Life of a Bipolar Manic Princess

those ppl who are invisible but think they know EVERYTHING!! TRUST IS EVERYTHING...... betrayal is nothing with no trust, i dont know you but thanks for showing me who you are, now i do!

2024-01-27T21:09:00.000-06:00

IF U HAVE TRUST YOU CAN TELL & SAY ANYTHING.. ACT LIKE YOURSELF & BE YOU. ONCE A TINY PIECE BREAKS SLIVERS OR SHARDS.... ITS NOT TTRUST ANYMORE....ITS A DISASTER ITS IRRETRIVABLY BROKEN... IT TAKES A SECOND TO BREAK TRUST AND FOREVER AND A LIFETIME AFTER TO GAIN EVEN A LITTLE BACK.. BE SILENT BE STILL .... SAY NOTHING AND YOU SHOW EVERYONE WHO U R AND WHO U ARENT. LET PPL SHOW WHO THEY ARE WHILE YOU JUST STAY SILENT BC ITS BETTER TO KEEP PPL GUESSING AND THINKING OR SAYING WHO YOU ARE... TRUTH IS, WHO YOU ARE IS NOTHING LIKE WHAT PPL THINK SAY OR PORTRAY. SAYING NOTHING IS SO MUCH MORE CHARACTER THAN SAYING SOMETHING THAT JUST PUTS DOUBTS IN PPLS HEADS ABOUT YOU. I KNOW WHO I AM AND I HAVE BIT MY TONGUE MORE THAN THE AVERAGE PERSON BUT I HAVE ONLY MY CHARACTER TO UPHOLD.. WHAT YOU DO IS WHAT PPL WILL NOT SEE OR SEE, depending on if YOU ALLOW THEM TO OR THEY INTRUDE... SO ALL IN ALL WHAT THEY KNOW IS STILL ONLY WHAT they think they know.. let them watch listen and laugh and judge. truth is, we're not in their private lives so who am i to judge, but who are they.?.? saying nothing kills all doubt.......... but living my life with my husband says everything that no one would hear or know unless we told them what was going on. so, shame on prey or shame on judgemental ppl.. i rather would not be judgemental at all and be good with what i do know.. my husband loves me unconditionally,,, and i know who doesnt like me and even hateths me... i dont have enemies but ppl who dont know me and think they know everything. let them.........

Lifehouse - Storm

2017-08-11T23:51:00.001-05:00

A song that i dedicated to my mom before she passed away from cancer :( RIP Mommy) xoxo

Tragic Soul: Friends

2015-04-11T10:32:00.001-05:00

Tragic Soul: Friends: How can you be friends with someone that you have had so much of time with. that is impossible says some. too much feelings. it took him exa...

THE PUBLIC RAPE EXPERIMENT!

2014-09-19T21:47:00.001-05:00

◘•I was shocked to see such sadness from such a strong woman, who is a survivor!•◘

2013-11-01T16:14:00.001-05:00

Take My Breath Away... by kristalee featuring a bracelet bangle

Sad piano (this will make you cry)

2013-07-18T21:32:00.001-05:00

Pink Summer Nights

2013-06-23T05:47:00.001-05:00

Pink Summer Nights by kristalee featuring a cross-body

LOOK AT YOURSELF AFTER WATCHING THIS

2013-05-30T12:02:00.001-05:00

Abby's Story - A Bullying Story

2013-04-26T03:21:00.001-05:00

Bullying happens everywhere and all the time: in schools, on the streets, in reality shows, at parties, at festivals and birthday parties. . . it's as little as walking down the street and you're getting bullied ..

Stop Bullying NOW!! Raise Awareness and Spread The Word!

Behind the Glamour: The Real Marilyn Monroe | Biography Documentary

2013-04-18T16:26:00.001-05:00

Diamonds are a girls best friend!

(Self Harm Song) Please Don't Cut (Official Lyrics Video) Original song ...

2013-03-04T21:14:00.001-06:00

2013-02-27T15:02:00.001-06:00

Not Your Average Chick: Stop glamorizing self-harm.

2012-10-28T01:11:00.001-05:00

Not Your Average Chick: Stop glamorizing self-harm.: NOTE: The images and content of this post may be triggering to anyone who has or currently cuts or participates in self-harm. That peo...

KristaleeAnn77's photostream

2012-09-30T03:12:00.001-05:00

KristaleeAnn77's photostream on Flickr.

Stronger ...

2012-09-18T04:23:00.001-05:00

Right now I have to be stronger than I might have ever been. There are demons trying to deter my life in the wrong direction, I just have to remember to not allow them to and try to deter myself in the completely opposite direction.. If I don't, the devil will win and I will lose. I am trying to keep my mind in the right place, although its so hard right now.. But me being a strong woman, I need to stay focused on what I need to accomplish.. I will not let the devil bring me down, down to the ground.. I will get through this. Amen

Meaningful Tattoo

2012-09-12T22:46:00.001-05:00

My inspiration, my son Landon.. I love you punky!! 💝

I just had my first oral surgery ..

2012-09-12T22:40:00.001-05:00

The first of a few surgeries to have my beautiful teeth back and my smile I have been missing for many years! I hope the worst is done bc I'm in so much pain.. )=. But I'm excited to heal and get my smile back!! Ok, back to sleep.. Nighty Nite. ~Kristalee

'CAUSE AND EFFECT' OF 'NO COMMUNICATION.'"

2012-06-26T17:52:00.003-05:00

I am so content with my life, however I am not so content with my marriage! I have tried and tried and tried everything to make it work and nothing works. I get blamed for everything and I am always the bad seed and I can never communicate with him because he blows up.. Especially if it is something he doesn't want to hear, that's when all hell breaks loose. ..Not even something he doesn't want to hear but something about him or his character makes him completely irate!!!!! So, our communication level is at a BIG "O." That would be zero, not an 'O!.. The thing is, I tend to know the reaction before I say something, however, 'always still say something!' Then the same situation that always happens, HAPPENS.. The same mean voice that always happens, HAPPENS.. Then the same angry angry person that always, HAPPENS.. I continue to try to talk to him and it doesn't matter what it is, if it sounds like I am putting him down, or demeaning him, or touching on a topic that is sensitive because I said something that, 'may just be the truth that he can't stand to deal with and certainly doesn't want me to know because that leaves him, VULNERABLE."I have put everything on the line, my whole life, everything in it, everything I have went through, every person I have hurt or those who have hurt me.. Private, Personal, Sensitive... I EXPOSED MY LIFE IN DETAIL WORD FOR WORD, PLAY BY PLAY, GOOD AND BAD HAPPY AND SAD!!! I realize now, I exposed my entire soul, inside and out! There is nothing more vulnerable than divulging my every concealed, covert confessions including my mind body and soul and everything about me inner and outer that I don't like or do like. Or things that I need to change or that I do not like or need to work on. Or things that are sensitive issues such as my every insecurity I have. That's when he turns around all the time and uses those horrible insecurities against me and tortures me with screaming them all out of his mouth with a big grin. Or thing that he doesn't even need to know, for instance a man making a sexual innuendo at a bar when he wasn't there and nothing happened. Because somehow, everything gets turned around on me and then it's back to going out with a friend every 'Once a year!'If my husband knew I was writing this blog, he would be livid, defiant, enraged and utterly infuriated!!! We communicate when it comes to anything regarding, 'Making Love, Sex, Being Intimate or Affectionate.' ..Or should I say he communicates regarding anything and everything regarding copulation and my mind says, 'this is never a problem for him to talk to me about 'SEX' but he can't talk to me about real issues and I am almost forbid from talking about my real issues because I know the effect after I start talking?!!?'So, I just got some of my frustrations out, he just doesn't get it and it could be walking in on him having an affair and making love and he would then ask me, 'what's wrong, what did I do!' So, I have almost given up because there is nothing else he can say or do to me that hasn't been done already. Most importantly, I need a husband to talk to and listen and COMMUNICATE!!!!!!! It's just that to him, I say everything he doesn't want to hear or talk about and that's, "CAUSE AND EFFECT when there is, "NO COMMUNICATION!"XoxoXoOxoXOxoXoOOXoXO, Kristalee ♥

Kristalee's Flickr Photostream

2012-06-14T18:11:00.001-05:00

KristaleeAnn77's photostream on Flickr.

Self Injury Awareness

2012-04-13T02:23:00.001-05:00

Garbage - You Look So Fine (HQ)

2012-04-07T04:27:00.001-05:00

Cutting~ Self-Harm~ Self-Injury Help~ Support~ Treatment~ Bipolar~ Quotes~ Stories~ Photos~ Facts~ Myths

2012-03-30T15:10:00.001-05:00

Cutting/Cutters/Self-Harm/Bipolar/Depression

https://www.facebook.com/CuttersAwareness

I AM A CUTTER
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Bipolar & Everything In Between
https://www.facebook.com/BipolarHottie

Quote Pleasures ...~Quotes & Photos of all type
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Like ME

2011-11-14T00:06:00.001-06:00

LiveLeak.com - Abortion Video

2011-10-13T07:10:00.000-05:00

Very Disturbing and Too Sad for me to watch after a few

seconds of playing... But it's all to real in today's society.

LiveLeak.com - Abortion Video:

'via Blog this'

This thing called life

2011-10-04T17:12:00.001-05:00

Some may call me dumb, naive, stupid and worse bc of the choices I have made in my life. Some good and some were bad and others were horrible horrible horrible. I guess we don't ask to be born but moreless, we don't ask for the way we grow up. We just learn from those around us and we watch intently and we grow and learn from them. The ones who teach us the most are our parents and I grew up around abuse. We grew up around the finer things, like your typical middle class family. I was taught well, raised well but I also was abused. I don't see the abuse as a negative in my life but rather a positive bc it helps me understand a lot more about myself. This weakness I may have portrayed or felt in my life is becoming my biggest strength ever. To have parents who are sopossed to love you and be there for you and never hurt you, they hurt me the most. I have put up a shield and the shield has kept the good away and let the bad in so close to me. I hate the word victim bc it sounds weak and I am a strong beautiful smart woman. I have a handsome son who is so bright and he's my world. God and jesus and my son and my sons step mom have really changed my life for the better. I'm so proud and have the world in the palm of my hands. Don't give up faith, never give up.