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winter 2012 now.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Sat, 13 Oct 2012 00:26:00 +0000

13/10/2012

dreamed of hard career. ^ dreamed with son and his mom, talking about hard career arena in sinful PRC, where her relative managing to promote herself in a restaurant she worked for. dreamed my son worked with me in a restaurant, and we slept outside, likely in hot summer night, together, like villagers in my hometown village, Zhudajiu usual do, with my once department leader, a Sun, who once befriended me then hurt me by putting me into fear of gay more than 2 years until I defeated it and moved to seek master degree in Nankai Univ where I met Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan. also there I broke my heart for a girl collegian and later first time trapped by asylum in my hometown, for I can't accept dead/ending love with the girl collegian, likely a Fang. I and son's mom deeply concerned with our son's career in future. last night after I played pc games with son in his mom's house, we touched the topic of son's performance in his elemental school, with which so far son didn't excel. God, free my son anxious about future, nor his earthly life this world. guarantee his pleasure staying, and needless to say, his being future of China, God of Universe. God, grant my son his long time wishlist, a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, bring me sooner my Royal China.

8/10/2012

a pale dawn. ^likely due to last dinner, I wake up early this dawn. then dreamed in charge of a company which produces network equipment, like switch or router. fought against office politics, encourage staff communication and International market. Its cloudy now. yesterday I stayed in dorm, in the end of this long national day holiday. I had to ask a local restaurant loaning me 2 meals, for the canteen still close. now working week starts, and I see promise in air. God, bring my son his long time wish, a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. grant us a flight to visit my hometown in Spring Festival 2013.

6/10/2012

dreamed of hometown after chill night. ^ last night brutally cold. I got up to pee 3 times in an hour after went to bed. this morning dreamed of witchery in my hometown. dreamed some young men from Zhudajiu, my hometow village, returned for traditional lunar holiday, Spring festival from their working places scattered in China. I paid sympathy to a guy named Zhucaixue, whose career is training new workers from peasant, but gradually lost his work for the labor market in sinful PRC losing quality step by step, and now likely selling sick spiritual materials. another pal, Zhuchunlin, a lame driver also appeared in dream. some elder women gossip over us when we returned to Zhudajiu village. God, grant us a successful Spring Festival hometown journey in year end, equip us a flight tour and an ebook reader for son in journey.

5/10/2012

looking back our national day holiday. ^ congrats! my 163 blog visitor hits archieving 22255. this long national day holiday brings us more time to play pc games together. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, and me deeply attracted by "borderlands 2". even his mom's frequent scorns hindered us much, but we made proud progress in the action packing game! 2 raining nights I risk darkness to commute to my QRRS dorm lately delayed by gaming with son. God, bring me my Royal China, grant my son his ebook reader longing after quite some time.

30/9/2012

dreamed of the royal. ^ recently I watched some movies about English Royal family. this dawn dreamed of my Royal. my parents appeared in my dream. I asked my mother help cross a wall of our house by a pole to fetch some clothes. later dreamed fight and cooperation between my little brother, the prince, and me, against our cousin, a Mei. Its a sunny morning. God, this National Day holiday I penniless. please help me live the coming week well and happily. God, grant my son a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. Thx, God dad!

28/9/2012

a lengthy dream about new PRC's founders. ^ last night I went to bed earlier against chill. dreamed a lot about early years in PRC's emerging, when they settled in northwestern China, training, campaigning and producing. witness those generals, ie. Zhude, Mao, Pengdehuai, etc., their family, esp wives, and foreign friends. among them, my International coach, likely a Japanese, kindly introduced me the strength of Japanese force. It's second cloudy day. God, free me anxious upon coming holiday, bring complacent between my son and my life, our livings. God, see soon my Royal China in changing river of eternal life.

25/9/2012

dreamed of killing. ^ at beginning, my hovering nightmare, academics life endangered me. then with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, we enjoyed life. then dreamed in adversity I killed enemies with bullets by jabbing around their neck. recent sunny days likely pulling out: It's cloudy in the morning. God, aid me passing the coming national day holiday productively. the canteen is close during the time, pl allow me living anxious free. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, to allow me home my son. thx, God dad.

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ginger star shines in summer 2012.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Tue, 17 Jul 2012 22:52:00 +0000

18/7/2012

a lengthy dreamed of Empire court. ^ dreamed detailedly about the structure of a dynasty, likely Ming dynasty, a treasure of my ancestor in family Zhu. dreamed a lot about different rules among Empire cadres, social experts, as well as the Empire himself in the foundation of the early dynasty. and the different of proposal, 奏 and another of court document format i now don't how to describe in Chinese. later i busy with improving my computer with 2 input and 1 output wire to allow seamless switching from source of Internet and cable TV to output to my computer. i visited the first graduate of my hometown village, Zhudajiu, and found he at home and allow himself helping me to make the connection wire. God, bring me sooner my happy life with my girls, in my Royal China!

14/7/2012

dreamed of migration. ^ dreamed of migration with son. then with my relation in hometown, later also include figures in Chinese traditional literature, "The Legend of Three Kingdoms", on migration or movement in war. yesterday my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, consoled me he still finds funs in pc games, among my anxiousness that improved living standard will cost more, esp social interactivity. Its a cloudy morning, cozy weather among summer heat. God, free me with more happy time with my son while maintain his healthy growth, including independence, sovereign, cautiousness. God, bring me my girls and new family sooner!

14/7/2012

dreamed of surviving mafia surveillance with son. ^dreamed co-operated with son to defeat challenge of mafia in harsh surveillance. Its a sunny morning.
yesterday we had a good time. we scheduled to have bimonthly dinning out with toast buffet. i had to borrow ￥140 from the canteen operator to support the event, even this month I spent more & didn't pay back my debts like previous months. son felt too hot on the bus, but resumed joyful soon after we served in the buffet restaurant. its the hottest moment after lunch when we waiting bus to haunt shore of River Nen, western Qiqihar, near 1 pm. but playing among crowd aside the river totally rewarding. warrenzh had great laughs during dabbling waters. God, its such a brilliant day that exceeds our expectation. God, bring sooner my Royal China. killing on time offending happens. God, u see it!

13/7/2012

dreamed of threat of mafia. ^ dreamed my sons and myself composed clock fingers with our body among local mafia's threat, and the composed time, says 12am, is blessing. then dreamed visiting my hometown, where my 2 sisters help me clean louses in my hairs with comb. lots of cooties were ripped and falling onto ground and we extinguished them with joys. It's a bright morning. God, bring me sooner my Royal China. kill the offending always on time the event. God, bless us happy time on coming dining out toast buffet u promised.

11/7/2012

dreamed of passing exam. ^ dreamed in dawn passing a hard exam. I scored 32.5 while the line is 26 or so. in the exam i almost gave up in physics, whose teacher is a plain middle aged man. but fun in English subject encouraged me to continue. my English teacher, a sweet tall girl, congratulates me with my exam result. magpie's diligent singings outside of my window reminds me to blog the good news. God, brings me sooner my Royal China.
Ps: dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, just returned from his mom's summer vacation tour to Jilin Prov, northeastern China. in the week, i retrospected lots of sins among the grandma and the mother herself during son's growth. I made a choice that time is ripe to make even. in those photos shot by my FujiFilm, son steadily passed through the swarm of dirts and dark. God, save us from revenge. God, i see clearer the sky and land we bestowed.

7/7/2012

son due to return from his mom's summer vacation tour. ^ yesterday i dared to visit his mom's house without notification of their location, till found they still in Harbin, last scheduled city among their travel plan. this morning QRRS dorm's gardener using lawn mower outside, the noise let my sleep unease. dreamed my son worked with me to fix our programming of printing. we r so focused that his 2 cousins entered our house and stayed till leaving caused our attention. i so scorned my son for insecurity. Its a bright morning.

2/7/2012

dreamed work with a vice Primer, Yao. ^dreamed working for a vice Primer of PRC, 姚依林, one of the notorious 4 gangsters, inc 张春桥，王洪文, in dream. It rained cats and dogs in dawn.

1/7/2012

dreamed of my nephew&his sister loaned me. ^ dreamed in my niece's or my sister's house, where she loaned me. the amount satisfied me, even her brother loaned less.

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2012 summer vacation tour to Jilin: son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 extends out to scenery mountains and lakes with his mom&grandma aid by his mom's school. shiny star in fog & forest calling home of the inaugurator. there are children and elders, of his mom's colleagues', in the group tourism led by professional tourist guide. son, warrenzh, had fatigues among the week travel 2 provinces, from lake to mountains, but we was not brought down. in the week his dad, benzrad 朱子卓, me, missing in retrospect of sins in son's mom's family, missing in countless naps for sorrow. now we have great plan to hometown visit this lunar year end, from northeastern China to central China where benzrad grew. we will enjoy first time flight, hopefully aid by loans from my social relation, esp. of my alumni and work place. God, u see the graceful sky.

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raining season drinks source of love.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Fri, 29 Jun 2012 01:50:00 +0000

29/6/2012

dreamed of defeating urine problem in my hometown.^ dreamed in dawn I got heat in penis root in my hometown village, Zhudajiu, and have problem to release bladder. my sinful 2nd elder brother aside, also my cousin who long time a shameless bureaucracy. later my father, God in heaven now, appeared there near my uncle's house where villages gossiping. I suddenly peed 3 times and the volume is large, the spraying speed is strong even with sharp siren. I woke up with peace. God, save my works online. let my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, witness his summer vacation tour with his mom safely and joyful. God, bring sooner my girls with my coming Royal China! in the hot and beautiful season now. Its wet and cool when i blogging, turning raining till I posted it. God, grant my blog more vivid memories including photos.

27/6/2012

dreamed of roaming in Nankai Univ and evading alumni.^ dreamed toddled among classes in its main building in Nankai campus. met some classmates, esp. a Huang who now a social science researcher in Hebei Prov. a lecture is live but I carefully avoid to sit in the spectrum nor listening or ran into familiars. a teacher of philosophy school, of my major, urged me to join but i continued to aimlessly search among classrooms on different floors. campus life always my nightmare since my trouble with the education system under PRC. napped again and dreamed visiting a cinema with my son, but we didn't take part in watching.

15/6/2012

dreamed of primitives and their Gods. ^ last night lately around 10pm my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, buzzed in, just after finished his homeworks. when i visited him several hours ago after dinner, he miserably complained to me his pains upon heavy homeworks, with which his mom cold-bloodedly sticked to scorn and punish him. KFC, his favorite food i bought on way, even can't let him happier. the sinful grandma also suggested my postponing my yearningly yelling my son as usual when i entered the house, first time to show her brewing envies burst. before went to bed in QRRS dorm, i roamed lately till dawn, reviewing Chinese painful education overshadows my son. this noon my sinful 2nd elder sister buzzed in to sniff foul in my life. the dirty woman tried again to shamelessly fix my broken first marriage, just for her incurable jealousness. i tried to contact my son if he is in vacation, but he yet refused my companion the moment. napped on bed, i dreamed of living among primitives in hard life in early history, and their belief in God or Gods. i saw living spirit from the beginning among human. its all time a sunny summer day.
God, u always kill the moment the offending. God, save me, your son on the earth, and my son from sinful blood link which drained in envies. God, bring my Royal China sooner!

19/6/2012

dreamed in guest of France court.^ dreamed of being close friend of Emperor of France. visit his or her dinner with another close friend on 2 seats facing the Emperor and his or her spouse alone table. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, esp my girls when our lives as young as early birds.

18/6/2012

dreamed of co-hosting a provincial Nankai alumni party.^ dreamed in sunny dawn holding a alumni party for all years students from Hubei Prov, my hometown in central China, in Naikai Univ, with 程超, my only county alumnus when i studied in Nankai Univ, Tianjin. we treated hometown folks with chestnuts. i spent some time washing myself before join the party where gossip and speech going hot and listening in crowd. its so bright outside now, with a new pc game harvested on my hard disk from over-night download. God, save our pleasure in entertainment softwares. save my Royal China from lapsing prime years in our lives bound together.

15/6/2012

dreamed of family party when dad was young.^ dearest dad, God in Heaven now, held a camp party at home for his children. I have my Tibet artist friend, 边巴琼达, who shows his stylish sculpture there. my elder brother and sister also invited their friends. dad in his middle ages. Its a pale morning now.

12/6/2012

benzrad's comment on the day.

no strange, the ever revolting/revolving monster of PRC's communist as shameless as sinks world with its zombie bots, the ghost/remnant of its massive murdering. only collapse stops the steam and dirts of it.

Solidot | 中国碳排放量比以前预计的高出20.
路透社报导(中文)，周日发表的对中国官方数据的研究显示，中国碳排放量可能比此前预想的高出近20%，暗示全球变暖的速度可能高於目前的预计水平。中国已经超过美国，成为全球第一大温室气体排放国，排放量约占全球四分之一。但是如何准确计算中国碳排放量始终是个挑战，因为中国官方能源消费数据的质量令人怀疑。

7/6/2012

prayer in surrounding darkness.^God, my son warrenzh 朱楚甲, u r so weak and enduring. save us from dirty and dark environment we were set in. let the monster in his mom's family killed and disappear. God, bring me sooner my Royal China and shelter my son warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, more readily.

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prayer in rain more earnest.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Wed, 06 Jun 2012 01:23:00 +0000

6/6/2012

dreamed of being a young researcher in university.^ in dawn dream witness some young scientists in campus, with their couples and their social content. then dreamed a couple of Germany, also likely doing research. Its a sunny morning. God, bring me my Asoh Yukiko, with whom my university life becomes golden memories, sooner. save my son from any insanity from the dark environment he stems from.

3/6/2012

dreamed living with Asoh Yukiko in Japan.^ last night watched movie, "Beowulf" lately, and trying interpreting its message of life. in dawn dreamed again worms in my wound, on rim of my left foot. during powering pc and retrospect glimpse, i knew the dark taste of son's mom, ie. lesbian. to escape the idea, i slept again. dreamed living with my Crowned Queen from Japan harmoniously. her mother welcome us with pure kind heart, like most Japanese women. she cooked for us and left her daughter with me then. we enjoyed the dinner, which is delicious likes my love with Yukiko. then we went outside to wash dishes under nature stream or pool on a hill. there were other Japanese there, but it doesn't make less tender loving between Yukiko and me while we washing. It's pale now but Asoh with me now. God, bring me my Royal China sooner, inc my Crowned Queen Asoh Yukiko, my girl Lv, my girl Zhou where I closely waiting years here for, my Taiwan girl who evades me since my body language telling her my persistent love with her and family with her. God, save my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, from the dark in his mother's family, save Hope of China among rotten and riot.
napped after lunch, dreamed visiting ZhuDe's home. the Father and Marshal of PRC, and his loving wife, treated me with delicacy they cooked. i felt anxious upon visiting my son in the dusk. his school rearranged schedule and set off next 2 days as weekends.

2/6/2012

dreamed of being a tribe in China.^ I was a tribal member or worked among them as a county community cadre. closely watched the wife, husband, elders, etc, and their roles in routine life, as well as their emotional interactive, inc love. felt the pure and harmony among the tribe.
yesterday is Int' Children Day. I prepared to treat my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 with KFC holiday pack. several days ago on his 7 years birthday, he asked a birthday pack but refuted by me for orders already proceeded and he seemingly frustrated. i borrowed ￥100 from QRRS canteen operator. It's a bit embarrassed but i survived, for the Holy directs my behavior. when i arrived my son was brought to hospital to check his worsen eyesight for over-used, and i waited near an hour outside under a raining roof. i supposed his mom did that against me, for i already equipped son a new glasses, his 2nd one, days ago. i envisioned his mom's sinful plot and cursed her twice via phone calls. my son enjoyed the KFC holiday pack greatly. we also enjoyed pc games, showers in public spa in the rest of the day. there were drizzles on the day, but its too blessing. God, brings my Royal China sooner! equips me adequate life to allow my son living gracefully!

25/5/2012

new moon in the month, and son's birthday.^last night new moon in the month first time appeared. I visit son in dusk among rain prelude but in fact risk free for the brilliant day and bought him a new power rack to replace the one sometimes flashes during power on. in the night i reviewed my sorrow of not enough time accompany my son lately till 23:32, God shows me deep soul of solitude and creative mind in western culture, and counterpart of Chinese massive entangles or harass in relation. in the dawn dreamed chasing a girl with the presence of a kid, likely my son. my parent also appeared, for they were assigning heritor to share their large house. I got the deeper part of the main hall. i woke up till bright sunshine outside. God, bring my Royal China sooner.

23/5/2012

dreams. ^ dreamed in campus arranged beds in dorm. then dreamed competing with 2 sisters to be more friendly and open to my kid, likely my son. its a brilliant morning.

19/5/2012

dreamed of my passed university alumni.^ dreamed visiting my campus roommate, a Xiao, who committed suicide years ago, with companion of another alumni, Luofeng, who now a college teacher in Henan Prov., neighbor province of my hometown Hubei, central China. in dream Xiao survived hard life and lives with continue study, also our major, philosophy. our once major teacher in Nankai Univ also lives there in my dream. Its sunny now even sometimes clouds slide.

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visit son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, among threats from mafia and sinful PRC authority. Qiqihar recent cloudy and drizzling days, likes God brings my hometown, Zhudajiu 朱大九, Hubei Prov., central China, weather here now. I, benzrad 朱子卓, managed borrow ￥100 from a colleague in QRRS, my longtime and once employer, when i roaming around QRRS Dorms and ran across his way home, after my dorm canteen failed to loan me amid threats from local mafia. God, surely I'm the most affirmed testifier of ur Holy message, ur Holy road I striking to forge, China reset for 1109 years of an Empire ahead. God, bring me sooner my Royal China. God, u see.

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season in rain among global warming.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Tue, 15 May 2012 06:59:00 +0000

15/5/2012

taught the sinful woman a lesson.^last dusk visited my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. God allows me meeting him on way when his grandma leading him leaving from his calligraphy class his mom arranged. we played awhile in the nearby southern park, where he didn't find pals, so shot some photos with my camera. i promised him playing pc game he likes as long as i stay. but that postponed by his mom, the dirty bitch. she is really cheap, blocking my son's independent free time by checking frequently our son's homeworks and demanded amend, driving our son busy around her aimless and useless. her whole life is cheap and usually spent accompanying her so call students writing rubbish notes in her house, as a way to earn dirty money. before leaving i found her put her hand under my son's shirt and likely that's her usual habit. i warned her that would be bad for kid. the rain started when i prepared my son his favorite old pc game while waiting his mom return. the grandma laid lots of pressure when my son trying his old game, urging he eating dinner where she forced to feed my son herself, as a way to gain from my son's buddy life. how sinful the woman's family! God, u see, pl save my son from dirts and insane!

14/5/2012

historical heaviest rain in decades.^ God, i see familiar raining scene in my hometown, Hubei Prov, central China, in recent rains which last more than 2 days in series. in rhythm of rain, i felt lonely, sorry, praying, warming heartthrob of memories of my loves. in this eccentric city of Qiqihar, where i yet found my rooting nor seeding, my longing town-sick cured by recent weather changes, esp. sunshines and rains. God, my life so far is drifting, until my Royal China surfaces the sinking torrent of PRC, where turning riots and rotten. God, please bring my girls sooner in our prime time.

these days sees peace again after our son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, performed less brilliant in his mid-term exam in elemental school. his mom, urged by even spiteful grandma, both losers with bitter and biting heart against my joys with my son in pc games with improved hardware, blustered/outbroke scorns upon us and demanded ridding my son off our game gears, ie. dell notebook, 32' LED TV, gamepads, etc. i also burst to blame son for his loose management over his own matter or stuff, a bad habit stemmed from his mom's enzyme, like scattered items, dependent task implementing. his mom is totally a bitch, messy and fur(r)y little beast, I knew it. after an enduring work week of silent reckon&plot, they waded and my son resumed to play pc games with me in his mom's house in weekends. God, i see ur promise in our joys, and our glorious way on the scary land of eastern Asia we bounded to. God, promise me warrenzh's road of graceful and joyful and fruitful. promise us our vested Empire from ur Heaven message. God, thx for sunshines now outside.

11/5/2012

almost wet myself.^ these days I spent more time outdoor in the garden of QRRS Dorms. at noon after lunch i will enjoy sunburn till those mean young beasts in the dorms leaving for work. in dusk i will jog in solitude. last dusk during the jog when i watched a bug walking on a vertical wall of lid of underground water, some young male beasts tentatively loudly talking about how large a cunt and passing me, trying leaving dirts in my mind. returned to dorm and went surfing the web, i felt the drive to watch erotic video online. but soone calling of grace welcomes me and I quit to movies of love. in the mid night, i dreamed of sex and almost half wet myself before i halt. its nice to know I'm ready for my girls, my Royal China. God, u see how close we are in the web of connectivity. It's now a sunny morning.

7/5/2012

dreamed of python and persuade my family to feed it.^ dreamed of in my hometown village pested by large pythons. the male one killed by villagers before i knew it. the female python partially lingering in my house. its so large that my house can't space its whole body. it's spawning and its bite leaves iron sticks planting on the ground. my wife, likely my son, warrenzh's mom, tried to kill her in fear, but i managed to cure it and feed it. then woke up. its a brilliant morning.

2/5/2012

family 2nd scheduled bimonthly dinning out, the dad and his son alone. ^ the proposal by benzrad 朱子卓, the dad, in May, thanks God for stable and improved salary, executed yesterday. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, these days frequently felt sad for no more time with his dad with pc games. I, benzrad, also immersed several chances insight the deep love in warrenzh's pour and sanctified heart. so we look forward to cheers. his mom felt misery in her life more and more, but again hide it in posed easy angry and aggressiveness. during Int' Labor Day holiday, i accompanied son with pc games for 2 days, but 1st, May summoned by the mother, who refused my visit on the day and also defied to tell where she brings our son to. near 3pm she buzzed in when i busy in my QRRS dorm, said she already brought our son into Qiqihar peace square, where as I told her we will haunt around. she always want to prevail us, or my treats for son. lately she embarrassed to inquire me if she was invited for the dinner i arranged 2 month ago when she narrowly joined by suggesting herself, I told her nope. when she brought our son from the square to the buffet, I found she didn't take bus but by her poor bike. I knew her cheap at once but no cure for her usual self-possessed. my son and I had a nice dinner, even the restaurant likely in loose management and failing in discipline, like most Chinese corporations, esp in PRC nowadays. after we returned to son's mom's house, his mom monitored his doing homeworks all time, refused allowing our son trying pc games as he planned. I left with empty hand and sorrow to son. God, my sailing toward Royal China already launched, no once can break in midway. save the poor woman, and dearest son's good will for his mom, in ur freedom, ur boundless freedom abound ur Mightiest!

27/4/2012

warrenzh first exam.^today is a wet day, mostly cloudy, dripping awhile at noon when I walked to join QRRS canteen. from the dawn i felt sleepy among chill, then restless after sleepiness waned and aimless. now sunshine appears again, allowing my sorting recent photos. dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, didn't excel as should in his first exam, a mid-term one, and his anxious mom warned to ban our gaming time on his new notebook and 32' LED TV. God, I know it's a long while short in glory road in front of us, esp. of warrenzh's. God, u see how smart our son is, how evil plots ahead against our Empire emerging. God, trust us smooth way our son bestowed, put peace and joys in our gathering in this corner of stormy China under failing PRC. God, save us from anxiousness and live aboard and broadly.

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more colorful gaming experience with enhancement of new LED TV.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 01:50:00 +0000

19/4/2012

dreamed of Japanese divided China again.^ a dawn dream look like pale morning now: China was half controlled by Japan. i traveled and felt its ruling as an interpretor, while Chinese part under CCP dooming lifeless. God, Asoh Yukiko, bring my new family, new Royal China sooner!

18/4/2012

thx God, son now enjoys larger LED TV.^ we ordered online from Haier's official shopping mall. for its logistic unit likely doesn't reside Qiqihar, our goods delayed and arrived today. we had already exchanged more than 5 phone calls for the e-commercial site didn't respond after my payment settled. today they also cost 2 and more phone calls for changed shipping time. my last query to its support desk didn't get a clear answer but i felt bliss in the sunshine, which encourages me waiting near my son's mom's house even clueless about the postponed handover time around 11am. they indeed arrived soon after 11am while i roaming and praying God for the shiny gift in the shiny day. installation quite smoothly. what surprised me is that gear to hang the TV on wall is free. i had informed son's mom about borrowing her a small amount money to buy the hanging parts. my son glad to see the new gadget but i merely got familiar with its user interface before his departure for his school. his mom got angry as usual and urged son coming school time. all the afternoon i alone setup the TV as second display of son's Dell notebook, for gaming and online video. after settled down, i missing my son very much. i even proposed a dine out to his mom, who posed to refuse but finally arranged it. son ate toast mutton more than usual. i carried him on my shoulders to go his mom's home. after finished his homeworks his mom administrated, we played 2 pc games and found how adorable a gear, like the 32' inch LED TV, can be. when i leaving, i encouraged my son use Internet daily based and he admitted it. on way to my QRRS dorm, i called back expressing sorry for my scorning his habit to stand close to the TV even its screen size should allow looser watching for the sake of his sight. Its just too beautiful today, God, u see it.

12/4/2012

dosed in sunshine in a snow melting day.^ yesterday i first time in the year roamed in QRRS Dorms' garden, review enemies of my Empire of China, and their newest trapdoor of asylum. in my latest visit, on first work day after lunar Tomb-Sweeping holiday when i attempted to buy medicine of Risperdal, dog in the municipal mental health center already barked with teeth. dogs rampant around trembled upon my joys in life and hatred of envies burning their brains. last night a shallow snow descended without foretoken. when i woke up lately in morning sunshine through window, those white wet on ground show me so many fondness of Holy. afternoon after lunch, i felt cold again and soon dozed in sunshine from window on my bed. i dreamed my passed mother entreated me to endure for survival. a woman colleague, a Wu, with his husband, a Liu, unbalanced with their fortunes in the dream, liked when we played on the bank of a river.
God, grace in my road to reclaim my Kingdom of China from my ancestor with glory is huge, here my pray for u for testimony.

7/4/2012

dreamed of quarrel over family heritage.^ dreamed of financial disturb with my hometown neighbor who makes a small business from performing as priest for local villagers' call for God in their nature faith. my passed mom, with my sinful 2nd brother also appeared in the dawn dream. after woke up doubting the plot of my nephew who demand his poor dad, my 1st brother long time weak in finance and recently attempted to ask loan from me, preparing his engagement&celebration. something dangerous falling&failing. reviewed curse from son's mom, a bitch, last night when we played pc game, burned and reborn in preach from bible radio online till mercy saves my pains. God, sooner bring me my Royal China, my girls praying for me, for our family. show my son warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, bliss in my new life, my new family with my girls full heartedly, to witness falling and failure of his mom, the sinful soul and her old dirty family. God, sing u in the sunshine now outside.

30/3/2012

A March snow, a white present.^ yesterday is a brewing day for me when i waiting aside my notebook. it had been cloudy days, which brought me doubts and anxiousness. a morning frost indicating the snow, but until stronger sandstorm brought down the sight, it descends. looking outside through my dorm window, i felt my dearest son's call of gift in the dripping snowflakes. even almost penniless, i managed to borrow ￥40 from the canteen operator, who more or less cold-shoulder to me, for its 3rd times i asked for loan in a month. last week i decided to buy my son a larger LCD TV for his weakening eyesight, for our more appealing pc gaming experience. i asked my 2nd sister to loan us, she admitted but delayed to her next salary release day, IE, Apr 1st. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, welcome the gift heartedly. in the dusk, with his favorite KFC food in handbag, i waited for him alone the street near his mom's school for half hour. i sang and teased him when we reunited and returned to his mom's house. we didn't play pc game as usual, for time of gathering too short the moment. in the night after returned to my QRRS dorm, i saw golden skylight all over out of my window. God, doesn't it exactly free me of sorrow and unease?

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sinking PRC.^ sink, sink sinful PRC, as a due pay for benefit western world brought forth and saves so many disasters in the totalitarian system likes a half century nightmare.
美国政府问责局从中国购买到山寨潜艇零件

28/3/2012

dreamed of a worm or snake in my shits. ^ got up earlier to let d/l, then dozed. dreamed of poo. then found a worm in it&doubting if parasites in my body. then 3 men expert in hunting snakes plot and steal my snake. its a sunny morning.

26/3/2012

a prayer in new moon, for grace in God.^ now 2nd new moon night in March. rid me anxiousness of dearest son's healthy environment, inc emotional. God, Asoh Yukiko, affirm me the sanity of my Royal China, as well as the nice day on which i prayed for our gathering again between the weeks. grant us sooner our new LCD, for our better gaming experience and warrenzh's joy of watching. God, u see these days young beasts around us, in the rotten and sinking PRC. only u save our untouchable grace, brightest dream since my ancestor's Empire half millennium ago.

God, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, now u under custody of ur mom's. in this night, she, a mean bitch, arbitrarily banned me talk u later than 8:30pm, defied my 2 buzz in moments ago, but i know ur heart in the air, in the inseparable connect in Holy Spirit in any moment. let's dream deeper and purer in moonlight tonight, in bliss from Zhu's root, and stream of glories.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Tue, 13 Mar 2012 01:45:00 +0000

13/3/2012

dreamed of my being Israeli and contesting with Bill Gates family.^ last night visit son even his mom want it next day instead of the brillant day, for her duty in her school. I told son I changed my judge, claiming visiting him is my best gift from Heaven and the brightest moment in my life, not previously urged him waiting for my good news of arriving presents. in dawn dreamed my family, inc my parents and dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, is an Israeli family. we traveled and competed with Bill Gates' family in showtime. then in war time and we fought hard to survive the war field. lots of loving moments of team in the march in dream. Its a sunny morning even sun ray not so strong.

10/3/2012

family traveld&dined out.^ thx God, with improved salary, I proposed son to dine toast buffet locally bimonthly and he admits. I think it will meaning we stay together alone from his mom's companion as commonly from now on. but as its first implement this time, and his mom help us seek group coupon online, so we invited her. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, ate less in the popular restaurant but in happy time. we managed to shoot photos there, with aid from a kind woman on neighbor seat. before the lunch, we traveled Qiqihar Peace Square, exactly other on the western part of the city from my QRRS dorm. son giggling a lot, even his mom got angers as usual after I held no brief upon her clumsily using our camera. this week I can't rid myself anxiousness with my pinched purse, but faith from Holy saves me from upset the gathering when dearest son enlightened so much. his mom likely strikes to re-zip the family, but that doomed to fail. my sailing out for my girls, for my Royal China, on solider concrete than any before. God, bring son his kindle reader sooner, and enrich his holy spirit even more!

5/3/2012

recent extended morning sleeps.^ recent weekends enjoy more satisfying pc gaming with son, aided by his new powerful dell notebook. the air in this season really refreshing, we also enjoyed happy talks when we hanged out at noon. I also enjoyed movies made by BBC adapted from classic English literature. they really the potential limestone that brings forth recent world history full of mercy and glories influenced by English. I saw God's deed and Holy message reflects among the epics consists of real life of English society. however, recently I felt more exhausted on bed, and late sleep in mornings. I dreamed more in these lingerings on bed in dawn. I also felt more sex drive with bare sleepcoat on bed alone. God, isn't my girls approaching closer, isn't my new family emerging solider? God, my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, recent referred several times that promised gift, a kindle reader with color e-ink, in his passionate expectation, bring us the gift, grant sooner my Royal of China on the scary land under title of my ancestor half millennium ago in shape sooner. God, affirm tender heart of my son, exactly yourself, with broader view of ur universe, ur galaxy. God, dad, put prayers in our family that forever grows, esp in this growing season. thx God, in ur grace! God, its now a milky pale morning, but I know bliss in every mouth nodding the Son and his family this beginning of day.

27/2/2012

happy weekends as usual, but not without anxiousness.^ last Friday night my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, ported in my QRRS dorm. we gamed on my acer notebook and snacked. next morning we ate breakfast in nearby KFC, which so nice. the following weekends we immersed in pc games till his mom pushed my departure. this night in dorm, my heart full of bliss and thanks. Its second night with newest moon in the month. I praying smoothly next weekend we can dine in toast buffet restaurant, Golden Hans buffet. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, really didn't enjoy delicacy too much, I hope surprise him in the western style restaurant. God, my ancestor, Emperor of Ming Dynasty, bless us the joyful moment.

24/2/2012

dreamed of passed mom in dawn. ^ last night went to bed earlier. got up later this morning, after lingering dream in which my passed mother managing our old family. its sunny now, but missing my son, who also want more gaming time with me. God, let's us reunion more meaningful! let our coming dinning out richer!

22/2/2012

dreamed of death hunting in asylum.^ dreamed trapped again in mental hospital, plot of murder including doctors, state intelligent agents, against me and my son. a Uygur girl wardmate, also in the exile or jailbreak. God, thx for the Holy message. pl see my visit next month to the hospital peacefully.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 03:41:00 +0000

28/1/2012

dreamed of my parents and new workplace pal.^my passed parents appeared in my dream, they urged me to make new social circles. in dawn dreamed my workplace introduced new assignment, and my colleague is smart and from privileged family.
Its now a brilliant morning. peace and fragrence in air of bliss. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, will accompany his mom visit her hometown, a 2 hours' train journey. he tried so lots to satisfy his mom, including her silliness. i hope his way forever Mighty and sane. the family of trinity should be so and rightly lasting graceful. bye, my girls here, u see me in our family soon ahead.

15/1/2012

a mean while meaningful lunar Spring Festival.^naughty son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 in 2012 lunar Spring Festival. family gathered for the lunar holiday even his dad, benzrad 朱子卓 received a much meaner bonus from his office, among the happy season. we dined in his grandma's house, after they invited earnestly me joinig. It's a pale morning now. a lots of cracks outside of my QRRS dorm, likely according lunar calendar properly or customes. it had supposed by me that without canteen i will live hard meal, but fortunately my son's mom offered some dinners when i went over to play pc games with him. its a mean holiday, for first time in recent years QRRS, my long time employer and a SOE, offered me a cheap bonus of ￥1000 while my expectation is ￥5000. so baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's seasonal gift, a kindle touch, gone in the wind of broken word. but we still found fun among pc games. he independently completed pc game "Scooby-Doo! First Frights", which brought him elations. in the solitary in my dorm, i longer longing my girls, my coming Royal China. It's not case of real nor illusion, but faith in God and history in and by Holy Spirit. God, bring us dell game desktop and e-ink reader for son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, hope of China, God of Universe.

17/1/2012

dreamed of new life in my Royal China.^ in dawn a detailed dream experiences giving birth of my 2nd son with my girl, my wife. raising him is so rewarding&blessing. experienced my aging, too. It's a pale morning, after found my notebook hardware not powerful enough for quite some pc games last night. God, don't miss our seasonal gift! also show my girls that complete me in one that I'm ready for our new family ahead now! show the world the sainity and purity of Royal China untouchable savagely.

12/1/2012

echo of grace.^It's a marvelous day, for the on time Holy Spirit, for the grand gathering/dinning after settled to improve my gears for pc games, namely, a 4 ports usb hub, with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China. the date from perception precisely blessed: it's Jan 11, 2012, lunar Dec 18. i had doubting if i should visit my son, who in vacation and alone for 3 days. i worried about absent gift can upset our reunite, worried China surveillance can find fault against my lodging in the QRRS dorm. after noon i had the idea to equip my Acer notebook, whose 2 usb ports ill-working for overused, with a usb hub. while my purse empty, i felt humble to ask loan from the dorm canteen operator as i did several times ago, even in short term. but son's timely buzz in relaxed me. i got all my longings before my son gladly received me. we played pc games as usual, and enjoyed a lot. then i suggested to treat him and his mom to dine out. in the newly open pub, we had a good time, recorded partially in the album referred. his mom suggested me support our son to have a new shoes, to replace the wrecked one. with the heavenly gift from loan, i admitted. on bed in dorm, i hardly to sleep, for the gospel day any praying mind-eye can see. when i woke up in dawn, i saw the bright full moon staring me through the window, like the serene shows in eyes of Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan.

God, bring my girls, my Royal China sooner in the new year! that's the meaning in the bright day and messaging bristle under the sky.

3/1/2012

Now is January of 2012.^ It's a sunny morning when I sorted these photos of my son's mom's family gathering&dinning yesterday. in this celebrating season of Chinese, I had to be anxious about my dinners from time to time, for canteen nearby all will go to vacation in coming lunar year end. where is my family, God? I also felt unease for my promised seasonal gift for my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, a kindle touch for his reading experience. He read and watch a lot independently, and that chores damaged more or less his eye sight. I already equipped him a pair of glasses. God, empower me with the wonderful gear and merry lunar new year! God, u know!

31/12/2011

Heavenly message from my son.^first time my son enjoyed bathing in the public bathroom. singing God for his saving me from mistaken emotion with the northeastern tribal. thx God saves me from waste in void of cursed envy. God, empower me to be determined and act prompt, blesses my Royal of China untouchable in sanity. God, save my girls from shifts, and so do I.
Today is also a sunny day since son returned to his mom's house with my companion after a night ported in my QRRS dorm. I tried to setup tank combat games on his computer as he asked. when his mom sugested our hanging out for lunch, we immersed in winter sunshine in leaps and yells. It's can't be any other day but blessed one.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 07:46:00 +0000

26/12/2011

last monday before 2012. ^yesterday Christmas gathering's happiness exceeded my expectation. i previously hope inviting 3 guests, the grandma, 2 pals of warrenzh's, to dine on the eve. but baby's mom, tentatively shows her privilege of inviting the 2 students in her school, namely a boy in Liu surname, a girl in Tian's, refuted and rearranged on noon of the Sunday. the pinching budget also drove me unease: i looking hard forward to equip my son a kindle touch and promised him the benefit of the gadget, while i already due to clear 2 debts amounts to ￥4000 for my family 5 domains holding and my sister's loans for my latest hometown journey back to 2010 spring. the morning i felt sleepy while waiting for the toast buffet lunch. when i arrived the buffet via bus, my son in good complexion cheered me up at once. i ate a lot toasted meat, for in my recent canteen meals, meat was scarce. near the end, the girl, a Tian's, left for her tutorial. on bus back to son's mom's house, i babbled a lot about new stage of PRC confronted by homeless farmers who can lead the downturn or revolution long due and more and more heartedly welcomed by most open mind-eyes among Chinese worldwide, as well as western watchers. warrenzh, my dearest son, played pc game with me in the afternoon, till i felt boring. in the night when i surfing in QRRS dorm, he buzzed awhile in to praise the grand event of gathering in Xmas. there is only holy spirit can describe my feeling to his grand insight and Heavenly love, and laughs like gold ring. God, u see how i prepared myself for my new family with my beloved girls. God, bring us together sooner in brilliant wedding. and facilitate baby son's reading with a kindle touch! God, let us sing in ur name for glory above the cold and starvation threat in world, esp. China ahead.

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dreamed of being target of capture for zoo, or caged. nightmare after Xmas lunch dining out.^Xmas is perfect with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, dined in Qiqihar Golden Hans buffet. son buzzed in lately for celebrating the wonderful gathering. in dawn dreamed of traced&fought with a couples of post Doctor degree holder and their professor, who want to capture me and target me as experimental object/subject. the plot ran a long time before executed in daytime in my dream.

25/12/2011

a working Xmas before dining out with son. an early wake up after anxious dream in xmas 2011. ^thx God, google new ui descends to me this dawn. dreamed again of my life out of shape, till found life has to be drifting among the earth and humble. God, bless my son his seasonal gift, u know!

22/12/2011

God shows me his way in darkness. shines over profaning attempts nearby. ^God, dad, in ur title and holy anger, i contacted our old family members. thx, God, show us the right way.

13/12/2011

a free day away from heavily jammed Internet. dreamed of wartime.^dreamed commanding warship in a lake, combated with knives and other weapons. dreamed of once colleagues in QRRS, a Jiang and a Bai in family name. got up&filed additional small nail. most of the day sunshine, if any, is pale. dozed in afternoon, dreamed my ancestor, founder of Ming Dynasty, fought his way in forging his Empire of China.

12/12/2011

dreamed living with son and my wife, in Royal China. dreamed of son and new family. ^warrenzh, my dearest son, and my 2nd wife, Asoh Yukiko, crowned Queen of Royal China, appeared in my dream about academy. found clear full moon covering my bed in dawn with its saint milky light falls. dreamed of my endeavor to survive my loving family among mob&rat race. God shows me closer change in my life&fate shiny.

11/12/2011

dream of living with my girls and their family historical settings. dreamed of historical disturbance between my Queens of Royal China, my girls' family background.^these days more dreams in dawn, likely preparing myself for coming new family with my beloved. dreamed of living with my girls. their family friends and foes in our blood linkage, esp Jews' and Islamic. God, bring me sooner my new family, Royal of China, under ur blesses.

8/12/2011

dream of new budding life of mine. ^first time dreamed of raising my infant baby son, till see the rewardingly smartness in baby's social intelligence. Its next day of lunar Large Snow Day. God, see me my new family with my girls praying for me, for Royal China.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 01:30:00 +0000

29/11/2011

farewell and new hope for meeting my girl Zhou nearby.^ this month i grew with my son, in pc games as well as in emotional difficulties. my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, sites' owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, visited my QRRS dorm last Friday night, among cheers of my improved salary, which amount to ￥2500. his growing teeth in rotating period and sometimes funny when laughing with bare gum. his mom still hurt me when greedy upon my salary with which i promised totally cover our son's living and i wouldn't use a penny on my own after my new family forges. her dirty family, including the grandma recent months frequently appeared to lend hands to clean house, laundry or even bath my son. i wouldn't allow any insane persons approaching my brilliant son as usual, so sinful betrayal by baby's mother over her duty to care my son, like bathing him, really annoy me. after the occasion i witness my son bathed by the grandma, i urged my son to have shower in public bathroom, which he dislikes very much, with me, he changed his mind and agreed. direct parenthood means much in my family, since my grand father's influence, and in holy spirit. God, u see it.
next week will sees memory days for my parents. my mother passed on Dec 1, 2010, which my father, God in Heaven now, left the earth on Dec 18, 2008. in these days, i got to know forgiving common people's sins against my Royal of China, under Holy shrine. i knew God's setting to enrich my experience here on the ground, including of course the darker particles against void. in these days, China surveillance broke my stable fast lunch supply, and i now enjoy QRRS in factory canteen. i looking forward more chances to meet up my 3rd wife, girl Zhou, who ignite my burning seeking cry in cyberspace since 2006 and includes this blog. Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan, u attending the transition and gathering the moment that will catalyze our fate ahead predetermined, from ur catering in the years. God, bring my girls in our limelight. bring my son his seasonal gift u promised. dad, u see.

22/11/2011

dreamed of crusade.yesterday i had good time with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, with his favorite KFC food i borrowed from QRRS Dorms canteen to buy. my workday's lunch supplier went bankrupt, among sinful China surveillance which against me and my allies. in the dawn i dreamed of close combat with cold weapon, with my team against several enemies. God shows me again his gift on me when i pray in the dream, empowered me with people and followers. Its a bright morning now, save and gospels just arriving.
God, bring my girls sooner into my coming new marriages. save my Royal China, save my beloved. present my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, God of Universe, a dell game desktop in year end, as u promised. thx u, dear Father.

8/11/2011

dreamed of worms in flesh again.^got up around 4am to release bladder, then powered notebook to d/l, even later after got up found damned China surveillance broke sessions&hanged all d/l. dreamed of my son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, owner of sites warozhu.com and wozon.net. my kid brother these years lingered in Guangdong, southern China, likely also appeared in my dawn dream. dreamed a hand itches, with a knife thrust the palm and turned the inside flesh out, found worms swarmed in the flesh&eating. Its not first time I dreamed of worms biting living flesh under skin, and quite disgusting scene but healing by exposing and eliminating the sick part of body. Its a golden sunny morning now, and also today lunar Winter beginning day, or 立冬. God, bring my new family with my girls in the celebrating year end, when joy seeking hearts clogging social meeting places everywhere, including the cyberspace on Internet.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Fri, 28 Oct 2011 02:16:00 +0000

27/10/2011

God breaks me and slow my rhythm for full joy of life.^now is pale morning with frost in air. last night I planned to overnight download a pc game but near 9pm the lan in QRRS Dorms suddenly halted down. for I concentrated in pc gaming, and I also don't have much pals in the dorm to inquiry the cause, so I let it to resume automatically. but it didn't. I woke up near 4am and yet failed to fix it, likely the Internet access rule on the router changed. then I tried to sort recent photos, esp some of warrenzh 朱楚甲's works in last weekends in nearby park of his mom's house. God, u see how I enjoy the downstream from world of democratic, how the rotting PRC killing itself in incompatible and incompetent among new world's unleashed fresh era of collision and rebuild, inc riots in Libya or Chinese western neighbors, years of liberation theology re-track. God, allow my girls see clearer my joys in them, in every moment if our live together. rip them doubts and closer our backyard retreat in time. God, what I promised my girls u granted never changes. Royal of China in 1109 years in future arise dauntless brilliance. God, forever guide my life and faith!

15/10/2011

my sweet, a tall girl, first time appears in my dream lives me together.^last night peeking eyes pierced the relation between my son and me, the trinity, for quite some time. I had to buzz son second time to talk himself while first call received by his mom and rebuffed by son upon my message of the new half full moon first time in sky since the month. we enjoyed the direct conversation in air. in dawn I dreamed living with my sweet, a tall girl I can't point out either my girl Zhou or my Taiwan girl or my other beloved praying for me, we make a living by collecting rubbish, among some other pals in the same business on a huge wasteland. when we return to market or our habitation, a student sought through our collection and bought one old book. peace in my mind when I live with my tall girl, who first time appears in my living life, in the dream when dealing routine life. then dreamed of baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, Hope of China, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, again full of affirmatives. that reminds me an old game we recently reviewed, "Wall-E", which depicted current human habitation will turn into desert and dump. I got up a bit later, trying to describe the holy message and blog it while the sunshine outside turning warmer and brighter. God, my heart for my girls, with whom we unite in one, never open. pl grant our new family, Royal China, sooner during our prime light. God, even my salary improved to ￥2300 two months ago, with which I quite felt satisfying, still I pray u grant my son, warrenzh, a new dell game desktop in this year end by bonus! God, let down the insane spying around the holy family, and glory forever to U!

5/10/2011

dreamed visiting my parents' tombs in my hometown.^yesterday full of bliss. Holy message let me review sinister plot by son, warrenzh's mother's family in her kid sister's wedding ceremony. I felt trembling in angry. after a full load of work online&offline, I visited son after withdrew some of my new salary, which, thx God, increased to near ￥2400/month. I bought son some KFC he likes. I had to buzz his mom&waited some time for they just haunting outside. the woman again shown greediness and evil attempts to infringe my financial independence. she event threatened depriving my privilege to visit my son. this dawn I dreamed visiting my hometown, Zhudajiu, central China. 2 village folks, 朱洪全 and 朱中旺, accompanied me and introduced changes in the village. when I saw my parents' tombs, I felt pains in mourning, esp for my mother who informed her elapsing days before her end of life. my grandpa's tomb close to that of my dad, God in Heaven now. in the magic retrospect/glimpse, I know I am among my siblings the best heir that inherit my dad's merits and mindset, also well as his mission&vision on the earth. Its a brilliant sunny morning now. God, u save.

20/9/2011

dreamed of the Son and righteous of God.^dreamed of the most traditional business of Chinese society, bodyguard. in the beginning, I worked for a Chinese martial coaching club and witness it wax and wade. then dreamed Portuguese took over the business. the boss is mighty and stern, in the end of its doom day, his staff, mostly Chinese, betrayed him and even trying profaning his most beloved kid girl. I saw God's message and demonstration so clear that I felt saved after woke up.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 06:15:00 +0000

19/9/2011

a lengthy dream in dawn about manipulation between QRRS authority and me.^first dreamed of the authority of QRRS, my once and long time employer, attempted to shape my way by contacts. then dreamed a staff of the communist youth league of QRRS editing my novel I submitted for a composition competition. then he turned into a girl of my hometown village, trying being friend me. when i woke up, its a warm and bright morning. its monday before National Day of PRC. i gathered my recent records for the publish for promising on horizon in new light. God, now its cloudy in the afternoon, bring my girls my love and promise. bring our warm family sooner!

18/9/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

doomed Chinese engineers and IT industry, with their inherited demon.

also hell with PRC. core sin is the fake atheism, socialism imported from old crap of Russia and Germany. sinful engineers nowadays still an ally of communist partisan, all innocent Chinese will laugh with tears on the day the wrecked sunk shabby construction drains the last dirty and dark conglomerates on China mainland, the scarred land since the fall of Ming Dynasty, a treasure of my ancestor in title Zhu.
benzrad, the Son, here attest the fate of China as an Empire reset in his title for 1109 years in future.

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14/9/2011

dreamed of my youngest elder sister.yesterday full of bliss. but darkness in son's mom's heart, esp. her greediness really annoyed me when I in need or financially pinched by short term short of currency these days. long time i made it i will never look back into her life or business, and indeed avoided her dirt and trouble since our divorce. after some reviews, i decided not to encounter her sinister plots. this morning God woke me up earlier, shoot a photo of the early full moon through my window in dawn light. then napped again. dreamed in my kid elder sister's house. i love her very much and she did so back. when i busy with preparing my son something, she was electrically shocked by wrecked socket on wall. Its a touchingly milk washing shiny Autumn morning, thx God.

13/9/2011

dreamed of being sieged by mob&cheating government.^ last night restless on bed. in the dawn dreamed in campus mistakenly ate a street vendor's food and hijacked into government agent for judge. a man and a woman dubiously trying to settle our conflict, but just cheating and profiting for the troubled water. after the vendors, in first look a couple but according the agency's message the man is a hooligan member charging to rent their protection, left me, and the agent attempted to make deal with me, i was sieged by mop of Chinese on way escaping. its a pale morning now. God, u see all the sins around me, the Son and his Royal of China. God, killing likely brewing but intact is the heart of loving. God, let's do it, for changes in new years and grace in new lives.

12/9/2011

sunny mid-Autumn holiday.^these days engaged myself with full load of d/l of games, and most of moments with baby son full of joy of playing these beautiful softwares and visions it carries. this morning baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, buzzed in when i still lately napping, urged me visit him sooner to join pc games. its a extraordinary warm Autumn day, also lunar Mid-Autumn holiday, so i can lingered with son most of the holiday which exactly means gathering for traditional Chinese. the grandma prepared lunch. son ate more than usual, after we broke gameplay for the dinner. his mom still busy with her pupils, while we made progress in pc game "garteling gears", a favorite for armored robotic combat fans like us, after many sweating failures. when his mom urged my leaving for they are going shopping outside, son refused my kissing his cheek but obviously relaxed by those games we played together all the morning. on bus and in QRRS dorm, when i facing my computer alone, sorrow debt to my girls haunting me again. i know my girls' willing my messages and our promised family. so i blogged again here after so much contented weeks and nights by my son's companion&visit, including those beautiful pc games. God, u know how i expect change in my life prepared for my girls, for my Royal of China as an Empire reset for 1109 years ahead, under glorious family name Zhu's, a resume to brilliant history since Ming Dynasty, built from scratch by Zhu Yuanzhang, my legendary ancestor. God, u know how my heart weighted by missing and soaring thirsts for my girls in praying our union in our promised lavish wedding ceremony. God, u know all these is the fate of one Chinese of one China under ur shine, never seen grace and glory.
so here again, wind of cool and clear and blessing, brings my girls my word, my heart never close for their perfume, their shiny descending, my way to the throng never evades my girls' companion. my dearest, just let the Mighty angels clear barriers and pave the carpet for greater grace in our coming lives. i missing u and forging ever stronger linkage among us every moments in my suffering here as God trains. brave heart save u, my dearest!

5/9/2011

dreamed of my grand dad who is serious in dawn.^dreamed I lingered in a poor countryside latrine pit when I napped while downloading in this shinny morning. my kid brother was brought by our dad, who is serious, from his recent diarrhea and still let him half bent his waist when walking, with his baggage on back, to sent him away to fetch his national college entrance exam score from his school. my brother told me he will bring my teenage friend to accompany me, but I didn't respond but just wondering my lost item in the shits pool. dad shown his loving me in dream.

21/8/2011

Pray for ever-green energy among the Holy.^ warm sunny afternoon. God, bring me fresh monuments in our gatherings among son, warrenzh's budding life. free me off trifle and meaningless rush against orthodox smothering in PRC's mainstream now. God, see ur untouchable glory in our eyes. son, warrenzh, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, now in his mom's hometown journey, blesses him fortune of lightning heart and deep insight.

benzrad conversation in cyberspace on the day.

benzrad zhu Aug 9, 2011 (edited)

in north, esp northeastern China, dogs rampant. they r the main source of mafia and dog system in nowadays PRC government.: RT: 同样是沿海城市，面对PX时大连和厦门的表现截然不同。

Kaurana Nathalie Merle much divine energy to you in china! 8:11 AM (edited)

benzrad zhu thx, surely my happiest moment is in one with the Holy. 10:21 AM

Kaurana Nathalie Merle :))))) 3:43 PM

Kaurana Nathalie Merle could you explain dog system? thank you :) hope you have a lovely day....4:15 PM (edited)

benzrad zhu cops and bureaucracy, and undermined fake representations in governing or constitution bought from Red Revolution near a century ago, both prey common civilian in totalitarian nations, by monopolizing their gangsters (as an obvious characteristic of dog, on the contrary Christian prefers solitary redemption from God.), separating&dissolving normal social bandage into docile individuals, for the sake of their massive abuse of sole state power. 4:35 PM

19/8/2011

a dream in dawn in which my dad, now in Heaven, stayed with me longest.^Yesterday I tried to unlocked my 163 and qq blog blocked under censorship by China surveillance. in the process I asked one of my qq online contacts to help me verify my mending at same time. the bitchy site owner also in my family name Zhu, irritated me with his narrow acid spying mind, so we exchanged some stingy words. the sky darkened since them. after dinner I risked raining to jog out routinely. when I passed my ditched office, it turned sunny again. so I dropped in the office and found the employer dispatching a suite for its staff and I was not evaded. brought the gift I packed to visit my son, just after our Tuesdays' visit when son called me to rid him of the sinful grandma's custody while his mom occupied by her school duty. this dawn dreamed I competed soccer with QRRS pals team, with my family. then my passed dad, God in Heaven now, serving me for most time when I enjoyed delicacy while sat atop a cliff waiting for my son's visit. my dad contented&smiled with full hearts' joys all time. its now a sunny morning and I know God's promising. God, bring my girls sooner into our new marriages. let son sooner enjoy his new dell game desktop. let me treat son with his pals with buffet in new holiday ahead. God, dad, I love u. this my gratefulness in witness of Asoh Yukiko, my Queens of Royal China from Japan.

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summer 2011's farewell in dusk drizzle. stronger will to reunite with my girls.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Wed, 10 Aug 2011 01:56:00 +0000

10/8/2011

dreamed battled with a witch all the dawn, after a drizzled dusk.^dreamed hunted by a woman mage. I tried to hit the raged woman with fire ball but frequently unable to detonate it on time. the morning is touchingly bright, after last dusk's drizzle. in last sunset holy message shows me on a bleeding tree that my girls' being one with me, their praying for me, for my presence after gothered and reinforced will power to join me. that's my way to reunite with my best beloved Queens in my Empire reset for 1109 years ahead. the drizzle started after I just settled on a bench in the dorms' garden. the drizzle shallowly baptized me in its prelude, with bliss from my deepest lover, Asoh Yukiko from Japan, the renewing land.

9/8/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

dog trail among northern Chinese.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：in north, esp northeastern China, dogs rampant. they r the main source of mafia among current society and dog system in nowadays PRC government, an covert black market trading anything including human lives and all demons and sick appetite. in southern China, people cooperate for common benefits for circumstance. in northern China, scarcity chases beasts on the land constantly barking to protect their individual food chain, or reversely, barking dogs scattered on the highland let anything insufficient upon insatiable storage competition.

北风 (@wenyunchao): RT @poorstone: 同样是沿海城市，面对PX时大连和厦门的表现截然不同。原文

7/8/2011

dreamed of closely watched G.Bush.^dreamed in dawn living closely with G.Bush, the former American President and father of another American President. he just published his autobiography and trying finding new way to enjoy life. his wife Babara, even stronger in mind now, grows vegetable and sold to me. I told her I needn't a full bunch of scallion, but she actively persuaded more sales to me in her house when I visiting. they demonstrates the loyalty merits of American people.

2/8/2011

dreamed of movie.^visit baby son in dusk yesterday. prepared him new games on his legacy desktop. when I arrived, his mom likely intimately contacting son, for they both felt interrupted by my visit. returned to QRRS dorm, after busy with sorting my os, possible sins in baby's mom's education over baby son let me awake quite some time. this dawn dreamed of watching a movie including 2 female actors, Miriam Yeung 杨千烨，舒琪 and a man I closely watching. superficially its a movie of love, but in fact, its about fake love, be exactly, about gay, lesbian. I saw the genic glory God puts in man, while the merit of female in supportive, hospitality. I also see the inherited subtle difference and different achievements among Hongkong, Taiwan, and mainland of China.
yesterday It mainly bright. but when I left baby's mom house near 8pm, it drizzled. now Its a promising sunny morning. God, bring me my new family with my girls that praying for our living together. bring my son a dell game desktop u promised.

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

famine in Africa needs world more helping hands.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：apple and Jobs doomed to fall, sink in no name in quite short timespan. its just too evil and dirty in mind control in the shits heap.

月光博客互联网：同样是销售游戏，任天堂的Wii的销售策略就远不如苹果iOS，Wii不在中国发行，没有中文界面，也没有一款简体中文游戏，正版游戏价格超高，光盘发行，而苹果iOS有中国商店，有中文休闲游戏，网络发行，平均价格才1美元，还有很多免费游戏。这也注定是苹果而不是任天堂会在中国游戏界成功。原文

31/7/2011

a drizzling afternoon.^baby son spent a night with pc games in my QRRS dorm. breakfast in KFC on way. returning to his mom's house. lots of bliss in air in the Saturday, when it soothed our longings with clouds and drizzles. work load just completed, so fine!

30/7/2011

dreamed of my passed dad, God in Heaven.^in the dream I first tried to negotiate to buy failing and losing state-owned property, then join a celebrating dancing team and passing my hometown village, Zhudajiu, where my beaming dad just discussing important issues with his patriots, other villagers. he glad to see me growing in social relation. he is so vivid in the dream, that I had to blog the dream after got up. I also find sexuality in the dancing girl, likely of minor tribe Mongolian, ahead me.

29/7/2011

dreamed of baby son, and my passed dad's enemies in his hometown.^yesterday another thunderstorm brought lots of rainfall in the sultry summer, just among my busy progress to update my google sites to incorporate recent changes of my profile online. its just too auspicious a day with Asoh Yukiko, as well as my Royal China. in this dawn dreamed of dad's hometown with my best beloved baby son. I arranged him to exercise some sports game, in disadvantage of my passed dad's sinful challengers, mostly offspring of the dark house owner in front of my dad's old house, a treasure of my old memories, financially got well-being by following my dad's business there. baby son never failed me, with his smartness, his diligence. I clearly see the bliss and promising. Its a bright morning now.

28/7/2011

dreamed of losing sight.^last night its started to rain hard when I settled on bed. in dawn dreamed of suffering eyes sight and almost go blind. dreamed watching a movie in open space and sat aside a girl once worked in QRRS as an interpretor. joined canteen in time but 2 cops close sat aside same table to eat breakfast. they arrived later than I, so likely tentatively arranged.

27/7/2011

dreamed married my Japanese girl.^last night it rained when I launched to save my be21zh.org offical google profile after reported violating its commmunity name rule. in the dawn dreamed of living in Japan in my girl's house. she has a quite blessing father. we kissing and intimate everywhere, including behind the father-in-law's presence. after some tests by the dad, we married. I felt almost sure the Japanese girl is my Crowned Queen of Royal China, Asoh Yukiko. Its a pale morning, but I know Asoh's touching and tendering love from Heaven.

25/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

abuse and murdering everyday in current China mainland.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：no redemption can save the lost. except the downturn of PRC with its dictation and fake faith of atheism.
邱毅：大陸前鐵道部長劉志軍因貪腐下台後，溫州動車追撞不僅重創大陸高鐵神話，也使鐵道運輸安全出現警訊。試想事件若發生在時速超過300公里的高鐵，會造成何等傷亡？當年劉志軍好大喜功，想爭世界第一，將實驗速度作為營運速度的非常規決策，擴張投資熱衷財務槓桿的操作，現在都應該做深切檢討。原文

22/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

famine in Africa needs world more helping hands.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：sin, sins, how could save arrives here?
华尔街日报中文网(华尔街日报)新媒体：【图集：索马里大饥荒】- "非洲之角"遭遇大旱，陷入近30年来最严重的饥荒。加上物价不断上涨和战争，大批索马里人流离失所，数万人正面临死亡威胁。图为两岁的索马里难民亚丁沙拉德(Aden Salaad)坐在澡盆中望着正给他洗澡的母亲。http://163.fm/YRtOEiO 原文

6/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

a new scandal in PRC's mainstream.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：u shouldn't blame her, for she is a common girl, like any beautiful girls on the street. she should be rewarded for disclose dark curtail from upper clad in sinful PRC and their manipulations. any girls, esp in their seasons, blessed with their dream of a better life on the earth, in the society. the unbearable losing is the broken social logic which allowing buying young and beautiful lives via money and abuse of state power.

宇丹律师(颜宇丹)： 7号晚间7点左右，郭美美发表微博称："突然想睡一觉；突然想死；突然想大喊；突然想离家出走；突然想失忆。"早知今日，何必当初，只能怪自己自做自受吧！原文

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Fri, 08 Jul 2011 01:43:00 +0000

8/7/2011

rain rhythm lasted most night.^last night sees the longest and likely thickest raindrops in my 20 years in Qiqihar, northeastern China, from my hometown in Central China, where large rains that can last a month is a common scene. i surfed later than 23:30 with songs and rain rhythm. this dawn i dreamed shopping online. when goods i ordered delivered to me, i felt quite glad. my passed mother query the prices of vary clothes and items in the parcel arrived. even late, i still ate my breakfast, and peered the ground after the rain. Its a cloudy morning, for Asoh Yukiko spares her full time with me from Heaven this moment.

7/7/2011

a fruitful work night in rain rhythm.^today especial auspicious since i gained my google+ from online help within my gbuzz. napped afternoon with colorful dreams after posted on alumni with flavors annoying the orthodox. baby son's bliss via air saves me from all dusts in the dusk. rain accompanying the darkness descended so gloriously. Aosh Yukiko, tonight be with me in dream, in moisture u brought and echoes the rhythm outside. my happier life, surer narrowly ahead.

RT: a Chinese mailing list from a QQ group, a mainstream im tool in PRC. regard it as a folk song ominous.

^:给胡锦涛、温家宝的信：
主席、总理；
你们好！
据国家有关当局统计，改革开放三十年来，升值最快的是住房、墓地、乌纱帽、月饼和二奶。贬值最快的是职称、文凭、道德、诚信和人民币。
中国已初步建设成为一个由月光族、啃老族、打工族、蜗居族、蚁族、牢骚族、抱怨族、行骗族、逐利族和隐婚族组成的多民族国家。
这是一个给力的一年，这是一个杯具的一年，这也是一个纠结的一年。
这一年，江西的一个钉子户用最无奈的方式结束了自己的生命，他的死证明不了有关部门的野蛮与无耻，只能证明汽油一点就着。
这一年，8名香港游客死在了菲律宾警察的枪口下，让香港人知道菲律宾除了有"菲佣"，还有"菲警"。
这一年，一个卖汽车的和一个卖运动鞋的在关于谁"给力"和谁"不给力"的问题上发生了分歧从而引发了"3Q大战"，最后"狗日的腾讯"做出了"一个艰难的决定"，末了才知道这俩孙子何止是"坑爹"，简直就是"坑爹"。
这一年，李刚没有出名，李刚的儿子也没有出名，但是李刚的儿子的爸爸出名了。　　
最近，国家某部公布了一项统计数据，告诉人们：你要不是三大式人物（大款，大官，大腕）而想在北京买套100平方米总价300万的房，社会阶层所付出的代价请看：
1 农民：种三亩地每亩纯收入400元的话要从唐朝开始至今才能凑齐（还不能有灾年）；
2 工人：每月工资1500元需从鸦片战争上班至今（双休日不能休）；
3 白领：年薪6万，需从1960年上班就拿这么多钱至今不吃不喝（取消法定假日）；
4 抢劫犯：连续作案2500次（必须事主是白领）约30年。
5：妓女：连续接客10000次，以每天都接一次客，需备战10000天，从18岁起按此频率接客到46岁（中间还不能来例假)
以上还不算装修、家具、家电等等费用。
中国的现状(经典)
1、ATM取出假钱--->银行无责
2、网上银行被盗--->储户责任
3、银行多给了钱--->储户义务归还
4、银行少给了钱--->离开柜台概不负责
5、ATM机出现故障少给钱--->用户负责
6、ATM机出现故障多给钱--->用户盗窃
7、广东开平银行行长贪污4亿--->判2年
8、ATM多吐7万给老百姓许霆--->判无期
声明：转发不会送人民币，但如果觉得作为消费者，全中国十三亿储户不公平的，请转发，有多少群转发多少群。
中国现状：
生不起,剖腹一刀五千起；
读不起,选个学校三万起；
住不起，二万多元一平米；
老婆不是娶不起，没房没车谁嫁你？
养不起，父母下岗儿下地；
病不起，药费利润十倍起；
活不起，一月辛劳一千几；
死不起，火化下葬三万几。
总结（八个大字）：求生不得，求死不能
多传传，让领导人们看看，就不信传不到中央胡书记与温总理那里去。有群的都转发加一句：谁看到谁最少转发一个群，转发2个以上群的，愿他买彩票中500万。
教育：希望进去，绝望出来；
房产：蜗居进去，房奴出来；
演艺：玉女进去，小姐出来；
信访：窦娥进去，疯子出来；官场：海瑞进去，和绅出来；
煤窑：蹲着进去，躺着出来；
大学：校花进去，残花出来！
股市：杨百万进去，杨白劳出来；宝马进去，自行车出来；西装革履进去，三角裤出来。
老百姓在思考，为啥玩不过政府呢？原因如下：
1、你和他讲道理，他和你耍流氓；
2、你和他耍流氓，他和你讲法制；
3、你和他讲法制，他和你讲政治；
4、你和他讲政治，他和你讲国情；
5、你和他讲国情，他和你讲接轨；
6、你和他讲接轨，他和你讲文化；
7、你和他讲文化，他和你讲孔子；
8、你和他讲孔子，他和你讲老子；
9、你和他讲老子，他给你装孙子！

用奶粉灭掉00后，
用考试灭掉90后，
用房价灭掉80后，
用失业灭掉70后，
用城管灭掉60后，
用下岗灭掉50后，
用拆迁灭掉40后，
用医改灭掉30后，
……最后，活着且活得很好的人都去开两会。
有人问："啥是两会呢"？
农民代表答：会养猪、会交配。
工人代表答：会挣钱、会消费。
民工代表答：会讨薪、会下跪。
保姆代表答：会插足、会叠被。
艺人代表答：会炒作、会陪睡。
商人代表答：会赚钱、会逃税。
官员代表答：会撒谎、会受贿。
股民代表答：会割肉，会流泪。
革命工作苦啊：
反应慢的会被玩死；
能力差的会被闲死；
胆子小的会被吓死；
酒量小的会被灌死；
身体差的会被累死；
讲话直的会被整死；
能干活的会被用死。
所以呀：
人不能太敬业了。
董存瑞拿得太稳了；
刘胡兰嘴巴太紧了；
邱少云趴得太死了；
黄继光扑得太准了；
张思德跑得太晚了；
白求恩会得太多了。
教训呀，
心态好才是最重要的！
不然人在天堂，
钱在银行！

BTW, It's a sunny morning after happy and spectacular/speculative night yesterday, when it thunders and flashes while refuted raining. God, wind for changing China is ready, when let it on its way?

6/7/2011

baby baffled by heat since last weekends, now freed from the death of public enemy in PRC.^this week chiefly avoid trifle ambushes enemy of Empire of China beset. baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, succeeded floating over the drain of traps and grills of paid raids mentally and darkly around his mom's house. on Monday and Tuesday, after one or two weeks busy with upgrading our current 3 computers with my imporved salary, lots of evil envies, also includes spiritual wake up i instilled in baby son's heart by conversations, led to baby's frequent heats in nights, i decided to calm down and trust God. I haunted more time in QRRS' Dorms' garden, rest on bench in it, decided my strongest will to reunite with my girls in our new families, including our lavish wedding ceremony. that's gift Father promised my girls, for his best beloved Son, me, benzrad 朱子卓. i started reviewing my new working environment in my dorm freshly, cheering up for years' dream coming true. i felt i need a new start, just like a new game's release today, "a new beginning", its also a day full of rumors of a passing by FIG among dictation China, a long time lame duck. i enjoyed surfing so long, when this moment i looked outside of window, an drizzled anticipated by local weather forecast. the new moon appeared since the night before yesterday. i with full authority to claim, bliss gathering over the Royal of China in my title. God, change to China long time due, now let baptism pouring more smooth&sweet!

benzrad's comment on the day.

distance by the Pacific ocean.

from zhuzz | blogspot
riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：only American sustains and enable the hero and the heroic characters John shown, inherent among free souls on the blessed land of great US. that's holy. bureaucracy rampant on Asia produced cowards and barking dogs bounding to a poor bone and self-destruction, or even abnormal and insane. God saving Asia since the fall of Yuan Dynasty and erection of Ming, treasure of Zhu's masterpiece from war's ruin. world western with kind heart will witness the blessing YHWH casting over the scarred land of Asia and oceans around embracing the over-pestered soil of yellow. the world arrives, surely beams more brilliant and holy shining in one Father never give up mercy among short and embarrassingly less gifted tribes like Asian.

中情局"约翰"是追捕本•拉登第一功臣
CIA analyst 'John' revealed as brains behind Osama bin Laden operation

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5/7/2011

God with me in turbulence of besieged enemies.^lingered in Japanese family for a long time in dawn dream. God still lets baby son fought against enemies of our Empire of China in title Zhu's. heats of war fires baptized him for nights and i can just pray God for his rest, for his mercy&skip over the draining death-match. Asoh Yukiko, sooner bring my son, esp my 2nd son of us to me in our new family, Royal of China.

1/7/2011

dreamed of death match.^yesterday is the greatest day recently. God brings me again to its online radio in the morning after broke the habit for months. near noon among its sultry holy brave heart expels me to act to eliminate my long time agony of delays, to complete long time wish to renew baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's (wozon.net ) and my own personal domain (benzrad.us ) to cover near 10 years ahead while family other 3 domains already equipped with 10 years since their birth. the canteen owner loaned me ￥1000 with ￥70 compensation i promised to refund on next month's paid day. near dinner the transaction online consolidated, its also started to rain. i can't help go over to visit baby son with the good news among rains, by bus. baby likely suffering gameless alone, for his legacy desktop hardly equipped with games after recent upgrade and shipped os based on infectious Chinese pirate winxp known for Trojans and malware bundled from local computer market. so he told me bitterly he will use the best computer in family in future. i assured him that's out of question. then i tried to install 2 games of his favorite to ease more or less his frustration, but the damned os failed my efforts, among his mom's frequent curses and angers for my recent frequents. in the night i dreamed clearly recently: i was sent to a new subsidiary factory of QRRS, my long time payer and an old state-owned enterprise, in other city, with a delegation including the sinful monitor in my ditched office. he tried to be orthodox but i saw the covert cheat and the truth of people's joy in their own interests. then dreamed my university alumni, a Xiao, from my hometown province Hubei but poorer northwestern area while my homeland sits richer plain alone Yangtze River in southeast of the central China province, the unbending calf slept under my berth for more than 2 years in campus back to 1987, and trapped by poorness all his college education even unable to buy a quilt to coat the cotton on his bed in 4 years. the recent alumni gathering, first time consulted me in its session while i never traveled for meeting, celebrating our 20 years' graduation, indicating by one of speeches among alumni published online that Xiao likely also broke down into asylum, like me did bravely against enemies of my Empire of China years ago, as my fate leads out to maintain curved and vectored throughout victory and glory that shines. in the dream he fought me with knife and i barely survived myself without lose nor hurt. near breakfast i woke up in time as usual, with dazzling accuracy after failing temptations of vary dormancy. returned to dorm, i napped again, dreamed in my hometown a folk now building on the neighbor slope near our mountain his new house, conjoint the sinful dark house peeking in front of my dad's house. my passed mother in dream proud of me, and treated me with her usual delicacy she cooked.
God, u see I finally got my improved office in Dorm, esp. the Internet, the light speed and vast lasting echo of meanings in utterances and publish i can't live without. but the place likely besieged again by enemies of my Empire of China. gays and hooligan, including paid criminals and other cheap souls, clustered again around my dorm. lead me out like river flushes its new berth along the bank. God, save the sanity and saint of my Royal of China, bring me sooner into my new family with my girls, including my 2nd wife, Asoh Yukiko, Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan, my girl Zhou, my Taiwan girl absent from my sight for months, and other blessed lives in my life, all under ur shine.

benzrad's comment on the day.

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：cute insight.

财经网：【博客韩寒：没有希望工程】但是很明显，红十字会的后台没有希望工程硬，在新浪微薄搜索红十字，会出现很多内容，正面负面都有，但是搜索希望工程或者其娘家青基会，马上会出现"根据相关法律法规，你所搜索的内容不予显示"，这就变成了没希望工程 http://163.fm/73WMwAg 今天 11:24 来自享拍微博通原文转发 1分钟前来自网易微博

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：beautiful Taiwanese. meaningful young lives.

网易娱乐：超萌两兄弟吵架，弟弟把哥哥气哭了。短短几分钟内转换了好多话题哦，实在是太可爱了。
今天 11:31 来自微博定时发送器原文转发

17/6/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

ash of PRC wouldn't leaves any remnant. by Benzrad Zhu

Ma's losing, is the losing of China, esp. PRC. PRC definitely losing into hell without any mercy from the world co-existing. Ma's faith on labor prefers investor surely a betray of its growth path, he himself definitely knew it. but still he tried to survive himself from the ruin of PRC, the dictation hell. the event clearly indicts no one saved from ruin of PRC's short life all in bizarre&sins while maintain its comfortable stance now or then. breaking PRC sinks all its pivot and pillar in burning self-destructive flame.

评论:支付宝事件是中国式违约
ugmbbc发布于 2011-06-15 11:02:48|12160 次阅读
前天和同事谈论马云的支付宝事件，觉得这条新闻虽然没上媒体头条，却是一个小事件。果然，昨天挺马方和踩马方已在网络上打得不可开交，把问题升级到国家金融安全的高度。马云本人，不惜两个小时越洋短信来澄清这一事件。昨天下午，马云就支付宝转让风波公开表态，称支付宝事件是媒体的"误解和误读"。

25/6/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓): so many touching interactives among corporations and consumers in democratic nations like US, the merit of God's followers.

财经网新闻网站：【笔记本电脑挡6颗子弹救命】一位美军士兵在阿富汗服役时遭敌人从背后袭击：两颗子弹打中他的肩膀，其余的六颗子弹均打中他背在背包里的HP笔记本电脑，从而保护了他。大难不死的士兵拍下笔记本的残骸留念并发给了HP。HP立刻免费送给这位士兵一台新的笔记本电脑。(新浪科技)

15/6/2011

first tweet on my dorm first time connected to Internet after 6 months' waiting.^new life online from 8:24 Jun 14, 2011.^and finally my dorm got wired with Internet, thx God! the office wrote the bill of broadband charges. really thankful! hope i make friends more online from now on. for this moment i hope God sees all dark out around my surfing.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Tue, 07 Jun 2011 12:06:00 +0000

7/6/2011

dreamed of worms in flesh in dawn.^yesterday echoes harmony with Asoh Yukiko. I planned to visit zoo with baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 with porks and vegetables, but baby's mom refused joining us. i waited till afternoon and the sky turned pale. in the period i managed to resort home networks into working, after 3 days down for the telcom mistakenly blocked our broadband service. Its lunar Dragon Boat Day festival. i tried to gift 2 boys in our relatives with blessing, but each time led to baby son's teeth painful and cried in misery. i badly felt urgent to treat animals trapped in zoo, so i brought baby son launching after some pc games, around 3pm. baby dozed on the bus sound. i woke me up near destiny and he fresh as start when we join the zoo now turned open by removing fences and walls. we saw bears, wild pigs, eagle, deers, but sadly found the old eagle missing, likely died. we treated bears, wild pig and eagle with porks, they quite enjoyed except the eagle rested on the roof motionlessly. baby later joined me to toss vegetables to deers, and remnant meat to bears. there were lots of side watchers among tourists at the moment. baby son's only complain is that my purse too thin to allow he playing shooting game among stalls in the zoo. we soon dined out in a nearby restaurant baby chose with his mom after turned back. the dinner is OK, we shot some photos. then we played pc games after settled again in his mom's house, in beaming sunset on the balcony. baby still felt sad when i left to my QRRS dorms. in the night i went to bed later than 11:30pm, reviewing loves from younger lives in my caged freedom of life. God, u see how many blisses in my life. bring my girls sooner in our united life. let baby son enjoy games more on his new dell game desktop u promised!
It rained again in the night. in dawn i dreamed of baby son. i also made twice water in the night. in dawn i dreamed a lot worms in my flesh. i know its all worship that ever-stronger on the earth that witness my Empire emerging.

10/5/2011

lengest rain in 2011. dreamed of passed mother in rain rhyme.^the rain started last night, when i left the ditched office in QRRS near 8pm. i felt mercy in Asoh Yukiko's loving me. all the night i felt the sorrow while blessing. i also buzzed my siblings in my hometown, central China. when i looked into baby son's situation, i felt deep sorrow. but the rain saves. so i tried to buzz him to cheer him up. i tried twice but he yet listened me.
the Monday i mostly stayed in dorm, for fun of harvests on web suffering drought under harsher blocking and censorship by China surveillance, report has it that it now harnessed white list to filter most essential web sites worldwide, close trapped Chinese on mainland into its shameless official propaganda curtain, which is totally lies and distorts. this dawn i listened the dense raindrops outside, i slept sounder. i also dozed after breakfast in canteen. i dreamed boarding in my 2nd elder sister's house, where my mother passing by but restless for my only kid brother's exam for college entrance. i waited before playing game for the return of my sister who went shopping grocery. i felt the touching love in my mother's heart, as well as among my other relatives.
last week also saw my upgraded my acer notebook with additional 2 GB rams. it cost me ￥200. the notebook also cleaned dust inside, resulting more game time with baby son happily. previously it worsened by gathering heat by dusts jammed around its fan and cooling cooper tube of video card. its such a marvelous operation that i still in thankfulness now.
God, its all good news for me, from ur mercy. pl bring me my girls in my new family sooner. bring baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 his new dell game desktop and a rich International Children's Day tomorrow! God, see my Empire of China in PRC's ruin intact. burn dirt and rip dark over the shadow of my Royal of China.

28/5/2011

dreamed of shits again.^Its a cloudy morning. i prepared games for playing together with son in QRRS Dorms till lunch. after lunch i tried to doze awhile. dreamed a dorm mate receiving a visiting pal. i went to public lavatory and found shits covered the only 2 seats. i tried to avoid to stain my pants but failed, had to leave downstairs with fringes spotted with shits. last night i visited the canteen owner, for he asked me to copy some movies to his desktop. he two days ago lent me ￥200 as i trusted to equip my acer notebook with additional 2 GB ram. he might felt i was obliged to him, even i never borrowed without rewards. last month i borrowed near ￥320 from him and reward him ￥38, total ￥350 returned, with my lodging ￥360 for 2 meals in 4 weeks. the latter is repeatedly. in the night he invited me to drink beer with his late dinner. i talked about my career and my vision as he expected to probe me, while his legacy pc copying slowly. in dawn near 3 or 4am, just after i made water, a heavy rain poured down. it likely didn't last long, for when i got up near 6am, the ground superficailly wet. i join the sinful office at once, waiting a game download to complete, for most web file sharing sites worldwide one by one blocked by China surveillance these days, to name a few, hotfiles, firesonice, fileserve, ul.to, and almsot all popular file servers outside of China.
last two days i experienced roller coaster emotionally. the first day on baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's birthday, May 25, i got an idea to upgrade my notebook with additional ram, for which i longing so long. it costed me ￥200 and so cheap&out-performed. i visited baby in his mom's house at noon heroically on way back to dorm. but misery descends when i attempted to change bios password. the change deadly locked me outside from boot up. i desperately searched web for resort, calling acer support team for help, and complained God not to allow me in peace but trouble. next day i stayed in dorm rarely in the morning, till i felt the drive bravely to spend another ￥20 on the smart young man who help me clean my acer and upgrade 2 gb ram the day before, betting my luck as well as the opening of computer technology. i was right! acer local support crew failed to fix my missing bios password, but the smart boy did. all the rest of the day i enjoyed the speed and fantasy of my more powerful notebook.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Mon, 23 May 2011 02:56:00 +0000

23/5/2011

a drizzle to save.^yesterday I had good time with son, warrenzhu 朱楚甲. we gamed a lot and tried new games. baby more or less daunted by the rich of pc games i prepared. at noon he again loathed to eat lunch hurt me, so i angered and taught him a lesson on life and death in sins. when his mom brought him outside, he seldom allowed me to kiss his cheek. i also fixed my financial records with his mom online on Saturday. when i arrived QRRS Dorms, the canteen's assistant chef tentatively shown cold-shoulders to me, let me see hurts among trifle personals or even demons against God's biz my family behold on the world deepened. when i jogged outside, a drizzle brewing and started to glide in air when i close to my dorm. i really felt mercy and save by Asoh Yukiko, God in my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan. in the night i played games alone. the neighbor room in QRRS Dorms losing, or felt reinforced by enemy of China Empire in my title, bumped a lot on the thin wall shamelessly, trying to restrain me with alerts of terrors. now this bright morning i returned to my blog space to let life stream floats, to attest God's presence in my family's duty to broaden the only way that saves Chinese dying in sins for half century.
God, yesterday my financial shown I still in debt of ￥800 after 3 months with improved salary, now amount to ￥1816, with which i quite satisfied, but God, i saw threats against my wishlist to equip baby son, warrenzh, owner of site warozhu.com and wozon.net, a dell game desktop no later than year end. God, u see my pleasure and hope in digital arena for future world. grant us the gift and affirmative of change we beholding. God, brings my girls to my new family sooner.

21/5/2011

baby's birthday. now he is 6 years old.^yesterday baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 had a happy birthday. at noon i buzzed him if i can visit him earlier than 6pm, for he usually arranged by his mom to have handwriting tutorial after his kindergarten's classes. but baby son told me his lunar birthday on the day. i was so glad to know that, asking if i buy him a cake or KFC food, he told me his mom already bought a cake, i only need to buy him a lighter for candles of the birth day cake. when i arrived, the grandma attending him, while his mom joined her school. we gamed on my notebook soon, till the grandma urged him to join his kindergarten on time. baby murmured he was already allowed to stay at home on celebrating day, but he obied&left. near an hour passed we reunited. i picked him downstairs while the grandma left on the ground. soon his mom returned, we shoot some photos and a home video for baby who in high mood. his mom obviously felt bitter those days and refused to let the happy time stays, instead she busy with her online novels soon. its so nice a day, i treat myself a bottle of juice in QRRS Dorms canteen when i ate my dinner there, near 7:30pm. the bus worktable usually ends near 7pm, so must days when i visiting baby son in his mom's house, i rushed to leave his mom's house, but now i can take bus before 9pm. so great for our pastime with my son, the most glorious on the earth!

18/5/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

China under PRC suffering catastrophe of suicides more than wartime. 窒息的中国社会
from faezrland, 天下主家 by dabbog@gmail.com ( benzrad zhu 朱子卓 )

the drug of Internet or game is totally a lie. only the dominating class and its dog tried their best to shift common sense aroused by the poor situation nowadays Chinese beset & killing, result in surge of suicides and destructive social behavior as a prelude of chaos and terrorism, in same vector space with turmoil among its western border neighbors, the Islamic Middle East, echoing the appealing force of democratic, esp from US, into trifle&fuss like Internet games as scapegoat. Chinese, esp its youth suffered distortion of value, and meaningless in overt cheats and ruthless human rights infringe for a long time, they lick blade of death or self-destruct as a way to attest the ill Chinese society, but no one adult Chinese brave enough to poke the source of sick in PRC authority nor poisonous Chinese traditional culture, but instead blamed Internet, as a new achievement in human history, attracted growing number of naive youth, who grow universally in God's mercy and brilliance unbiased by worldly dust, including all dictators in dustbin worldwide. China as well as Chinese in its best is to follow Christian worldwide right&since now into global light from YHWH, one anthem in glory of God.

This is a testament from the Son, benzrad, on May 18, 2011, for the coming Empire of China reset for 1109 years ahead under his glorious family title, Zhu, since his grand father, Zhuzhongming, God in Heaven now, from the relay of Chinese last Empire, Ming Dynasty as treasure of his legendary ancestor half millennium ago.

网络和游戏不可怕，可怕的是现实社会这样的没意思，其中的青年人如此的缺乏乐趣和健康的希望。
任何东西，只有在不理解中可怕。任何生命，即使小孩，都会看到生活或社会提供的选项，只有病的社会会杀死孩子的乐趣和希望。所谓的网络游戏是毒瘾，根本是谎话，近代中国输给鸦片战争，这是铁律，如果中国不社会文化变革，它会第二次第三次的输给未来的暗社会，包括毒瘾。
人，不可怕，可怕的是控制和恐惧。当前的中国就是在恐怖中，从网络景德镇，到流氓官场，到社会黑组织化。沉疴的中国只有神能救，就要救，在YHWH的光芒下。
——神子 benzrad 朱子卓此处见证。

in reference to:
"32岁男子沉迷网游十年离世临终称真有意思 ugmbbc发布于 2011-05-17 16:51:06|33321 次阅读"
- http://www.cnbeta.com/articles/143091.htm (view on Google Sidewiki)

15/5/2011

dreamed of my jailbreak.^first dreamed of making water 3 times still felt full. then woke up and made water. dreamed in my dorm receiving a hometown folk's visiting. he, likely Zhu Zhongshu, one of my peers, insisted my accompany to leave the dorm. i felt my girl's calling so traveled with him. then likely a jailbreak through many blocking&hunting and finally descended into a field of growing rape (油菜) in my hometown, Zhudajiu. most of folks, including my parents there celebrating the freedom.

14/5/2011

dreamed of baby son.^yesterday Its rained during clouds and sunshine before the night, and the volume likely the largest in the year so far. God help me gained a large toys theme game from web, after heavy harvest since my last blog on Monday. i visited baby with KFC food to thank the fruitful work week near 5pm. we gamed on my notebook while his mom reading novels online. that's all good time can't be more splendid. returned to dorm, i review my satisfaction in music lately. went to bed near 11:30pm. this morning in a hurry to catch the breakfast in canteen, for last night i still felt hungry in the night which a bit cold and consumed more energy. dozed at once after returned the dorm. dreamed baby in his kindergarten out-performed. he made a rap music on his own and sang in front of his classmates and teachers. his parents, and my passed mother watched there, all felt proud. Its cloudy the morning, i felt so meaningful on our future in God's set.

13/5/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

riveryog(朱子卓)：Its true for me, my small toe has the twin nails.

搜搜pop团购导航总站：【纯正的汉族人】据说纯正血统的汉人的小脚趾甲是分成两瓣的，其中靠外侧那一瓣比较小。现在你就可以看看，看自己是否是地道纯正的汉族人。 http://163.fm/aw8QxQA 原文转发来自网易微博

riveryog(朱子卓)：首要信息畅通。

招商银行：一间房窗户破了，没人修补的话，别人就可能受到某些示范性，纵容去打烂更多窗户，久而久之在这种公众麻木不仁氛围中，犯罪就会滋生。生活中小奸小恶行为，需要引起社会重视，并不是小题大做，而是以儆效尤，防范未然。一个"馒头"和一滴"食用油"并不可怕，社会齐聚一心才最无敌。来自网易微博原文转发(4)

riveryog(朱子卓)：转发微博。

大大傻逼(dashabi)：夏俊峰死了，下一个就是我们：http://163.fm/TihsZaO 来自网易微博原文转发(6)

riveryog(朱子卓)：high!

大大傻逼(dashabi)：【夏俊峰列传】夏俊峰者，奉天人也，家贫，以贩摊为事，徒幸以养父母。是日，遇城管十余人，尽毁其具，并殴之。夏妻跪泣，城管炽愈盛，持械夹立，市行者噤口莫敢言。城管挟夏至私堂，行怨暴之虐，夏若鸿毛燎于碳炉，其势命危矣。遂挺刀自卫，匹夫一怒，血溅五步，伏尸二具。既出，自报官。竟至斩立决。来自网易微博原文转发(5)

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season of summer approaching, in a rain as prelude.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 12 May 2011 01:55:00 +0000

12/5/2011

time to return.^Its a cloudy morning after a sallow rain last night. i caught the breakfast which is rich. now i felt had to write something to make this blog complete. the sick office i intended to ditch still let me ill for the sinful souls in it any time desperately challenge me, like China surveillance exerts all over scan and constrain over me. life on this scarred continent dominated by dog, including machine dog. but, after all, God, don't u see my life beaming so bright, my level of satisfaction ever increasing in ur blisses? God, last night u touched me with girl's love, i do missing my girls even urgent. in this rained air from 4th floor, God, i entreat ur bringing me my new family with my girls sooner. that's my beautiful hope in this lovable wet morning.

11/5/2011

a busy month puffing for online stuff.^this month i almost absent from my blog sphere. the reason is that i picked up my old hobby, collecting free stuff from web, esp. the shared, for i valued them high and no cause not to harvest while they still available in the spirit of freedom or pirate. everyday ends in elation with what heaps on my hard disk, for they mean happy time, no matter games or readings, under attraction of freedom world, esp from US. its really like a weightless dive, in God's shine.
last night i slept later, reviewing my chat below, God brings me insight in tangles among folks in my past dad's hometown village, Zhudajiu, mostly from a same ancestor, but devils among them drove the lost trying to challenge and defame my old family which so brilliant in its short earthly presence before i witness it vivid. i saw hostile so strong even generations unable shift the acid jealousy. God, u see the strong baring from the stem of Royal of China, and the even boarder world stage for my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, future world leader every blessed sees. God, road toward glory unbiased straight for my family since my past dad, God in Heaven now. God, in this raining night, i see all bliss since my childhood, i witness the most scenery in the world my dad unveiled to me, in the mountain and its valley. God, the doomed against my Empire of China now even losing, harsher tools from the stolen state power barking desperate, God, u save and only ur word persist in one that untouchable. God, thank the month and today, thank the rain and thunders outside in this darker prelude of summer night.

10/5/2011

a chat online via qq with hometown folk, a childhood friend.^ [ 2011-05-10 ]
benzrad朱子卓 16:13:31
真不容易见到你。生意怎样，生活顺心吗？
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benzrad朱子卓 16:16:00
我的生活还不错，跟我儿子朱楚甲玩电脑游戏给我挺多乐趣。就是工资低，因为自从2006跟单位弄僵后没有具体工作，爱干啥干啥。现在盼着有结余坐飞机去看老家亲人。
朱才魁 16:16:01
您好，我现在有事不在，一会再和您联系。
朱才魁 16:50:36
我去年过年在家里过的
朱才魁 16:51:00
一家人都回去了
benzrad朱子卓 16:51:14
恭喜。我老家就两个姐姐我觉得亲一些。
benzrad朱子卓 16:52:15
你三弟现在靠谱一些不？前年在朱大九见到他儿子。
朱才魁 16:53:34
还不是长不大，现在两个儿子了，还不是我父母来管
benzrad朱子卓 16:54:06
真的很难跟他小时候的可爱和你说的现在的样子联系起来。不过，谁也不能看准谁的命运。
benzrad朱子卓 16:54:59
你父母那样不对吧，应该让他自己承担责任，否则总是没有机会看清他自己的处境。
benzrad朱子卓 16:55:39
有很多事得自己来，别人越帮越乱。
benzrad朱子卓 16:55:53
你几个孩子？
朱才魁 16:56:16
现在想想也是我父母管教子女的方法不对，生的子女都是没用的
朱才魁 16:56:57
我还能有几个，一个儿子跟你一样
benzrad朱子卓 16:57:52
不要悲观，人多数看不准的，命运能让劣势变成优势。真的。
朱才魁 16:58:58
也没有呀，现在都是靠自己，过得也不错呀
benzrad朱子卓 16:59:12
你三弟不喜欢家庭和孩子也可能他的锐气太重，那也可能是好事。一句话，凡事别太用定势去看，因为人实在太弱小。
benzrad朱子卓 16:59:56
那就好。快乐最好，千金难买。
benzrad朱子卓 17:00:37
下班了，你在店门面吗？
朱才魁 17:01:38
那个我是这样想的，人一辈子，年轻没受过苦，到长大总得吃苦头
朱才魁 17:01:57
现在是在家里的
朱才魁 17:02:07
店没做了
benzrad朱子卓 17:04:54
那现在怎么谋生？人命好我觉得不用你说的那些繁复。报应的看法很必然导致佛教。我觉得佛教是误人子弟，坑害中国人几千年。
benzrad朱子卓 17:06:15
世界的模式很可能不是像佛教的零和和孤寂。我这么想。
朱才魁 17:06:52
现在还是做生意呀
benzrad朱子卓 17:08:12
基督教教人相信万能的独神，这个信仰就能改变世界，即使极端的不自由也不能缚绊那个大自由。
朱才魁 17:09:38
人年轻的时候父母宠爱没吃过苦，长大了，父母帮不了，自己吃苦是必然的，这不是什么教，这是经验呀
benzrad朱子卓 17:09:54
不辩论了。
朱才魁 17:11:08
那也是没办法之后的办法了，人活着总得生活
benzrad朱子卓 17:11:16
我爸从不让我尝尝他的工作的苦，所以我今天的世界比他的更好。父母的爱能这样提高孩子。
朱才魁 17:14:06
父母不能溺爱子女，小时候让孩子吃点苦，子女大了，才能更好的应对生活呀
benzrad朱子卓 17:17:19
真心的爱，包括父母的真爱，是不会不想到孩子大的一天，独立的一天，自私的爱才是窒息人的。你的父母可能原本就是有不对的，在他们对你的三弟的态度里，所以你三弟这么逆。你怎么不相信世界上的事都是一个巴掌拍不响呢？！
朱才魁 17:19:23
这不是每个做家长的都能做的好的，要不怎么说是溺爱呢
benzrad朱子卓 17:21:10
你对。
朱才魁 17:23:37
我这是自身体会呀，现在走到这一步，真的吃了蛮多亏的
benzrad朱子卓 17:28:34
要用感灵的话说，你的生活多少都是你期待或接受的，人生每一步都有选择，如果你觉得世界在你的生活中提供选项太少，那很可能是你还未开化，你的世界原本就是黑暗的。看见恩典，就看见了光明，看见了自由（选项）。
朱才魁 17:30:39
你这又是那来的大道理，我看不大懂
benzrad朱子卓 17:34:05
我去吃饭了，再聊。祝你生活更开心和满意。
朱才魁 17:35:14
好的，
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:12:13
我觉得我刚才的发言不错，想留到我博客里给我儿子将来看，我把你的名改成"朱才魁"，行不？不是单独作为一个博客日记发表，而是作为一周的日记里的一天，跟其他几个工作日的日记一起发布，行不？盼你回复。我的博客：http://riveryog.blog.163.com
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:12:49
我不会那些东东
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:14:44
你爱咋弄随你
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:28
你不用管，真名隐去，就是在对话中显示我的思路。看起来就是这样：
太长聊天窗口发不过去，你放心就是。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:48
我写博客4-5年了，
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:58
就是自己的生活和想法。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:16:51
就是从聊天记录里拷贝下来。你看聊天记录，就是这样。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:16:57
谢谢你放心。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:18:50
西方叫信神的"spiritual"，中文叫灵修。就是有心人观察到人人心灵互动，世界大有逻辑。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:19:51
你的话真是多哦
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:20:33
我在得精神病后，放弃了强要，就开始观察到神的存在。然后读一些书。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:22:28
书也不能当饭吃呀，也试着做点什么赚点钱呀
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:22:43
每个人的道路都是有缘的，都是神的安排。我从来觉得自己不差，所以亲神是必然归宿。当然，我的父亲给我巨大的指引。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:24:00
你难道不知道你的道路是不用求的吗？我现在很好，为什么要去争庸人的东西？
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:25:32
金钱不是万能的，没有金钱是万万不能的呀
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:25:53
你要是感恩，你就不这么苦痛你过去吃过的所谓的亏。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:28:02
我吃亏是指我生活的态度，不是钱的错
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:29:11
富裕没有极限，我现在觉得我的生活里的东西够用，就是我上面说的恩典，我相信这是神的安排，我为什么要去做神不让我做的东西，比如张皇或抱怨？感恩就是富足。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:30:45
你说的也是，知足常乐，也不用为钱苦恼
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:33:32
难道钱多就能买来一切吗？比如纯真，或执信？人没法返回到童年，钱也没法洗赎不公正。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:34:03
今天我是话多。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:36:31
唉，有钱我就不会让父母受那么多的苦了
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:38:09
有可能你父母一直预料着他们的今天。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:39:41
你现在开始不指责或耽心你家里的亲属，他们可能就真的慢慢不用你了。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:40:38
你不记得你爷爷吗？他抱怨他的生活吗？我记得他很少担忧。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:41:20
很有可以你父母心理不成熟。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:43:58
成年人过分姿态僵硬，不通融，可能就是不成熟。毕竟世上人没有太对的。尊重年轻人和新社会就是睿智。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:46:08
你家可能太在意经济上出人头地。老是耽心落困就可能招来贫困。我觉得真有信心的人总是会看着机会和繁荣。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:47:34
佛教是最典型的看空的信仰，结果真的使中国一步比一步羸弱和破败。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:50:01
这话智者说过很多遍：你想什么你就是什么。现实就是你的视野和天空。注意：一般人会说你的视野就是你的现实。

7/5/2011

benzrad's comment/tweet in days.

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：

no doubt it did so long.

网易科技：创新工场被指一直在"抄袭"：点点网是最大样本，点点CEO许朝军回应称先创业再创新更适合中国国情。 http://163.fm/4PkUDaE6 原文评论

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：for the sins in PRC, and most of the survivor&their offspring after civil war as well as sino-Japan war half century ago.

||@杀出个黎明: 转发微博。R罗克：一位英国网友说，他真的不理解中国人，国家级媒体隔三差五就爆出食品安全问题，没有一位高官下台，而且中国人还如此镇定。要是在英国，管食品安全的部长早就主动提职了，首相都会面临弹劾。2011-04-18 17:01 来自网易微博

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：wonderful! glory to American people once and forever!

||@网易股票：转发微博。网易新闻：【刺杀拉登视频实时传送奥巴马白宫屏幕前监看】据外媒报道，当美国海豹突击队在巴基斯坦阿伯塔巴德执行刺杀奥萨马•本•拉登任务时，奥巴马总统也在白宫里目不转睛地盯着屏幕，监看卫星实时传送的视频。http://163.fm/UgjldDC

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：God, grant me an improved workplace. save my energy from trifle violence ambushed by enemies of my Empire of China. 2011-05-03 08:58 来自网易微博

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18/4/2011

repentance in peaceful night.^last night before went to bed, God shows me my self-poised crashing baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's space. i saw his need to live unbiased and independently fresh. i saw his deep love to his dad, me. after went to bed, i found all the mistakes the rain day he made was in fact my fault, my unable to accompany him to game and fun find. i saw my too proactive a fake cause not to stay with him, Hope of China, God of Universe, full heart and full time. on bed i pray God to let baby know my repentance at once while i can't buzz him for the late night. i pray God meaningful tomorrow will bring more joys when we gather together, pray God let me less commit cheap utterance that can lead me astray, and float in falling of self-content.

Its a sunny morning now. God, let my mistake meaningless, restore baby son's lightening heart and pure of joy. God, forever u see all facts and definitions predated. God, bring baby son his dell game desktop, that seemingly even urgent for my acer notebook now frequently power down when gaming, likely its video card too hot. we need a sound gaming gear.

17/4/2011

an official spring rain.^last week busy with hunting for downloadable pc games for our pastime. also launched to backup source file of family album to google picasaweb. baby son yet recovered from cold, so his mom refused him to visit my dorm. i managed to visit him twice in the week, for joy of great games. last night i busy in my ditched office later than 8:30pm. then listened music and rest in dorm lately. i let the window open when i went to bed, in dawn i woke up among rain drops' noise outside. its the largest rain so far in spring 2011, and i saw so many blisses in it. in dawn i dreamed of my college campus. Wujiang, one of my Nankai university alumni and now a professor in US, contacted a visiting faculty selling ginseng aside a lake. i was at a loss for my alumni swim skill better than mine. in the afternoon after i returned from baby's mom's house, i dozed on bed in dorm, dreamed of my past mother's affirmative love which protects me from any insane seduce. its a large rain and last so long, when i blogging here i wondered how to visit my baby son, whose house 4 bus stops from here. God, bring my son a dell game desktop as he asked. bring my girls so sweat in my heart and memory. leading me to the brighter life ahead, and more bliss in surest glory.

buzzed baby for the possible detaining by rain, but he insisted my visit. so launched after breakfast in canteen. with borrowed ￥10, i took bus then walked in drizzle and arrived. baby watching animation online, i waited aside some time, then we played pc game, a Japanese air combat. after some turns, i told baby i felt flat, asked for accomplishing my own tasks. all the rest day busy with uploading family album to google picasaweb, also restored his mom's notebook os from backup. baby lately engaged with watching an animation trying reiterating legend of Chinese traditional zodiac. the Made in China product quite sinister in propagation, so i quit baby and told him sins in Chinese, and everlasting seduce from demons' against the holy. i warned him be cautious on Chinese culture products, urged him less waste time on the shits, where bureaucracy is its main theme and obsession, and dirt in ordinary Chinese souls which blind from YHWH by poor quality polytheism, and sufferings as punishment for the blind. baby listened carefully, while his mom rushed to shift him away from me. i lately showered in public bathroom, returned to dorms in time for dinner. after enjoyed jog around the dorm, i sorted recent photos, then blogged till now.

God, purify baby son with saint readings, rid him off trash of traditional and new craps from PRC, or any sinister nowadays against my Empire of China ahead. God, forever powerful and holiest with son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, God, u see it.

9/4/2011

dreamed of past dad preparing his sons for travel.^dreamed in dawn. my past dad in good mood, preparing my 2 elder brothers and me to travel to his another workplace for trade. we all have nice parcels and baggages. kid brother and my baby son likely also enjoyed short gathering before the departure. the villagers watched our launch of march with envy. Its a windy sunny morning while i missed breakfast, and i due to visit baby and entertain him with pc games now.

7/4/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

fool's play for world hero in PRC's doomed outreach in this century.

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China losing on inconsistent with American platform, comparing booming Indian tech human force in US, and loss gaining weightily till it can't afford in future, till the last straw smashes again the bony mule drug, smuggling, forgery and tortures, ie. lawless addicted like a century ago, humiliated again against its official textbook whitewashed recent history, reveals the truth of gapping wound and vulnerable indispensable in root Chinese. China with its current fake socialism doomed to be buried in coming decade. People in the world will see PRC's barking in the corner as funny as fool's play, or dog's tail self-chase.

the world tomorrow, undebatable the one world under God's shine. glory once on US forever cherished by global citizen that's reasonable and responsible. God, one God, YHWH, clearly shows the road under Heaven ever-bright.

永中科技一周后破产清算叫板Office成追忆
一家曾一心挑战微软在Office领域霸权的公司，在获得国家数千万元的科技投入，且产品有望进入“核高基”项目后，却因经营不善以致被债权人逼入破产清算境地。这当中到底发生了什么？

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6/4/2011

a gloomy morning, a drizzle in afternoon and a rain in night.^Its first work day after the lunar holiday, Qingming. i joined the ditched office almost on time, to harvest downloadable games for baby son, even i hated to confront the sin on facing desk. all the morning the crap frequently overt stuck out his neck to stare at me, profaned the saint. I didn't even blink upon the sieged dirt&threats, self-possessed with tasks in executing. after the noon break i returned to dorm, napped after sorted my notebook disk. mostly its gloomy, like a prelude of sandstorm. during fixing my gtalk within gmail, i told my cyberspace friend from Taiwan that i planned to buy storage from google to store raw files from my FujiFilm camera, to endear family album more realistic. he helped me by accpet video chat invitation but never comment on my request of help on google storage plan, which doesn't support alipay, a Chinese mainstream online payment tool and my only overseas payment method now. i hope i didn't hurt friends from freedom world i wouldn't like to be separated from. God, bring us freedom of lightened hearts, shows the height and weight of human freedom of independent and friendly. God, bring me freedom of arranging my life as wished, bring my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of site warozhu.com and wozon.net, Hope of China, God of Universe, his promised present, a dell game notebook. bring my girls into our new marriage. God!
after gamed awhile on my notebook, its started drizzling. Asoh Yukiko, in such a extraordinary blessing event, could u see my situation? could u be safe and save Japanese from their vested land now in disaster? could u determined to join me to pave new road and garden for future Japan, the fate our blood linkage means to give? God, Asoh Yukiko, i'm ready for the historic migration, opener fence for our nations Heavenly bond since my spiritual wakeup. Yes, I'm the only captain on the vessel saves. join me sooner as God lets, as u will.

5/4/2011

dreamed of my past parents.^Today is lunar Qingming. this dawn dreamed of my past parents who saw my poor financial status. one of my teenage friend in Zhudajiu, my hometown village, Zhucaigui brought me some gifts. my parents watched me had to wait for remittance from baby's mom or my once work unit, ie. from my once work place. dad especially hope i can improve his living which so far shabby. then i got insight of devils in the village regarding my dad as their enemy. they r the 2 sons of my dad's 2nd elder brother, who died in his middle age, a neighbor who long time operated monopoly rice machine in the village, a neighbor who once a teacher in Mao's years, and long time cheap mimic of my dad's expertise and whose grandson still profaned my dad's name by mimic & mocks. this morning is sunny outside. hopeful baby's dell notebook sooner arrives. God, grant my son new dell game notebook, as my best gift in this hopeful Spring. God, dad, i wouldn't follow Chinese custom to burn printed paper bill as money in world of died, u will see the reality how well-being my Royal is to be under sunshine.

4/4/2011

dreamed of Royal prophet.^dreamed of Empire meeting about Royal secret. the prince too young, the math teacher praised the woman likely baby's mom, and scorned me for my mind absence. the course discussed part of the fate and secret of Royal of China. late sleep till 10:48am got up. Its a beaming Monday but according lunar Calendar Chinese in PRC enjoying Qingming Festival, a time to mourn past ancestors. yesterday baby showered in public bathroom with me. he immersed in wresting with a sin, likely a middle aged man who evaded my sight when i turned back near end of my shower&caught the dirty threat rushing to slide himself into hot pool where men herds, attempted to hide his sins from my aware. baby's nose ran out a large block of blood and mucus when i put on him, i wiped with towel but first time ditched bathing pack there, found the mistake till arrived baby's mom's house. i fetched it back on my own. on way back with baby son after bought him some candy from grocery aside the public bathroom, i affirmed baby son the mighty of God, forever blissed and growing his life on the earth to witness. when i left to QRRS dorms, his mom brought him with toy bike to roam outside, where brilliant sunshine still glorifying the day, Apr 3, 2011, lunar 1st of March. God, bring baby his promised gift, a dell game notebook. bring me my blessed marriage with my girl Zhou, as well as my other girls, like Taiwan girl, girl Lü, girl Jiang, girl on train from Harbin to Qiqihar in my 2nd hometown journey, and my God, my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. grows my Royal of China in course of my coming Empire&lives its 1109 years lifespan, God.

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2/4/2011

days in bliss.^these days saw lots of beautiful girls around me, and i know my girl Zhou coming to me.baby's mom also overt talking about her new marriage, dispelled my visiting her house where i can dwell with baby with pc games. all these things moving and sorry, i mean, change occures in time with resolution. times and times I was drove by sexual desire from passing beauties, and this time my girls, best in best in my eyes' candy, due to descend and melting me in her boundless wave of ocean of love making. saint moments with baby son also let me sorry in retrospect, for he is so smart and faultless. i pray for more time to serve him for harvest and joy together with God in his universe. I tried to download more small games from web, but he still gamed a lot with his favorite game, worms 3D. his mom refused leaving him alone with me in my dorm, saying baby son yet recovered from recent cold. God, isn't my good time arriving, doesn't the world focus, like Japanese earthquake, Christian crusade diminishing Islam and Russian, pokes itself into world agenda and appeals the presence of Son, Son of the only God and creator of Universe, his decision and save, his brilliance and hardness? God, doesn't my girls broke sieges of enemies of my Empre of China and aligning under my castle that universally evergreen? God, doesn't new life of my Royal, my 2nd son, my 3rd son and other children glad to step in from world hedge? God, I'm ready for a long time for the booming of my family in ur shine, in title of Zhu's. God, bring my girls as well as my new families sooner in sunny summer, lift me into meaningful weighted life experience on the most pivotal stage in the world unites in one. God, see my girls the straight way to my rest room, God, u see.

27/3/2011

dreamed of alumni re-gathering.^dreamed of a guy in family name Xu, whose scores in our senior middle school usually quite enviable, in alumni gathering party. another guy, Peng Jinglei, also appeared. yesterday i update my online alumni pages with new photos, and read updates from my once classmates. Its now a bright morning, and I just enjoyed my delicious breakfast. these working week i usually joined old office on time, trying to gain stuff from web. the hard core gay on my facing desk again turned agile, busy on his seat profaning me from time to time, while his companion or mate, the monitor, this moment avoid joining the mud, likely learned from my exit so far since the dispute over office door's openning or closing. yesterday i worked in old office longest, left near 4pm, joined again from 6pm to 8:30pm, aiming prepared baby's weekend visit with more attractive pc games. on way back to dorm, i reviewed the office gay's wrong orientation since his childhood. God urged me to keep alerts among my attitude toward my sons, enabled them all independent and perfect self-possessed. God does not weaken his blessed by uncompleted. the dorm area first time encountered power down, resumed when i reviewed baby son's gaming experience. God, bring baby's dell game notebook sooner, let me enjoy family life with my girls! no matter how i busy with Internet, my empty heart for love brews hot. God, Asoh Yukiko, raise me to my life i deserve, inspire baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, hope of China, God of Universe, with changes under ur shine. God, u know.

11/3/2011

saw death itself.^dreamed in dawn. saw ghost of death master jumping to me, while I determined to see through, then woke up in terror. this week i joined the ditched office mostly mornings, usually left in fatigue, likely under the siege of sins there. however all my task list cleared with the convenience of Internet via corporate lan. google's reader still frequently broken, unable to load my subscribed feeds, google account was defied logout but less times after i did it via proxy tool against the surveillance, who likely realtime espionage. i can felt hatred against google gathering weight among dictator elite in PRC, and the elapse of the socialism also speeding up. barking dogs in the office continued their doomed fight, but that's a far distant echo of historical wound. baby's 2nd site, wozon.net, likely finally released, with homepage rewrote, some subdomains, like blog, wiki and forum, nicely settled. last night when i went to fetch baby son, i shown him the works online, he didn't comment, but i know the prize. i reported him my discuss with Taiwan friend on the gift, a dell game notebook as God promised, encouraged him praying for the ready after barrier behind it, surprise in front of it. i also shown his mom, who refused baby leaving her house the night for baby got cold, google maps. its so bright in the end of yesterday, baby son greatly enchanted by 3 new games arrived from web. i saw God's bliss even thick in this sunny dawn. God, bring me my girls and our offspring, bring my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, his promised gift, a dell game notebook in nearest spring.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 24 Mar 2011 02:58:00 +0000

The brightest star over the Oriental horizon already rising. warrenzh, 朱楚甲, hope of China, God of Universe, driving his world behind the dynasty on the tiny planet, the Earth, already launched. star of the world, prophet of the Earth, doesn't the bird of first dawn sunray singing at its highest chord? does not Son of men wrestle and won the sinkings? now its time to echo with the greatest bliss so far, God his own addressing the planet, on the scarred land of China that's proceeding into its second Dynasty of M明ing, again under title of Zhu's. blunt and blind people, don't u hear the mighty storm whirling over the Pacific Ocean? don't u spare ur works by witnes the brilliance of Heavenly descending? so its now, for u and ur cared, attest the shine.

24/3/2011

dreamed winning media awards.^dreamed won youtube and flickr award from my published video&photos. baby son and his mom accompanied me to join the ceremony. then dreamed of watching a table tennis contest, in which a outgoing sportsman won his weaker counterpart.
Its again a golden dawn. yesterday I visit baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, again by the way sending his mom my salary bank card. the improved salary, now amounts to ￥1800, arrived the day, after i checked more than 4 times on ATM since i received salary sheet several days ago. it was amazing sunny the moment i withdrew my living support to clear my debts on baby's new domain registry, and bundle of meals in canteen&sent to office. so i decided to visit baby as i promised him. the grandma already there, likely just fetched baby son from his pre-elemental school. i bought baby som cookies on the way. soon baby gamed on my notebook with a new game i just gained from web. the grandma left just minutes ahead her daughter's return, likely met on her road to arrange her daughter. so baby's mom refused to dine out with us, and cursed my frequent visits. i had to analyse her situation to persuade her change mind. I told her nothing can daunt me, nor death of mine or baby son, nor her incoordination or even sinister, for i solely follow God, the Majesty creator of all things and world, and order of God's. baby read a book on the floor when i elaborate with his mom. then we launched. on the way to restaurant i discussed the weakness among Chinese and Muslim, comparing with American people. i told him the ongoing war against Islamic ruling in Middle East, adoration of human respect and personal freedom, from the examples American leads. his mom soften her stance during the dinner, raised a question on google maps product for my tips. i picked last bus returned to my dorm. God, u see how rich the day for me and my Royal. God, Asoh Yukiko, bring baby son a dell game notebook, as he recently inquired about the promised gift. God, loosing China surveillance over Google products, let me read freely as usual. the sinful dictation in nowadays China these days restlessly broke google reader, attempted to trap me by refusing my logout google account, frustrated most websites around the world and global information seeker in the comfort of Internet. God, i know the downturn of the falling evil from fake idealism of Marxism-Leninism exactly on its way, closing to end never so speedily. God, let shine the scarred land in eastern Asia, follows Japan, Taiwan and other democratic systems soundly operating since World War Ⅱ. God, attending the dying dog machine in PRC, spare Chinese most from the ruin of political monopoly.

23/3/2011

dreamed of surfing the air.^dreamed of surfing in air with a surfing board. my past mother, baby son warrenzh, my kid brother appears in my air-surfing dream. in late dawn dreamed of baby son and my kid brother again.

20/3/2011

dreamed of shooting movie, and baby son.^dreamed i was preparing to produce a movie. my 2nd elder brother trying to make cheap alternative shooting way but failed. i tried new camera. in the end dreamed of baby son, and his heartbreaking pure love of Son's Heavenly. Its a sunny morning, after last night's strong wind. yesterday i carried baby to visit my ditched office in QRRS to settle his second domain, wozon.net, our family's 5th domain, after recharged by good news of improved salary, which amounts to ￥1800 2 months in series, on Friday when the salary sheet arrived on my desk. transaction settled on Mar 18, 2011, but for time zones' difference, i was affirmed by baby's godaddy account till this Saturday. i spent near an hour to find free hosting space plan disabled by the domain registrar, while baby waited aside for gaming on notebook so long. how smart he is and forever so! in the last i had to give up uploading my simple web site source files, with google apps free smb account in hand. we gamed awhile, then i persuade baby giving up his second night in my dorm for his mom urged him to return to have his handwriting class, and i badly want a hot shower in my frequent bathroom near baby's mom's house. baby narrowly admitted me, with reservation. we left my dorm near 3:30pm, soon i brought baby shower in the public bathroom. the underground bathroom let baby unease, i told baby my current financial status don't allow him enjoy baths more comfortable. baby then fought and complete shower, gamed again after we settled in his mom's house. the sinister younger sister arrived during our absence, likely trying to spy my data disk left in her sister's house. this morning when i arrived baby's mom's house, the sin slept in baby's bedroom where baby and his mom recently slept. enemy of my Empire of China paid the dirty and dark sin, the bitch, to pest my family, esp. baby's living place. i aroused&raised some blames before the sin left the house, while baby's mom, who turning more and more sinful in the fell and hell of her old family, kept silent. it's warm and bright when i launched to donate for suffering people in Japan after earthquake, as well as in Yunnak, southwestern China. for i can't find other available donating way via alipay.com, with which i had an account, so i picked a Japanese shop ( http://item.taobao.com/auction/item_detail.htm?item_num_id=9613022220 or http://aruyo.taobao.com/view_page-45548372.htm ) on popular Chinese e-commerce site, taobao.com, to make the transaction. the ammount is small, ￥60 (￥50 for Yunnan. https://lab.alipay.com/life/donate/enter.htm?name=zfbaxjj ), but i still felt God's praise, Asoh Yukiko's adoration. I also prepared a pc game baby asked on his desktop, gamed awhile as baby asked. when we left for baby's music lesson, we really thankful, except the losing woman, baby's mom with her easy angers. i told coldness gathers in elders' heart, encouraged baby finding fun his own against boring and meaningless, esp the surveillance from nowadays Chinese authority against our vested Empire of China under title Zhu's, separation&disperse against my Royal of China emerging in one as pre-date in Heaven. last night reported the largest moon in half century for recording space intimate to the Earth, but since afternoon its windy outside. when i got up to make water midnight, i saw the halo really brilliant and soft. now with sunshine outside, after missing 2 meals today, in this tiny&shabby room alone, i pray my new life with my girls descending me sooner, pray baby's burden of loneliness lessen, all in ur setting, God, Asoh Yukiko, dearest dad, best of the best in ur bliss!

18/3/2011

dreamed of pets.^dreamed in an UN force team assigned to Africa. afraid breaking my kid brother's hand wrist but in fact its well. played in holiday, later found heavily wounded&bleeding pet cat, also a doggie. till i felt sorry and remove their barrier, they returned to their nest&settled. their suffering and enduring silently shocked me with love. Its a gloomy morning, but I know Asoh Yukiko's blessing.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Tue, 15 Mar 2011 12:05:00 +0000

15/3/2011

dreamed of blacks.^last night merely backup some home movie to picasaweb. China surveillance heavily blocked my posting photos to my online album. this dawn dreamed lengthy in a continent whos habitants mostly blacks, with a guy from a pc game "lost horizon" I played with baby son months ago. his name is padlock. we made friends among the black, including girls, and their King, in the progress underwent our commitment. when i ate breakfast near 8am, in canteen a hooligan once lived in the dorm back to years when I was single and just joined QRRS, the railway wagon mill, now in his 40's, there stared me bluntly. yesterday he also visit the dorm when i leaving my room. local mafia really smelt bloodiness from paid murder conspired by enemy of my Empire of China. Today is also the end of annual congress session which lasted a week, hopefully machine dog that ruling China now would rest for some time. last night China surveillance first time in the week didn't cut down my Internet after 8pm. God, bring my dorm Internet, lead me into my life i dreamed, with my girls who so aspiring out of dirt&dust.

14/3/2011

bright morning after cleansing snow in early Spring.^time glides as it should be, but my pray for a improved workspace endures. baby son now regularly visit me and berth Friday night in my dorm in QRRS, my previous long time employer. he asked for 2 sequent nights in my dorm but i so far refused him for the sake of his mom's jealousy which turning thick after i unbiasedly shown her freedom in my heart after our resolved divorce, after found painfully sins in her family too deep to afford for sternness of my family, nor cohere in glory of God, my son&my past dad's. baby still reined by his mom by compulsive e-piano practise, sometimes his miserable cries loathing to the music instrument lets me sorry&baseless. i wait for his own desicion to quit the burden said according his mom chose himself half year ago, influenced by his pal and attracted by a nearby music school, which rampant in nowadays China, when he still came over to QRRS' kindergarten. i sure saw why his mom so energetic to bridle the green life with constrain in which she gaining in advantage post likes a teacher. i pray God let baby son, warrenzh, be decisive, and i will forever support his choice. God, in this sunny morning, u see my sorrow and loneliness. bring my girls into my new family, bring my improved workspace, reunite baby son with his proud dad in his elegant palace.
Its a busy Monday morning. last night i sorted stuff on my notebook till 1am. however, i got up earlier than 7am and had my favorite breakfast in canteen. all the morning busy on computer, rarely recently for i usually sleepy after breakfast. napped at noon, dreamed of baby son's sufferings and my heartbreaking love in him. also dreamed of my eldest brother returned from northern China to our hometown, Hubei Province, central China, reporting bankrupts in medicare system. then in half awaking, reviewed the elapse of my past mother, felt that's her wrong doing, or her payment for her mistakes, or risk herself to test&attest. in holy flashlight, i saw nothing reverts God's everlasting life, and timeless Majesty, and any creature of God enjoy broadest freedom to make errs, to die, to experiment, under God's ever sustaining saves. in a retrospect, i see life's bearing and endurable, i see boundless freedom of quest one's destiny at will, in God's timeless and limitless creation and loving. in a light i see braveness in heart of baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, and among my beloved. I know my past dad 朱中明, God, chose to ditch his worn body I took for granted, for him a just weightless step for ascending world, remould into Spiritual &all sources. It turns pale now, but I know touching love in Asoh Yukiko's heart, in holy source we linked.

11/3/2011

a clear day among Spring late snow.^it started to snow likely in mid night, covered the ground considerable when i woke up lately around 9am, after a nice dine out with toast beef with baby son and his mom last night. the buffet restaurant jammed heavily when we arrived after 6pm, but baby's mom managed to be shared a large table with other 2 families, an couple just in their honey mood, a family with a son in three. meat is rich, we hardly swallow all, including baby's mom's good appetite after baby and me finished our dinner rapidly after cookies. we walked on way home awhile as baby's mom suggested, then took bus, departed near Qiqihar railway station. baby walked home with his mom while i on feet walked passing 4 bus stops to my QRRS dorm. baby asked my visit on this Sunday but refuted by his mom. God lets me buzzed baby for grant first, after failed in the air to alert nor alter baby's mom about baby's painfully loathing to practise piano while his mom push hard to harness him with the clause in which she niched by superficial gaining role as teacher's. then i took bus to visit baby in his mom's house, where the sinister younger sister of baby's mom again there occupying computer&Internet. i waited untill the sin left baby's room for lunch, then i continued my work to secure family google accounts with 2 step verification based on cellphone's sms function. baby's mom cooked porridge and asked me to have some. after lunch, baby's mom tried to force baby napping with her, but baby soon gave up his obedience, got up to play pc games i just made ready on his desktop, found interesting when we gamed the night before in my dorm, the second night in which i gradually made it a custom to live baby a night in my dorm when I solely serve him on every Friday, after the breakout the sinful family of baby's mom aroused weeks ago, as disclosed in my previous blog. when i too busy between baby's game and my on work to make exemption of sms tweeting between ISP&client through baby's contacts under custody on his cellphone, to allow family tweets' sharing, i persuaded baby to try his own in game or rest if too hard, his mom woke up&scorned me as usual, blaming my absence even with baby aside. then we left together near 2pm, they for baby's music lesson while i returned to my dorm. the warm air of Spring lets snow melting all around. so i told baby the merit and rarity of mountains against flood and bizarre weather, as well as my hometown, mountainous Hubei Province in central China. his mom asked we left first, as she frequent practices recently, prepared herself behind alone. the dorm is quiet when i arrived, i felt the precious moment of boring in rain day, warmth of family and relatives, bliss of Asoh Yukiko, God of Sun&wind&rain, but i saw more silent moment anyone facing oneself in full loneliness, and even urgent Internet for me, as way of meaningful and creative.
God, these days so beautiful for me, for my Royal of China, esp. this cloudy and snow-melting day! bring me my improved work space, bring me my new family with my girls that pray and in full hearted love and adoration. God, sanity forever with my baby son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe. U see, God.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Tue, 08 Mar 2011 11:39:00 +0000

8/3/2011

wordless elation for new hope in Spirit.^last night i again dreamed of my sibling gathered for my broken family. i felt sleepy&got up later than 9am. last night in office i tried to settle family qq emails' interconnection, as the monopoly Chinese portal offers free backup email accounts. but the shit ISP blocked my operation for several times since last weekends, erring too frequent accounts' authentications. download turns normal, first time since the annual congress session, which offered China surveillance a cause to tighten its Internet espionage&blocking, result in lagging surfing days. but they shamelessly blocked my logout google several times, likely trying steal my cookie or keep session alive after i go offline via mirror port on all routers they control. returned to dorm i busy with sorting disk till 9pm then went to bed. yesterday likely a new college class join QRRS, the railway wagon mill, for practise. i casually watched them noisily queued to join the dorm i settled near a year transit to my new family. there is few girl among them, indicating Chinese young population really gender far unbalanced. last night i also buzzed my elder sister in central China many times, attempting to express my delayed sense about their financial pinch, got wired lately when i on way returning to dorm from ditched office, told her i will set paying back her money, amount to ￥3000, as my highest prior in this year. she tried to pacify me&i know the love. today is a bright day, for the sunshine so straight&amazing. God, Asoh Yukiko, u know my past days webless in near 4 months is really a test for my sustainability, and i enjoyed it so far, in the aim to make room for coming affairs that's more important in my agenda or daily workload. i think i can graduate from the camp now. bring me my girls and my lifestyle lavish now, improve my workspace now for the bliss in air i deserve. God, see my situation&shift me to new height facilitates my saint task here, in ur title.

6/3/2011

wonderful Sunday morning.^this dawn dreamed of my old family, including my elder sisters, younger brother's family, gathered for my broken family, trying to make my life alone easier, in my hometown. crows shrieked outside at once i woke up, reminds me sadness in baby son's heart, as he did yesterday when i forced him to return to his mom's house after a night full of pc games harbored in my QRRS dorm, amongst his insisting a second night here in my dorm. he cried again seemingly unreasonable when i broke his watching animation online in his mom's house, in an attempt to fix the poor webTV sofeware Chinese made which unable to save his watching history nor bookmarks. i scorned him, trying to bring into light what really let him so sad in such a casual case and sound day. when i accompanied him with his mom, who leaving to shop for baby's educational gear his school demands, i gabbled about the vitality of one's self-confidence, and the otherside, the unreal outer world like education, work experience heavily exerting competitive burden on any youth, misleading nowadays Chinese kids' lives and expectation on their earthly existence. his mom kept silent during my preach on way to my bus stop. in the night i listened music via my notebook all time, praying gift, a dell game notebook for baby son, and other wishlist while jogging in dorm. baby's enjoyment last night in the tiny room still warm my memory&worldview. God, Asoh Yukiko, u see how pure baby's love in his dad, who trying his best to guard his teenage education as well as spiritual awaking. God, dad, u see all my afforts secured by ur Majesty, shines in dented copper Royal history of new China Empire under title of Zhu's&lives 1109 years ahead after rest, under God's shine. God, i need my second son and third son to descend from Heaven, i need tenderness of my girls' love from noisy crowds. forge us in new horizon in first sunray of Spring dawn, in this year, in this season, on the land. God, show me ur light and enlightenment as usual&forever, God, let now the brilliant sunshine outside since my arrival to baby's bed's side testifies it for the blind minds! God, save my hometown beloved lives in considerable confort, for ur land means hospitable for the blessed, like my sibling' family in central China.

3/3/2011

op phoenx to break sieges.^yesterday dauntingly smooth when i launched to rebuild clean os after found strange behavior on my notebook. since morning planning the operation against China surveillance. in office after work time, i got all patches to os&av&common tools online, all almost finished at same time among especially lagging Internet due to the defensive attitude by China authority for the coming annual congress session. i left office near 8:30pm, gratefully. there were 2 once colleagues worked there overtime. they stayed since the day before yesterday, likely officially assigned to espionage me when the congress session just to open&lots of state forces harnessed all over the territory in fear of rally of protests or revolt gravitate the event. in dorm i continued to sort os&backup, went to bed near 12am, felt so happy through the infectious sniffing of China surveillance jamming the Internet domestic. this morning i first time kept active after breakfast, migrating saved games. my Taiwan friend these days appeared online in my contacts but didn't respond to me when i informed him my remittance, i doubted if our chat blocked asymmetrically by China surveillance or he felt hurt&loathed to befriend me anymore. baby's mom with baby son returned from her hometown journey on Tuesday&buzzed me in the night. i hope in this weekends we enjoy our pastime as usual. God, bring me dell game notebook u promised as my best gift for baby son, warenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, grant me independent living that anxiousless. Asoh Yukiko, join me sooner and bring my girl Zhou, girl Lü and my Taiwan girl. my life needs new lives now.

1/3/2011

dreamed of passed mother&hometown.^dreamed of my Nankai Univ. alumni on a train to my hometown. one of my cousin, Zhu wusong, help me travel from neighbor village to my past dad's village, Zhudajiu, &very glad to arrive my hometown. got up earlier&ate breakfast. dozed again, dreamed my past mother inquiry my dream, so i reiterated baby&his mom in my dream. then review the heartbreaking farewell scene in movie "under hawthorn trees", doubting the English translation of the protagonist's Chinese name, which only has first name Jing 静秋, never disclosed her family name. the actress, a Zhou, however, i got known from the starring list.

28/2/2011

a day sees peace&fruits.^last week meaningful for sainity of baby's living space: i at least temporarily drove away the sinister younger sister of baby's mom. she slept with baby's mom, as well as baby son, warrenzh, for quite some time recently, like a rat in dirty cave. she also used all her sinful means to seduce baby son for the clif of fell. i tolerated it for weeks, but unable to hold on on last Saturday when she let baby counting down 200 digit to play qq social game online with her. she in fact a dying prostitute&infectious, that out of debate as i spoke out in my previous blog. she in her 20's but still in a drifting life, without a job nor supporting life tools like boyfriend or social circle. she clearly know what a crap she with her life had been&continues to be. but she felt her elder sister's broken marriage can allow her remarks, like leaking egg for flies. i told baby many times how dirty the sister of his mom is, but God let me to break out&drive it away, rather than by baby, who is so green&pure, himslef to shows cold-shoulders to the bitch. the noon when the grandma, a sin herself, cooking fried beef, i refused to dine together. when baby was held by his mom trying to sleep to avoid my blames, i started to name out sins in the distorted relation among the mother&daughters in baby's mom's old family. i blamed baby's mom in fact belongs to her mother or her old family, far from a normal mother nor wife of her own. the little woman soon brought baby son to her workplace to avoid my criticism. i went to public bathroom to shower, while the grandma cleaning her daughter's house. in the shower stream, i felt upset, exhausted, but near the end of shower God summed me up to my sound decision. when i returned the house, baby brought by his mom returned from her school, likely trying to pacify my rages. i told her if she continued messing our baby's bed with insane or sick persons like her cheap kid sister who selling everything everywhere shamelessly, she would facing my sue in court. i told baby China's modern law system all borrowed from US, the land blessed by&obeys to God. i told him he is protected by civil world that disallow abnormal abuse against teenage. his mom didn't refute, so i soon carried baby on shoulders launching to leave her house. i brought my salary bank card&withdrew ￥600 from a nearby bank with baby. a woman in police suite just leaving when we queued to be proceeded. the bank clerk cordially acquainted us when we finished operation. i carried baby on feet to my dorm, for no small changes to pay bus. baby slept on my shoulders half way. he also slept in my dorm first night, after dined in the canteen which also welcomed us warmly. we played pc games lately, then i washed baby's feet with warm water, answered his questions about his past grandpa's legend, &common science. i encouraged him to buzz his mom 3 times before we went to bed near 10pm. even the bed&quilt too small, i didn't suffer cold in the night. baby son reported restless before falling into dream but i senseless upon it for i slept soon in the night. next day i brought him together to bank, trying to remit my Taiwan friend for his old help on my family domains' registry. but banks don't allow overseas transaction in weekends. so we visited my ditched office, trying find funs on the web. the dog in office working there, lately left. i setup online games via google chrome webstore&let baby gamed online awhile. soon baby's mom asked to fetch baby for his music lesson. so we soon left after the office dog left. an once female colleague who brought her son to visit Qiqihar Peace Square near River Nen, both on the other part suburb of the city, met up us on bus stop, sinisterly claimed baby son looks more like his mom. baby's mom squeezed not to allow me enter her house when we arrived, so i left. on way God lets me return to settle 2 games baby son enjoyed on my acer notebook last night. i acted accordingly&returned the house. i migrated the games as well as our saved profile onto the desktop&hasee notebook in baby's mom's house. baby left for music lesson with his mom near 1pm, after wept for compulsory exercise on electronic piano his mom demanded. i surfed there, trying to download more games from web. the grandma join the house later&washing, then left abrupt by threat from her abusively bullying second daughter, who likely accused her for ally against me on the phone. they deserved hell for the downward abnormal family bond&selfishness inside even in kin. baby's mom reconciled after returned with baby, asked me to write back their bill in KFC after baby's music lesson. she said again she will bring baby son join her grandma's birthday next 3 days, let me not to buzz her for cross provincial communication costs additional mobile fees. in the night, i thanked God for the save downturn upset&silent building of sufferings to righteous correction into baby's environment poisoned by enemy of my Royal of China, superficially the sinister sister of his mom's. this morning i woke up later, dozed again after got up. near noon i finished remittance after queued for more than half of an hour. sorted disk&web brower's data after lunch. now its brilliant outside. God, bring my girls sooner, esp. my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, into my life on new horizon. grant me new improved workspace&gift long time anticipated for baby son, a dell game notebook. God, bless me ur Holy message like sun beams in this spring abundant. God!

fight&reach out for improved life digital&online.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 24 Feb 2011 11:04:00 +0000

24/2/2011

a day for gift for baby son.^yesterday is a bright day. the night before when i worked in the ditched office online, God let me discuss new loan of 6000rmb, for a dell game notebook, with my Taiwan friend. he helped me preview changes i made to baby's site, warozhu.com, for it deadly blocked in PRC. China surveillance cut down my Internet just after i claimed, the brighter my future, the better i can pay him back. i waited for Internet resume for half an hour, left office after found the breakdown by China surveillance is thoughtful&determined. the night i buzzed my elder sister in hometown, central China, about my hatred kid brother. she told me she with her husband loaned our kid brother 30000rmb for his small business (officail site: http://www.pinschina.com ). i dozed again after breakfast, as recent frequent cases. when my energy resumed, God shows me to act at once for the coming gift. so i went to baby's mom's house, trying settle the deal to buy baby a game notebook from dell.com. the house jammed with baby's mom's family, the grandma, her second daughter, baby's mom herself. i elaborated with Taiwan friend, who felt the loan too large&refused me. when he told me his decision, baby asked me to game with him. dinner soon started. i told baby's mom my assignment of the missing income, amount to 1500rmb, found on the rebuilt bank card after she lost it. she less irritated&checked my expense log on http://www.buxfer.com , accepted my writen back bad debt on her stealthy withdrawal&spent. returned to my dorm, i watched agian the movie, "under the hawthorn tree", wept again for the pure love. God, the burning love shines the dark years Chinese struck for a better future inspired by Marxism, a masked fake dogma just fitted in to break the dying, vicious&poisonous Confucius disabled Chinese for thousands years. i was encouraged to cherish new republic of China as a breakout and new transit paving my new Empire of China will last 1109 years, under God's shine&shrine. in this dawn, i dreamed gathered with my Nankai Univ. alumni, shooting photos when we sport to upstairs the skyscraper, TV tower. God, Asoh Yukiko, i know baby's dell game notebook is now out of doubts, still i look forward to see it sooner. God, Asoh, this week still is a bright week, and right time for the new bliss. cheers baby son up with the timely present. God, my dearest, u hear. love me, love my bird sooner. join in our family&blood bond.

22/2/2011

second snow in lunar new year 2011.^last night i again surfed via the ditched office. i talked with my Taiwan friend who loaned me to buy domains that i decided to admit the loss baby's mom withdrew from my account stealthily, amount to ￥1500. the change occurred after i watched a movie "under the hawthorn tree" baby's mom lent me. its a touching love story happened in China decades ago. i wept a lot for the pure love. God shows me the most valuable thing on the earth is timely love. i buzzed baby&his mom several times after the watching, attempting to express my love to the world. his mom still in anger but less exploding. its a sunny day, exeptional bright. after dinner's jog, i can't resist appealing of Internet, so i dropped in my old office. i tried to fix the homepage of baby son, warrenzh's site, http://warozhu.com . even proxy tool can't penetrate China surveillance, so i had to ask help from overseas friend to preview changed result. this dawn i was woke up by busy people cleaning snow in the dorms. yesterday likely the first day large scope snow melting. Spring, with its warmth&sunniness, stepping to us. God, Asoh Yukiko, i mostly seeing my preferred season, as well as life style lavish as i like, fetching me into my harbor of mental&physical. God, Asoh, these webless months let me know how important my own slot of supply is. grant me a new improved workspace, with thunder speed Internet. God, u see how i value the works of web as future reality, as baby of mental. bring me onto the magic landscape of vast&vest. save baby's mom from ruin in her heart, redeem her sin by her baptism. forever ur untouchable glory, God, Asoh Yukiko, our baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, forever his joys&anxiousless. Asoh Yukiko, save me from loneliness by ur companion now.

21/2/2011

finally got my acer notebook.^past week especially busy. i surfed most work nights in the week in the ditched office after work time over&its staff left. i settled most urgent tasks i enlisted, like claimed new publishing account for baby son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, prepared him his workspace online. i also tried to update family 4 domains' homepage, adding google friend connect web elements onto its forums, like http://forum.be21zh.org ,fine tuned family google sites&forums with new sidebar which includes all resized logos i designed. previously i only place the original size of my logos online, just let my web pages to resize it, which costs more time to download. now most of them have orginal&iconized size. till Tuesday i saw light of free time, and i buzzed first time baby son in the week. on Friday, i got salary spreadsheet, visit baby at once for the improved salary, amounts to ￥1821. i talked online to my Taiwan friend who loaned me to register 2 domains, talking about returned him ￥500 first. in Saturday i treated baby&his mom in a Koreal cuisine restaurant with toast mutton, as i hungry for it when i suffered hunger alone penniless in the past lunar Spring Festival when most Chinese enjoy the greatest holiday. baby ate happily, more than his usual bites. on way returning to his mom's house, his mom left us to withdraw from my salary bank card. i played awhile pc game with baby then went to shower. when i returned, his mom told me she lost my bank card&need my own go to bank to reclaim a new one. its near over time, but we managed to make a new account for my salary from QRRS, my once and long time employer. the worker in the bank help us to print transactions since last month. i asked to keep the print sheet for i need the new account id on the paper to inform the accountant in QRRS the change. soon in dorm after i check the sheet, i found missing income from QRRS, who totally added bonus near ￥6000 around lunar Spring festival, while baby's mom totally withdrawn ￥6600 in the period, when my debt her less than ￥3000 before the festival. God, isn't it ur arrangement to let me see ur seasonal gift i prayed for is richly granted? isn't it ur righteous help to let the sinful little woman quit from her crime of cheat&stealth? God, isn't it as u told me i was the most informed&pivot of world most important affairs? in the night i roamed in dorm later than 11am, with enlightment of hidden foul by the sinister&joice of new gifts from Heaven. i informed baby's mom about the fact near 8pm. the night i slept sound, dozed again after next day's breakfast. when i woke up after 12am, i got Holy message that i can from now on keep my acer notebook i laid in baby's mom's house for baby's games but mostly occupied by his mom so long, now that the hope of buying baby a new game notebook appears more promising. when i buzzed in baby's mom claimed she is leaving the city to join her grandma's birthday a trip of 3 hours train, and no one stay her house to let me fetch my acer notebook. in less than a quarter, i decided to visit her house by taxi. when i arrived, the woman cursed me for my visit as usual. baby&the grandma didn't leave all the day, herself later than 3pm buzzed in, said she missed the train&didn't travel. so she likely had a longer time behavior of lying me. i busy with migrating data there, then went to computer market to buy a 16gb udisk for myself, a mouse to replace the broken for baby's desktop. its so nice a day, who is sunny most the day. in the night in dorm, i felt hard to calm down for my acer notebook. in the dawn, i dreamed a lot. a once colleague, Mahongsheng, appeared in my dream. he promoted to a higher rank&boast his management expertise in dream. then i dreamed of the ruling tribe of latest dynasty in Chinese history, Manchu (满族), i worked among them to inspect a leaking dam erode by many underground streams. God, its a pale morning, but my old hope of improved family life is even stronger. save me from defacement by sins i walked by or through, bring me my new family with my girls on new horizen! God, bring baby son a new dell game notebook, so as let us happier in the ill-cogged interest in his mom's.

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narrow door hole towards brighter future in the stealth night.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 10 Feb 2011 11:55:00 +0000

10/2/2011

a restless night preparing baby son workspace online.^now its a sunny morning. i got up near 6am after woke up in the rest of elation in last night's operation. my task list queues longer since the office relocation. in the past greatest lunar Spring Festival, i broke my neck to look out Internet arriving my work place in QRRS Dorm, a niche exiling from the sinful office where paid criminals baked me with threats daily and profaned me for a long time, but in vain till yesterday, the 1st work week in lunar new year 2011. i buzzed the dorm's director, but reply was ambiguous, like all the contacts i made with the authority. i knew China surveillance making buffeting decision, and still in doubts upon its doomed failure. God, &my glorious ancestor since Ming Dynasty, already grants me my improved workspace. baby still in tour with his mom visiting her relatives in neighbor province, i sometimes ate poor food, like canned instant noodle, in the happiest time in Chinese memory in a year. on the day time seemed still, failed my many tries to kill it, like pc game, sorting disk, roaming, etc. its however, a bright sunny day. near the end of work time in QRRS, the mill of railway wagons, i decided to borrow my old&ditched office Internet for some hours. on routine jog, i figured out tasks urgent to accomplish in the operation before the close time of the office building. God helps me smoothly execute, in the near 3 hours in puffing rush. i claimed new namespace, wozon (http://www.flickr.com/people/wozon) and wozonow (http://wozonow.blog.163.com), for baby son's less important content account against China surveillance when he still greenhorn in the cyberspace. i also narrowly posted recent photos to picasaweb. even intended to post 2 written blogs in dark time of webless for more than 2 months, but time's limit curbed it. in dorm before went to bed near 10pm, i sorted bookmarks to catalog the loot in the light of holy. this dawn i continued bookmarking till see the brilliance outside. God, bring me my new life with my girls, spare me in my new&improved work space!

6/2/2011

a cloudy day.^yesterday i buzzed too much hometown that got some hurts among my relatives there, as well as my brain by the cellphone. i reviewed my kid brother's fading marriage, his sinful intention to challenge my soveraign by stealth&covert, and not surprisingly the enemy of my new Empire of China that lives 1109 years ahead conspiring to tear my siblings apart, via seduction and cowardice both, on the weaker or pendinger among my old family members. my kid brother lived hard now, with hungry mouthes for feed, but he long time had a tendency for violence&rapacity. he was mainly educated by my dark mother, who left the world last year, and these years brewing failure&hatred upon my unbeatable authentic under shine of my passed dad, God, alone. my kid brother felt he can make a living by robbing me. he just bland upon the sainity of the Royal of China, the forever untouchable glory of the Son, for he is blunt unholy now. i tried to elaborate my anxious with my 2 elder sisters, whom the brother just visiting for traditionaly Chinese custom, but i narrowly failed myself, for the sin evaded my description the moment. on bed after washed my feet, it turns clear, and i prayed our dad, God, to grant me freedom to act capable anytime anyway. praying God to see through&lead over the direct conflict between my kid brother&me against enemy of my Empire sieged us, the sore mud&hot water their virus hidden sown. praying God brings space&freedom into my kid brother's heart&business, deceases burning imprudicity&arrogancy stemmed from failure or hurt inside, let him support his family independently and respectably graciously. God, my Royal of China, as well as the holy land in ur title, forever untouchablely saint&beautiful&unmistakably legitimate. bring my girls so sweat&cordial to me in our prime time for the coming Empire of China! God, shift me into my improved workspace as u promised, lightn the world by my gospel here from ur Spirit.

2/2/2011

new lunar year of 2011, starter of new progress from old oath&commitment.^this Spring festival is the most enduring holiday i felt so lonely. baby's mom kept uncoorperative to bargain me for her interest in our ended marriage. baby first time visited my new dorm after last Spring festival visit when my dorm assigned on the 2nd floor in the same building. with 2 small cabins, a computer desktop, my new office attracked baby's likeness. we gamed on notebook, and one Japanese game extraordinarily immersed him. i carried him haunted twice a seasonal open-air market for crackers, once after lunched nearby economically. he greatly enjoyed those crackers when we fired them together on the ground. he also received quite some praises from working staff in the QRRS Dorms on his smartness&charisma. we bought a cake on way returning to his mom's house in sunset. its a bathing piglet theme&we accompanied the full process it molded&painted by a beautiful girl in the cakeshop. we enjoyed it in the night, while his mom especially in the present summoned to shot photos. the night baby insisted we slept on one bed in his mom's bedroom. baby laid his leg on my belly crossing 2 quilts, one in which i slept alone. i slept lately but sound. his mom arranged to spend the eve of Spring Festival in her mother's house, so we departed in morning, &reunited around 2 am to dine together rich the grandma prepared. in the case i talked a lot with her step-father, whose intimacy with the family quite gappy after his failures in his career not only bankrupted his state-owned company when he in charge, but also his private investments, in my view. baby quite glad&listend my talks aside patiently. we gamed&created new records in pc games after dinner, after found the young uncle self-defeated&refused to help us break each hard mission in 2 games as we previously expected from his game expertise. i walked to dorm in dusk, stayed till time to watch CCTV Spring Festival party live. a male dropped in when i alone watching in the neighbor dorm's TV room, challenged several times but none succeeded&quit finally. i received a call from hometown, in which i encouraged my kid brother's wife to endure her hard time when their marriage besieged by the husband's new female partner in his business in Guangdong, southern China. i left the TV till the end of the party, with stronger faith in my bond with my girl Zhou, as well as my Royal&family duty over China in next millennium. its a sunny festival, but my hope for my new life, my new family with my girls, even brighter. God, help me step forward firm&in ur bliss. this is my prayer on first day in lunar new year 2011.