The I

The end

2011-11-16T02:07:00.001+05:30

It hard to be after knowing the truth
Everything that I say and do is a lie
I am standing on the roof and looking up at the clear sky filled with stars and a moon
I wonder someone would be awake on the other side of the earth living lies
It's difficult to accept that I am talking in the last puff of my beloved companion
I say thanks to the bud for giving me the moment's pleasure and watch it turn in to ash
I wait till the spark is gone
After all everything ends
And has to end
A moments silence
My brother's body flashes in to my head
Birth is a curse
The body is a cage
Man is born, man complicates his life, man suffers insurmountable amount of pain, man tries to fix it, man dies
In vain ofcourse
It's time to end the spiritual evolution and the false being within
My last post
The I does not exist anymore
The force
Everyhing is already fixed
Bye

Dream - Observer (The I)

2011-09-25T19:44:00.000+05:30

We dream when we fall asleep.
we wake up and realize that we were dreaming.
we then live the day.

When you were dreaming, have you ever realized that you were dreaming ?
Have you experienced the whole dream with this realization ?, standing aside as an observer while you are still in dream state and the dream is still on ?
How did you feel when such a thing happened when you were dreaming ??

If you feel this when you are in a dream, you will feel the same thing some day when you are awake.
You will feel the same way when the mind is still. Cars move by, the wind blows putting trees in to motion on its way, world takes is course around the sun, time flows, sun rise, sun set, seasons change, you feel the dream.

You will feel the similarity between the way things are in dream and in observed reality, because the observer is the same and everything that is observed is unreal (dream).

Life is a dream. Life is unreal. The observer is real.

But where is he ? what is he doing here ? where did he come from ? what is the observer ? what is he?
what is the I ?

Don't forget your totem.

Wake up to reality

2011-09-18T09:02:00.001+05:30

Wake up
Start experiencing the earth.
Glance at the sky, stars and the universe beyond
This very moment we are in the universe
Yes !! We are free !! We are on planet 'earth' which keeps us alive through time.

Break through boundaries of religion, country, language, race
Break through all illusions of life
Life is empty
Break through all lies
And wake up

Everything that you see is earth and the sun. There aren't any walls, Gates , furnitures , houses, offices, roads, everything is the earth.
Free your mind
Sharpen it
And wake up

Wake up
And return to innocence
The matrix will brand us hippies, cracks, jobless, talentless, spiritual and stupid.
We are out of the matrix.
Matrix is a lie.
Matrix is mundane and boring.
Matrix can't comprehend our perspective. Matrix is finite and mortal. We are infinite and immortal.

Come out of your house, that small box that you crawl into, that's the birth place of illusions.
The earth is your home. Lie down on the earth, the sky and the eagles flying above will broden your perspective.
Wake up to reality.

This moment, everything that changes now is what we are.
You and I don't exist, we are the same.
Our journey is towards the unknown.
Wake up and be as it is
Please wake up
Let the force be with you

Watching sky at night. The emptiness

2011-08-28T22:57:00.000+05:30

Here I am, away from all hassles and noise of city(human) life,
Lying relaxed in the terrace of my room on the earth. Time flows slowly.
Watching the sky and sensing the universe beyond,
Night is calm and soothing.
Cold breeze melts my heart and makes my body light.
Darkness penetrates and takes away with it all responsibilities, thoughts, questions, pain, frustration, quests, goals, meaning etc.

I close my eyes and let my self willingly get sucked in to it.
Time starts flowing slower.
My body cease to exist.
The mind is still.
The earth and the universe cease to exist,
Time stands still and cease to exist
And then I cease to exist.
For few moments I am dead.
Silence.
And then on its everything, i.e nothing.
Thats all is there, nothing.

Satisfying basic needs of man kind in 20th century - part 1

2011-08-27T17:58:00.001+05:30

We need to seriously plan and execute going forward for better living standards, peace, harmony and equality in the many years to come for all living creatures in earth. Building up infrastructure and organisational structures is very vital. The governments of today need to be overhauled and integrated world wide. Responsibilities of public service bodies need to be raised to high levels. Foresight, vision and agenda of these human structures need to be broadened and redefined, not just satisfying the need but more planing and execution. The menial measures undertaken to patch up things here and there lead to lack of control and predictability and make the future a gamble which are however required for gradual change and out of human control.

Definitely the complexities of human mind, thoughts, ideas need to be dropped. Old paradigms, beliefs, concepts, ambiguities, social and communal issues, need to be dropped. Man has to become psychologically light weight, empty. Every human has to live in the universe with immense clarity about himself, nature and things around him. Free from noise. The truth. All this will redefine human activities and intervention. The practically impossible, still good for theoretical imagination, modelling and speculation. Let the thoughts be created, let them ripple and fight for their place, let the thoughts bend time.

Economy is based on demand and supply. Initially people did work and exchanged their work for money. The products were food, pots for storage, clothes, transportation, tools etc. Slowly things got added up and more tools and machinery were introduced. Today we are in a state were numerous types of works and products are in picture, but basics are same. We work and exchange to satisfy our needs.

Some people's work becomes unexchangeable at some location in the world. How do we handle that now? : We let them loose and let the market play on them. Some people don't have work or skils to do most work. Some products are unnecessary and are waste of work and time. Some are victims to man made boundaries. Some are victims to greed and exploitation.

The goal has to be atleast to satisfy the basic needs of each man according to todays living standards, societal structure, and settlement pattern (cities, towns, villages) of people. In ancient times groups of people built houses out of clay and trees, it was just a matter of time and work as resources were available in the place they lived. Today population has increased and we move materials from distant places to make living in cities and urban areas possible.

Let's try to build a old fashioned house here in a city in present time. In a city I need a land registered in my name and it costs huge amount of money. I need to work to exchange for more money to buy the place. To do that I need skills, to gather skills I need to get education through some means, by that time if market needs for skills change basically I am screwed. Unpredictability. Our mission fails. What was possible in earlier days by just a matter of time today involves more complex factors.

In old style, People had lots of place in forest. They together as a group made a clearing in a safe place, based on many criterion (flat, not too close to river etc), when space was enough it was not a problem. But when population explodes, that's again a problem even in old style and people lived without houses.

Govt organisation for land management has to be formed with broader responsibilities. It has to figure out the total land available, Create layouts and distribute to various people. And also track population count using advanced ways to track and manage population (software and processes) which have precision and robustness. It needs to bridge both to ensure order and satisfy the basic need for living space for all times. Not to mention it had to plan for future and keep some space in,buffer for better risk and disaster management. Going forward in the coming years if these systems are not in place, things are going to be very tough.

Similarly we need better ways to track where our products come from, the cost involved in transportation, the amount of work and resources required, alternative sources to fall back during failure etc. These will require creation of new job types and work groups.

We need better ways to figure out the dependencies of various jobs and products, leaving money totally out of picture, we need estimates about how much more we need of each job and work type, which will translate in to amount of people and skill set, which will bring unemployment under control. We need to always keep in mind that we are trying to enable basic need for every life form in current situation and way of life.

Govt should provide processes to provide land for people to live. It should provide food water and electricity free of cost to people and shift the responsibility to the work groups. Instead of people competing with each other, these work groups which form the integral pillars of a government and made up of brightest minds will plan the collection and distribution, execute. The existing public service bodies should be overhauled to meet these requirements of work groups. If those groups fail in their mission the population will run out of basic needs and there will be chaos.(assumption : when demand is greater than supply there is chaos) Successfull implementation of this will lead to lack of competition, drastic reduction of social issues arising from inequality. This does not cover the root issue of sustainability and impact on environment, which I will post later.

Let me give more details on one scenario. Govt has to figure out which lands are habitable and how many new houses can be built. All real eastate agents can be moved to those govt jobs, similarly job relocation can be made for other people also. Lands can be exchanged etc, land price differences will also be there, but every one gets land, compared to how people are competing for land and place to live. Based on the assumptions and preconditions in the begining of the post about the human psychological change, the new environment should provide a very high standard of living.

The whole idea about a govt being a governing body has to change in to a human structure for collaboration and coordination globally.

- More theoretical exploration in next post. Let the force be with you.

Let my country awake - Rabindranath Tagore

2011-07-15T08:46:00.001+05:30

Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high
Where knowledge is free
Where the world has not been broken up into fragments
By narrow domestic walls
Where words come out from the depth of truth
Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection
Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way
Into the dreary desert sand of dead habit
Where the mind is led forward by thee
Into ever-widening thought and action
Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake.
- Rabindranath Tagore

Information overload syndrome Self Test

2011-04-18T15:57:00.005+05:30

Information overload syndrome Self test

Brief

Check out this video first

I took a test and here are the "what, how, why"s

What?

(In my words. It might not be that specific and might sometimes feel like creating a mashed up layer with couple of concepts put together. Its lucid though.)

Brain evolved like everything else. Initially it was programmed to do basic things like vision, smell, taste, touch, control of muscles nerves etc.

Check out the basic model of brain.

In this generation, we are bombarded with information from all sides. Blog posts, News feeds, Tasks, Reminders, twitter, facebook, mails, procedures, appointments, books, office work related things, personal wants and dont wants, rules, complex psychological thoughts, assumptions, predictions, preoccupation with work related thoughts, inability to recover from a chain of thoughts etc.

Image via Wikipedia

We are programing ourselves to lots of things, which causes the brain to behave erratically. The effects and disorders are not precisely defined as like any psychological syndrome (There is no defined boundary for most psychological syndromes. There are identified by their distinguished characters and are explained as cohesively as possible. Usually a bunch of them are observed in a person and they form a collage). Some become insensitive to senses, weight loss, fragility, lack of control over body, etc. Not to mention its a major contributor to stress.

Where?

This syndrome can be observed in many classes of people.
E.g: The waiters who are in serving line get constatly bombarded with info about orders of people are worst affected.
Software Engineers :)
CEOs

(Send me your observations as it will be helpful in my journey of exploring psychology and human behavior)

How?

Simple. Bombard yourself with information, tasks, todos, schedules, reminders, intuition(i will get a mail etc) etc. From the time you wake up till you go to sleep.
Observer your mental state and changes in body.

Take your time (5 days or 10 days or 1 month).

Sometimes you may be already having that syndrome :P, that saves the effort you put to subject yourself to the syndrome. In case you don't already have it, subject yourself to the syndrome and then recover from it if you wish :).

However keep in mind that there are no defined rules or method to do this.

Open more than 15 tabs in your browser and keep shuffling between them, read posts in random, keep shuffling between posts.

Check out music bands.
Check our car manufacturers.
Car models.
Music tracks, bands, instruments etc.
Artists and their art works, techniques, etc
Expand into horizons where you have never stepped before or your grey areas. If particle physics is not your area, read about the different types of elementary particles.
Read hell a lot of news, be active in forums. Keep checking mails, tweets, status updates every now and then.

Why?
To be stress free.
To be more productive.
Peace.

How to fix the syndrome?

Stay still and feel the information flowing through your self

Count the number of information

Just hang in there and you will see it will reduce over time

Wait till it slows down and reaches to say like 1 or two

Look at the sky

Observe the flow of water

Play some sport

Focus on tastes

Sleep well

Take a lot of rest

Listening to music

Doodling

Don't multi task.

I think you get the idea, just try to focus on the basic functions of the brain and not letting them to be programmed or automated.

My test

Completed on 17 April 2011

I had made observations even before I knew about information overload syndrome so it was just a matter of associating them with a name. In many cases I had to go back in time and try to remember the details, because all that I retained was a comprehension.

Results:

Erratic walking pattern

hands started shivering

inability to hold objects

Sleep deprivation

Erratic behavior of all body organs

and many more subtle things

Send me the results as it will help me put together lots of observations and behavioral patterns.

Further reading
Relationship between mind, body, senses, thoughts, emotions.

A simple model of the brain

2011-04-18T13:54:00.000+05:30

Please check out the disclaimer

A simple model of brain as I see it (might be wrong totally !! just an angle; no harm if we keep in mind that it is subject to change and that it does not represent everything (infinity) :P. These is always a probability of something other than this):

I cannot explain Faith as of now, just putting it near thoughts as of now. The "definition of love" is mentioned in the diagram, however "love" itself does not fall in to any of this as of now, as I know how it feels but cannot comprehend what it is (is it also a thought like everything else that goes through our brain? solving this would require solving this first body-brain-mind). The "definition of love" is the fantasy that we have about love developed over years by movies, books, experiences of others and other influences.

Praying for Japanese tsunami and earthquake victims

2011-03-13T18:26:00.005+05:30

Praying for Japanese tsunami and earthquake victims kinda sounds illogical doesn't it?

Children in Ahmedabad, India praying

This is the question that my friend posted on twitter. I was taken back when I read this as I couldn't come up with an immediate answer and then I started thinking seriously, why do people pray for someone already dead or in the process of suffering miles away? Is there any logic in this?

The answer requires a deep understanding of the nature of logic itself.

Logic does not arise from a single neuron, rather arises from neural connections.
Logic is not the lower most layer of the brain, its laid over even more subtle layers. Does the universe make any sense logically to you?
It doesn't to me, The sun rise I see every morning doesn't make any logical sense to me. Why does the sun rise?. Ofcourse there are scientific explanations and people believe it.
[[[ Aside: To make myself clear here, I neither agree nor disagree with anything. I assign a belief weight (0-100) which denotes the "probability of something to be true"
"The earth rotates" - 99.999999...
"Big bang" - 5

A complete post on "belief analysis" will be posted later]]]

Consider those scientific theories to be false for a moment and then ask yourself the question "why is there a sun rise?", what made perfect sense moments ago makes perfectly no sense now.

[[[ Aside: Now we are analyzing the contrary, we are trying to take a different path, we are considering all possibilities, we are traversing all paths from a node in a graph. However we cannot be always sure that we have analysed all possibilities, this should also be taken care while assigning weights. Therefore the weight "zero" is never assigned to any fact or theory. In other words we can never say a theory is right or wrong !!!! This method is used here: The art of contrary thinking and in many other places. Some great thinkers of the past had it intrinsically]]]

In this case, can we say that logic arose from belief?. Belief on the scientific explanation made it seem logical. There are many other things which contribute to logic, but to deal with all that would be write a book.

Consider a even more tricky question "What is time?". Even after years of search this question will look new and will never fail to bewilder and confuse giving new perspectives each time you revisit it. Its a pity how people abuse logic every day with their limited knowledge.

Logic has to be used to refine beliefs (Vicara, neatly explained here) and not arise from beliefs.

A metaphysical explanation could be based on what advaita, Transcendentalism or plato's theory of Forms and countless other philosophies propose. "Everything is the same". When the people in japan or any other location suffer, its you who is suffering. If you look at this logically it will make no sense. To understand this people have traveled miles, meditated for years etc. The meaning is not obvious and don't assume that your understanding of this axiom ("Everything is same") is complete based on your intelligence or empirical observation.

Excerpt from [Plato]

Plato (left) and Aristotle (right), a detail of The School of Athens, a fresco by Raphael. Aristotle gestures to the earth, representing his belief in knowledge through empirical observation and experience, while holding a copy of hisNicomachean Ethics in his hand. Plato holds his Timaeus and gestures to the heavens, representing his belief in The Forms.

Praying arises from feeling, its a wish to alleviate the suffering of people and not the stereotypical mental image that many people have about it. It does not mandate any gesture, language, to be present in a temple or church or mosque, it does not differentiate (human being vs animal vs plant vs rock vs atom vs empty space) and its not voluntary or involuntary. It just happens. I feel that its a human being's untarnished true nature. Its a pity that human beings have forgotten their true nature or displaced from it.

This deviation has caused us to be indifferent. The same indifference we show when someone meets with an accident on the road when we are in a hurry to attend a party or when its raining. The same indifference we are showing to the suffering of farmers (Nero's guests by P. Sainath). The same indifference that ambi cries against.

Vikram as "ambi" in Anniyan

The same indifference we are showing to the destitute people.

I heard that some one is building a house worth 6 crore rupees.

Many more explanations are possible for this, but one word will suffice every thing.

Love.

Red Rose [Rosa Meditativa]

If we search for answers to the eternal questions we will get many more surprises, revelations, secrets, and liberation.

"There's nothing more elusive than an obvious fact" - Sherlock Holmes, 2009

Netri Potril - KO Lyrics

2011-01-23T13:11:00.000+05:30

Netri Potril - KO Lyrics
Tamil Movie Song by Harris Jayaraj

Lyrics may not be accurate

netri potril patrillai ennum
yettu thikkum parava virumbum
ootrai kattum yerumbugal nangal, satham pottal ulagam thirumbum
thirumbum
thirumbum

[netri potru - third eye or fore head or between the eye brows
ootru - the nest of the ants in tamil

In third eye, we say there is no faith
we want to spread in 8 directions
we are the ants that build ootru, if we should the world will turn
will turn
will turn

Actually in tamil the we is not mentioned in each line.
its like this
in these lines "netri potril patrillai ennum

yettu thikkum parava virumbum" there is no we, its indirect

in this line "ootrai kattum yerumbugal nangal"

nangal means we.

]

en piranthom, endrae irunthom
kanthiranthom,
avvam paranthom

[why were we born ?, we were thinking about it (past tense)
we opened our eyes
avvam {not sure what this is} we flew
]

yemattram thediye
thinam oru nettrai thorkirom
vetru pathayil boomi sutra parkirom
vilaketrum sudar katrai selvome

[searching for disappointment or towards disappionment or always searching for disappoinment
every day we lose yesterday
we are looking to traverse the earth in a different path !!!
we shall move like a light that liberates (or that lights lamps or ignites peoples minds)
]

yasir pechilum, kanavinai kottai kettinom,
facebook wall' ilum engal kolgai thetinom
inainthome
munainthome
valzvome

[yasir means new i guess, we built dreams
even in facebook wall we spread our ideas
we came together
we became one
lets live !!!]

Balance Change and the shift

2011-01-19T11:04:00.001+05:30

Balance
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Balance_(metaphysics)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Golden_mean_(philosophy)

Something that I realized over last 2 days (15,16/1/2011), however the dots were there for many months. It may change over time. However I want to put it down in words today, how they have finally connected. Its true, the simple and the most obvious fact is the most elusive one (from sherlock holmes).
(These are my thoughts, you may or may not agree, give it a thought if you wish, if you don't agree thats fine. I respect 'the' you, your beliefs and ideas. But these are mine. Feel free to pen down yours in comments section, after all what I know is what I read (is nothing) and came to know from other great thinkers.)

When I look around me and within me I see balance at various levels.

When there is low pressure we have hurricanes. When the earth heats up there is a change in temperature, we have floods etc Physicists try to formulate it, some call it divine force, what ever be it there is always a fine balance in existence. They call it gravity, relativity, fusion, fission and they try to achieve perfection in formulating it, trying to capture the whole behavior in formulas and theories; Which is fascinating, however we should not forget the balance exists everywhere (infinity).

Take for eg our body temperature is always a constant or in balance with the environment. The air pressure, chemical and biological composition are also in balance. A slight change in any of these and what we call or perceive as life is no more the way we perceive it to be. A increase in the world's temperature by 20 degrees and LIFE would be evaporating water, sand storm.

When there is balance in our life style there is also a balance in our thoughts. Work all day and we are in to stress. Excessive sexual compulsion and we are rapists. We talk all the time about female freedom rights and we are feminists. So are chauvinists and many more such examples.

For generations we have been told by our parents to eat full stomach and by our friends to drink the maximum amount of beer, by the society to work hard etc when all we need is a balance in food air and water. Hence there is imbalance in power, wealth etc. Anything that causes imbalance will be balanced, from then on that will be the new balance.

Oxygen deprivation, food deprivation, water deprivation; Either one of these and the current balance inside us is gone. We change in to something else. Our body mixes with the life stream. What ever magnetism that our body radiates like everything else [the sunlight that come out of the sun, or the cosmic microwave background radiation] also mixes in to the universe. Some call it death (death might have a metaphysical explanation but am not sure about any theory right now).

Some believe in a body like this

or cycling for hours together

Anything we do that is not part of what we did as per evolution, creates a imbalance in our body.
A simple example is this asana - sirsasana.

Claim: it increases blood circulation to our brain and thats good.
Reasoning: For centuries we have walked as we do today now (we dint walk as we do today 5 - 7 million years ago, the duration we have been doing is what i mean here). We never suffered of blood deprivation to our brain. Doing this asana increases the blood flow to the brain which is a imbalance. Something other than the ordinary. Something contradicting to the design. The capillaries in the brain are fine and they are designed for the load of blood that the brain normally takes. This exercise, by pumping excess blood, expands these capillaries and as we grow older this will create big problems. Nobody knows everything and its safe to stick to what evolution and nature has given us.

There can be many such explanations to the things that we presume to be good, all of which can be observed only over a period of time. Natural selection, evolution of species etc. This is precisely why indians are different from chinese or americans, Tamilians are different from northies or andrites etc. Everything (Animals, plants, people etc) has evolved to cope with the conditions and it will change over the years that come. The point is trying to change it in a short span of time can be disastrous. One of my friend started eating chappathi 3 times everyday because some one said he will lose weight. South indians have been eating rice for centuries now, switching to chappathi in a day is an insult to evolution and nature and the imbalance that it creates may be untraceable.

Anything that we do is not going to make us live for 200 years. If we balance our lives we can live a peaceful and happy life. Anything that can be done to the body and the mind can be done from a small room like this

Imbalance is
eating two or three of this

excessive sexual indulgence (unnatural sometimes, many misinterpret intercourse for sex these days (the same way they get married and live together instead of loving each other !!), that will take a whole new post however),

excessive reading or studying, (over padips, waking up all night and studying and getting full marks in exams and going to good job and so forth. Try not to become a man of success but rather to become a man of value - Einstein). Research has today become a playground for plagiarism where people are forced to work for 18 hours a day and come up with something, a huge imbalance (compared to our evolutionary lifestyle, for what we are designed, the physical limits that define us).

excessive working (work - life balance lol)

The earth has a mass, volume or whatever and it is at a definite distance from the sun and it moves at a definite velocity. A small change in any of these and the balance is lost (or changed), however it will be balanced (a new physical law may even sprung up from nothing ! something drastically different from what we know). Physicists formulate it, philosophers demand self-satisfaction, dharma etc some call it heven, hell, sin, pavam puniyam etc.

We were monkeys as per evolution jumping around and doing things we were designed to do and then
somewhere down the line the balance started to collapse, that was there things started to change. We found out wheels, irrigation and agriculture and changes or shift in balances followed until where we are now. Over the past 200 years it has changed rapidly in to this because of industrialization and explosion of population to trillions because we thought no newly born child should die. So we invented medicines thinking that it is pain or suffering. We dint want people in a village to die of starvation, because of drought, so we invented automobiles to transport food and now other junk things also; all the way thinking that it is pain suffering and we need to survive etc. However on the whole creating a even severe imbalance and dent which will cause more suffering and pain (as per our perception and understanding e.g starvation) in a larger scale. Human population has exploded to trillions and other organisms have shrunk to thousands. This is a change we initiated. Something other than what was traditionally happening in the ecology.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Balance_of_nature
Environmentalists call balance "sustainable development". Even if we achieve balance in the environment and if there is no suffering or pain (as per the human perception or definition), there will still be a balance in the solar system that we cannot change. The sun has a life time at the end of its life time, as it loses the attractive force it has over the earth, the earth may start drifting, it may get lost in space. This no one can change. May be we can resist this change by jumping on to another solar system? or creating a new sun altogether !!; If thats what we call survival or existence is. However even if we ignore the questions of the feasibility and assume that we will become scientifically superior, there are still questions regarding the purpose of all this. Whether resisting this change is all worth it. We have set the wheels in motion now we have to witness it. Has the earth ever resisted any change? all the way it has been a passive observer. Had it resisted the comets bringing water and crashing in to it, things would have been different.

What we need to understand is the balance in everything and understand that balance matters. There is no suffering and pain only change and balance - imbalance. The key is that this moment rite now is happening because of the shifts in balances over billions of years and it will continue to shift over the years. We are witnessing galaxies colliding with each other, super novas exploding and many more astronomical events. We are living in a short period of time in the universe, a fine balance between the various forces, or shall i call it a probability. We have created a dent, just a imbalance (from our perspective), a shift and it is neither positive or negative, neither good or bad. Categorizing which is done by us (our brains or mind whatever) or in other words the way we look at it. Why cant we look at everything around us as photons or elementary particles or whatever be the true nature of things? Because we are still bound by our eyes, by what our eyes show us, by what the reflection of light from various objects shows us. With the help of our eyes and brain we draw out the boundaries and then we form a logical layer of definitions over it and over all that we form assumptions, association, assertions, beliefs, faith etc.

[[[ Aside: Please check out A simple model of brain. ]]]

We may never know whether the true nature is the elementary particle or a photon or energy etc however we have to free ourselves from our eyes !!!! the same thing holds for ears nose and other perceptions. Thats why they say whatever we hear, see and speak is not real. And because of feedback they say "see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil". Seeing evil could be as simple as someone hitting other or a murder or rape scene. Once we see it our perceptions, possibilities are broadened and it stays so forever unless there is a way to erase memories or refine ideas and beliefs (which looks to be quiet possible but difficult to me as of now, biologically or psychologically 1 2 3).

Zero and infinity have very profound meanings other than the mathematical ones. Zero is nothing, the lack of everything or absence of everything. How would such a thing look like? we cannot perceive it until we are bound by our sensory instruments (eyes, ears, nose etc). What would be there when matter and anti matter annihilate? Nothing, Zero, Black hole. Its very difficult to understand it as the human mind cannot accept it at all times (understanding the human mind will take years in itself and still be incomprehensible !!!). It is conditioned to believe on something, see something , do something, think about something at all times. It wants to believe that the environment has to be saved, it wants to believe in god, it wants to believe that boobs are awesome, it wants jessie, and zillions of other things. No wonder Indians used zero for mathematical calculations when the whole world was wondering "how can nothing be something?"

A yogi or monk or Buddha understands zero. He who understands zero(nothing) will also understand infinity(everything). Infinity is up to you to ponder, of course I don't want this post to be a spoiler, would rather prefer to leave open ends for you to close on yourself (your epiphany moments will happen sometime, just have to seek). He/she will be omniscient. When someone understands the balance his needs shrink to what he needs to maintain the balance alone. May be this is what they call samadhi. He who realizes it feels no fear, pain, sorrow, and has total freedom.

The purpose of a man's life is nothing. It is to stay with the balance and witness the changes and the drift in balance and abstain from creating imbalances within oneself and outside (When you are doing nothing you are obviously abstaining. Thats zero; nothing. Zero or doing nothing sucks in it all things like abstaining, all don'ts, etc). The willingness to lose control and accept whatever happens. When we understand "nothing", that idea will come to us before any other idea, feeling or emotion. For eg: To sense pain and then think why we have pain and logically resolve the issue is far different from not feeling it at all (not feeling anything or "nothing"). There have been yogis who practice resistance to pain by exposing to pain little bit at a time and overtime killing the same, which is not advised though.

There is a beauty in 'nothing'. There is a beauty in the shifts and it will continue to intrigue us until the day we understand 'nothing'. That day we will be enlightened !!!

Never compromise the balance in you for anything.

Nothing is Everything [The very basic assumption I could derive as of now]

Lets go back to stone age if possible, preferably.

"Katrathu Kai Mann Alavu, Kallathathu Ulagalavu" - Avvaiyar
Translation - "What you have learned is a mere handful; What you haven't learned is the size of the world"

1 second

2010-08-27T21:54:00.000+05:30

hunger
dizziness
heat
stress
he looks up at the sun
the tall trees around him
360 degrees
sphere
the sun
he can see no more
death awaits him
his body of no use
he decides to give up
tunnel
the long journey ahead of him
*come*
a mild voice rings in his ears
may be death has to wait
he realises he has to stand up and walk
his eyes are closed
he can see the silhouette of a man walking ahead of him
body floats
a narrow cave

nature's box
his death bed
comatose
silence
darkness
█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
he wakes up
2 years later
1 second
sunshine

yogi

P.S
Photo credits
http://thepaperplanes.org/2009/09/21/creepy-cave/
http://secretmae.webs.com/apps/blog/entries/show/2392071-a-journey-into-the-light-through-the-darkness

Crcss Removal

2010-08-26T16:39:00.000+05:30

Remove the csrcss process from the windows task manager
Search for the file csrcss.exe file and remove all the instances from the system.
Everything file search tool will come handy. Download it here
Remove the Registry keys.

Vijay's Velayutham - Assasin's creed sucks

2010-08-23T09:44:00.003+05:30

Update : http://forums.ubi.com/eve/forums/a/tpc/f/4811054957/m/6161016549?r=9191090649#9191090649

Assassin's Creed is a game loved by millions across the globe and has a cult following like no other game. I have always been a fan of the promotional posters they create for the game though I dint have an opportunity to try it out sometime, have seen the game play videos though (Prince of persia too).

If there is one person I cant stand in this world it is Illayathalabathy vijay.
Having said all that, look what the mental is doing for his next movie. I feel so sorry for assassins creed followers. "poster eh ipadina padam evalo kodumaiya irukka pogutho". Worst past is looking his fans gaga about this shit.

Is this seriously a promotional poster or a fan made ?
Vijay sir ungalukku manasatchiye kidayatha ?? yen engala ivalo torture panreenga ?? thayavu senghi fanla kayutha matti thookku pottu konga. plzzzz mudiyala ..

Update:

Please check this video.

Endhiran mp3 songs download Tamil

2010-07-31T14:58:00.000+05:30

Endhiran
Download all songs as a tar ball - http://www.megaupload.com/?d=4BAE62K4
Listen

"Pudhiya Manitha" - S. P. Balasubramaniam, A. R. Rahman, Khatija Rahman - 6:11 - Vairamuthu

1. Puthiya Manidha...

"Kadhal Anukkal" - Vijay Prakash, Shreya Ghoshal - 5:46 - Vairamuthu

2. Kadal Anukkal.m...

"Irumbil Oru Idhaiyam" - A. R. Rahman, Kash'n'Krissy - 5:15 - Kaarki, Kash'n'Krissy

3. Irumbile Oru Id...

"Chitti Dance Showcase" - Pradeep Vijay, Praveen Mani, Yogi B (Additional arrangements and programming by Pravin Mani) - 2:44 - Praveen Mani

4. Chitti Dance Sh...

"Arima Arima" - Hariharan, Sadhana Sargam (Additional vocals by Benny Dayal and Naresh Iyer) - 5:19 - Vairamuthu

5. Arima Arima.mp3

"Kilimanjaro" - Javed Ali, Chinmayi (Additional vocal arrangements by Clinton Cerejo) - 5:32 - Pa. Vijay

6. Kilimanjaro.mp3

"Boom Boom Roboda" - Yogi B, Keerthi Sagathia, Swetha Mohan, Tanvi Shah - 4:28 - Kaarki

6. Kilimanjaro.mp3

Metallica - The day that never comes Lyrics

2010-07-28T10:20:00.000+05:30

Metallica - The day that never comes
Born to push you around,
Better just stay down.
You pull away,
He hits the flesh,
You hit the ground.
Mouth so full of lies,
Tend to black your eyes.
Just keep them closed,
Keep praying,
Just keep waiting.

Waiting for the one!
The day that never comes!
When you stand up and feel the warmth!
But the sunshine never comes!
No the sun shine never comes.

Push you cross that line,
Just stay down this time.
Hide in yourself,
Crawl in yourself,
You'll have your time.
God I'll make them pay,
Take it back one day.
I'll end this day,
I'll splatter color on this gray.

Waiting for the one!
The day that never comes!
When you stand up and feel the warmth!
But the sunshine never comes!

Love is a four letter word!
And never spoken here!

Love is a four letter word!
Here in this prison!
I suffer this no longer!
I'll put an end to,
This I swear!
This I swear!
The sun will shine!
This I swear!
This I swear!
This I SWEAR!!!

Twitter special symbols

2010-07-17T12:56:00.000+05:30

How to tweet special symbols (smiley, star, ) in twitter ?

You might have seen tweets having attractive symbols, here are some resources I found.

http://thenextweb.com/TwitterKeys/keys.php#
http://twsym.com/
Unicode symbol map: http://panmental.de/symbols/
Twitter has introduced Hashflags which can also be helpful.
whats happening with the worldcup
E.g:

Metallica One Lyrics

2010-07-07T10:10:00.000+05:30

Metallica - One
I can't remember anything
Can't tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside I feel the scream
This terrible silence stops it there

Now that the war is through with me
I'm waking up, I cannot see
That there's not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please god, help me

Back in the womb it's much too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But can't look forward to reveal
Look to the time when I'll live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please god, wake me

Now the world is gone I'm just one
Oh god, help me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please god, help me

Darkness imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

Landmines has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my soul
Left me with life in hell

Naan varuven - Ravanan Lyrics

2010-06-29T16:25:00.000+05:30

நான் வருவேன் (வீரா) மீண்டும் வருவேன்
உன்னை நான் தொடுவேன்
உயிரால் தொடுவேன்
ஒரு பிள்ளை எழுதும் கிறுக்கல் தான் வாழ்க்கை யா
அதில் அர்த்தம் தேடி அலைவதே வேட்கையா
அர்த்தம் புரியும் போது வாழ்வு மாறுதே
வாழ்வு மாறும்போது அர்த்தம் மாறுதே
ஒரு கனவு காற்றில் மிதக்குதே
அதில் மிதந்து கொண்டு செல்கிறேன்

ஒரு பிள்ளை எழுதும் கிறுக்கல் தான் வாழ்க்கை யா
அதில் அர்த்தம் தேடி அலைவதே வேட்கையா

(humming)

நான் வருவேன் ..... மீண்டும் வருவேன்
நான் வருவேன் ..... மீண்டும் வருவேன்

ஓ வீரா
ஓ வீரா

Rest I could not hear. Enlighten me if you could figure it out.

Ravanan climax song - naan varuven meendum

2010-06-25T11:13:00.000+05:30

Raavanan

Climax song by Ar Rahman

"Naan varuven meendum varuven"

Close to original:

Raavanan-Naan_varu...

Download here: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=ENLQU8C8

Recorded version: voice Ar Rahman

naan_varuven_clima...

Download here: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=UJFV981E

Update: 15/1/2010

Ravaan Review

2010-06-19T02:33:00.000+05:30

Based on Hindi version (Might reveal some part of the story)

The movie starts with hard cut shots. The scenes where Aishwarya rai is kidnapped are well shot. I wonder if anyone would have been able to shoot it that well if not for Mani Ratnam. The details about all the places Ravaan (Abhishek) travels to are realistic. However flashbacks are shown in layers as the movie progresses which fail to give the desired effect. For eg: why does Ravaan kidnap Aishwarya rai.

The movie did not definitely give the Mani Ratnam touch. Mani Ratnam's movies detail characters very well. Abhishek in the movie lives a life similar to that of Naxalites (pardon me Govt of India keyword scaners), Atleast thats what I perceived. There is a constant shift of understanding Abhishek as Ravaan or a Naxalite. Vikram's (Ram) police investigation leaves us with another dilemma as to whether (at least) the local people perceive him as Evil or God. Abhishek is too dude to be Ravaan or a Naxalite, and frequently irritates with his acting (oops did I say acting, pardon me !). Yes, watching Aishwarya Rai and Abhishek bachan together on screen adds to the irritation part.

Vikram on the other hand shoots down Ravaan's brother and Ravaan's sister (poor priyamani she gets that role too often) gets raped in police station (both are contradictory to Ramayana where surphanaka and khari try to attack the Ram group). Is Mani Ratnam trying to question the authenticity of Ram? Is he trying to question the way Ramayana portrayed Ram as a GOOD man? Was Ravaan deliberately portrayed as Evil and Ram as Good? All these question twist and turn our brain as the movie steers forward. (Am not sure if hindutwas would now be ready with stones and petrol bombs depending on what they understood from the movie.)

Its obvious that people enter the theater with entire Ramayana running through their mind. Its totally unnecessary of Mani Ratnam to deliberately show Govinda jumping here and there like Hanuman. I mean these character emulations have to be more subtle so that it makes the audience relate them in introspection, rather than making it obvious.

The climax is predictable as soon as Aishwarya rai returns to see Ravaan.

Overall its a movie packed with refreshing visuals, well portrayed forest environment with weak storyline, weak characters and lack of charge from the leading roles. I loved the scene where Vikram pokes the news paper with Cigarette. Also Vikram smokes in train.

Pros

Cinematography, Locations

Cons

Character establishment

Abhishek bachan (Sub standard acting)

Confusion as to what Mani Ratnam is trying to convey

Rating : 2.5/5 (Average)

P.S: I totally don't believe in Ramayana. I believe it was Ram's version of events, meaning Ram was the king that time so it has to be his way. Big boss always wins !. Will the people accept the king to march his army in to Sri Lanka to get back a woman , what a costly operation?. I personally believe all this myth was developed as a result of the KING's desperate attempts to save his image and get the support of the people. I don't have scholarly knowledge on Ramayana, its just a logical conclusion my brain arrived a long time ago when I was thinking about the existence of God and became an Atheist.

Facebook album privacy settings test

2010-05-27T23:58:00.000+05:30

I created a album and uploaded a picture.
The test has 3 fellas A,B and C.

1. Visible to C. Not published to Wall.

A, B and C were not able to see it in their "news updates" with "most recent" selected.

When A and B visited my profile and checked out my "photos" they were not able to see the album, But C was abe to see it.

2. A,B and C try to access with public link to album.

A,B and C were able to see it !!!!!.

3. I added A and B to "hide album from" list for the Album. Now sent them the direct link to the album.

A, B and C were able to view the album.

4. I added a comment on the photo.

A, B and C were not able to see it in their "news updates" with "most recent" selected.

5. Asked C to comment on the album. Remmember A and B do not have access to the album.

A and B were not able to see it in their "news updates" with "most recent" selected.

6. Gave access to A.

Now A is able to see it in his "news updates" with "most recent" selected.

7. For this test A,B do not have access. Album is visible only to C
Published the Album to wall.

A, B are not able to see it in their "news updates" with "most recent" selected.
A, B are not able to see it in my wall.
C is able to see in his "news updates" with "most recent" selected and in my wall.

8. After sharing with A,B

A, B are able to see in their "news updates" with "most recent" selected and in my wall.

9. A,B are in hide list. C has access. Sent A and B the public link to a particular photo.

A and B are able to see only that photo not the other photos in the album.

Observations summary

1. Public link gives access to anyone. Public link to a photo gives access to that photo only.
2. Only people who have access can see album updates.

This solves my problem. I can now have a private album and publish it safely to wall, Coz am sure that only people whom i have given access will be able to see :P

Slip of Tongue

2010-04-04T14:00:00.000+05:30

Incident 1:

Morning 8.45 am, from sriperumbudur to college in local bus.

Time to get tickets.

my friend (Mr. murasu) (to conductor): anne rendu kings kudunga (boss give two kings ciratettes !!)

conductor: !@#!!@#*&@

Incident 2:

I was in tuty. Got up at 9.30am. Got ready asusual for roaming about. News is tat my friend's bike got punctured. It was some festival day all shops were closed. Mr. selvaganes tried to pull some strings here and there nothing worked. So we decided to leave the bike there for the moment. Finally it ended up tat we will ask some people nearby to let up park it in their house. Mr. selvaganes goes to one of the houses and starts the conversation ....

Selva : aunty bike puncture ayidichi .. iniki vera WINE SHOP lam leave ahhh (bingo !!)

enna panrathu ne theriyala .. neenga konjam manasu vecha ......

me: $@!#$@

my another friend started laughing like anything (like how vijay does in "friends", or how santhanam does in "SMS")

Linux Send Mail Client slow start while booting

2010-04-01T10:43:00.000+05:30

Is your linux stuck in starting send mail service for a long time while booting ? (This post is for dummies !!)

Mine did and i fixed it with a simple hack. Follow the steps

Step 1: newaliases

Type the command "newaliases" in command prompt.

# newaliases

WARNING: local host name (135) is not qualified; see cf/README: WHO AM I?

/etc/aliases: 76 aliases, longest 10 bytes, 765 bytes total

This command takes long time to complete and it says {135} local host name not qualified.

Step 2: hostname

Type the command "hostname" in command prompt.

# hostname

135

So {135} is my hostname

Step 3: /etc/hosts

This is how my /etc/hosts looked. What the hell is a /etc/hosts file anyways ?

Text book definition - "As your machine gets started, it will need to know the mapping of some hostnames to IP addresses before DNS can be referenced. This mapping is kept in the /etc/hosts file. In the absence of a name server, any network program on your system consults this file to determine the IP address that corresponds to a host name."

# cat /etc/hosts

# Do not remove the following line, or various programs

# that require network functionality will fail.

127.0.0.1 localhost.localdomain localhost

::1 localhost6.localdomain6 localhost6

As you can see my /etc/hosts file does not have a mapping for my {hostname} i.e {135}. Create a mapping for {hostname} or what ever is that the newaliases cribs about and you are good to go.

Step 4: new /etc/hosts file and output of newaliases

# cat /etc/hosts
# Do not remove the following line, or various programs
# that require network functionality will fail.
#adding hostname:135
127.0.0.1 localhost.localdomain localhost 135
::1 localhost6.localdomain6 localhost6
# newaliases
/etc/aliases: 76 aliases, longest 10 bytes, 765 bytes total

So what is that the sendmail trying to do anyways ?
A rational explanation -
Sendmail tries to resolve the IP for your hostname. First it looks in the /etc/hosts file and then it tries your DNS server (which is likely non-existent or out on your ISP - knows nothing about your system). So sendmail tries the DNS service and times-out 3 times (one minute each). The quick solution is to make an entry in your /etc/hosts file for your system & IP. If your IP is dynamically assigned by DHCP, then you must configure the server to resolve DNS.

Aayirathil oruvan Effect - Horrible movie

2010-01-16T17:44:00.000+05:30

(This post has Tamil transliterated to English)
Here it goes. I was watching "Heat" and a cry from my friend

b.gopiram: Machi.. 200 bucks anaamatha pochu daa...

Rakesh: HA HA

SONNA Kelunga da

pogatheenga nu sonn kekureengala

b.gopiram: Dai.. naan paarkala da..

Rakesh: ohhh

pinna

b.gopiram: Innaikku online varavea illa..

Rakesh: enna da solre ??

b.gopiram: Padam parthean da...

Unnoda status paarkala

Rakesh: ohh ok ok

wat a bad time man

nalla vela uyiroda irukureeye athuve periya vishayam

b.gopiram: AThu nyaayam thaan da... vitta pothum da sammi nu odi vanthen :(((

Rakesh: hmmm ..

unnoda vanthavanga lam safe ah

b.gopiram: Nee evlo da selavu panninea??

Rakesh: 150

b.gopiram: Yaa.. everyone saffe

Rakesh: plus my unvaluable time

b.gopiram: Aiyoooo .. aiyoooo .. thala valikutheeeeeeeeee

Theatre ku vandha elarum kaari thuppittu poranga da... konja per angaye settle agitanga for 15 min ......

Ithula thodarumnu vera pottan paaru....

Rakesh: hmm ... vidu machi ithukku peru than good try

nee uyiroda irukureeye athuve periya vishayam

b.gopiram: Ithukku ivlo build up aaada??

3 yearsa edukkuranga.. mannangatti

Rakesh: ada go and check it online people are saying its massive hit

thats why i dont own a TV

b.gopiram: Poi paarthavan evenum solla maatttan ... intha padathukku audio launch vera oru kedaaa ...

ithula avaru interivew vera pongal anniku . thuuuuu

Aayirathil oruvan sucks big time. Please dont even think about it.