The 12 Step Junkie

October 8th: Junkie Journal

2007-10-09T00:20:00.000-04:00

Geesh, sorry for the delay in posting and updating on the 'ol blog. Typical addict, start something and never finish. Actually, I my life has somewhat turned upside down in the last couple of weeks. Mainly due to having to work (many) more hours than I normally do. Unfortunately for the next month or so, I will have to cut my (almost) daily blogs down to one or 2 a week. BUT...I will continue to update the podcasts and other items on my blog. I'm not "back out" , there is no need for concern, sobriety is good, I am just going to be very busy for the next few weeks and might not get to blog as much as I'd like.

Junkie Journal:September 20th

2007-09-20T18:51:00.000-04:00

Resentment is a cup of poison we pour for our enemy and drink ourself.

So last night I was listening to Bad, Bad, Parents from The Recovery Podcast (love it!) and I realized that I have alot of issues with my parents. Well, let me take that back, I always knew that I had issues with my parents, but I didn't really realize how deep they really were until the last couple of months, especially after listening to that podcast. I also have alot of resentment towards my parents. So I decided that I should do a posting about it.

As of today, I haven't talked to my parents (my mother and step-father) the last couple of months due to me relapsing and getting in trouble again. I haven't talked to my "real" father (the sperm donor) in probably 5. Now, I could go on and on about this particular topic, but I will try to keep it as short as possible.

I come from a very well off family. My parents traveled alot when I was younger so I was usually shipped off to my grandma's house (which I didn't mind as I got older, because she trusted me and pretty much let me do what I want) or my best friends house. Now don't get me wrong, I had it pretty good as a kid. Never wanted for anything, I had the biggest house of all my friends, my parents drove Lexus', Jaguars...you get the idea, but they were never there. When they weren't out of town, my mom was at school finishing up her PhD. and my step-father did even more traveling on business. But then when we all were home at the same time, it was unknown what kind of mood my step-father was in, and in turn was a reflection of the mood my mother was in~there was always so much tension on that house. Well, now they are even more successful and unfortunately I think the fact that they have an alcoholic and addict for a daughter almost embarrasses them. My mother didn't even tell my uncles for God's sake. I mean, when you're hiding it from family, there is a problem.

As far as my real father, he is an alcoholic also. He was my drinking and pot-smoking buddy for a while. Complete opposite of the life with my mom & step-father. My father has burned every bridge there is with my brother & sister & myself. The last time I actually saw my father was 8 years ago, it was the day I brought my twin daughters home from the hospital (after being in intensive care for a week), he walked in asked to borrow $100, I gave it to him, he walked out and I never saw him again. Didn't even go into the other room to see his new granddaughters. Supposedly he is clean and sober now, has been for about 5 years and lives down in Florida. He must not be to step 9 yet, because I sure as hell haven't heard from him.

The funny thing is, I talk to my (ex) step-mother more than any of them! And my dad & her divorced 16 years ago!! She has never been critical or judgemental of me, no matter how bad if f'cked up, and she has always supported my sobriety.

Like I said, I could go on and on when it comes to parents and resentments, but I said I would keep it short.

If you haven't listened to it yet, here is the link to Bad, Bad, Parents. This podcast is the best one I have found so far. Bruce Wayne is kinda the Howard Stern of Recovery podcasting, at least I think.

Junkie Journal:September 19th

2007-09-19T18:46:00.000-04:00

So today was the big day. Back in court. Actually it wasn't to bad because I received my plea agreement in the mail last Friday, so I pretty much knew what I was walking into.

I am very, very lucky~considering they found me passed out in my passenger seat of my car(keys in purse), they only charged me with a public intoxication. And this is also my 2nd offense.

Now just real quick, if you are not familiar with my story, I was charged with an OWI in August 2005, got sober, then relapsed recently and was arrested in July of this year. I wasn't back out for long, but it sure didn't take long for the trouble to start again. And I will also say, the way I was drinking was WAY worse after my relapse. We hear that all the time, but for anyone that has doubts~IT'S TRUE!

My girlfriend, "Hope" (from the whole "Joey" ordeal) went into rehab this evening. I wish her the best, but the more I have talked to her the last few days, I really think she has a long road ahead of her. She made reference yesterday to the fact that she just "wants to get this over with and go back to normal". Well, I'm sorry to be the one to tell you this, but if you're serious about recovery, your life is going to be far from normal. At least for a while. Going back to "normal" is setting yourself up for failure! Trust me, I know! She is so damn worried about loosing her job (which just so happens to be in a bar! Yeah, I said "a bar"), she's more worried about that then the "unknown" of recovery. I tell you what, that's what scared the shit out of me was the "unknown", not whether or not I was going to loose my job in the bar I was working at. I could care less. Anyhow, she is exactly where she needs to be right now. She just needs lots of prayers.

Speaking of our "friend" "Joey", that whole thing sort of blew over. After our heated discussion, we worked together to get Hope a bed at a local rehab, and just called it at that. Thank you for all of your comments, and I wanted to give an update on that topic. I still will avoid him like the plague, don't get me wrong.

I called a girlfriend of mine in recovery and she goes to alot of the meetings I like on the other side of town, so I'm just gonna glue myself to her for a while. We got sober a couple of years ago around the same time, she just didn't relapse like yours truly, so she has some time, and I really like her.

That's all I got.

Can I Sue?

2007-09-19T13:08:00.000-04:00

Down south, Bubba called his attorney and asked, "Is it true theys suin them cigarette companies fer causin people to git cancer ?"

"Yes, Bubba, sure is true," responded the lawyer.

"And now someone is suin them fast food restaurants fer makin them fat an cloggin their arteries with all them burgers an fries, is that true, Mista Lawyer?"

"Sure is, Bubba."

"And that lady sued McDonalds for millions when she was gave that hot coffee that she ordered?"

"Yep."

"And that football player sued that university when he gradiated and still couldnt read?"

"Thats right," said the lawyer.

"But why are you asking?"

"Well, I was thinkin . . . What I want to know is, kin I sue Budweiser fer all them ugly women I slept with?

Thanks Denis! :)

Junkie Journal:September 17th

2007-09-17T15:18:00.000-04:00

Now, before you read this, you may want to read my Safe Meetings blog from September 3rd to make sure you are up to speed on the crazy bulls--t that's going on in the small town meetings that I go to.

On my way to take the girls to school this morning, a friend of mine called me to tell me that she had made the decision that she needed to stop drinking and needed help. Now, this was a major, major move for her, and never have I heard her speak a word about getting help for her drinking in the past. Over the last few months, she has lost 2 friends that refuse to talk to her because of her drinking, has had an intervention organized for her and has been threatened to have her son taken from her, however she never saw that she had a problem until this morning.

After I dropped the kids off, I went over to talk to her and she said she was ready. She said she was ready to do whatever it took to stop drinking(key words). We have a mutual friend, we will call him Joey. Well, Joey has 14 months clean and seems to think that he wrote the Big Book and has worked a perfect program. But actually, Joey has not worked any of the steps yet. (Other than maybe the first 3). Joey is an angry dry f'ckin drunk is what he is. He is no better off emotionally or spiritually than he was when he was drinking a year ago. This is the same cat (or one of them) that my Safe Meetings blog was based off of. Apparently Joey advised my friend to stay away from me because I couldn't stay clean.

WTF??? Are you kidding me?

I relapsed, I know that, I own it and I moved passed it. Who the f'ck is he to tell one of my best friends to stay away from me when I am trying to help her in that fist step of starting a new life? This is one of the issues that I have with this small town bullshit and trying to stay in the program. Gossip in small towns is bad enough, then you get a bunch of drunks and addicts that have nothing better to do and it just becomes a big mess. Now I am pretty sure the last time I checked there wasn't any pictures in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous of anyone that has worked a perfect program, and I sure as hell didn't see a picture of him in there anywhere.

I confronted him on it this afternoon (which I know now I shouldn't have done) and he literally started screaming and attacking me (like I said ~angry f'ckin DRY DRUNK!!) that I'm not working the program because I haven't been coming to meetings. You don't know that I haven't been going to meetings. I just stopped going to the same ones you go to. I quit going to them because of YOU!!! That is when he proceeded to tell me "I could care less if he ever saw your face at another AA or NA meeting again, D". (his exact words!)

Whoa! Okay, now wait a minute. I don't know what Big Book your reading, but in the one I'm reading, that is something one addict should never say to another.

He then kept screaming at me and I just hung up. He maybe able to get away with that shit with other people, but I'll tell you what...I'm sure as hell not going to sit there and listen to it.

He has ran off 4 people with his harsh, "tough love", tactics not to mention all of his gossiping. I now drive on average 30 minutes to a meeting when I have one literally across the street from my house,and I do this because I don't want to run into this guy and all of his drama. I have a few friends that are doing the same.

I talked to another addict yesterday who just relapsed after 9 months and he is ashamed to go back into the rooms because Joey spread the word about his relapse. That's bullshit! This guy is has been a very close friend of mine for many, many years. I want to see him get back on that horse. I hate that he felt ashamed to walk back into a meeting after his relapse. Everyone of those people have been there and done it, but sometimes, unfortunately, some of them forget.

I was listening to Bruce Wayne's podcast the other night, I believe it was Episode 1 (hover over "Episode 1"~the link is there!) but I'm not for sure, where he made reference to the 13th step (boy, don't get him started on that lol), and basically people in the program were making it their business to get into this man's sexual affairs and long story short~ the guy ended up going out to the parking lot and blowing his head off. Now, to me, this falls along the same lines. You don't want to scare off the newcomer and you don't want to scare off the one that is coming back. It was a sad story and unfortunately things like that happen, because of people making other peoples business theirs. You work your program, I'll work mine.

As I said, its just not Joey, there are more of them out here and it is just really getting old. When you get to the point that people are avoiding certain meetings or just avoiding meetings period then there is a problem, a BIG problem.

I'm done, I just had to share that. It has been eating at me all afternoon but I'm letting it go now.

Please pray that both of my friends get the help that they need and soon.

Thanks for letting me share,

Downloadable 12 Step Workbooks

2007-09-17T13:42:00.000-04:00

I found this this site some time ago and I thought I had posted the link before, but apparently I didn't or it got deleted. None-the-less, this site offers free downloadable 12 Step Workbooks.

Click here for Workbook 1

Click here for Workbook 2

and a 40 Day Commitment guide to the steps. Now, by no means will you (or should you) go through all 12 steps in 40 days (at least I don't suggest it), but it is a really good guide to the steps and would be great for the newcomer to at least get a feel of the steps and what all is involved.

Signs You Are Drinking To Much Coffee...

2007-09-17T13:40:00.000-04:00

-You answer the door before people knock.
- Juan Valdez named his donkey after you.
- You ski uphill.
- You grind your coffee beans in your mouth.
- You haven't blinked since the last lunar eclipse.
- You lick your coffeepot clean.
- You're the employee of the month at the local coffeehouse and you don't even work there.
- Your eyes stay open when you sneeze.
- You chew on other people's fingernails.
- Your T-shirt says, "Decaffeinated coffee is the devil's blend."
- You can type sixty words per minute ... with your feet.
- You can jump-start your car without cables.
- Cocaine is a downer.
- You don't need a hammer to pound nails.
- Your only source of nutrition comes from "Sweet & Low."
- You don't sweat, you percolate.
- You buy 1/2 & 1/2 by the barrel.
- You've worn out the handle on your favorite mug.
- You go to AA meetings just for the free coffee.
- You walk twenty miles on your treadmill before you realize it's not plugged in.
- You forget to unwrap candy bars before eating them.
- Charles Manson thinks you need to calm down.
- You've built a miniature city out of little plastic stirrers.
- People get dizzy just watching you.
- You've worn the finish off your coffee table.
- The Taster's Choice couple wants to adopt you.
- Starbucks owns the mortgage on your house.
- Your taste buds are so numb you could drink your lava lamp.
- Instant coffee takes too long.
- When someone says. "How are you?", you say, "Good to the last drop."
- You want to be cremated just so you can spend the rest of eternity in a coffee can.
- Your birthday is a national holiday in Brazil.
- You're offended when people use the word "brew" to mean beer.
- You have a picture of your coffee mug on your coffee mug.
- You can thread a sewing machine, while it's running.
- You can outlast the Energizer bunny.
- You short out motion detectors.
- You don't even wait for the water to boil anymore.
- Your nervous twitch registers on the Richter scale.
- You think being called a "drip" is a compliment.
- You don't tan, you roast.
- You can't even remember your second cup.
- You help your dog chase its tail.

Thanks Wolfenshe!

Junkie Journal: September 14th

2007-09-14T11:38:00.000-04:00

Right now I am having alot of issues with my family that have been affecting my sleep. When I relapsed and was arrested in July for public intoxication two of the most important people in my life gave up on me and stopped talking to me. My mother and my 15 year old daughter. Most importantly my daughter. She lives with her dad now and has not returned my voicemails, emails or IM's for over two months. (To be honest, I think my mom had a hand in her silencing me) I don't blame her for being royally pissed off at me. She thought I was "out of the woods" so-to-speak and then I let her down by relapsing. The night I was arrested, she was at home babysitting her 8 year old twin sisters when the police came knocking on the door at 1am. Luckly she did not answer the door and she called my ex-husband (her stepfather) telling him something was wrong. He came and got the girls, thank God, because the police could have very easily have taken them and the situation I am in could have been alot worse that it is. My ex-husband took her to her dads the next day and I haven't talked to her since. That absoulutly kills me inside, but hopefully with time she will learn to forgive me.

Since this episode, I have not been able to sleep and when I do my nights are filled with nightmares where I am running from people that are trying to kill me and/or other dreams about my parents~particularly my mother. Right now I am only getting about 4-5 hours of sleep at night. I've talked to my counselor about it several times over the past couple of months and he suggested several all natural solutions, but none have worked for me. Monday when I went to see him, not only did he suggest that I stop working on my 4th step and put it on hold, he agreed that I was well past the all natural solutions and suggested a prescribed sleeping pill. However, this scares me. I am afraid I will replace one habit for another. So needless to say, I am still a little up in the air about this one.

Any suggestions or comments on this one are greatly appreciated.

Have a great day!

**If you find any of the links on this page broken or not working, please let me know.

Free 97 Page Addiction Recovery Help Guide

2007-09-14T11:16:00.000-04:00

In exchange for your email address, you can download this Help Guide~so far, my email has not been spammed~ and I found it quite useful. Although the guide makes reference to quiting smoking alot, it is written by a recovering alcoholic. Among many things, this guide offers tips for dealing with cravings, ideas for staying sober and touches base on Post Accute Withdrawl Syndrome (PAWS), which is what I think I am experiencing now.

Click here to get the guide.

**If you find any of the links on this page broken or not working, please let me know.

Bears In Bars

2007-09-14T11:15:00.000-04:00

A bear walks into a bar in Billings , Montana and sits down. He bangs on the bar with his paw and demands a beer.The bartender approaches and says, "We don't serve beer to bears in bars in Billings ."

The bear, becoming angry, demands again that he be served a beer.The bartender tells him again, more forcefully, "We don't serve beer to belligerent bears in bars in Billings ."

The bear, very angry now, says, "If you don't serve me a beer, I'm going to eat that lady sitting at the end of the bar."

The bartender says, "Sorry, we don't serve beer to belligerent, bully bears in bars in Billings ."

The bear goes to the end of the bar, and, as promised, eats the woman. He comes back to his seat and again demands a beer.The bartender states, "Sorry, we don't serve beer to belligerent, bully bears in bars in Billings who are on drugs."

The bear says, "I'm NOT on drugs."The bartender says, "You are now. That was a barbitchyouate.

Sicky

2007-09-09T15:46:00.000-04:00

Sorry for not posting the last few days. I am very sick with strep throat. I should have myself back together again in a day or two.

Thanks for you patience.

Diane

Junkie Journal:September 5th

2007-09-05T16:13:00.000-04:00

Well, I did it! After 3 years of saying I'm going back to school, I finally am. I enrolled today, even though I am switching schools (and careers) for now. Before I hit my bottom, I was a psychology major at a local college here in Indy. Even though for the time being I plan on going into medical assisting, I still plan to return as a psychology major and work in addiction counseling in the future. Going back to school will be a huge change for me, but I am glad that I can pick up where I left off (with out to much damage to my GPA). Not that I consider anything I did during my using as smart, but I can say at least I recognized the fact that I could no longer to use the way I was using and stay in school. I had to pick between the two, and of course I chose the drugs and alcohol. But today I am grateful that I did have another recovery left in me and I have been given another chance to be the person that I want to be.

I am still working on getting the women's group going, so if you are interested in joining, please let me know!

Happy Hump Day to All!!

Alcoholism & Addiction News

Wapato considers partial alcohol ban
WAPATO, Wash. (AP) - Officials in the city of Wapato are considering a ban on some alcoholic drinks at stores in an attempt to curb public drunkenness. Go to article.

The husband of a former Labour MP who died of alcoholic liver disease has called for more psychiatric treatment for alcoholics who end up in hospital.
Chris Jones, husband of Fiona Jones, 49, who died in February, said she was depressed at the negative publicity that came with the loss of her seat.
The Newark MP lost her seat in Parliament in 1999 after an inquiry into alleged election expenses fraud.
She regained it after an appeal but lost at the next general election.
Mr Jones said the "trigger" for her drinking was the criticism she took over the loss of her seat over allegations of electoral fraud. Go to article.

Scott Hanson granted bail
A Clark County judge decided not to send former Ridgefield city Councilman Scott Hanson back to jail Wednesday and instead confined him to house arrest while awaiting trial on felony cocaine charges. Go to article.

IRAQ: Violence, poverty, unemployment fuel rising alcoholism
As the violence continues in Iraq, many people have been turning to alcohol to relieve their stress, say observers.
"The consumption of alcohol in Iraq has surprisingly increased in the past few months," said Kamel Ali, head of the Health Ministry's drug and alcohol-prevention programme. "Every day more patients look for help as their addiction begins to seriously affect their personal lives."
Go to article.

Romantic love affects brain like drug addiction
Her front brain is telling her he's trouble. Look at the facts, it says. He's never made a commitment, he can't keep a job. Go to article.

Books I am currently reading

The Big Book

A Woman's Way Through the 12 Steps

The Little Red Book For Women

Shop for more books on alcoholism, addiction & recovery

On my iPod

Joel Osteen: Developing Better Habits

Motivation To Move: Become a Network Excerciser

**If you find any of the links on this page broken or not working, please let me know.

The Junkie Journal: September 4th

2007-09-04T20:06:00.000-04:00

Ex-Political official helping others kick substance abuse

" I was a product of alcohol and disease, and I would do anything to make a buck" states Bill Brown after 18 years of sobriety.

After a strenuous ordeal in Washington D.C. during the Nixon era, 2 heart attacks, and waking with voices in his head this ex-politition decided he had had enough and got help ~at that time he was diagnosed as an alcoholic. Brown spent some time at an Arizona addiction center and then worked as a busboy at the Katz Delicatessen in Phoenix making $3.85 an hour, where Brown says " I was never happier in my life. I didn't have to lie. I didn't have to make you like me".

Years later, he is working as a franchise-business consultant again and he and his wife Barbara Nicholson-Brown now organize the annual **Art of Recovery Expo set to be held at the Pheonix Convention Center September 29th. They also publish Arizona Together newspaper that is dedicated to recovery.

Read the full article at facesandvoicesofrecovery.org

**PLEASE NOTE: This event is FREE!! Not only do they offer addiction-therapy programs and medical treatmens, Recovery Expo is also offer FREE workshops on credit repair, education, relationships and other topics.
****PLEASE PASS THIS ON!!!****
I don't live in Arizona but I know some one out there does!

2007-09-04T14:05:00.000-04:00

Sober Sista's

I am in the process of forming a women's discussion group. For now this will be an online community, however I hope to have a local meeting up and running early 2008. If you are live in the Indianapolis area and interested in more information about this group please email me.

If you would like to recieve an invitation from the online group when it is up and going, please let me know.

Burning Desire: "Safe Meetings"

2007-09-03T20:43:00.000-04:00

I feel that meetings should be a safe place and free of judgements & criticism's...

Right?

Not so much the case around these parts lately.

Let me start by saying, I come from a very, very small town. A small town that is surrounded by small towns, and what I thought would be an advantage, I quickly learned that it was just the opposite.

At meetings in other parts of the world, the people you encounter at meetings~you meet them sober (most of the time). Very rarely do you meet them while they were using, so you have no idea what that person was like before.

That isn't how it works out here.

Many of us have known each other for 10, 20 even 40 years. And unfortunately it seems like some people think that because they have some recovery time under their belt, they are better in some way or another. There has been a lot of talk and snickering at the meetings lately and it is just really starting to piss me off.

It has pissed me off so much that I have started switching up my meetings and trying new ones. In some ways I just don't think that these people are capable of letting the "old" you along with their options die in this "everybody knows everybody" town.

(I talked to my counselor about it last week, and he said he had heard the same thing from other people so I know I'm not crazy (well, maybe just a little!))

Now at the risk of sounding judgemental and critical myself, I must say this:

What they all seem to forget was~I was the bartender serving them drinks ("way back") in their using days and I have seen damn near everyone of them at their worst. I've let the "old them" die along with my opinions, why can't they do the same with everyone else?

In the last few weeks I have seen "ol' timers" corner (and I mean CORNER) someone and question their sobriety, I have seen girls snicker and and talk while one particular girl was sharing~several times, I've heard someone start a rumour about someone else in the program, and then turn around and do the same damn thing to me.

I promise, there will be more to come on this topic.

I hope you all had a happy and safe holiday weekend!

Junkie Journal: September 2nd

2007-09-01T17:16:00.000-04:00

This is a post of mine that was on SoberCircle.com from back in July. I hope you enjoy.

Sunday, July 15, 2007
10:03 PM
Beaten
I haven't written or updated this thing in a while. Typical me, always starting something and not finishing it~f'ckn addict! Lol! Anyhow, alot has gone one this week. I have gone from being threatened that the girls were going to be taken away from me and my mother disowning me to things are strarting to look up (as other have told me they would.). I really need to work on that people, places and things, though. I found myself at the pool this past weekend with the same pleople I ran around with. Almost like I'm just setting myself up for failure. But it did make me realize....

I can't be around drunk people. Funny how drunk people piss me off when I'm not drunk myself. And yes, I really did act that same way. Pathetic. But long story short, I did end up going home and watching a movie with the girls.

I did delete about 50 numbers out of my phone this past week. That was HUGE for me. I don't need them anymore. Not one of them called me to see how I was doing all this week. The only time they want something is when I'm holdin' something or they need someone to go have a drink with. I always found an excuse to hold on to those numbers and those people in the past. "Oh, well, someone might need their number one day" , or "Oh, I'll keep it in case they call I will know it is them so I don't answer it"

Buuuuullshiiiiit!

Bullshit,

Bullshit,

Bullshit,

I kept them so when I went back out, I would have someone to party with. That's my sickass thinkin'. I went to a great CA speeker meeting lastnight with some friends in the program. We laughed our asses off! It was like we were at a comedy club or something, and we were sober. I've been noticing the closer I stay to the program, the more fun I am having. Duh! I know. I have had sereral periods of sobriety (haven't we all) and relapses, in and out of AA, NA and every kind of A, but I don't think I entirely "got it" until now. Hopefully I'll get it right THIS time.

"We reached a point where we could no longer continue using because of physical, mental, and spiritual pain. When we were beaten, we became willing." (pg. 20, Narcotics Anonymous.)

Current Mood:
Hopeful

Junkie Journal: September 1st

2007-09-01T09:49:00.000-04:00

Kindly discard your drinks elseware~and quit throwing them on my f'kn car!

Geesh, I had a hell of a time rolling my ass out of bed this morning (rubbing eyes and yawning). Which I can't understand why, because today brings the kick off of one of my favorite things....Notre Dame football! Even though I am saddened by the summer coming to and end, I always look forward to this time of year. But none-the-less I managed to jump up and make my morning cup of tea (I'm giving coffee up for a while) and it looked to be the start of a good day.

Or so I thought.

About a month ago, I was taking a friend home after a meeting. First let me say that I had just got my car back from the shop after having a new front end put on it and I couldn't wash my car for 30 days (per "Buck"). Anyhow, the guy in front of me was turning left and got in the left hand turn lane as I continued in the "forward" lane. His passenger rolled down his window and "flung" (is that a word?) the contents of his cup all over the driver side of my car~fresh paint and all. Well, the same thing happened again today, only this time I was (of course) riding with my window all the way down. You DICK!!! I was so pissed.

Now, the reason I am sharing this story is that it occured to me that on both occassions the old me would have high tailed it after that little prick and caused all kinds of new problems for myself. But today, I simply growled, pulled into the car wash and hoped karma would grab him by his throat and choke him.

~Thanks for letting me share.

Get Well Soon Owen!
"OK! magazine has dispelled rumors that Owen Wilson went directly from the hospital to rehab. Instead, they beli eve he is resting comfortably in the home of fellow Texan Woody Harrelson."
Go To Article

Hopped up Pussy
An agitated pet cat left in a cupboard overnight turned out to be high on cocaine and benzodiazepines left over from a wild weekend dinner party, a report said Saturday.
The eight-month-old Himalayan cat arrived at a veterinary clinic with dilated pupils and a racing heart, while the owner said it had trouble walking and was easily startled, The Sydney Morning Herald reported.
Go to Article.

Nikki Sixx To Speak Out At Drug Addiction Recovery Luncheon

Motley Crue founding member Nikki Sixx whose brutally honest upcoming book The Heroin Diaries: A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Star (due September 18th from MTV Pocket Books/Simon & Schuster) chronicles his battles with drug addiction and his road to recovery, will be a featured speaker at the 18th Annual National Alcohol and Drug Addiction Recovery Month luncheon on Capitol Hill, September 6th.

Go To Article.

WTF?

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Junkie Journal: August 31st

2007-08-31T22:31:00.001-04:00

~I'm an alcoholic and a cocaine addict. I took my first drink when I was 13 and was drinking on a regular basis by the time I was 16. I started messing around with cocaine when I was 22 briefly, and didn't touch it again until 4 years ago. Over the last 4 years of my life I have gone through a divorce, lost my grandmother, been in rehab twice, the most recent stay in December of 2005, and been to jail twice.

The last year and few months have been a constent struggle for me to stay sober, and I relapsed a few months ago after being sober for a little over a year. I thought I was bigger than this disease and I was just reminded that I'm not.

I've tried drinking and using every way. Just drinking alcohol, just smoking pot, just drinking wine, only drinking on the weekends (yeah, that lasted 'til 'bout Wednesday), you name it~I tried it. I kept looking for that secret formula to keep my drinking and using under control, but never found it. What I did find was that my life had become unmanageable.

The Dangers of Non-Alcoholic Beer
It Could Be Dangerous For Those Trying to Abstain

They call it "near beer" and it may be nearer than you think.
Those trying to abstain from alcohol are warned against the use of non-alcoholic beer, now there may be scientific evidence to support the admonition.
Recently in a topic discussion in our Alcoholism Forum, a visitor was given many different reasons why others had decided not to try so-called non-alcoholic beer, if they wanted to remain sober. Avoiding the temptation was the reason most often offered.
Other than the fact that all "NA" beer does contain a small amount of alcohol, there is now a new study out that seems to support the theory that it can cause a relapse for recovering alcoholics.
Go to article.

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