En Route

Something Special

2011-07-19T08:40:00.000-07:00

I should be doing my homework in journalism right now but I just couldn't get myself working on it. I'm always a late sleeper- a night owl- in every sense of it. And usually by midnight my brain is on the marathon. Tonight is just another night but this time I want to do something- not my homework.
Two weeks ago, I went to a variety school to buy things I need for my teaching activity. "Something Special", that's the store's name. I don't know what urges me to ask for the saleslady to give me a crochet thread. I have a hook since high school and I still have it. Well, now I know why I bought those thread.... I want to start crocheting a scarf for my little niece...... ♥♥♥
Good luck to me! :)

Are you a Lady?? checklist....

2011-07-05T03:53:00.000-07:00

Mom once told me that I am a garbage collector because I would collect newspapers and old magazines. I would cut pictures especially photographs of houses and foods and I would put them in a folder, ( I can't explain why :)) My college notebooks was one of them though they don't have pictures ^_^

Last night during my hyperactivity time ( I'm a night owl), I was cleaning my bookshelves when I stumbled on my old college notebooks. As I arrange it on the bookshelves I thought of throwing some of it on garbage since I have little space in my apartment and it's becoming crowded with books and old notebooks (Think of it as a library LOL!). Well, its been 10 years I've been keeping it, I scanned it first when I stumbled on this note about becoming a lady... I remember copying this in one of a published books I have read in our college library. Here it is:

Becoming A Lady

A lady maintains proper posture - stomach in, shoulder relaxed and head up.
A lady never gossips.
A lady has her legs and underarms free of hair
A lady smiles frequently.
A never panics upon entering a crowded room.
A doesn't tug her hair, chew gum or play with her pen in public.
A is free from bad odor each day.
A has an alert expression on her face. She doesn't appear tired, bored or unhappy.
A has a pleasant voice.
A never shakes her legs, overwork her eyebrows or mouth when conversing with others.
A lady keeps her laughter soothing to other's ears.
A lady wears a wardrobe that is freshly laundered, well pressed, well fitted and most of all appropriate.
A lady never applies cosmetics at the dining table... (Arg! Guilty ha! Ha!)
A lady knows current events.
A lady knows when to listen and when to speak up.
A lady doesn't use meaningless phrases such as "Oh brother", "golly", "shocks", "ah", and "you know".
A lady doesn't wear make-up more than what she needs.
A lady keeps her gestures graceful not jerky.
A lady never smokes while walking
A lady knows the dining etiquettes.

A LADY is always a stand out from the rest, a LADY always gets the best job, not to mention a LADY always gets the "GOOD" man..

The Pain of Losing you

2011-06-26T03:48:00.000-07:00

“Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I’ve felt, letting go is the most painful yet.” -Unknown

Loving isn't easy as it may seem. It's like a complicated tangled web especially if you are in a complicated relationship. As a young girl, I loved reading romance pocketbooks and dream of having the same happy ending, but it wasn't easy to have one.
About 9 years ago, I met this man, twice my age, in one of the internet chat room and friendship grows between us. This friendship gets deeper that it end up in a romantic relationship. Though I know that he's a separated man (but not legally) I gambled on a chance.
It was like a heaven sent relationship, we rarely fight and there was a give-and-take relationship between us. Maybe because we have the same personality ( we both are born under "aries" sign) that made us understand each others thought, feelings and sometimes actions. It goes for almost 2 years then I thought that it wasn't an ideal kind of relationship and thinking of his kids I do not want them to experience what I had been ( my mom and dad are separated). So, I deliberately stop any communication we have. I ignored any SMS messages and e-mails from him. I changed my cellphone number . I stopped opening my messenger fearing that he would be online and communication would be open again between us. I just couldn't face him and tell him that I'm quitting. I am afraid that I won't be able to say the words.
Months passed by, I felt like I moved on already. So, I went back to a hobby; internet chatting and web surfing. Unexpectedly, when I opened my messenger account, he was online. We had short conversation and agreed to a plain friendship he offered. But it didn't happen. Old flame was rekindled and we were back in each other arm....
It was until few months ago, when I felt insecurities hovering in my entire self. I'm wanting more of him which I know he cannot give for according to him, he has baggage that he cannot throws along the way (his kids).
I made up my mind, I should free him. Two weeks before our birthday, I started ignoring him again. I know he felt what I was up to-so he sent a short message telling me that he's letting me go... I cried so much that I felt like I died instantly after reading his message but I didn't even attempt on responding to it. I guess this is the end of everything we had, but I'd never regret loving him......