His World

Word of Advice

2012-05-27T11:28:00.000+08:00

Jangan suka jaga tepi kain orang lain.

Kain sendiri yang terlondeh!

Wet & Sweaty

2012-05-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

This is to put on record of the top temperature this year - where's mine towel, me off for more showers! :P

Btwo, Bfive, Blue - Babyboo! :D

Godsend

2012-05-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

Ever caught yourself smiling randomly while bustling and scurrying through the day?

Duties and academics weigh heavy as the moon ends, yet such smile frequents unconsciously.

A big sign that I am but a happy boy :)

Rescuing My Princess

2012-05-03T00:58:00.000+08:00

I recall how as a kid I have always dreamt of owning a video game console, controlling a fire-spitting Mario to save my princess or something.. but now that I probably can get a PlayStation 3 or Xbox 360 should I press move, I no longer burn similar desires - not that I was much an avid gamer to begin with, possibly due to the limited privileges I was afforded back then! (and it's a good thing LOL)

Just a very random thought. Now back to my assignment *cracks head*

Reinforcement

2012-05-01T09:53:00.002+08:00

Wow. Finding myself reeling over how affected I am on my letting down of people. If anything, this reinforces how strongly I have always felt about disappointing others. Even more so when it's not just any other person. Thing is, I probably understand more than most how upsetting it must be for the other party.

I have let myself down in that sense.

Ruthless

2012-04-28T09:29:00.000+08:00

Question : Why do people bring politics into on Fb?

It has not escaped my eyes that more and more political-influenced statuses are brought to light on Fb. I on the other hand, see no compelling reason to let the world know which side you're on.. and I struggle to find reasons to why people would bother!

Those in the corporate working line, do you really want your bosses to read all your emo statuses bashing the opposition/government? Sure you can always block them but even with your own family/friends, you have to remember that people are creatures of judgement. Yes, deny them view and deprive everyone else for that matter so nobody could see them - then there is no longer a purpose to update statuses when nobody can read them.

It is NEVER a good idea to use Fb as your repertoire for political-flamed rants to begin with!

I don't know about you but I'd rather not even discuss political inclinations. In times like this, I would amuse myself by attempting to unravel the motives of people and comparing if any would match justifications. Or even if there are potentially hidden agendas behind such posts? I can only say that, should you desire to influence or gather supporters, this is certainly not a place for your campaigning and truthfully, I don't think anyone can be bothered other than getting irked every now and then. Even patience has got its limits.

Maybe I should just be ruthless and block all feeds from these specific people to end the story.

No Coincidence

2012-04-27T16:50:00.001+08:00

It is by no means coincidence.

I set myself lofty targets to shoot for.

Anyone who wishes to measure themselves against the world should do so too.

Mirror Universe

2012-04-18T00:06:00.004+08:00

Sampled the first taste of exam all over and thought I didn't screw up too badly. Definitely could have been much worse had I been idle for the past 2 weekends. I realize I have always maintained that this isn't high on my priority list, but motivation has been just too infectious of late. Admittedly, a big part of me consciously wanted to do well to not look bad in the eyes of another - and also how I would consider myself being reasonably above average in intellect! Would hate having to consider if I am insulting myself by not taking the bull by the horn! One would rationally doubt my survival, considering I obviously won't have this setting for the next 5 sems. I however, would beg to differ.

Because that mirror universe been reversed for me to live in it :)

This Book

2012-04-11T23:45:00.004+08:00

Visits to the bookstore have always been interesting. I would stroll in between racks after another, scanning through stuff realizing that there are just so many things you want to indulge yourself in, yet you know time is scarce. Then there was this particular book that caught my eyes. As it was still wrapped in plastic wrapper, I memorized the title intending to research more about it when home comfort presents. Granted, little information were made available, but with what you can find, little expectations were formed and surely enough later, I became sufficiently intrigued to proceed with purchase.

The book had a difficult introduction and slowly eased itself into your pace once initial confusions clear themselves out. It asks questions about yourself that you never imagined ever being asked. The more I explored the book’s contents, the better I got to know myself and measure if sometimes actions in the past may or may not be the right thing to do.

Without realizing, I found myself so engrossed and addicted with it’s beautifully written plots, its rich substance, elegant style, and so much more. I began to realize why I acted in certain ways or the reasons to certain habits or behavior given situations. The more you are in, slowly you realize you’re starting to fall for this book. Further deep reflection heightened emotions and sooner even, you come to a point and acknowledge that this is real. Many have asked how one would know if they found the right book and nobody can ever sufficiently provide answers. It is definitely not something to know with one strike of a moment. It is, in fact, something that slips unknowingly and unsuspectingly into the consciousness and reveals with more questions that you demand of yourself and examinations of failures from the past.

I read on Fear yesterday and obviously it is something I have already went through prior to this section of the book. Full understanding of how it came about is extremely crucial and the book really opened up on how exactly I felt with words I cannot even begin to describe. Closest I can get would be the feeling of baring it all and being naked to another. Such strong feelings I have for this to the extent as if I feel that I’m growing together along with my reading. Obviously this is one that affects me way too deep for me compared to any other books that I can think of.

I know how crazy this would sound but to what end would you go in preservation of such books? I would keep them close by knowing how much stronger I have become even before touching the final pages. After all, this book is massively thick and interestingly enough there are many sheets of purposeful blank pages at the end too. Perhaps this is one that would blossom into everything I’ll ever need "beyond addiction and fondness” or anything I’ve ever known of. This is a special read and one book I will hold on tightly to.

And no, do not bother asking what title could this book possibly bear :)

M for Magical

2012-04-11T01:00:00.003+08:00

The associations that Scorpio and Sagittarius share can take multiple colors. They are both intense people but in different ways and that is what gives the real push to the relationship they have. Life is always exciting and fun is amazing with them.

Scorpios are generally very alluring and magnetic personalities with velvety voice and wonderful mystery that everyone wants to solve. They have a dazzling mind and burning passion with the gist to win everything they want in their life. They appears calm and friendly on the outside when in fact just underneath the surface lies their true emotions whether they hide their love and devotion towards near ones or revenge on someone who has hurt them or their close one. Scorpions never forget anything; any kindness done to them is wonderfully rewarded and every betrayal is cruelly punished. Getting in their good books gives protective and loyal friend forever. They can read anyone like a tome with their intense gaze and enjoy tearing through the secrets inside.

Sagittarius people are open and friendly for real with a spirit of adventure and jolliness in them. They are optimist and quite friendly and see the hope in any situation no matter how terrible it may seem. They love to solve puzzles and mysteries and they love to chase secrets, probing until they find the solution to a problem with a gazillion questions if necessary. Sagittarius has a blunt and frank honesty which can rip anyone’s heart apart but if taken seriously their intelligent criticism is worth taking and working upon. They enjoy socializing, being direct, being flirty and honest above all else. They love to inquire and talk and ask and flirt until their desired effect is reached and their aim is fulfilled.

The similarities between Scorpio and Sagittarius do not go unnoticed. They both seem to crave the need to know answers to things of interest. With Sagittarius, the curiosity has an inquisitive nature and Scorpio, well, it’s not just a curiosity. That is too plain a word for them. They just need to know. They are both into the competition of things. However, on losing Sagittarius sucks it up and try again next time and the Scorpion dies trying to win. If not successful they become extremely sore losers and just not much fun to be around anymore. Scorpios’ compulsion and knowledge that power gets them further in life drives them to success and drives anyone down in their path to get there. They can go about this path subtly and calmly not letting on to anyone as to what their intentions are. When the time comes, they strike and almost every time it ends up in success for them.

Sagittarius, on the other hand, is not so stealthy. They are outright blunt and ask any question they have to, to reach such a success. They come off as rude and even demanding if they feel the need. They both have their own tactics in getting to the end result of a question or problem, but to see them go head to head in conquering each others dilemmas is a sight to be seen. The two tend to go after each other with the pure goal of getting under the surface of the other one. They are both determined to do so as they both protect themselves the best way they know how. Sagittarius does like to play a good guessing game in trying to get you to figure out just who they will be today, but in play, they will drop a hint or two to make things more interesting in the game.

They both can have some dazzling relationships, especially if they are sibling or friends while in case of professional colleagues, Scorpio may find Sagittarius insincere and Sagittarius can look at Scorpio as self-absorbed. The relationship of lovers or spouses is better played with Scorpio man and Sagittarius woman compared to the vice-versa. Parents and children also find great comfort together provided that Scorpios are parents as they are more protective while Sagittarius parents can teach their Scorpio children to be more relaxed. Partnerships and business venture can flourish well till the time finances and dealings are with Scorpio and creative part is in hands of Sagittarius. If they can just sit back and relish in the good aspects of each other, let some of the bad go, and stop trying to change the other person, this is just a worthwhile relationship in all areas.

If Sagittarius can sit still and learn some self control and avoid bluntness in their words, they can better off. They can also teach Scorpio about freedom; self honesty, being more positive and laid back and that helps to strengthen the bond between them also. Another flaw that Scorpio sees in Sagittarius is their innate desire to be very outgoing and easy doing. Scorpio does not tolerate such antics as the Sagittarius frolics about, and the latter cannot understand why anyone can be so private and closed minded about something. The relationship between these two has their positive outcomes as well as their downfalls. They need to work toward a strong bond if they do indeed love each other. Scorpio can add a bit of imagination and permanence to the relationship and Sagittarius can show some more open and forthright attitude.

Source: Ask Oracle

Tick-Tock

2012-04-04T07:45:00.003+08:00

Time management has never been this testing. And I'm definitely capable of much better.

Articulation

2012-03-31T13:16:00.002+08:00

Giving voice to how I feel have always made me feel vulnerable. Seeing how I abhor appearing weak, it is something I would avoid altogether in the past. This principle has driven me to scale such heights for the best of the past few years. And yet recent events had forced me to rethink.. or maybe to readjust.

In differing circumstances, the first absolutely cannot apply. I started to see the goodness brought by vocalizing matters of the hearts upfront albeit very gently. It was and still is extremely difficult as I found myself struggling; sometimes the words you string together do not justify how you feel about that certain subject matter and it ended up wanting. Many a time, frustrating. But it is that afterglow from such sessions, that I deem most priceless; mutual understanding, strengthened bond, trust, and humility.

After all when you really think about it, if there is someone that should know you best, you realize there is no one else you want so most :)

Standstill

2012-03-22T02:55:00.003+08:00

I would lie if I deny hoping.
Yet I would not have tempted fate either.
Best to let time dictates pace.
Patient and sincere :)

In Touch

2012-03-17T02:53:00.004+08:00

I can appreciate this side of me that tears up listening to Bruno Mar's It Will Rain or Katy Perry's The One That Got Away. I am of opinion that knowing what moves myself, and being in touch with it, is indeed powerful.

Irish Blood, English Heart

2012-03-15T22:50:00.003+08:00

Do you feel frustrated when what you desire yet fulfilled. Supposed mist thought cleared grew ever mired. The given red, yet shoots fireworks. Yet I am a man of good fortune to possess many, many reasons to be grateful for. Truth is, you cannot always get what you want.

One cannot have everything.

Irish Blood, English Heart is a song I heard years ago somehow gives an apt ambiance for current mood.

Mould Thyself

2012-03-13T21:55:00.006+08:00

A friend found out that she became victim of the system today. As a close colleague, it wouldn't be apt to comment much and during this time of heightened sensitivity, it would best reserve our observations however unbiased they may be when asked to lend ear. At times she does seem distracted, yet another day you could see the differences she's capable of producing. Killer shots, however, came from the people that worked with her - taking one after another blow - they landed her into no man's land. Thankfully the recently announced fortune does not elude her. Consequences that may follow is another question altogether, ofcourse - progression, mobility, resource matters, etc.

Now come the question:
If you were in her shoes, would you question the system's flaw or do you blame yourself?
I know I would waste no time on areas that I absolutely have no influence on.

Lesson learned: Buck Up. Oh wait.. that I did. Reminder accepted.

Extraterrestrial

2012-03-11T18:11:00.006+08:00

There is this one I met recently. To put it simply, she excites me.

Weekend Thoughts

2012-03-03T23:20:00.007+08:00

When I was studying full-time, I had time for myself.
When I was working full-time, I too had the same privilege.
But when I now do both, I yet feel the same.

Aided not by my still-recovering limb that gave way last moon, I long to once again to fly in the courts absent any pain.

The obstacle for this new project challenges the nous on a different scale. Then again, only such herculean tasks can get me roused for victory. No other outcome is acceptable.

Revisit and Reminisce

2012-02-28T23:03:00.007+08:00

For the first time since forever I had the courage to flip through my fb photos.. all the photos for the past 3 years got me deeply nostalgic (siapa suruh tengok balik kan? lol). What I can say is that I saw self in a different light. What I was back then, I definitely am no longer.

Well, better not bum around for too long - working early tomorrow!

Looking Down From The Perch

2012-02-24T17:12:00.007+08:00

There were several connections being severed this week. Hadn't the time to pay much attention to them but now that I do, I think that it would actually help to live a much healthier lifestyle! Now that I've gotten back up to where I was, I have got nothing to prove to anyone but to myself now. It's all just like a console video game! :D

Lady Luck All Smiles

2012-02-14T21:13:00.002+08:00

Considering the tools suddenly made available to me... looks like I might just be able to pull it off without any external intervention! Oh what luck indeed~ :D

Sharpshooting Genius

2012-02-09T00:45:00.006+08:00

Every single second would feel like they were going forever. You know what was wrapped around your fingers could yet take another person's life. This weapon added with such knowledge would make the weight feels tonnes heavier. The guys in the television certainly made everything look too easy. Arms would now be unstable, swaying and shivering within a small radius, unable to mask the pulsating veins within, fighting hard to contain the furious bullets of blood pumping through your overworking heart.

Your ears would be covered cleanly and you would hear absolutely nothing but the echos of your own beats making the seconds edge even more slower than it could possible go. You no longer feel beads of sweat pulled down by gravity on your forehead. You no longer feel the blood-sucking mosquitoes' penetrations on your skin. You no longer feel the strains of your muscles holding your body up, shoulder's width apart. You would struggle to keep your eyes at the target and yet the eyelids would never stop twitching. The task of precision is now a slow painful process of getting all factors together. You would pull the trigger when a good aim was felt, but millimeters after another, the inevitable never came.

Your find your grip wet in your palms. Slippery. You now wonder when is the threshold of the spring in this machine in your grasp. A good aim was lost as distraction crept in high by the nerves. After what would seem to be yet another eternity, a rare good aim came by and the muscles in the forearm rush to pull the finger at the trigger ever closer, matching the earlier motion ever so slowly. Anticipation of the inevitable heighten as tension climaxed in your thoughts. Images of inferno flash across too quickly, or so you thought it was hallucination.

Just when you feel you would allow your eyes a blink, your body would be shoved backwards from the shoulders throwing you several steps backwards out of balance with only confusion as reward. You wonder within the two micro-seconds, what would be the cause of such impact, before you realize that it was the recoil of a missed shot.

It is now that I ask - how precise is your shooting compared to mine?

Gorilla Chieftain

2012-02-07T12:29:00.005+08:00

I am simply too conscious! Maybe it's vanity talking. But if it's not, then yes - I care too much when I really shouldn't anymore! Okay, I think it's just vanity there..

Sigh, it's so frustrating having a bad ankle! *give out a lung-bursting gorilla roar*

*cough-cough!!*

How Do You Know

2012-01-30T23:29:00.004+08:00

When a person truly loves you? - suffice to say, outside of your own family members, you rarely do :P

Ankle Gave Way

2012-01-29T10:20:00.005+08:00

Just when I thought I'm gearing up on fitness gear again, I sprained my ankle - great. I remember that particular year when I had one after another injury and then none for years. Let's hope this isn't the case of one opening the floodgates for more!