuring something out. What is not is starting it. LOL

Well, bloggie, do you know? I want to stop working this way. But.. I couldn't. I mean, not now. Maybe within at least three or four years more. I could imagine myself home, busying with some novel writing target or, maybe, rushing my translation order deadline, mmm, or could be twice a week of teaching in a university as well, while, some other times figuring some fresh designs for my fashion business. Yea, it's a life I dream.

Oh daydream, daydream, daydream! LOL

I will have that life, anyways. Ya, I will.. ;)

Eleven

2011-09-11T19:28:00.004+07:00

1:11PM - Sept 11, 2011

Do you remember this?

2011-09-08T10:30:00.012+07:00

...

Found it inside my drawer.
Yes, it was the mid of 2010.
When everything was just fine.

I'm one of those people

2011-09-07T09:49:00.003+07:00

Barefoot

2011-09-01T22:55:00.002+07:00

To feel the earth breathes..

Binocular: Alpha and Omega

2011-08-06T14:22:00.008+07:00

All I see is, the man and the woman are standing facing each others. They are looking through each others' eyes. Deeply. As if through those eyes, they could dig a treasure. As if through those eyes they could preoccupy each others, as if they could acquire an infinity pleasure, satisfaction, happiness. And in fact, other beings may see they are insane.

They stand still. Until the woman starts to get uneasy with the stillness. An uncomfortable silence. Then she moves closer. Trying to reach him to dig more pleasure she desires. But when she tries, something invisible is blocking her way. For she couldn't believe the thing hampering her, she tries, and tries, and keeps trying. To break into it. But keeps failing instead. Til she knows that she can't get any nearer. It's the glassed wall she realizes.

She, herself, truly realizes there is an unseen mighty 'thing' between her and that man. She knows it very well. Because the feeling is not new. This is familiar.

Love?

"Speak low if you speak love," said Shakespeare.

Don't go that far, she denies. She is even scared half to death to call it that way. But she confesses, the feeling is, yes, very strong, but the glassed wall is even too hard to break, she reckons. And she can't make it all alone. A clue. A hint. A sign. What she's been wondering about.

And now, she is only able to stare through the glassed wall to him, who keeps standing still watching her trying and lets her. And (she) could only wish that that man would do something to that thick glass separating them. Cause she's been tired. Very tired. As the bear in the winter, for she just wants to have her dormancy.

~To be continued. Perhaps.~

Your reflection on someone else, what do you think?

2011-07-10T23:35:00.014+07:00

"What greater thing is there for two human souls, than to feel that they are joined for life"

-George Eliot | Adam Bede (1859)

It might be too complicated to explain. But I'm sure that some of you here really know how it is like, to see your own reflection on someone else. It's when you meet this person, then you know him/her personally, and you see yourself reflected. It may be strange at first. Yes, it is. But.. in one side, couple things are just elaborately exceptionally indescribable. Until you start to love to see and spend more and more time with this person. And it is only because this person is just... 93.9% the 'twin' of yourself in other body. Yes, this person is just completely yourself. And it keeps making you never stop wondering for how come, for how could it be, and... finally... makes you wish that this person is really gonna be the one you'll spend the rest of your life with.

Saturday and favorite scenes

2011-07-02T22:50:00.004+07:00

It was 9 pm, and I got nothing to do, then peeking on my dvd collection was thing I thought might be great. And instead of picking some new dvds that I haven't watched due to the lack of time, I picked the movie I've watched, "Just Go with It". I played it for the second time, but straightly jumped to my favorite scenes of the movies, "the connection game scene", and favorite lines of course. Here I share you the screen shots.

Nice, isn't it? Esp. if you have watched the movie, I'm sure you will nod. Yea, instead of the typos on the "smile" words on the subtitle. Haha.. I really love how these two characters do the game. Really. How they don't realize that they have such connection. And the connection is just... Unexplainable. Well, I really love this scene. :)

Carpe Diem

2011-06-28T09:52:00.005+07:00

"Everybody wants happiness. No one wants pain. But how can you make a rainbow without a little rain?" That was the first tweet I read that got me this morning, tweeted by @TheNoteboook twitter account. Completely true. And then I asked my self, so why should I worry? Why should I?

I smiled to myself, typed some words, and clicked "send".

"To write 'rainbow' without putting 'rain'. Impossible. :)" -@dilaputri

Lets seize the day, smile, and wait for the rainbow to come. Well, have a wonderful day!

Just another random Saturday

2011-06-25T23:11:00.006+07:00

Monthly grocery-ing after teaching & visiting my skin clinic.

Alone, having chocolate waffle.

Afternoon wandering.

Go with what's Jamie saying

2011-05-21T22:53:00.023+07:00

I just finished watching "Love and Other Drugs" movie. Well, the movie is just another ordinary romantic movie. Starring Jake Gyllenhall and Anne Hathaway. It's about "a womanising drug rep... falls, redemptively, for a woman with Parkinson's", said Guardian.Co.Uk site. Yea, as I told you before, another ordinary romantic movie. But, instead of the story, what I love the most from the movie is, indeed, the epilogue scene, with Fidelity by Regina Spektor is playing as the background music.

"Sometimes the thing you most want doesn't happen. Sometimes the thing you never expect to happen, does. ... I don't know. You meet thousands of people, and none of them really touch you. And then you meet one person, and your life is changed forever." (Jamie, Love and Other Drugs)

Oh, Jamie really got me. His saying is just damn right. Sometimes, the thing we most want unfortunately doesn't happen. Otherwise, the thing we least or even never expect, does. And that circumstance, I've experienced, and I believe we all have. I remember, how I wanted to work in media field, but when I got one I reconsidered it and decided not taking the job. Or how I never wanted to work in a formal company, to use suit, to sit behind desk, and see what I am now? I really do those things, and I don't know why, in fact I love it. Or how I was always being silly enough to think of having an unordinary relationship with an unordinary man the old days, and when I got one -a musician with completely unordinary life, personality, perspective, and etc. that also made our relationship beyond ordinary- after passing many kinds of those unordinariness, unfortunately, we should really end it. Cause in fact I just realized that the unordinariness once I expected isn't exactly what I really need. So I left. Well, it might be a process or anything, for me, for everyone, to reach this present life. And in my point, the life I dream now is 99% the opposite of the life I used to dream. And it's funny how I love how I am being now. Being so normal and fine.

That's life. We never know where life will take us, what life bring us in the future, and etc. I repeat, Jamie is completely right. I really agree with him.

Ma belle vie de une lentille

2011-05-14T23:12:00.008+07:00

a page on my sketch book

a desk where I spill my idea

my swimming equipments

my current favorite screen

Taken with: Lomo Fisheye 2

First Saturday on May: a "note" before bed

2011-05-07T23:29:00.003+07:00

...

2011-05-04T10:39:00.003+07:00

Did I just kill a mockingbird, God? :(

Home and old thing

2011-04-30T21:47:00.003+07:00

Spending a quality time at home is actually my favorite thing to do at Saturday (after going to pool), unless fellas invite me out. To me, most people have just been spending too much time outside. Well, anyway, lately I've been fallin in love again.... mmm, with my old acoustic guitar. Hehe.. I found this thing lying under my bed, very filthy, old and sad. Poor this thing. :( I clean it up anyway. Then I start playing it again as I used to, especially since I've seen again all these pretty lady below playing guitar, and they are two of my favorite female-vocalists: Julie Delpy and Carla Bruni. Check out the video!

Interesting, aite? Those two ladies. And, I've been spending my evening paying attention to them to get the chords of the songs. Haha.. Ah, this thing I do, really remind me to the younger version of me. Whoah, it's been three, or maybe more years I don't even remember that I have a guitar. A nostalgic one! See? At home, actually there is always interesting thing to do, especially one which might be very old and you have forgotten. Well.. Happy Saturday!

Lets take a breath!

2011-04-28T12:28:00.012+07:00

"It is neither good nor bad, but thinking makes it so."

-William Shakespeare

"La Ballerine" by me

It's 11.58 when I start writing here. I'm at my office. Just stop awhile to take a breath from stack of documents to be reviewed while waiting for the lunch time to come in just couple seconds. I'm listening to Super Furry Animal's old hits "Juxtapozed with you". A good one, don't you agree? Especially in this very sunny and cloudy day, to gaze to the cloudy sunny skies through my office building windows right from my desk. (As I once posted you the photo previously.) And to start listening to the very first intro of the song. Very positively influencing my mood and my mind. This band is just right. "It's easy when you know how to get along without biff! bang! pow!" This life would be a lot better if we know how to live that way. And for me, the easiest way is only by seeing every single thing positively. Our problem, the people we hate, and all the bad things. Ah really, so tiring! How about just reversing those points? We really need to stop awhile, tolerate it and then smile. Oh life is just too great to be wasted by seeing thing negatively. It would be real much easier when we are able to see things from positive point of view. Yes, that easy. Just if we want it.

Sequence: Their holiday, my unretainably painful day

2011-04-24T20:21:00.036+07:00

"When sorrows come, they come not single spies, but in battalions."
William Shakespeare

Friday. Bandung. Afternoon swim at Cipaku. Trapped by traffic and heavy rain at KFC Setiabudhi. Cries. Feeling like for the last time being in a home at Kebon Kopi with the nicest family I ever knew. Pain.

Saturday. Bandung. The most painful waking up after almost four years. Home. Pain. Pain. Preparing lesson plan for Diskids. Pain. Pain. Sleeping earlier. Pain.

Sunday. Home. Another painful waking up. Meeting my kiddos. Teaching. Laughters. Songs. Dances. (Again) Pain. A nap. Waking up. A playful afternoon with Lionel. Lomo shutter. And finally... again, pain.

Stop here

2011-04-22T23:11:00.004+07:00

Laughters. Cries. Smiles. Fights. Lies. Fun. Shouts. Angers. Foolishness. Joy. Tears. Doubt. And everything. Finally really stopped here, the 1399th day.