SP Lovecraft Productions

since it's the season of giving again...

2011-12-15T12:40:00.017+08:00

Due to insistent public demand, I'll be bringing back my quick Tarot e-mail readings. This is again a limited offer, only until December 30th (please take note), so grab it while you can. Remember, you get $5 bucks off a 2- or 3- question order (see drop-down choices). & again, it's best if you frame your questions so you get more clarity that way. But if you don't really have anything in mind, & would just like to see what the future holds for you, that works, too. (Remember, in the end, only YOU can make decisions for yourself! YOU create your OWN future!) Kindly let me know upon placing your orders via PayPal. These make wonderful virtual Christmas gifts, yes?Now here are a few Terms & Conditions to this offering:

1) This offer is only available via PayPal. Expect an immediate response up to 24 hours for your 1-question reading, & up to 48 hours for your 2- or 3-question reading.

2) Remote readings via bank or GCash are priced differently, so please be advised.

3) I might ask for additional details, such as pertinent names & birthdates for a quicker connection & a faster reply, so I do not appreciate apprehension or resistance in any way. DO NOT BE RUDE TO ME, EVER, especially if this is your first time with me. I reserve the right to NOT respond to you should I feel any "test-the-psychic" vibe or aggression at your end. This may seem counterproductive, considering I'm offering this special in the spirit of gratitude, generosity, & love — but I really want full cooperation from my clients. I will keep all results & transactions confidential. If you don't think you can trust me, then don't even bother wasting MY time.

4) Before getting a reading, even if you're deathly stressed, make sure you're relaxed, open to all possibilities, & neutral to whatever outcome. I will not tell you what you just want to hear. If you're hearing all these things from me that you feel aren't directly related to your original question, rest assured these are (cosmic/psychological) messages you have to take heed & act upon immediately.

5) I do not judge. I am very open-minded. I can be even talked to about sexuality. I still feel I personally have to know more about that dreaded subject, but whatever I know about it, theoretical or otherwise (teehee), I will gladly share with you, as long as I feel it is relevant to your question(s).

6) You have the opportunity to clarify any part of your reading once your request has been delivered. I will provide a follow-up response within the context of the original reading, & usually that will suffice. But if you have additional questions which require further cards to be drawn or a deeper level of insight to be discussed, you will be advised to request a second reading, & another payment must be sent.

7) I have a right to refuse to read about certain issues, btw, & will only focus on issues that directly concern you. But if you insist on restricted topics to be covered (e.g. death, lottery numbers, virginity), then I cannot continue with the reading. Please be advised that I do not offer refunds. I have never issued a refund before. My time per se to discuss readings with interested parties HAS value, as I can be making more productive use of that by dealing with other clients who are gracious & cooperative & considerate enough to work with me for their own development & uhm, entertainment.

8) My reading style & attitude may be too flippant for your taste, & maybe you can blame my natal Moon in my 5th House trine Venus & Sun-Jupiter sextile for that, for starters. But I am serious & passionate with what I do. The effort that I've exerted into honing my craft alone in the last 9 years is a testimony to that, don't you think? But I prefer offering practical, fun solutions; as well as a stress-free approach to your dilemma. I have a low tolerance for stress, anyway, & I'm very sensitive. I prefer optimism at all times. If you think that's too perky = "good to be true" for you, then maybe I'm not your reader. Please note you can't just compare me to the stereotype. While the usual may go goth, for example, I may go frilly + bubbly + dainty (even if I don't usually dress up in person LOL). I like the Light, & I'll stick with it. But I have my dark side, of course, no thanks to my intense Plutonian nature (Sun + Pluto in 8th House, Pluto-Ascendant trine, Venus-Uranus conjunct in Scorpio).

9) Again, I'm here to offer help. Even if Tarot readings are mainly for entertainment purposes, not to be used as substitutes for actual professional assistance.

There you go. 9 important pointers to represent 9 whole years of Tarot reading. I can't wait for my 10th anniversary. I'm so grateful to the Universe.

So email readings are just as good as face-to-face readings, & they are very detailed & personalized. No, I don't go pasting generic meanings of the cards I've drawn. I relay them exactly to your situation, & say things as you need to read/hear/know them. They're also convenient if you want concise answers, & when you're on the go. If you've read my first FAQ listing, you'll get further ideas on what to expect when availing such a service from me. Satisfaction guaranteed, no matter how cliché that sounds.

I usually respond right away, shortly after the receipt of your questions, so don't worry. If you still want to meet me for a face-to-face reading, especially after a quick reading, please email me so we can schedule one ASAP.

So far, my next available reading schedule in person would be:

Tuesday (December 20) 3pm-5pm
Sunday(December 25) 2pm-8pm
Tuesday (December 27) 3pm-8pm
Monday (January 2) 2pm-8pm (tentative)

If by any chance you order an email reading from me on those dates, I will not be able to respond to you until the next day. & NO email/IRL readings on Christmas Eve (December 24) or New Year's Eve (December 31), PLEASE.

For more information on how I do my readings per se, please read my FAQs. Take your time doing so, & get your questions ready. It will help you relax (a major requirement before getting your cards read) & focus on what you really need to know + do. & I've learned the hard way that I won't ever need to coax an inquiring querent for a session — it's either you're truly up for it, or not. I only inform my contact list of my schedules every now & then so I'd be able to streamline my tasks. Please note that what I do isn't mere fortune-telling; it's more often than not a cathartic 2-way street, with a little creative brainstorming (especially for business or career decisions) thrown into the mix. If you haven't tried this before, but you're raring to go, do yourself a favor, then — I'll be more than happy to assist you! :D

Anyway, have fun, & leave a comment here for instant feedback! ♥

Give yourself & your loved ones the gift of quick insight this season! Happy holidays! :P

because something good indeed can work this season

2011-11-19T04:48:00.010+08:00

November has been very intense for me, so far. It started out fine with my new as well as returning clients. (Thanks, folks.) I also was able to spend more time with my brother again as we both prepared for All Saints' Day, & we got to visit my father & sister's grave after a long while. I was also able to join new friends (younger, kickass, creative girls) go boxing at least every week. I felt intense pain after 3 long days, though, during my first try before the Full Moon. I had to reschedule most my appointments as a result. I'm expecting to at least have a couple push through again this Tuesday, then I'll be taking some more time off just before the next New Moon in Sagittarius. Funny enough, New Moons are supposedly lazy days, but with the next one in rambunctious Sagittarius, if you feel antsy, anyway, go right ahead. I can totally feel the Sagittarian energy now, while Venus is in it, so I'm totally wearing a lot more solar colors (red, orange, pink) for more energy, talking to more new people (like a whole bunch of foreigners, who are more often than not surprisingly fellow Librans!), planning my next faraway getaways, & getting more in touch with spirituality while trying to incorporate more of it in my day-to-day temporal drudgery.

Like I'm really switching back to healthier habits. That deserves a separate entry completely, but I might as well post it here. We got a new blender so it'll be easier to force-feed me fruit, as I can't eat the damned stuff fresh everytime (unless we're talking about mangoes, avocado, melons, & pineapple). I'll be cutting back on fancy alcohol, too, even if I can't resist this lineup. Everything I've dutifully sworn off in 2006 long before this blog was first operational via WordPress (sodas, fraps, excess carbs lacking protein) will be painfully set aside, too. Not to mention everything I've fallen in love with in 2006 before my grueling old day job sucked the life out of me (yoga, tai chi, Pilates, guided meditation) will be pursued again, along with my childhood favorites (biking, iceskating, long introspective walking). Looks like I'll be so on-the-go more often, & remind me to stock up on Advil until the holidays are over & done with. I really need to get my strength back. Psychic work is draining (especially lately, when things get eerily accurate on the spot even sans my Tarot cards, yikes) & now that Neptune has gone direct, I've just realized how disconnected I really am now to my physical body. & that has got to change by next year, especially now that I'm thinking of adding Muay Thai, surfing, & wakeboarding to my weekly routine. Don't ask.

Basta, what's important is that I get back on track with what I've started in 2006. Speaking of which, I was reminded of my 5-year-long reading for myself from that year using my Samurai Tarot deck. Now to be both feminine & badass at the same time.

This song isn't so badass as I intend to be again from now on, but it's light & fun & it's good for affirmations. I'm definitely getting things started. How about you?

I'm still very swamped with e-mail & texts so please bear with me. Just making this update is draining, but I'm so glad I'm back online here. Now if you want to schedule a reading (most likely in person) starting next week, my only available times would be early ~~Tuesday (2pm-6pm) &~~ Wednesday (5pm-7pm). If I don't get to sign up people by Monday, that's it, the next round's on the week after, same timeslots.

For people interested in remote readings with me, here's a tip I'd like to share & quote before we proceed:

"There are many people who think that the psychic will know about their problems in just a couple of minutes. In an online psychic reading, it is not at all practical to expect this. To get the best help in the least possible time, it is very important to prepare the questions well in advance. The caller needs to first decide on the problems that he would like the psychic to solve. This would greatly help the psychic in giving the best solution."

& I totally abhor people who don't respond politely while inquiring about my services, especially while I'm asking them their names. PLEASE. I'm a very exhausted person & it takes a while before I can pick up on anyone's energy via text or phone or email, especially when I've got my hands full or my mind's processing 5 other pressing things. So onegaishimasu, it's best when you introduce yourselves properly, before or after taking time to read my FAQs, & I'll be more than happy to accommodate you.

& to end this post on a rather nice note, the first 3 people who comment & share their thoughts here will get a quick online reading from me. Make sure you have working links or valid contact information. I appreciate all my blog readers & patrons, but I think it's time for you sweeties to be heard. Have a happy weekend! ♥

order quick readings via email! (2011 edition)

2011-10-20T10:35:00.026+08:00

Thank you to the first few lucky people who've ordered my special Tarot email readings! I made your readings pretty extensive (worth $35), & I hope I made sense, hehe. Remember, you get $5 bucks off a 2- or 3-question order. & it's best if you frame your questions so you get more clarity that way. But if you don't really have anything in mind, & would just like to see what the future holds for you, that works, too. (Remember, in the end, only YOU can make decisions for yourself! YOU create your OWN future!) Kindly let me know upon placing your orders via PayPal. ~~This is a limited offer (only until the end of this month) so grab it while it lasts. :D~~

Email readings are just as good as face-to-face readings, & they are very detailed & personalized. No, I don't go pasting generic meanings of the cards I've drawn. I relay them exactly to your situation, & say things as you need to read/hear/know them. They're also convenient if you want concise answers, & when you're on the go. If you've read my first FAQ listing, you'll get further ideas on what to expect when availing such a service from me. Satisfaction guaranteed, no matter how cliché that sounds, hehe.

I usually respond right away, shortly after the receipt of your questions, so don't worry. If you still want to meet me for a face-to-face reading, especially after a quick reading, please email me so we can schedule one ASAP.

So far, my next available reading schedule in person would be:

Friday (October 21st) 3pm-~~5pm~~4pm
Tuesday (October 25th) 2pm-5pm
Thursday (October 27th) 3pm-8pm
Monday (October 31st) 2pm-8pm (tentative)

& again, for more information on how I do my readings, please read my FAQs. Take your time doing so, & get your questions ready. It will help you relax (a major requirement before getting your cards read) & focus on what you really need to know + do. & I've learned the hard way that I won't ever need to coax an inquiring querent for a session — it's either you're truly up for it, or not. I only inform my contact list of my schedules every now & then so I'd be able to streamline my tasks. Please note that what I do isn't mere fortune-telling; it's more often than not a cathartic 2-way street, with a little creative brainstorming (especially for business or career decisions) thrown into the mix. If you haven't tried this before, but you're raring to go, do yourself a favor, then — I'll be more than happy to assist you! :D

Anyway, have fun, & leave a comment here for instant feedback! ♥

(P.S. I'll be providing a few more surprises for my blog followers, so stay tuned!
The comments section is the place to be, where the next virtual Tarot party's at!)

love = sick

2011-10-14T14:48:00.013+08:00

I'm sorry for being gone again for so long, but I've already updated my calendar for October so people can schedule face-to-face readings with me more easily. I'm so tired. Forgive me. I really haven't recovered yet from last month's craziness, & I'm truly sorry for my last post. But I mean well. I always do. I just want everybody else to be responsible for their own feelings & lives, the same way I'm desperately trying to take care of myself. To my ardent patrons, you know me, I go the extra mile whenever I can for you fine folks. But the curse of being too accommodating is just too much to bear sometimes. & I really care about you. Tough love, baby. & please don't wait for me to tell you that straight to your face.

Though it truly made my week when a prospective Leo client texted me about how he loves my blog for being witty & upfront. Honesty, he says, is "a trait that is slowly dying in this digital age." & thank heavens despite my profanity he doesn't see it as crass, hehe. Thank you, Y. (& I'm so sorry, but your strong Venus in Cancer is what I've been picking up for all this time! :P)

I want everybody I come in close contact with to be happy. Now please remember that happiness is a state of mind, & it's always fleeting. The only way to really make the most out of a happy moment is truly revel in it while it lasts. Well, taking pictures & videos can help. But memories are the best things to come out from it. Cherish those, & always count your blessings. Things can — & will — be anticlimactic more often than not, but that shouldn't put a stop to you feeling happy every single blasted chance you'd get.

In our pursuit of happiness, though, we tend to lose ourselves in the process. The more we feel it's elusive, the more stressful it can be for us to handle things. Take my own struggles with gardening & adjusting to new health + fitness schedules, for instance. Then there were these premier events I had to go to, to show my support to some of my most awesome clients, & I still need to recover from the hubbub. My auld lang syne friends are MIA when I need the most, & I feel more alone than ever. Worse, my lovelife (say what? LOL) is going nowhere fast. But whatever. I'll just share this article that brightened up my day:

"Here are three tools I use on a daily basis to keep getting to know myself amidst (& sometimes because of) my challenges:"

1. Do one small thing to make today better than yesterday.

Allow yourself to settle into the idea of small little shifts that add up to a more peaceful, centered you. Say a prayer for someone you know who is hurting. Put yourself to bed early. Pack yourself a healthy lunch.

[It's always amazing] at how one little thing can have such a drastic impact on our mood. You reclaim a piece of your day, even if it's just a small one.

2. Begin to embrace your own brand of happy. Don’t ask it to look exactly like "everyone else’s."

Be open to the hobbies, places, & people who make you jazzed about your future, regardless of what others may think about them. You were given specific skills in order to shine. Cultivate them in small & big ways.

If your current friends aren’t interested in your new passions, ask the Universe to guide you to others who might be.

3. You’re holding the remote; go ahead and press the pause button when needed.

Make an effort to turn inward & reset your frequency if you feel like things are getting funky. Whether you take a two-minute walk outside, meditate before you go to bed at night, or simply pause in the doorway before you zoom into “go, go, go” mode, you create a split-second opportunity to be present & show up for a day full of possibility and miracles.

I'm still counting my blessings, & I'm just praying this maddening lull will ease out soon. If you're feeling like the Universe is grating you like a citrus fruit for your zest, leave a comment & let's talk about it, haha.

Anyway, since it's my 6th blogging anniversary this weekend (technically, October 13th), I'll be throwing in a few surprises on my Facebook page (please Like the damn thing, haha) ~~& you can try my quick readings that I'll be offering only until the end of my Venus return next month:~~

Yes! Get US$5 off if you ask me 2 or 3 questions via email! Please give me until Monday (just in case) if you're availing of this today to fully respond to your questions, just so I can get my personal stuff that I've planned beforehand out of the way. I usually respond right away, shortly after the receipt of your questions, so don't worry. If you still want to meet me for a face-to-face reading, well, you know the drill. ;)

Text me beforehand should you want to be scheduled for Friday, October 21st, 3pm-5pm: (+63) 0920-433-5420. Please note that I might be in the middle of a reading session so if you call, I might not be able to pick up immediately. Text me FIRST before calling. I'm adamantly sticking to my schedules but I want to accommodate everyone as much as I can this month. Meaning, I'd rather read on these particular days at MY preferred places so, please, I beg of you. (House calls will have extra charge, up to double my standard rate, depending on location & weather conditions. For now, I can only accommodate requests within the Makati CBD. For more information how I do my readings, please read the updated 2nd FAQ.)

Email readings are just as good as face-to-face readings, & they are very detailed & personalized. No, I don't go pasting generic meanings of the cards I've drawn. I relay them exactly to your situation, & say things as you need to read/hear/know them. They're also convenient if you want concise answers, & when you're on the go. If you've read my first FAQ listing, you'll get further ideas on what to expect when availing such a service from me. Satisfaction guaranteed, no matter how cliché that sounds, hehe.

Thanks for reading, & happy weekend. Stay tuned for updates! :D

love schmlove (& my struggle with asserting "healthy selfishness")

2011-09-24T11:03:00.027+08:00

Since it's already my birthday season (Solar return) & Saturn is still in my sign Libra (which rules relationships, equality, beauty, romance, & harmony, ugh), let me go ahead & repost this article on relationships. It's been crazy how people have been getting readings about relationships wondering what went wrong & how to make things work between them & their respective partners again, but for the life of me, surprisingly, do not actually understand the dynamics of it all. I know, been there, done that. While I actually welcome my current empowered single grrl status (like I've said before, it's my Aquarius rising's fault), I want other people to realize that it does really take 2 to tango, so to speak, in a relationship. I've seen things go awry in my own family, with my own parents, to boot. I've mediated for them, as early as 15, & I'm not the eldest child, to begin with, take note. & I've rooted for either my mom (Pisces-Aries cusp) or my dad (Sagittarius) at some point. But I felt I was too young to care about their issues, anyway. The threat of them getting a separation (divorce is yet unheard of in this country, sigh) even as early as 1987 was crazy. & them telling us incessantly to be really sure of whom we'll end up with before doing anything stupid is just too much to bear, but thanks Mom & Dad, everything I need to know, I actually didn't have to hear from you both. But yeah. I've seen too much. & dysfunctional relationships drain the shit out of me everytime. My solution sans the cards? Let go until things clear between both parties, if it really can't be helped. Why stay when people cheat/stray anyway? Unfortunately, my job entails to offer proactive solutions to make things work between 2 people (*sigh* motherfucker *sigh*) & I totally hate it when people still insist on their ways, justifying their flaws & shortcomings in their relationship. I'm sorry, but why are you asking for my help again if you're not even open to the idea of helping yourself that way? I'm very busy & I've other more worthwhile things to do in my spare time, so please. Don't bother the fuck out of me if you're resisting to take your chances. Again, it's your life, after all. Have a little more faith in it, as my favorite cheeky self-help book says. & honestly, for the love of God, you can't just magically make a person come back to you without really taking a good look at yourself first & understanding what the fuck's wrong with you, while understanding as well as ACCEPTING that your paramour is a completely different person, who doesn't really think like you do. Again, men & women are hard-wired biologically to think, speak, & act differently, despite my sensitive male clients & strong-willed women patrons. So, please. & that, my dearies, is the reason why I've decided to stay single all this time. Until I find someone who soothes me with his mere presence & respects my idiosyncrasies & complements my very being with his individuality & treats me like a princess every single time especially on my bad hair days, not to mention have his friends adore me, then I'll keep myself enthralled with your relationship issues. Whatev. :/

(oh, wait, I think I already have, haha, & let's hope he asks me out very soon, ahem — but I really wouldn't mind if he doesn't yet because I'm too fucking busy for anyone else, to begin with! Gah.)

Again, these are powerful pointers to remember in making your relationships work:

1. Develop Your Own Personality
Too often we get into a relationship & lose ourselves. We stop doing those things that made us happy when we were single (hanging out with friends, reading on our own or our favorite hobbies). Instead, we spend as much time as possible for the other person. Remind yourself of who you are. If you've forgotten, get to know yourself again.

2. Be Happy
Be happy yourself. If you need someone else to make you happy, you’ll be disappointed every time. They can't read your mind & don't know your every need. Instead of relying on them for all your happiness, rely on yourself. Do what makes you happy, then you'll be happier in your relationship. Also, tell your partner about what makes you happy & ask them the same.

3. Work Together as a Team
If a couple can get along camping (in a tent, in the woods) for a weekend, then they have a strong relationship. They can cooperate to get tasks done & still find time to have fun. So split up the house chores or hire a cleaning service so you can stop arguing over who does the chores. Divide & conquer!

4. Talk About Problems!
Have you ever not talked about a problem with your partner? Have you watched your fear & anxiety increase tremendously as the problem grew in your mind? When you finally talked about it with your partner or it finally exploded, was the reality as bad as you expected? I've said it before, you’ve read it before – so instead of holding it inside, talk about it with your partner. No gossiping. No talking behind each other's back. & NO second-guessing.

5. Share Life Based on Reality
In Jane Austen's Pride & Prejudice, Elizabeth's younger sister married a military man. She thought the marriage was just dreamy. In reality, the couple was forced to marry, because she had run away with the man and lived in sin. Check that you're really seeing your relationship for what it is. If you have an assumption, talk about it with your partner to get a reality check.

6. No Finger-Pointing
No matter what happens, do not point your finger at them. The old adage is that when you point one finger, three more are pointing back at you. You will have disagreements, you will not be pleased with some things your partner does, & you will lose your temper occasionally. This is normal. Blaming each other is not.

7. Honor & Respect the Person You're With
Sometimes all it takes is a moment to really look at your partner & all the things they do for you (or would do if you allowed them) & what they mean in your life. If you honored and respected your partner, you'd be amazed how differently your relationship can be. The trust that is created is amazing.

Yeah, please, remember all that, especially if you're already contemplating on breaking up for good. Now remember, a little space doesn't really hurt anyone, & I personally believe that a relationship does require breathing & thinking space from time to time. Of course, there should be trust & open communication just the same. No lying. No bullshit. No judgmental, critical, demeaning remarks just because you don't agree to what your partner wants. Maybe this song will help you realize things. "So I can wait a while, if it brings me back to you," so it croons. Funny I had to be reminded of this song by someone I really, really loved from way back, before my ex-fiance, but we were just too chicken shit to do anything about our feelings for each other. (But yeah, maybe He's Just Not That Into Me. So what. The feeling's so mutual!)

& maybe all you strong-willed, driven women should lighten up & be more in touch with your inner Venus while you're at it.

Remember that to have commitment, people should of course have strong compatibility & consistent communication. But what's more important is for the people in question to be able to compromise & cooperate whenever necessary. & no matter what happens, especially once all of those key components is exhausted, compassion should still prevail. Even after a devastating breakup. It took me 4 long years to finally have the gall to say sorry to my ex-fiance for being the girlfriend from Hell & wish ultimately for his happiness without wishing him dead like 5 minutes after.

& let me share with you this funny quote that got stuck with me throughout the years, from Jessica Zafra:

“You can not make someone love you. You can NOT be thin enough or white enough or famous enough. The choice is entirely the other person's. Then again, you might try hypnosis.”

& please remember that I will not be doing any readings starting today until Wednesday, September 28th. I can do a 3pm-7pm thingamajig but that's it. Remote readings will have to wait until the following day. PLEASE, HAVE MERCY. It's my birthday weekend & I'm still getting the house + garden fixed, & I'm despicably sunburned. Text me beforehand should you want to be scheduled for Wednesday onwards: (+63) 0920-433-5420. Please note that I might be in the middle of a reading session so if you call, I might not be able to pick up immediately. Text me FIRST before calling. I'm adamantly sticking to my schedules but I want to accommodate everyone as much as I can this month. Meaning, I'd rather read on these particular days at MY preferred places so, please, I beg of you. (House calls will have extra charge, up to double my standard rate, depending on location & weather conditions. For now, I can only accommodate requests within the Makati CBD. For more information how I do my readings, please read the updated 2nd FAQ.)

& to throw in my number one PET PEEVE du jour:

"Asking the same or similar questions multiple times indicates that you aren't paying attention to the answers you’ve been given. Sometimes readings will be [completely useless] because people already know the answer to their question, but they don't want to admit they do, or they are hoping the answer will change."

Thank you for reading this verbose seething-with-indignation post, & forever trusting me with your myriad issues. Now excuse me while I try to get my life back. It's been a grueling week, & all I've ever been doing is fuming about it. Happy fucking birthday to me tomorrow. Nothing — & NO ONE — will get in the way of this. It's been a wonderful 3 decades, Universe. I'm very happy about how things are working out for me. ♥ *cough*

& it's that time of the year again

2011-09-15T08:06:00.004+08:00

There's something about birthdays that I both dread & long for. Mine's coming up in 10 days. I've resolved that this year would be more exciting, despite the whole laidback vibe with my Cancerian best friend Zhy (Aquarius moon, Aries rising) & my Virgo brother whom I still call Sonny (so much for our childhood nicknames at home) even if he's more commonly known as Lem or Rey among his friends (Virgo moon, Pisces rising). I'm making it a point to spend it with only the most reliable people in my life, along with a few choice acquaintances (that is, if they do decide to show up at the last minute). But yeah, I'd rather spend that day with the people who've really never let me down throughout the years, despite their unpredictable, independent selves.

& I really want my dad's rundown garden revived by then. I've started a couple of weeks ago by buying orchids (the main attraction in my dad's collection a decade or so ago) & having our trusty memorial park stead caretaker Larry (who's coincidentally Libra, too, woohoo!) prepare the space for bluegrass & all these empty flowerpots waiting to be refilled. I kinda want a Japanese-style garden despite the already existing trees in our yard, but even if I'm itching to have it landscaped right away, I'm challenging my dormant creative self to work a few tricks on the space, especially with the fact that I still need to save up for that & we actually have very little room for my rather grandiose Zen ideas. Now that Venus is in my sign, I guess it's perfect timing to have this project taken care of completely. I'll make sure that by the end of my actual Venus return in Scorpio (by December), everything will be in place. ♥ I want a cozy nook each for worship & for entertaining, a small herb garden at the back, & flowers to brighten up the chi at home. I can't wait to get a Japanese stone lantern, wishing well, & maybe even a small birdhouse set up! & the New Moon in my sign soon is what I feel the most auspicious time to have it all taken care of. I really hope I can take care of things. Our old housekeeper who's snarky as hell but who also did a major contribution to keeping the garden promising is still a hindrance to my plans, since her lack of aesthetics is sooo irking the shit out of me on a daily basis, but I'm hoping for a break from all this. Thanks to feng shui I've realized where our growing problems are coming from, & they'll have to end this month. Next Monday & Wednesday are going to be crazy days, but I'm taking a break from it all on my birthday week, so if you folks want a personal reading at the last week of September, you might all have to wait until October 1st. (I can manage to read remotely by then, though, just please let me know in advance.) My schedule listing's updated at the sidebar now, so just please check that from time to time. :)

Now if it weren't for Zhy helping me rearrange my bedroom & giving me ideas how to redecorate a few weeks ago, I really wouldn't have had anything done. I've been so tired & busy & tired all over again (it's a most vicious cycle, I tell you) that I hardly have time for myself at home anymore. But now I feel so much better, & I can't thank her enough. & from now on I'll be more aware & organized, & again, it's the perfect time to do so, since Venus is in my sign & my Solar return's fast approaching. Plus, I might as well take good advantage of things while it's my Mercury return. YAY. I'm done with Mercury retrograding. It's been wobbly these past few years, so I really have high hopes for this month now. I'll be my old bitchy OC self, sure, but as long as it gets the job done en pronto, I'm happy. & this officially seals the deal: I'm growing old, but yay, I'm finally I'm old enough to really pull this shit off. The Maturity card (cf. Ace of Pentacles) + Ripeness (9 of Pentacles) from my Osho Zen deck lovingly affirms that fact. Lessee if my reviewing The Secret helps! :P

Of course I had to consult my own deck if this whole gardening frenzy's recommended & timely, despite Jupiter currently on retrograde. I got Past Lives (cf. The Moon), Trust (cf. Knight of Chalices), & Breakthrough (cf. Strength + Justice), via my Osho Zen deck. I'm sooo on the right track, then! Time to let go & live in the now, while still honoring the past. Thank you so much, Universe! & there's that huge Lunar influence right there.

I really have so much to thank the heavens for. The Universe does answer our prayers, even if it takes quite a while. But patience is indeed a virtue, as cliché as that may sound, & I hope you also find the time to be utterly grateful for all the goodness you still have in your life. Nobody's perfect, & we're all still yearning for so much more everytime, but that shouldn't stop us from being hopeful & open to all wondrous possibilities just the same.

journeying inward [1/3]

2011-08-22T13:47:00.006+08:00

Welcome to my blog, if it's your first time to browse. & to my regular readers, hello again. In true Mercury retrograde fashion, I'm doing major adjustments to unforeseen slip-ups, so please bear with me, but this has got to be one of the best #MercRx episodes I've ever had, so far. & I can't thank my patrons & friends enough for the support. ♥

(Maybe because Mercury is in Leo, anyway, so things are light & playful just the same, & I'm always happy when any planet's in that sign, even if during the first few days of this drat current retrograde I just want to scream all the time, & I still do, when little things keep bothering me. But I can't help it. I guess it's better off to just let all steam from time to time instead of just blowing up at the least unexpected time to unsuspecting individuals.)

I'll have to wait until Mercury turns direct before I proceed with the next workshop/tutorial, so that should commence on a Saturday or Sunday. The next New Moon is in Virgo by next week, so I could start until after that. If everything goes according to plan, then on the very first day of my birthday month (September, of course!) I'll be more than happy to get going.

Now before I get sidetracked, here's my schedule for the rest of the month:

August 26th - Friday
3:00pm to 5:00pm - Lyn
7:00pm to 9:00pm - Lea (cancelled)

August 27th - Saturday
1:00pm to 3:00pm - Steph
3:00pm to 5:00pm - Pia & Lei

August 29th - Monday (cancelled, moved to the next day)
4:00pm to 9:00pm

Text me beforehand should you want to be scheduled before those days within the week, or on those days per se but on different timeslots: (+63) 0920-433-5420. Please note that I might be in the middle of a Tarot reading session so if you call, I might not be able to pick up immediately. Text me FIRST before calling. I'm adamantly sticking to my schedules but I want to accommodate everyone as much as I can this month. Meaning, I'd rather read on these particular days at my preferred places so, please, have mercy. (House calls will have extra charge, up to double my standard rate, depending on location & weather conditions. For now, I can only accommodate such requests within the Makati CBD. For more information on how I do my readings, please read the updated 2nd FAQ.)

& before I further forget, like I usually do, here's this quirky poem (a Pagan wedding poem that can double as a love spell, actually, haha, or so says my Wiccan acquaintance from last year) that I'd like to post. I wonder if it works. My dragon guides are rather delighted with this; I'm honestly not in a rush to be in love again (& it's actually 4 long years since I've been single, if I were to exclude them stupid pseudo-dates in the last 3). Especially now that Venus is in Virgo, when all I gotta think about is my own well-being (work & health, especially peace of mind). Whatever.

Two dragons come together,
feel the drums together,
two dragons dance.

Two dragons dance together,
take a chance together,
two dragons sing.

Two dragons sing together,
take wing together,
two dragons fly.

Two dragons fly together,
own the sky together,
Two dragons are as one.

But I'm very happy, nevertheless, for my patrons as of last year to have finally found love, & I'm very honored for the trust bestowed upon me regarding the process of their doing so. Especially those who are Earth signs. (Ahem, Venus in Virgo, indeed, yeah?) I'm still hoping the rest of you wonderful folks finally find what you're looking for (after realizing Saturn's harsh lessons, while in my sign Libra, of course). You still have lots of opportunities coming your way. & I hope to end the cycle soon for myself, but I also hope to get my act together before all this happens. Despite my crazy (READ: unpredictable & independent) Aquarius rising, I'm still a sucker for romance, even if I feel the need to rationalize why I'd want it in my life soon. I should remember that the Universe indeed conspires to give us what we want, & that means I gotta make up my mind quick about it. So should you.

What excuses have you given yourself lately why you don't deserve or need love at the moment? What are you going to do about it? If you're ready to take that plunge (again) even if you'd land on your face with a big thud (like I always do, ugh) & you want further insight, let me know. I'm with you. Cheers to us! ♥

& so the last few days of Venus in Cancer = rain

2011-07-26T09:25:00.021+08:00

Hello again, world. I'm super sorry (again) for not updating as much. I'm ridiculously busy & distracted lately, as usual, & it's really not easy getting blogging done while I'm up & about. I'll just wait until my birthday to be liveblogging in full force, which is 2 months from now. Haha. I'll post my birthday wishlist tomorrow (no kidding) which includes silly items that have nothing to do whatsoever with Tarot-reading. For now, even if it's a rainy morning today, I'll have readings in the afternoon until early evening. I might be available at 5pm & 7pm later, unless my querents extend their time. Here's the rest of my tentative schedule, & these will be my only available times as of the moment. If you can, kindly comply, should you find yourself interested in a reading session with me anytime soon. & let's make it snappy, especially once Mercury goes officially retrograde next week.

Text me beforehand should you want to be scheduled for Thursday onwards: (+63) 0920-433-5420. Please note that I might be in the middle of a reading session so if you call, I might not be able to pick up immediately. Text me FIRST before calling. I'm adamantly sticking to my schedules but I want to accommodate everyone as much as I can this month. Meaning, I'd rather read on these particular days at my preferred places so, please, have mercy. (House calls will have extra charge, up to double my standard rate, depending on location & weather conditions. For now, I can only accommodate requests within the Makati CBD. For more information on how I do my readings, please read the updated 2nd FAQ.)

So what have I been up to, anyway? I've been trying to stay in shape (to no avail, I think, haha; especially with all this newfound fascination for dark mocha frappuccinos, this time with soy milk for an added depth in flavor, red velvet cake, & milk chocolate cheesecake). I'm also trying to mentor a couple of young 'uns who own Gilded Tarot decks (one's Sagittarian with a Pisces Moon & a Libra Rising, while the other's quadruple Cancerian - Sun, Moon, Rising, & Jupiter). It's just funny how I'm being haunted by that Gilded deck since 2008, even if I really feel I can't connect with it just yet, but I can't seem to forget its icky Lovers card, haha. Plus, it's funny how I'm surrounded by all these Water babies. Maybe because my Moon in Cancer trines my Venus in Scorpio, to begin with. I'm still freaked out by the thought of it all, really. I need to be with more Fire + Air signs, though, seriously.

Then decluttering my perpetually-ravaged room is an everyday struggle. I also got a new Tarot deck from a client & it's a bitch to use for myself, but it works flawlessly for her. Even my Tarot of Vampyres is wonderful for her! Anyway, I have to thank her for her trust & patronage. I also pray everything works out for her very soon. ♥

Anyway, let this be a nifty guide for you folks for having a pleasant, insightful, & worthwhile Tarot reading session, thanks to a new Twitter pal who just passed her first Reiki attunement. Yay, congratulations! I hope I can do the same thing very soon!

How to get the most out of your tarot reading: 6 tips to maximize your experience.

1. Do some research on your reader. This can be done by asking them about their code of ethics, what they’re comfortable doing, or how they feel about different situations in dealing with clients. Fortunately, a lot of readers have websites where you can see not only their code of ethics and some sample readings, but also feedback. Feedback can be very important to a reader and they usually have no problem sharing positive feedback with potential clients, paid or not.

2. Come with an open mind. If you go into the reading with ultimatums and expecting a specific outcome, you’ll probably be disappointed. Most readers are under the impression you seek them out for their interpretations of the cards, and if you insist they’re doing things incorrectly, you’ll both end up frustrated.

3. Ask a good question. The future of your life is based on you and you alone. If you ask a question that negates your own power in your life, you are less likely to get a truly helpful answer. For example, asking “when will I find a new lover?” asks literally when the querent will find a specific person. But what if the querent never leaves their home and expects the lover to find them? What if the querent has a very specific set of standards and expects the new lover to fit into them, and doesn’t consider anyone else? They may never find the lover they seek. Try phrasing your questions in a way that shows you accept your power or responsibility in your own life. For example, “what do I need to know about finding a new boyfriend/girlfriend?”, “what can I do to help find a new lover soon?”, or even “am I doing the work I need to be doing to find the new squeeze I’ve been hoping for?” are excellent alternatives to the original question.

4. Don’t offer anything yet the reader doesn’t ask for. Some readers may ask for a bit of background information, some prefer to only know the question, while others ask questions as they share the reading. The best thing to do is recognize that the reader is experienced enough to know when to ask for information. For example, if the reader says, “Have you been stressed out about your relationship?” it’s better to say ‘yes’ or ‘no’ then to launch into a full explanation of why the relationship has been weighing heavy on your heart. Wait until the end of the reading to explain what’s going on. This helps you to get the big picture, and for the reader to fully relay everything in the cards.

5. Keep in mind how often you ask a specific question. Repeating a question because you want to see what different readers say, or because you may be fishing for a specific answer, is more likely to confuse you and blur all the answers together than it is to actually help you. If someone gives you a really off reading, that’s one thing. But asking the same or similar questions multiple times indicates that you aren’t paying attention to the answers you’ve been given in the past. Sometimes readings will be complete duds because people already know the answer to their question, but they don’t want to admit they do, or they are hoping the answer will change.

6. Take notes as you go along, or save the reading for later. There are usually things relayed in a reading that don’t make sense right away. If anything seems like it doesn’t fit, make a note of it and look into it when the reading is finished. Often times you can look back on a reading and see exactly how things made sense - but only if you have a decent record of the reading ;)

Have fun, & stay warm as well as dry today!

floating landscapes

2011-06-09T14:54:00.021+08:00

For schedules next week, please be advised, no appointments will be entertained from Monday, June 13th, until Wednesday, June 15th. But it should be a wonderful time, nevertheless, as Saturn is finally going direct again after being retrograde for half a year, & the Full Moon will be in Sagittarius, with a total Lunar Eclipse, to boot. Egad. Haha. It could be straining for some, zesty for others. I'm playing it safe, however, so I'm staying at home. Anyway:

June 17th - Friday
2:00pm - Carmela
3:00pm - Divine
4:00pm - Lyn (2)
6:00pm - Jonna
7:00pm - Hasmin (2)

June 18th - Saturday
5:00pm to 9:00pm

June 27th - Monday
7:00pm - Cecille

The rain this week was a big downer. But it also was crazily refreshing. I was able to catch up on the things I'm supposed to be doing especially for myself. I also had a Libra barista named Lisa make friends with me in our neighborhood, & she makes the best soy choco chip fraps ever! I'm going to be gaining more weight if I don't downsize asap. Ever since Jupiter entered Taurus this month, all I did was take it easy. & I'm happy for the Universe slowing down for me this month. It should all pick up again by the time I'm done next week, & I'm somewhat dreading it, even if I know I shouldn't. Nevertheless, I'm happy. & hooray for Venus in Gemini! I'm meeting more Twitter friends, & I hope to catch up with more acquaintances IRL. & before my high school best friend Cres flies back to CA with her husband & daughters, I hope to touch base with them & the rest of the gang for one more time. I just don't understand the rain, though. But I'm all too happy to be snug indoors most of the time. & I've been watching reruns of The Great Buck Howard & Up in the Air, which have awesome quotes & insights, & I'll discuss more of those later.

But for now, here's a cute Tarot spread that I found online. I'm using my Deviant Moon deck for this, because I'll be putting it back in order again in a bit.

"The following spread, then, can be used to help someone discover how to overcome feelings of being trapped, and what to look for to find the exhilaration & triumph of finally living their dreams."

I only used 8 cards, because the rest of the deck wasn't making any more sense at all, after using it for my last querent, & all I could see from it was a jumble of the lingering issues that we discussed.

Yay for Snow White. NOT. I'm no fan of the fairy tale, sadly, but...

POSITION 1. Snow White - Ace of Wands

MEANING: Where you are right now. This is the submissive part of yourself that has taken over, thus resigning yourself to the rut in which you find yourself. This is also that part of you that believes if you are too successful, you won’t be liked.

My Interpretation: I think I'm actually in a very good place right now, compared to last year, & the year before that. I don't plan on having kids anytime soon, though, which I think is good, anyway. I may still be in this starting point & feel plagued by self-doubt every now & then, but it's better than nothing. This card is one of my most favorite female figures in the deck, more than the Queens, but no way will I ever be caught dead cradling a baby in my arms. I care about children & their welfare, & I don't mind conversing with precocious younglings, but no, thank you. I don't mind mothering kitties again, though.

POSITION 2. The Evil Step-Mother Queen - 8 of Wands

MEANING: This is your adversary; that which is jealous of you and, as such, seeks to control you, disrupt your plans, and even shatter your dreams. This is someone or something that is unfamiliar, and in conflict with you; it is your opposition and is usually spurred on by the element of envy.

My Interpretation: Looks like there's A LOT of people out to get me, surprisingly, but as long as I'm not really hearing anything nasty about me yet, I won't give a shit. I'll just do my thing, & try not to spread myself too thin.

POSITION 3. The Seven Dwarves - 8 of Cups

MEANING: These 7 cards represent your helpers; these are the people, things, and energies that are there to aid you and rescue you from your current situation. These are the people who will dig deep to find what is precious and valuable in you, and keep you safe from harm. These are the people, things, and energies that will also warn you of approaching danger. Each of the 7 cards is read one-at-a-time, initially, and then interpreted in conjunction with each other (look for the story line these cards all tell). (NOTE: If you want a more expanded reading, you can also interpret how the Snow White card brings aid to these; offering harmony and bringing them into balance.)

My Interpretation: I only got one card to represent my allies in this position, & it looks like I have my clients (mostly heartbroken & depressed) to actually rely on. I already have a few favorites, & I'll throw in a few specials for them soon, but I really hope I can become friends with them.

Wait, I still have my younger guy friends struggling through Life. I hope they count, too. Yay.

POSITION 4. The Handsome Prince - 10 of Swords

MEANING: That which will revive, awaken, and stir you from your current situation, and inspire you to live your life fully. This is the Kiss of True Love that ignites your passion to be more than you are now. It is also the enthusiasm you need to re-discover and the appetite for living a life that needs to be refueled.

My Interpretation: WHAT THE HELL. Who is this person, then? Is he still alive? Am I meant to be alone for a longer period than expected? If this guy has severe issues, then so be it. Don't we all. I just hope he wouldn't have to let his issues get in the way of things, & I hope he's not abusive in any way. & I'll be more than happy to take care of him, haha — as long as he helps himself, too.

POSITION 5. The Apple - Page of Pentacles

MEANING: That which will entice and tempt you, but which should be avoided. This seduction will only lead to you being taken advantage of.

My Interpretation: I've been talking to a few younger prospects who are so different from the crowd I'm accustomed to, & it was all short-lived with them. I'm actually fed up. I want someone more mature & more cultured, ergo, more sexy, hehe. I honestly just want somebody who, according to my inner Venus by Jessica Shepherd, can empower me, trust me as I can trust him, help me to surrender my fears, let down my guard, & therefore allow me to experience deep healing. Ooh, hello there, 10 of Swords. Come over here. Let's both recover. :)

POSITION 6. The Magic Mirror - The Magician + The High Priestess

MEANING: This represents the principles of both creative power and truth-telling. This is what you need to learn. It is already being employed by The Evil Step-Mother Queen and, eventually, provides the information that provokes the assault upon Snow White. This is the honesty that The Evil Step-Mother Queen cannot bear and which Snow White must learn to embrace without guilt or fear.

My Interpretation: If those are the very embodiment of the things I should embrace without guilt or fear, then so be it. Being mystical + psychic, sure. But I don't want to take Life too seriously anymore. Can't I just chill like the rest of you?

"The whole purpose of The Snow White Spread is to show someone that, as Walt Disney is supposed to have said, people ought to know that there's light after the darkness."

So much for that. I should use this for my readings next week! ♥

I wanna cry but I gotta laugh (take #107086)

2011-05-21T20:26:00.018+08:00

Ohayo. My last blog draft was dated after Easter Sunday, but I don't think I'll be able to pick up where I've last left off at this rate. Been INSANELY busy! & tired. & happy, nevertheless. Quite a bit numb, too, but everything's a terribly long story, so I'll save all that (again) for later. My apologies. But in a nutshell, I've met a bunch of fabulous artists, musicians, & other remarkable personalities along the way; discovered a whole slew of treats to relish; got nice gifts + invites from patrons + new friends; & reunited with my high school BFF's after quite a long while. I also love waking up to success stories from clients, & I'm very excited for everyone. I still have hardly any time to myself, but I'm getting there. I hope I can go back to yoga & tai chi by tomorrow, but lessee. I've got another packed schedule & I'm about to lose it. I still have to recover from a crazy read-a-thon from last Monday, & brace myself for another round later today. Whew.

Anyway, this is my Tarot reading schedule until the end of the month. Please be advised. So Heaven help me. I'm taking a break on World Tarot Day, Wednesday, May 25th, & just proceed with remote readings & grounding rituals, so if anybody needs me on Wednesday, er, leave me alone, hehe.

May 24th - Tuesday (Good Spirits)
6:00pm - Tia
7:00pm - Cla
8:00pm - Tet
9:00pm - Nelson & RD, hehe

May 26th - Thursday (Good Spirits)
5:00pm - Honey
7:00pm - dinnertime
~~8:00pm to 10:00pm (open slots)~~

May 31st - Tuesday (private event)
4:00pm to 6:00pm

June 4th - Saturday (Greenbelt)
5:00pm to 9:00pm

Good Spirits Cafe is located in The Collective, a warehouse complex comprised of eclectic shops & attractions, located in 7274 Malugay cor. Mayapis Sts., San Antonio Village, Makati City. If passing by Yakal St. (which is a one-way street) via Buendia, make a left turn to Mayapis then make another left turn to Malugay (which is one-way as well). You should be seeing Cash & Carry at the end of Yakal, which should be your cue to turn left to Mayapis. Parking is along the street. The Collective is a safe place, don't worry, even if it looks daunting from outside, even when there are rock or hip-hop music events near the entrance. This is near the train's railroad tracks & there's a new condo complex being built nearby called The Linear. Anyway, Good Spirits is a small quiet cozy white cafe from the far left from the complex entrance. You'll see B-SIDE first, a music bar before it.

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Good Spirits Cafe is such a cozy place, especially during early evenings. They serve wine, coffee, iced tea, & awesome cakes. Even better, everything's moderately priced! Must-try: their chocolate Kama Sutra, their Lovely Blue cheesecake (blueberries, of course), their Marble cheesecake, their brownies with almonds & cream cheese, & my newest favorite: red velvet cupcakes. The couch is super-comfy, with books & magazines surrounding it for perusal, & a lot of art pieces on display. The place even plays awesome electronic mixes that are delightfully stimulating & soothing at the same time. If you'd like to hold small, intimate events, this is a place to be. The owners are pretty friendly, so yeah, that'd be easy. This season, I actually come by to enjoy their humble take on halo-halo, haha. Not only because I need to stay sober especially during read-a-thons, but also because the summer heat is unbearable & I can eat halo-halo or ice cream or fro-yo anytime, everyday as a result. Enjoy the homey, relaxing, inspiring vibe there, & more cafes locally should be like this, seriously.

(Please handle their items with care, nevertheless. Clean up after your own mess, too. Then tip their young baristas accordingly, especially if they've been extra attentive. That's all we ask while you're there. Oh, & feel at home, of course, especially if you'd be waiting for your turn to be read, & while you're enjoying their offerings.)

Text me beforehand should you want to be scheduled for Thursday onwards: (+63) 0920-433-5420. Please note that I might be in the middle of a reading session so if you call, I might not be able to pick up immediately. Text me FIRST before calling. I'm adamantly sticking to my schedules but I want to accommodate everyone as much as I can this month. Meaning, I'd rather read on these particular days at them said places so, please, have mercy. (House calls will have extra charge, up to double my standard rate, depending on location & weather conditions. For now, I can only accommodate requests within the Makati CBD. For more information how I do my readings, please read the updated 2nd FAQ.)

on pop love suicide & planetary retrogrades, I think

2011-04-01T02:11:00.005+08:00

So, yeah, I'm back. Blame Mercury gone retrograde for it, hehe. I'm still swamped with work & I've taken a couple or so days off to feel better, because it'll be another long weekend for me. But I can't wait for the next timeout. Especially with my Mars in Scorpio energy kinda stirring within again. Ugh.

But anyway, let me just post this poem I keep quoting during my readings so I won't forget about it. I stumbled upon this years ago, & I keep forgetting to get my own copy of The Prophet for more inspiration. Sigh. But I had this poem in my head for the longest time. When I think about it, it may be the perfect expression of my Venus-Uranus conjunction (in Scorpio in my 9th House).

"But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
& let the winds of heaven dance between you.

Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing & dance together & be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
& stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
& the oak tree & the cypress grow not in each other's shadow."

Don't get me wrong, though. I value loyalty & commitment; & welcome clingy, touchy-feely love in a romantic relationship — Libra, reprazent! — but I also respect personal space. But anyone sick with longing would find that hard to do.

Why am I posting this, if you may ask? No, not just because it was the ex-fiance's birthday recently, but also love readings have always been the hardest to deal with. I kinda give up. Where is all this pining for another person coming from? My clients have really strong personalities & their independent streaks are as bad as mine, & maybe that's the reason why they're drawn to me in the first place, but why is everybody inconsolable lately? & what about me? Will I even have the chance to ever be happy? My cards have been claiming so since 2008, but where am I really heading now?

more busybee days, this time for March

2011-03-05T12:29:00.006+08:00

These dates are my following schedules for March, for now. These are final, though. The rest will be posted later. The venue, which is in Good Spirits Cafe in The Collective, for the most part, is final, too. Should you wish to book a session while I'm not available, please ask me beforehand via email (sp.lovecraft [at] gmail [dot] com) at least 24-48 hours so we can discuss & I can adjust my time.

Mar 8 - Tue - 5pm to 7pm then 10pm to 12mnm

Mar 12 - Sat - 10pm to 12mn

Mar 16 - Wed - 5pm to 7pm then 10pm to 12mn

Mar 20 - Sun - 5pm to 7pm (Good Spirits)

Please be advised. I can entertain remote readings on days not specified here, but again, I would like to be notified ahead of time, & have the fee settled before the session. Also, I beg of you all, please RELAX before getting a reading from me, if that's not too much to ask. As much as possible I want my clients cool, calm, collected, & SOBER, to ensure quality readings as well as for my own peace of mind. Thank you. Will update this later for more dates. For now, I gotta run. & please spare me March 9th because I'm seeing my all-time favorite grunge band live in Manila by then. Stone Temple Pilots, I love you. ♥

With that said, here's a video of one of their songs from their newest, self-titled album. The title seems to make perfect sense, & this line from the song gives us much to think about: "Can our shattered past just set us free?"

Cheers! Remember, my readings take on a more cathartic quality than anything else. Go find your own freak show elsewhere if you think I'm just going to rip you off by spewing BS. I'm tired to validate my convictions as of press time, so please. Thanks again.

busybee 2011 -- part #3589

2011-02-12T00:32:00.011+08:00

Hello, this is my Tarot reading schedule until the end of the month. Please be advised. I've been insanely busy & I still need to blog about my recent activities. But I'm really happy with how things are lately, even if I'm getting irked every now & then by very trivial things.

Feb 16th - Wednesday
5:00pm to 8:00pm (Max Brenner)
9:00pm to 12:00mn (Good Spirits Cafe)

Feb 22nd - Tuesday
5:00pm to 7:00pm then 9:00pm to 12:00mn (Good Spirits)

Feb 24th - Thursday
5:00pm to 7:00pm then 9:00pm to 12:00mn (Good Spirits)

Feb 27th - Sunday
5:00pm to 9:00pm (Good Spirits)
10:00pm to 12:00mn (LiMBo)

Good Spirits Cafe is located in The Collective, a warehouse complex comprised of eclectic shops & attractions, located in 7274 Malugay cor. Mayapis Sts., San Antonio Village, Makati City. If passing by Yakal St. (which is a one-way street) via Buendia, make a left turn to Mayapis then make another left turn to Malugay (which is one-way as well). You should be seeing Cash & Carry at the end of Yakal, which should be your cue to turn left to Mayapis. Parking is along the street. The Collective is a safe place, don't worry, even if it looks daunting from outside, even when there are rock or hip-hop music events near the entrance. This is near the train's railroad tracks & there's a new condo complex being built nearby called The Linear. Anyway, Good Spirits is a small quiet cozy white cafe from the far left from the complex entrance. You'll see B-SIDE first, a music bar before it.

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Text me beforehand should you want to be scheduled: (+63) 0920-433-5420. Please note that I might be in the middle of a reading session so if you call, I might not be able to pick up immediately. I'm adamantly sticking to my schedules but I want to accommodate everyone as much as I can this month. Meaning, I'd rather read on these particular days at them said places so, please, have mercy. ♥

Happy New Year!

2011-01-05T09:33:00.014+08:00

I know I haven't been posting for so long, but I got so busy! Anyway, I've more than a mouthful of stories & insights to share, & I'm really excited. For now, let me post my most favorite song as of the moment, from my most favorite TV series, to date:

I also watch How I Met Your Mother when I'm bored, & I find it hilarious at some point, but I'm a real sucker for silly Korean dramas (like Goong aka Princess Hours, which I was crazy about 4 years ago, & I finished watching the subtitled-in-English series just before the local primetime airing dubbed in our vernacular), & I've never been so crazy about TV again until I saw Marry Me, Mary! on KBS World. Now what does this have anything to do with my New Age pursuits, if you might ask? Actually, I'll save that elaboration for later, but an introspective grrl such as myself needs her cute diversions, yes? *sigh* Haha, escapism's awesome.

& that featured song from the series is so refreshing, strangely enough, despite its sappiness. Or so I'd like to think. All I know is, I'm ready to face the world & believe in True Love again, whatever the hell that means. :P My sordid past & recurring sorrows would go down the drain everytime I listen to this track, so, yay. & I've always liked Jang Geun Seok as Kim Eunho from Hwang Jini. ♥

Anyway, like I keep saying, I still lack a lot of Earth energy, but for some reason I thrive when the Moon is in either Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn. I might as well take advantage of the powerful energy while Apollo, Mercury, Mars, & Pluto are all in an Earth sign. I really love Molly Hall's astrological lists, & I'm adding my commentaries.

Ten Tips for When the Sun is in Capricorn

1) Root in Mother Earth - "Sit by a river to hear the water. Listen to a crackling fire or light a candle on your desk. Watch the wind move the tree branches. Hear the frozen ground crunch under your feet. Buy your own heirloom/organic seeds, in anticipation of a Spring planting."

& my most favorite activity personally? Watch the sun rise or set by the sea. Take a swim, even, while you're at it. Super soothing.

2) Take Your Public Image Seriously - With my Venus return almost over, & Saturn in my sign, & my quirky Rising sign getting in the way, I guess I really need to get myself whipped up into shape. I've been avoiding the actual measures for the longest time, even if I've always been thinking about a colossal makeover for the better. But it's so hard, I feel I'm like one of them folks in my favorite How Do I Look? show who's dead-set upon her ways sometimes. It's all going to change now. It should. I owe it to myself.

3) Fortify Your Body - I know. More rest & meditation; more iron, more vitamins & other minerals; more workouts; more massages; & acupuncture.

4) Become an Engaged Citizen - "Take responsibility for what's happening in your own town, state, or country."

I'm not going to state what I'm doing about this. I'll just go ahead & do what I can to serve my community.

5) Real Life - "Find a better balance between the real & the virtual."

I've been trying to do that. But I've learned the hard way that the real world is still super different from the virtual life, & it's less fun. Sometimes the people I know who are stupendously nice virtually are super detached IRL. WTF. But I'm not giving up, & I know I should be more out there in the world.

6) Earth Magic - I know, I'll be really working on my gardening & flower arrangement penchance, too.

7) Turn A Passion into Your Life's Work - Now isn't that what I've been doing ever since? Haha. But I'll try to make all my passions into my lifelong work. I think I'm being incessantly called to do so lately, anyway.

8) Seek Wisdom - "Find a mentor, or become one."

Well, I'll work on my mentoring next month. For now, I think I need a coach. Times like these, I wish my dad were still alive. :(

9) Let Go - "When we let go of what's holding us back, we honor the rhythm of life & our commitment to making the most of the time we have."

Hohoho, Operation Declutter, oh, no. *groan*

10) Write Your Own Tombstone - Now this is freaky, but I've kinda wondered what it'd be like when I die, & what should be written on my epitaph. Actually, I've joked so openly about the whole thing as much as I've written about it, no thanks to my suicidal ideations in my silly high school years, which was super frowned upon. But there was this heart-wrenching scene from the movie The Last Samurai which I fell in love with:

Emperor Meiji: Tell me how he died.
Captain Algren: I will tell you how he lived.

With that said, I'm all the more pressured to live such an existence worthy of emulation. At this rate, I'm not going anywhere, but the thought of people happy with my humble contribution to their lives is relieving enough to help me get by through another day.

Now isn't this list amazing, or what? It's provided me with a framework for my actual proverbial New Year's Resolutions! I'll post those along with my long-overdue wishlist in detail later. ♥ & maybe, this list has just spelled out what the Queen of Coins from my Legacy of the Divine Tarot deck has been trying to tell me since day one. ♥

Happy Holidays!

2010-12-15T20:38:00.024+08:00

Haha, hello again, everyone. It's 10 days before Christmas & we're right in the middle of another Mercury retrograde hoopla, which should be over by New Year's Day, but the shadow period will last around next month. Oh, well. Aren't you excited for 2011? & isn't 2010 such an awesome year at this point?

So far, ever since my last post, a lot of things have happened to me, & I'm really sorry for the backlog. But November was indeed a stellar month, & I'll try to squeeze everything into this post for the full story.

But yeah, happy holidays from PTE & SP Lovecraft! :D

Our Mystic Friday night was spectacular. I can't thank Francisbear & Jade enough for coming in early to help me out. I got in last, but I read for a dozen people quick, even it was rather hard keeping the reading time within 10 minutes, since everyone I read for wanted & could use more than brief advice. Most of them were very receptive, though, & it was nice to meet another Libra lawyer who became a believer in the cards. Aileen & the rest of her ALC-LEAP friends made sure our space was conducive for reading in a chilly separate room. So even if the rest of the excitement was in the cafe proper — as per the chakra-balancing, crystal work, & everything else paranormal et al via the Spirit Questors — we had a somber yet relaxing time with our querents that night. It was super nice seeing Ai again & finally meeting her very accommodating Libra hubby Kyle. If only Jade didn't have to go so soon (he still had to rush to work at the next building shortly after, haha, yay, powerhouse), Francisbear & I could've stayed longer. Too bad I didn't get to talk to Aileen about her cards. I so wanted to see her Crystal Tarot deck!

My querents were predominantly Capricorn; however, there was this awesome married young female Taurean entrepreneur with a lot of Fire energy & a young female Piscean architect who could use more Fire in turn to help her get moving with her career & then some. I'm really happy how they were very receptive to everything New Age. Actually, everybody else was that night. But those 2 young women were the most delightful to talk to! :D

So after us readers got a quick meal from our sponsors to help us ground ourselves, we then headed out for some tea. Jade had to finally go to work. Francis got himself some peppermint ginseng while I had peach ginger. Then we goofed off with his quirky webcam application, so voila. Haha. We were on the brink of dozing off in the cafe, but since the place was closing & the crowd in the fantastic nocturnal weekend food market Banchetto subsided a bit, we decided to check it out, & lo, & behold, the food choices were more overwhelming than in our usual daytime weekend markets in Makati. We had so much fun people-watching & trying out more food. We were there until a few minutes before sunrise, yay. It was crazy. We really should be there again more often. I used to hang out in the area often a few years ago, especially at the Podium, but no thanks to my old day job, I got too tired to go anywhere else beyond our good ol' CBD. I'm working to get my stamina up to go around the metro like crazy again. Though getting around is a lot more fun with a friend or so in tow.

The week after that, Francis & N joined me for another Tarot-rama afternoon, as I was hoping to get another workshop done with my regular younger students. Francis showed me his Dante Tarot deck (which was spectacularly surreal; I got mystical cards all throughout) & N brought his wonderful old cyber-goth-punk deck, which was rather left unused that time. We then headed to Bonifacio High Street + Serendra around dinnertime, & scoured the area for books & decks. I found my Legacy of The Divine Tarot deck there, & I had it reserved to give myself more time to think about it, because what I've always wanted from Ciro Marchetti was actually his Tarot of Dreams, sigh. Then we had dinner in the area & everything else was a blur. I'll have to blame them super sweet cupcakes + mango bellini for the sugar rush. I wasn't able to meet up with Jammi as a result.

Now for the Brown Bag Market + Green Drinks event, I decided to meet up with Francis again at BHS + Serendra first before heading there. I finally bought my Legacy of The Divine Tarot deck & it was a good buy after all. I didn't get to use it right away, though. But the book was a good read. I like the astrological transit associations for each card, & the spreads were potent.

I had silly floral nail art done (switched from red nail polish to black just because; coincidentally for my Venus return) & we checked out other fun stuff to get next time (I'm so hoarding Kimmidoll keychains, haha), then ate at this vegetarian bistro which has the best aligue pasta yet (I had a creamy tuna pasta dish, though) & power drinks. We're definitely coming back!

We also checked out ECHOstore for fab local organic personal care items, & I bought stuff from Z.E.N. like their leg-&-feet relief cooling gel & strawberry + licorice body scrub, then a really nicer-smelling insect repellent spray from GIGA. Yay, eucalyptus! I'm going back for more. But thank heavens for online shopping as well. Yup, I'll be happy to receive more of those as gifts this season! :P *hint*

When we got to The Collective, this small artsy haven tucked neatly away in the outskirts of the Makati CBD housing a few organic shops, clothing stores, kitschy food joints, & urban art galleries was already jampacked with people, but the crowd was actually already thinning down, as the market was wrapping up. I've visited the complex before last April & fell in love with the wall art along Vinyl on Vinyl, among the other things they had on display during that time. I'll go definitely go back for this awesome quirky vegetarian noodle house called Wabi-Sabi, that offers BOTH ramen & pho, yay, & other glorious things on the menu like gyoza, ginger beer, & mushroom siomai. Francisbear & I chanced on Punchdrunk Panda's booth with cute designs on footwear & electronic gadget accessories such as laptop sleeves/bags & camera straps, Ritual's take on sorbetes (ice cream), homemade square candles with seashells, & the highlight of the night: a shot of powdered wheatgrass drink with honey from a couple of part-owners of Good Spirits Cafe, Glecie (Scorpio) & her better half Foncy (Libra), hehe. Talk about green drinks, alright. I bought a very small sample from her, but I'll be coming back for more. What made me doubly excited was that when she told me Foncy's sister Mitchelle reads Tarot cards, too, & they have an astrologer on board! Dear Lord, I really need to be around this complex more often. So all in all, it was a wonderful night. To hop on over to The Collective, here's a map I gacked off online:

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Thanks again, Francis, for that action-packed weekend!

It was a super month, yesiree. Venus returns are the best! ♥

"because it's fun being a girl!"

2010-11-22T19:24:00.008+08:00

There's this new stint I've been into for about 3 months now, at least a couple of times per month, & I have to thank my fellow Tarot reader Jammi for the heads-up. It's G Mondays at exquisite NU.VO in Greenbelt 2 in the Makati central business district, a laidback yet fun just the same Ladies' Night with free-flowing sangria, awesome house music, & half-hour-long minimum Tarot readings from 10pm to 12mn (though sometimes, on a packed night, like a few days before my birthday, I'd be reading until 2am-3am, haha, yikes). Now just because it's Ladies Night, you can't have your men there with you. There's still an abundance of guys with their respective date & friends, & everybody's having fun, so far! After-dinner parties will never be the same with nights like this. Whoever said you can't ever party on a Monday?

So this is the only time ever that I ditch my usual girl-next-door tee-&-shorts getup. LBDs, here I go. But since I still can't manage to wear killer heels until further notice, I just go in dainty dressy flats & slip-ons (& oh, man, I need a wardrobe update; serves me right for living in designer flip-flops & sneakers for the longest time) so I can still show off my neat pedicure, haha.

Anyway, see you all there. (If not tonight, then most definitely next week! Jammi's a trusty reader, too, & she's so fun to talk to!) The place serves nice Italian & French food & they sure want to break the common notion now that they're only good for that. They have other regular events on other nights (with Manolet Dario, yo, squee) that you might want to check out.

it's easy being green!

2010-11-12T13:25:00.008+08:00

Because the queen of organic, sustainable lifestyle among my roster of friends posted this idea for next weekend, & I'm kinda raring to go & check things out, as Mercury in Sagittarius is driving me crazy in my 3rd House this month, I might as well go, & maybe share the idea with you guys, especially if you're looking for a nice new cause or a fairly wholesome party, hehe. Besides, I miss The Collective, & if you haven't been there yet, I suggest you head on over. There's a whole buncha lovely artistic stuff to discover in that complex! :D

Schmoozing with like-minded people on a weekend sounds like fun.
& yeah, I do care about the environment & support fair trade.

Here's from the official website:

Every month people who work in the environmental field meet up at informal sessions known as Green Drinks.

We have a lively mixture of people from NGOs, academia, government, & business. Come along & you'll be made welcome. Just say, "are you green?" & we will look after you & introduce you to whoever is there. It's a great way of catching up with people you know & also for making new contacts. Everyone invites someone else along, so there’s always a different crowd, making Green Drinks an organic, self-organising network.

These events are very simple and unstructured, but many people have found employment, made friends, developed new ideas, done deals & had moments of serendipity. It's a force for the good & we'd like to help it spread to other cities. Contact your local node to get the latest info about coming along.

Yup, sounds like a plan. ♥
Let's all hang out & throw caution to the wind! :P

Mystic Friday?

2010-11-05T09:10:00.006+08:00

I am actually nervous & yet excited at the same time about this event that I signed up for later tonight. If it weren't for my Scorpio soul sister Aileen, I'd probably be staying at home recuperating further, after my long break from read-a-thons since my birthday a couple of months ago. But since my beloved fellow readers Francis & Jade will be there, too, YAY. Should be fun. I got the King of Pentacles, Page of Cups, & 6 of Wands from my Mythic Tarot deck, anyway, to assure myself that everything will be fine. So far, so good. I'm going pro bono because I can, hehe. Talk about paying it forward for a very momentous year. Thank you, Universe. ♥

Click to enlarge, por favor.

I better unwind before dragging myself out to the East. Anyway, happy weekend, folks! Looks like holistic healing & introspection are indeed in order, while the Sun & New Moon (as well as Mercury & Venus, ugh) are in Scorpio. Oh, well.

(As for my next reading schedule, I can be available this Sunday night, November 7th, from 8pm-12mn; then on Tuesday, November 9th, from 4pm-10pm. I'll confirm later if I can make it on Monday night, November 8th, from 10pm-12mn; & on Thursday, 4pm-10pm. Leave a comment for clarifications, s'il vous plait.)

desiderata

2010-10-20T22:47:00.027+08:00

I really haven't been speaking to my mother after what happened during my birthday, which was, again, one of my saddest days of the year. I actually wanted to make a difference this time, by giving her a call overseas to thank her for the gift of Life, for her support up to that very day, & for her patience with me even if I won't probably end up anywhere close to what she's always expected me to become. I was sick that time & I didn't want to see anyone else that day, as I vowed to myself I'm giving myself & my poor cards a break. But the bitch lashed out at me when she was telling me to look after my younger brother (I always do, but it's best sometimes if he hears things from her directly instead, yes?) & I got really pissed off. It's like, screw you, woman, you mean after everything I've done to prove to you & the rest of the world that I'm not like what you've been always afraid I'd turn out to be, you still don't trust me with MY life?! Fuck that shit. I'm out. She hung up on me, so I retorted via SMS, giving her a piece of my mind. After that, I didn't bother talking to her again. (She expects me to contact her at least every week.) We did speak to each other, though, when my brother was confined earlier this month in St. Luke's QC (his first hospitalization drama EVER, btw). But it was obviously just about my brother's case, & I drifted away again after that.

& just yesterday I found myself thinking again about my parents, & everything else about my life in general, even who & what I really am. It was also surreal how I ran into my Cancerian best friend Zhy on my way home, to think an hour before I got back, I found myself thinking about her, too. I haven't seen her since March last year, for my father's death anniversary & kid sister's birthday commemoration. She kindly helped me put things in clear perspective again, & I thanked her for being there for me & how it's always so easy to pick up where we've last left off. I missed her terribly, especially how she was there for me when my kid sister & dad were already gone. I should always trust my gut, she said. I hope to see her again this weekend.

& I've been crying at home ever since.

& then, just a few hours ago, my mother sent me a copy of one of my dad's favorite poems online, & now I feel completely devoid of energy. How could've I forgotten this piece?

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about Love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the Universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the Universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of Life, keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

I feel I'm going to be crying my way out of Life again this whole week.

We used to have copy of that poem framed while he was still alive. Now all we have left is his most favorite poem & his most favorite Bible passage (Psalms 27:1, NIV). & reviewing all them lines tonight is giving me the chills. Holy mother of fuck.

I miss my dad. I can't look at fighter planes anymore without wanting to burst into tears. I can't even have elaborate seafood dinners with crabs anymore (but I'm all for shrimp & prawns everytime, as well as sushi). I can't even deal with anything National Geographic or FOX Crime anymore, either. It's also hard for me nowadays to visit his stead, where his remains lie with my kid sister's in our local memorial park. & it doesn't help that today marks my kid sister's best friend's last day on Earth 7 years ago. My sister then followed suit 14 months after that, just 5 days before Christmas, 6 days after my dad's birthday. He was in the US that time with my mom. The same way I can't really deal with anime or manga everything anymore, among other things, because I miss my poor little sister. & I will have the memory of her printing out my online birth chart, flailing, & exclaiming to my face, "look, your Venus & Mars are both in Scorpio!" just months before she died forever flashing in my head. She was more into astrology than I was, btw, being the Piscean that she was, & she couldn't deal with how I wasn't Libra enough for her taste, hehe. She was the only person in the world I could trust with my tarot decks & books, & she was my first student ever, as I taught her how to read when I was 6. & never mind if she turned out smarter than I am. She taught me a lot of things, too, & I truly miss her. I've actually given up on cooking a long time ago, after she was gone. She was my biggest culinary fan.

But I'm trying to get in touch with my former self lately, especially after quitting my soul-sucking day job earlier this year. I've missed out on a damn lot, & I'm actually liking how I'm seeing the world with a fresh new pair of eyes, or so I'd like to think. For a change, I'd love to be around like-minded individuals more, after a dire scarcity of such for the longest time. I've tried to go mindless for a while, but I can't deal with mediocrity talaga & all that shit, so ayoko na. One of my new acquaintances have exclaimed how it's like I'm a totally different person around certain places & folks I feel like I can relate to & identify with, because I've been acting like an agreeably dumb overgrown kid when I'm around her. That just goes to show that she's just quick to judge me, then, thinking she's got me all figured out like the back of her hand. Again, fuck that shit. You simply have no idea YET. I may come across as contradictory, but I'd like to call myself "multifaceted" instead. Funny, ironically I was trying to show her the real me, or at least the closest I could manage to that concept that time. Oh, well. I'm despicably sick & tired na of my life. But thanks to my parents, who are still looking after me even in spirit, after all, I'm not giving up. Not just yet. Now fuck off.

& so this is what it feels like, when Mercury's just slipped into Scorpio, wherein my Venus (in retrograde) & Mars have returned; while the Moon's waxing in Pisces, along with Jupiter (Rx) & Uranus (oh, dear Lord); & the reality-checking fucktard Saturn's still in my Sun sign Libra. I feel murderous, at a loss for words, but at the same time floored with inspiration. But what now?

I'll come back more coherent, hopefully, with all the obligatory promises (like them birthday readings), but at least now you know what's swirling in my head at this moment. Pardon my profanity, por favor, tambien. ~~I'll go out early for readings tomorrow, though (I'm booked from 7pm onwards)~~ & my workshop will proceed as planned next Sunday, on the 24th, 3pm-7pm, then we'll all troop to Global City by 10pm. It's going to be a long Sunday, but I'm all set. I'll just celebrate the Full Moon with my proteges, & brace myself for Samhain. Maybe this is why I keep getting the Moon card from Jammi's lovely Roots of Asia deck, even my own Mythic set, even if it already manifested as a power outage last week. Oh, & the Silence card from my Osho Zen deck, but that's more equated with the traditional Star card... sigh.

Let me just end this then with a reflection from a couple of years ago, that still applies to me up to now, even if I'm exhausted & I need a long break from it all & yes, finally, I do mind. I don't want to end up hating what I do nowadays entirely. I'd rather hate ze profanum vulgus than my own convictions.

"On a different note, I’ve been thinking about what one of my esoteric friends said about Tarot readers being reduced to stereotypical laughable fortune-telling figures bordering on quackery in this country. That’s what I’ve been trying to avoid for the past 8 years, & yet I really don’t mind when people see me differently everytime they’d find out how I’m so into New Age. This is who & what I am, but there’s more to me, of course, even if my current lifestyle is a tad too limiting. I’ve never felt more alive celebrating that, & I’m all the more excited to dabble in my chosen pursuits, which are actually more sophisticated than what the common horde would give them credit for."

on solar returns

2010-10-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday, Blog.

"I'm Tired of Being Sexy"

2010-09-16T09:06:00.028+08:00

Before you violently react to this particular post's title, because you know I'm more "cute" & "spunky" than anything else, haha, lemme just share you the very reason why I still play Midnight Club LA Remix on my PSP when I can:

CSS, or Canser de Sei Sexy, is this fun Brazilian rock band with a rather cute German-Portuguese-Japanese frontgirl named Lovefoxxx. The actual band name means, "I'm tired of being sexy" in Portuguese, as quoted supposedly from Beyoncé, who allegedly declared such, haha. I miss this kind of sound. So 90's. Indie-electro FTW. This is so my birthday song this year, even if the premise is kinda funny literally. I have 2 things to share about this song from a feminist & pesticide viewpoint, but maybe it's better to laugh about it IRL.

I find Lovefoxxx kawaii in this video (despite the getup, yeah) especially how she does sound Japanese-y at some point. I would actually do what I can to cue this song in as much as possible while I'm racing. There are other noteworthy tracks in the game but this Rage song takes the cake.

Anyway, here's something you ladies might like:

Want to bring more Aphrodite qualities into your life?

Everything you do to nurture your own sensual enjoyment of life

will help enlarge the influence of Aphrodite.

Some suggestions follow:

Slow down. Take your time. Rushing can make it difficult to be sensual & caring.
Permit yourself to feel beautiful, sensual, & loving. Without feeling guilty, make the time to do those things that delight & please you.
Participate in some kind of bodywork (choose from aerobics to massage) to increase your awareness of your body & its sensations. Find a type that you really enjoy, & make the most of it!
Practice really focusing your attention on someone else, to listen to them with your heart & mind. Don't tune out or drift off into a daydream. Who knows, you may even learn things that will open new doors for you!
No matter how busy you might be, set aside some time each day to really connect with someone you really care about... take just a few minutes to give them your full attention & some quiet appreciation. You'll find yourself a much more loving & desirable person.
Dress up, wear something sensual, if not downright sexy! Even if it's just bright red lingerie under your "dress for success" navy business suit.
Take care that your passionate energy, like Aphrodite's, isn't being misdirected. When you need to cut your losses & channel your energy in more rewarding ways, visualize what you want to happen & repeat it often... until your positive thoughts become a habit, & your intentions a reality!
Don't be afraid to speak your mind & let everyone else know what pleases you (& what doesn't!) Everyone knew just where they stood with Aphrodite, & they should with you as well.
Make your bedroom into a boudoir that even Venus would envy. After all, according to sleep researchers, only romance & slumber should be allowed to happen in there! So throw out the files you brought home from work, fluff up some fancy pillows, & light scented candles.
Don't spend more than you can realistically afford, but make it a point to get something luxurious for yourself occasionally... leather gloves, satiny pillowcases, a bottle of your favorite scent, or just a leisurely bubble bath. When you occasionally put yourself first, others will take notice & begin to think you're worth it (if they haven't already!)
Take your place in the limelight, even if it makes you uncomfortable at first. Call attention to one of your contributions or accomplishments. Be the first to toot your own horn for a change.
Turn your bathroom into a pleasure spa. Stock the bath with bath oils & scented candles, the thickest towels you can afford, & fill it with music. Don't forget to surround the premises with a few seashells to remind you of Aphrodite's presence!
Work on becoming more trusting, even if it means risking rejection. Reach out and let others know how you feel about them.
Place fresh flowers at home & in your office. Visit art galleries & museums. Spend as much time & thought in wrapping gifts as you do in buying them. Learn about fine food & wines. In summary, develop your appreciation for the finer things in life.
Surround yourself with Aphrodite's symbols. Dress in her colors, & think of her appreciatively as you put on pearl earrings and dab on the scent of roses!

Haha, look at what I found. Just in time for my Venus return. Again, this time it's extra special because not only will it have an extended run this year, it coincides with my Solar return (ahem, birthday much). & yay, I'm getting to indulge in my favorite things again, especially from a couple of years ago, like Balinese massages, meditation hours, hair treatments, & curling-up-by-myself moments at home. I still look wasted, though, so don't expect anything much yet. I also owe myself another visit to an acupuncturist, at the very least. I really need to recuperate. These are more like necessities now, if not occupational hazards. Ahh, yes, aging, I so hate you.

It's funny, however, when people still think I'm 5-7 years younger than my actual age. More like funny insulting rather than funny flattering, actually. I know what I'm doing most of the time, even if I come across as a big ditz these days. It irks me to no end when people bewilderingly ask me how old I am over the phone while trying to set a reading appointment with me, implying I don't deserve to be given my current rates because they THINK I'm way too young to be doing this. I've also had a couple of people younger than me blurting out how they were originally expecting me to be in my 40's or so, only to realize that I'm still a decade short of their expectations. *shrugs* The mere idea supposedly that I was keying in "hehe" or "haha" or "yay" to my responses to their SMS inquiries kinda threw them off, but since their referrals were insistent (thanks, guys, I love you!) they decided to give me a shot anyway. Like I said, I find it more to my detriment when people think I'm too young or too nice for Life, especially when sleazy characters think they can pull a fast one on me, until my easily-enraged Scorpio Venus rears her vile head & lashes at them. Now that Venus conjuncts Mars further, I'm warning you, I'm not to be trifled with, please. Thank you. Don't push me, don't shortchange me, don't insult my integrity & whatever's left of my so-called intelligence, don't ever test my patience, don't expect me to be there for you 24/7 when you know I'm drained, & don't challenge me in any way (unless it's in gin rummy or any racing video game), don't box me in. Matakot na rin kayo siguro kung "e0w jejeje tNx pOh" ang replies ko sa inyo sa text, punyeta. Of course, I kid.

Behold, the makings of a bitter spinster, haha. (Or is this just PMS again?)

But I really can't say I totally lack Venus, despite her squaring my Aquarius ascendant. I mean, I'm all for indulgence & sensuality. I mean, with the things I do for myself, like getting pampered & staying healthy, even if I'm not yet fit. Believe me, underneath my hobo chic exterior lies a rather high-maintenance [brat] who would rather cultivate her mind by building her New Age bookshelf & updating her iPod & making her forever cluttered room more livable, rather than bother with makeup & all that girly hoopla. I won't have time to retouch anyway when I do read-a-thons, so who cares? Oh, my, that's so my Rising speaking.

I totally agree, of course, with this article, that we don’t have to wear flowers to be feminine, but we do have to know how to use our Venus – "to attract, to sweeten, to appreciate." Uh, attract what? Good vibes? Haha. See, I told you, I'm that out of touch with her, even if she's wonderfully appeared solo in the night sky a few times last month for me to get freaked out– I mean, to be blessed by her love & magic. Eerie, I know. & I've already said "freaked out" thrice in this post. WTH.

My Aquarian friend with a gorgeous Libra Moon & benign Gemini rising tells me I really shouldn't worry about how I look at the most. I've the most perfect excuse anyway to appear kitschy because of my quirky hobby (now current occupation). She's right. But I still wince, somewhat. Or maybe it's my Venus at work. But a Libra Sun-Scorpio Venus should be perfectly OK with a devil-may-care, rockstar vibe. (Oh, FML, I'm nowhere near looking like a hot rakista or groupie, bleargh) My point is, I could care less, as long as I'm relaxed & treated with respect, if not like a princess, hehe. I also think that at the end of the day; intelligence, sensibility, good taste, good manners, & kindness are much sexier traits to have than what convention is instilling in our minds with. (Gah, double FML, I only have good taste to boast of now! j/k) Same principle applies to guys, especially when most of them think acting like a Neanderthal's hot, ugh. (Shame on you!)

Before I forget, here's something to help you brokenhearted folks invoke her:

Goddess of Love,

remind me that I don't have to have a partner to be in love,

that I can be happy in love with Life itself.

Take it easy now. Enjoy the coming weekend. :P

2010 birthday countdown

2010-09-13T07:49:00.019+08:00

Hello. I'm sorry if it took me only now again to make an update. I've been so busy & drained these past few days (OK, months), but I'm setting aside some time this month to play serious catch-up. This should be my best birthday month yet, now that Venus has returned to Scorpio, & Mars will be in Scorpio by tomorrow. Yay, so awesome, it's my Venus & Mars return in one go! On my birthday month, even! Best of all, Venus will have an extended stay in that sign this year! I wonder if I'll really get to tap into those planets' energies for my betterment. I've never really felt those made any sense at all to me, except for my fiery temper, which my Piscean kid sister (R.I.P.) was quick to point out in 2004, & I will never forget how she did! I wish I had more of the sign's sexy traits, haha, but all I got are the dark, elusive, brooding, volatile characteristics. Oh, well. I'm still nice. :P I'll have Jupiter (now back in Pisces) & Pluto (now going direct in Capricorn) to help me stay put.

Anyway, I'd like to greet my Virgo kid brother a happy birthday again since yesterday, even if he was cranky as hell. He waited for me, though, when I got home from a surprise gig a while back, & tried to make up for his moodiness earlier by patiently putting up with my exuberant yapping. (So I bought a new feng shui kit & another astrology book at the last minute — one can never have too many New Age books, haha, yes? I had to show him excitedly all that, as if he actually cares.) Yay, thank you for missing me! I love you! Thank you also for my cake & ice cream fix, heehee. You have 12 more days to come up with more! I keed. ♥

So before I get sidetracked again from my main reasons why I sorely need to update, here's a rundown of my intentions et al. for this month:

This blog will be revamped. I totally want a new look, but I'm really swamped with readings & I haven't been toting my netbook around for sometime now. I need help. (Paging JR, ahem, hehe.) I have ideas, but I'm still working on the post drafts, so sigh. There should be a darker look to this soon, until I decide to switch to a clean, beachy vibe. Maybe by next summer.
My next budding Tarot workshop series will resume on October 3rd, 2pm-6pm, in my usual hideaway in Makati. This requires an extensive post, & yes, a minimal reservation fee, which is most payable electronically but I'd like to thank my attendees during my summer debut: Ayei, Aisha, Tim, & Jammi for so bearing with me, as well as folks like Jonas Diego, Explotar! Magazine, as well as my culture vulture friend Paolo Cruz (I miss the nocturnal rounds we used to make since 2008 with good food & yay music & superb insights) for the support.
Surprise, surprise. People already won my obscure raffles early this year. Last year, I was supposed to give away a feng shui guidebook as well as a Tarot Basics set with a most outstanding guidebook, which can actually be too complex for the staple beginner to work with, but any bookworm would love it, haha. So far, congratulations to Mark Madera for winning! I might do the same thing on my blog anniversary this October, & I feel like raffling away a free reading for my birthday in 2 weeks, hehe, but I better come up with them overdue birthday readings first for my loyal patrons this year that I've promised to post last month, & I'll also need to update my online lessons before proceeding. That's why I'm taking the rest of September to devote my time to blogging & uploading photos & reading all the silly books I've hauled since Mercury went retrograde in Virgo (yay, it's my Mercury return, bleargh!) last month. The crazy list includes guidebooks to basic flower arrangement, corporate zombiehood survival, & delving deeper into alchemy (eep). Don't ask me what fictional titles I've been reading — I will only declare Sandman: The Dream Hunters with much gusto (& for the love of God, I need a new copy of that for my birthday) & Madame Xanadu (uhm, would anyone like to give me the 2nd volume, too, for my birthday? HAHA) because I can't be bothered with anything else at the moment. Yeah, especially I've a garden to take care of & flowers to arrange & a spinning class (now do I really have what it takes to be a DJ?! SRSLY?) to embarrass myself with. Holy mother of... pearl, as Tim quips. :P
Call me ditzy, but I get much inspiration from animated movies, & I'll be posting my reviews in full force. Especially when Despicable Me was incredibly delightful, with Pharrell Williams astoundingly handling the musical score, yay. Haha, & just a few months back I was trying to catch up with his solo tracks & revisiting my oldskool N.E.R.D. favorites. (IKR, but I can't help it!)
More FAQs, especially for the snarky skeptic. Addressing their concerns has been my main pet peeve for months, but I'm finally learning to cruise with it. Whatev, yo. Lemme just bombard you with verbosity.
I also would like to tell you more about these nice chi-chi places I've recently fallen in love with, thanks to Jammi. Why did I allow myself to become zombie-ish for so long? Anyway, I'll be more than happy to share my new Sunday & Monday routines with you, thanks to these getaways. :P I'll let you know of my schedule variances soon, btw.
Because I'm only human & I can't help it, I'll have to post the rest of my pet peeves & updated ground rules before proceeding with a reading. This applies to younger, pushier individuals whom I can't readily say no to. But no more Little Miss Nice Libra for you when I get riled up, sorry na lang.
Oh, & I still have my wishlist pour ma joyeux anniversaire to pimp in a bit, hehe.

I better go back to sleep if I want to wake up sane & productive for tonight. I'm already devoid of energy, & knowing my dear friends are being sick lately isn't helping. Anyway, I wish you all happiness, success, wonderful health, peace, & love. Have a happy September! ♥

"she's the only one who knows what it is to burn"

2010-08-24T11:19:00.007+08:00

I now bid my Tarot of the Magical Forest deck (Lo Scarabeo edition) goodbye. It was so much fun while you babies lasted. I loved you so much. God knows how I did everything to keep you guys safe. I took you kids seriously when other people didn't. You gave me so much to remember, & I learned a whole lot from you. I know & feel you're just as worn out as I am, but you've always smiled & extended your warmth & friendship when you felt like it. You hardly complained. You're just like me, you dream of a better world & a happier life for each & every one of us, despite the circumstances, despite our unwillingness to go drastically change. But you're very patient & sweet, & I so adore you.

May you rest in peace now, & I'm very sorry to let you darlings go. From dust we all are, to dust we shall return, indeed. I can't wait for your reincarnation, though, & I promise to take care of you more fiercely once you find all your way back into my arms. I love you. I LOVE you. I love ALL of YOU. You've blessed me immensely. ♥

(Pardon the profanity in the previous post. & as to explain why I'm letting my sweet deck go, in flames even, it sadly was drenched in beer the last time by accident by a young onlooker while I was reading for a few girls whom I felt deserved to have a break pro bono. With The Devil card badly damaged, & it was the first then last card I got to pick up to pertain to him, I have no choice but to ask him to replace it. This is so not cool. I did say he owes me, but I'll really have to mean it. He needs to learn a valuable lesson, as much as I unabashedly did a while back. I'm sorry. My Libran self doesn't want to stir up any ruckus, but it can't be helped.)

Ugh, Mercury retrograde. How I love you & hate you at the same time. More about you later. Please spare the Philippines. We've had more than enough crap to deal with already in a week's span. Thank you.

caveat emptor

2010-08-17T10:34:00.030+08:00

I'm only human. I get pissed off big time when I get harassed, especially when I just woke up. I HAVE NO TIME NOR PATIENCE TO TRANSLATE NOR FIX THIS POST TO HAVE IT APPEAR MORE COHERENT, but I just want to illustrate how some people can't still type their sentences properly in this day & age, & how some people are hopeless outright online. Seriously? I have my usual grammatical lapses, too, you know, but not like this! To be blunt about it — & I'm sorry: PUTANGINA, BINIBWISIT AKO, ANG AGA-AGA PA.

Oh, hell yeah, beware of this filthy dawg, yo.

boyet_medina: hello po magtatanung lang po male o female po kau,salamat
Andalusia: for what po
Andalusia: sa tarot ba?
boyet_medina: nakita ko kasi sa comment ng jogging sa umaga or gabi tapos andalusia
Andalusia: ah eh di ano sa palagay mo
Andalusia: babae diba
Andalusia: may lalake bang mag-aandalusia
Andalusia: i'm sorry, i'm wary of talking to strangers over YM, unless they're asking me about my ads.
boyet_medina: ok thanks po
Andalusia: what about my comment ba
boyet_medina: sa gabi ka active yun comment mo
Andalusia: yeah, & for you that means...?
boyet_medina: whatever,he,he
boyet_medina: kaw yan eh di ba
Andalusia: ah.
Andalusia: kaya nga
Andalusia: eh what do you want to talk about regarding my comment? :)
boyet_medina: anu b yung ibig mo sabihin sa gabi ka active tapos tumawa ka
Andalusia: ah
Andalusia: wala palatawa lang ako
Andalusia: tsaka mas nocturnal ako e
Andalusia: pero i don't get enough exercise
Andalusia: epekto ng call center culture yan
boyet_medina: kasi may mga babae na pag yun na usapan ayaw na nila
Andalusia: parang di ka sanay
Andalusia: huh
Andalusia: anong usapan?
Andalusia: jogging?
Andalusia: sex?
boyet_medina: activeness
Andalusia: WTF?
Andalusia: ah
Andalusia: i used to be sporty
boyet_medina: tagasan ka
Andalusia: if you're a fitness trainer, i have a frozen gym membership
Andalusia: & i intend to take things slow first
Andalusia: malayo.
Andalusia: so call center ka nag wowork
Andalusia: hindi
boyet_medina: san nga yung malayo
Andalusia: didn't you read my ad
Andalusia: basta
boyet_medina: nope sorry
Andalusia: let me know right now if you're selling me something
Andalusia: kasi i won't take it
boyet_medina: wala
boyet_medina: nakita ko lang talaga
Andalusia: so fitness buff ka lang ganon? or no din?
Andalusia: iba lang ako humirit.
boyet_medina: minsan,he,he
boyet_medina: oonga naiilang tuloy ako
Andalusia: yeah maybe i should go back to working out
boyet_medina: may picture ka b
Andalusia: iba lang ako mag-isip.
boyet_medina: ako din
boyet_medina: mabilis masyado
Andalusia: wala. like i said, i'm overweight.
boyet_medina: sobra sobra ba over
Andalusia: no.
Andalusia: ok pa ko.
Andalusia: mabilis ka ba mag-isip masyado? i think way too much din.
boyet_medina: my asim pa ganun
Andalusia: syempre.
boyet_medina: mukhang makamandag ang beauty mo
Andalusia: every woman, no matter what their shape, size, or age, has a right to feel attractive. dangerously attractive, even.
Andalusia: hindi naman.
boyet_medina: wer ka now
Andalusia: baket ba?
boyet_medina: masarap ka kausp alam mo yun
boyet_medina: nagtatanunglang
Andalusia: how old are you & ikaw yung taga-saan?
Andalusia: don't you think you should make the proper introduction 1st?
boyet_medina: 39 bulacan
Andalusia: ah
Andalusia: dapat pala mag-po ako
Andalusia: mano po
Andalusia: hahahaha
boyet_medina: ha,ha di na kailangan
boyet_medina: 16 kpa lng ba
Andalusia: maybe if you read my ad you wouldn't think so
boyet_medina: di ko nabasa sensyan a
boyet_medina: ilan taon k n b
Andalusia: 31.
boyet_medina: magk linya lang pala
Andalusia: my ex-fiance's 28.
boyet_medina: so u have bf
boyet_medina: mas agresibo b ganun edad
Andalusia: sir, why on earth are you asking me blunt questions?
Andalusia: do you think just because you can, you should?
Andalusia: no, mga torpe ang mga putanginang to.
boyet_medina: sorry if di mo gusto sabi ko nga sayo may mga babae na di gusto ang ganyan
Andalusia: i'm one of them, unless it's work-related.
boyet_medina: halatako nga kagad
Andalusia: & i didn't want to assume you were a lecherous old bastard & that you were fucking hitting on me until that remark.
boyet_medina: bakit di nati iwork related ng makasagot ka ng di nagagalit
Andalusia: look, i would like to assume you're married, & that you're stable.
boyet_medina: ha,ha wag ka magalala may preno ako
Andalusia: because i'm a prude, & i don't know you, & i can have you reported.
boyet_medina: for what?
Andalusia: for harassment.
boyet_medina: ha,ha may ginawa ba ko sayo wala naman di b?
Andalusia: you were still insinuating shit.
boyet_medina: nagtanung lang po ako and thats all
Andalusia: ok.
boyet_medina: di ako ganun mis
Andalusia: then cut the crap.
Andalusia: then prove it na di ka ganun.
Andalusia: if you're married, go read up on how to work things out with your wife, & make her happy
Andalusia: or at least go out & get wanked off by someone else who'd be more willing & shit
Andalusia: :)
boyet_medina: kanina ko pa na prove wala akoginagawa na di maganda and i think na ang mag ask ng question what ever it is eh di bawal depende na lang sa nagrerecieve
Andalusia: sabagay
Andalusia: communication failure
boyet_medina: so ok ka n
Andalusia: maybe.
boyet_medina: sakaif ever na ginawa ko yun panu mo ko rereport sigurado ka b na lahat ntg info ko ay tama,and we should think it twice
Andalusia: basta.
Andalusia: ;)
boyet_medina: but the real thing is di ako ganun
Andalusia: & sa totoo lang hindi nga ako online dun eh
Andalusia: kaya nagulat ako may nag-pm
Andalusia: then good
Andalusia: just don't hit on me
Andalusia: it won't work.
boyet_medina: di ka nga online dun but may online na naka lagay dun kaya nag try ako mag pm
Andalusia: so what if meron.
Andalusia: keep your hormones to yourself
boyet_medina: kanina gusto ko yung mga words mo pero now di na..tao kausap mo di tuod
Andalusia: tao din ako, hindi poste or sex object
Andalusia: kaya nga next time po mag-iingat ka sa kakausapin mo
Andalusia: usually siguro mga babaeng ewan lang kausap mo
Andalusia: ibahin nyo po ako

OMG, if this is this motherfucker's idea of getting free psychoanalysis or a reading, he might as well be shot dead on the spot. Somewhat I still find this whole conversation funny because I've just re-realized how dense (or "guileless," which suits me better) & matter-of-fact I can be (but this was early this morning, so yeah, I was still pretty groggy when this whole shit happened) & I could've reported the guy for spam much earlier. Though, I could've also asked for his Sun sign so I could laugh at how illustrative it is of his behavior now, haha. There was also that glimmer of my inner peace-love-unity-respect junkie of a Libran when I said, "sabagay" when I just wanted to drop the subject as he started becoming defensive after I told him I could have him reported (& hopefully eventually banned forever from the forums & existence per se). I had to mention the "call center culture" just so I could keep him in perspective, even if I've been nocturnal since high school. What an asshole to deny he wasn't doing anything offensive at all in the first place, when his motives were all over my screen. & OMFG, the nerve of him asking me to talk about sex in my work perspective, when he didn't even bother to read my ad or profile! & why would I dare entertain that thought with him, anyway? What does he take me for?! I would like to quote Anton La Vey at this point, "Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal," & honestly, I have no time for the idea per se. Unless... hehe. (Wait, seriously, how do I give off proper "mating signals" again? HAHAHA. I'm retarded like that. My Venus in Scorpio has always been off-kilter. But at least that dirty old lecher noticed her fleeting presence; makamandag daw eh, WTH! Buti alam mo, ULOL! I am seriously laughing at the thought like crazy as I write this.)

I'm sorry, but I'm being a big bitch lately, & I'd like to blame the War Lord Mars in my Sun sign Libra (ahem, wait til it slips back into Scorpio for my Mars return, haha), the old killjoy Saturn also in Libra (my Saturn in Virgo's an actual virago, ergo, spinster-in-the-making, so good luck, Chuck!) & my Mercury return (in Virgo, going retrograde in full swing this weekend, dammit), but there are also other factors sadly contributing to this whole mess which is yours truly. I'm a walking grenade launcher, & it doesn't help that I'm PMSing. I've been physically sick & exhausted, overdosing on DayQuil & NyQuil at the very least. I just want out. I'm human, too, with a multitude of obligations that I can't ignore at the moment, & boohoo, I so want a full-blown getaway, especially after hearing my favorite chi-chi Italian place has relocated & won't be reopened until next year. Dammit. Maybe that's what I should do on my birthday: totally GET AWAY. But I better take care of my proverbial unfinished business by tomorrow for me to be able to do that. Wish me the very best, please. Thank you.

we'll make great pets!

2010-06-27T02:34:00.015+08:00

Just when I thought nobody's really reading my blog anymore, I get nice older lady clients saying I should update more often. Thank you all! This update's for you! :P

So I can't wait to be reunited with my former productions associate Burnz, who's now busy with Fab Paws & her new line of baked goodies later, even if I really haven't prepared for this event. I got busy with my own reading schedules, workshop follow-ups, productions marketing, & new writing assignments — plus I really haven't recovered yet from my issues from my last post (& I'll be wrapping that up in a bit, don't worry, thank you so much for bearing with me) — so I'm up late today, hehe. I'll be leaving early anyway, so I can have my new batch of calling cards printed then touch base with my Virgo soul sister before the whole madness starts. I'll need to have a special rate there. Hopefully we'll be seen together more often again after this stint, despite our über-busy lives. It's great that we're teaming up for this project — yes, thank you so much, lalabs — since we're both our respective Daddy's girls, anyway, & we love pets, though I'm more of a cat person than she'll ever be, hehe. ♥

Oh, & it's funny how I've been listening to this classic song from my heydays like crazy before her proposal:

Pardon the surreal bordering on disturbing video, but I will always smile at the mere mention of Porno for Pyros because of their "Pets" song. Though I really need to refresh my memory, because all I can remember aside from that is their "Tahitian Moon" track. & the only other thing I can remember from Jane's Addiction, aside from the notorious "Jane Says" is "Ocean Size". Where are my old mp3s when I need them, bleargh. I'm old & growing bored & more boring than ever. I miss the 90s. I really, REALLY do. :( I also miss the beach. I need to go back to one real bad. Never mind if it's raining hard like crazy, like what's been happening the whole day yesterday. Never mind if I haven't been in shape for the beach since 2004. I just want to be wading in a huge body of water surrounded by nature very soon.

The sea is a very easy place to disappear
To drift away

Blame it on my Cancer Moon (even if the Moon is in Capricorn until tomorrow night or so), & my natural affinity for the Queen of Cups, who has shown herself to me as the African goddess Yemaya, who can be honored in the eve of the Summer Solstice, when the Sun's back in Cancer.

According to legend, Yemaya's first gift to humans was a sea shell in which her voice could always be heard. To this day, we honor Yemaya when we hold a shell to our ear in order to hear her voice, the ocean.

Yemaya's Wisdom: I nurture, heal, touch, bless, comfort & make whole that which is incomplete. I am within you & you need only look inside yourself to find my eternal presence.

Yams, grain, soap, perfume, jewelry, & fabric are all traditional offerings to Yemaya, thrown into the sea. Rams are also sacrificed to her. Wear pearls or crystal beads to invoke her. To ask Yemaya to grant a wish or bestow a blessing, write her a letter & cast it into the sea.

Figuratively I do need to take time out for myself & reexplore the depths of my own psyche, but the only way to actually do it is to be by a peaceful shoreline where I can just watch the sun rise or set in peace. I really will, & I can't wait.

Oh, before you freak out as to why I'm referring to pagan goddesses out of nowhere, if you've been following this blog for sometime now, you should know my dire fascination for Our Lady & Kuan Yin (who are direct counterparts of Yemaya, coincidentally) ever since, & other mythological deities. Plus my new protegé Aisha (Scorpio Sun, Libra Rising) got herself a Universal Goddesses Tarot deck 2 weeks ago, & we were all entranced as well as bewildered with it. But that calls for a different post altogether.

& before I swerve away further from the actual reason why I had to post at this hour, I'm actually a bit worried how there are new stray cats (a couple of moms with a bunch of kittens — 1 of them's disturbingly BLACK, hehe) camping out in our yard. I'm not sure how to [dispose] of them, since I only intend to keep our resident tomcats Sunspot & Panther, especially while I'm waiting for a new puppy to take my former girl Snow's place. Oh, well. I'll deal with them later. It's funny how our driveway's the new kitty shelter ever since I got my tomcat Sophie for me & my kid sister (R.I.P.) 7 years ago. *sigh*

Anyway, oh yeah, see you all later if ever. I need to finish printing makeshift brochures, haha — & I mean MAKESHIFT, omg. Everything went haywire even before the drat Lunar Eclipse, but yay for my brother who got me a new ink cartridge at the last minute. I'm so including ink cartridges in my birthday gift registry this year, among other oddities, haha.

For reading schedules, see me this Thursday, July 1st. Leave a message here for inquiries. Toodles! ♥