Miya

RAWR LUNCH!

2013-06-26T02:32:00.000-07:00

I had a super long lunch today! I don't know why but I have felt really, really tired today I think it's the weather. Half the day done and the other half will be done soon! Tomorrow I shall have lunch with the very best and some hopfully new friends. Thursday off really feels good after that I wont have a day off until 3/7 Learn work live die? Time just flies by looking at my schedual half is already done... Where did the time go? I have not really been doing much else Work Eat Work Eat Play Some RO Workout Shower Sleep repeat WEWEPWS I shall name that a new language. I wish the sun would come back too.. Rain sucks here especially when working.. That's Swedish summer for yah =/ Oh well time to get back to work Baai people!

Karma?

2013-06-14T04:45:00.001-07:00

Going to be a short input today about karma. Last week around this time things were not going to well and now everything is perfect XD! I got my job fixed, sexiest guy around and everything is finished with social service :D What more could a girl ask for? Now I'm gonna eat my awesome spare ribs and then get some sleep have a great weekend everyone ;3!

YAWN

2013-06-13T15:16:00.001-07:00

Gawd I'm so tired ;-;. It's been some weird and wonderfull couple of days xD At the moment I could pretty much be the queen of the world that's how good I have been feeling the past two days. There has been someone there who I thought I had lost forver ;x, and I have pretty much been on clouds since then! Well my sleeping schedual is not really good when I go to bed at 4 pm and wake up at 11pm! But other than that everything is perfect, and I'm really starting to see a light in the tunnel you know? Looking back at the last few days of stress and shit I actually feel abit mad.. Mad at myself for not taking care of it straight away

Tomorrow I got a job interview for a job that I have been actually searching for, since erm 2 years back? As for now it's just a summer job.. But if things go great it's going to be one of those hour / we call when we need you jobs! BUT ALL IS BETTER THAN NOTHING! After that we will see where the life brings us I got no plans to rush anything, baby steps! other than that I shall just Enjoy my RO, taking care of myself and be around the people I love! > Is the cutest bird on earth by the way my wonderfull Tuki <3

Take care people and thanks for always being here <3

Starting over

2013-06-12T00:52:00.001-07:00

Over a year has gone by.. Over a year with hospitals guys family fights and god knows what.. I realised I had missed blogging when I saw my childhood friend post her blog, I always use to blog as my own way of just getting everything out. For people who do not know this my past 2 years have been a bit of a mountain which never seemd to end.
And the past few mohts have been extra hard a few weeks ago more like a few months now, my life went pretty much straight to hell and it got to the point where I couldnt eat or sleep for days. Thank god that my aunt was there to lift the 200 pound rock of my chest, and by that my life moved on.

The past 2 weeks the stress has been creeping up on me again, and instead of dealing with it I have been trying to out run it.. Bad move Mia bad move. As I was standing on a cliff on my mountain without end (apperently there was a end after all ey) something happend something I still dont understand and my safety net was gone, and I started falling. The next few days that were going to follow have been the worst in.. I don't even know how long, today I'm on my 3rd day without much eating nor sleeping I got 2 hours today and it feels really shitty, atleast last night I got 5 hours which was good since social service was coming today.

And I have realised that if it's something that really hurts my soul it's when people say 'You are so strong I don't understand how you do it' It makes me feel like a victim which I guess I WAS but I'm not so people please..And about the other stuff that has been going on? I guess it's karma I must have done something really shitty and there for hit bottom. It doesnt really bother me anymore though because as I woke up from my 2 hours of sleep I searched for someone to talk to, just have a normal conversation..

Let's just say not many people are awake at 6am for some reason. As I was looking who was online on Skype I ended up getting comfort from an unexpected place.. I got comfort from Minh ( Yes that is his name) And he was trying to figure out different foods I could try eating and just being a darling, it didnt take many minutes before I broke down completely (not that he would know that over Skype) and after a few sobbfull moments I felt good.. In fact at peace I fell asleep for around 10 min and after that I havnt been able to sleep.

I hope I will be able to pass out later today for a few hours so my body doesnt feel so tired. Other than that I have realized the people I once use to trust I have now grown to hate, and the people I had lost all hope in I trust now. Life is funny that way isnt it. I think the worst part about all of this is that I have lost the trust for all of my old friends..

To be honest I feel that I have out grown them that doesnt feel good either, it's kinda lonely. And after writing all this I feel somewhat better, maybe this is what I need. Getting it out there instead of keeping it in. I guess I'm still sad that I'm left with only a hand off of people to trust and no one I can fully share everything with.. Not yet anyway.. Thank you Minh for being here always even if you are abit weird, you gave something no one else could, I love you.

Es war nicht so gemeint, kannst du mir vergeben? Ich werde es nie mehr tun!

Sleep for the weak?

2012-02-19T08:01:00.003-08:00

Yesterday was one of the better day's of my life and one of the most nervous nights >< I don't see how I shall be able to sleep for the next two weeks. Last night we booked everything 2 Weeks in Alvesta shall be awesome close to everything and everyone. Before I booked the tickets we took turn in taking naps some more then others but does it matter when someone is so sweet and gentle soft and kind. Today I'm gonna start making a packing list eg sunglasses 2489 battery's for my mp3 charger for the phone etc. Worst thing about being this nervous is the lack of sleep.. I always have trouble doing things like this..
I remember when I were going to Japan I slept for 1-2 hours that night had a cold shower in the morning and then slept about 30 min on that 14 hours flight hopfully I will sleep alot on the train. During my 4389 hour shower today, as I let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday I started thinking about joy happiness something I have been feel alot of the past days I supose I got you to thank for being able to sleep at all during the night <3

Speaking of speaking Skype is freaking retarded I remember being able to talk to L for 40-50 hours... Now?
15 hours then we need to recall >.< And now it's even in the same country.. Retarded skype I do have to say it has been nice having the whole weekend to just us though and I know we will have many more of these days to come which is kinda funny really as it makes me appreciate the time we have alone more and more and the funny part being -> Ive had more alone time with you in one week than Ive had with most people in months.. Last night it started coming to me which friends I've lost because of this and it hurts me really as the person whom I belived would ALWAYS have my back the way I had his..

Is the one who has hurt me the most and taken the biggest step away from me.. I had always been honest to him always told him what I knew in order for him not to get hurt.. In return he didn't trust me but it's alright I forgave him.. Now when it's me who needed him, what I get is lies and bullshit I only got one thing to say to that Tack Du.

I know damn well how you think but there is one thing I should make clear, you choose your friends and you choose who you hang out with.
From being so close to where we are
today when its obvious you're lying to my face it's just.. you can't be serious but it's alright I will leave you alone and when truth comes out once again stick with your choice and don't try coming back to me because this time you have lost me forever it's one thing to not beliving in me when saying something about a loved one but for you to lie straight to my face like you did.. Fuck it there are more fish in the sea and I will not stand for it so there you have it.. Good bye my old friend and I hope you're happy with your choice I know I am as he makes me happier then I've been in a long time I hope you can say the same baai ;3

Sleepy ~

2012-02-18T12:12:00.000-08:00

It has been a very calm and peacefull start of the weekend with alot of planing going all around. M has gone home for the weekend so I got F all to myself *_* haha last night I got my fav pillow back It well nvm. Pj was drunk pretty much wasted and he got to talk to F on skype lol first thing that came up DANISH people! It made me remember my first ever conversation with F and how I spent the next hour with just saying how sorry I was, and that I didn't mean what I've said, you forgave me and now look where we are? Last night we talked until we both fell asleep on skype.

I had some wicked mean dreams not against him but someone else I thought id just had to share them as if it would ever come down to anything similar and choose the same. We also woke up just minutes apart, downloaded some movies we were gonna watch together and just as we were going to start I fell asleep ._. I awoke about an hour later and then it took like 10 min and F was asleep xD He is still sleeping KAWAIIIIIIII He is really cute when sleeping atleast from what ive heard ;3 Also spoke to Yugi today his little brother is like cutest thing ever :3 I did the dishes while cutie was asleep and now I belive I shall watch a movie before he wakes up and then with my cutie being awake we have the whole saturday night to watch movies, play games, eat some sweets and just have an awesome night <3

GOOD LUCK!

2012-02-16T09:36:00.000-08:00

Valentine day 2?

2012-02-15T06:16:00.004-08:00

I don't really need a second valentine's day. Happy wappy Valentine day 2 things that didn't show last night will come today and tomorrow starting of with this <3 I'm not sure if it was just lucky or really I remember! because a few years back I got strawberry chocolate hearts now its nougat MUCH better Last night I got all I could ask for and more..M calling to wake me up, a check with some cash, flowers and mi teddy bear from my favorite guys.. Watched a funny movie with them.. Fell asleep during the movie haha Mi sorry mi dun mean to. We did some Draw my thing Booya and other games before morning I got something that made Valentine perfect.. A small sign saying very well good luck I wont stalk you, don't worry be happy I don't care. And I really hope that it will be like that... So thatsomething wont come back later and be like RAWR.

I can't wait until march.. May.. June all of them will be sooooo amazing and to my special little friend. When you come here you don't ever have to sleep in a hotel my door is always open for you <3 I had some wicked dreams last night I don't remember them very well as they were so messed up I know you 2 were in it though as first thing I could think of when waking up was your voice xD WELLLLL and M since he is my personal alarm clock no better way to wake up I'm still looking for way's to IP block some people who shouldn't be here but blogger is gay. Today someone said something that I value.. Alot.. "If I could turn back time. If I could find a way, I'd remove those people that hurt you and I'd stay"

This is when the days feel the longest I want to be in school but can't you don't want to be there but haz to >: And at the end we always end up at the same place don't we <3 But I do understand now he does have a reason to be mad does he not.. I mean longest I ever stay'd up with him him was I dunno 1-2 am? 3 at tops and with you we stay up to 6 every night and sometimes 8 I don't want to sleep with you two around I don't wanna miss a thing and I like every single second of it. All I can wish and hope for now is that we can live in peace without Drama, bullshit, liars and haters. Just be happy for a while which I am.. Every single second around the two of you...

Need to put in a random input here at the bottom because of two things, there is one thing I have noticed he has never had anyone he has never been you know that happy.. Nor had you up until a couple of months ago.. Is that why you didn't want him to be happy because for the fact that he can beat you be better then you in YET another thing? no guess what fuck you and look up what friend means study it and learn it because the way you're treating them I don't understand how you could even have anyone left.. If I however felt like ranting you out to the world I could make the list long but all I want is what I told you the first time.. Stay away from me from my life and things that makes me happy.. Take care of your own please.. And to T I know you say he is your friend and you care about him and how something will go bad if I hurt him.. I can promise you here so everyone can see it if I ever do hurt him feel free to seek me up and kill me slow and painfully because if I hurt something that means that much to me then I deserv nothing less either..Thats all people now I'm gonna nap before my guys gets home baai <3

Perfect valentine Perfect start perfect ending

2012-02-14T06:00:00.001-08:00

Today as I woken up Markus nice start on the day. Took me about 30 minutes to get out of bed and check the mail And Mia found a check for yay 60 bucks haha went to the store bought stuff dinner today got home What happend on the way to the store is between me and him Jackal why don't you just stay the fuck away? The only plans I had for today was to watch the Pink panther with my favorite guys then

Boom random door bell and Mia got the most wonderfull thing ever.. I'm use to getingt flowers.. I'm use to getting teddy bears.. I'm use to getting candy.. But to get flowers and my teddy bear from my stalkers is something new and they smell so wonderfull * walks on clouds* Thanks guys I love you and I can't wait until next month it's gonna be amazing <3
Update tonight after the movie and maybe some games ;)

When 24 hours just isn't enough

2012-02-13T06:19:00.000-08:00

I wish the day were twice as long atleast the night spending time with you guys, well there is no time to that would ever be enough. As we get closer for every hour that passes ( atleast how I feel) the hours also becomes shorter.. I was looking at the clock last night 1am we playd some games wth it's 5am? Last night Agda got a house friends some broken bones here and there and some teeth's were missing.. It has been what seem like a very long time since I had this much fun.. almost laughing to death you guys are so freaking weird ( in a good way) it's amazing haha. I really don't know what else to write some people have suggested I should change blog but I know that would NOT help as if they wanted to they could find it. planning some trips now.. one is set for march, april, may and june fully booked it's gonna be good to be away for a while though I'm gonna go take a power nap only slept 6 hours last night x.X and then play with mi friends I will update this one tonight when we have some more pictures. Baai~

Update~

It's now valentine and it's really in the air

Soft kiss and wine
What a pretty friend of mine
We're finally intertwined
Nervous and shy for the moment we will come alive
Tonight
Today/night is going to be an early night my boys are having school in the morning and erm well it's been a long and i don't know just feel weak kind of day some sleep wont be so bad and even less if dreaming we also made kladdkaaaaaka ;D they made one milk and it still turned out better then mine -.- crapcake. Tomorrow we are going to to watch the Pink Panther
oh well that's all for tonight baai stalkers <3

Calling once, twice, OUT!

2012-02-10T11:50:00.000-08:00

Today my phone has been on high wire lol. I remodeled the living room today did the dishes and Nouka is doing the laundery. One very wanted call came today from my honeybum so tonight we will be a full house. Friday night crisps and Wii with my love things couldn't be better but they are also have some other awesome people aswell wont say any names though ;3 Jesus christ last night was only word i could think of was gikochinai I had a great time though I tried to stay up until he got back and feeling better 5;30 was the last time I looked at the clock. I had some weird dream about my Valentine and then mom woke me up by ringing the door bell after like 6 hours I was just like
WHATTTTTT dooo you waaaaaaaaaaaant lemme sleeeep D: Woke up and then my boys left for school wait one left one was apperently to hung over guess <3 after my room were done we felt like fooling around

Almost killed my cat today aswell moving around.. The heavy bed fell on him so now he is limp.. poor kitty cat Anyhow I shall talk to my fellows as long as I can before my love gets here so take care stalkers ;3 <3

I could not have asked for more..

2012-02-09T03:17:00.000-08:00

Today it's time.. We will see if I even return, or not.. It's alright because going into the hospital I could not have been any happier.. not only is hägga going in with me.. Even if he really can't go in but he is still there.. Filip and Markus trying to keep me calm all the time last night and now it's complete.. Being around Filip has made me miss a certain someone.. A person who was my closest friend at a point a person who even being polish and steal my blueberries ( yup you heard me >:3) I always saw as this guy could really be something.

Last night I had a send him a picture as we have a mutal friend lol intern joke really This is how the look in his backyard I couldn't stop laughing they are sooo fat lol.. It's now time to get dressed and ready for the X-ray I will just update this input insted of sending in a new one IF I survives, and if not I can die happy atleast. Knowing I got so many wonderfull friends support and knowing Wizzy misses and thinks about me.. Nothing could make me happier

Not really feel like writing it was an hour from hell let's leave it that Atleast my night turned out awesome thanks to these guys <3

Good night all my friends ;3

Tonight I cried

2012-02-07T17:15:00.000-08:00

I won't be a long input today I'm tired sad and have a horrible migrain after watching this amazing series with Oliver all day I really thought it would end diffrently I really wish it did I really can't stop crying.. seeing someone like that just thinking about life, thinking about people you care about. And even more remembering those who are there for you in wet and dry. Looking back over my shoulder I can say how stupid I have been and to think that my mother was right for once. It was just never meant to be. Thinking about old friends seeing how few of them I've kept and how many of them that has been full of crap. One day I shall find someone like him even though if he is only a actor not until I find someone.. Someone who stay's when everything is bad.. When you need someone the most, and no matter what happens even if you fight you will never leave. Laugh together.. Cry together.. Face the pain and road blocks together it might take me sometime but rest asure, one day I will find him and then I can finally be happy..
Good night my friends and see you all tomorrow ( Special thanks to Vancy for talking to me at 3am last night) And thanks Yugi for making me realize something very important that I had forgotten I wish you all the best <3

Laugh or cry?

2012-02-06T16:46:00.000-08:00

Juuuuuust kidding haha Let me tell you a story about girl meets boy. They meet at a party 2 weeks before newyear girl likes boy but, boy has a girlfriend a gf that choose to make out with girls insted of him. It's alright he really likes her. At new year girl meets boy again this time without his girlfriend she choose to be with others they havn't talked for a week he says, he also tells the girl he has mentally broken up aswell. Girl becomes happy not because his relationship has faild but because maybe she can make him happy?

They walk home in the cold holding hands in the end she gives him a good bye kiss, and adds I feel bad about it.. You're still together with her on paper even if you're not in your head.. 3 days later boy breaks up with his girlfriend, girl becomes happy. few days after this girl and boy go to a lan together they share beds cuddle it seem like they are happy? A few days after this boy is sick in a cold, girl stays she wouldnt leave someone just because they have a cold. She is by the computer a mutal friend logs in a to a chat program she opens it to say hi, but it is not her acount.. she see's what they have been talking about.
Boy; "I don't know what to do I can't stop thinking about her, it was one thing at the Lan when I could play but I can't now what should I do?" He still has feelings for his ex, girl becomes mad.. Why was he playing with her? They worked it out and became close again it doesnt take more then a few days before they are huging and kissing again on a friends couch. When suddenly he just gets up and walks out... Girl gets worried and check what's wrong.. Boy has been texting with his ex.. She seem like she want's him back acting all interested.. it's all a lie.. She want's to be friends needs to think.. Girl is once again there for boy telling him the truth she is just toying... Boy agree's, and they don't talk any more about it.. Once again a few days passes. Another text comes.. boy gets sad he doesn't want to hurt the girl.. Girl makes him choose Go back to his ex or stay with her.. The whole sad thing ends up with boy removing girl from phone list saying " You have now removed the only way I could talk to her ( with a smile on his face)". Girl finally thinks they can be happy now they can start something.. this time almost a week passes before he tell's the girl his ex has been texting.. Not only has he been hiding it by removing the text, how does girl know? because she uses his phone to text people she knows the contacts by heart by now.. This is not the only "female messages" that's been deleted.. Another ex's aswell is gone even though girl knows they texted last night.. This is where things get funny. Girl goes home day after boy types " I have been thinking alot" Girl say's " Well tell me what you have come up with when you're done thinking" Boy; "It's not working we tried." All he ever did was promise he would try indeed he did, but this guy doesn't know how to treat ladies in the first place. Not only from this story not only from the " You're not the first" " I'm use to it" "All the girls have liked it" But for the way boy ended it. First of all saying the girl got attitude she brought this on herself.. He likes her BUT she was the one who wanted to try and make this work. He just want's people to be happy ( pretty much saying he never wanted it he did it for her) and then TOP OF THE CREAM Girl should not give guy crap for something that was a bad idéa from day 1 ..Now tell me stalkers friends family after reading this whole story is it so wrong of the girl to not feel sorry for this guy anymore and move on? Also thanks for all the "Can you be friends with your ex" I do agree with Johan's input. If they both felt as if they were going on diffrent roads slowly and talked about it then yes they can be friends but not if its not like that hope you get my point Miss u Shiro Tora~

Xmas middle days and soon a new year

2011-12-28T15:59:00.000-08:00

I supose we shall start with xmas eve no? After mom came over for the so called xmas lunch ( she stayd for tops 15 min) I had a nap, brother went down town with his friends. After an hour Hägga came to pick me up and we went to his grandparents. We watched the xmas show and then we sat down for an awesome dinner, sooo much food x.X I know what they will be eating the coming days xD. Dinner done and time for gifts I got some from Santa and a awesome perfume from Hägga nomnomnom <3

When all gifts were given we playd genius, atleast I didn't finish last ;3 it started to go very late so Hägga drove me home, he had promised to stop by an I supose these days old friend of him ( not mine anymore ) After that he came back here and we watched a movie before the bed started calling

Days after Xmas

Day after xmas the boys went out and i choose to stay at home I felt like it was more a movie day then to out to the bar day. Edlund came by and we watched Jägarna 2 awesome movie by the way STRONGLY recommended. Intense and mind fucking right until the end its over 2 hours long but so awesome

That night we also had the so called Dagmar storm cred to Norway for the awesome name... At 4am the storm was at its worst tree tops coming off tree on top of houses and our roof starting to come off <3 it was a lovely night really we were recommended not to go out and this was the night the guys choose to go out lol

26/12~

Just another movie night~ Olle and Hägga came by to watch I belive we we were going to watch Real steal but the qual was so crappy so we ended up watching Source code insted.

such a weird yet awesome movie, you really get into it and go like WTF do this do that nothing works just great ending was a bit of a mind fuck too.

27/12~

Shopping day!

New year is crawling closer step by step, and this year we have all choosen not to become totally wasted so we are 3 people sharing this :) Shouldn't get us wasted but pretty much just in the right mood, dont you think?

And oh yes this was also the day Joa stopped talking to me 'Again' why? Because I got pissed off telling him something I care about and in return I get a 'Cool story'. This isn't fucking kindergarten now is it? Or as my cutie friend from Nihon said.

28/12~

Today was a slooooow day Olle was working and I REALLY did not want to get out of bed, but after mom called for the 666 time I guess it was time. Took about an hour or 2 then Hägga came by too They playd some Xbox and I playd some sc2 and BTD5 Xbox has never really been my thing so..

After some hours of playing games Hägga went home something about dad and car Idunno anyway he and Olle had a funny snowball fight and NOTE to myself Olle almost made me trip stepping on my slippers. and Hägga almost hit me with a snowball not cool T_T

Tomorrow its time to buy firecracker ( No I'm not buying) I'm just gonna watch the guys burn all thier money insted <3 and the guys were also gonna buy something yucky yuck down town poor guys >:

メリークリスマス

2011-12-23T12:51:00.000-08:00

Busy, busy prep here prep there Xmas is everywhere ;D Woke up 11 and started making a shopping list everything for christmas and also for a few weeks ahead, somehow when you go shopping you end up with TONS of stuff you never really planned to buy。大変でしょう・。・ After cleaning up the apartment we make nouka\s first little hous and my fingers are now totally burnd by.. Burnt suger? house turnd out alright I guess, since its our first attempt to ever build one I say we did a mighty fine job. Very snowy I know its Sweden in a nutshell. I got a suprise for mommi tomorrow I made her favorite christmas food ( its yucky as hell like fish potato and cream..)

After that I have just been lazy laying in bed watching movies I got so much to cook tomorrow but atleast all presents are fixed, AND I even took some time to write mom and dad a Merry xmas email only down side is I KNOW I will be getting a email back in pure Kanji and I will be fucked over..

Going up 9 so I belive I'm gonna get a early night tonight, start a movie and just enjoy the the xmas feeling <3

ensi kerralla annan sen vain olla

2011-12-22T15:32:00.000-08:00

How could such a weird day just I don't know end? I know something is wrong when you wake up at 12 pm sleepy has hell, staying up until 3-4 am talking to old friends just aint doing it for now.. Speaking of old friends my wooh has NOT been on for almost 2 weeks again starting to get worried. Anyhow like I said im back to talking to old friends I had just forgotten that the webpage comes with a side effect, stalkers and alot of them

After laundery we made all xmas gifts and everyone pitched in my cats are so pretty during xmas <3 Plans are final for xmas day even though I'm not sure how I will get there yet.. Olle came by when I was down in the basement getting some stuff for some gifts we started watching some movies and I passed out that's what I get for not getting enough sleep. Tomorrow is a big day alot of food to cook and prep for christmas and new year o.o. For some reason I got my newyear payment today, creepy as hell but yet awesome. It will help alot for newyear and I belive I shall buy something extra fancy for xmas tomorrow we will see. I belive this will be will be enough for tonight can't really think of anything more to write its weird really I'm happy yet sad you know the feeling when you have lost something? That's me right now but I guess it is for the best and Ensi karralla annan sen vain olla I belive it is for the best that way you wont end up hurt you know ^.^ Good night people

Why does it feel like something its not

2011-09-24T01:08:00.000-07:00

I had two weird dreams tonight. first one I owe to doctor Who, the thing they call a "home box" in the show I dreamd that was like a engagement ring names date all but also cute texts there for the homebox thingy. That dream was alright and the other one wasnt... S was in it, a weird waterfall = exotic place. When I woke up I thanked god it was just a dream but here comes the weird part If I met S again ever I would never do anything with him ever =/ I guess that's why I beat myself down for even dreaming about him.

These are the times I HATE that I remember my dreams in detail.. It will never happen so why dream about it... just pisses me off really there is only one guy I love and I'd rather end up in a coma before hurting him I supose that's why I feel bad.. Gotta go I have work in an hour take care people <3 I'm not even gonna translate this today I'm just feeling bad.
Time for work take care <3

And I love the way you react

2011-09-20T14:02:00.000-07:00

If you dont want me to be jealous, dont give me a reason to be it -.- The X-ray today was creepier then expected Olle was right it wasnt my big machine anymore T_T creepy chair and creepy tools feels good to get that over with. Did some shopping turnd in some papers and went home. I had just started making lunch as Little one came home. It became a early dinner insted of late lunch, we had deer or as my love would say venison. Talked to my honeybum peek of the day ;3
and then ofc play some pokemon. watched house and boom it was 10'clock. This day went by so fast almost time for bed just gonna watch Idol

Jag bara älskar hur du reagerar

och självklart spelade jag lite pokemon. Såg på House och hipp som happ var klockan 10. Vart tog den här dagen vägen? snart dags för sängen ska bara se på Idol, sedan blir det nog dags för sängen så trött

My Kadabra just used Future Sight, and it looks like we've got a future together

2011-09-19T15:08:00.000-07:00

It's been such a long time I dont even remember everything that has happend since last time. I havnt been using my camera either so I can't look on that and see what has been going on. I have started working but it's more like something to do until the surgery insted of doing this all day..

Other then that we have been playing alot of pokemon online and yes im hooked I can't stop T_T but something I did do was stop smoking good to get that out the window ;D

Interpret that as you want lmao

I have found a hoe among my friends guess if il speak to her ever again >.> If she want's to be a biach let her be such bad manners.

And Ive also left a message for S we always use to hang as kids and I miss her.. I just want to get back with some people from the past not all some.. And I have learnd how to handle ous fighting.. Leave you be for a day or two and we can go back to normal. Found some lost friends aswell planning to meet up with them someday ^_^.

My X-ray is tomorrow :( my Wooh is telling me its nothing to worry about but I can't help it, I know I had it before and I was just as scared back then.. freaking me out.. have to sleep can't T_T just gonna stay up and watch pokemon until i pass out lmao I'll try and update some more and I would be happy if i knew.. WHO ARE ALL MY FINNISH STALKERS I only know 2 people there one is my EX-friend and then a guy I found out today he is living there WHERE DID ALL THE REST OF YOU COME FROM..

Min Kadabra har just andvänt Framtids vision, och det ser ut som att vi har en framtid tillsammans

Det har gått så långt tid so jag minns inte ens allt som har hänt sedan sist. Jag har inte använt min kamera heller så jag kan inte kolla där vad som har hänt. Jag har börjat arbeta men fet är mer något att göra än arbete tills operationen istället för att göra detta hela dagen..

Förutom det så har det vi spelat mycket Pokemon online och ja jag är beroende jag kan inte sluta T_T men något jag har slutat med är att röka skönt att få det ute ur bilden ;D

Tolka det som du vill haha

Jag har hittat en slyna bland mina vänner gissa om jag kommer snacka med henne igen >.> Om hon vill vara på det sättet fint låt hon vara det, bara dålig stil. Och jag har också lämnat ett meddelande åt S vi brukade alltid hänga som barn och jag saknar henne.. Jag vill bara ha kontakten med lite folk från förr inte alla några.. Och jag har lärt mig hur att hantera våra bråk lämna dig ifred en dag eller två sen kan vi återgå till det normala. Hittade några förlorade vänner som jag planerar att mötas upp med någon dag ^_^.

Min röntgen är imorgon :( min sockersöta Wooh säger att det inte är något att oroa sig för men jag kan inte hjälpa det, jag vet att jag hade en förut och jag var like rädd då.. tar kål på mig.. Men på den tiden hade jag inte Wooh som jag har nu <3 Måste sova men jag kan inte T_T blir till att stanna uppe med pokemon tills jag däckar haha. Jag ska försöka bli bättre på att uppdatera och jag skulle bli väldigt glad om jag visste VILKA ÄR ALLA MINA FINSKA FÖRFÖLJARE Jag känner bara 2 personer i Finland en är en GAMMAL vän och den andra fick jag reda på idag att han bor där SÅ VART KOMMER NI ANDRA IFRÅN..

count lightnings?

2011-08-27T13:42:00.000-07:00

today has been a chillout day with just baking cooking playing and chillaxing and having my last smoke this is where it all ends and a new beg shall start.been to the store 2 times because my memory sucks and Märta freaks me out too.. he left me a message on facebook like blablabla !?
and since it had !? in it i thought it was really serious and got worried apparently he has just been missing my number got that taken care of and went home to bake some cake and tasty it was =3

after the cake was done and we had tried it out I asked my brother because I could swear I heard thunder and he goes like Nop no thunder.. But I can hear it.. Goes and open a window damn sure it was thunder coming this way around 6k people lost thier power not ous thank god but we still lost the parkinglot lights and it didnt seem to ever stop it went on for 30 min straight I belive oh well now its time to get back talking to my Wooh and waiting for Märta to become wasted and text me haha night peeps

choice 1,2,3,4 56438950348

2011-08-26T16:16:00.000-07:00

Long time no seen ne :3 well starting off with looking at my last blog input. I did lose him. he was a great friend and I miss him still but that's life. where to start where to start..

It's been such a long time I have no Idea where to begin Right after last time's blog me and some friends went down to the main town because it was a special girls special day 20 year old time to buy some booze ne xD? Train ride down there is damnnnn annoying but it was alright I was taking 1 class so all was good. After a 3-4 hour train ride it also take 30 min to get

to her place so it was time for some pictures :3 We went to Gröna lund ate tasty stuff and just relaxad It was indeed time for a vaction for Mia.. Funny thing though what I remember most about the trip is not the funfair the food the company its the freaking creepy mental lady running around the streets of Stockholm scaring teenage children and yes they ran. It was funny to watch though agree with her and she tells you to f*ck off. Run.. She will run after you gosh I wish I would have gotten a better video of her she was amazing My jaw nurse has finally sent in the form so il get inline for my surgery the more i think about it the more I feel its gonna be good to get it over with.Starting a new "job" on monday but its not really a job I see it more as passing time until my jaw gets fixed.

Ive also been talking ALOT
to Wooh latley our skype call got cut off by my internet. We had then been on for 11 hours which is kinda normal when we call be on from when we wake up till bed,

even if we go away we just leave it on until we get back I love talking to that boy and I know that no matter what he will always be there for me which makes me happy wappy.Oh and our little city market has passed aswell
I was there 2/3 days and I feel like I got what I went there for not to mention I also got this cutie pie :3

My brother and I fixed my wii so now we can play what we want when we want feels great ive been playing alot of crappy games latley called I spy f*ck I hate those games but I HAZ TO GO IT xD. Been talking to Zii today about past and everything between heaven and hell love talking to him :3

while I was in the shower tonight I started thinking back about another person a person I do not miss and its easy now to tell the FAILS of a person where to begin. He is short, 20+ without job living at his parents house being broke. Lazy in bed like wow really, lazy in everything in fact He can't shave. Only food he can cook is rice. He isnt really that good looking infact its kinda bad... But atleast he is nice.. And oh I dont miss him one little bit xD And he/she shall never ever find out the horrible truth about the man that can't be loved.
And then someone I can't stop to love never could never will..

And I'm back to talking to him again.. It doesnt matter how many years passes we always end up talking and every time we don't I miss him like crazy I'm so glad we are back to talking again almost makes me feel like a kid.. It's the best feeling ever!!! And that is all for this time people its already 1am and im way to tried to go in to detail take care everyone <3

I just had seeeex! And it felt soo goood

2011-08-03T13:40:00.000-07:00

That was most certainly the song I was least expecting to be awoken by today haha. Last night was good and I'm glad we are over the past. Lets see now yesterday me and Olle went to the beach again fck it was packed after that it was time for dinner and I had tuna salad its soo tasty.

After that I dropped by at M's place so patch everything up I'm glad we could work that out atleast it sure took its time didn't it. Anyhow got home today at 7am went to sleep mom woke me up at 10 standing at my feets " I thought you would be ready by now " Mmh gimme a min *turn around and falls asleep* we went shopping car parts and then food lots and lots of food most of that is mom's by the way.

I did buy some awesome shoes though saving them for Selånger I shall NOT wear high heels there never ever I'd die haha damn we

we had the worst weather ever today and thunder ofcourse gotta love the swedish/English summer... Been awaiting mr A for ages he is a busy boy indeed been getting to talk to my wooh alot today and im happy for that Need to makes up some plans now on what I shall do next go with the flow or go for it? We shall see what happens

No matter how strong the butterfly feels He/She will never be together with a flower

now im gonna stalk wooh using google maps take care people

Scared or afraid? No. Terrifed? Yes.

2011-08-02T02:35:00.000-07:00

I havnt been able to sleep AT ALL tonight why did he have to come? Why did he of all people have to see. You know its really scary because I normaly get what I want and now im afraid I will lose it before its even startedI think I saw it in 250 diffrent ways yesterday from talking and texting every single day to not talk at all and I really dont know what to do about it worst part is if it comes down to a choice I know which one you have to make and

I dont blame you for it.. I dont want it but I know you have to FML yesterday was so good until he showed up. What's gonna happen now?

Are we strangers? What I hate the most about it, is when it happens I become offence cold pushing you away.. Felt horrible to leave like that but it can't be helped its the way I do it.. BUT I really dont want to lose you because I love talking to you.. You are the reason I stay up late at night.. I enjoy it because its the only time we really get to talk.. And now I fear its all over.. All I can do is keep hoping it wont effect us.. But somehow I feel it did..

Akira and Mina fairy tail love?

2011-08-01T14:24:00.000-07:00

way to much in to little time during the past few days ive had olle and ibbe over today i didnt have any plans YAY relaz time so i thought that was not the case Ive been down town 2 times and running here and there when I was finally home I felt like I had to clean so now i have an apartment again xD yesterday me and Olle went to the beach again you can't really take Ibbe there since the water is "cold" haha Its not he is just special you see this cute bunny here? I stole it from my brother kawaiisou

we shall see if Olle comes by tommorow aswell I really enjoy hanging out with him and even though there is people that Ive yet to met since I got home I know it wont be long now God ive missed some people we shall see Mr M I dont belive it until I see it ne :3 I do trust you though and sooner ot later we will fix it <3 Bah getting tired waiting for A to come home so we can finally talk been so busy the past few days well both of us really day before yesterday he had to leave and yesterday I was just to tired was playing Wii with Olle until 3am haha. I just wish I could fit all the pieces to this puzzle togther and get my life back on track its gonna take some time I know that too but better sooner then later right on Im praying on wensday It has to work it just HAZ to one way or another we shall fix it right.

YOU KNOW weirdest shit happend today And im PRETTY sure I can thank the skirt for it! So I was buying food for me and mom as I turn in the stamp card to get my "you have 10 stamps here have 1/10 discount" card He looks at me and say #Meh you know what This time its on me see it as a treat" like super quite I wasnt even sure what he said but I said Erm okey took back the card he handed me and the paper bag and said "have a nice meal :)" Its still strange and I'm still confused about it.. but erm alrighty xD Thats all for now gonna watch my new anime in the waiting times of <3 A <3 take care stalkers lots of love <3