梦游记

我还在，我相信你也一样

2014-08-23T20:52:00.001+08:00

兜兜转转，又回到这里……
有些事情，不敢告诉你，也不想别人知道我的不安，
或许，只能来这里了。
也许这里是唯一一个你不会来的地方，
也许是你不在了，我的安全感也随之而去；
也许，就算你来了，你也不会查看或明白我到底写了什么；
也许，是担心你读了会生气，所以选了一个你不明白的语言为媒介；
也许，你懂了，反而会怪我不相信你不了解你然后对我生气质问……
我不是故意的，只是太担心了。
你一个人离家而去，我摸不着看不到，看不到你过得好不好……
我过多的关怀和担忧，有时确实让我自己很讨厌自己。

你总是说我不相信你，其实你知道吗？
我相信你，但是我还是会害怕……
害怕你在那里学了很多东西，嫌我知识浅；
害怕你在那里开阔了视野，嫌我什么都不懂；
害怕你什么都不告诉我，嫌我碍手碍脚越帮越忙；
害怕你因为我过多的担心和关心，嫌我烦；
害怕你在外经历了不一样的事情，嫌我们文化变得不同了；
害怕你因为我们遭遇经历不同，对我不理不睬；
害怕得不敢和你吵，默默地吞下不安和委屈……

你常要我自己去找答案要我去探索，而我每每做错搞错弄错；
因为我不明白，为何你可以为别人学习语言为单词查字典，
而对我却呼呼喝喝说我写了些你不懂的东西……
你不知道，我为了踏上你的脚步而向你的方向奔跑；
跌跌撞撞，却总是以争执收场……
我多么希望你会哄哄我，说你爱我。
可是你总会说是我的不是，错在于我。
我只是希望我们意见不合时，你让着我，说你在乎我爱我……
但是，你最终都会选择避开，把我留在吵架的空间遐想徘徊，把问题扔给我一个人独自面对。
第二天，你又从新reset,像完全没有事情那样，我做不到，因为我的心还是疼着……
其实我也试过让着你迁就你，可是你从来都不会吃这一套，
对你来说，我错了，所以不可原谅；所以你生气；
直到我的眼泪不听话的流下来，你才惊觉，我真的受伤了。

我们的爱，到底怎么了……
我好怀念你专心和我对话的样子；
我好想念你不停的说爱我的作怪模样；
我好想再看到你依依不舍不挂电话的眷恋；
我好希望你会了解，我只希望你一切安好。
我相信你会很好的。

有人在吗？

2014-08-18T19:22:00.001+08:00

有人来了，
有人走了；

有人笑了，
有人哭了；

有人得到了，
有人失去了；

有人问为什么，
有人沉默不语；

有人学会了，
有人怎么也学不会；

有人爱了，
有人不想再爱了……

离家出走那一天

2014-08-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

生活变了，
时而迷茫，
完全迷失方向；
时而清晰，
为了梦想跌得遍体鳞伤。

在这个浩瀚宇宙，
我不会说我想要什么，
而是什么才是我能抓住的？

有人说，
出走，
到外旅游，
是找回自己的最好方法。
也许有一天，
我会自个儿提着个背包，
消失在这个小巷中……

也许有一天，
你发现我不见了；
又或许哪一天，
你在某处看见我的照片，
里面有令人窒息的风景，
或是平静的湖泊，
也有挂着笑脸的我，

那么，
请你放心，
在外漂泊的我，
已经找回那个失去的自我。

对不起，我爱你

2013-07-10T11:35:00.001+08:00

好久都没上来了，才发现原来这里是最好抒发心情的地方。
很多事情都不能对人说，不能对他说，不能在facebook写，这里没有人，或许比较适合。

都好久了，我也不明白事情出在哪里，一味的附和着你，以为这样事情就会解决。可是我呢？谁又来迁就我呢？总觉得很累，不知道事情要怎么解释才能清楚透彻。
总是让自己过得很开心，可是我知道心底还有一些事情，总是逃避不了，不论我如何快乐，快乐过后，悲伤接踵而来。

有时撑得很累，可是都没有依靠。我又能对谁说呢？
我以为我们很好，没有问题。可是我一直看见一个缺口，无论我怎么补，都没有用，因为那个洞，要靠两个人的力量来填满，但是你只会在那里洒盐，痛上加痛。
你一直认为你做得很好，其实你也懂自己不好，可是你却从来没有为我的利益为我想过。也许，你看见的和我看见的不同，就像我看不见的，你都看见了一样吧！

我不懂我们为什么会到这个地步，觉得很难过，可是却无计可施。
或许我真的不懂，就因为我独立，我能照顾自己，所以当我生病时，当我需要你时，你都可以放任我一个人，然后当我向你提起，你都认为我无理取闹？

我不知道，或许我应该像以前那样，过着没有你生活的生活那样，一个人生活。唯一不同的是，我多了个可以sms的人。也许这样想，我会比较好过。

我不担心你会看见这篇文章，因为你从来都不会理会，我到底是怎么想的。
我一边写，一边忍住眼泪，告诉自己“我很坚强”，因为我知道我会好的。
我相信，我们会好的。

心痛之后，应该会有快乐吧？
期许着……

my recent life

2012-10-28T21:26:00.001+08:00

it has been half a year since my last post. Time just fly off in a blink of eye. wow~ many things happened yet most of them were solved. I guessed? hahaha
recently is very busy with my assignment, plus the unlucky angel is flying on top of my head, I have to rush for my assignments as my laptop would die very soon! urggghhh~
things had been spoiled and broken since few weeks ago... my pocket is getting drier and drier... Have I finished my good luck? or somebody is cursing me at the back? hahaha. even my ring can get broken, how lucky I am, huh？ >.<
anyway, life still goes on, and I am waiting for some day to come, some big and significant day for me... I just hope everything goes smoothly and I know somebody will be there for me ^^ hehehe.
there were some events happening like the 30 hour famine camp, dreamers and prom night... and we manage to sponsor a child from Myanmar, happyING^^
will post these events on as soon as possible, hahaha. life is getting toucher and i am a bit worried...
what is my future???
be happy and cheer!
good luck and have a nice day!

21st birthday celebration

2012-03-12T23:21:00.000+08:00

My birthday is on 13th of March but I celebrated early because it is more convenient and most people are free on weekend ba~ hehehe. Anyway, the plan had started a week before that. I was searching for the cake and planned what dishes to cook on that big day! It was quite fun but there were minor disagreements along. however, everything went on smoothly. except for I was quite tiring going out and coming back for times.

On Sunday night, I dressed up earlier and waited for guests. I was actually expecting to start the feast on 7 but it ended up we started at 7.30pm. ha! mummy cooked alone at kitchen. that's the reason.

well, nothing much can do because that was a large group of people and my place is limited. anyway, we had BBQ! hahaha.

I couldn't imagine there were so many people coming than I expected. hmmm. Facebook event invitation doesn't really help much. hahaha.

we talked, we ate and we took photos!!!!!!!

this is my college mates, ADP! yeah! a lot of them coming, shocked me. hahaha. Some of them had just come back from Korea in the morning and at night they came to my party, how touched~ =')

hahaha. they brought my party joyfulness~ THANK YOU EVERYONE!

this is my stampin friends. hmmm, not many can come as a lot are 'outstationed'. hahaha. even my mushrooms cannot attend. a bit disappointed la, but they wished me and love me as usual, I know it! hahaha. :p

and this is my birthday cake. chocolate cake weighed 2kg. I was quite disappointed with it but many of my friends said it is nice =.=///

and this is me, when they sang birthday song for me. awww~ first time in my life there were so many people singing birthday song for me. hahaha. TOUCHED~~~

and this was me, granting for 3 wishes. hahaha. secrets, cannot be told^^

and this is my family! but younger sister was not here as she is still in NS. anyway, to let her to feel the merriness, I bought her a small cake in the morning when we visited her at the temple.

this is a photo with my ex-boss, Madam Cecelia. Felt so happy she could come. She is one of the most important people in my life who helped me a lot.^^ thank you~ and the three girls are her lovely daughters.^^

and this is natasha, My college good friend.^^

these were the presents and angpaus I got, hehehe. So many and I love all of them! hahaha. thank you for picking such nice gifts for me!!!

this is from Elina, Claudia, Moi and Natasha. wow, I was surprised when I opened it! hahaha. I just thought of buying nail polishers and they bought me already^^ thanks girls!

and this is my KEY!!! mummy, dad and sis bought it for me. after my request! though mummy always said no need but at last she still bought it for me. hehehe. and cook all the nice dishes for us. thanks^^ <3 you!

and this bag,hahaha, Love it! greenish blue! lalala. i don have to buy bag liao^^ thanks Nina and Jasmine

and this is from mushrooms! chocolate! my addiction! hahaha thanks Hui and Foong even though Foong couldn't attend. ^^ <3 <3 <3

and this is from Darling jane. Maybe we are too closed until she knew I always headache? so she gave me this... this is not mask, it is for headache. COOL~ hahaha

there are still a lot of presents but I couldn't mention it all here. I love them all, OK? no bias! hahaha.

thanks a lot for spending time with me on the party and sorry for anything that is unsatisfied.

THANK YOU and much APPRECIATION from me!!!

after all, it was a great night for me, in spite of my painful mouth and the alcohol allergy. hahaha.

thanks everyone for putting effort to come and my family who helped to clean and cook and everything.

Love you all!!!

21 years old, a new beginning,

a more mature me.^^

jia you

good luck!!!

Because you live, I live

2012-03-05T16:32:00.001+08:00

It has been more than two months
it had been very joyful months and thanks to you
my love
missing and loving are worthwhile
when you are not around
for we are still holding our hearts closed

I have been waiting and looking for an answer

for who would be the one stay

somehow

somewhere

I know what I didn't know

upon loving you

♬ Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky ♫

I am so glad I found an angel

someone who loves and cares for me

someone who is here when the world stumbled me

Thank you for being here

please take care when I am not around

remember to enjoy your life and please,

be safe.

I am waiting for you to come back

and give me a big warm hug

<3 you

我的你

2012-02-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

我的你

曾经是个不可能

却成了今天的恋人

谢谢你还在

感谢你

让一切的不可能发生

经过了几次的争吵

度过了几个白昼黑夜

庆幸我们依然紧握彼此的手

其中的不安、辛酸及不确定

都被你的爱一一融解了

谢谢你的陪伴及呵护

看你小心翼翼的

将我用剩余纸张做成的“卡片”收进口袋

看着你开心得像个小孩

我比谁都还满足

当你抱着我说谢谢

我知道你真的很感动

那一刻的悸动

一直在我脑海里旋转

偶尔吵吵嘴

偶尔吃吃醋

偶尔小惊喜

偶尔嫌一嫌彼此

也是种乐趣

我明白自己不是最好的

也许我什么都不会

什么都不知道

不浪漫不知趣不像其他女生一样

还有一大堆病

可是，

我会是最爱你的

我的你，

谢谢你的包容

谢谢你给我的爱

谢谢你为我单调的生活彩色

为你我要做更好的人~

情人节快乐！ <3

2012 New Year Visiting

2012-02-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year 2013 fell on 23rd of January. when I am posting this, it is already Chap Goh Mei. hahaha.
This year began with challenging circumstances yet there were some memorable events happening on me too. hehehe. New year, everything is never the same anymore. I am growing ^^
This new year was quite different in a way that some friends came over for more than 5 times in a week. you know who you are.hahaha.
the first day of CNY always boring as I stayed home. anyway, this was the first time in this new house (because we just moved in ba~) hahaha.
the next few days I was not at home anymore, followed friends for visitings and out for supper at night bla bla bla... it was very surprising that this year most friends could gather together to go visiting. felt like I was going back to secondary school again, with my lovely secondary school mates^^ and it is a good thing for all of us still in contact with each others, it had been 3 years anyway!!! ha!
below are some of the pictures taken in different friends' houses.

this one was taken at Li Xian's house. she looked more like a waitress that day, busy like a buzz buzz bee.hahaha

after that we went to 3rd mushroom aka Ching Foong's house. and the guys were really =.= and we looked like taking family photo didn't we? hahaha. and someone face so thick, asked for a photo shot with Foong's brother. hahaha.

then we still went to Puan Phang's and some other friends' house, too tired to take photos anymore.

however, the next day, we continued for 2nd round visiting. ha! this time only went to Yun and Jane's house. hahaha.

see what stupid thing we did.lalala

taken in Yun's room. hahaha.

kept thinking what pose we had.lalala

see, we are so creative.

from the left, don't talk, don't hear, don't want, don't smell and don't see. hahaha

dragon year, of course had to take picture with some related thing la~ seriously, i don't know why Yun laughed so happily.hahaha

and it is me! in the dragon year!

and the next day, I went for class gathering at Sharing Planet. hahaha. around half of class joined, so happy to meet some of the old friends. see, we are all grown up and be more prettier and handsome. thanks for crossing my life and shared the memories.

now, CNY had officially ended after tonight, no more CNY mood! ha! Wish all of us a happy year and all the best!
good luck!
gambate!

我们都要幸福！

2011-12-09T12:07:00.000+08:00

聪明的你

肯定发现了我的不安

没有打破没有多问

迅速地道了晚安

对阿~

那就是你

留下我一个人

独自微笑着流泪

眼泪已经在眼圈打转

嘴角却硬挂个微笑

怕你知道

其实我很难过

最难过的是

明明很难过

却还假装一点都不难过

微笑着看着你

明知道你不适合自己

却一头栽进去

现在明白了

我还是喜欢一个人生活

没有你，

“怎么办”不会出现在我口中

你的所有一切

好的坏的

喜欢的不喜欢的

我都默默的接受

不哭不吵不闹

不乱吼不乱发脾气

连微笑都小心翼翼

以遮掩我的不确定和介意

眼泪在眼角却被逼退回去的痛

有多疼多难多委屈

都已经麻木了

从哪刻开始

我们之间有了隔阂

跨不过这道心的马路

是因为你没打算牵着我过

还是我在十字路口和你失散

走错了方向

不想依靠

担心哪天若没有了这个肩膀

我的依赖

会变成怎样的无赖

不想像小孩一样粘着你烦着你

懂得何时得转身

才不至于让你看见自己的眼泪

一直告诉自己

要坚强

我很好

不准哭

眼泪却像窗外安静的雨

不听使唤的嘀嗒落下

其实自己一点都不好

却硬逼自己一定要坚强

因为这样

才能让你看见最美的我

才能让你觉得我不在乎

那个不好的我

那些不好的事情

留给自己就好

快乐的你

不应该承担我的不安

只要记得你知道我过得很好

我就心满意足了

我的要求不多

只希望你快乐

就算你还是那个

被我数落了无数次的你

就算你身边的那个人不是我

我还是真心的祝福

我知道

我们都会幸福的。

一起加油吧！

谢谢你的陪伴

2011-12-07T12:07:00.000+08:00

给我最熟悉的陌生人：

谢谢你的陪伴
让我知道我的世界不只是自己
还有你的存在
跟我耍耍嘴皮子
改正我的不好
增加我的人生知识

你明白别人不明白的我
你知道我胆小
你懂得我怕痛
所以你一直都不敢踏进来
担心如果有朝一日你走了
我会剩下什么

太多的顾虑和余虑
没有人了解
谢谢你的体谅
我很好
因为有你的陪伴
让我知道
原来我们可以什么都不是
什么都没有
也可以很快乐

有很多事情
都还未解决
牵拖着我和你
太多的疑惑和不确定
让我停在原地
不知道该往哪个方向前行
那个有你的地方
是不是、会不会是我的天堂？

未来的事情
没有人能预知
但就像你说的
只要两个人愿意
任何事都不是问题

我放下了心中的防御
渐渐打开心房接受这个世界
谢谢你的陪伴
就算未来的日子
不会再有你的陪伴
我依然会记得
共度的时光……

谢谢你。

眼泪和微笑在比赛

2011-11-19T08:58:00.000+08:00

朋友的妈妈说我很能干、很勇敢

我试着微笑

但却只能苦笑

微笑和眼泪总在比赛

微笑赢了我的外表

眼泪滴在我的心中

谁才是真正的赢家？

哪个能让我变得更坚强？

我坚强，因为我只能靠自己

而她是温室里的花朵，不堪一折

然而，我很庆幸自己是根小草

踩不死、大风大雨都不畏惧

纵然有时候

也会累了跨了垂下头

也会软弱无助弯下腰难过想大哭

也会希望有个人能够摸摸我的头

告诉我

“别怕别怕”

“不痛不痛”

“不哭不哭”

在我需要的时候

让我明白

不只是我、自己和心里在孤军作战

而是有个人一起对抗狂风暴雨

好几次

都在和眼泪比速度

当眼泪在眼中打滚

得立刻把它埋藏起来

有几次

在眼泪掉下来之际

还是自己接住了眼泪？

谁不希望有个人能为自己擦拭眼泪？

谁不期盼有个避风港？

谁不奢望自己能过得比别人更好？

现实和幻想

总是有段距离

所以，

我只能是那个坚强的我。

微笑得越美丽，

泪淌在心里就越疼……

摸摸自己的头，

擦掉眼泪

戴上微笑重新出发……

When Life Moves On...

2011-10-20T08:47:00.001+08:00

there has been such a long time since my last update. Awww~ Life is busy, busy and busy.hahaha. what to do, I love it^^
Going to move my house that I had been living for 20 years for my life. it is fantastic, but it is saddening too. 20 years is not a short period. hahaha. By the way, I would have my own room, FINALLY! hahaha we are all excited for it!
Going back to my work, it goes on well. It is not tiring like the other jobs I worked on before. well, after all, I am the boss, so of course, I always make it working efficiently. By the way, I just hope that it goes smoothly as I wished. hahaha. it is not hard, perhaps?
Then, it is ASSIGNMENTSSS time! hahaha. 6 subjects are not a torture to me, I know I can cope with it. They only make my life fuller and busier. hahaha. I try to manage my time well as usual, so that I would not waste any single second. lalala. it works, sometimes. hehehe. Wish me luck in my studies. ^^
after all, this is just a random post about my present life. it is fun! hahaha. meet some new friends and people, get to know more and understand more, get to be MORE mature( i think I am mature, anyway?so I want to be more mature).hahaha. just when I am writing until here, there is a disruption in front of me. hahaha. don't want to tell what is that. what I can say is, First Impression Really Doesn't Work!!! so I gonna change it. lalala. tomorrow going to be Prom Night, and this is the first time I join this kind of event since I entered this college, well, it has been only one year ba~ hahaha.
when life moves on, I am going forward as well, don't want to think back those good and bad memories, I am who I am now, and I treasure my this moment now. hahaha.
So, Lalala, Keep going people!
Good luck to all of us who striving for lives!
Gambate!

2030—— 爱你想你

2011-09-12T12:11:00.000+08:00

2030

那美丽的爱情故事

你可否听过？

你可知道

那是我编写的

却从没想过

现实与幻想

会有实现的一天

不想你的影子

总盘旋在我脑海

让我无法工作

连吃饭都变得有气无力

所以才会选择

在2030的时候想你

却发现无时无刻都在爱你想你

当我闭上眼

愿远方的你幸福快乐

当甜蜜的回忆又在脑子里游荡

当月光轻抚我的脸颊

她一定

也嗅到我的泪

听见了我的心碎

想一直闭着眼睛

让那些爱与恨历历在目

尽管心碎得更快

我却毫不犹豫

只因为那里能和你共在

而心碎的边缘

是你在沉默

还是我的眼泪

爱你想你

多么美丽

多么可悲

却成为我一个人的事

还爱你还想你

心却慢慢碎了

眼泪跑出来了

我只能努力坚强

用一分钟来思念

用一整天流泪

用一辈子来怀念

爱你想你

最心动

也最心痛

Arrival of WilBer Pan in Kuching 20.08.11

2011-08-21T14:37:00.002+08:00

After the long waiting, Wilber finally came to Kuching! I had been cracking my neck long for this! This is so unbelievable that I had actually won the VIP tickets and his album through the caller ringtone contest. hahaha. Amazing right!? not really many people got it.hahaha. I made my flight back from Singapore earlier too just to see hiM! OMX~ I am very idiot when talk about him. It's all about him him him! Because I am Crazy over U U U U U! Wilber Pan!

He would not know me, forever, perhaps~ But I had admired him for more than 8 years, and I never change my love to him, nothing can change it, though.hahaha. A lot of people thought that I admire him because of his look. and now what? I clarify here, I like him because of his influence in my life.

'what influence?'

curious leh~ hahaha.

There was a time, I lost my direction, and became very aggresive. I did not remember how I met him, if I am not mistaken, it was his song, Bi Hu Man Bu, "lizard strolling". The rhythm was relaxing.After that, I started to search for his songs. I found most of his songs are very inpiring and motivating, they make me feel a lot better and much more directed. And even he injured his knee, he never gave up, but he kept practising and made himself a better him. I see a WILL in him, is that why he called himself Will instead of Wilber? hehehe. I don't know. I saw the WILL to change for the sake of a better me as well. I learnt to put in more effort in order to achieve my dream, regardless how people judge me.
My heart is locked since that day, just for him. Maybe Wilber would never know who I am, what did he do which have motivated me, but I cannot doubt the changes he brought to the inner me. I really appreciate it. Hereby, I would like to thank you, Wilber. You show a positive attitude to us!

THANK YOU AND I WILL SUPPORT YOU FOREVER!

Even if the whole world is agaisnt you, I would still standing at a small corner, watching you, supporting you! You have my & my <3 forever.

Jia you!

the album and tickets!hehehe

I was very surprised when Wan Wai Fun and Royce called me.hahaha.

i got this sticker when I went in the VIP zone.

hehehe. During the day, I was actually late. By the time I reached there, there was already crowded. Luckily mine was VIP seats, then I had a seat, and with me I could bring a friend, and the lucky friend was, Natasha! hahaha. she was very excited as well, lalala. we waited for around 2hours, and Wilber came at around 8.30pm. all of us were nervous.hahaha.

when we came to the back stage, I finally saw him! he was in black suit and was wearing spectacle. I shook his hand, *happy~ This was the first time I saw him, with just a few feet distance. so Unbelievable!

He is fair, tall and sunny^^ I think no one can beat him! most of the people certainly will look back if he walk passed them. He is impressive. With just one look, and never would be forgotten. ^^

After that, he went out and straight away sang and danced for two songs. the scene was flooded with screams. He easily made the scene hot!

he danced and sang for the first two songs. COOL~

then, he sang xiao xiao ma yi. nice voice.

I envy Amelyn a lot as she could talked to him in such a close distance. So nice~ I think my super idol must be very tired, because he looked tired, and he kept wiping his sweats. so heartbroken to see this. Nevermind, this was his final place before going back to Taiwan. Get a good rest before you going on, OK? Don't make yourself sick because we will worry.

* I overheard somebody behind me said that if they can get the towel they would frame it.hehehe. Who wouldn't?

below are some pictures of him in the concert. All look handsome and cool.hahaha

He is cute, too. During the concert there was a part that he played a dancing game with fans. He dropped he bear to give to the winner. then, he showed us a very panic and very innocent look. So cute! he opened his jaw wide, showing his surprise. hahaha. He suddenly picked up the bear and kissed it! Awww! so glad for the girl who won it! hahaha. He is such a lovely big boy.

he waves to the audience.

don't remember what song is this. hehehe

Overall, he sang six songs, including 'quan mian tong qi, chu dong', 'xiao xiao ma yi','U U U', 'wo men dou pa tong' and 'Bu de bu ai' . He is great at both slow and fast songs. this is so wonderful! He sang the last song with the audience. Terrific! hahaha. during the session, he went down to shake hands with the audience too!

lastly, I went up for the album signing session. I actually have something to ask and to tell, but I have no chance because it was too quick. so disappointed. By the way, one thing that made me a bit happier was that he looked at me, and then smile at me. My sister said this was very ordinary because this is out of politeness. But his glimpse and smile means a lot for me, even though he doesn't know me. I still feel glad. It's my pleasure to meet him. But I forgot to say Happy birthday to him. What a dismay~

this is the album with his signature. I shook his left hand. hahaha. two times in a day, I am sure I made people envious and they would kill me of they see me. lalala

well, after all, it was a nice concert, even though the time is short. He promised he would come Kuching again! hahaha. I am awaiting!

really thank you, Wilber, thank you for coming, and thank you for arriving in my life. thanks for making an important mark in my heart, leaving the foot marks in my life. Thank you, for you are my role model, for you are the one who motivates me. Thanks. Forever support from me^^

Take care.

Have a nice day.

Famine 30, Inti College 6-7/8/2011

2011-08-10T14:53:00.003+08:00

Mother Theresa said: “We can not do great things. We can only do little things with great love."

I always hope that I can do little meaningful things with my overflowed love. and here they gave me the chance. I participated in Famine 30, which was hold at Inti College Sarawak, from Saturday to Sunday.

I’ve seen so many photos and videos on how the children suffered, yet, I never know that there are over half of the children in the world are actually suffering from poverty, famine and 1 child DIED in every 3 SECONDS! !! Can you believe this? OMX! There are over 2 billions of children who still need our care! I am extremely frustrated after I got to know the statistic from the participation of Famine 30 as a volunteer.

How I wish I could hold them in my arms, even though my arms are not wide enough, they are strong. How I wish I am able to cover and protect these innocent angles from sufferings.

I know, and I assure, someday in the future, I am going to help at my greatest effort and I wish I could influence people by awaking them from the world of materialism. And I swear, I will limit the expenses on junk food and I will always think twice when buying something unnecessary. ( you know la, girls ba~ love to waste $$$~)hahaha.

Actually I had already planned to sponsor a child at the end of this year. And AHA! I know where I should start now. Hahaha. And I add a wish list to my 2015-> sponsor at least 3 children at the year! Lalala. Wish me luck so that I can earn many $$$~

There are people who want the simplest needs, but they couldn’t get it. Food, clean water, shelter… seems so simple to us; we can get it in a grab of hand. That is why; we take it for granted all the times! How about the poor countries? The children do not have enough food. I read an article and found that people from some part of Africa do not have food, so they have no choice but to eat cow dung to deliver medicine for AIDS. However, you see what happen around us… unfinished food are everywhere if you eat outside, because there are always people who don’t know how lucky they are to have food to eat. I doubt I would do this, because I always finish the food in my plates; and I still feel guilty that I did not finished the fried rice few weeks ago. I am also glad that there are people doing and feeling the same. One of the volunteer, Zhi Cheng did not waste the seaweed fried rice in the party and he packed it back for tomorrow’s breakfast? Whatever. The most important thing is there are people who are conscious about do not wasting food! Hahaha. Thanks.

Same goes to water source. There are people who drink, wash and bath in dirty muggy water; and us? We have more than enough water sources, therefore, people can turn on the pipe and let the water flows like that? Sometimes I really feel like throwing them the photos on people who live and use in a dirty environment and prompt to get diseases. I think we do not deserve that much and I think someone on top there also see the same, so there are disasters happening around us. That is a warning! But nobody takes it. They still indulge in their own world which full of unnecessary luxuries. Why? Why at the same time, there are people who couldn’t afford the simplest requirement, they don’t have house, not even to have a mosquito net. I never wonder that a net like this can help those kids from deadly diseases and illness. I watched the video on how the kids moaning and just passed away like that. My tears flow down, finally, after several times of controlling. The tears of guilty, which make me feel more sad. The cheap cheap net that we not even bother to use! And it means so much for others! How sad! So damn it! And I never know it!

The children just opt for the simplest things, yet they do not have it; and these simplest things are all what we take for granted! We never realize that there are people who try very hard to get all these when we just simply waste them away. We just… NEVER, NEVER THINK! We are sticking to our comfortable lives, nice room and soft bed; NEVER awake and keep complaining. We NEVER know how our lousy things matter to others, so we keep complaining how bad they are. The reasons are, we never sleep on floors, we never live in expose environment, we never drink dirty water and we never get hungry. All we always do is… COMPLAINING! Arrggghhh! How bad I am when I think back. I have such a nice life, I do not have to drink dirty water, and throw away the water which is a little dirty; I do not get hungry at all because there are always food available for me. My papa even disagreed for me to participate in this event because I have to starve myself! After a little struggling, he finally allowed and see, I made it! 30 hours was really hard to go. The time was just too slow to pass and my stomach was grumbling. My friend asked me: “why you don’t want to eat?” I just smiled. In my little world, I tell myself, ‘don’t get attracted, you want to feel how the kids suffer, isn’t that the purpose you are here?’ and now, I know how uneasy is the feel of hungry. My hunger was for 30 hours only, but how about the kids? Their hungers are continuing and they never get to get their stomach a little full. If you don’t believe me, skip a meal for yourself and see how it feels like. If you realize something, congratulations!

All we have should not be taken for granted anymore. I want to make myself a limitation card, to limit my expenses so that I would have enough money to sponsor 2 children in the end of 2012. Well, I eat too much junk food and it is fattening and no vitamins. Also, my money goes more to my studies expenses so I have to be thriftier in order to gather RM1200! It should not be a problem, since I work, huh? Hahaha. Who want to join me for sponsorship also can contact me. Hehehe. Wish me luck!

I wrote some notes for this post at some free times, then everyone thought I was writing diary. My gosh~ who will write diary in the morning!? hahaha. then, a volunteer asked me what keep my enthusiasm for writing blog. I told him part of the reasons--> to share knowledge & experiences so to influence other;besides, also to enhance my writing skills so that it would not rusted. :p one reason that I did not tell him is that: I write my articles to earn money.hehehe.

during the camp, I was really appreciating those participants who still had smiles on their faces. whenever they saw others, they would smile to them. this give me dedication to move on; unlike some of them, I rarely saw them smile. Was it because of tiredness? I do not know. All I know is I was trying hard to smile too! If you know how much people would value your smiles, especially tiredness and strangeness powered over excitement and enthusiasm, you would do the same as well. I think there is nobody who does not want others to smile to them, right? hahaha

I really feel grateful to Ysin and the camp leader, Wyndie, who allowed me to join at the very last minute! Besides, thanks to Famine 30, I was able to learn and realize so much and met so many friends. I know a little bit on how to organize this camp and so, I add a new wish to my 2012 wish list  organizing a DIY camp in my college targeting 100 people participating! Hahaha Big aim? I am not sure. But I know I can handle it^^

After the camp finished,(Yeah! We MADE it!) We went to Legend for dinner. They celebrated an early birthday for Wyndie, our camp leader. Happy birthday to you! Hahaha, you are born the same day with my sister! Hehehe. Here are some photos of the events, hope to see more people next year! Jia you!

this is my ID for being a volunteer

my T-shirt for famine 30

these are the companies who sponsored the camp. thanks for your support! ^^

she looks cool, right?^^

this is Ysin, the leader for volunteer, she is great and cool, especially in entertaining and making the scene hot~ thanks~

this is Wyndie Chai, Our camp leader. she is a nice lady and today is her birthday! Happy birthday to you!

special thanks to this two ladies because if not of them, I would not be able to join the camp. so thanks again!

Irene as doctor, Linda and Kevin as delivery doctors, ah fen as registration clerk.

for the first game, my group role played as hospital staffs and see, what is our hospital's name.hahaha

ah fen is a staff at registration counter, I helped her in case there would be a crowd. hahaha.

who am I? I am a doctor who gave speech. hahaha. and I switched my venue for 3 times. -.-!!!

people kept coming to buy supplements and for injections.hahaha. if not, they would probably dead, and go to the...

tomb! hahaha

during the night, there were many groups of performers performed for us. all were really great, especially the last group, Dream Machine, where all the campers and volunteers had fun together,it was very memorable.^^

at the second day, after the aerobic exercise, the participants performed drama. a lot of us were touched by the 'children' group, even their drama was simple, it was the clearest message I had received among the other dramas. A lot of children RIP because of a lack of basis requirements.

this group of drama was funny! the 'delivery aunty' who lacked of professional skills killed a lot of infants. this drama was to awake people the need of knowledge about delivery skills.

paying attention on the drama.

this is Phit Fen, the only one I know when I first came here. hahaha. she is not sick, ok? she is very kind and always do good deeds. she is such a lovely girl.~

found this picture randomly. the only kid in the camp (left), with the volunteer(Melvin Chai). they like to stick together, I wonder why~ hahaha. they look a bit alike, isn't it?

this is a pic taken with MyFM DJ. hehehe.nice la~also, this is the group photo.

this is the sign language. at last, we made a 30 sign signified famine 30! it was a bit hard to instruct but the end product is nice!

and finally, it's me! beside me is Denise, a new friend^^ we were leading the participants to the hall.

after the event, we went to Legend to have our dinner. they celebrated wyndie's birthday as well. hehehe. Happy birthday to you!and thanks for the treat! it was so great to meet all of you! from left, tate, Qi Wen ( the girl who takes nice photos), Kelly (the girl who looks like me^^), Terence Lee, Raymond, Ysin, Wyndie, Irene, Jamie, HanPerng, Flo Kee, Ee Hsia, zhi Cheng, Melvin, Amelia, Hanee, Doris, Fen and some more (paiseh don't know what is your name *-*)

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Lastly,(finally~ hahaha. This is a really long post.) I want to change myself. AGAIN? Hahaha. Yup! For the sake for a better me and the beloved children. I will always say: “I DO!”

How about you? Do you think the same?

Anyway, Good Luck!

Jia you.

3GU6PO Gathering & farewell for Kelly^^

2011-07-05T11:45:00.001+08:00

it was 30th of June, and we decided to have a gathering even though some of the mushrooms were unable to attend. This is because this would be the last chance for us to meet Kelly before she went off to KL to further study. Good luck for her! we all know very well that she can handle the life there easily. jia you o!
we had been not meeting each other for a long time, since most of us were having our sem break (though I already started my class) hahaha, then I planned to organise a gathering, for both gathering and farewell purpose.hahaha.
we met at noon, and I was the first who reached as I straight away went there after my class. Omx! we met so many friends and so many students from SEGi also went there for lunch. How small the world really is! hahaha. But who cares la, we just got along within ourselves and chit-chatting without caring how people look at us.hahaha. that's us! 3gu6po ma~~
I ordered "life noodles" and all of them had "ma la" noodles. hahaha. then all the way we ate we could hear the 'si si sut sut' sound.hahaha. too hot?
this is my noodles! not bad because it is not spicy at all.mixed with carrot, cucumber and cabbage if I am not mistaken?hahaha

this is ah fen, I do not know why she had to hug the menu set when she talked? is it because she is gossiping someone and scare other would hear it?hahaha feel it is funny so captured it down.

we chit-chatting along until around 2pm, then Fen, Kheng and Foong these 3 mushrooms wanted to follow home and to do passport and to go to my tuition centre with me. hahaha. at last, they got bored. hahaha. and they had no chance to see my tuition center, even though they keen to see it. hahaha .

Next time, I promised^^

I was busy these days, as to settle my construction things and decorations and preparations for the tuition centre. Upload the post soon once I got the pictures captured ok?

this is the 'abroad' girl, KELLY! wish you all the best! we will miss you^^

this is part of the 3gu6po, hehehe. they are great!

and one more! (wonder why I have so many AND today)...lalala. congratulations to 7 Ah ma Shirlene!!! wish you happy forever with your boy boy, our 7 Ah Gong! tell us if he bullies you!

all the best to Kelly!

all the best to all of us!

jia you!

Gambate!

have a nice day^^

风凉话Go Go Go！梦加油加油！

2011-06-27T03:24:00.002+08:00

最近真的很忙！忙什么，我却真的不是很清楚!只是感觉时间就真的滴答滴答地走，而我却还在原地蹉跎，什么都没有做到！虽然我真的忙个不停！忙什么？我真的无可奉告~因为我真的不知道！
天啊！最近讲话都喜欢绕口令，真的很好玩一下！啦啦啦。虽然忙，日子照样过！嘻嘻嘻！
最近除了忙学校的功课，好奇怪的功课哦！虽然这学期都没有考试，但是assignment还真的很多，而且都超级无比的奇怪！哈哈哈。做专访eh~然后还有做卡片~天啊！真的很可爱！可是天啊！这真的超刺激的！（我不是拿自己的grade来赌哦~）我会努力的！梦娜加油加油加油！要相信自己是达成目标的唯一垫脚石！靠自己！靠自己！！靠自己！！！
其实，还有在忙其他的事情，比如说……自己想创办一间补习中心（目前阶段当然是无牌的^^)没想到，面对的压力其实真的很多。从选地方、用品、桌椅到设计传单，都由自己亲自负责；很多时候还跟爸爸轧上了， %￥*#@~我不是故意的。我明白，老爹他认为他经验比我足，什么都懂；可是我也有自己的想法阿~幸亏我老娘够英明，处处帮助我。嘻嘻嘻！我家的老虎婆真的是越老越聪明、设想得很周到。谢谢你的英明！万岁！哈哈哈
其实这不是最糟的。你知道吗？有一种人，他们喜欢在你决定做某些事情时，甚至是你只是在打算的时候，就已经知道了全盘的事。然后到处散播，好的没关系，不知道的也乱说，毁人名声。这还不要紧，他们不了解不知道，可以原谅他们的无知；但是最让人气愤的是，还在那里说风凉话！说你办不到，说你这说你那，不知道的也装知道说出来，还以为自己真的很懂你！天啊！！！真的吃不消！
还有更吃不消的！！！我的天啊！一说到这，我这个温柔的梦姑娘都快变成个疯子了！非说他不可！天啊！！！
要说风凉话，请到其他地方说。但是你知道吗？这些人偏偏选在你窗外，在你眼睛都还没张开的时候，就叽叽喳喳说个不停，深怕你会听不见。你气愤吗？所谓一天之计在于晨，一早起床心情就不好，你还有心情做其他事吗？老虎不发飚，你还真的以为我是病猫？反正被吵醒了，就趁他们还在说风凉话的时候，把窗帘拉开。“咻”的一声，外面就没有声音了——帘开人散。
有时候，我真的不怪他们。他们读书少，所以知识也不多，知书达理程度无法达到我们现今社会的标准，不懂得如何控制自己的嘴巴和嫉妒欲，所以才会这样说风凉话。他们不知道：“道人是非者，亦是是非人。”既然你们没有内涵，谈话内容也当然一样，所以无所谓啦，我姑娘心宽一点，就不计较了。没内涵的东西记得多了，自己反而被误导，变成没水准了！所以，
我不想听，
不会听，
干吗听？
就不去听，
不要听你们的那些冷言冷语。
风凉话 go go go!梦娜加油加油加油！！！
你们越是不看好我，我越是努力做给你们看。一向来都知道，你们嫉妒我的才干，毕竟到现在为止，都还没有人破我的纪录，我一向都很优秀，你们才眼红呗~
人红是非多，我懂^^如果我不红，你们哪会七早八早就在‘妒忌’我呢？我不发威不代表我笨，我只是忍住，身为一个有内涵的人，是不会与你们动口的。天啊！真的觉得自己好坏，好像在说别人坏话。不知道的人还以为我捏造谎言扮可怜叻~我现在是说人是非者马？哈哈哈
你不知道的是，我就像根野草，你们越是想把我踩在脚底，我越是长得高~也许有天还会比你们还高，挡住你们的视线。那时真的是，哈哈~不好意思啦~光芒盖掉了你。
我要让你们知道，我爸爸妈妈生的女儿是最棒的!
风凉话你们爱说多少就说多少。说得越多，那只是证明你们越没内涵！
风凉话go go go!梦娜加油加油加油！你是最棒的！
真想给自己一个吻！有谁能代替我给自己一个吻呢？哈哈哈
大家加油！
我们都是幸福的！！！

我的一号爱人

2011-06-20T10:58:00.002+08:00

他从来都不是个伟人；他甚至比平凡的人还要更平凡。关于他的点点滴滴，我也只是从他口述中得知。他幼时家境贫穷，他很小就帮忙家里寻找生计；也因为家里供不起，他的学历并不高。虽然如此，他很努力工作，给我们他所能够给予的。

因此，我爱他。

他好像什么都没有；没有房、没有地也没有钱。但是，他从不曾让我们挨饿。只要我想吃的，想要的，他都会尽可能满足我。他常说：“女生胖一些比较好看。”有时，肚子饿了，懒惰病却发作，尤其是打工回来，身心疲惫时，就算厨房已经空荡荡，他依然有办法变魔术，把牛奶变出来。也许有一天，我们会穷得连牛奶也买不起，但是我相信，只要我饿了，就算把他身上的肉割下来他都在所不惜。

所以，我很爱他。

他是个十足的大男人，比牛还固执，只要是他认为对的，无论如何他都会争论到底。我也很执着，两头牛已吵架，战火比世界大战还要激烈，就像全世界都快摧毁了似的。但是，最后他都会先让步，说：“你赢你赢！”虽然心里还是非常不服气。他固执，我就比他更固执。因为我明白他遇见我就像冰遇到火——溶化了。他对其他人都无法忍让，理直气壮，唯独对我忍气吞声。

就这样，我更爱他了。

他很爱碎碎唸；从东唸到西，从早唸到晚。尤其是我乱花钱的隐犯了的时候，他更是从街市唸到回家，从吃饭唸到睡觉。除此之外，他很会挑，总是嫌东嫌西。每当我说我想送他礼物，他总会责备我奢侈。但是，固执如我，哪会理他的劝。很奇怪的是，他从来都不会嫌弃我送的任何礼物，而是很欣然、很高兴、很惊喜地一一接受。我很清楚，他其实也很想有时能有个人在特别的日子里送些礼物给他。人之常情嘛！任谁都是这么想的！只是，他不想我把辛苦赚来的钱都花掉，所以才选择口是心非。

因此，我非常地爱他。

我不喜欢别人抽烟，他却偏偏饭后一根烟，屡劝不改。每次答应戒烟后又抽烟，所幸的是他没有越抽越凶，不然我铁定把他的香烟换成饼干！虽然他有一大堆的坏习惯，什么都没有，但是他很体贴。他晓得做家务的繁琐，所以他不认为家务是女人的责任而把它推向我。反之，他常常帮忙洗衣、收衣服、叠衣服……他从不因而觉得丢脸，还努力的劝说其他大男人做家务。在他的感染下，好多对家务有歧视的男人都开始了他们的家务之旅。

他的了解，让我不得不爱他。

我从来都没有对他说过我爱他；他也不曾对我说类似的话。不过，从他的言行、我的举止中，就能看出那无可取代的爱。除了满得快溢出来的爱，我不会忘记他常告诉我说：“做人要知足。”想对他说：“虽然你什么都没有、什么都不是；可是对我而言，你是一切。因为有你，所以我存在。”

也许在未来的日子里，我会离开，会到外头闯荡，拥有自己幸福的家。即使是这样，也没有人可以改变或代替他在我心里的位置，他永远都是我的一号爱人。因为有他，所以有我。

很感激他，我那最敬爱的爸爸。

也借此祝贺全天下的爸爸：“父亲节快乐！”

p/s:

这篇稿子在19。06。2011的诗华日报《文林风》刊登出来，很高兴能和大家分享^^我爸爸很疼我，就算我是家里最大的，就算我比其他弟妹麻烦~嘻嘻嘻……

Gordon Gathering 09.06.2011

2011-06-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

It was a gathering with some of my classmates and next door classmates at Life Cafe, Jalan Song. Well, I did not know why it was called "Gordon Gathering", but most probably because Gordon was the one who organised the gathering.hahaha. Gordon was our monitor from form1 to form5.
I just simply dressed up myself for the gathering after my work at 10pm! Actually I missed the gathering at Hartz Chicken because I have to work, so 2 of my friends said they are going to meet me later for another cup of tea. well, it turned out with all of those who went to the gathering to Hartz Chicken came to Life Cafe as well. Adumak~ so many friends over there, was quite shocked at that moment.hahaha. there were friends that I had not meet for a long time, like Naomo, Shirlene, Chai Yun, Jimmy and Dickson.
well, around 16 of us, sitting together at the combined tables, chit chatting along and playing game. My gosh!

My friends thought I have not had my dinner yet.well, I never missed the nice food.hahaha. so I ordered a 'chuan cai' mee. a bit spicy but if compared to this spicy noodle, mine is really not a big deal!

this is the special 'ma la' mee where they added 2 plates of additional 'ma la' sauce and extra noodles. and they are going to play a game, well, i considered it a game rather than a trick,hahaha. we play 'scissors, stone and cloth' and those who lose had to eat the noodles!hahaha. Because our group was too big so we divided ourselves into 3 small groups.

I was so unfortunate that I was actually winning all the time so I did not have to eat the noodles, but once I said it out "I always win so I do not have to eat", AHA! It came and I lose! hahaha.

this is a shoot with Li Xian, one of my best friends.

then, we were too bored. And did not know why, the guys suddenly talked about taking photos with hand gesturing numbers. then, here came us to take photos with numbers!

Then they asked us compete see who will win. Hmm, well, later on, facebook vote shown that guy's photo won out! and most of them think that is because of the 5th person, Jimmy's flying kiss as the main key to win.

well, girls' photo is not bad as well.hahaha

A shoot of my dear friends. Shirlene has never changed, she likes to do expression like this.(the one from right)

then, before we went off, we had a group photo. these are all my good friends and I enjoyed so much with them. The cafe was fulled of our laughter and we did not care whether other customers were annoyed or not.

It was a lovely night.

thanks.

Good luck and gambate to all of them!

all the best!

Jia You!

Kevin & Jess's Wedding! 05.06.2011

2011-06-12T02:10:00.002+08:00

5.6.2011, Sunday was my cousin, Kevin's wedding. wow, it has been a week and I just posted it here. Well, I was busy (most of the time and I do not know why)hahaha. It was really a memorable wedding as a lot of cousins came back from other places to attend his wedding. And the wedding ceremony hold somehere near Hui Sing( I forgot the name of the place, I only know it is a church association). That night my sister and I were helping at reception place, and the crowd was so huge that we had to keep smiling and ask people to sign. hahaha, but the experience was good.

Before the ceremony, we had our gathering first in the morning at his house. not much thing to do, just chit chatting and had a feast.hehehe. Not bad. Of course, not forgotten to take some pictures, especially with the main character, the bride!!!

this is one of the picture we took with the bride, she is pretty, isn't it?

Well, main characters were meant to be busy. Therefore we had not much time to spend with her. So, we just shot ourselves,as all of us would like to, as the camera and iphone were on our hands.hahaha. Why should we lose the opportunity?hahaha.so, we had the non stop shooting session within ourselves.

this is a photo of my family girls: from the left is my beloved mum, 1st sis and 2nd sis.well, all of us do not look alike. hehehe

a closer view of my female siblings: 1st sis, me, 2nd sis.

"mouth du du". hahaha then i just followed, don't really like to act cute though,hahaha

and then, is my big family female photo! the middle lady with red dress is my cousin, she is pretty and knowledgeable. and she is 30 but can you see any aging mark on her face?hahaha she is just like us,YOUNG! and nobody ever says she is not pretty! hahaha

later on, we were so boring and AHA, we saw something!

it was the bride's flower! hehehe.

1,2,3... there were 16 altogether.hahaha, we took this picture on puppose, can you see that? not being shot but asked for shoot.hehehe. so HIPPOCRATES!hahaha

Around 12 something, after the lunch, we went home. We left only some time to prepare ourselves for the ceremony that night, and what made us all mad was that, the current suddenly being cut off! URGH! You know how suffering was that? Luckily I had finished making-up, but those who haven't were really %$@#*... hahaha. After that we went to saloon to set our hair. As all of us went to the same saloon, so the saloon was full of our family members. The scene was a bit funny, it was like our home and we walked here and there and took picture,hahaha.

and this is me, after setting my hair.

quite ok la but my fringe was like, 'HuH? sengek ki~'

and I like this pic because I am sweet in this pic, lalala. taken with my 2nd sis. hehehe

We were actually late for the ceremony as we had to help at the reception place. Fortunately there were not many guests yet when we arrived. so we quickly prepared ourselves and then, crowd started to come in.

Around 7pm, we went into, by following the brides. But I do not have the pictures of that moment, it must be funny.

As we had our meals, we still did not forgot to shoot ourselves some pictures. hehehe. We were holding the wine glass and my sis was drinking wine, as I am allergy to alcohol so I used cola to cover up! hahaha.

then, in the middle of the feast, we were actually somewhat full already. Then we kept asking people for group photo. This was a photo of girls AGAIN.hahaha well, what to do, my family is full of pretties.hehehe.

AGAIN! Group photo of Pretties!wakakaka. well, the prettiest was the bride la~ hahaha. I like her hair decoration so much! hahaha. this photo was taken after the feast, where most of the guests went back already. Only family members left for photograph sessions. hehehe.

Actually I had taken some of my own family pictures but they were in another camera, so, I CAN'T upload it here! hahaha. Next time perhaps? hehehe.

well, It was tiring, but it was nice as all of us gathered together and chit-chatting. But I bet the brides must be veerrryyyy tired lu! hehehe.

well, who will be the next one who marry? Certainly would not be me! Marriage is not in my dictionary yet.hahaha.
so,
Good luck and Gambate!
Have a nice day!

单身贵族

2011-06-01T00:13:00.001+08:00

其实爱情这个词对我来说并不陌生。周遭的人一而再，再而三的问我、提醒我它的存在，只是，缘分不到，谁也不能改变什么。

有时候，会觉得很孤单/很寂寞，为什么每个人都有个伴但我就是没有。很好笑的想法，真的觉得自己很傻。可是这只是很短暂性的“孤寂”。寂寞寂寞就好，真的。没有人会一辈子都感到孤单。

现在，对我而言，爱情的力量已经削弱了，有没有爱情，都无所谓。我不再执着，不再在乎其他人的看法。二十岁没有男朋友并不可耻，那只是证明我很认真的对待爱情。而且啊，一个人自由自在，自己赚自己花，自己要去哪里就到哪里，不需要对任何人许下诺言，更不需要担心有谁可以容易的影响自己的生活和情绪及担心自己面孔身材不够好而节食化妆>做自己最好！哈哈哈

所以啊，还是赚多点钱，当个单身贵族吧！朝我的好多好多梦想大大步的跨上去，任谁也不能有机会当我的绊脚石。我可是二十一世纪的强女生叻～ ^^

单身的我，并不会觉得没有爱情的滋润而感到不漂亮；相反的，我觉得自己越来越美了，而且随着年龄的增长，自己越来越成熟，也越来越有魅力了。独立如我，并不想因为有了伴而变得小鸟依人（因为我知道，如果有了依靠，自己肯定无法独立>.<)哈哈哈。我要吃好多好多想吃的，不需要顾虑别人的看法；吃了好多好多好吃的食物以后，我还要能维持自己的身段（虽然现在也没有苗条到哪里去，但至少不要“恶化”就好了。啦啦啦）

我要性感，虽然它离我还是有段距离啦～

目标：明年一定要sexy！哈哈哈。腰围小两吋就够了！

其实单身有什么可怕的呢？单身不就是自己一个人吃饭/逛街/看戏听歌/看书……嘛～自己做自己的事情，只专注在自己的事情上，不需要鸡婆别人的事，不用为别人的事而烦恼。还很不错的啦～哈哈哈

目标：1.我要在5年内转到RM100,000,然后买间至少5房的房子给我家人！

2. 我要买Camry给我爸爸驾！然后我给他载！嘻嘻嘻

3. 我要在五年内和家人合伙开餐厅，名字叫饭桶、水桶、面桶！

4.我要用我赚到的钱的一部分捐给人，或设立一个机构帮助有需要的人！

5.我要在两年内（2013年第一个学期）完成我的Degree课程！然后再半工读修我的master！

总之，我要赚好多好多的钱，最少要10万块！这些事情，需要很多的精力来完成，我没多余的时间给家人以外的人，除非那是个能体谅我的男生，不然看见我这副德行，三天肯定走人！哈哈哈。更甚的是，只有在单身的时候，我才能专心的读书赚钱，如果有个人半路杀出来，我肯定会分心撞车，哪里还会有机会成功达到我的目标呢？哈哈哈

所以啊，我还是享受单身的生活吧！寂寞的时候，找朋友聊天，不然看书写作也可以消磨时间，还可以练练文笔赚赚钱，何乐而不为呢？哈哈哈

单身，并不茫然。

单身，夜才更美丽.

单身，生活可以更精彩^^

加油吧！单身的朋友们！

一定要幸福噢！

New Phone!!!

2011-05-22T15:48:00.000+08:00

I don't know whether I should be happy or sad. Happy because I have a new phone; and sad because I will be half bankrupt. Hahaha. what to do? My T707 condemned and I have to get a phone to use, wakakaka, I am busy bo~ hahaha. By the way, it took me some times to get some info on what new phone I am going to buy. Guess which SE I chosen? hehehe

after one night searching, (thanks to my cousin), I got myself some feeling on J10i2. hehehe. The price is quite cheap, and the functions are considered good as well, has wi-fi, 5mega pixes camera and some other ordinary functions. lalala. suits me, as I don't like touch and complicated phone.hahaha. so, on 18th May 2011, Tuesday, I got the phone where I bought it from a friend at Tabuan Laru. It costs me RM410 plus a 4GB memory card. hehehe

teng teng teng teng! this is the one!

actually I am not that favored on the shape of this model, but what to do, nowadays SE always have shapes.hahaha. Anyway it is quite light, not heavy at all.

hehehe. So happy I can get a new phone so don't want to care with the consequences that come along later. lalala. anyway, just post this as a memo so that I remember when I bought my phone.

have a nice day!

gambate!

理想中的那个人（fb转载）

2011-05-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

可不可以有一个人。可以看穿我的逞强。可以保护我的脆弱。

不要在我说「没事啦，你去吧」的时候就真的会放心的放开我的手然后留我一个人。

不要在我笑笑的不说话的时候就真的会以为我心里没有觉得疼痛和难过。

不要在我若无其事的忙碌着手头的事的时候就真的会以为我什么影响都没有受到。

我希望他会在我的眼泪掉下以前就用大大的手掌捂住我的眼睛。

然后轻声说我的眼睛只有微笑的时候才是最好看。

我希望他会在我面无表情的时候轻轻的用力的搂紧我。

然后说你在我的面前永远都不需要伪装坚强。

我希望他会在我受到委屈的时候把我的脑袋按在他的肩膀上。

然后抚着我的头发说没关系就算所有的人都不相信你你都还有我。

咱要嫁的那个人不一定要是高高瘦瘦的但是一定要干干净净

咱要嫁的那个人不一定要会甜言蜜语但是一定要有好的脾气

咱要嫁的那个人不一定要帅气又多金但是一定要有聪明的头脑和上进心

咱要嫁的那个人一定会从我们牵手那刻起对我说从今天起我们有福同享有难我当

咱要嫁的那个人一定要霸道些他会对我说我认定你了就赖你了你就是我一个人的我不许别人走近你

咱要嫁的那个人一定会支持我减肥却依然带我去超市给我买很多好吃的然后说吃吧不管你多胖我都要你

咱要嫁的那个人一定会在过马路的时候牵着我的手对我说要跟我走

咱要嫁的那个人一定会明白老婆是用来疼的而且会吹着快乐的口哨和我一起做家务

咱要嫁的那个人一定会在我生气的时候耐心的哄着然后逗我说你生气的样子好丑

咱要嫁的那个人一定会在我哭的时候为我擦眼泪然后告诉我乖不哭有我在呢

咱要嫁的那个人一定会在我累的时候伸出手臂很心疼的说抱抱

咱要嫁的那个人一定会在睡觉前跟我说你要早点睡觉晚安

咱要嫁的那个人一定会把我带回家对他妈说看这是我给你找的儿媳妇然后对我说这是咱妈

咱要嫁的那个人一定会在某一个阳光明媚的日子顶着一片湛蓝的天笑着对我说我们该有个家了

这就是我要的幸福.... :)

好简单，却好不真实……

WHO CARE?

2011-05-08T23:45:00.002+08:00

今天母亲节，可是我做工所以没庆祝，不过妹妹的男朋友飞了个蛋糕过来。嘻嘻嘻。刚才在做工那里吃了蛋糕，现在又吃！哦~我感到好幸福哦！！！哈哈哈。不过这不是重点啦~反正我和妹妹们会在星期二帮妈妈补庆母亲节，所以……
WHO CARE？哈哈哈。
但是阿，这还不是我写这个的重点。哈哈哈。我想要说的是，我好开心哦!y因为我的文章又在诗华日报刊登了！而且是唯一有abstract的那篇!其实等很久了，一直寄去，虽然一直被刊登出来，但都不是那篇有abstract的，所以还不是很满足（哈哈哈，你可以说我人心不足蛇吞象,i don care^^)。所以这一次，对我来说可是很珍贵的！哈哈哈。因为阿，对我而言，这是一种肯定，对我写作能力的一种肯定。不过阿，还是有小小的失望，因为那篇文章是我form2的时候写的！！！啊~~~那就证明我的写作功力退步了~哈哈哈。不过没关系，我还是很棒的！嘻嘻嘻.好像我有点过分的high，哈哈哈。
不过WHO CARE？我高兴就好啦~
昨天正式放假了，一个月。好爽！但是要做工！！！哈哈哈。我找到工了，不是很高级的，但我做的很开心，因为又有新朋友！啦啦啦~所以还蛮幸福的，到哪里都能交朋友。哈哈哈。而且还可以免费学广东话，不错哦！看我那么好学！哈哈哈。（我发现自己好似不要脸掉去哦……WHO CARE？我开心嘛~）只是有点累啦~每天都要工作，虽然时间不是很长啦~但是我还是想休息休息嘛！不过阿，我会把这些都当作是经验，别人都不会有的经验。哈哈哈。只要坚持，我相信自己一定能做到的！yeah！哈哈哈。别人要怎么说是他们的事，他们又不是我，哪里会知道我的想法？燕雀安知鸿鹄之志哉！哇~名句精华都派上用场了，明白我有多认真了吗？！哈哈哈
最近说要减肥，却越减越肥，haiz~因为一直吃！哈哈哈。而且我很会吃。那天去吃宵夜吓了我的同事一下下~哈哈哈。yer~不是我的错。我也不懂为什么能吃这么多。
who care？能吃是福！爸爸说的。哈哈哈
最近好像很忙，却又不很忙。怎么说呢？我也不懂。做的事情不多，但时间就是不够。啦啦啦。挤不出来~ -.-!!! 感觉好累哦~连睡觉都睡不好。哈哈哈。yer。但那不是压力，很肯定的！
就先这样吧！
亲爱的宇宙，请你保佑我家人朋友世界所有人平安；也请亲爱的宇宙，让我考个好成绩！哈哈哈。
这个MUST CARE！哈哈哈
加油！！！

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