Learning to Understand Myself

Loneliness

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Wed, 13 Dec 2006 11:02:00 +0000

Lately I often felt lonely, the loneliness of longing for someone, the person who I can love and she love me, someone who will wait for me to go home/visit her, someone who I expect to see..

Wah ga terasa dah brapa lama aku menunda2 tulisan ini ya? Starting from Dec 2006 and now already Jan 2007. Boleh dibilang aku jarang untuk memikirkan atau tepatnya meluangkan waktu untuk merasakan dan belajar menyelami perasaanku, mungkin karena deep down inside I know when I usually let myself to go that way I'll end up crying,this loneliness seems like a lifetime problem to me...
Ironicly I often said to HW, loneliness is in your heart, its not about where you are, even if you in a crowded place you can feel lonely. Ha3x sekarang baru aku sadar bahwa kata2 itu mencerminkan banget apa yang aku rasain sendiri.
Well its new year now, not a good time to talk about loneliness, but let it me reminder for myself untuk meluangkan waktu memikirnya lagi, like once I discuss with my uncle, its probably related with my age yg dah mestinya get married gitu, he said I need a companian, well thats another subject I'll about it later.

REALITY

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Wed, 13 Dec 2006 10:24:00 +0000

Today I began to understand more about REALITY, after watching David Deangelo's video, one of the guru on dating world, he basically teach things related to dating, how to hook up with women, but its all started from ourself, like how do I percieve things, how do I feel during certain situation, how would I react etc. One of the thing he teach is REALITY, it is how we think & feel about something, and how I'm allow it to influence myself. Today I really experience it, at 8 o'clok in the morning while me and my untie make a fruit juice, she piss me off because I felt her bossing me around and she complaining that she felt nervous when I start juicing the fruit before she finished piling all the fruit. Well hello its still 8 in the morning and I just woke up, and its so annoying that I couldn't hold myself, I started firing her and said "stop ordering me around ... just stop talking ... oh gosh its still early in the morning can we have at least a quite moment in the morning?" Then she got upset and said, "well I can't speak tenderly, this is the way I'm .. " and thats the end of conversation. So I kind of make a mental note of her bad habit which often happen like almost everyday that is ordering people around, go do this, do that, he even do that to my sick uncle which is very patient man but sometimes also got in his nerve by her he3x.
Then its 2 O'clock now, my uncle once again got his fever, felt cold, I covered him with blanket and everything, like always she got nervous when seen things like this, and as her reaction of her nerveousness she went to the kitchen and cook herself instan noodle, she still remembered offering me do you want some, and I hesitate for a while than I node my head, she went to the kitchen again start boiling water and everything. After got busy taking care my uncle for about an hour than I realize and ask her hey where is the instant noodle? and she start to chuckle and said I finish them all ha3x I just look at her and laugh too, we both have a good laugh, and I made a mental note well actually she can be cute sometimes, guess I don't hate her anymore.
You see as I was saying at 8 O'clock my reality is she is an annoying person than within the same day at 14.00 I think she's a cute old lady, there is a shift in my reality. The 8 o'clock reality not relavent anymore. So what is like and what is hate anyway? When people do bad thing to me I'll feel uncomfortable and I start to dislike them, if people doing things that make me glad, I'll like them, its that simple.
So what I learn today, is REALITY IS ONLY TEMPORARY AND CAN BE MANAGE, and I should hold my tounge to stop saying things that I don't want to say when I'm not piss off, count 1,2,3 exhale and become more patient he3x

Love No. 1

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sun, 03 Dec 2006 18:31:00 +0000

Your Love Number is 1

You tend to be a stubborn lover, holding your ground in every argument
You take your time falling in love. You aren't the type to lose perspective.
You are loyal (to a fault), and you require the same loyalty in your sweetheart.
At your best, you are a wise and inspiring partner - who sticks around.

What Is Your Love Number?

My Russian Name

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sun, 03 Dec 2006 18:24:00 +0000

Your Russian Name Is...

Hedeon Motka Kuznetsov

What's" Your Russian Name?

My Love Style

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sun, 03 Dec 2006 09:30:00 +0000

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's" Your Love Style?

Aura

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 16:22:00 +0000

Your Aura is Green

You're very driven, competitive, and even a bit jealous.
However, you seek out balance in your life - and you usually achieve it!

The purpose of your life: inspiring others to be better

Famous greens include: Tony Robbins, Donald Trump, Martha Stewart

Careers for you to try: Guru, CEO, Talk Show Host

What Color Is Your Aura?

Celtic God

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 16:16:00 +0000

You Are A Chestnut Tree

You are a born diplomat with a well developed sense of justice.
And even though you're impressive and intimidating, you're also fun to be around.
You can be irritated easily, and you sometimes act superior.
Nevertheless, you are sensitive of others feelings and very loyal.
Sometimes you feel misunderstood and are fiercely close to those who know you best.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

Personality Type

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 16:14:00 +0000

You Are An ISTP

The Mechanic

You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations.
A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent.
To outsiders you are impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable.
You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people.

You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.

What's Your Personality Type?

Extra Baggage

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 16:07:00 +0000

You Are A Sometimes Ex

You're sometimes an ex, and sometimes you two are back together
And while your ex may seem like old news right now...
You've got to wonder why you keep getting sucked back in

What Type of Ex Are You?

Me Dr. Phil or Big Liar ?

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 16:04:00 +0000

Your EQ is 153

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Honesty II

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:55:00 +0000

You Are 44% Brutally Honest

Honesty is important to you, but generally, you try not to be brutal about it.
You'll sugar coat the truth when you need to... and tell a white lie when necessary.

How Brutally Honest Are You?

Mood

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:51:00 +0000

You Are 28% Bipolar

Overall, you're a pretty stable person. You may be a bit moody, but nothing out of what's normal.
As long as your emotions aren't severe, you're totally in control!

Are You Bipolar?

Taurus Virgoist

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:50:00 +0000

Your Rising Sign is Virgo

Well put-together and elegant, you sometimes seem standoffish.
And truth be told, sometimes you do feel superior to those around you.

A bit shy and introverted, you tend to stay quiet - even if you're feeling social.
At parties, you can seem like you're very serious while you're having fun.

You clever and ingenious, with an alert and active mind.
Good at facts and figures, you excel at logical and mathematical tasks.

What's Your Rising Sign?

Honesty

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:49:00 +0000

You Are Somewhat Honest

You do tend to tell the truth a lot
But you also stretch the truth on occasion
You figure a little lie isn't a big deal
As long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

How Honest Are You?

Emotionally Mature

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:43:00 +0000

You Are 60% Left Brained, 40% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Left Brain Right Brain

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:37:00 +0000

You Are 60% Left Brained, 40% Right Brained

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Left Brain Right Brain

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:37:00 +0000

You Are 60% Left Brained, 40% Right Brained

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Not That Pure

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:27:00 +0000

You Are 44% Pure

You're usually the typical girl or guy next door...
But you also have a secret naughty side!

How Pure Are You?

My Element

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:20:00 +0000

You Are From Venus

You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious.
A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host.
You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all.
Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform.
Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.

What Planet Are You From?

Man from Venus

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:18:00 +0000

You Are From Venus

What Planet Are You From?

Life Blogger

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:09:00 +0000

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.
If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What Kind of Blogger Are You?

Personality Stuff

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:07:00 +0000

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Thinking

You are:

Organized and logical - a master at puzzles
Competitive in almost any arena of life
Objective when necessary, but passionate about what you truly love
Intolerant of excuses and incompetence

What's Your Personality Cluster?

Logical

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:06:00 +0000

You Are Pretty Logical

You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic
While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good
Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

How Logical Are You?

I'm no slacker

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 14:55:00 +0000

You Are 8% Slacker

You are anything but a slacker. You're truly a go getter.
You never let laziness get in the way of living your life - and you can't stand to see it in others.

Are You a Slacker?

Karma

noreply@blogger.com (Bobby) — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 14:30:00 +0000

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.
Your caring personality really shines through.
Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.
But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

How's Your Karma?