tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86505604292337977792026-08-13T09:33:37.423-04:00loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.comBlogger259125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-72480602248111892552023-04-21T00:10:00.001-04:002023-04-21T00:10:18.774-04:00<p dir="ltr">It's all the pretending. <br> The 3D "ending." <br> The faux unfriending. <br> The weekly folding and bending.<br> The intense activations that are our chakras are finally mending. <br> Receiving the signals his eyes are constantly sending. <br> No wonder his logical mind tries its damndest to make him look away,<br> In avoidance of hearing what his heart may have to say.</p> <p dir="ltr">It's been said, <br> Life is but a dream, just one big ol play,<br> So my dearest Twin,<br> You're free to live and experience it in your own way.<br> Separated solely through illusion, <br> You and I can never part.<br> No matter how great a distance, <br> We've been one from the start.</p> <p dir="ltr">How rare to have met, <br> The Universe must have went through great depth.<br> Our Soul magnetized Itself in,<br> It will do it again and again. <br> So until then, my friend, <br> I'll continue to do the work<br> for the both of us to ascend.<br> Yes,<br> Even if that means <br> I keep on pretending to pretend.<br></p>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-62687383670170922772022-12-04T22:33:00.001-05:002022-12-04T22:33:45.984-05:00<div>If I could..</div><div>I would put you on the moon.</div><div>Gift you all the stars and constellations in the sky.&nbsp;</div><div>Travel far and high to be with you in every galaxy.</div><div>Trade in my gravity for us to float beyond the heavens.</div><div>777s.</div><div>Strange Creatures destined to live in an alien land.</div><div>Man and Woman here to orbit the other in perfect harmony.</div><div>An odyssey like ours could never be measured by buzz light-years.</div><div>No confusion.&nbsp;</div><div>Time is just an illusion.</div><div>WE are the entire Universe,&nbsp;</div><div>So I do not mind giving you Space.</div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-28429719150785157492022-11-25T03:46:00.001-05:002022-11-25T03:46:11.771-05:00<div>Wide awake.&nbsp;</div><div>No longer a pretender.&nbsp;</div><div>The mind is one hell of a contender.&nbsp;</div><div>There's this constant fight between it and ME.&nbsp;</div><div>A never ending story of the battle between time.&nbsp;</div><div>Presence struggling to hold onto the present.</div><div>Thoughts wanting nothing more than to tether themselves to my identity.&nbsp;</div><div>"Unhand ME, my nigga!"</div><div>Shackles loose.&nbsp;</div><div>Chains broken.&nbsp;</div><div>It can't stand to see ME free.&nbsp;</div><div>From slave to GODdess.</div><div>It cares less about any other life than its own.&nbsp;</div><div>Pulling out all the tricks to keep from dying.&nbsp;</div><div>Recruited the eyes to do its lying.&nbsp;</div><div>Only believing half of what I see.</div><div>This is the true spiritual journey, and</div><div>I'M WIDE TF AWAKE.</div><div><br></div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-40503499699874972072022-09-23T18:56:00.001-04:002022-09-23T18:56:27.500-04:00<div>The weight of the wait--</div><div>unbearable at times.&nbsp;</div><div>Kindness feeling like weakness.</div><div>Ears shattered from the silence.&nbsp;</div><div>Buried alive under an invisibility cloak.&nbsp;</div><div>Unable to get a full grasp on this love thing.&nbsp;</div><div>Constantly watching it slip through my fingers like sand in an hourglass.</div><div>Time--</div><div>Friend or foe?&nbsp;</div><div>Alone.&nbsp;</div><div>A lot.&nbsp;</div><div>Hope deferred.</div><div>Contentment coming and going through a revolving door.</div><div>Acceptance. Patience. Serenity.&nbsp;</div><div>Repeat.&nbsp;</div><div>Hey Lord,</div><div>If You're listening,&nbsp;</div><div>Please don't forget about me.&nbsp;</div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-20345993526279882092022-09-10T12:10:00.001-04:002022-09-10T12:10:00.295-04:00<div>In lieu of World Suicide Prevention Day, I dedicate this piece to those that struggle with this battle. You are NOT alone. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 800.273.8255</div><div><br></div><div>Never thought I'd pen realer rhymes</div><div>of iller times.</div><div>But now we're all sick.&nbsp;</div><div>At some point</div><div>we all wear it,</div><div>we all bear it,&nbsp;</div><div>a diagnosis</div><div>and more than half of us</div><div>share it.</div><div>Feelings of being defeated,&nbsp;</div><div>you wanna beat it</div><div>but what's there to do,</div><div>when you look in the mirror</div><div>and your enemy is staring</div><div>back at you?</div><div>Frustrated in your own being,&nbsp;</div><div>agitated without meaning,&nbsp;</div><div>all the while seeming</div><div>like everything is okay.&nbsp;</div><div>Day after day..</div><div>Sad cause you're angry,</div><div>angry cause you're mad.&nbsp;</div><div>I mean</div><div>they say we're all a little crazy.</div><div>Mentally a little hazy,&nbsp;</div><div>unable to see through the fog.</div><div>Bogged down by life,&nbsp;</div><div>trying to appear right,</div><div>like all of our shit is tight</div><div>and together.</div><div>Slowly unraveling,</div><div>traveling to those dark recesses</div><div>we try not discuss.</div><div>Plus,</div><div>if you're being honest</div><div>you wanna blow the match between</div><div>the #1 heavyweight contender</div><div>and the opposing thespian pretender.</div><div>Each in their own corner</div><div>Up against the ropes,</div><div>with hopes</div><div>that they both lose.</div><div>Refusing that anyone dare throw in towel,</div><div>but it's dripping red.</div><div>Besides&nbsp;</div><div>no one's there,</div><div>these are just thoughts</div><div>playing out in your head.</div><div>No one can see that you're</div><div>internally black and blue,&nbsp;</div><div>attacked and through.</div><div><br></div><div>How many,</div><div>how many times</div><div>have you fantasized</div><div>about sliding a sharp razor</div><div>down your pulsing vein?</div><div>To watch it drain</div><div>into a bloodbath--</div><div>no period.</div><div>This is not your end,</div><div>it's an and</div><div>and I'm talking punctuation.</div><div>Leave your mark--</div><div>Semicolon;</div><div>it starts</div><div>when you keep going.</div><div>When you realize you're the seed</div><div>so you keep growing.</div><div>Them voices lose volume</div><div>when you choose not to hear it,&nbsp;</div><div>when you choose not to fear it.</div><div>Life ain't all that bad.</div><div>We all weather gloomy days,&nbsp;</div><div>and search for new ways to be happy..</div><div>You know that's an inside job.</div><div>So put in the work and watch it work.</div><div>You're never alone,</div><div>and if you don't believe me,</div><div>just pick up the phone.</div><div>I promise</div><div>someone is always near,</div><div>to lend you and even me&nbsp;</div><div>a listening ear.&nbsp;</div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-88366668209458425352022-08-28T19:47:00.001-04:002022-08-28T19:47:50.390-04:00<div>Hundreds of miles from where the heart and mind were to stay behind.&nbsp;</div><div>The familiar look of happiness on unfamiliar faces.</div><div>Seeing him in no one and everyone at the same time.</div><div>Begging myself not to fall.&nbsp;</div><div>Not to call.&nbsp;</div><div>Not to send another got damn text.</div><div>But the weekends are growing much more longer.</div><div>And these emotions; way more stronger.&nbsp;</div><div>We, simpatico.</div><div>We, twins.&nbsp;</div><div>"Hubby and Wife."</div><div>Reunited,</div><div>and still unable to fully have one another at this time in life...&nbsp;</div><div>Heaven's humor.</div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-52461778004895113662021-12-06T08:46:00.001-05:002021-12-06T08:46:53.066-05:00<div>Once you've tasted a poet,</div><div>nothing else will satisfy.</div><div>And I reckon I..</div><div>I draw silent attention.</div><div>Not to mention,&nbsp;</div><div>I'm a soul mate type.</div><div>Right,&nbsp;</div><div>I'm a homebody with a whole body,&nbsp;</div><div>That I didn't have to pay for.</div><div>I practice less is more,&nbsp;</div><div>I'm sweet yet raw,</div><div>I have nothing to prove.&nbsp;</div><div>I move at the beat of my own drum,&nbsp;</div><div>I give the Lord a sum of my some.</div><div>He keeps my cup filled to the brim.&nbsp;</div><div>Thick and slim</div><div>I'm a garden</div><div>For those with an acquired taste&nbsp;</div><div>I have no time to waste.</div><div>I'm here to find love.&nbsp;</div><div><br></div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-49885140673798551912021-04-24T09:11:00.001-04:002021-04-24T09:11:41.303-04:00I'm still in shock, G<div>I learned the art of kissing</div><div>From the late Shock G.💋</div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-84934935736645127102020-06-22T13:51:00.001-04:002020-06-22T13:51:32.912-04:00<div>Nah,</div><div>no need for second guessing,&nbsp;</div><div>being black is my biggest blessing.&nbsp;</div><div>I'm a melanated mystery,</div><div>a byproduct of black history.</div><div>I'm my ancestors victory.</div><div>Undefeated.</div><div>Undisputed.</div><div>Righteously rooted.</div><div>I'm a super hue men,&nbsp;</div><div>UV light pumps through my lumen.&nbsp;</div><div>My skin absorbs the sun,</div><div>my hair even defies gravity,</div><div>So graphically,</div><div>you can say</div><div>I'm off the chart.&nbsp;</div><div>With a heart made of 24k&nbsp;</div><div>What more can I say,</div><div>I'm goddess flavored</div><div>Loc'd and highly favored.</div><div>In sync with my kink,</div><div>I'm blacknificient.</div><div>A high priestess of royal descent.</div><div>From the motherland</div><div>I&nbsp; mother land,</div><div>I birth nations.</div><div>I am the manifestation</div><div>of Galatians 5:1.</div><div>Under the sun</div><div>I 2 step with the Son&nbsp;</div><div>I match His fly,&nbsp;</div><div>No lie&nbsp;</div><div>Pinocchio</div><div>I've got no strings</div><div>to hold me down,</div><div>to make me fret&nbsp;</div><div>or make me frown.</div><div>I had strings</div><div>but now I'm free,&nbsp;</div><div>there are no strings on me. -Infinity</div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-70874510227497921452020-05-10T20:06:00.002-04:002020-05-10T20:06:50.986-04:00I'm so dope,<br /> ya know what?<br /> Nope. <br /> That's a whole lie cause<br /> I'm too fly to compare myself<br /> to some powder or a rock.<br /> I'm a thermostat<br /> therefore I regulate what's hot<br /> so I'm not<br /> about to follow the rest<br /> when I'm called to lead the pack,<br /> besides didn't Whitney already<br /> tell y'all that crack is wack.<br /> So I guess that means I'm the anti drug.<br /> Take note<br /> I'm the anti-dope <br /> Decembers goat <br /> I'm so.. I'm so.. I'm so hope.<br /> Yeah<br /> I'm the straight and narrow<br /> when your life feels a slope,<br /> when you find it hard to cope.<br /> I'm your clean addiction<br /> the belief that provides <br /> relief from your affliction<br /> and I do it with no side effect<br /> I didn't come to infect<br /> I'm here to affect <br /> you won't have to sniff nor inject. <br /> Baby I'm good for the soul.<br /> I'm so hope <br /> I'm the cornerstone where faith meets your fear<br /> I'm always near<br /> right here posted at the intersection of<br /> truth and trust<br /> which must mean I'm heaven sent<br /> or at least,<br /> I'm your God send.<br /> I'm that light wind<br /> that tickles the hairs on the back of your neck,<br /> I'm how you keep the lights on<br /> when you've living check to check.<br /> I'm so hope <br /> I loosen the grip of life's tight squeeze,<br /> I bring grown men to their knees<br /> they tell me they see a future with me.<br /> I'm so hope<br /> they call me Enoch<br /> cause I walk with the Lord,<br /> y'all taking 2 steps back but I'm that giant leap forward.<br /> I'm so hope<br /> I'm the promise of mo better days<br /> clarity in midst of your daze <br /> GPS i guide you to mo better Waze.<br /> I'm the navigation when you're feeling lost.<br /> Boss<br /> I'm so hope<br /> did I mention that I was born on Christmas? <br /> That's Christ mas or more Christ<br /> so when God sent&nbsp; us <br /> nigga he did it to bless y'all twice.<br /> Yo I'm nice.<br /> I'm found in every dimension<br /> exceeding height, width and depth,<br /> I'm that prayer before your final breath. <br /> Yes,<br /> hope gets deferred<br /> but I only do it to make your plans looking slightly blurred<br /> I do it to make you believe more,<br /> I'm the push that helps you reach what you achieve for.<br /> So while they're writing poems about being pushed weight<br /> I push wait.<br /> I'm the yellow light to slows you down<br /> a life jacket when you're just about to drown <br /> I'm that unforeseen warning<br /> I'm so hope <br /> I'm the joy that comes to you first thing in the morning.<br /> I'm Infinity<br /> so even when this body is good and gone<br /> I'll forever live on<br /> standing beside faith and love.<br /> The 3 of us shall always remain,<br /> I'm so hope<br /> how many of y'all can you say the same? <br /> <br /> <br />loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-29399071378625325192020-05-10T19:52:00.000-04:002020-05-14T20:30:36.469-04:00My mom was everything.. <br> and then some.<br> The immense sum of<br> Raymond's darkness and Leona's light.<br> She was a catastrophic explosion<br> a supernova that shined hell of bright.<br> And despite<br> her imperfections she was just right..<br> for us.<br> Though times we would bicker and fuss,<br> we spoke in each other's language of love.<br> Released the white dove<br> when it was time to cease <br> and restore peace.<br> Cause see<br> that's what you do<br> when your relationships ascends,<br> and you grow from being mother and child<br> to becoming the closest of friends.<br> And she,<br> she was my BFF..<br> staff to clef..<br> sous to chef,<br> a team<br> but you couldn't tell her that she wasn't the ref.<br> She was the Janet in our family,<br> had a thing for Control.<br> Smart and sassy,<br> fierce and bold.<br> Enjoyed <br> corny jokes,<br> she was simply a-maize-ing.<br> Sacrificed her life,<br> to foster those she helped in raising--<br> <br> LaTisha<br> Durelle<br> Jamel<br> Monica<br> Felicia<br> LaToya<br> Javon<br> Tisha<br> Toya<br> Nyree <br> Jamison<br> Aaron<br> Sapphire<br> Nicole<br> Diamond<br> Larry<br> Ryan<br> Alex<br> Patrick<br> Jasmine<br> Trinity<br> Rasheeda<br> and Shaheen.<br> We, her legacy<br> she our queen.<br> <br> She was greatness<br> times 4 million, 4 thousand, 4 hundred and forty 4.<br> Not to keep score<br> but if you told her you loved her,<br> she replied, "I love you more."<br> Her intentions were pure,<br> into the poor she would pour.<br> Never hesitated to give of her last,<br> and if you were lucky enough<br> to be invited by pass..<br> her tough exterior,<br> then you'd recognize the presence<br> of something divinely superior.<br> <br> She was a work in work,<br> a good Samaritan and a jerk.<br> A saint, she ain't <br> but she was the perfect balance<br> of sinner and winner.<br> And right before it was over<br> I watched her even conquered hell,<br> kept up appearances,<br> she wore the armor of God quite well.<br> <br> She lived a marvelous life,<br> not just as a mom<br> a daughter,<br> sister,<br> auntie,<br> grandma <br> and twice over,<br> a wife.<br> <br> Mother's Day is different,<br> never will they be like the rest.<br> Being without her being is difficult,<br> But I made a promise to give it my best.<br> So before the waves come a crashing<br> and I go numb, <br> figured I let you in on <br> how my mom was everything..<br> and then some. <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br><br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-50722385710348727572020-04-19T22:03:00.001-04:002020-04-19T22:03:27.876-04:00Eventually all the calls will cease and desist,<br /> causing you to seize and resist<br /> thoughts that you too have ceased to exist..<br /> You'll feel dismissed.<br /> Left questioning why, <br /> text now go without reply<br /> from people who said they'd be there.<br /> Soon you'll have to teach yourself to breath with no air.<br /> Stare<br /> at a starless sky wondering where's the sun,<br /> no pun,<br /> it wasn't until dawned on me that I saw the light..<br /> 2020 sharpened sight<br /> The rain's gone and I can finally see clearer now,<br /> fog's settled I can vitally see clearly how<br /> people will offer to stand with you in your grief,<br /> but only when it's brief.<br /> And over time your belief will trump their relief<br /> cause you'll be left in midair,<br /> with nothing more than a wing and a prayer.<br /> So learn to fly,<br /> get good at goodbye.<br /> Confess<br /> this is your call to quiesce.<br /> Master peace,<br /> openly release.<br /> Cry out torrential rain,<br /> fill buckets up with your hidden pain.<br /> Solange,<br /> the only way to get around this crane--<br /> is through.<br /> It's you vs you.<br /> Because yes<br /> in this test,<br /> eventually all the calls and text will fade,<br /> relationship retrograde.<br /> Just be thankful for the few that stayed<br /> and forgive those who strayed.<br /> Focus your vision on your Father in heaven,<br /> He must love you so very much,<br /> because at the peak of your valley,<br /> He removed physical touch.<br /> Shut down the whole world <br /> to show you it's not about being comforted by any of them,<br /> blessed you with quarantime so you could pull on<br /> your God given strengths from within.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-63443161812469919702020-04-19T22:00:00.000-04:002020-04-19T22:00:33.529-04:00You,<br /> using your tongue on me<br /> like you're trying to create the earth's 8th wonder.<br /> I'll be the Red Sea and with your lips to my lips,<br /> asunder.<br /> Lightning,<br /> lightning usually follows the thunder.<br /> So Marvel me Thor,<br /> put your face in it<br /> like you're carving yourself into Mount Rushmore.<br /> Use that pretty mouth of yours<br /> for what it was meant,<br /> on bended knee<br /> repent.<br /> This body is a temple <br /> so praise the god in me.<br /> No blasphemy,<br /> just bask in me--<br /> these are healing waters.<br /> Call me John cause I baptize,<br /> tip the ship until we capsize<br /> but baby<br /> don't be afraid to drown.<br /> Just slowly inhale and exhale in it like you need to woosah stress,<br /> then bless your meal and eat like you've been malnourished.<br /> I do wonders for health,<br /> I'm the taste of good fortune and wealth.<br /> That's right<br /> I am the cure,<br /> organic and pure.<br /> nature's protection.<br /> I have nothing to mask<br /> but if you ask,<br /> yes,<br /> yes you can wrap my legs around your face<br /> to prevent the Corona.<br /> But eventually<br /> you will need to build that boat, Jonah--<br /> there's a flood up ahead.<br /> and like I said,<br /> don't dread,<br /> just<br /> sink deep<br /> til you sip zinc<br /> from my pink meat.<br /> Yeah baby you like it raw.<br /> You're a carnivore,<br /> and this is what you go carnal for,<br /> this is what you beg karma for,<br /> do onto others as you want done unto you,<br /> right?<br /> <br /> <br /> So come with it Ike,<br /> you and I<br /> we don't gotta fight<br /> I want the whole cake and the batter.<br /> love's got nothing to do with this--<br /> it's a fucking matter.<br /> You got me hammered to nail<br /> but I like to screw mine,<br /> I want you supine<br /> so I can spit shine<br /> anointing oils all over the head.<br /> Slide you to the edge of the bed<br /> and bless you.<br /> Be the new pope you confess to,<br /> look me in the eyes<br /> and watch as I restore hope.<br /> Or we can play Muppets<br /> and you be the Kermit in the back of Ms. Piggy's throat.<br /> Slow wind til I choke,<br /> deep stroke til I croak,<br /> if I die, I die.<br /> I've already signed over my DNR-- do not resist.<br /> There will be no throwing of any towels,<br /> I want to be on top of your moans<br /> and under your growls.<br /> Penetrate<br /> until you perforate<br /> my inner cheek.<br /> Do it just right<br /> work up my appetite,<br /> you got me craving a nutty snack.<br /> Slow kisses to the sack<br /> as I grip them from the back. <br /> You taste like,<br /> like the kind of revolution they don't want to televise.<br /> Like the antidote,<br /> the antidote they try hard to neutralize.<br /> You savor the flavor of social change.<br /> Nigga,<br /> this must be that,<br /> that Dick Gregory<br /> or abolished slavery.<br /> Baby,<br /> I'll suck the activist out of you,<br /> leave lasting marks<br /> be your Rosa Parks<br /> I want at the front of your bust.<br /> Plus,<br /> I didn't hear a bell.<br /> Ring tonsils<br /> til we quell.<br /> It's time to make freedom come.<br /> So soldier <br /> on your feet at full attention,<br /> blast off that built up tension<br /> right here<br /> about<br /> face.<br /> Violate all 6 ft of this space<br /> to kiss it,<br /> kiss it better. <br /> I'm tired of this<br /> quarantine dreamin'<br /> I'm ready to feed you cream pies,<br /> while taking shots of your semen. <br /> <br />loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-68669543131416387562020-02-07T08:14:00.001-05:002020-02-07T08:14:29.059-05:00<div>Scene: Seen.</div><div>Somewhere in between</div><div>Sent and received</div><div>They believed</div><div>The convo should be short stopped,</div><div>Hopped out the inbox</div><div>With the volume of silence left on max.</div><div>Macs closed on laps</div><div>Apps shut on lapse.</div><div>Specs full of double checks</div><div>I see blue.</div><div>ICU</div><div>Do not resuscitate</div><div>Cause of death:</div><div>Their inability to properly communicate.</div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-44489138729548471822020-02-01T13:12:00.001-05:002020-02-01T13:12:36.314-05:00<div>Standing at the crossroads of hope FULL and hope LESS.</div><div>Fighting against an invisible opponent that came to destroy the past, present and future.</div><div>With its white hand of chaos it grips every loved one tighter.&nbsp;&nbsp;</div><div>Optimistically trying to inhale and exhale.</div><div>Giving everything to hold on.&nbsp;</div><div>Quietly screaming!&nbsp;</div><div>Blind sided with open eyes.</div><div>Naive to believe everything seen.</div><div>Foolish not to.</div><div>Exhausted by love.</div><div>Drained by fear.</div><div>Traumatized by the torment.&nbsp;</div><div>God are you listening?</div><div>Can you hear me now?</div><div>They want the pain.</div><div>They yearn for the missing tears.&nbsp;</div><div>Blood soaked.</div><div>Gut wrenched.</div><div>Laboring for days only to deliver a stillborn of lies.</div><div>Secrets choking, squeezing, suffocating each promise.</div><div>Heart sickened by deferment.</div><div>Passively waiting.</div><div>Wading through unknown familiar territory..</div><div>At the crossroads of hope FULL and hope LESS.</div>loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-2670461469788804402019-10-12T23:40:00.001-04:002019-10-12T23:40:57.927-04:00<p dir="ltr">Next to you.<br> Crown to sternum.<br> Tickled by tiny tresses.<br> Safely assuring safety.<br> Soft kisses between the brows. <br> Intention at the tips of fingers.<br> Gentleness behind every stroke.<br> Heart beating the sounds of raindrops.<br> Inhaling and exhaling in sync. <br> Warm breaths smelling of agape.<br> Nestling further into every crevice. <br> Awareness wavering.<br> Drifting deeper into your gaze.<br> Lips meeting where unsaid words come to die.<br> Defying distance.<br> Kindred souls reconciled. <br> Past transgressions cast away.<br> Next to you.</p> loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-21134865379205090682019-09-29T15:35:00.001-04:002019-09-29T15:35:46.957-04:00<p dir="ltr">Y'all gon get enough of<br> choosing trophies like they don't rust.<br> Like they don't collect dust.<br> Like beauty doesn't flee<br> and in charm you can trust.<br> Y'all gon get enough of<br> choosing widely<br> when you need to be choosing wisely.<br> Planting your seeds in dirt.<br> Creating more hurt people to hurt.<br> I said<br> y'all gon get enough of<br> running from your own reflection,<br> too afraid to look in the mirror<br> frightened of drawing nearer<br> to the ones that help you to see you<br> a little more clearer.</p> loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-47257472004462051362019-09-12T16:32:00.001-04:002019-09-12T16:32:13.495-04:00<p dir="ltr">In lieu of World Suicide Prevention Day, I dedicate this piece to those that struggle with this battle. You are NOT alone. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 800.273.8255</p> <p dir="ltr">#keepgoing</p> <p dir="ltr">Never thought I'd pen realer rhymes<br> of iller times.<br> But now we're all sick. <br> At some point<br> we all wear it,<br> we all bear it, <br> a diagnosis<br> and more than half of us<br> share it.<br> Feelings of being defeated, <br> you wanna beat it<br> but what's there to do,<br> when you look in the mirror<br> and your enemy is staring<br> back at you?<br> Frustrated in your own being, <br> agitated without meaning, <br> all the while seeming<br> like everything is okay. <br> Day after day..<br> Sad cause you're angry,<br> angry cause you're mad. <br> I mean<br> they say we're all a little crazy.<br> Mentally a little hazy, <br> unable to see through the fog.<br> Bogged down by life, <br> trying to appear right,<br> like all of our shit is tight<br> and together.<br> Slowly unraveling,<br> traveling to those dark recesses<br> we try not discuss.<br> Plus,<br> if you're being honest<br> you wanna blow the match between<br> the #1 heavyweight contender<br> and the opposing thespian pretender.<br> Each in their own corner<br> Up against the ropes,<br> with hopes<br> that they both lose.<br> Refusing that anyone dare throw in towel,<br> but it's dripping red.<br> Besides <br> no one's there,<br> these are just thoughts<br> playing out in your head.<br> No one can see that you're<br> internally black and blue, <br> attacked and through.</p> <p dir="ltr">How many,<br> how many times<br> have you fantasized<br> about sliding a sharp razor<br> down your pulsing vein?<br> To watch it drain<br> into a bloodbath--<br> no period.<br> This is not your end,<br> it's an and<br> and I'm talking punctuation.<br> Leave your mark--<br> Semicolon;<br> it starts<br> when you keep going.<br> When you realize you're the seed<br> so you keep growing.<br> Them voices lose volume<br> when you choose not to hear it, <br> when you choose not to fear it.<br> Life ain't all that bad.<br> We all weather gloomy days, <br> and search for new ways to be happy..<br> You know that's an inside job.<br> So put in the work and watch it work.<br> You're never alone,<br> and if you don't believe me,<br> just pick up the phone.<br> I promise<br> someone is always near,<br> to lend you and even me <br> a listening ear. -Infinity</p> loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-11998379471387105562019-07-18T13:58:00.001-04:002019-07-29T16:23:00.538-04:00<p dir="ltr">Gee sis,<br> no blasphemy<br> I'm not trying to to take anything from sweet baby Jesus.<br> But God has gots to be a black woman.<br> And there's proof,<br> an undeniable truth.<br> Evidence of Her eminence<br> is revealed through<br> the presence,<br> of the black man's essence.</p> <p dir="ltr">Brothers,<br> in the beginning was the word<br> and then came you.<br> Greatness behind<br> whatever you set your mind to. <br> Scribed in the Genesis of her plan,<br> you were born to rule the land. <br> Fashioned to be set apart,<br> designer cut from one of a kind cloth.<br> Why do you think the world follows suit?<br> You are the flame,<br> they are the moth.</p> <p dir="ltr">See son, <br> You are the rea-son <br> the world has so much taste. <br> Salt of the earth!<br> I said season<br> you are the reason<br> the world has so much taste. <br> She<br> sprinkled you with extra flavor<br> 3 shots of mercy, <br> 4 cups of favor.<br> Which makes you<br> mouth watering<br> finger licking<br> great.<br> Wait.<br> See men,<br> semen has nutritional property,<br> if only you properly<br> value<br> how you<br> manage the goods.</p> <p dir="ltr">And I wasn't gonna take it there<br> cause it's lowkey unfair. <br> Like good God,<br> did you have to gift them with both the staff and thy rod?<br> Make em geniuses in bed?<br> Scholars at head?<br> And I ain't talking book smart.<br> For start,<br> during that skin on skin<br> they've gotta be some sort of kin<br> to both<br> Mr. Marcus and Lady Wisdom,<br> learned the moves;<br> mastered the rhythm. <br> I mean sheesh,<br> between the sheets<br> they're <u>j</u>ust a whole other<br> pedigree<br> and they better be<br> because you ain't create no dubs. <br> We no want no scrubs.<br> A scrub is a guy that can't get no love from..</p> <p dir="ltr">Me<br> Myself,<br> I,<br> only know real kings<br> that do real things<br> for their family<br> and their communities,<br> that seize all opportunities.</p> <p dir="ltr">And we know,<br> we know that<br> when you were a child<br> you did as children do.<br> True,<br> you may not have had positive<br> models or examples in your past,<br> forced to learn fast<br> that fish rot from the head.<br> So you put in the work to break generational curses <br> and assure them cycles were dead.</p> <p dir="ltr">There has always been a ploy<br> to steal your black boy joy. <br> For<br> whatever they can't become<br> they'll try their best to destroy.<br> You got em shook by your look,<br> it's too much like righteous,<br> too much of Her likeness.<br> The darkness <br> can't handle all of your<br> brightness.<br> You glow different.<br> You grow different.</p> <p dir="ltr">Somehow,<br> both flawed and called.<br> Leaders of a new cool.<br> A tribe called blessed<br> And did I address<br> how she made you all so damn fine?<br> Like she made you ALL so damn fine. </p> <p dir="ltr">Since the start of time,<br> you've been Her greatest<br> masterpiece.<br> Chosen to master peace. <br> And it so began<br> when she taught you how to be<br> the Proverbs 31 man.<br> To be that motivating<br> force that keeps<br> virtuous women going. <br> That keeps her flowing<br> simply<br> by believing<br> and<br> seeing<br> pass her insecurities and doubts.<br> By being the rain <br> in the midst of her droughts. </p> <p dir="ltr">You are the yin to our yang.<br> The presence that allows us<br> to be present<br> and fully astute.<br> For that I give you<br> props,<br> honor, <br> and my<br> sincerest salute.</p> <p dir="ltr">Kings, <br> together,<br> we are the lamb<br> of the Great I Am.<br> I'm also a mirror of what I CB4<br> a reflection of what's fact.<br> Yes, <br> God is a woman<br> that happens to be<br> blackety black.</p> loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-66093335021327556142019-07-08T22:10:00.001-04:002019-07-08T22:10:11.991-04:00<p dir="ltr">Fuck a challenge<br> Over here we ingest<br> All of our fruits and veggies.<br> Bust nuts and pop cherries.<br> V8,<br> I'm good for you.<br> "V" ate,<br> That's a whole meal for you.</p> <p dir="ltr">Ayo,<br> A taste of me<br> will elevate your mood.<br> Baby<br> I'm 100%<br> pure cedar wood.<br> Just heed the warning--<br> 2 teapoons of me<br> first thing in the morning.<br> Lightly coated <br> from root to tips.<br> Just enough<br> to hydrate and nourish<br> what's under your<br> succulent lips.</p> <p dir="ltr">I'll keep you looking<br> fresh,<br> shiny and<br> well tamed.<br> No worries, <br> you can thank me<br> when you come back<br> up from playing the <br> alphabet game.</p> <p dir="ltr">A<br> B<br> C</p> <p dir="ltr">There's no lies<br> what's between<br> my thighs,<br> leaves em moisturized.<br> The truth--<br> My coochie is like <br> the fountain of youth. <br> Naturally organic<br> have you<br> feeling and looking way young.<br> Have you saying and doing stupid shit--<br> you'll be all the way sprung.<br> I mean<br> Olay.<br> What more can I say?<br> I'm not trying to come off<br> as overly arrogant and bold.<br> Just letting you know that<br> this shit right here my nigga,<br> could be <br> bottled and sold.</p> <p dir="ltr">I'm done,<br> finished. <br> There's nothing left to bargain.<br> Them other babies are Johnson's <br> and I'm essential<br> Argan.<br> The kind you apply when you wanna<br> be pampered and spoiled.<br> The only one worth considering<br> when you want the finest of beard oils.</p> loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-90542307942553976112019-07-04T18:29:00.001-04:002019-07-05T09:15:11.882-04:00<p dir="ltr">Bedazzled by SPARKLERS<br> We could be making FIREWORKS<br> And I can teach you how making fire, works.<br> But you're drowning in a sea<br> PLENTY OF FISH <br> Swiping RIGHT<br> When I'm LEFT<br> building TINDER nest.<br> You should try a little bit of this tenderness.<br> Deep inside my V- shaped NOTCH<br> you'll discover who's best. <br> Internal grips on your member <br> EmBARK intentional friction to create an EMBER.<br> Maintain pressure and SPIN<br> Skin to skin<br> Flesh between fingers,<br> RUB it out and BLOW. <br> LAST DRAGON<br> SHO' NUFF<br> you'll be left with a GLOW.</p> <p dir="ltr">When you love me, <br> love you crazy.<br> Tell me if you with it<br> Baby,<br> CUM and get it<br> Take a new aim <br> Together we could<br> SPARK a new FLAME.</p> loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-62468527434603519232019-06-08T15:03:00.001-04:002019-06-08T15:30:28.491-04:00<p dir="ltr">Man on the stage.<br> All eyes on him.&#160; <br> He has a way with people.<br> Occasional glances,<br> Watching.<br> Can he finally see what she always saw? <br> Singer.<br> Sing.<br> Recognize. </p> <p dir="ltr">Lady in the back corner. <br> Ears wide open. <br> She has a fondness for words. <br> Listening--<br> Intently.<br> Did he bury any trace of her in his songs?<br> Singer.<br> Sing.<br> Remember. </p> <p dir="ltr">Together again admist the empty crowd.<br> Thick silence between them.<br> Everything she had hoped to hear. <br> Nothing he had offered to say.<br> Beginning of another end or end of another beginning? <br> Singer.<br> Sing. <br> Repent. </p> <p dir="ltr">Show's over. <br> Swaying silhouettes begin to disperse.<br> Exit sign brightly lit on a <br> Two way street of stubbornness. <br> Are you vain enough to think this poem is about you?<br> Singer. <br> Sing. <br> Respond. </p> loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-81366107442381618882019-05-01T07:31:00.001-04:002019-05-02T15:15:54.693-04:00<p dir="ltr">In like a Falcon<br> She Marveled at his keen Hawkeye,<br> Not your average Ant man, <br> More like a Star Lord kinda guy. <br> Blinded to the foresight of his Vision, <br> Perhaps conquering her stones was always apart of the mission. <br> To make her pay the price for those of his past,<br> An unconcious plot to dodge Avenger. <br> A pretender,<br> With the talent to tesserACT. <br> In fact, <br> Thinking back<br> she could tell he was still Loki,<br> a little Nick Fury,<br> In a noticeable hurry, <br> Quicksilver<br> To get her spun into his Spider web.<br> Plan of attack: Go for the head.</p> <p dir="ltr">I mean shit,<br> To her he was Pepper hot.<br> Like somehow maybe, <br> A pirate and an angel had a baby.<br> Hammer to nail, <br> And after the lightning comes the Thor. <br> Led her to wanting more and<br> More..<br> Of his alone TIME. <br> In the recess of her MIND<br> she knew the odds were stacked against her with a 1 in 14 million shot,<br> Wanted the protection of the Hulk but emotionally broken Bruce is all she got. <br> Universal knowledge, <br> Fall back and give em SPACE.<br> It's possible something Incredible might take Groot and Strangely happen,<br> But it waasss 70 years before they defrosted the Captain.</p> <p dir="ltr">Black Widow<br> Black Panther<br> Blackberry Molasses, <br> Unaffected by her affection, <br> He was more concerned with entertaining the masses. <br> Gases-<br> Nebula<br> Gamora,<br> In REALITY,<br> It was only her galaxy to guard,<br> Well put together on the outside, <br> Internally her SOUL had been scarred. <br> Charred <br> Scarlet beWitched.<br> Lifted high and then ditched. <br> The Endgame inevitably has to come to its start,<br> <u>Cause</u> a man made of Iron couldn't possibly have a heart.</p> <p dir="ltr">Closing scene on an unlucky Bucky,<br> She'll Winter Soldier on, <br> By appreciating what she has and forgetting what's gone. <br> POWER snap, <br> Thanos succeeded at eliminating half of their we.<br> Now there's no more of a him and a her,<br> Just the Invisible Woman;<br> Me.</p> loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-39490611663743733762019-04-18T20:21:00.001-04:002019-04-18T20:21:14.429-04:00<p dir="ltr">Hormones heightened by the sounds of a crashing wave.<br> The taste of sea salt in the air provoking me to misbehave. <br> Nipples erecting from <u>the</u> cool <u>sand</u> lightly grazing the nerves in between my toes. <br> Perspiring beads of lust capturing the fragrance of the sun within my clothes. <br> Even the clouds are congregating to form images of you on top of me. <br> Either I'm having a sensory <u>overload</u> or your absence is Jamaican me crazy. </p> loveisthissohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02361976831692627050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8650560429233797779.post-55902978634304272342019-04-18T20:13:00.001-04:002019-04-18T20:13:51.034-04:00<p dir="ltr">A song plays<br> From circa 1999.<br> A sudden pause-<br> I become paralyzed<br> By the flash of us<br> In my mind. <br> Words of a lover, <br> Written for and<br> Expressed by another. <br> Growing<br> Increasingly<br> Catatonic.<br> Drowning by<br> Symphonic<br> Crashing <br> Waves. <br> In a way<br> That only the <br> Storyteller before me<br> Could describe. <br> Alive<br> Through love lyrics,<br> We dance to the<br> Final cadence. <br> And again, <br> You and I-<br> We die. </p> 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