The Seeker

Our little romance

2017-01-12T11:30:00.002+05:30

Counting days and hours

to catch a glimpse of you.

They say with distance love sours.

I say, says who?

Like the waning moon

I'll stand by your darkest nights even at my weakest.

Like the overpowering sun of summer

shall keep you warm at your coldest.

I count days and hours

just for the Moon-Sun role play.

Doesn't matter as long as we are us,

Be it a moonless night or scorching day,

The Room

2016-12-16T13:58:00.003+05:30

The room stood there,
Watching would come and leave.
Walked in and out,
The room pleaded them to stay,
But cries of the silent walls
Pushed the living away.

A lone guy in the new city
Comes and makes the room his home.
Finds someone to cling his fingers
And clink some beer bottles together.

One night the room decides to get colder,
So the souls could feather each other.

Clinking bottles now came with twinkling eyes
And the room was at peace
Being the brewery of romance.
After all it wasn't just
Another union of naked bodies by chance?

The room glowed
at the beauty of two souls opening up.
Sometimes bit of callous but again
Loads of making love.

One fine day the guy
Had his bags packed up.
Unable to speak up, the girl
Finds it all so messed up.

They both held hands and said
"I'll miss the room"
The room smiled and said
"Stupids you gonna miss each other
Go get some room!"

Yet again for the last time,
The room witnesses what started a year ago
Even if they leave , the room knew
It will keep up the glow.

Traces of emotions have now filled the room
Making it feel complete.
It won't cry for the living who leave
For the silent walls have now got an own heart to beat.

The lover-boy speaks now

2016-11-24T15:30:00.003+05:30

Saw you in the light of dusk,
Held your hands in twilight.
Woke up to realize it was only a dream
I rush back to the sunset again,
Looking for your eyes so bright.

The love didn’t happen in a day;
It grew as the sun and moon
Continued their hide and seek.
Let it blossom and, my love,
This feeling will only grow and never fall weak.

As the dusk ends,
Begins my wait for the twilight.
What I see is a distant reality in the light of the setting sun.
In the dim twilight, it’s a dream that comes to life.

May be the moment is a dream
But to my heart it’s so close!
Someday! Someday, yes, I will hold your hand for real
With the setting sun
our love story will begin my English Rose.

There is a Mist in Our Lives

2014-10-15T17:12:00.002+05:30

Mist is the mystery

that lingers across a lover's soul.

It's not about just a man or lady

But the entire world of feelings as whole.

Mist is a longing

that cannot be captured;

Neither can it be stolen or hidden

Nor could it be hindered.

It is just a mystery

that is pain and joy in a bundle.

I'd like to hug it and let it linger

as mirth when i'm awake and

the words that in my sleep I mumble.

Know what my heart holds

2014-07-12T22:00:00.004+05:30

Agony of heart
Remains unknown
Words unspoken
Secrets of the Alone.
The heart shrieks silently
As the daylight unfolds.
The unspoken comes to vision
But you still don't know
What my heart holds.....

Lunacy in Love

2014-07-12T22:00:00.001+05:30

Lost my sanity
As I took a dip in your love.
Couldn't swim out,
I smiled and kept sinking
Until the end of my existence.
What is love without little destruction
What is it without some futile smiles and tears...
Lunatic I am in your love
Love that often doesn't make sense.
Wish I could tell it all to you
In a single breathe
For I fear I am drifting away.
The time is close and me, the lunatic,
Still sinking deeper....
Unaware of the million pains, on me, that lay.

Silence & Words- The Siblings

2014-07-12T21:58:00.003+05:30

Silence speaks a million words
Screams a million times.
Life is all about words and screams
Remaining is an illusion
The joy of our innocent crimes.

Restrictive flaws and Irresistible love

2013-06-18T17:29:00.000+05:30

Lost in the tides of my flaws,
Messed up my voyage to your heart.
The oceans, wind, the snow weren't unkind...
Struggling with my own soul,
my heart lost all mirth.

Belief in love still exists,
Faith in self is gone.
Chains don't cling to my soul,
I cling to them to stay forlorn.

Can you pick up the pieces-
The broken pieces... scattered here and there?
Just gather them, look at them and throw them away,
and hug me to comfort my body and soul that shiver?

May be you can, may be not....
What if you cannot?
See, I am messing it up all over again,
Lost in the tides of my flaws,
with a heart that wants to be with you, but cannot.

A loner's new year eve

2012-01-01T13:58:00.002+05:30

Years have come and gone

Old ones discarded

As new ones born.

Y is it alonely life never dies

Neither does it get torn or worn.

Lovely fiery flowers on sky

Looking at lonely me

Discarded like the old bygone year

Never knew this is all I had to feel and see.

The world revels in its own spirit

And my spirit revels in me

Rebelling against my body

Trying to move out and be free.

The fire from hell

Seems to enter my heart

With all force it has.

For nothing is “is” for me

All has become “was”.

A new beginning

That’s what they expect from me.

Nothing can be new in this age-old life

Till “me” becomes ”we”

I live this night

Hugging me tight.

Warm tears keeping me ok

And this feels so allright.

My face glows as millions of light

Flashes on my dull face

It comes and goes in a blink

Then there comes my love-darkness.

Come hold me… feel me

Take me in you.

Let me tears, my pain go away…

You’re the one who won’t leave me I knw

Then let me hear those words that I want you to say.

Never-ending feelings

2011-11-13T17:47:00.001+05:30

Love isn’t what you think

you feel when you see me.

It ‘s what you feel when

I am away.

If u dont then it’s ok still

‘Cause atleast I feel that way.

Love doesn’t need two hearts afterall

It can survive with only one beating heart .

The want for love just doesn’t die

No matter how many times my heart is hurt.

I seek love in you

Why does that bother you ?

You live your life your own way.

You dont need to seek love

‘Cause my love is around you

It’s the sun that glows night and day.

It’s tough for you to understand

This strange feeling in my heart ..

My need for a shelter in your arms.

But I know you will very soon

As my true love’s gonna show up its charms.

Till then I would wait

Closing my eyes

Seeing and feeling you.

I fall asleep with a smile on my face

And unknowingly I say

“I love you”.

You--my identity

2011-10-17T20:40:00.001+05:30

I know its you
'cause you are my own light.
Light from some heavenly source
blinding my eyes
and
filling my heart with fright.

This fright isn't the one
that makes my tender eyes cry.
It's the one that makes me heart
go little fast and fly.

Days have got so lazy
as they don't seem to pass.
Nights are with my eyes wide open
I try to sleep but alas!

my wide eyes have dreams in them
just need a wand to let them come alive.
these dreams are pretty but like some deep sea
my delicate heart shivers to dive!

So many things coming and going
My world has takena spin.
My fate stares at me all the time,
and gives meanaughty grin.

We see new faces ...meet new faces...
but what is it that has drawn me to you.
Perhaps 'cause I feel its you
and you and only you.

words to hold us

2011-08-05T22:02:00.000+05:30

Love was always a shame

Still I do hold my head high.

My heart aches,my world shakes

Still I’m gonna be with you

No matter how much I’ve to cry.

It’s not so weak

To make us tremble.

Not so brittle

to break us apart.

Not a blunt edge

That can’t fight.

But jst a little

strong matter of heart.

Waiting for seasons I shall gather

Blossoms of all colours.

They’ll be all for you fine and fresh..

Though u knw everything with time withers.

Someday it won’t be something

Like what it is now…

Something they say so dark.

Perhaps they have been blinded by our light

Its not yet a flame; just a spark.

Things are tough…

Time’s against…

We can only hope

To melt Fate’s heart.

Just hold my hands

When my grip loosens.

And I will hold yours back

And never part.

Identity

2011-04-04T13:05:00.001+05:30

I was Someone someday
Now a Noone today.
Someone left me to be noone
Still Noone can find a way.

It's a pleasure to know
the loss that's coming up.
Little ease of pain feels like a relief
a drop of honey on a bitter cup.

I knw I'd to leave it,
for I never deserved it.
A perfect identity it was
but perhaps my soul couldn't fit.

I'd less pain
as I saw her bid me a wicked goodbye.
for it had tied me down with a face
and now it's time to fly

this is my love

2011-03-17T21:45:00.000+05:30

Keep looking for you

Everywhere, every moment,

Do you know that?

My eyes touch your shadow

every time I feel you around me.

Do you know that?

{ why don’t you?

When I love you so much? }

It’s not me that’s

Waiting for to realize.

From the trees that sway

To the wind touching my locks,

To the birds chirping on my window,

Are waiting for the day,

When you’d be wise.

I lie down at night

Talking to the stars;

Reassured of your existence.

The moonlight is reflected in my eyes,

As I feel your presence.

Dawn is arriving, I know,

And I’ll wake up

From this state of awakening.

And there far away

You will wake up,

And I will know it’s morning.

There starts the moment

From when I start looking for you,

Feeling you in every little things.

I keep looking forward to what

The day ahead brings.

This is my love for you

Can’t give anything else as such.

I ask you again,

Why don’t you know it

When I love you so much?

My own season

2011-03-06T20:05:00.001+05:30

Spring is here..

Ah that’s my season-season of love

They say.

Loving things living and non living

Loving everything close and away.

Love hurts ,they say

But nothing can hurt me I bet.

Too happy and always shall be happy

No matter what I lose and get.

You can’t make me cry today

As you see me laughing like mad.

Nah..I’m not a poor insane girl

Spring’s also for me

Only because I’m not bad.

It’s the season of love

Not the season only

For flowers to bloom.

It’s the season for pure souls,

To bring in new colours

And drive away the gloom.

I am a loner

Not with “Somebody”.

That can’t mean

I can’t love.

Spring is here..

Ah that’s my season..

I wanna only love,love and love..

Why

2011-02-08T11:19:00.003+05:30

I saw him standing

Right under the sunshine..

Even the fog couldnot hide him.

But slowly he diffused

Into the fog itself

And never agin could I see him.

Who was he?where is he?

What magic his eyes had?

Came to set questions before me

The answers make me feel

Nothing more than mad.

Captured that moment in my eyes

And the feeling in my heart.

Dnt knw if it was it solace or ecstacy..

But definitely a story unheard.

It wasn’t a feeling to be touched

Kissed or embraced.

A feeling just to see.

A question for him ofcourse:

“Do you know me?”

No time for question

No time for answers either.

The flowers of the tree,

Shading us,

Has just started to wither.

Goodbye my friend

As you mingle into the crowd.

The crowd-

of which you were born.

Without you couldn’t I be forlorn

Neither could I be happy

Nor could I mourn.

Come back to me

Only when I know

You are just mine.

Neither a friend nor a foe.

Come back to me

Only when I don’t feel
guilty feeling for you.

These feelings are not for all

Only for one,not even for a few.

Till then,

Goodbye my friend

As you mingle into the crowd.

The crowd-

of which you were born.

Without you couldn’t I be forlorn

Neither could I be happy

Nor could I mourn.

We parted finally

2010-12-22T22:47:00.001+05:30

Nothing lasts forever,

Not even the greatest feeling in this world.

Once I’m gone,

You shall never feel it again.

I know it wont hurt your heart so hard.

I love you more than love sweetheart

But I just can’t afford to get hurt.

Moving away from you with memories to cherish.

All my feelings towards you shall perish.

Feel like cutting my heart out

Throw it away to some place away

Away from you and your place

The root of all affection and care…

It needs to bleed,rot and decay.

I need to live

I have to live

For my heart resides in you.

I will leave soon

But don’t know if my heart will leave you.

Floating away the roses

Kept them only for you.

Now they belong to none

Not even for someone new.

A mark in my life

And a wound that seems never to heal

If this is not love

Then tell me how does it feel?

Correct question but to the wrong person

I don’t need the answer anyway.

Walking out never to be back again

As I go “I will miss you”…..

This is all that I have to say.

I hurt my heart

2010-12-16T22:41:00.002+05:30

My heart spoke to me

A calm voice it had.

Asked me what I want.

A simple question

Yet no answer…

My heart, I just cant….

Are you happy?

No I’m not

Are you in love?

A little or a lot.

Be happy

And choose the lot.

Love’s not for me

That’s what life taught.

My heart was hurt

A sweet little fool it was,

Silent since I failed…

Through the vast oceans of feelings

All alone it sailed.

The monsoon feelings...

2010-08-06T11:16:00.000+05:30

Washing my heart and my soul,

The water of heaven cleanses my skin.

The Monsoon has come once again

Making me fall for love –the sin.

I dance under the trees

Holding there swinging arms.

Drops from leaves,kiss my cheeks,

I’m the slave of such charms.

Flashing its pearly whites

The sky grins at me

Blinded by its own lights

To the darkness it has to flee.

I spread my arms

Submitting myself to the moment.

The moment of feeling

The feeling to let go of all ties.

Everything around giggles at me

Only smiles and no more cries..

Lost in some surreal world

I lose the sense of being earthly.

Why shouldn’t I?

Such ecstacy on Earth is

Just so unlikely!

The sun peeps suddenly

Silencing the vain thunders.

Stopping my thoughts

Causing an inner blunder.

Oh! Monsoon..

What an illusion are you?

Drops of rain or just a feeling?

Moments making you retreat back to clouds...

Leaving the earth, once again, ailing.

What makes me

2010-07-17T11:04:00.001+05:30

I am a poet

A very ordinary one..

Singing love ballads afterall.

Ballads of my love for a man

The reason for my rise and my fall.

I am a lunatic

Living a life of illusions

Making up different thoughts

Creating weird visions.

Tending to look for people

Who don’t exist….

Overlooking those

Who perhaps care the least.

I am a sinner

Who sinned for a million times

---------sins judged by men

They said I crossed the lines.

Three qualities of mine

Make a “self” for me.

Three qualities of mine

Carves a lover out of me.

Letters,songs,life and you

2010-07-14T12:30:00.005+05:30

I wrote many letters to u
I hoped to send them someday.
Days ,months and years passed,
The letters remain unsent ,the same way.

What the letters had?
I myself don’t know…
Just scribbled whatever came in my mind!
I wrote them but never read them
For the letters were not mine.

Some pages must have turned yellow
The ink must have also faded.
I dare not open them once,
Not to face the words that I have avoided.

Would you read them for me today?
Or tomorrow?or any time your are free..
No you wont,
Coz those letters are written by me.

I sang too many songs all alone
Noone could hear them.
They were for me and you,
For the wise and the insane.

Yet you could never hear them,
Where you not wise?Not even insane?
Oh no!I did sing them to you,
But may be my voice was tied down by a chain.

My chained voice dissolves into the air
But I cannot just simply disappear…
Would you free me off the chain,
To whisper the song into your ear?

Letters,songs,feelings and heartbeat..
All are the same.
They have filled up empty spaces of my life
And given my life a name.

The name is “Love” ,
And it’s lame without you
Yet my crippled life is strong enough to live
And again my strength is only you.

Never-ending story

2010-04-01T21:01:00.003+05:30

The never-ending story of two lovers, my friend..
That’s what I am here to share with you..
Short yet never-ending one……
No listeners for it ever except and only you.

They ran away from home..
Madly in love…escaping all emotions of the past.
He carried her away one dark night,
Hoping to help her move on bit fast!

The woods embracing her in its arms
her palm into his palm….

She is running into another world…

But its lacking that good old charm!

Heart and soul and flesh and blood
-----She has all dat she needs
But who is this man she is with?

Longing for love ..she lost her own love
Was it this that she has wished
under her every single breathe?

Exhausted and tired of all this journey
Her man dragged her all the way ..
His arms strong and comforting,
But seemed to lose the love in just a day!

Then came the desert after the woods..
She said” I am thirsty dear”
“look into my eyes to quench your thirst
Till I find water somewhere near”

She looked into his eyes..
Searched for what she seeked
for so many years!!
She cud see herself in there
But her thirst couldn’t disappear.

The man was off seeking water
The girl went off to seek love…
losing somewhere in a place noone knew.
There’s a twist in the story and
The reason that it’s never-ending---
The girl is “me” but the man wasn’t “you!

Season of longing

2010-01-12T12:49:00.001+05:30

No flowers to shower their petals on you
No grasses to lie down and think about you…
The season is crying for the lack of love
The tears fall on the roses like dew.

Chilly cold winds hurting my throat
Lips go pale and dry…
The pain is just not hurting me-
It’s hurting my soul and my heart cries.

It’s painful to hear the blackbird’s cry
Yet I love the way it beckons the sun.
So do I sing sitting before the fire
Recalling those loving memories and fun.

This season brings hours of separation
I thought I’d never live!
Still alive I am you see!
It’s the magic of the love you give.

You are not aware of how I feel,
Waiting for the sunshine in my heart.
Even if the sunsets deceive me
I’d love you, though it hurts.

The air is telling me to retreat in myself,
Coz there’s no love in it.
I say, my heart is too full of love
It’s not the air that I need.

The warmth of my heart
Slowly melts the snow…
And there the blackbird sings!
The summer is here,
Knocking my door
I can feel the blossoms it brings!

The death wish

2009-11-26T11:50:00.003+05:30

It was an afternoon
When I felt like flying and gliding
Down to the Earth beneath.
I wan’t in heaven but on Earth it self
But perched upon a rocky cliff.

I felt like falling, feeling the Earth
Pulling me down…wanting me
To be in it’s arms wide apart.
That would be the embrace forever and ever
No time and point to depart!

I look into it’s eyes..
Overpowering my power
It kept whispering into my ears…
“come a little closer”

Someone even closer pulled me back
And I was back in my senses…
And since then I’m away from heights
Always within the fences!

The same happened
As the deep waters called on to me.
The waves lashed their arms
Fighting the wind just for me.( so it seemed!)

Those moments ..
Where the moments of my death wish.
The non-living seemed to care more…
The worldly attachments were close to a finish.

Men & women were world’s apart
But my Death was the closer.
I couldnot ever choose the people around me,
But it was then that I was the chooser!

All of a sudden my lost nerves connect..
And I am existing back in time.
Hope my death wish strikes the chord again
And this time the right place and the right time!

Unfinished story of lovercraft

2009-10-24T11:19:00.002+05:30

Put to test by the craftsman,
The lovercraft floating on the sea..
Blindfolded by the foggy air,
Yet t’was the heaven they wanted to see.

Smooth and safe,he traversed the waters,
Now he reached the land.
Stones and pebbles on the way
His lovercraft couldnot stand.

Now he knew love wasn’t
as easy as he thought..
Still he walked till his feet carried,
With himself and the world he fought.

Years passed and his journey
Brought him to a place.
It’s none other than the city
Which he had left with a fresh face.