~Freestyler~

"Falling Inside The Black"

2014-04-03T20:19:00.000+05:00

"Falling Inside The Black"

Tonight I'm so alone

This sorrow takes a hold

Don't leave me here so cold

(Never want to be so cold)

Your touch used to be so kind

Your touch used to give me life

I've waited all this time

I've wasted so much time

Don't leave me alone

Cause I barely see at all

Don't leave me alone, I'm

Falling in the black

Slipping through the cracks

Falling to the depths can I ever go back

Dreaming of the way it used to be

Can you hear me?

You were my source of strength

I've traded everything

That I love for this one thing

(Stranded in the offering)

Don't leave me here like this

Can't hear me scream from the abyss

And now I wish for you my desire

Don't leave me alone

Cause I barely see at all

Don't leave me alone, I'm

Falling in the black

Slipping through the cracks

Falling to the depths can I ever go back

Dreaming of the way it used to be

Can you hear me?

Falling in the black

Slipping through the cracks

Falling to the depths can I ever go back

Falling inside the black

Falling inside, falling inside the black, black, black

(Falling in the black.)

(Slipping through the cracks...)

Broken Angel

2013-01-30T23:19:00.000+05:00

BroKen Angel..

~Freestyler~

You Need Me

2012-08-04T18:45:00.001+05:00

You Need Me

I'm going to give you a heart now,
One that's been crushed and broken,
I've taped it back together,
After it was left wide open.

I'm going to give you a smile now,
One innocent and sweet,
I'll allow myself some happiness,
So you will feel complete.

I'm going to give you my hand now,
To hold each time your sad,
Are you willing to take me forever,
If I throw away the bad.

I'm going to sing a song now,
Something you can diagnose,
I don't need happily ever after,
When I know you need me most...

~Freestyler~

Empty Life

2012-06-29T15:24:00.001+05:00

Empty Life..

When happiness is just a dream

In memory's distant past
And marriage just a fantasy
Which never seems to last

When laughter is unheard of
And frowns replace a smile
When people live in silence
And friends go out of style

When love is an unknown word
And hate the thriving passion
When peace is far behind us
And war the latest fashion

When all these things come to pass
And every word's a hidden knife
Then people are merely shadows
Just living an empty life..

~Freestyler~

Unheard Screams

2011-10-02T15:58:00.001+05:00

~Unheard Screams~

Pain ripping every nerve

Willing your breath away

Opening your eyes again

Agony's here to stay

How do you escape

Life full of darkness

Every waking moment

Misery and sadness

Sleep the only comfort

Yet so hard to find

Dreams bring some peace

To a tortured souls mind

But dreams never last

Reality must emerge

Waking once again

Your screams never heard

~Freestyler~

Falling in Love

2011-08-10T18:13:00.000+05:00

~Falling in Love~

You want the truth, yes I`m falling for you

Your heart is now the only thing I want to pursue

I wish there was an easier way to say it

I have so many feelings inside that I can`t admit,

I spend nights thinking about what I should say

And wishing my heart wasn`t so far away

The lonely days at home hoping I`m still the same

Until I realize there is no use in saying your name,

Day by day I just keep eluding myself

Trapped in a dark and lonely shell

My mind says I`m made of failure and error

Since I avoid happiness and live in my own terror,

I might be surrounded by people but inside I feel alone

I can be walking thought the crowed but always on my own

Until you are next to me I am incomplete

I just start to fade and feeling more weak,

I still have hope that you look at me one day

Maybe at spring in a beautiful day of May

My heart is still here, he keeps waiting

And I will have faith that this is not an illusion I`m creating…

~Freestyler~

New Beginnings

2011-08-10T16:42:00.000+05:00

New Beginnings

Children bleedin'

Monsters feedin’

Oh innocent child

In a world gone wild

Dreams are dyin'

Trips - a - flyin'

The world gone whack

Dealers tradin' crack

For a taste of bend blood

turnin' names to mud

trashin', slashin'

Addict -a- crashin'

Flip the table round

New beginnings can be found

Time to kick the brick

No more wounds to lick

Listen to this poet spin a verse

Death ya can't rehearse

Life gives ya one shot

Happiness can't be bought

Rid your heart, of hate

Wise up, get it straight

Flip the table round

New beginnings can be found

Release the voice within

New life to begin...

~FreeStyler~

Slowly Dying

2011-07-20T03:56:00.000+05:00

Slowly Dying…

My dreams have gone
And terror has come to stay
Hope has been broken
And death has found a way

You think I am breathing
You think I am fine
But inside I am gasping
And losing my mind

I have been begging
I can't stand to live this way
Tears are coming down to hard
I am losing my way

I don't know what to do
I am blinded from peace
Something is inside me
I think a terrible beast

There is nothing left
But my outer shell
Death is in inside me
I am under a spell

My vision is dying
All I see now is blacked
The look on my dead face
The loving I lacked..

~FreeStyler~

Ending Her Cries

2011-06-25T10:33:00.000+05:00

~Ending Her Cries~

I looked into her eyes
I got lost in their depth
A glance into the future
Revealing the secrets she kept

For so many years she cared too
Yet we were both afraid to say
We avoided each other completely...
Every time, simply another day

She cried to me one night.
~Please help, I don't know what to do~
I wrapped my arms around her body.
~It is okay now, I'm here with you~

She told me about her boyfriend,
He cheated, and hurt her bad...
I told her not to worry...
But in the inside I was getting mad.

I held back my anger...
And I comforted her instead.
Playing with her hair,
She lay still on my bed.

I leaned over to kiss her cheek,
She smiled and turned to me.
~Thank you for being there...
I Have finally learned to see~

With that she drifted off,
I left her quietly sleeping.
~How could anyone want to hurt her? ~
I ran through thoughts, my heart leaping.

I met up with her boyfriend,
Swung out of pure love and rage.
A knife stabbed through my stomach..
~God where were you today? ~

My head smacking onto the pavement,
My breath getting thin...
My vision blurred and fading slowly...
This was a battle I could never win.

As this darkness consumes me...
Light fills my eyes...
I am proud to have lost my life,
If it meant ending her cries...

~FreeStyler~

My Black Rose

2011-05-17T21:33:00.000+05:00

My Black Rose

The fate of our love

has long since passed
the tears from my heart
create an ocean, vast

the sorrow cannot compare
than that of a heartbreak
for i have learned this lesson
and tears i can no longer make

My black rose lays perfect
on the white sheen of satin
"mea occidit dejectus"
on my tombstone in Latin

~FreeStyler~

Breaking The Habit

2011-05-03T20:36:00.001+05:00

Breaking The Habit

Wounds scar my emotions,
When my heart yearned for you,
but truth paints an overcast
with torn sheets of paper
as a simple contrast,
denying what I know is true.

Holding on to what I should let go,
I stand in opposition of the wind,
fighting a useless battle I can't win.
So why do I fight once again,
when I could let these wounds mend
when I could just let this all end.

So I'm breaking the habit
and closing the veins that bleed
as I close my eyes for the last time
for I am standing above the hurt,
and finally I know that all I need
is to release myself of these binds…

~FreeStyler~

Restless Nights

2011-03-22T21:59:00.000+05:00

Restless Nights

Pain bleeds from my soul
And escapes through my eyes
As I lie awake in bed
She never hears my silent cries

I stare at the clock
Another hour has passed
I lay in silence thinking
Of our love that didn't last

It still tears me apart
Just to hear your name
Cause without you here
Nothing is quite the same

When I close my eyes
All I see is your face
And all those memories
That you have erased

But it's just another night
Something I've gotten used to
So I just lay there and cry
With nothing else to do

~FreeStyler~

Mascara Bleeds

2011-02-11T17:16:00.001+05:00

Mascara Bleeds

The music gets darker
As the fans jump around
Getting with the beat
And hopping to the sound
Moving to each note
The guitarist makes
With each person jumping
The floor starts to shake

And they sing about hurt
And they sing about pain
They tell us what they do
To hide all the shame
And the tears start flowing
As the music starts to feed
And the face gets sadder
And the mascara starts to bleed

Every single word
Has a meaning to its name
The singer uses these words
To find somebody to blame
For all the hurt inside them
That just won't go away
So they sing away their sorrows
To feel better for today

The bitterness and anger
Trapped inside one soul
So music is their answer
To reach their endless goal
And they stamp their feet
And they bang their drums
Then everyone relates
So the fans start to come

And they sing about hurt
And they sing about pain
They tell us what they do

To hide all the shame
And the tears start flowing
As the music starts to feed
And the face gets sadder
And the mascara starts to bleed

~FreeStyler~

My Shining Star

2011-02-01T11:49:00.001+05:00

My Shining Star

You came to me
When I needed support
Like a friend you stand
With me till the end

Helping me to see light
I've been in the dark to long
Giving me love and hope
Reasons to carry on

Giving me your courage
Smiling now when I rise
From wisdom you shared
Sparkle returned to my eyes

Your shoulder I lean on
You're my shining star
You lend me your strength
Lifting me up from afar

How do I thank you
For what you've given me
Words do not seem enough
For what you made me see

So just for you alone
My arms I do extend
Giving you all my love
Forever my friend…

~FreeStyler~

Springs Lost Beauty

2011-01-29T20:11:00.000+05:00

Springs Lost Beauty

With spring comes cruel sorrow

That you're no longer here
Darkness now entombs me
My thoughts painfully unclear

Blinding eyes against sunlight
Deaf to birds enchanted songs
April rains have lost meaning
Finding it hard staying strong

Lilac's scent no longer entices
Early strawberries taste not found
Velvet blooms lost their softness
Senses frozen in winter ground

Need love once more to waken
Nature's beauty all around
Filling souls again with warmth
Melting coldness that surrounds

~FreeStyler~

Trapped

2011-01-27T10:22:00.000+05:00

Trapped

Trapped in this body
No longer existing
Yesterdays are distant dreams
Left with a heart bleeding

Everyday grows longer
Time seems to stand still
Closing my eyes to life
Sleeping away all that's real

Sadness has become me
Happiness is all pretend
Depression all around
Darkness has become my friend

How many more years
Can I endure this pain
Waiting to join you
Yet here alone I remain

~FreeStyler~

Another Sleepless Night

2011-01-12T10:35:00.001+05:00

Another Sleepless Night

Distance separates two hearts

that used to beat as one..
Time spins forever forward
with each rising of the sun..

His hands are in another land
a place I will never see..
He's so far across the ocean
yet his hearts still here with me..

I close my eyes and picture him
I miss his face so much..
I need to taste his mouth on mine
yearn to feel his gentle touch..

His scent lingers on his pillow
It's held tight within my arm..
God speed his love back to me
and keep him from all harm..

Without him here beside me
nothing in my world seems right..
I'll close my eyes and dream him here
Another sleepless night....

~Freestyler~

Painful Night

2011-01-10T01:21:00.000+05:00

Painful Nights

Each night intense burning heat
Like a molten iron brand
Shooting through every nerve
Making it impossible to stand

Stabbing like hot pokers
Delirious thoughts, blinding pain
Nothing left untouched by this
Finding it's way to my brain

Trying so hard to find comfort
So I pop another pill
They don't seem to work anymore
Just a part of being ill

Letting my mind wander
To a peaceful serene place
Far away from where I am
A place of beauty and grace

Close my eyes waiting for relief
Will tonight be my last
Can I finally find happiness
Living in memories of my past

Will the pain overtake me
Shocking me back to what's real
Or let me peacefully slumber
Praying for one night not to feel

~Freestyler~

Drowning

2010-12-14T16:17:00.000+05:00

Drowning

Sometimes I wonder,
If life is worth it.
Sometimes I ponder,
If I should risk it.

I feel so alone,
Broken and cold.
Friends are gone,
To a place unknown.

Why did they leave?
What did I do?
Am I not a good enough friend,
That you could take with you?

What have I done?
To deserve this pain,
To be shunned from all,
Can't you explain?

I feel so lost,
Don't know what to do.
No matter how hard I try,
I'm made as a fool.

When will everything be alright again?

A Month Without You

2010-11-10T22:59:00.000+05:00

A Month without You

Been a Month since I’ve felt relief in your arms
mind lost in wonder as my thoughts
continue to swarm
feel like I’m letting you down
cuz i never get to see you
but just remember
the only girl I love will always be you
just promise me one thing
I’ll be the reason you smile
cuz as long as i can do that
you make my life worthwhile
ur all I ever think about
second of every day
every I think you are perfection
in each and every way

I know you don’t think so
but you gotta open your eyes
because all I see is your beauty
past pains disguise
baby to soothe your pain
ill do anything and everything
because in a world of nothing
you are my everything
ill take one second with you
over a life without you any day
if you weren’t in my life I got nothing to live for anyway…

"Freestyler"

Changed

2010-10-29T11:49:00.001+05:00

Changed

Crawling on the floor,
trying to get to the door.
Face black and blue,
not having a clue.
What to do,
where to go,
who to show,
who can help.
Cloths stained with red,
bleeding on her head,
trying to get out,
not enough strength to shout.
No help around,
can't make a sound,
it can't get worse
but still doesn't give up....
5 years later,
3 kids,
nice place,
strong mind with a beautiful face.
Happy with a husband,
and a real true friend.
Knowing she'll never go back,
Picking food over a dime sack.
On her own without a pimp,
standing strong and not so limp.
No more drugs,
no longer banging with thugs.
Got herself of the ground
and completely turned her life around....

Colours Of Life

2010-10-20T02:02:00.000+05:00

The Colours Of Life

Blue is the sadness dwelled inside,

A troubled soul that has been denied,

Of love and friendship in this world,

When hate and envy are unfurled.

Grey is the color of the falling rain,

Weeping with insanity that was never explained.

It's the mourning and the sadness formed inside,

Our worried selves, filled with pride.

Black is as deep as emotions can go,

Revealing everything it can possibly show.

This is when we all break down,

And in our emotions we seem to drown.

Yellow is the happiness we all possess,

That allows us laughter we can all express.

Through all our times of sadness and woe,

Yellow is the color we all need to know.

Colors are rather precisely unique,

All containing their own physique.

But in order to live every day of our lives,

We've got to make sure every color survives...

~Freestyler~

A Tear Of Forgiveness

2010-10-20T01:18:00.000+05:00

A Tear Of Forgiveness

She stands alone in the darkness
Without fear, without hesitation,
She will wait for a thousand years
Beyond eternity, she gazes
Her neck stout and held high
She cannot be detered

She controls time and space
Voices whisper around her
Muttering lies and words of betrayal
She listens to the sound of the wind
Blowing through a windchime 300 miles away
No words could be spoken to break her

A single expression, thoughtless expression
Is strewn across her face
As if she was stiff, still, a statue like figure
Amongst the shadows she stands
A single bloody tear drop falls from her eye
Breaking the plain of a puddle under foot

Waves of emotion cease to exist
In her time or in any other
Death and decay have consumed her soul
She no longer breaths purely
But contamination and over population
Ruin the integrity and honest of her world

Alone, a single bloody tear falls
Creating chaos and tragedy
No remorse for the sick
No sadness for the deadly sins
Created by this cold bitter world
And yet, she still sheds a bloody tear…

Unfaithful

2010-10-08T03:19:00.000+05:00

"Unfaithful"

Story of my life, searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul, cause it seems that wrong

Really loves my company

He's more than a man and this is more than love

The reason that the sky is blue

But clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again

And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be a murderer

I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair

Preparing for another date

A kiss up on my cheek, he's here reluctantly

As if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long just hanging with the girls

A lie I didn't have to tell

Because we both know where I'm about to go

And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be a murderer

Our love, his trust

I might as well take a gun

And put it to his head

Get it over with

I don't wanna do this

Anymore, anymore

And I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

And every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be a murderer

A murderer, No no no

Yeah!!

Nothing Less, Nothing More

2010-09-12T19:03:00.000+05:00

Nothing Less, Nothing More…

Just look upon my arms,
You'll find treasure, there.
I won't have to explain,
You might not even care...

I'm giving you my very all,
If you would like to seek.
Open up both your eyes,
Tell me now, I'm still weak...

Tell me I made some art,
By drawings on my arm.
Don't speak I'll be okay,
If you see beyond harm...

I will show you how deep,
If you open up your eyes.
Don't tell me it's all false,
I know which ones are lies...

Just tell me all what I am;
Nothing less, nothing more.
Don't tell me to go on,
If there's nothing to fight for…..