so this is life

Have you heard this story?

2013-02-24T19:48:00.000-08:00

Three weeks ago the boys didn't have school. so I planned a fun outing for us to do with a sitter. Sadly the sitter got the flu so it was just me and the boys. I was taking them to jump on a big giant trampoline. This was going to be so much fun for them and me.
We talked about it and watched videos about the place. They boys couldn't wait for us to go and have a fun outing. I was looking forward to them burning off some extra energy.
We get there and get our special socks with grips on them so you don't slide. I wrangle the boys and we put our shoes and coats in the cub's.
P and N are both faster then me so they run out and start jumping. All is going well and I head out to jump. I fell the first on my first step woops.
This trampoline is very springy no big deal I get up. we are jumping the boys are having a great time. I am having a blast as well. Then all the sudden when I land there is a loud pop and my knee moved. I screamed and fell down the pop sounds gave me a small scare. I try to stand and can't then the tears come. The worker came over to help me walk off the court. I tried standing and taking a step. My knee moved again in a way it shouldn't have.
More tears and pain well now I'm stuck on the the trampoline court.
The first worker radios a manager to come out. I chat with them while still trying to keep track of the boys. At this point it is clear I will not be moving on my own. So they call a ambulance for me.
By this time people are starting to stare at us. In fact I made a new friend about the age of 2 who kept coming up to me. He kept asking me what was wrong why are you crying?
The first responders aka fire men showed up. They look at my knee and chat with me and strap me to a board. By this time the EMT'S are here and ready to take me to the ER. I am able to get a hold of Brian on the phone. At this point I'm not able to speak with out crying because of pain. So the fire fighter caught to chat with him. We agree on the hospital they are taking me to.
because I use wit and sarcasm as coping methods. I'm cracking jokes and being a brat on the ride to the ER.
Giving the EMT's crap and just being very sarcastic. I get checked in and am waiting to be seen by a DR. This whole time the ER staff keep telling me they see lots of people from this place. Wow gee thanks for making me feel so much better. I get x rays not a easy thing when you can't stand on both of your feet. The x ray tech is going on and on about the jumping place. Brian and the boys get there just as I get back to my room. The dr comes in looks at my films and gives me some pain pills and sends me on my way with a brace.
A few days later I got a MRI and then got to wait to see the Ortho turns out I tore my ACL. In 17 days I will be having surgery on my knee. These last few weeks have been full of laughs and tears.

2012-09-09T11:15:00.000-07:00

I think its time to dust off the old blog. Lets see if I can do better keeping it up this time.

Kindergarten

2012-03-24T18:32:00.002-07:00

My oldest is starting kinder this September. I have started looking into different schools in our area. The public school up the street is great. I have a meeting with the special ed teacher in April. N has some sensory issues. I am shocked how fast my baby has grown. Eek my youngest P will start preschool this September . We have been working on potty training its starting to click with him. I can't wait to be diaper free.

Way over due.

2012-03-17T18:00:00.002-07:00

My poor blog is rather dusty. Things are going alright I no longer work outside the house. My feelings on being a stay at home mom are bleak. Some people love seeing their kids 24/7 and have the mental health for it.

I'm looking into kindergarten for my oldest. That is so crazy when have the last almost 5 years gone? P is going to attend preschool this coming fall. He is still a crazy little kid who bounces off the walls. We have been working on potty training this last month. I think we will be diaperless in a few months. How crazy is that my boys are growing up.

Three words.

2011-08-24T23:44:00.000-07:00

Give me three words … three words for each part of speech. Let me know who you are!

Noun: Kindle, Jackson bottom , sleepy monk coffee.
Pronoun: anything, me, ours
Adjective: , loyal, alive honest
Verb: loving, playing chasing
Adverb: quickly, patiently,today
Preposition: above,beside , without
Conjunction: after, because, whenever
Interjection: Woot !, ouch, thanks.

Fun facts

2010-08-11T15:16:00.000-07:00

Here are some fun facts about me right now.
I went back to work a week ago.
14 months and still nursing my bug
Haven't shaved both my legs at the same time in a while.
we have tiny cute ears of corn growing in our garden.
B got me a bike
I'm teaching my 3yr old how to catch frogs.

One Year ago today

2010-06-14T14:17:00.000-07:00

San Francisco

2010-05-08T22:14:00.001-07:00

Paul getting ready to do some drinking.
Cool sign at the beach we visited.
My dear dear friend Sarah. Who I went to visit.
Not the best picture.
Paul noming on my breakfast. Little booger sure can put food away
Those are all the pictures I took so sad I know.

growing up

2010-04-23T22:15:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday Brian's youngest sister got engaged. Which to be honest I did not see coming so soon. Granted they have known each other since high school. Have only been dating for three months and are gong to have a July wedding. yes July as in 2 months from now crazyness I tell you madness.
I think if Bethy was more of a planner I wouldn't be worried. Lets hope things go smooth with very little stress for the family.

I think that about covers it. As I made a comment on Summers blog the other day. The cat is licking me ugh Ruby or Miss Piss is a odd cat. I love her but dude get off me .

For some reason I have taken to saying Dude. Must leave the house more without children or I will lose my ever loving mind.

sunshine

2010-03-18T16:28:00.000-07:00

I love that its getting nice outside. The boys and I spent about 2 hours outside today soaking up some vit D.

jaded

2010-03-04T21:46:00.000-08:00

My little sister is attending The Bethel School of Supernatural Ministries. I don't know what my feelings on this is are. When did I become so jaded was it from growing up in the church. Seeing how Pastors and others acted one way while at church. Then turning around and acting a complete different way.
I miss going to church worshiping feeling like we are part of something.

Paul on the zoo train

2010-02-26T22:24:00.001-08:00

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Last weekend we took the boy's to the zoo. The weather was sunny and warmish. This is Paul on the train looking at the boys behind us. I think he enjoyed the kids more then Animals.
Nolan had a good time seeing everything and riding the train. I love being zoo members we can go for a little bit. With out having to worry or feel like getting our money worth.

Etsy

2010-01-24T20:29:00.000-08:00

I found a store called Gulf Coast Cottage that sells felt patterns. They have a food,pots and pans Even a robot pattern. I can't wait to order from them so I can make things for my boys.

here is the link check them out for all kinds of cute ideas.

The year is going well

2010-01-23T21:14:00.000-08:00

So far the year is off to a good start. Brian and I are planing on a trip to Cali for a make up show. This will not happen until late June still I can't wait. The boys are healthy and doing good. Brian was given a bonus bigger then we have seen in a while. This Oct he will have ten years under his belt at Intel.

Not a baby.

2010-01-15T19:06:00.000-08:00

Paul has been learning to crawl this week. This means my bug is no longer a baby. On the same note Nolan is working on potty learning. I am very happy and proud of my boys while at the same time a little sad. I can't help but think that my last baby is growing up much too fast.

The end of 2009

2009-12-31T09:22:00.000-08:00

2009 was a great year we welcomed Paul into our family. Here is a list of 110 things I would like to do this year.

1. Plan meals
2. Always shop with a list
3. join a CSA
4. Get Nolan potty trained
5. Enroll Nolan in preschool.Done
6. Plant my garden earlier Done
7. Get a new dresser for my room
8. Hang and put away clothes every day.
9. Get front porch painted
10. Finish paint touch up in the house.
11. clean the ovenDone
12. Put house on the market
13. buy a new bigger house
14. Take time to read.
15. Join a book club
16. learn to knit
17. cut down on my coffee in take
18. have a meatless meal once every week.
19. make a meal in the crock pot once a week.
20. make bread once a week.
21. Do High tea with a friend
22. get mani/pedi once a month
23. Do the shred every week.
24. take walks with the boys weekly
25 take up running
26. go to Jackson bottom teach the boys about birds.
27. go to the library weekly
28. get fitted for a new bra
29 do mommy and me swimming with Paul
30 enroll Nolan in toddler swimming
31. get Ruby groomed
32 brush Ruby weekly
33.Visit the zoo monthly
34. go to a concert
35 have a monthly date night
36. See a play/ musical
37. Volunteer at NW Children's twice a month
38. Find a new church
39. Finish a sew project
40. Learn to dye yarn
41. Visit Sarah in San Fran
42. Ride a street Car
43.Learn to drive a stick
44. Drive a tractor on the 4Th
45. go to the river
46. jump in puddles done
47. Go sledding
48. can green beans
49 make/Can pickles
50 go on a date with my mom
51. Send thank you cards for every gift.
52. shower daily
53. find a job
54. pick berries
55. go hiking
56. Get a bike
57. Go on family rides
58 walk to the store this summer.
59 Ride the Max to the zoo.
60. Ride the Max to my folks house
61. Write a letter
62. Find someone to draw up the tattoo I want
63. Get a massage
64. go on a picnic Done
65 make home made pasta
66. watch a sunrise
67. get pass port
68. Update my resume
69. Catch up on filing at home
70. Get new tires for CRV Done
71. learn to tie a tie
72. Learn to us our DSL not just point and shoot.
73. visit a museum
74. try a new type of food
75. buy a non-traditional colored shoe
76. get a new hand bag
77. Do Make up every day even if not leaving the house.
78. Get dressed every day.
79. Go Camping
80. Visit the Beach monthly this summer.
81. frame some pictures
82. have a family photo done
83. color a strip of hair that is not normal in nature.
84. laugh daily
85. learn to iron
86. get a full size ironing board
87. use my punching bag
88. take a waxing/make up class
89. go to a skincare/make up expo
90. mop weekly
91. dance with the boys daily
92. get new sheets Done
93. Lay under the stars on a warm summer night.
94. Spend a day without electronics (phone, TV, video games, etc)
95. go to a movie by myself
96. Do a puzzle not a kid one.
97. Attend a festival or outdoor event of some sort.
98. host a dinner party
99. Have a girls night out.
100. try a new wine
101. go wine tasting with the in laws
102. have a game night.
103. get a cute hat
104. put the bird feeder back up.
105 plant a sunflower Done
106 my sister flowers just because.
107. blog weekly
108. Buy a green eye shadow Done
109. Visit the Smiths done
110 make a list for 111.

fabric give away.

2009-11-22T10:32:00.000-08:00

who doesn't like a fabric give away. To make it better its Flea Market Fresh fabric.

Christmas pictures

2009-11-12T20:45:00.000-08:00

Today my mom and I took the boys for pictures. Well that was fun or something like that. N spent the time giggling or fake crying. P did really good he only got fussy at the clothing change. We got a few cute pictures they are not perfect by any means. N would jump around and waves his hands during the photos. P has some drool running down his chin and some cradle cap. Stupid stuff is holding on for dear life ugh.

wordless Saturday

2009-11-07T09:35:00.000-08:00

Pink Ribbon month

2009-10-28T18:24:00.000-07:00

As we all know October is Breast cancer awareness month. Good Mama diapers made one just for this reason. They are giving a portion of the sales to Susan G kolman

fight like a girl

Oct 15

2009-10-15T10:02:00.000-07:00

Today is http://www.october15th.com/ a day for remembering babies lost. I have never lost a baby.
there is a charity event for a mama who lost her baby. http://hyenacart.com/fresh/
we have been given the gift of breast milk from a mama who lost her little girl. For that I'm truly touch by her gift and love.

so be sure to snuggle your babies today. Maybe give a friend or family member a call who has lost a little one.

Wool

2009-10-04T21:30:00.001-07:00

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Christa knit up some new woolies for Paul. I can't wait to put him in this cute little set.

laid it all out

2009-09-25T22:14:00.000-07:00

The other day I let things flow. I told B about my unhappiness how it is creeping back. How spending money and eating a cookie are a quick fix. I asked him to change my paypal pass word. So I couldn't get that quick fix by buying my boys cute fluff or wool.
My depression has shown its ugly head again but different this time. I have told two people that its time to change. They will hold me accountable and make sure I fallow threw . I know things will be better there is no shame in seeing someone or taking meds. I wish more people would be open with this issue .

once again

2009-09-16T10:38:00.000-07:00

My life is up in the air. I'm not happy being a stay at home mom. Things are just not great or what I want. I need to figure out where am going if that means work or school. I need to get out of the house and talk to adults. My children are suffering because of my unhappiness. So far I haven't found any mom that understand me. They all love being stay at home mom's with spotless clean houses.

life

2009-08-25T21:08:00.000-07:00

Grandma D called Grandpa D is on his way out. We went and saw him with the boys last friday. I am sad the boys will not have any teal memories of him.