在世界的某个角落等待

End of my first year

2011-06-22T19:17:00.003+08:00

Today is a day that marked the end of my first year of university life and it gave me a feeling that it is just a day back when I had finished my foundation. Taking a degree course, I was first expecting to have much free time and more relax than secondary school life or even foundation life and I am actually looking forward to it. However, when I actually went through my degree, it is totally different from what I am wishing and hoping long ago. My first year life is quite torturing and I have always been buried by lab reports and assignments in which some of them the marks is inversely proportional to the efforts that I have put much into it, making me overwhelmed by disappointments whenever I got back my work. Apart from that, I am trying my best to put in more interests towards biology field during my first year. I always had a feeling that biology does not suit me at all as I am weak in 'conquering' them. My confidence level towards my studies is dropping particularly because of biology which sometimes make me pissed off. Biology is always not the first choice for me to be involved in in my future life but I have now stepped into it and can't let go of it. Thus, I have no choice but try my best to befriend with it, hoping that I can go through my second and third year smoothly.

Coming to the end of my first year, just like everyone hoping for, I wish my results for this semester will be better than my first semester especially my biology. In this first year, the most memorable thing should be the first 0 for my assignment. I have never got zero for even a small test and it really happened to me during my tertiary school life, what a pity yet exciting moment for me (should I hate myself for feeling excited when zero mark came into my hands??? LOL LOL LOL). I am optimistic enough though to treat that as a complement as I would never gt less than zero again, sounds ridiculous but at least I feel the comfort when I got zero.

Take it as a complement when things do not meet your expectations, take it as an encouragement when things do came out with what you are expecting

Good Friday~~

2011-04-22T11:21:00.002+08:00

Today is Good Friday, but I am not going to church though. Indeed I am feeling guilty for this has been the third year I didn't go to church on Good Friday. Whatever reasons that I gave, that seems to be just my excuses. I did feel like going but I just feel very troublesome when need to use public transport to go to the church which has quite a long distance from my hostel. Hmmm... Guess I should change my attitude...

For me, Good Friday is a gift that God give to human for what we have done on this Earth. Everybody definitely will do something wrong, however, as long as we are willing to change, there is always a hope. Jesus's death proved that God is always giving us a chance to change, to confess and to appreciate everything that He has given to us regardless of the good or the bad.

Most importantly, keep God's will in our heart, always remember what Jesus taught us and this will be a good reply to God's gift.

Good Friday, a sad day as Jesus died for us, a good day for God forgive us for what we have done

Just Some Boring Things..

2011-02-14T14:13:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since my last post, and there is a lot of things that I wish to express here. However, due to my laziness and my brain has not been working hard since 15 Nov 2010, I do not really know how to express much...But then, just to have an update on my blog, I will just share some songs which I feel touched and are extremely nice for me here...

Lastly, wish everyone has a nice valentines... for couples, appreciate each other while for singles, wish you guys would get one soon...XD

A different Birthday!!

2010-08-21T21:06:00.004+08:00

This year, just like last year, I am not at home celebrating my birthday with delicious food from my mum. However, a second surprise given by my house mate and course mate which is quite touching to me... They had make me feel warm when I am far away from my home. They even planned it together with Irene which I not even knew it all. It really surprised me that night. I was totally shocked when I was at that moment.

The video they prepared, the card that they made, the cake that they bought, means a lot to me. Most importantly, Irene had taken part in celebrating for me. I am touched enough when I knew it. Luckily my tears did not roll down like waterfall. XD

It was indeed a memorable birthday for me. May be not a great one, but is definitely a touching one. A simple celebration is meaningful when your loved one, and your friends were involved in it. Thanks to her for giving me a different kind of birthday even though she was not with me. But, that is enough for me. I appreciate it.. =P

Results

2010-06-28T13:55:00.004+08:00

Results is out!!!!!

Finally, I got my results and I am quite satisfied with it even though it is not a superb results.

For me, I am really fine with it. Thank God!!!

By seeing the results, I also found out that my GPA is 4.00. That's something new for me!!!!

It's great!!!

The happiest thing is that I managed to get a good result for my biology!!!

Wootssssss!!!!!

Course:

MONASH UNIVERSITY FOUNDATION YEAR (3650)

Year

Unit title

Credit points

Mark

Grade

2009

ENGLISH PART A

6

81

HD

2009

CHEMISTRY PART A

6

85

HD

2009

MATHEMATICS PART A

6

95

HD

2009

ADVANCED MATHEMATICS PART A

6

92

HD

2010

ENGLISH PART B

6

84

HD

2010

BIOLOGY PART B

6

94

HD

2010

CHEMISTRY PART B

6

91

HD

2010

MATHEMATICS PART B

6

96

HD

Grade point average (GPA) and Weighted average mark (WAM)
Course	GPA	WAM
MONASH UNIVERSITY FOUNDATION YEAR	4.00	89.75

手机的甜蜜

2010-06-08T15:07:00.002+08:00

一部手机，

最简单的信息功能，

却让一对远距离恋爱的情侣近在咫尺。

一封哦、喂、嘻嘻、哈哈。。。

带来了无限的甜蜜与欢乐。

我爱你、我想你。。。

都一一用信息来表达了。

一封封的信息，

也透露了自己的心情，

远方的情侣也因而感受到自己的心情，

信息的力量无可限量。

回忆一封封的简讯，

脸上不自觉露出了一丝笑容，

很温暖，很温馨，

感觉她就在身边。

一次次的约会、约定，

都印在简讯中，

反复地回看，

甜蜜的画面都呈现在脑海中。

爱情，

可以很甜蜜，也可以很压力，

好好地对待自己喜欢的人，

别让她受伤，

爱她、疼她、呵护她，体谅她，

这都是常常听到的，

可有多少人能真正办到呢？

争吵、冷战、闹别扭，

这都会发生，

体谅、珍惜、了解、

却常常被忽略了。

爱情，

得来不易，

当你愿意为了一个女生放下一切，

好好珍惜她吧！

比想像更想你

2010-04-25T10:09:00.002+08:00

离开她有两个星期了。。。

对她的思念慢慢占据了我的一切。。。

好喜欢和她在一起的时光。。。

因为一切都变得很不一样。。。

心是甜蜜的，

人是开心的，

爱是零距离的。。。

...

2010-04-21T20:49:00.002+08:00

好想好想。。。

回到吉隆坡快一个星期了。。。

回来的那天。。。

坐在机舱里。。

望着窗外的一切。。。

脸颊湿了。。。

心里好不舒服。。。

累了。。。

来来回回。。。

人生就在这两个起点徘徊。。。

多希望可以安顿下来。。。

好怀念家的感觉。。。

你在我身边的感觉。。。

进入梦乡。。。

这一切近在眼前。。。

好幸福、好甜蜜。。。

梦醒了。。。

一切都回到原点。。。

该走的还是的走下去。。。

就这样。。。

生活又回到了现实。。。

回家

2010-04-09T21:26:00.002+08:00

假期了，心里充满无尽地喜悦。。。

虽说只有短短的一个星期，但也蛮满足了。。。

回家的感觉真好。。。

在家时，一直都对家没什么特别的感觉。。。

自从离开家后，生活不同了，环境不同了，也开始想家了。。。

天天都盼望着可以回到家，感受家庭的温暖。。。

明天就要搭着机械鸟，回家。。。

好兴奋，好。。。幸福。。。

家，永远是最美的。。。

Stress

2010-04-04T15:27:00.002+08:00

Stress!!!!!
Again, don't know what happen to me...

Suddenly feel very down...

Sometimes find it useless learning all the things...

Tiring and depressing...

Doesn't that learning should be a very fun process???

But now I end up getting tired and tired to my life...

Sigh....

Frustrated...

2010-03-12T20:04:00.004+08:00

Work never seems to be end. Assignments, homework, research... All of these seem to have buried me. I am struggling to dig a hole from this whole pile of work just to take a fresh breathe. A time in which I can at least relax, having enough sleep, without any worries.

Tiredness has overwhelmed my life. Ever since I continue my studies this year, I never had sufficient time to sleep. Daily routine make me piss off. How nice if I were to give up my life? I would need to continue, there is no reason I can give up. I need to continue my performance so that I will still be awarded scholarships, so that my parents will fell proud because of me, so that I can fulfil all the promises I had made to her.

Nobody will be so lucky all the time. Same for me, sometimes laziness conquer me, internet waving its hands to me, tiredness pull me away. My marks not as good as last semester. It's kinda frustrated. I want myself who is hardworking and dilligent back. Biology is like a sharpen knife, stabbing into my heart as my first exam was just 68. Fed up with it.

No choice, just do whatever I can, I would make sure I will stand up from the place where I had fallen down. Nothing can beat me down. Is me who conquer and control the things. I am the one who will decide all the things.

Hope things will get better.

想念

2010-02-26T11:14:00.002+08:00

一种无形的感觉。。。

围绕着你的心。。。

牵挂着自己心爱的人。。。

遥远的距离。。。

让这无形的感觉越来越浓。。。

像极了一杯浓缩的咖啡。。。

时而苦，时而甜。。。

也是这种感觉。。。

把两人紧紧地牵住。。。

为这份感情增添了酸、甜、苦、辣。。。

让遥远的距离渐渐地变得近在咫尺。。。

因为这种感觉。。。

往往让自己呆呆地望着天空傻笑。。。

在别人眼里像个精神病似的。。。

但掉进这感觉陷阱的人又怎会在乎别人的眼光。。。

看着月亮。。。

好比看着她的笑容。。。

好美好美。。。

想着她。。。

好比一件幸福的事。。。

就算她不在身边。。。

心里还是甜甜地。。。

说谎

2010-02-19T14:40:00.003+08:00

2010-02-13T15:17:00.002+08:00

又是新的一年了，每个人都希望新的一年有新的开始，希望一年过得比一年好。当然，有谁不想一年比一年更有钱、谁不想一年过得比一年舒适、谁不想一年比一年更幸福。。。

新年不仅仅只是希望更好，而且还该反省自己又没有退步了，比之前差了。

新的一年，也该好好规划自己了。

这么多年来，很多时候都没有好好对待自己心爱的人。没好好去了解她，甚至对她太霸道了。什么事都管，弄得大家斗嘴、不愉快。感情嘛！有谁不想甜甜蜜蜜的呢？但是，不是每件事情都能在自己的预料之中。感情难免会有许多波折，只有两人一起共同面对，这感情才会牢固。答应你，会多了解你，多关心你。把你放在心中的第一位。

家庭方面，多和家人沟通，好好对待每个人，珍惜这难得的缘分。多珍惜和家人相聚的日子，很多时候我们都身在福中不知福。只有离开家人，才懂得家庭的温暖。好好珍惜自己的家庭，亲情是永远的。

学业方面，也该更努力些了。很多时候都被网上的一切给迷住了，根本不能专心。是时候把自己打回原形，好好努力一番。为进入大学做好准备。

金钱方面，也该好好存一存钱了。为将来做个计划。有了钱，将来也有个保障，了了自己生命中的一个重要心愿（你懂的）。

今年最希望自己的生活继续幸福，和心爱的人在一起，多关心对方，好好珍惜这得来不易的感情。。。

陪伴

2010-02-11T15:58:00.002+08:00

自己常常在想，到底能不能没有别人陪伴的日子。陪伴真的就那么重要吗？

的确，每个人都需要陪伴。家人的陪伴、情人的陪伴，甚至是朋友的陪伴，往往都是每个人所想要的。有了陪伴，就能与人分享心里的一切。

不要在乎谁为谁付出的比较多，想想自己有没有多花些时间陪陪生命里重要的人呢？

有了陪伴，感情可以更坚固、更稳定、更甜蜜。。。

陪伴也可以让对方更了解彼此的需要

时间真的是陪伴一个人的藉口吗？

多在乎自己身边心爱的人，多注意自己身边心爱的人，多鼓励自己身边心爱的人。。。

陪伴，不外乎就只是那么简单。。。

好好珍惜和心爱的人在一起的每分每秒。。。

多关心他们的需要，没有人是完美的。。。

把自己认为最好的都奉献给心爱的人。。。

害怕

2010-01-02T16:20:00.002+08:00

爱情可以让人很甜蜜。也可让人很害怕。。。

回顾2009

2010-01-01T12:54:00.003+08:00

2009 年，可真是我人生中最多转变的一年，也可谓我人生中重要的一年吧！

　　最初，心里为了中五成绩一直忐忑不安，心里一直担心着考不好。日祈祷，夜祈祷。。。还好，考出了完美的成绩，也为自己在中学生涯画上了一个完美的句点。放下了这份心头大石，却迎来了另一场挑战—参与国民服务。

　　国民服务，我真的去得很不甘愿。到现在还有点后悔去了那里。不过也过去了，就当是去吸取一项特别的经验吧！在那里，最大的收获应该是变得比较健康，也可以减减肥，还算划得来吧！不但如此，还得了一小笔钱，蛮满足了。。。　

　　从国民服务营，又回到了自己原来的学校继续中六生活并却等待奖学金的消息。其实蛮喜欢中六生活的，虽然课业繁重了些，却过得蛮快乐的。可是这快乐却只维持了短短的一个月，因为奖学金被批准了。中学生活真的让我眷恋，到现在还真有点舍不得。。。

　　七月，离开了生活了１７年的古晋，来到了吉隆坡开始自己的大学生活。起初，真的很不习惯，有时还默默地流了眼泪。但还是熬了过来，认识了一些新朋友，学习了自己生活。也因为到了那里求学，还多了很多坐飞机的机会。小时候天天看着天上的飞机，好羡慕，好想坐坐。现在反而觉得有点厌倦了。

　　到了年尾，又回到了古晋。和往年一样继续圣堂的工作，参与了圣诞节报佳音。这是每年都很期待的活动，有很多乐趣，也很开心。同时，第一学期的成绩也出了，考得还蛮不错的，至少达到了自己的目标。

　　一年就这样完了，经历了很多事，自己的目标也达到了，至少没愧对自己。感情方面也成长了不少，成熟了，远距离的感情真的需要很努力的经营，稍为放松了真的就好像距离很遥远。

　　新的一年，除了欢乐，也该反省自己在过去的一年是否完成了该做的事，达到了自己的目标。同时，也该好好规划自己在即将来临的一年该做的事。。。。

失败。。。

2009-12-22T13:49:00.003+08:00

感情真的很复杂。。。
对我来说，处理感情比读书更难。。。
我永远都无法在感情方面扮演好自己的角色。。。
真的很累。。。
真的很疲惫。。。

2009-11-27T10:10:00.004+08:00

爱情，一门很深的学问。全世界几亿人口里，扣除了宗教人士，谁不在乎爱情？谁不渴望爱情？谁不对爱情有着很高的憧憬。每个人都希望能谈场轰轰烈烈的爱情，更希望初恋能成为自己的终生伴侣。但是，又有多少人能真正拥有这辈子唯一的情人呢？

初恋永远是最美的，这是大多数人都认为的。只因为和初恋相处，什么都是第一次，以致每个人都付出最好的，呈现出最完美的，这是为什么初恋永远都难以忘怀，当分手时也是最痛的。
初恋过后，当面对接下来的爱情时，人们往往会显得小心翼翼，只为了不想再伤害对方，因为这样，感情再也不比初恋来得甜蜜，来得完美。然而，接下来的感情也显得比较成熟、稳重，毕竟经一事，长一智。

何谓爱情？这个问题见仁见智。对我来说，爱情就像是牵住两人的一条线，当两人努力经营这段感情时，这条细细无形的线就会显得越来越粗，两个人就会被绑在一起越来越紧。。。当任何一方一松懈，这条无形的线就慢慢地脱丝了，也变得软弱了，不再能紧紧拴住两个人。因此，纵使是爱情，一定要有两个人相互的付出，这样这条无形之绳才能变得更坚固。
吃醋、生气、闹别扭和冷战等等，这些都是在谈恋爱时会有的情绪。酸-吃醋，甜-牵手、拥抱、接吻，苦-生气、闹别扭、冷战，辣-思念。这些感觉让一段爱情变得更充满色彩，更甜蜜，更值得去珍惜。

当有了一个情人时，这个情人不单单就是情人而已。情人的定义因人而异，但却肯定是想从情人身上得到安慰、鼓励、支持。。。情人或许这样说吧！就是当你把异性当作比好朋友更好，比夫妻关系低一些。或者就是除了家人以外，和他或她的感情是最好的。

当有了情人就要好好珍惜，别等到失去的时候才躲在一个角落哭泣。到那时就算你又跪又求的，他或她也不会再回头了。珍惜眼前人，好好对待他或她。爱一个人不是等对方为自己付出，而是自己要为对方付出多少。当你越爱一个人时，为对方付出的也会更多。

别在乎别人能为你付出多少，而在乎自己能为别人付出多少

初恋永远是最美

初次相逢，恋之相容

2009-11-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

好孤单。。。

2009-10-25T19:26:00.001+08:00

受伤了。。。。

Sick.....

2009-10-16T17:21:00.001+08:00

Fall sick again.... headache...flu...throat not feeling well...a bit fever.... all come together. I can't afford it. Please let me recover....

Sad Day...

2009-10-13T19:02:00.002+08:00

Today everythings doesn't seem to go on the right track... It is really a sickening day..... My heart feel so pain..... Wanna cry out.....

"Whatever over is over, let the past be the past; let the future lead one goes"

2009-10-12T20:27:00.002+08:00

Let's recall what I have eaten..... Muahahaha....

First great meal:

See it??
My friends and I had this for breakfast before we went back for holidays last term break.
I woke up quick early 2 fried eggs....
Nice...

Second Great Things

One whole chicken I shared with my friends last Sunday...
Fortunately, we didn't finish it.
We left some for the second day...

The whole set of meal...
Delicious right??

2009-10-08T15:50:00.003+08:00

Finally, the line allows me to post something after being worse for many days. This week is quick a tough week as I had just finished to test. Luckily today can come back early to enjoy some peaceful moment for being alone in my room.

I have had a great meal last Sunday. Guess what is it?

Nothing but just maggie meal.

Guess what is this? Guiness Beer???
haha... actually is just root beer.

This is my 2 and a half packet of mee goreng

Nuggets, eggs and sausages...

eggs is my nice work...

haha...juz like roti canai....