Hanhan

I'm Back

2009-11-02T07:31:00.000-08:00

Gee...It's been almost 6 or 7 months I didn't update my blog. forsaken because of juggling with my daily life..and now I don't know where to start..hhmm let see..one thing for sure lots of things have been coloring my life lately. Goods and Bads. Ups and downs.

let's start from my job. Teaching has been kinda frustrating recently. some students of mine have been challenging my patient lately. kinda hard to enjoy teaching lately frankly speaking. often times they piss me off. I'm hanging on though. I've been thinking to leave it behind but somehow I'm waiting for the perfect time. hopefully it comes soon.

ah fuck! actually I have many things in my head though somehow I can't pour it here in my blog. I dunno somehow my brain is like breezing. it becomes dull and fucked up..fuck

My Trail to Carita

2009-07-07T08:38:00.000-07:00

Envy was in me knowing that most of people that I know having great vacation during the holiday. I thought to myself,I wanted to be like 'em also. I needed to exile and refresh my mind for a while.So,I made a sudden decision which was going to Carita beach on Saturday. But,my unplanned trip didn't run smoothly. Few things messed it up. Here what happened.
Firstly,I never went to Carita beach before so I asked a friend of mine how to get there. A snitch told me that the trail was easy.

He told me to go to the nearest train station that is in Kebayoran and took express train to Merak. So I agreed. It made sense. I thought going to Merak by express train wouldn't take long. But shittily,when I went there around 9 am,an officer told me that there ain't express train to Merak. In fact,there's only economic class. I surely wouldn't risk myself and my belonging in that kinna train. I was kinna upset and confused. But,I didn't wanna change my mind. I said to myself I had to go to Carita.

Eventually I phoned my brother since he knows lots of routes. He told me to go to the nearest bus station and lbk bulus was the one. Though he told me only few buses went to Merak,many stationed at Kampung Rambutan bus station. So I flew to lbk bulus fast because I didn't wanna miss my bus. But,surprisingly no bus went to Merak. So,I rushed to kamp.Rambutan as time tic-toc-ing fast. I yearned for velocity when I took a mini-bus to Rambutan. But,sadly the driver was kinna lame and retarded.

He stopped at every intersection waiting for passengers for almost like 30 minutes. He's really a dickhead. But,finally I arrived at kp.Rambutan around 11am. My brother was right,there're many buses heading to Merak. So I took one and so the journey began.

It took approximately 6 hours from Jakarta to Merak. Sitting for hours really made the trip more dramatic.

And so,after passing through some cities like Tangerang,Serang,and Cilegon,finally I got in Merak.

so as soon as I got off the bus, I searched for the silver Angkot that my friend told me to take. But unfortunately there wasn't any. Actually I got the feeling that Merak wasn't my final destination since I passed an intersection about a mile away before Merak. there was a traffic sign there; Carita-left, Merak-Right,Krakatau Steel-straight. But I did nothing since he told me to get off in Merak.I got confused for the second time. I kept remaining calm though. eventually I asked an officer the direction to Carita and he told me that I had to take a red Angkot which took me to Cilegon, then from there I could take the silver Angkot.And so be it. up up and away I flew to Cilegon. the angkot took me to downtown of cilegon and it took about 30 minutes. finally I saw the angkot that could take me to my final destination.

without further talking, there I went to Carita riding the silver angkot. I thought the place wasn't as far as I imagined.I thought i could be there within 30 minutes max. but I was deadly wrong. it took me around 1 and a half hour from Cilegon to carita. i sat about one and a half hour in a fast moving public car until my ass was so flat. moreover, i'd been wanting to pee since hours hours ago but i had to keep it. it was like a torture.

i felt a bit relieved knowing that I was approaching Carita. i could see the ocean right before me. but i didn't not know exactly where to stop. i mean Carita was kinna long. i was confused for the third time. but then the driver asked me where to stop. unconvincingly I answered "i don't care sir, just drop me off somewhere". and he did. he dropped me in so-called Pasir Putih beach. it was so messy and kinna slummy. it obviously wasn't the one that i expected.

so I went backward like 5 kilometers to one place that i saw when i was still sitting in the angkot. it was kinna beautiful. i forgot the name but surely i still remember the place.

it was around 5 pm at that time. finally, I relaxed and sat down on the beach watching some kids playing sand and some surfing on the waves. i was longing for the sunset, but it didn't clearly appear that day. I mean, the dusk was kinna thick that blocked the sunset. it was so beautiful though. i could feel the wind blew my dirty and sweaty face. it was awesome.

when night came i hurriedly searched for an inn. i walked around 500 meters north from the beach and i found one. it was a quite cozy place. the host welcomed me warmly and there i spent the night.

the next day, before I went back to Jakarta I told to myself that I had to dig the beach for the second time. so I went to the beach again and i walked along and played the sand. i took some pictures of course and recorded a video. lots of families were there too. lots of kids surfed. the weather was so sunny and the sky was so blue. it was a beautiful day obviously. for a while i could release my hectic mind and felt the joy. it was so exceptional. but, somehow i had to end the day. i had to end the joy since the day was getting shorter and shorter and i had to get back to jakarta again.

so I went back to Jakarta around 1 o'clock and wrapped the day. i got back in jakarta around

My Brat Children

2009-05-12T06:58:00.000-07:00

One thing that you've got to have when you are a teacher-especially a teacher who deals with children, is patient. Having a patient in your DNA is a must i believe. This stuff happens to me recently. I've been dealing with children level 3 which means children 3rd grade for almost two terms. What blows my top is that those brats of mine kinna make me sick to my stomach.Not all of them though. Mostly the boys are brats-super brats. But, maybe because i have this so-called patient DNA in my blood so i still survive so far.in addition, i still can handle them perfectly.
sometimes i wonder why those tiny brats act so exaggerating to me. surely those shitty behavior didn't happen to the previous teacher.is it because i play too nice to them or what?but sometimes i do get angry to them. it doesn't work still though. still can't figure what happens!

LOG gig in Jakarta

2009-05-03T08:15:00.001-07:00

Finally the big day came. The gig that i yearned so bad finally arrived in Jakarta on March 9th 2009. I was there witnessing that frantic show of course. The show was begun at 8 sharp by performing local band so-called Dead Squad as an opening band. They're all right. They delivered some songs-maybe about 5 or 6 anthems, which are quite effective to heat up the rainy atmosphere. The children of lamb were getting insane as LOG was about to hit the stage. However, there was a delay for approximately half an hour when the LOG crew had sound check and prepared the stuffs. The crowds kept yelling 'Lamb of God' during this shitty situation. Shortly afterward though,the fun part began. Randy, Mark, Willie, Chris, and John wrecked the entire night by throwing their famous anthems. Hourglass was the first to hit the ears. Me and the whole children of lamb were completely possessed and started to mosh and head bang. Then blood started to illuminate the pit as LOG played Laid to rest,11th hour,Ruin,Set to fail,Now you've got sth to die for,Descending,Walk with me in hell,Fake messiah,Omerta,Vigil,Pathetic,Redneck,and as usual Black label wrapped the night. All in all, it was an awesome night for real. They promised to come back again one day and i can't wait for that moment.

April 3rd,2009 - A great moment

2009-05-03T07:25:00.000-07:00

gee...i'm 27 now. kinna hard to believe that i'm 27 while deep down inside i still feel like 17..haha..Unlike my last year's birthday-when things were so gloomy and devastating, this year it was so vice versa. it was so marvelous. memorable things happened on my big day and few days afterwards.
the first thing that made my birthday so exceptional and memorable was that on that day i finally officially hooked on someone that i had known for several months earlier. she was fabulous. we were friends before but then things got better and better and i feel more and more comfortable than i've ever felt before. so,finally i made a big and brave decision to make her mine. and happily she said yes.
the second thing was that some fellows of mine managed a tiny surprise party for me at PH-well actually i promised them a treat and somehow i had to fulfil it haha! and so they managed the whole things and got me to blow birthday candles and cake.
and the last thing was i got a memorable surprise from my so called angel one evening when i was having a nap on my birthday. she came to my crib with cake and candle on it and knocked my door and sang the anthem of happy birthday. gosh..roller coaster feelings all mixed up. happy and sad at the same time.unexplainable feelings. i surely won't forget that day for the rest of my life. no other words that can come out from my mouth except a deep gratitude to those people. and special thanks to my baby..thanks a lot baby! luv ya' a lot!!!

Playing Soccer - I miss it so much

2009-02-26T05:51:00.001-08:00

I miss playing soccer so much. this ritual activity has been forsaken for quite long. something that is really unusual for me actually since it's already in my DNA. I guess the wrong place that I've been living in right now and the timeless time that i've got lately really determine this situation. Well, at least now I play this sport virtually aka playing Winning Eleven or PES in my PS2 console.

In addition, I really miss playing soccer with my fellows. Perhaps pinning up the picture of me and my fellows after playing soccer some years ago will be a useful antidote to fulfil it all.

Saturday Night Kicks Ass

2009-02-22T04:13:00.000-08:00

I've got a new Saturday night activity recently. It's so called 'Saturday Night Kicks Ass'-actually I call it that way..hahaha. This new stuff is actually a PS2 night stand. some fellows of mine and me have kicked ass each other in a battle of some PS2 games like fighting games aka Soulcalibur, racing game aka Need for Speed, and soccer game aka PES or WE-so far Blythe hasn't found any opponent yet though for playing this game since my teacher pals can't play this s____, every Saturday night shortly after teaching. The gig itself starts from around 6 pm until around 10 or 11. The venue is in the third floor of LIA Cinere room 307 or 308.

To my mind, kicking ass every Saturday night would be more fun if some pupils are involved. Maybe sending invitation to them is kinna cool. hhhhmmmmm.....that'd be a good idea.

Wrath - I got it!

2009-02-08T04:30:00.000-08:00

Lamb of God is releasing a new album entitles 'Wrath' on February 24, 2009. This new album is worth-waiting and having since I am a die-hard fan of the band. I've watched LOG performed their new songs from Wrath like Fake Messiah and contractor the sound quality is not really good though. So, when i heard those songs for the first time, my ears couldn't really recognize 'em. I just couldn't feel the tune. But, now I'm able to listen closely to LOG's Wrath since I've got it just now. Lots of people commented s___ about it, but I think they're just f______ moron or they're nor really big fan of LOG. All in all, it's f_______ awesome.

Finally Got It!

2009-01-12T20:21:00.000-08:00

Alas! the golden ticket of Lamb of God live in concert on March 9, 2009 is in my hand. I got it on Friday, January 9th-the day when the ticket was officially realesed throughout the country. As you all know, there're two kinds of venues; Tribune and festival. Which one do i choose? the festival of course. A bit more expensive but screw it-of course it's more expensive moron, it's closer to the stage! Now, what I'm doing is longing for the day-the gig in which head-bangers will go insane. Still two more months to go but time flies very fast. One thing that I really hope is the show won't be canceled. It will be the worst of the worst nightmares if it happens.

New year,Old resolution!

2008-12-31T22:26:00.001-08:00

It's new year time. Yep,2009 has come. New year means new spirit. Probably new resolution. But for me,in this new year I've still got an old resolution. Why do I call it that way? because actually I had this resolution last year but still I haven't achieved it so I put it for this year. It sounds so silly but screw it. The resolution is I wanna be a better individual. Better in every single thing. Better in every aspect of my life. A simple sentence though very difficult to accomplish. A very tough job frankly speaking. Well,it's worth trying anyhow.

My Holiday

2008-12-27T21:51:00.000-08:00

I've been spending my holiday for several days at home and nothing really special going. It's been almost five days staying at home killing my holiday time but mundane things still remain the same. Hibernating is the usual activity that i usually do. I spend most of my days sleeping on my sack and eating sundanese home food as much as possible-kinna bored somehow eating the same food pattern every single day, I can't complain though. Playing my favorite games in my PS2 is the second stuff that I do just to kill my time. I just can't imagine my holiday without this stuff. It would be very boring I guess. Fully loaded with games but still I can't glue to my ps2 that long. So, somewhat those games are kinna useless. Well, at least my nephews are happy playing those games as if I provide them for them. One thing that I thankful is that my cell-phone is fully equipped with my favorite anthems. Vanishing boredom with them is kinna fun somehow.
Yesterday, I managed to stroll around downtown just to shop some outfits. I spent almost half day to cruise around Bandung. Swinging from one outlet to another outlet. Gee, the city was so freaking crowded with locals and comers but it's still fun. I could grab outfits that I liked but went home with body aching. I think I will wander around the city again once more before I go back to Jakarta and let see what will happen..

Spelling Bee Competition 2008

2008-12-23T07:59:00.000-08:00

Last week-Sunday, December 21 2008 precisely, was a quite hectic week for me. LBPP LIA Ciputat held children competition which consisted of Spelling Bee, Show and Tell, Poster making, etc. I was one of the committees charging Spelling Bee competition. I had to prepare stuffs concerning the competition. kinna hard i managed to complete the competition successfully though. Thanks to my fellows Mr.Rangga, Ms.Hani, and My boss Ms.Lilia, I could make it real. Many children ranging from level EC2 until EC6 participated in the competition and what shocked me was they were so seriously and enthusiastically participating the competition. After several bettles finally it came to an end with the best speller from LIA Cinere. His name is Jose from level EC3. I was so happy because of two things afterwards. First, the spelling bee was successfully held. Second, Cinere student was the winner. Hope to make spelling bee competition in LIA Cinere only..hehe...amen to that...

Holiday Time

2008-12-23T07:49:00.000-08:00

After finishing my regular stuffs, it's time to have a two-week-holiday in my hometown. planning to go home tomorrow. my plans during holiday are cruising around Bandung, shopping some outfits, sightseeing some chicks,and above all-hibernating in my cage..hoho i sound like a bear or what! hopefully i won't get bored easily there. well, let's see what will happen during my holiday....

Planning to Watch Lamb Of God on March 9 2009

2008-12-23T07:24:00.000-08:00

Finally my fav metal band is coming to Indonesia. yep, Lamb of God is coming on March 9, 2009. it's gonna be super fantastic. Changes might happen though but at least one particular event organizer has confirmed that the band is officially booked to have a gig in Jakarta. my plan is of course to witness their amazing performance right before my eyes. so, in order to be able to witness them, i must spend some cash for the ticket. it's about 30 dollars. i guess it's worth seeing with that sum of cash. i just can't hardly wait....